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squishy bunny į±į± ā¹āā”ā
bunny series (01/??)
#love and deepspace#love and deepspace xavier#xavier#a baby#with mochi cheeks#giggling like an idiot when making these#hnghhh#mc be doing what us girlies are dying to do#smoosh those cute cheeks together and just play with his baby face#ahhhhhh#cry#maybe a bite or two here and there#bet they would taste like milk or vanilla#05 days to bunnyās bday#bunny series
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Iām with you, my love The lights shining through on you Yes, Iām with you, my love Itās the morning and just we two
#spike btvs#spuffy#spuffyedit#btvs#btvsedit#buffy the vampire slayer#it's terribly simple#you know you want to dance#injuries cw#bites and chews and gnaws on anyone who says buffy didnt love spike. BITES and CHEWS and GNAWS on them.#like is that not the whole point? of him? of his entire character arc? of his burning to ash as he breaks the sunnydale high school#(AKA buffy's personal cage within the slayer's cage that was sunnydale itself AKA the place where he and buffy first ever fought#and he nearly killed her for the very first time but was foiled by the immense love someone felt for her) as he breaks that place to rubble#in a way also very reminiscent of the first time they slept together and Literally Fucked A Building Down. anyway as he's doing ALL OF THAT#like sure she doesnt HAVE to love him she doesnt owe him anything and even if she did love isnt about obligation. but when buffy says#that she loves him in that scene. theres nothing to indicate that she doesnt feel it. that she isnt telling the truth.#idk man. people take a man who is dying telling someone not to love him as the gospel truth when i feel like its more ... like maybe he's#making a misguided effort to be kind? he's telling her ''dont get too hung up on the vampire thats about to catch on fire#and get your pretty ass out of here while you still can please.''#whatever. WHATEVER. in the perfect btvs that lives in my head most of ats isnt canon but esp the part where spike comes back and doesnt#immediately 1. ASK IF DAWN WAS OKAY 2. upon being told by angel that he cant be put in touch with buffy because [mumbles] misogyny?#go ahead and engage in a flirt campaign at harmony until she breaks down and calls buffy for him. those would be like the FIRST TWO THINGS#that spike did after he came back to unlife. first two things frfr#i'm gonna end the tag rant there. hmm
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I LOVE Teen Stan and Ford, itās sad they donāt get drawn enough, so thank you so much!
Does Ford ever help Stan when he gets overstimulated? Or maybe when he has a rage response and suddenly starts crying and calls himself stupid?
Here's the other post with Ford
#I am once again asking someone to write me a fic about these two posts. pretty please š„ŗ#this took me way too long to think off#the dialogue was escaping me#if you can guess what the book he's reading is... you won't win anything I just think it would be cool#maybe Stan got upset about his grades. or a boxing match ir something#sometimes I too bite myself. not deep enough to draw blood but enough to bruise. it's gotten better over the tears but still#now and then...#anywayszzzzzzzz#ask#anonymous#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#stanford pines#ford pines#teen stan#teen ford#art#fanart#traditional art#watercolor#the last few drawings came out so nicely#both of them are emotionally constipated in their teen years (and onwards honestly) so instead of addressing the crying they ignore it#they pretend it never happened#btw here you can see my (successful) attempt at putting Ford out of the picture so I don't have to draw more#comic#long post#look at their socks#I forgot the 's' in 'books' I'm so stupid god
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the coolest kids in forgotten valley!!ā
(ā¦it seems there may have been a stretch of time where rock and lumina were the only kids in forgotten valleyā¦š„²)
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#in the remake hugh and the playerās kid are the same number of years apart#so i can see them having very similar conversations n friendship#surely these two kids will grow up well adjusted and they will have no lasting effects from this kind of isolation. they will be fine#i have been thinking a lot about what their childhoods were like. i want to protect both of them#everyone who has anything to say about them as kids says that both of them were not well behaved children at all#tei says rock was rambunctious and energetic and hard to handle. sebastian says lumina was less than amenable#rock says he was bored to death when he first came here and lumina asks you not to tell romana that sheās lonely#lumina also hated wearing dresses so. she is very mad and ready to bite people maybe#sos awl#bokumono#my art#rock tumbling (sos)#harvest moon#story of seasons#story of seasons a wonderful life#bokujou monogatari#i like to imagine a au where pony and cecilia come to visit their familyās respective farms#so these two can have more friends ;w;#i am always thinking about how they were both severed from their families and taken in by someone else at a young age to live in nowhere#and they are both not exactly enthused about following the path laid out for them#headcanon ā ļø i wonder if rockās moving out on his own happened when he was a teenager. he was extremely confident everything would work out#anyway he got fired from every job ever and after many years came crawling back. and he came crawling back blond#at the time of chapter 1 lumina is baffled by the state of the guy she grew up with. why is he using dated slang and wearing disco costume#she is also kind of mad at him for having been gone for so long#hc ārock probably had more freedom as a kid than lumina did which probably annoyed her#once again takakura retrieves a small rock from the goddess pond and heās covered in poison ivy bee stings etc. no remorse#lumina from her window on the hill feels somehow jealous of these misadventures#lumina mentions in her heart event that she doesnāt often visit the beach because her skin burns easily#meanwhile rock was probably playing outside always. if his kid is any indication#idk i like thinking about the history of this extremely small village
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tumblr user magowolor posts magolor art (CHEERING AND CLAPPIN) yup yuup mhm thats right
#once he claws his way ouy of hell after definantly learning his lesson(not true) He and i will have a summer wedding#lol idk. maybe he did learn smthn but not necessarily the lesson he should have#like to him it was probably just ok MAYBE he shouldnt try n bite off more than he can chew n get carried away#and then he finds some other way to garner attention and make his impression on othars#esp w kirby hes reeely trying to overcompensate for his past misdeeds like hehe yah im suuuuuperr nice now trust ^-^#but maybe just MAYBE theres a slight shift were hes like ok well what if i didnt want to be good just to be convincing#only Bc his past motivation and actions were all built off one lie after another. he cant even tell if these thoughts are genuine#sooo maybe his curiosity gets th better of him and he figures the only way to find out and also maybe possibly b able to form actual bonds#this time around is by commiting to actually intentionally being good and stuff#like hes not suddenly gonna try an be a complete goody two shoes and be perfect bc hes still a mischevious guy yknow but uhm. yeah. yknow#^^^oh BROTHER we got a real yapper over here -_-#kirby#magolor#krtdldx#myart
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@raubtierc wanted a lil tension ( and got fluff? )!
rigid arms that originally crushed her against min-jun's chest have long since relaxed, but chiyo has yet to pull away. she doesn't want to. she never wants to after a vision like that, hazy and violent and terrifying ( oh, what is she capable of? what could she be capable of? ). maybe it's childish to hide in his warmth. maybe it's selfish. he doesn't deserve to be mixed up in the trouble following her, doesn't deserve her weight upon his shoulders when he has his own. and yet...
brown eyes slowly blink open, and still chiyo remains right where she is. " thank you. " how softly her voice breaks the silence between them. she shifts in min-jun's embrace, listening to the steady beating of his heart as her arms encircle his waist and squeeze. softer still she tells him, " i hate getting like that in front of you. "
#raubtierc#i feel like there's tension potential here but it's also just :' ) something soft for these two :' ))#my mind went to the plot we're discussing for them so i just ran with that this time bc man i love hurt and comfort hehe#also chiyo's ' he doesn't deserve my trouble :( ' but she'd do the same for min-jun in a heartbeat!! maybe has atp!!#i wanna bite her sometimes :/#i had to be there to be loved | interactions#black magic woman | golden peaks
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well boss said reese has no indication of any uti or crystals only a tiny amount of red blood cells which can be caused by the manual expression. coworker insisted there was no point in taking rads to see if he's blocked from the string so going to try some laxaire and hope š¬š¤š»also then my boss gave me a ride to the bus stop so i didn't have to carry the huge crate which was uncharacteristically nice of him š¤Ø
#already plotting in my head how trying to get him into emergency surgery on the weekend would go and its not great#on account of the fact that i simply do not have enough thousands of dollars for the er proper. or a way to get there but i could probably#figure that one out but not so much the money#he had a god awful time he had to see a d*g and that was horrible he hissed at it (chihuahua less than 1/3 his size)#he was SO scared i feel horrible and i almost cried a lot of times just from looking at him š#anyway i'm glad we did a ua though that does help some of my anxiety but now the problem is the string#it probably had a big knot in it so i'm not totally convinced it would even be able to exit the stomach but if it did thats terrifying#i don't think it was super long just the big knot#coworker also insisted strings cant cause blockages only intussuseptions which does not sound right to me particularly if it was a bulky#but not long string such as this one. but what do i m#*know#i'm still really stressed and we have to move tomorrow ugh#i forgot to grab the laxaire at the clinic so i'm going to have to go out and get some but i have to go drop off a goodwill bag anyway#ugh also while my coworker was trying to get pee from him she said āif you bite me i'll smack you in the face i dont care if your moms hereā#and i didnt say anything but if she had done that i think i would have lost my mind. what the fuck is wrong with you#she is like that with all of the animals and it drives me insane or like she'll brag about how her rottweiler lifted his lip at her so she#beat him and stepped on his head (???) like some would accurately identify this as animal abuse and yet youre a vet tech???#like these animals are all having a horrible day why the fuck don't you have two seconds of patience instead of immediately going to#āoh you threatened to bite me let me force you into tonic immobilityā. again what the fuck is wrong with you#same woman who justified hitting kids in the face btw. of course#my boss is actually much nicer to them for the most part than she is he's just a total douche to people (me) its weird#like i just think you should not have made your lifes work being a vet tech if you think its cool and fine to smack dogs and cats around for#not immediately doing what you want or for expressing discomfort or fear#and they are almost all fear reactive i think there have been maybe two cats that i would describe as aggressive and not just fear reactive#and i'm probably wrong honestly! theres always a reason#anyway. please everyone pray or vibe or whatever that my cat doesnt get his guts tied in knots because i dont have $10000 and his insurance#doesn't kick in for two weeks i think (i got it last night in a panic having intended to do it months ago but thought he had to have a vet#relationship in order to get it)#i'm still really scared lol. god bless#me
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I'm dying, I had another fandom breakup several years ago where I also poured my frustration into a deeply pornographic fic.
The main differences are:
different fandom, obviously
this was actually one of the last fics I ever wrote for that fandom, it really was a kiss off. the only fics I posted after it were just me finishing up some prior obligations.
I actually wrote it and posted it, as opposed to the pornographic vent fic I was writing for wwdits that I set aside for now.
I APPARENTLY POSTED IT TO TUMBLR FIRST?
I know this because someone just reblogged it (and said some really kind things, thank you ;;) and I had completely forgotten that I'd been so deep in my fit of pique that I was like "well this is vent fic that I wrote to cope with my frustration towards canon, not REAL fic, so I should post it to tumblr, not AO3."
At first I was just laughing over the sheer timing of it all, someone digging up this ancient post with like 25 notes from many years ago the exact same week that I'm having angst over the fandom I replaced the old one with, but then I actually clicked on the post in my notifications and was like.
wait.
did I.... post a sixteen-thousand-word fic to tumblr?
I DID. AND PEOPLE READ IT??? like that's the fucking wild part, that people were willing to sit down and read a fucking sixteen-thousand-word fic under a read more on tumblr. people were so strong back then.
(thankfully, I was convinced to crosspost it to AO3 a few days later, which actually made the fucker readable.)
the sheer ridiculousness of my tantrum (and my weird internal classification for what fic "deserved" to be on AO3 vs. what should just quietly be forgotten on tumblr) has me laughing. which I think was actually kind of needed, haha. we all need to laugh at our own fandom angst sometimes.
if I do end up finishing and posting the wwdits ventfic, I promise I'll actually post it on AO3. lmao
#writing liveblogging#kind of wild how my nandermo sex pollen/potion fic morphed over the course of the season in my head#from a silly 'oh we thought we were dosed with sex pollen so we've been fucking for two weeks but it actually wore off after an hour' fic#to a fic about what you do when you realize the truth about your relationship#and what it means to hold a secret that will destroy everything you love#(i.e. mirroring Guillermo finding out they've been fucking because they're into each other not because they were drugged#and the vampire bite secret)#and finally becoming a fic about struggling to forgive someone who wronged you even if they didn't mean to#and how knowing what you don't want isn't the same thing as knowing what you do want#and ultimately a lot of makeup sex#and a relationship that is severely damaged but perhaps salvageable#I HAVE GROWN... AND SO HAS THIS FIC... lmao#but I realized I was just stressing myself out more so instead I drank some pumpkin beer and wrote meta for another show#and downloaded phoenix wright#and here we are#maybe I'll finish it once I've chilled out some and maybe I won't#that's life I guess
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Gonna slap the people who named bugs
#found a bug in my room- thought it was a sandbaby- turns out I donāt remember what a sandbaby looks like#so I do a bit of research and the first thing that I see that looks right is wind scorpion#now I need everyone here to understand that I love bugs deeply they are neat they are cool they are friends#but I have a deep fear of scorpions#zbznnsnsbsns they are extremely cool just not when theyāre by me#so my first thought is shit I have to abandon my room and everything in it now it all belongs to the scorpion#but itās late and Iām already in bed and Iām doing more research cause d u h#and turns out itās not really a scorpion at all???? I mean like. same family tree#but itās not your traditional scorpion- it doesnāt have a stinger and itās non venomous#worst thing about it is itās a little speedy a bit aggressive and can/will bite#but the REAL worst thing is it likes to cozy up in blankets and clothes#and itās in my bedroom where I so happen to keep my blankets and clothes dhdhdhhdjdd#anywho Iāll try to catch it and put it outside tomorrow after work if I can find it again#whole point of this is for just a second I was like oh fuck a scorpion and was not okay about that djdjdjdjd#tw bugs#itās also called a sun spider#cause why have one name when you can have two???#dhdhdjjsjsjs anyways uh everything is fine and Iām going to bed#I will see to cleaning my room and maybe capturing our little friend tomorrow
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You know what? Werewolf au Karlnapity where karlnap and Quackity broke up and Karl and Sapnap are werewolfs
Karl has cannon level memory problems and it really REALLY fucks him over because he cant really remember dating or loving Quackity and he hates him but as a wolf he can't remember that Quackity is not his mate anymore
So they accidentally cross paths and Karl's instincts get so fucking upset that Quackity no longer has any mark of them, he has no hickeys and no bites, he's not wearing their clothes, FUCK he doesn't even smell like them anymore, and it makes Karl actively seek him out even when in human form (even if he doesn't notice it)
In wolf form he's terrible, he circles around Quackity's house, barks at his windows, claws at his door, anything to get his attention
(It does not help that Quackity does come out when he's like this. He comes out with a smile and some scraps of meat for him, he plays for hours with what he thinks is a stray dog)
Sapnap notices that Karl is acting like this and he tries to steer him away from Quackity (as much as he hates it) both in human and wolf forms but Karl is not having it
#in this au they're probably broken up for around a year maybe two#its driving Karl completely insane#he'll stalk Quackity around and be absolutely pissed about it vut he cant stop because 'he's our and i hate him but he's our he's our#HE'S MINE and its all wrong and he's alone he should never be alone and i never want to see him again and i want him here always'#sapnap is suprised he has not tried to bite Quackity yet#karlnapity#i do love this concept#if karl being torn because he hates Quackity but on some deep subconscious level he cannot stand to be away from him#hes so in love it tears him apart#the dog barks#quackity#karl jacobs#sapnap#dream smp#dsmpshipping
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Youād think that with all this bike riding and lifting children off the floor that Iād be even more hungry, but no; I have the appetite of a little tiny bird???? The fuck
I donāt like it
#Maybe the bike riding is jostling my stomach too muchā¦ if my stomach is jostled I donāt want to eat#Or it could be the ADHD meds#idfk at this point#like yeah technically Iām hungry and know I need food but I donāt feel like eating. Iād just rather not. Itās weird#because I used to be the opposite: I wasnāt really hungry but Iād just keep eating until I got sick#eating mention#appetite mention#Maybe Iāve just been eating too much all my life.#Because the only two times Iāve had serious nausea or gas pains was after I ate the amount of food I used to eat#And itās not like Iāve lost any energy; if anything Iāve gained some energy#(not right now because I stayed up until 12:30 AM after riding and walking 9.3 miles totalā on my feet all day long)#I used to eat a LOT; like a 6ā5ā 400 pound lumberjack or something#uh Paul Bunyan type portionsā¦ like a big BIG man#of course Iām 5ā4ā with kind of a slight build so that was always very weird to me that I was able to do that#How I am now makes more sense; but at the same time I donāt like being like this at all#Because Iāll inevitably go from āslightā to āsicklyā and I would really like to continue fitting into my pants#because pants are expensive and itās extremely hard to find ones that are of good quality and feel comfortable#food discussion#food tw#weight mention#Here I am telling the kids āYou need to eat! Take a bite!ā and then I get home and act like a total fucking hypocrite#Maybe itās burnout
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'new love' BY GIRL IN RED IS SOMEHOW SO INSANELY WOLFSTAR CODED AND GRANT X REMUS CODED?????? FROM BOTH SIRIUS' AND GRANT'S PERSPECTIVE?????? OH MY FUCKING GOD
#because they both knew two different versions of remus??? maybe. i haven't reread atyd in a while.#I THINK THOUGH.#'i don't wanna know about you're new love'!!!! HOLU SHIT.#'i don't wanna walk away and leave you to your new love'. tbh i think thats KINDA more grant but i seem to remember sirius being kinda#willing to let remus and grant be??? like unhappily. but he'd do it i think???#'you really think i cant tell you're not yourself when [he's] there?' BECAUSE THEY BOTH KNEW. TWO DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF REMUS!!!!!!!!#biting chewing devouring OOOOOUUUUUUUAAAAAAGGGGHHHHHHRRRRRRR#girl in red#remus lupin#wolfstar#grant chapman#marauders#marauders era#FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF JKR AND ALL TERFS WE LOVE LOVE ADORE TRANS PEOPLE HERE!!!!!! TRANS WOMEN<3333 TRANS MEN<3333#TRANS ANYTHING<3333#shitpost
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Yay this good boy!!!! For the fourth time out of five days ( we skipped walking yesterday for schedule reasons) He walked around the block! No false starts, he didn't go down the street, then back up, then down and around. He simply took off from the house down to the corner with the strongest invisible barrier, and walked right through it! Only took three treats for a little extra encouragement!! š
#dogs#bluā¤ļø#only thing is a young girl walking two medium size dogs lost control of them when blu lunged and barked a bit#they were across the street#one dog came running directly at blu i was like oh sh*t here we go this is happening#luckily my neighbor was outside and he came running and charged the dog lol!#i was afraid blu would bite the other dog#we just want to walk in peace#when i saw the dog walker was a young girl maybe 15 i knew she wouldn't be able to hold her dogs#ughhhh#it takes experience to know what is going to happen and be ready
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(Talk of vampires and blood ahead)
Love the thought of a silly little Vampire AU Doublebattleshipping thing. Evelyn's the vampire. She is so awkward about it. Her sisters know and offer to let her take some of their blood, but she always insists that she's fine just getting by with Pokemon blood.
But it's not really fine, because human vampires are meant to drink human blood, so she's... kind of malnourished.
Anyway, Emmet finds out that she's a vampire and is utterly unbothered by it. Like, his twin's starter Pokemon is literally a haunted chandelier that eats souls. He's no stranger to "supernatural" things.
(Besides, her little fangs are cute. Like little baby Litten teeth)
She asks if he's really okay with it, even if she needs human blood, specifically, to be healthy, and he insists that it's fine. Not normal, but fine (he's not really normal, either! Funky boi. Just a more regular flavor of odd).
So what if she asks if she can take a bit of his blood? (It's been days, she's starving, but she'd never want to take blood without permission)
Yeah, that's fine. A bit surprising that she'd ask to bite him -- verrrry forward of her.
Oh, there she goes, fainting on the floor. That comment must have been a bit too much for her in her weakened state. Best save the flirting for when the bashful vampire girlfriend isn't already swaying on her feet from hunger.
#subway boss emmet#battle chatelaine evelyn#pokemon#doublebattleshipping#blood#vampires#vampire au#submas#vampire stories can very quickly cross over into sexy stuff#something about biting I don't know#but like#look at these two#you could go the sexy route#but what about fun times making it so the vampire is the most bashful creature to exist#and the human is just. flirt. suave flirt#keeps making the vampire pass out#sexytime shenanigans have no place here there's just lots of fluffy cuddling and silly conversations#read as: ah no sorry nothing above a T rating here#you'll have to find sexy funtimes elsewhere#maybe this still warrants a suggestive tag#wait a sec is there a tag for#mildly suggestive#there is yay#okay I'm posting this before the mounting embarrassment kills me here you go
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Hey, I just saw that you only take gn!reader or male!reader for the poly nick and Charlie thingy. I made a request earlier today where I said I'd prefer female reader but I'd also take gn!reader if that's fine by you. You still don't have to write it, but I just wanted to say it.
Sorry, if I asked to much.
No worries! If you want F!Reader that is fine, itās just the reader wonāt have romantic feelings for Charlie :)
Do you still wanna change your request? Also lmao, Iām not sure Iāll be able to write it as a fanfiction per sayā¦ like itāll be wrote into bullet points with a scenario written under it, if that makes sense.
It might switch between Reader and the dudeās pov too š¤ Iāve decided to name him Aaron lol so for exmaple:
There were little things that caught Aaronās attention and those little things may have been because of his fall. He couldnāt say, he didnāt even realize he had a thing for you until he walked in on you and Nick in the classroom. (Luckily not kissing, right? For him atleast)
His heart turned at the sigh of your eyes gleaming with affection as the blond spoke with very big animated movements, he didnāt like you laughing at it.
āAnd then I had to apologize because he was just trying to get his poor olā cane. I picked it up and helped him to a bench to rest but, till this day, Iām surprised why I thought he was trying to kidnap Nellie?ā Nickās raised arms now flop to his sides and he heaves a heavy sigh ā ending his outrageous story with a question which makes you laugh harder.
āThat poor old manā¦ good for you for wanting to protect your dog though, no? Even old men can be so dearly scary.ā Youāre currently sitting on top of a table so you cross your legs and poke Nick with the tip of your shoe. He lightly slaps your leg away with an eyeroll.
āThank you but were you mocking me at the end?ā
āNo, I could never, sweetheart.ā
From his cheeks down to his neck, red tint dusts them and he looks away. Aaron did not like that. Especially the petname, if he wasnāt frowning before, he definitely is now. Plus you havenāt even noticed him standing here this whole time?
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(Newsflash Aaron, she dgaf about you! just kidding)
Thatā¦ isnāt necessarily a canon thing from the story I just came up with something silly on the spot aha. Let me know if the writing form is alright for you and if you wanna change the readerās gender!
Thisāll be written after I finish another request first but I already have some notes/ideas written down for it so itāll be done in a jiffy I hope :,) Thank you for requesting!
#.asks#.anon asks#does this count as a writing update idk#also not reader n nick literally making out with eachother minutes before aaron walked in#like okay.#and charlie appearing afterwards? its messssy#NOT MESSY LIKE CHESTING OR SMTH messy like omg aaron just met two importsnt figures in readers life and hes finna be yelled at by them soon#NO I LOVE THE REQUEST THO I THOUGHT ITāD BE STRESSFUL BUT IVE BEEN GIGGLING KICKIN MY FEET OVER SCENARIOS#also do u have a set personality you want for reader? š i always make reader a lil sassy im sorry#get your fuckin reader or smth. they dont bite tho <3#also no aaron does not know (nick & reader here) are dating š¤#atleast yetā¦. ;)#also tao is gonna be there just bc thats your platonic dad soā¦ but charlie and nick will still step in ykyk#or so u like to jokeā¦. will this be my downfall when iwrite taoellereader maybe#LMFAOO#angst? taoellereader? stop..#him liking you and elle but he thinks u only feel plato-#alright not the write post#aha write post#i did that on accident š
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listen āere boy there is a voice in ur head telling u ur fine and you donāt need to go to therapy tomorrow and that voice is a f u c k i n g liar donāt listen to it boy donāt fuckinā listen to that rat ass bastard it does NOT have ur best interests at heart
#vent in tags etc etc#aim losing my mind over here#itās fine#see the thing is Iām so deeply lacking in like. the emotions edition of object permanence. I can have a massively heartbreaking reaction to#smth and then once Iām out of that moment and even slightly distracted itās like nothing ever happened ??#so like yk I was nearly [radio static noises] over talking to my therapist abt the young csa thing and Iām meant to be starting emdr tomorr#tomorrow* except like for the past two weeks Iāve overall been fine regarding that?? instead itās the ed and other traumas flaring up so ??#idk how Specific emdr is I honestly donāt know much about it yet but like yk now Iām wondering if I should delay starting that in favour of#talking about the other badtimes tm rearing their heads atm. todays in particular was unexpected it happened this morning and itās only just#like. hit me and started biting and itās ?? also dumb cuz like on one hand Iām pretty okay but on the other hand the other half of my brain#is spiralling hysterically to the point where Iām very glad Iām already in bed and like I know [redacted] wonāt help but itās like my brain#is just so lost about how to hold these things and what to do at all so itās just pulling out the bad coping mechanism and insistently#thrusting it in my lap and waving its arms like it wasnāt even That Bad tm of a situation today but it Was some very specific factors which#are holding hands with Other specific factors and then The Location Of The Events is just#yea okay maybe I will talk to her abt this / these things instead if I can#ah the joys of heavy personal responsibility at a very young age and the severe guilt that gets bred from that and the fantastic experience#of things being so far out of your control and almost destined to fail and the absolute wonder of The Actual Person(s) To Blame Having No#Consequences For Their Actions and ending up feeling like you failed and youāre a complete fraud cuz no good you do will make up for that#one situation and yeah okay Iām gonna go sleep#ugh
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