#maybe I’m not active enough

[shellyseashell]

*chants to myself that it’s midnight and i need to go to sleep*

[falinscloaca]

the misbegotten are sooo underrated its insane

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

something about that whole incident must have changed something in my brain chemistry cause my insomnia’s gotten bad again

the past few days i’ve getting to sleep at two or three. kinda sucks i guess, but i don’t really want to resort to taking melatonin again

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

[rotzaprachim]

*breathes in and out through mouth* everyone is scared and grieving and still waiting for news of their families everyone is scared and grieving everyone is scared and grieving*

[immren]

we don’t have a Confirmed lgbt tank in overwatch yet but imagine this is how blizzard genuinely reveals zarya is a lesbian or smth by having her stand with the other lgbt heroes

[bereft-of-frogs]

I’m at the point with that one snarky post where every time I get a notification on it I want to read the Severance apology speech

[babyfairy]

i hate that i can’t even ride the high from my concert because my life is so consistently depressing and hellish lmao 🙃 it’s depressing to come back down to reality after such a good day. like it really makes me realize how joyless my life has become. everything just blurs together

[githvyrik]

only covid can make 3 days straight of sleeping feel like nothing happened

[void-tiger]

Trying to keep a lid on it but. Yeah. Literally don’t know what’s it like to NOT be platonically neglected IRL my whole damn life, only that I know this One Person doesn’t deserve to be at the epicenter of it anymore than I deserved to have been at the epicenter of theirs a year ago now.

…why am I like this. Why are we like this.

[cassandralexxx]

the world is in a disastrous state of affairs when people are supporting a school shooter over the community bc “forgiveness is free” and “are people not allowed to change”

[no27-autonation-honda]

Babes they paired me up with the other person in my age bracket from the conversion class last night and she’s claiming she’s not seeing antisemitism in Kansas

[emmebearpaw]

hi there. Oc post again. This time I’m here to inform you of something, because writing that Aki fic made me go “yeah I’ve been meaning to write more. I’ll just write OC fics because I don’t have to worry about doing research on characterization. I make the characterization.” And thus am writing another one starting soon. I was going to write one about another OC I haven’t introduced yet, Egg, but haven’t quite got a good prompt for them yet, so that’s on the back burner.

then I remembered I’ve been thinking about porcupine again recently. Congrats! It has a name now. Olive, short for Olivine, long for Oli.

However I uh. I do have something to inform people who actually read my long ass oc posts (to the people I do I love you). I uh. Not all of my OCs occur only once. Atsuko for the most part only occurs once, technically there is a spin off Atsuko named Basker but, Basker isn’t important. Atsuko is one of my OCs who gets dragged into a new situation and the old situation/character they were in it dies because I’m bored of it. Aki is also in that category!

Porcupine Olive (I have to get used to calling her that she’s been named porcupine for like. 2-3 years) is actually in my second category of OC. There are two Olives. You’ve been introduced to Olive #2 actually. The Olive that inhabits one of my more high fantasy worlds, is a porcupine, is a chuuni in a magical world, etc. etc.

Olive #1. Is a Vtuber. The porcupine character, the chuuni whose illusion of being good at things is shattered pretty easily, is a character in the world of Olive #1. Because Olive #1 is a normal human. Olive #1 has advantages in thinking about over Olive #2, namely that I can make the Chuuni blush because guess what she’s a disaster lesbian. That one isn’t part of the character. Yes I have more Vtuber OCs. Anyways the inherent eroticism in (video game rivalry).

I actually haven’t been thinking about Olivine #1 either to be fair. Because I’ve… been reading hololive fanfics (and watching a few streams again actually.) and my favorite Hololive fanfics are (for the most part! I found one person who writes normal world AUs j like) the ones where all the Vtubers are treated as the characters they play. Like. Yeah. Shiori Novella is an eldritch being who collects knowledge. Calliope Mori is the grim reaper’s apprentice. The council are just like, gods hanging out. They may or may not still be Vtubers (if they aren’t they typically exist fully in their lore) but their vtuber persona is treated as an idealized self more than a character they are playing. Perhaps you see where I’m heading with this.

I’m currently thinking about Oli #1.5. Who is just a magical porcupine. And is streaming. This character… I hate to disappoint. Might not be a chuuni, I’m still formulating but uh. I do think it’s still interesting though! She does also have different lore! Which I’m trying to iron out so I can properly build the tiny. Tiny world in which she inhabits. So uh. Yeah. Thinking about her but it’s maybe not the character you were hoping for.

[lattesqueeze]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you @wanderingblindly I love love LOVE answering these!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Just five! I haven’t actually published very many (obviously) but maybe I will in the future :-)

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

40,450 apparently!!

3. Which fandoms do you write for?

These days, just F1 RPF. I used to write for other fandoms (the other published fics on my AO3 are for The Arcana, if any of y’all know that lol)

4. Which are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Given that I literally have five published…

- fallingforyou (random Lestappen word vomit)

- Enchanted (Lando’s Version) (little Landoscar drabble thing)

- The Magician (The Arcana - I wrote this one unemployed summer, mostly while wine drunk, aged maybe 22)

- Grimoire (The Arcana)

- Eridanus (The Arcana - this had potential but I never finished it teehee)

5. Do you reply to your comments? Why or why not?

YES! I don’t get very many, and appreciate each and every one! It makes me feel validated ngl 😅 i love engaging with other people who have things to say about something I create. Like, that’s so cool right?!

6. Which of your fics has the angstiest ending?

Honestly, none of them. I’m a sucker for a happy ending, so I will be tying up all loose ends to finish my fics. Maybe I’ll say Enchanted (Lando’s Version) purely because it doesn’t really have an ending - just a “perhaps”.

7. Which of your fics has the happiest ending?

I guess fallingforyou. I think it ends on a fairly hopeful note.

8. Do you get hate on your fics?

Not so far! I don’t think I have enough of an audience to generate hate comments, so I’m grateful for that lol

9. Do you write smut?

I do! Not necessarily very well, mind. It’s not often very dirty, more romantic smut. Is that a thing? It is now.

10. Do you write crossovers?

Nope. That’s some big brained behaviour and simply is not for me. I can’t keep up with one fandom, let alone multiple lmao much respect to those of y’all who manage it!!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge. Like I say, I don’t think I have enough reach.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope - for reasons above!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

Not really. Although I help out my beloved Lola ( @twinkodium ) on hers, if that counts

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

LAWD i do not have one 💀 currently Lestappen or Brocedes (thanks to @like-pilot-lights for that one hehe)

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but probably never will?

Like In Karting, my Lestappen passage of time daydream. Will I ever get to the end? Probably not! Do I love it dearly? Absolutely!

16. What are your writing strengths?

Openings. Like, first lines. I can introduce a scene like nobody’s business. Just don’t ask me to finish it.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Pacing. I desperately want to just get to the point, which makes my fics feel rushed. Pls help me fix this.

18. What are your thoughts on writing in other languages in fics?

Besties i don’t even write well in English 💀 I feel like a lot of the time, it serves no great purpose. Especially if it’s randomly inserted google translate phrases that nobody speaking that language would ever actually use.

19. What was the first fandom you ever wrote for?

I guess like Harry Potter or One Direction, circa 2010 lol

20. What’s your favourite fic that you’ve written?

One that I published anonymously of the Dead Dove: Do Not Eat variety. I love it so much - it’s genuinely the only fic of mine that I read back and actually enjoy. I usually just publish my work and leave it there.

Of the fics actually associated with me, I suppose fallingforyou? I dunno. I actually hate both of my recent ones soooo

I don’t know who hasn’t been tagged yet, so I’m tagging @twinkodium and @lestappenforever because I love you both and I love your work and I wanna hear everything y’all have to say :’)

[marimbles]

i miss being in my tmsidk era. what was i on back then. where did that girl go. come back ho why would you abandon me like this

[burinazar]

i’ve not linked the Ganja squad server on here recently for The Usual Reasons but i currently have a free trial of fancy nitro so i boosted the thing and, by member request, immediately added a completely irresponsible amount of new emojis that will most likely perish in a few weeks. if you like the gang weeders ganja squad characters join us and use our ((checks)) …S I X DIFFERENT Despairing Belaf emojis while we have em. (link) (note: please be 18 or older!)