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Merry Christmas non-existent Tumblr audience! I would hypothetically love you!!! ❤️

(I think it’s fun to talk to myself lol)

OH ALSO!!! I GOT THE FUCKING ARCANE ART BOOK FOR CHRISTMAS AND I LITERALLY COULD NOT BE NORMAL ABOUT IT OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG-

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Y’all have no idea how fucking ECSTATIC I am rn

I drew a good page of drawings today. Like they’re actually pretty decent and it was so relaxing-

I watched some Adam McIntyre and listened to music and omg….

I was actually pretty worried for a minute that I had lost my passion. But NAH. Just had a bit of dry spell for creativity!

I ALSO DREW VIKTOR FROM ARCANE AND IT LOOKS GOOD OMG.

Anyway! That’s all! Go draw something!❤️

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Omg two posts in one day! How exciting!

Anyway. Im miserable.

LOL. It’s true but ya- idk. I just feel kinda sad with a mix of light detestation. I have no idea why but my mom’s been so rude to me the whole day. I decided to blatantly ask, “Hey, are you mad at me???” And she said no- one thing I said slightly annoyed her (Which that thing I don’t really care to mend because I was telling her not to out someone as trans to their father😭) but apparently she wasn’t mad at me-

Ok- then why tf you being so froggy???? Also she just can’t handle the simplest of tasks without getting frustrated or overwhelmed. Which normally I’d be like, ya ok, that’s fine. We can learn how to deal with stressful situations…

…Um except we can’t because she’s 50 fucking years of age and it’s not her 18 year old daughter’s job to teach her BASIC FUCKING LIFE SKILLS.

Alright…that’s it…time to go be productive or some shit. (Thx for reading❤️)

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Hello tumblr people, which is to say, hey vix lol

Anyway! I have something to complain about/ dissect.

I am currently in a gap year with my last schooling having been high school right? And the only person I’ve kept in contact with is my best friend (Once again, hey 👋) and everyone else I’ve unfollowed or blocked. My question is this- why is it so scary to see a familiar face out in the wilderness that is social media? If someone I remember from high school finds my TikTok I block them faster than the fucking speed of light. I also hate when TikTok suggests that I follow people from high school- like no TikTok. I do not want to follow person number 5 that definitely didn’t like me. Like I said, I also unfollowed everyone I knew from high school on instagram except for a few people who I was a bit closer with. Also I would pull a 180 if I saw someone from school out in public. THEY WERE MEAN AND SCARY OK???

….i have social (media) anxiety :,)

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Help I’m so fucking brain rotted. It’s actually embarrassing so I’m not gonna explain the extent of it. But ya…how do I fill the hole in my cranium that would be left by scooping out the brain rot??? Ramen or something?

(I’m currently obsessed with Arcane and it’s slowly ruining my life :,)

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Hello people of tumblr. I come to you once again to talk about the people of TikTok. But this time it’s a good thing lol.

I came across this dude right- and he had the most gorgeous makeup on. The video was him doing different hair styles throughout the decades. Now that the context has been given:

THIS BITCH WAS SERVING FACE AT EVERY CORNER!??? I GENUINELY DON’T UNDERSTAND HOW SOMEONE CAN BE SO PRETTY THAT THEY SERVE IN EVERY ANGLE, EVERY FRAME-

(Also I’m not photogenic at all so this is borderline impossible for me lol)

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TRIGGER WARNING!: Beauty standards/body image/ED’s are discussed in this post!

(Also, I do not personally struggle with an ED or any body related issues. I just find it hard sometimes to remain confident when this slop is being fed to me on TikTok-)

I love TikTok- I do! It’s a fun and admittedly addictive app. However- something I really fucking despise is the way beauty standards are pushed on there. Ik that beauty standards are everywhere and all that, but honestly TikTok seems particularly fucked.

Here’s why-

I have come across multiple ED accounts without ever once interacting with anything remotely related to that. These account often promote unhealthy eating habits like heavy restrictive tendencies. The comments on these posts are so worrying as well because they aren’t seeing any issues with the unhealthy behaviors. It’s very sad to see.

What makes me mad is the fact that you will see these dumb ass “trends” that present what I can only describe as a fake problem/reason to be insecure. For instance, there was something called “Septum arms” going around. It was essentially saying that if you rest your arms by your sides and the top portion juts out too much then you’re unattractive or somehow overweight or otherwise undesirable. Which, by the way, IS NATURAL? THATS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU PUT YOUR ARMS DOWN! ITS NOT A PROBLEM!? Another, similar, trend is the idea of trying to lose facial fat. I’ve seen people talk about this when it is very clearly not an issue. It’s one thing to be morbidly obese and to require help to maintain your health- it is another to identify any fat at all and deem it to be an issue. Almost reminds me of how sometimes the body will identify false allergens and subsequently attack itself-

There’s that and there’s also the problem of accounts cropping up that claim that if you do this diet or this workout routine then you’ll be pencil thin and pretty. And then the person (typically female but this can happen with men as well) will show their stomach and you can literally see their ribs protruding further out than their stomach and in a very unnatural way. Now this could be either them sucking in or a disorder but either way it’s wrong. By doing that these people are making it out like you should be that fucking skinny. Why is the beauty standard to be sick? Why is it that I’m not beautiful unless my cheekbones have ravines underneath them and my stomach should be the same width as the spine of a small book? It makes me feel like I’m going insane- this is not healthy and if you see these videos please try to remind yourself that these people are not your inspiration. You are beautiful and perfect EXACTLY the way you are. Humans as people are not perfect, but our bodies are. Just try and do your best to be healthy and treat your body nicely.

But ya- if you have thoughts or just wanna share something I’d be interested to see anyone’s comments on this issue. I hope whoever may be reading this is doing well❤️

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Love when I pull up to the impromptu function that consists of my grandparents, my uncle, my adult cousin, and that cousins wife and I am IMMEDIATELY ejected from the conversation! LIKE GUYS IM NOT THAT YOUNG😭? I’m 18! IM 18! PLEASE MILLENNIALS AND OLDER! TALK TO ME GOD DAMNIT AND NOT ABOUT SCHOOL FOR FUCKS SAKE AHHHHH

(Sorry for the crash out lol)

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I am fully convinced I have ADHD but it’s really fucking hard to get diagnosed like omfg. WHY MUST I STRUGGLE? WOE IS ME.

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Have any of y’all seen Notre-Dame???? My sister showed me a video of the restoration work that was done after it caught fire and oh my god- it’s genuinely beautiful. The paintings that had previously been covered in not only soot but also centuries worth of dust have been restored and they are so fucking vibrant- The amount of meticulous work this took is actually astonishing and so impressive.

And the bells- the bells and the organ filling the entire building with haunting music is just so amazing. The people of France must be so happy with the progress! I know some of them didn’t think the cost would be worth it but hopefully they’ve changed their minds!!!

But ya if you don’t know what I’m talking about, plz plz plz look it up. It is worth it!

…I miss France :,) 🇫🇷

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Ever have that problem where you genuinely can’t tell if your mom is manipulating you to gain sympathy and lower your self esteem so that you will forever be emotionally reliant on her and any time you don’t obey you are immediately told that you are selfish and disrespectful leading to your inevitable mental collapse?

No…?🥲

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(ARCANE SPOILERS AHEAD!)

Y’all (as if people read these lol) know arcane right? WELL. I CERTAINLY DO. I fucking love it so much omg- I love the art style and character designs and story, and AUDHDJ. ITS JUST TOO GOOD! BUT- my favorite character genuinely tears my heart straight from my chest. My favorite is Viktor-…PAIN OMG. I love his audacity and his intellect and just everything but his illness makes me genuinely sad. I genuinely just want him to feel better and miraculously heal. (Not that it matters after season two-) But yes! Love that guy. (major Jayvik shipper btw lol)

His story is also one of the most tragic in my opinion considering the fact that his original motivation was the fear of dying before being able to secure a legacy. So essentially being forgotten or unremarkable. And then he creates his whole glorious evolution cult and fucking dies- LIKE WHAT???? AND YOU TOOK JAYCE OUT WITH YOU!????? So now we are left with a huge cast of dead characters and a memorial scene. In this scene you clearly see Ximena (Jayce’s mom) put a paper in the basket. You can assume that she wrote Jayce’s name in it. BUT VIKTOR? He had nobody except Jayce- so in the end he was truly forgotten. You can assume that nobody put his name in the basket…I actually fucking hate this show somebody kill me :,0

(Quick side-note! Viktor as a kid was the cutest little munchkin ever omg I can’t- OK RANT OVER!)

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Chat…we may be cooked.

I ACTUALLY CANT WITH COLLEGE AND IM NOT EVEN THERE YET. The application process is so hard and confusing and I just really don’t fucking understand what I’m supposed to be doing and in what order to do it. My high school also sucked ASS at explaining it 😭

(Someone fucking euthanize me I stg-💀)

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I just finished watching Bojack Horseman and I’ve also watched a few YouTube deep dives on it and let me tell you- I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT! It is actually a really well written show and after watching some deep dives I’ve been able to learn more about morality and the effect your actions have on other, than I have from literally all the adults in my life. (Which I probably more so a reflection of the adults in my life and less so of the show and the content it’s sparked but hey, it’s still pretty cool!) Anyway! I 100% suggest watching it. It’s a bit goofy at first but once you start to get into the lore, it starts to have a major impact! But ya that’s all!

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I went to Paris back in June and while I was there I noticed that the rest of the group (mainly the girls) had associated Paris with Miraculous Ladybug. I have never watched the show. I’m sure it’s lovely (minus the art style). HOWEVER. I was a bit disappointed because while everyone was like omg! Miraculous! All I could think was omg! Heartstopper!!!!!! Anyway that’s all lol

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I was just on TikTok just now and I came across this ridiculously cool art account right? And I’m looking at the page and see “🎃Level 15🎃”. UM EXCUSE ME WHAT???? This person,…IS ONLY 15???? I literally said out loud “FIFTEEN??? Ok- I should literally just give up-“. Being fifteen and that skilled on a digital platform is crazy…chat…should I throw in the drawing towel…???:,)

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I’m currently 18 years of wisdomous age and if not for societal pressure and judgement my ass would definitely be trick or treating this year. However, NOBODY can bully me into not dressing up. ❤️