#master’s touch markers

[peterkothe]

INKtober 2024-Versus👊

Son of Ultraseven, the face of the Heisei era New Generation Ultras, Ultraman Zero vs. Ultraman Belial, the fallen, devilish, corrupted Ultra, and Zero’s arch-nemesis!

[shadez-art]

I've been messing around with this marker storage shelf for a few months now, and I think I finally got it where I want it to be! It's just so nice being able to see all of my most-used markers! And I decided to put my water-based Ohuhu brush pens at the bottom, because I use those every day in my journal.

[atla-what-is-this-site]

bought a new skin tone marker set-

Two of them are…

o r a n g e

But what’s worse is that in the camera they look..

Brown

[mrztwiztidbunni]

This little guy turned out so darn adorable! 😍

I used master's touch markers to complete this page.

[inkykeiji]

⋆₊˚⊹♡ 𝐚𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫 + 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐭𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐢𝐬

character: alastor warnings: no smut but still 18+, heavy pet/master dynamic, toxic relationship, blood, alastor is obv experiencing intense feelings of infatuation words: 818 notes: a thought i had based on just how much alastor casually touches charlie throughout the entire series hehe—something that would manifest tenfold with his favourite pet, i think!

For someone with a penchant for sadism, Alastor can be surprisingly touchy with his precious pet.

It’s primal: a compulsive need, an instinctive addiction, an insatiable parasite. It’s something he can’t control even if he wanted to—and he doesn’t have any interest in denying himself such a luxury. 

Not when you are his.

It’s possessive; a physical marker, a visual claim that you are owned, that you belong to him, answer to him, are of service to him. It’s a single finger, hooked in that pretty crimson collar, curled tightly around the leather as he leads you around the hotel with him, keeping you near, a bony knuckle pressed tight to your pulsing jugular. 

It’s a large palm, laid flat on the small of your back above the swell of your ass, fingers splayed wide and claws just barely piercing the thin cotton of your clothing as he guides you—to your seat at the dinner table, when you’ve been especially well-behaved; to the living room to witness a new group activity; to his bedroom, when he decides it’s time for his pet to sleep. 

It’s four fingers cuffed around your wrist, keeping you tethered to him via a leash of his flesh, obediently trailing behind him like the sweet little pet you are as he goes about his business in town, dutifully keeping silent just like he told you to, nuzzling into the space between his shoulder blades when he stills for an extended period of time, the ball of your nose rubbing over the prominent notches of his spine, his responding hum vibrating against your flesh.

It’s protective; a way to ensure that you are within reach of him at all times, so that he can defend against any and all incoming threats and potential dangers. It’s an arm curled around your shoulders, pressing you flush to his side where he can tuck you safely beneath his touch, or an arm twined around your waist, palm cupping your hip as he clutches you close, closer. 

It’s his thigh slotted up against your own during one of his routine lunches with Rosie, your elbow threaded through his as he chats and eats and laughs and plots, dainty fingers toying passively with the hem of his shirtsleeve, fingertips just barely brushing the thin skin stretched across his wrist. 

It’s his palm swathed around the nape of your neck, tips of his claws digging into your skin just hard enough to be a reminder—be good, behave—grip flexing the moment he senses any peril, instantly ready to yank you out of harm’s way and draw you back into himself, where you are shielded and secure, where you fit perfectly. 

It’s peaceful; an odd type of comfort he’s never quite experienced before—something deep-seated, something growing in his soul, something that soothes any unruliness the instant it begins to spawn within him, rattling his ribs and eroding his throat as it rages with gnawing teeth and thrashing claws. Doused in your presence, in your supposed love for him—your devotion, your affection, your obsession—it diminishes, dries up and dies; even if only for a moment.

It’s his chin resting on the crown of your head as he works and you sleep, curled into his chest, breaths damp and gentle against his collarbone, lulled into fitful dreams by the skillful scratch of his pen against parchment, the gentle clink of the metal pen nib against the glass ink bottle, the sharp scrape across the rim as he disposes of excess ink, a heavy sense of contentment sinking in his chest.

It’s demanding you sit at his feet during his nightly reading session, your body wound around his leg and a foot wedged between your thighs, his palm cupping the crown of your head as he strokes your hair in soothing, rhythmic motions. It’s allowing himself a brief glance down at you, something dense and warm seeping through his ribs and into his lungs when you nestle your cheek against his calf, fatigued eyes refusing to close without his explicit permission, licks of flame flickering in glazed pupils as you watch the blazing fireplace.

It’s him groping for you the moment anything mildly disconcerting happens, desperate to feel your flesh beneath his touch—filling his palms with fistfuls of you, staining his teeth and soaking his tongue with scarlet flowing from your throat or your wrist or your bosom, inhaling your scent harsh and deep as he buries his nose in you, and letting it pollute him, consume him, sedate him. 

And despite how new it all is, how scary it feels, how vulnerable it leaves him as it pries his ribs apart bone by bone, digs its talons into his tendons and pulls them apart string by string to expose, offer, whatever it is that throbs in his chest for you, he wouldn’t have it any other way.

[naffeclipse]

I'm sorry if this question has been asked in some form or another but... How would Eclipse, should he have ever moved away from the Arctic in search of a new home, react if he encountered a pair of orphaned Orca Siren Calves (Sun and Moon) being raised by a reclusive writer human Y/N? Like either their sibling got the Siren Transformation and the whole pod is just now... gone due to some unfortunate events... Or the Y/N just found the two orphans in the shallows near their very secluded home and the parents never came back?

Point is human Y/N is trying their best, but that means things aren't going all that great. Both kids can read and are cared for. Moon is a master of the door dash app when using the tablet kept on land near the water for them. But there's love... Lots of love.

How would he react to this?

Oh, I love this

You wanted to be left alone, unfortunately, the two... babies, didn't get the memo. They're so small. You have no idea what to do with the mythical creature children. Sirens. Sure, you've heard of them. So why aren't they taking care of their young? Why are they wailing at the edge of the icy land you've made your home on? It doesn't take long for you to take pity on the small things and feed them some chewed fish (but only this once).

Somehow, you end up with a small ice shelter where you've carved two breathing holes under the ice to let the seawater and the babies swim for a day, keeping a careful watch on them while jotting down a few ideas you've had for your writing (perhaps inspired by sirens). Then, at the night's end, you lovingly pick up both toddler-sized sirens, tucking one into each arm to carry them to your home where your bathtub has become a makeshift crib of seawater and half-chewed rubber duckies.

You believe they're twins despite their different appearances, one touched with cream-colored orca markings and soft yellow frills framing his face. The other brother is black and white and has a slippery dark blue tendril behind his head, trailing into a luminous bulb. They have mismatched eyes but share one blue iris.

So much for only feeding them once. The tiny fish got you wrapped around their little claws.

They growl and chuff and softly whine whenever you're not within sight, and each of them demands time alone to snuggle against your chest before you set down your bedding on the bathroom floor and urge them to sleep through the night. You're right here if they need you. Somehow, one or both end up on you, dripping wet, and you can only groan and softly hold the babies through the night despite their constant wiggles and slick, sheeny bodies.

This goes on for a few years before you start to worry that your bathtub is too cramped for the children. Sun and Moon (oh gosh, you gave them names; now you're really attached) are so smart and excel at reading and writing, making use of markers and whiteboards, and remembering to let their hands dry before grabbing the paper from the floor of the ice shelter to draw doodles of the icy waves.

There were learning curves, such as when you had to scold Moon for biting you so hard his sharp teeth drew blood, but he cried, so you stopped being angry and showed him how to help you bandage your hand. See? All better. But no biting. Another time was Sun growing impatient with your slow pace as you gathered your writing materials before joining them in the ice shelter, and he grabbed your leg and halfway pulled you into the frigid water, shocking your system with the sheer cold before you scrambled out and had to retreat to your home to undress and get warm. Sun hid away from you, unwilling to come out despite your coaxing once night fell. You had to lay down a new rule: they cannot pull you into the water. You are not built like them. He clung to you and apologized, and you forgave him with a kiss on the forehead.

You wanted to be left alone with your children. (Yours. Your babies.) Unfortunately, they're not the only sirens around. You sense another presence just at dusk when you're preparing to take Sun out of the breathing hole (you can only carry one at a time now, and even then, it takes all your strength to lift with your legs—when did they get so big?) and pause with your hands under Sun's arms, his hands still opening and closing for you. Through the slight opening in the flap of the ice shelter, out into the shallows of the icy sea, you see two pairs of eyes, yellow and red, and piercing.

A siren.

You react with adrenaline and fear, fueled by the intention to protect your children no matter the cost, and pull Sun and Moon out of the breathing holes in a second. Placing them in the far corner, you shield them with your body. The strange siren pokes his head through the breathing hole not a moment later. Eyes wide, breathing harshly, you stare each other down, siren against human. His gaze slips past you, and he grins upon finding Sun's and Moon's big eyes peeking around you as they cling to your shoulders, confused and frightened. Their flukes flip anxiously.

The siren grinned at you, and for the better half of the night, you conversed with the siren about how you came upon your children. His intentions remain sinister and masked until he at last tells you how perfect he finds you and the boys. You stare, standoffish, but he assures you, he will be the father that they need, and the mate you deserve. You don't believe him. You don't trust him with your babies, but when he grabs your leg and rips you away from your children, much to their protests and small cries, you're caught under him and his caressing claws before you realize that his hunger is more.

It starts to make sense. Of course, Eclipse can teach them far more than you can about how to navigate their marine existant and how to properly hunt and not only take food from your hands. He teaches them how to sing, how to watch prey, how to use their strength and teeth to conquer. And you... you watch, realizing that you miss those bathtub days, but your boys are happy. They love Eclipse and Eclipse, well, when he's not tending to the children, he's spending time with you, laying his crossed arms on your lap to gaze up at you, insisting you accept a dead seal from him.

Maybe he has a bit of charm. And maybe you begrudgingly let you sing you to sleep when you're left fretting about Sun and Moon swimming late into the night on their own, but they're growing big. They don't fit in your arms anymore. You start to feel a little forgotten before you find all three sirens acting very suspiciously, your boys whispering before telling you that Dad—Eclipse wants to give you something. He softly presses a beautiful black pearl into your palm. You've never been much for anything that isn't practical, but it's beautiful, so you take it. Eclipse is pleased and so are the Sun and Moon. He steals a kiss from you. You don't mind.

You wanted to be left alone, but you find yourself in the siren's arms as you both watch a burning orange sunset and your sons playfully fighting in the small waves.

[jaxangel]

Puppeteer AU Fanart

(Mixed Media Traditional)

(Sorry for glare)

I am a fan of @rorydrawsandwrites 's Puppeteer AU and decided to draw some fanart. I also decided to do it traditionally because I haven't made a full piece in traditional in a little bit!

I hope you like the art!

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Materials used (for those interested):

Grumbacher Mixed Media Sketchbook

Ohuhu Alchohol Markers

Crayola Colored Pencils

Masters Touch Premier watercolors

Grabie Paint pens

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If ur reading this hi!

Likes and reblogs appreciated

Please follow for more fanart and fanfics related to TADC (specifically Caine)

[corralinesage]

Child of September (2/?)

18+ Mature content, pure smut

I hope you guys enjoy this update!! The master list is linked in the title<3

Chapter 2: Capturing memories

(w/c 11k)

You adjusted the thick blanket that covered your shoulders, moving your body enough to get your blood circulation going again after sitting on the couch for most of the cozy afternoon. You glanced at the window, noticing that the autumnal gloom of the clouds had subsided just enough to allow rays of golden sunlight to push through for just a moment before the sun would disappear fully behind the horizon. The apartment smelled like chai, thanks to Natasha who had been in and out of the kitchen ever since breakfast to warm herself up with cups of tea. You were sitting on the living room couch with your sketchbook in your arms, squinting at a questionable drawing of a street view, for once having deliberately chosen to draw something other than people. You hated the black and white sketch, the perspective possibly a little bit off because you lacked a reference and had pulled the image out of your imagination, which had a tendency to never end well. There was a reason why you mostly focused on figure studies and portraits. They were just much more interesting than anything else, especially when you had a live model roaming around your apartment like she owned the place.

“Love, come here”, you called, flipping a new page and closing the book with one of your markers between the covers, tossing it to the side when Natasha walked in, wearing an entire outfit from your closet, although it was far from anything presentable. She noted how much dimmer the lighting was in the room, switching on a reading light on her way to the couch to spare your eyes from excessive strain.

“What is it?” She asked, your eyes studying your favorite pair of sweatpants that Natasha was donning with one of your ribbed tank tops and an oversized, knit cardigan.

“You have your entire closet littered around my bedroom and this is what you wear?” You questioned in disbelief, gesturing for her to come closer.

“It’s what’s most comfortable”, she stated in all seriousness, smiling softly to herself. She straddled your lap when you pulled her down onto the couch, her arms going around your neck as she sank into your embrace.

“Mm, yeah”, you huffed in amusement, slightly distracted by her presence despite the atrocious outfit she had on. Your lips found hers, first pressing down casually in a chaste kiss, but as an idea struck your mind you allowed the kiss to deepen, parting your lips, your tongue brushing against the seam of her lips. She hummed into the kiss, pleased by the sudden course of action you were taking, arching herself closer to you as her cheeks started to flush a soft pink. You had been drawing for hours, spending your day off planning the next assignment that you had been given for the following week, which, truth be told, Natasha wasn’t entirely too fond of when she would've rather had you all to herself. You ran your hands down her sides, sliding them under the waistband of her sweats, your fingers sinking into the bare skin of her behind as you gave her a firm squeeze. She gasped into your mouth, her hips rolling gently into your lap as if she was merely adjusting her position, the touch of her tongue growing just a bit more demanding. You switched angles, bringing your hands back up to her shoulders, unwrapping her arms from your neck to push the cardigan off her. Natasha didn’t protest at all when her top was next to go, leaning back down to kiss you once the garment was off, her nipples hardening in the cool temperature of the room. She stood up for a moment to kick off her pants, revealing a pair of underwear that was most likely yours as well. Natasha ignored the questioning raise of your brow as she sat back down. She felt warm under the touch of your hands as you caressed her back softly, sighing into her mouth from how good she felt against you. There was a brief moment where you had to choose whether to carry out your plan or not, Natasha’s warm, naked body more than inviting, steering you further and further away from your initial intentions. But eventually, you pulled away, both of you panting softly, a playful smirk on Natasha’s lips. Maybe it was finally her turn for some attention. She eyed you for a moment, her fingers playing with a necklace you were wearing.

“Go kneel on the other end of the couch and stay still”, you whispered quietly, the command seeming to linger in the narrow gap between your faces, Natasha blinking her eyes almost comically, doing a double take at your request. She looked at you for a moment, not used to being ordered around in bed but out of curiosity she did as told, moving to the opposite end of the couch where she knelt down, facing you. “Lift your arms up and arch your back”, you instructed her, Natasha giving you a disappointed frown as you pulled your sketchbook back onto your lap.

“What? I have to pose again? Then why did you kiss me?” She whined halfheartedly, following your silent instructions, moving her knees to the right and tilting her chin down. She had been through it before and possessed a vague idea of what you were looking for.

“It gives your cheeks some color”, you smirked, watching her roll her eyes, her blushed skin turning a shade darker. Considering the way you had met for the first time, you were confident that she didn’t mind it. Natasha liked posing for you, loved it. Sometimes she even asked for it. Although, you had a feeling that it had less to do with your art and more to do with your intense eyes on her. “Don’t worry, sweetheart, I’ll make it up to you. You just stay still”, you promised, leaning back a bit as you looked at her through only one of your eyes, using your pencil to map out the length and width of her body before starting your sketch with loose lines to figure out the correct proportions.

“You know you always do this”, she mused, staying still as a statue. “You make me pose for you until my nipples fall off from the cold and then you have sex with me”, she argued, her voice carrying a hint of amusement that she tried to hide, making you chortle out a laugh, your eyes returning to her body again. “Here’s an idea. Let’s just have sex like regular people”, she said teasingly, her smile widening when your gazes met. You grinned at her, finding it hard to contain your joy whenever she joked around with you.

“Or you can be the best, most beautiful girlfriend in the world and let me do this without you whining like a big baby”, you retorted, biting your lip as you paused for a moment just to look at the arches of her body, focusing on the lights and shadows, your eyes inevitably returning to her perky nipples. You felt your cheeks heat, maybe you shouldn’t have turned yourself on before starting such a tedious task, but as Natasha eventually quietened down you found it easier to ignore the tickle of warmth in your lower abdomen. She focused fully on you as you worked, much like when she had first met you, the situation sharing many similarities with that specific memory.

You continued to sketch her onto the paper, your pencil capturing every little curve and dent of her knees, shading in the muscles of her thighs before moving higher to define the two spheres on the paper to look more like her breasts. You left her underwear out of the drawing, shading in the space between her legs, biting down on your lip, the urge to be between those muscular thighs washing over you. God, you just wanted to abandon the sketchbook and fall into her embrace, but you kept going because you needed the drawing for an oil pastel piece that you were planning on doing with your new set that you had gotten a few days prior. It had an impressive range of shades, and you were bursting at the seams to finally try them out. You could’ve drawn something else with them, but you just wanted it to be Natasha because you loved her color palette more than anything else, already picturing the way you would capture her ivory skin and auburn hair. You desperately needed to get out of your head before it was too late, your underwear damp enough already. The silence was not helping your overactive and imaginative mind, allowing you the room to recall how good it felt to be sandwiched between those thighs of hers.

“Your hips have such a nice shape to them”, you mumbled, defining the outline of the sketch, following precisely the curve of her waist. The comment might have been odd to someone else, but Natasha had always loved how observant you were with her, intrigued by the way you saw the world around you in different shapes and colors. Your eyes moved to her body again to recheck that the lines of her armpit and bicep were accurate to reality.

“Thank you”, she hummed, smiling softly, your words warming her heart.

“I think you have the prettiest belly button I’ve ever seen”, you continued, Natasha chuckling quietly.

“How many have you seen?” She inquired curiously, trying to distract herself from your heated stare that only seemed to intensify.

“I’ve seen enough and none of them come even close to yours”, you answered, voice laden with amusement. You continued to shade in parts of her body, paying special attention to her curves to make them look every bit as soft and enticing as they were to your eye, using your finger to blend some of the shading to make it appear less harsh, your other hand searching for an eraser so you could fix the angle of the arm that was farther back.

“What do you like about me the most?” She asked quietly, your eyes snapping up to see her face, your lips stretching into a smile. She was so adorable it made your body physically ache.

“Your personality”, you replied honestly, Natasha rolling her eyes.

“Yeah, yeah, I’m super cool, but physically. Why do you like to draw me so much?” She asked, genuinely curious about what you saw in her. You sighed heavily, pausing for a moment to think, your eyes remaining on her.

“What I like most about drawing you is you. I love this”, you explained, gesturing your hand between you. “I love that I get to just look at you and draw what I see, capture the moment”, you hummed, Natasha’s smile softening. “If you didn’t know this yet, you’re gorgeous, and who doesn’t like to look at gorgeous things?” You asked rhetorically, smirking her way as you went back to the drawing.

“What do you see in the drawings?” She asked, continuing her method of distraction despite it bringing her no relief whatsoever from the ache between her legs.

“I see glimpses into the past, moments in time. Every piece of my art has a memory or memories attached to it and when I look at the things I’ve created they always bring me back into the moment of creation”, you replied, realizing that it was the very reason you liked to draw and paint her so much.

“I’m in all those memories”, she whispered in mild awe, finally understanding another piece of you that suddenly made so much sense. You nodded your head, thinking back to the dozens of pieces you had made of her over the years you had spent together.

“You’re in all those memories”, you echoed fondly, knowing that that very moment was forever going to be in the sketch that sat on your lap. There was an elongated moment of silence where Natasha just looked at you as you traced the lines of her neck muscles and added some volume to her hair by coloring some of it in before she spoke again.

“I really wanna know, what’s your favorite part of my body”, she asked, eager to know because she knew what her favorite was when it came to you.

“I like so many things about you, little details, stuff others wouldn’t think twice about”, you chuckled, not sure how to decide a favorite out of them all.

“What details?” She inquired immediately, clearly curious about the way you perceived her.

“Well”, you started awkwardly, feeling like she was going to find your answer weird. “I love the way your bottom front teeth are crooked. The right one in the middle is more in the front than the rest. It’s cute”, you hummed, hiding your face from her by deciding that the sketch needed a little more of your attention.

“You need to spend less time in my mouth”, she chuckled, unable to hold in her laughter.

“See, I knew you’d think it’s weird”, you whined, shooting her a look.

“No, no. I love it”, she protested immediately, urging you to keep going. “What else?”

“I love it when you lift your arm to the side and the muscles of your shoulder and chest stick out and if the lighting is right, they look even more defined. It’s really attractive”, you whispered quietly, feeling your cheeks heat. “And I like the way your collarbones and the notch between them frame your chest, very elegant”, you commented, smiling to yourself as you dragged the pencil over said part of her body. “There are these couple little freckles on your left boob. They’re light brown, really subtle. They look like constellations”, you chuckled, Natasha glancing down to look at her chest, suddenly not sure if she had noticed such a thing. “Oh, and that scar on your lower back, the one I said looked like a heart”, you added, reminded of the burn mark Natasha hadn’t even known existed until you pointed it out. You paused for a moment before continuing. “This is so weird.” You cringed at what you were about to say but carried on regardless of it. “I love the way the cartilage in your nose kind of cinches in right before the tip of your nose and it gives it this roundness that’s super cute. And I can’t forget the tiny nose bump, or the way your Cupid’s bow dents right above your lip.” There were too many things, too many parts of her that all deserved your undivided attention. Natasha hid her surprise, impressed by the tiny details that you picked up on when you really studied her as thoroughly as possible. Her gaze was very fond as she looked at you, clearly able to see the way you felt about what you had said, felt about her, realizing just how much the smaller details meant to you, and just how much time you spent staring at her.

“So, which one is your favorite?” She asked softly, so eager to know.

“I don’t wanna say”, you whined, looking up at her with a small wince on your face.

“It’s the teeth, isn’t it?” She smirked, able to see that she was right from your expression.

“I don’t know why!” You groaned defensively. “It’s just cute.” Your tone turned into a quiet, little grumble as you brought your hand over your face to hide from her mirthful eyes.

“All I was looking for was something along the lines of tits or ass, but you really went all in”, she teased, hearing you laugh even louder.

“Stop it! It’s supposed to be endearing”, you moaned, chucking your eraser at her to make her stop teasing you. She allowed it to smack her in the arm, the eraser bouncing under the coffee table. “What’s your favorite then?” You asked bitterly, although you could never actually be upset by her.

“I like your neck”, she hummed, rubbing her lips together as she glanced away, remembering just how good it felt to kiss down your throat or suckle the pulse point under your jaw. She loved to smell your neck, your skin often carrying the scent of your perfume that enhanced your own fragrance. She also liked to nuzzle her face into the crook of your neck especially when you were warm and cozy in bed or when she came home from a long day of work and was finally able to sink into your embrace. She thought about gliding her tongue over your throat, a flush of heat rushing to her cheeks at the mental image that made her stomach lurch.

“I thought it’d be ass. You look like an ass girl.” You smirked playfully, deciding to get some payback.

“Well, maybe if you had an ass to like.” Oh, she looked so cocky, your jaw falling open as you gasped at the severity of such accusations.

“You’re gonna regret that.” You shot her a warning look, moving the sketchbook off your lap, Natasha perking up immediately to see if she was going to be granted the permission to move. “Don’t get your hopes up. I’m just gonna get my oil pastels. Sit tight, Nattypoo.” You stood up, allowing your hand to brush over her stomach and chest, avoiding her breasts as you walked past her into your room. She dropped her pose, moving her arms and back a bit to relieve the ache of her muscles, rolling her shoulders to make them relax as a sigh escaped her. You returned with the oil pastels, sitting down and grabbing a couple of shades you thought would work the best. Natasha lifted her arms back up, but you shook your head, glancing up at her. “You can drop the pose. I’m done with the sketch. I’ll just create the color palette quickly and I’m done”, you hummed in concentration, skimming your fingers over the set of crayons.

You studied the shades of the shadows on her body, mixing burnt sienna and yellow ochre together, using richer browns to deepen the color for the darkest parts. You colored in small squares around the sketch, mapping where each color would go. You chose three different shades of brown for her hair, mixing a bit more crimson with burnt sienna to give it an auburn hue. You inched a bit closer to her on the couch, occasionally lifting the sketchbook up to see how good your color matching skills were before going back to mixing your shades.

“Do you have any weird things you like about me?” You asked as the silence seemed to stretch on and on, feeling the need to keep Natasha entertained for just a little longer. You weren’t expecting anything special since your eyes were trained to look at the world through a different lens, but you wanted to know regardless.

“I like the shape of your lips”, she replied, smiling a bit as she looked at your face, itching to touch you.

“I don’t think that’s weird.” You chuckled, glancing at her impossibly green eyes that lingered on you, Natasha observing any details she could find.

“Okay, well how about this? I like the shape of your nails, both fingers and toes”, she offered, immediately making you smile.

“I think that’s a step closer.” The smile lingered on your face as Natasha continued to think of what exactly she liked about you.

“This should do it, I think”, she started with a small smile on her lips. “I like the way your underwear hugs you so perfectly, the way it accentuates your hips and thighs.” Her voice was low, and she spoke in a quiet, intimate way, almost coming off as dreamy. “I love your pelvis. I love everything about it. The shape, the softness of your skin, the space below your navel. You know where the skin is soft and it’s perfect for biting on your way down.” Her lips curved into a knowing smirk. “I love every dip and curve…” She trailed off, her eyes fixed on you in a blank stare as if deep inside her head. You felt warmth pool in said part of your body, a fluttering feeling more than present in your lower abdomen.

“I like your hands a lot. They’re very capable”, she mused, continuing to voice out her thoughts as she watched the way you held seven crayons in one hand as if holding cigarettes, the other hand coloring the paper. “I like you”, she whispered softly, a tender smile on her face.

“I like you too”, you hummed in amusement, Natasha feeling her chest flutter at your words that felt somehow very intimate even though you verbally expressed your love for the other on a regular basis. You looked at her and then you looked at the paper, your eyes moving down to her chest and nipples that were leaning more toward purple than the rosy pink you desired. She looked a little pale, the blush from earlier no longer anywhere in sight. You scooched beside her, dropping the crayons onto the book, your hands cupping her cheeks and pulling her into a heated kiss. Your touch was very passionate and took Natasha by slight surprise, her brain needing a moment to process the situation so she could react accordingly. She leaned forward, taking your advance as a sign that she was allowed to move around more, eager to touch you and feel your warmth against her cold body. You opened your mouth wider, deepening the kiss, suddenly feeling desperate for her, your moans muffled by her lips. You pulled away, trailing hasty kisses down her chest to find her breasts, your crayons rolling off the book before it slid off your lap and thudded to the carpet below.

Natasha gasped at the way your teeth scraped over her nipple, your lips wrapping around the hardened bud firmly, your face pressing into the softness of her breast. You allowed your hands to find her waist, skimming your fingers over the area, squeezing her hips. When you heard the soft purr come deep from her throat you knew you were a goner, your lips pulling away from her now flushed bud that was a gorgeous shade of rose pink, a color that you adored for its depth and nuance. You switched over to the other side, your dominant hand sliding between her parted knees and up to the apex of her thighs.

“You ruined my underwear”, you noted between kisses, your fingertips feeling around the warm fabric that was damp from her arousal. She merely chuckled, trying to press herself closer to your touch.

“Oops.” She smirked, the playful tone causing heat to rush down to the lower half of your body, her teasing eyes telling you she wasn’t sorry in the slightest. You rose back up to her face, capturing her in another searing kiss, not resisting her at all when she started to lean forward, guiding you to lie down on the couch, finally freeing her aching knees from their bent position and crawling over you. “Mm, you’re so hot”, she whispered against your lips, her heavy breath fanning over your chin. “The way you look at me”, she continued, kissing you again, her soft body pressing into your own, your hands caressing her back, really feeling the weight of her on top. Your heart thudded in your chest, your skin growing warm, blood rushing up your neck and down between your legs as her tongue dipped into your mouth. “You’re concentrated, in your own world”, she panted lightly, her hungry mouth moving to your neck, placing open-mouthed kisses to the underside of your jaw, her tongue licking sloppily over your skin. “It’s so sexy”, she groaned, her voice low, giving it a soft rasp. You brought your hands up, cupping her cheeks to bring her face to face with you, a wide, excited grin spreading onto your lips at her words. She rolled her hips against yours, pressing the warmth of her core into your thin leggings as if to show you exactly what you did to her. Your lower body tingled sharply, your hands moving to her round buttocks to pull her closer, a soft grunt falling from your lips.

“Talk about sexy”, you hummed teasingly, smoothing your hands over the perfect roundness of her backside, giving her a proper squeeze, a quiet moan escaping Natasha. She leaned back into a kiss, immediately capturing your lips with her own, moving her hips again to intensify the pressure between her legs.

“We have got to get you out of these damn clothes”, she grumbled, displeased when the collar of your shirt wouldn’t give in anymore than it already was.

“Mm, let me sit up for you”, you chuckled, pulling your lips free from the suction of her mouth. She helped you upright, her hands immediately sliding under your long sleeve shirt, nearly tearing it off your body, a joyous laugh resonating in the living room when she shoved you back down onto the cushions, crawling back enough to pull off your underwear and leggings in one go before removing her ruined panties as well.

Once you were fully bare for her, she climbed back over you, sinking into your body as her lips searched fervently for yours, needy for your touch. You bucked your hips against hers, feeling the way her short hairs brushed over your pelvis, your moan muffled by her mouth as your tongues brushed together, desperate to deepen the kiss. Her rushed breaths puffed against your skin, her warmth and proximity making you feel almost feverish. Your hands were greedy, tugging on her flesh to bring her impossibly close, guiding the movement of her hips as she ground into you. She let out a strangled grunt when she found enough friction, the movement of her body becoming rougher, her sex pressing into your skin. It was all so sudden, so passionate, so wonderfully thrilling that all you could do was take it as it was. She kissed you harder, more desperately, the touch of her lips bruising, teeth biting into your lower lip until it slid out of her grasp. She didn’t give you time to catch your breath before her lips were back on yours again, unable to stay away. You brought your fingers to her folds, coating them in her slick before rubbing them lazily against her. It made Natasha practically shiver on top of you. She let out a hum, drawing her lower lip between her teeth as her eyelids fluttered shut, her reaction to your touch sending a jolt of electricity down your spine. Her lips parted in a soft gasp when your fingers found her entrance, slipping inside with ease. She let out a pleased hum, pushing her hips down on you to bring herself closer to your hand in an attempt to make you go deeper.

“Mmh, fuck”, she moaned, her back arching as she ground down, feeling insatiable, your fingers unable to reach the depths she desired. “More”, she whispered, lifting her hips up enough to easily allow you to add another finger. She was so warm, the heat of her wet core making your stomach lurch as you pumped your fingers in and out, feeling the sensitive skin inside, your fingertips skimming over the roughness of her walls in the exact spots she liked it. Natasha moaned, slowly starting to match the rhythm you had set for her, bouncing lightly on top of you, mind more than focused on the way your fingers rubbed at her entrance with each thrust, the way your palm pressed up against her clit. Your other hand found her waist, sliding up her bare back to bring her down so you could kiss her, but you spoke before your lips connected.

“This is what I want to capture in my art”, you mumbled, finding her lips in a wet, hungry kiss that left Natasha breathless. “This is what I remember when I look at my work”, you whispered between feverish kisses, your lungs burning from the lack of oxygen. You kissed down her neck, pleased to feel her arch her back enough to bring her chest into your reach. You cupped her breast with your free hand, massaging it lightly before bringing your mouth to the soft, inviting skin, your tongue poking out to lick over her nipple.

“All drawings of me are filled with dirty memories”, she chuckled, feeling you smirk against her breast.

“Maybe”, you huffed in amusement, biting down on her flesh a bit teasingly as you curled your fingers inside her. Natasha’s eyes squeezed shut as she muffled a groan.

“No wonder you love ‘em so much”, she mused, struggling to talk as your thumb found her clit.

“I want to taste you”, you murmured against her chest, slowly pulling your fingers out of her, gaining Natasha’s attention immediately. She looked down at you, her face flushed from desire, lips a rough pink that you only ever saw on her during sex. “I want to make you feel good”, you added in a slightly pleading tone, hoping to make up for all the time she had spent posing. Natasha smirked, excited by the change in your tone.

“How much do you want it?” She asked in a mild challenge, setting tone for the intimate moment between you, looking to hear you beg.

“More than anything else”, you assured her, gazing up at her through your lashes. You could see from her face that she was feeling playful that night.

“How… much?” She asked in a low croon as she leaned closer to you, her lips hovering over your own. You knew what she was after, your fuzzy mind unable to do anything but oblige her.

“Please”, you nearly whispered, attempting to connect your lips, but Natasha pulled back.

“What do you want, malyshka?” She asked softly, her tone a little teasing because she knew you struggled voicing out your desires sometimes.

“I want your pussy.” Your tone was mellow, tinted by a hint of shame, your cheeks heating violently at your words.

“What do you want with it?” She continued, your breath feeling shallow as you felt your body push out more slick to smear into the insides of your thighs.

“I want… I want to give you head”, you said hesitantly, trying to go around the matter to avoid the humiliation of actually saying what you wanted.

“And how would you do it?” She hummed, dropping her mouth to the side of your neck, slowly kissing you with firm pressure, her lips sucking on your skin to mark you as she waited for your response.

“How would I give head?” You asked in confusion, feeling her nod against your neck.

“You and I both know what you really want”, she hummed, sinking her teeth into your flesh, biting down enough to make it sting.

“I want to bury my face between your legs”, you whispered breathlessly, your back arching off the cushions the lower her mouth went.

“You can say it, detka”, she chuckled, a sense of encouragement in her slightly demeaning tone.

“I wanna be smothered by you.” You were unable to look her in the eyes, your body on overdrive from arousal. All you wanted was to please her, you wanted her to use you for her own pleasure. You wanted nothing more than to be consumed by her.

“By my what?” She prompted again, earning a little groan from you.

“Your pussy”, you moaned in defeat, her teeth sinking into your shoulder.

“Mm, such a good girl”, she murmured, trailing kisses down your naked chest to find your nipple. She sucked on it harshly, her soft moan muffled by your breast. You felt your chest flutter with pleasure both from her touch as well as her words, your head feeling rather light, spinning with desire. “Are you gonna be good for me?” She asked softly as she pulled away, finding your doting eyes. You nodded, starting to sit up to change your position, but she made you halt. “Are you?” She pressed on, wanting you to use your words.

“Yes, Natasha, the best”, you promised her, Natasha smirking at you knowingly.

“Get on the floor”, she hummed almost dismissively, guiding you to kneel down on the living room carpet before positioning herself to face the back of the couch, her backside level with your face. Her skin was silky smooth, the shade of ivory carrying a hint of warmth as the blood rushed quicker beneath it. She was gorgeous, her skin reminding you of marble, every dip and curve on her body itching to be touched as if you would have been carving a sculpture, molding a piece of clay. She was soft and pliable, flexible, but firm, oh-so unyielding and compelling. You couldn’t have looked away had you tried to. You brought your hands to her hips, immediately pressing your lips down on her toned back, placing soft kisses across the small of her back as your hands smoothed over her hips and the curve of her buttocks. She leaned forward to find some support from the couch backrest so she could relax into your touch, pushing her hips back to give you more than an ample view of her soaked sex.

“Fuck”, you sighed under your breath, your hands smoothing over her perfectly rounded glutes as you took in the sight before you, eyes lingering on her pink folds, the shade deep and rich from stimulation. Natasha felt a flush of warmth go through her as she imagined the look on your face, more than glad to know that you liked what you were seeing. You trailed your lips down to her backside, leaving behind wet, open-mouthed kisses until you reached her buttocks, massaging them with your hands, spreading her open for you. “You look so perfect”, you murmured, bringing your mouth back down on her, biting the fullness of her curves to truly feel her in every way possible, a slight hiss coming from Natasha. “I should paint you from this angle.” It wasn’t entirely a joke despite the hint of humor in your tone, your eyes roaming all over the arch of her back and the way her muscles undulated beneath her pale skin as you slowly inched your mouth closer to her sex. You could practically feel her warmth against your face, smell her scent, her wetness more than inviting, her throbbing body begging you to touch her. Natasha’s breath hitched, her response threatening to die down in her throat from the level of anticipation she felt.

“Good luck trying not to get distracted”, she scoffed after composing herself, parting her knees a bit wider and tilting her pelvis to give you better access. You chuckled at her words, unable to hold yourself off for any longer. You wanted her so badly, so badly your entire body was buzzing. You gripped her hips, pulling her cheeks apart to spread her open for you, your mouth finding her warmth on its own. You licked up the arousal that was gathered at her entrance, your tongue pressing into her with firm pressure, hands pulling her closer to your face. You heard Natasha grunt, clearly swallowing down her moan as she gripped the couch cushions hard enough to hurt them. The sound made you smile against her, forcing you to pull away a bit to gather yourself, your smile only widening when Natasha pushed back, searching for your touch.

“Patience”, you said teasingly, Natasha whipping her head around to look at you, giving you a warning look that quickly turned into an amused one.

“Yeah, uh-huh.” It was mocking. You both knew who was in control. She straightened herself slightly more upright to be able to reach you better, her hand sliding to the back of your head, gently pulling you back between her legs. You let out a small laugh, Natasha’s eyes rolling to the back of her head from the vibration. You opened your mouth wide, lapping at her core with enthusiasm, her hand remaining at the back of your head to make sure you stayed where she wanted you. It made you giddy, so unbelievably excited, your abdomen swarming with fresh butterflies, the apex of your thighs throbbing with want as you coated your face with her arousal. You nuzzled into her scent, working your tongue against her just the way she liked it, Natasha’s hips starting to push back to meet the rhythm of the pressure and friction you were providing her, clearly searching for more. You let out a small moan, trying to press yourself even closer to her, licking a wide stripe up her sex, but you knew it wouldn’t be enough, your lips finding her clit, wrapping around the nerves in a firm suction. Natasha let out a low moan, the kind that groped the very bottom of your stomach, a jolt of thrill going through you as her grip tightened at the back of your head. She ground down on your face, searching for more pressure, quiet panting coming from her, her back arching as much as her body would allow it to, muscles starting to cramp in anticipation, but just when you thought you had brought her to the edge, she pulled away from you, letting go of you. She turned sideways on the couch, her flushed face coming into your view, cheeks dusted a sheer shade of rose, lips as pink as they could get. Now that was something for you to paint.

“Come, krasotka, I want to sit on that pretty face of yours”, she said softly between labored exhales, her hand reaching for your arm to guide you to lie down on the couch for her. “I want to see you when I come.” You tried to hide your smile that tugged at the corners of your mouth and the burst of excitement consuming your chest, but you failed, grinning like a fool as you climbed onto the couch, sliding beneath Natasha as she encased your head with her knees. She leaned back a bit, sitting down onto your chest, her left hand coming up to your face, brushing aside some of your hair before caressing your face affectionately. “Such a gorgeous girl I got”, she hummed, obsessed with the admiring look in your eyes, your hands smoothing up her thighs, caressing her hips and waist rather automatically. “So pretty.” Her voice was nothing but a quiet croon, a pleased smirk finding her lips when she felt you attempt to tug her closer to you. She loved how eager you were, how devoted you were to the craft. “And apparently impatient too.” She let out a soft chuckle, warmth filling her chest at the shy smile on your face. “You wanna make me come?” She asked in that low voice of hers, still caressing your features with her fingertips.

“Mhm, please.” Was all you managed to get out, giving her hips another tug.

“What was that?” She was jeering, looking to have a bit of fun with you before she would begin to lose her composure to the throbbing pleasure between her legs.

“Please, Natasha.”

“Please what, darling?” She wiped her thumb across the curve of your lower lip, smiling softly.

“Let me make you come.” You tugged at her hips again, the mere sight of her above you making your heart race unbearably fast. “Please, Natasha.” Her smile widened.

“Come where?” Oh, what a little shit. You almost wanted to groan from frustration.

“Come on my face.” She acquired a pleased look onto her face, yet she still feigned her uncertainty and made it seem like she was mulling the matter over in her head. Your nails dug into the flesh of her hips when you felt her arousal wet the skin on your chest. You felt dizzy from desire, impatient and restless. You were so hungry for her, the longing pull in your chest becoming unbearable. “Please, Natasha. Let me make you come on my face.” Her smile turned into a pleased grin.

“I knew you had it in you. I’m no mind reader”, she reminded you. The smug look on her face was not helping you with your predicament in the slightest. She was pushing all the right buttons to turn you into a whiny, miserable, yet desire-crazed mess. “Go ahead, baby.” She chuckled at your enthusiasm as she lowered herself onto your face, your mouth opening automatically for her. Natasha’s thighs trembled slightly as she held herself up to avoid being too rough, her body throbbing with the need to grind down on your velvety tongue, eager to chase after her postponed orgasm. She sighed in relief when you kissed her sloppily, your lips sucking softly on her sensitive skin, your tongue only barely brushing over her clit before you opened your mouth again to fit as much of her into your mouth as possible, burying yourself into her warmth. Natasha’s back arched, hips rolling against your tongue, a small whimper falling from her lips at how incredibly satisfying it felt to be touched, her hand finding the couch backrest again for some support. You could tell she was trying to be careful, keeping most of her weight off you, nearly hovering over you, but you knew you could take her, and she knew too, she simply needed to be reminded of that. You smoothed your hands up her thighs, caressing her gently as you swirled your tongue over her folds, rapidly building her pleasure back up to its peak. You gripped her hips rather roughly, hugging her lower half as you yanked her whole body weight down on you, Natasha gasping at the increase in pressure, her eyes fluttering open to see you, finding you looking up at her with encouragement and adoration. Her stomach lurched at the sight of you eating her out like you were starved, her composure starting to waver the closer she got to her high.

“Not too rough, is it?” She asked you, out of breath, your wandering hands making it harder for her to concentrate as they trailed up her middle, cupping her full breasts.

“No”, you mumbled incoherently, Natasha hissing at the sensation, her hips jerking forward on their own. She couldn’t hold herself off for any longer, giving into the inviting warmth of your mouth, allowing your hands to guide the movement of her hips as she rode your face. The way her lithe body rolled against you reminded you of ocean waves, her breasts bouncing enticingly with each jolt of her hips. Your jaw was growing tired, your tongue feeling thick in your mouth, but you were determined enough to get her off to keep going. You couldn’t breathe properly, but you barely even noticed, mesmerized by her quiet, desperate moans and her sculpture-like body that only seemed to look even better from your angle that accentuated her curves. The brief idea of making a miniature sculpture of her entered your mind, your wandering hands already memorizing the way her body felt beneath your touch.

“F-fuck”, Natasha moaned, the sound coming out reserved, like she hadn’t quite been able to contain it. She spread her knees wider, smothering your face with her sex, gasping for air as her clit pressed against your nose time and time again, her tense hips snapping erratically into your mouth, her orgasm reaching her with such intensity she could do nothing but tremble. She tried to swallow down the high-pitched whines that pushed up her throat, but they slipped out with each hasty exhale she let out, waves of pleasure crashing through her. You could feel her core pulse against your mouth, her body pushing out more of her arousal to smear over your sticky face. You conformed into the movements of her body, your hands on her waist, holding her gently as she used your mouth to prolong her pleasure.

She let out a long groan when the pleasure finally subsided, turning into a soft buzz that made her body relax as the warmth settled into her muscles and made her want to sink right into your embrace. Her eyes met yours, gaze hazy from the euphoria she had just experienced, her mind fuzzy, longing for your attention. You licked up her folds gently, earning a sigh from Natasha as she slowly eased her weight off your face and lay down on her back over your body, unable to support herself for any longer. The room was filled with your labored exhales as you both caught your breaths, collecting yourselves to be able to speak and move again. Her odd position and the quiet, unanimous puffing made you chuckle, your head lifting off the cushions to reach the apex of her thighs. You kissed her sex gently, moving your mouth to her inner thigh, biting her lightly before suckling the soft flesh hard enough to leave a mark, your fingertips smoothing over her body in a soothing caress, going up her sides and to her chest, your arms eventually wrapping around her lower half in a hug.

“Fuck me”, Natasha sighed in exhaustion, carefully sitting back up and climbing off your body. Her comment made you laugh, an intense blush creeping up your neck to warm your cheeks. You loved it when she was impressed with you, whenever you managed to please her exceptionally well. Natasha looked down at you as you slowly sat up, her lips pursing slightly as she fought the smile on her face, her stomach doing a flip from seeing your flushed appearance.

“You took me so well, detka.” Her tone was praising, her hands automatically fixing up your hair a bit in a caring gesture. She sat down beside you, her hand cupping your cheek to bring you closer, so she could plant her lips on yours. Your knees opened to the sides to allow her closer to you as she deepened the kiss, her lips parting. “Mmh, you’re such a good girl”, she whispered against your lips, the touch of her hands so delicate on your face. You could do nothing but smile, your heart fluttering from the praise you received. She held you close for a moment longer before pulling away, reaching down to the floor to find her shirt, bringing it up to wipe your face clean from the mixture of saliva and come that lingered on your skin. It made you chuckle, a bright smile finding Natasha’s lips. “You’re so beautiful”, she hummed, holding you almost delicately, a stark contrast to the way she had fucked your face just a moment ago. You actually felt a bit sore, but you didn’t mind it in the slightest because the way she looked at you made your head fuzzy from affection as well as lust.

“So are you”, you hummed with a small smirk on your face. “I got inspired again”, you chuckled, Natasha’s brow arching in curiosity, waiting for you to elaborate. “I want to make a sculpture of you.”

“A sculpture?”

“Yes. You’re my muse”, you said playfully, Natasha looking away to hide the small grin on her lips. “I want you in every single piece of art I make”, you hummed, Natasha’s eyes finding your own.

“You’re incredible”, she praised, her hand finding your waist, sliding down to the top of your thigh, stroking the smooth skin there idly, itching to dip her fingers down between your legs.

“Will you pose for me again?” You asked her softly, even though you knew that she would. You didn’t even have to ask.

“Oh, there’s no doubt about that”, she chuckled lowly. “I could never refuse this kind of treatment”, she mused brightly, noticing your hips shift a bit as you tried to ignore the ache in your lower abdomen. Your eyes dropped down to your lap as Natasha’s hand moved to your damp inner thigh to feel the wetness that you had smeared all over yourself by squeezing your thighs together. She gave you a look, a knowing smirk donning her lips. “I think it’s time you get some attention yourself”, Natasha hummed in a low, sensual tone, leaning closer to your ear, kissing your neck gently. “What does my pretty baby want?” She whispered, shivers going down your spine as your forearms broke out in goosebumps. “You can ask for anything at all.” All you got out was a quiet moan, your body feeling so heavy. You just wanted closer to her, you wanted to feel her lips on your neck, you wanted her to mark you, to make sure everyone knew that you were hers. It was ridiculous. You were so far gone, and she hadn’t even touched you. She kissed down your neck, her tongue poking out to caress your skin as she placed open-mouthed kisses over the column of your throat and the underside of your jaw, occasionally nipping you. “What do you want?” She asked again between kisses, moving closer to your mouth. You couldn’t speak, far too focused on her plump lips that finally reached your own. Your moan was muffled by her mouth, your hand searching for hers, guiding it between your legs.

You desperately needed to find relief from the relentless pressure that was making you almost feverish with want. You kissed her harder, brushing your tongue against her own, Natasha opening her mouth wider to deepen the kiss. Her right hand rose up to your neck, fingertips mindlessly caressing the sensitive skin there before her hand found purchase on the side of your neck, thumb stroking softly over the column of your throat. It made your head spin, Natasha swallowing each small, airy moan you let out, her left hand tracing the shape of your folds languidly. Your hips jerked slightly when she tapped your clit with faint pressure, your hands coming up to cup her cheeks, pulling her closer to you, Natasha finding herself back on top of you in no time as you slumped down onto the cushions. She let out a small chuckle, pleased to feel your bare skin against her own as she settled over you, her hips pressing her hand against your core, offering you enough pressure to make you dizzy. She leaned back in to kiss you, the movement of her mouth slow and sensual, her wet tongue brushing only briefly over your lips before she sucked on your top lip delicately. Her breath was sweet and warm, her scent still heavy on your lips and chin, a waft of her perfume mixing with the smell of her arousal. You allowed your hands to sink into her loose curls, tousling up her hair as your fingers scratched gently over her scalp. You couldn’t get enough of her, your body screaming for more of her attention.

Your hips bucked up, searching for her hand, your walls fluttering expectantly. You couldn’t take any more teasing, any more kissing. You needed relief from the numbing tingle in your lower body, your dominant hand leaving her hair to find her hand. Natasha eased herself off your body a bit, her arm braced against the couch cushions to put a few inches between your bodies, allowing you to guide her hand where you wanted it. Arousal shot through you like a bolt of lightning as you took in her flexed abs and the tensed muscles of her shoulder and arm, your mind so incredibly greedy for her. She was too beautiful, too attractive, prompting you to forget about your own pleasure, your hands caressing her waist before rounding to her back and sliding up, feeling the impressive muscles there.

“What?” Natasha asked quietly, a small smirk on her face as she tried to decipher what was going on in your mind.

“You’re so sexy, mesmerizing really”, you whispered, grinning up at her, Natasha rolling her eyes. “Mmh, how are you so attractive?” You moaned, caressing her body, your hands sliding down her front. “I’m obsessed”, you admitted, Natasha chuckling softly.

“I know you are, malyshka”, she crooned, thinking back to all the paintings and drawings you had of her. It was rather obvious to her and everyone else just how obsessed you were with her. You scrunched your nose in mild embarrassment, but the expression was wiped away from your face the second you felt her fingers press over your clit. Your eyes fluttered shut as your chin tilted up, Natasha taking the opportunity to press kisses on your jaw and neck. “You’re so wet. Oh, wow”, she chuckled, her fingers slipping inside in one go. The sensation made you gasp, your hips shifting restlessly, begging for her to move, but she pulled out completely instead, bringing her soaked fingers between you. “Almost too wet”, she smirked teasingly, licking up the slick that clung to her digits. “Fuck”, she whispered, unable to hide her smirk. “This might get messy”, she mused, warmth flushing your cheeks as you took in the sight of Natasha sucking on the tip of her index finger like you were the most delicious delicacy she had been graced with.

“Oh, we shouldn’t be on the couch”, you lamented halfheartedly, Natasha smirking brightly.

“Fuck the couch”, she murmured, kissing down to your breasts as she slowly pulled away from you, kneeling down between your parted thighs. You giggled at her comment, adjusting your position on the cushions, finding a pillow for your head. Natasha grabbed the pair of sweats off the floor, placing the fabric beneath your hips to protect the couch, despite her initial indifference.

“I love you”, you whispered playfully, touched by the fact that she knew you well enough not to mess up your perfect couch.

“I love you too”, she hummed, pressing a kiss on your knee, her gaze dropping down to your glistening sex, hand moving between your legs on its own accord. She bit your thigh gently, her thumb caressing your folds, clearly appreciating how beautiful you looked splayed out for her. You felt your walls clench, the cool air of the living room offering some relief to your heated skin, but it wasn’t enough. She rubbed slow circles over your clit, a soft whine coming from you purely out of desperation. You needed so much more than the gentle touch of her thumb. You tried to press yourself closer to her, wiggling your hips a bit, but it offered you no relief. You grabbed her hand, appreciative of the muscles and veins of her forearm, biting down on your lower lip as you watched the way the blue and green veins bulged out the slightest bit. You guided her fingers to your entrance, Natasha’s gaze shifting automatically to see your face as she slowly slid her fingers inside, filling you up. Your mouth parted in a silent gasp, your eyelids fluttering shut, the grip on her wrist tightening as you immediately started to pump her hand into you, so desperate for more stimulation. She kissed your knee again, clearly missing your lips as she curled her fingers inside you, feeling around your sensitive walls, any movement of her hand causing a jolt of pure lust to go through you. You needed more.

As if fully aware of the thoughts flying inside your head, Natasha brought her thumb to your clit, pressing down on it as she began to move her hand a bit more. She leaned over your body, kissing your lips before going down your neck, her fingers going as deep as they could. Your eyes closed at the pleasure that stirred inside you, hips bucking into her hand impatiently as you tried your best to focus on the way her perfect lips kissed down your collarbones and found your breasts, sucking on the silky flesh before finding your sensitive nipple. The touch of her mouth was much more gentle, slow and sensual, whereas her hand was growing rougher by the second. You heard the loud squelching you were making but you didn’t care, the sound only spurring your arousal on. Your body was so heated, on such overdrive that you felt helpless.

“Natasha”, you moaned quietly, feeling like you were going to burst if she didn’t fuck you harder. She only smiled against your breast, opening her mouth again, her teeth sinking into flesh in a gentle bite. It made your mind blank, your clit throbbing with the need to be touched properly.

“Say it again”, she murmured, her tongue licking over the swell of your breast. She let out a small moan, her left hand stilling as she poured all her focus on the softness of your heaving chest.

“Natasha”, you whined, the sound of your pleading voice making Natasha’s head spin. You groaned quietly, squirming beneath her. “Please.” You moved your hand back between your legs, starting to rub hasty circles over your clit to make the unbearable burn more manageable. She tutted you softly, pulling away from your perfect breasts.

“Let me”, she hummed, kissing down your abdomen, her teeth dragging over the space below your navel, placing gentle bites here and there whenever she couldn’t resist it. Her warm mouth moved across your heated skin and down to the apex of your thighs. You took in a ragged breath when her lips peppered firm, wet kisses over your pubic bone, her teeth scraping over the sensitive area before she finally replaced your fingers with her plump lips. You could have cried from relief, her tongue massaging your clit without any further teasing. The air left your lungs as she moved her left hand inside you, setting a steady pace that would build up your release in no time. You were burning up, your lungs feeling weak with each hasty exhale you let out, a moan escaping you here and there, your head feeling light and airy in the midst of all the pleasure you were feeling.

“Natasha”, you panted, trying your best to communicate to her that you needed her to bring you over the edge or you were going to lose it. Your hand found her left one, your nails sinking into her wrist as you tried to make her go fast, go harder. You let out a deeper moan, a real one, allowing yourself to let go for just a second to hopefully appeal to Natasha’s generous side. You knew she couldn’t resist you, not when you sounded like you were falling apart, like you wanted nothing but her attention, and her attention only. “Oh, Nat-” You moaned in desperation, your back arching, her mouth remaining relentlessly on your sensitive sex. You wouldn’t be able to take it for a second longer. You yearned for her. You needed her to push you over the edge. You needed her so badly. “Mmh, please”, you whimpered, feeling Natasha lose her composure for a moment, her mouth twitching slightly in a smile that threatened to overtake her entire face.

She took a brief moment to rub her lips together, adjusting the angle of her head before bringing her mouth back down to your core, suckling your flesh, flicking her tongue roughly over your clit, the stimulus hitting every single nerve in your body with such intensity you could do nothing but conform to her touch, your back arching, hips bucking into her hand and mouth. Your muscles cramped, toes curling from pleasure, hands searching for something to grip to contain the intensity of what you felt. You couldn’t hear, you couldn’t see, you could only feel. She was everywhere. The coil in your lower abdomen only tightened, becoming unbearable in the matter of a couple seconds, your body hot and sweaty, more than ready for release, and then it hit you full force, the pressure releasing in a sudden orgasm that finally allowed your body to relax. Your walls clamped down on Natasha’s fingers, making sure she stayed inside you as your body writhed in pleasure, waves of warmth swallowing you from head to toe. You held your breath, focusing every ounce of your attention on your orgasm, your release more than satisfactory, especially because it was a result of Natasha’s efforts. She pulled her fingers out of you as gently as she had put them in, flattening her tongue over your folds as she cleaned up the excessive amount of slick your body was producing. You heard and felt her chuckle, the sensation making your body jolt. You responded to it with a small huff, your eyes remaining shut as you reveled in the comfort of your release, feeling your body sink into the softness of the couch, your arms welcoming Natasha into your embrace on their own accord. You got your face full of her hair, its scent hitting your nose in the most intoxicating way, a smile spreading onto your lips. You inhaled the sweet smell, heady with its familiarity and safety. You hugged her close to your chest, overwhelmed by everything that you were feeling, Natasha snuggling into your breasts, pleased to be pressed up against you.

“You’re mmh-” Natasha moaned, pressing her mouth on the side of your breast, kissing the soft skin repeatedly.

“I’m what?” You chuckled, running your fingers lightly down her back.

“Everything”, she hummed, licking a nipple into her mouth. Her words made you smile, eyes fluttering shut at the warmth of her tongue. You turned to your side, sliding Natasha beside you so you would be able to see her face as you cuddled. She looked up at you, smiling softly, her cheeks tinted a soft red, eyes green and bright, as always. You couldn’t pull your gaze off her, your heart squeezing from just how beautiful she was, your smile widening into an excited grin. Sometimes you couldn’t believe that she was yours. She leaned up onto her elbow to be able to kiss you, her sex-swollen lips finding your own. They were so perfectly rosy, so plump, so easy to get lost in. You parted your lips to deepen the kiss, feeling her tongue brush against your own languidly. It was a comforting kind of kiss, one that filled you with love and affection instead of lust and passion.

“I could look at you forever”, you whispered once she pulled away, her eyes flicking between your own for a moment before she leaned down again to place a gentle peck on your lips. You both fell silent after that, the warmth and glow of sex lingering between you, Natasha’s soft body pressed into yours as she caressed your face idly, observing every arch and curve of your features.

“I wish I knew how to paint this”, Natasha whispered, brushing her fingers down the side of your face, wiping away a couple of rogue hairs.

“What?”

“This feeling, you, your face”, she hummed softly, her thumb caressing your lips, eyes fixed on their roundness, enticed by the depth of their color.

“You can”, you assured her, Natasha huffing through her nose.

“I can’t even draw”, she protested, earning a small chuckle from you.

“You don’t need to be able to draw”, you reminded her gently. “You can just use colors, make it abstract”, you explained, looking up at her with a small smile.

“But it won’t capture your beauty”, she said quietly, mildly upset that she wasn’t able to create the way you did.

“Anything you make will be beautiful”, you reasoned, moving your head enough to be able to reach her hand and give it a kiss.

“You’re just saying”, she grumbled with a little pout.

“No. I’m serious. Maybe we should try it out. I know you’ve got an artist in you”, you said teasingly, tickling her side gently, making her smile a shy, little smile.

“You’re so beautiful.” She had a reverent look in her eyes. “I would only ruin your beauty”, she lamented, her fingers never leaving your facial features, finding different ways to caress and pet you. “I ruin things”, she whispered almost silently, halfheartedly, her words nothing but a breath in the stillness of the living room.

“Impossible”, you countered just as softly. “Every piece of art I’ve made has been infinitely better with you involved.” Natasha smiled at that. “You make my world turn, and all that crap.”

“Is that so?” She acquired a bit of humor into her demeanor, amused by your wording.

“Absolutely.” You looked up at her, holding her gaze for a few heartbeats, both of you fully present in the moment. “I mean it, Natasha. You don’t even know how much I mean it.” Her arms tightened around you to make sure you were secure in her embrace. She nuzzled her face into your neck, searching for the warmth of your skin.

“I may not know it, but I feel it.” Her voice was so delicate that it made your heart ache as you held her close, kissing any part of her you could reach, until her skin simply wasn’t enough, your lips craving her own.

“I want kisses”, you mumbled, pulling back, very aware of the tears in your eyes but you didn’t care if she saw them because you felt so safe. She smiled up at you, welcoming you down to kiss her perfect lips. You pecked them once, pulling back to see her face before kissing her firmly again. You loved the feel of her soft lips, the squelch of your mouths, the way your chests pressed together. You loved her. You were obsessed with her, with her soul, her body, her mind. You kissed her again, unable to hide your smile. She held your face so delicately, responding to each and every one of your kisses. You kissed her maybe twenty times. Maybe more. Maybe a hundred times and when you had kissed her for what you thought was the final time, she pulled you back in for another silly, little peck.

[creek-ink]

don't know if u answered this but what supplies do u use for traditional art ? ! ? !

I rly go crazy w mixed media in my traditional art so I also included some pages from my sketchbook ^-^ hope this helps and lemme know if u have any questions!

art bag: by angoo (it's my fav)

sketch book: masters touch mixed media custom cover

water color sets: winsor and newton (white), arteza (black), I also use those weird brushes that hold water

what's in my pencil case?:

- prisma colored pencils

- bic 0.7mm HB #2 mechanical pencils

- prismacolor liners (05 and 03)

- micron liner (05 in like a warm brown)

- uni-ball signo in white

- artist loft alcohol marker in black

- and then this jucey ass unlabel pen from dollar tree (2nd image, between micron and uni-ball pens)

sorry this took so long 4 me to get too- just wanted to be thorough

[writefightandflightclub]

Ride or Die (Santiago “Pope” Garcia x fem!reader): Chapter Eight (of 11 - COMPLETED SERIES)

Series summary: Together, you and Santiago have been “soldiers” then “friends” then “lovers”; but will you ever figure out what comes next, especially when Santiago can’t (or won’t) stop running? 

Genre: a LOT of angst, (some) smut, best friends to… lovers?

Warnings: see collated series warnings, here. Please note, this series is 18+. Minors / ageless blocks interacting will be blocked.

Series info: this is a COMPLETED SERIES. All chapters are written and queued. Posting schedule is here (includes series master list). 

Author’s note: Oh my goshhhhh, I hope you're ready for chapter eight??!!! We've been on such a journey with these two, and I can't wait for you to see where they go next. As always, I would be super grateful for any comments / reblogs / asks you may wish to send my way. ILY :-*

Word count: 8.6k for this part. 

Tag list info: will reblog separately tagging those on taglist. You can request to be added to taglist if you are 18+. Send me an ask, please, so I can keep track :)

In your ensuite, you shower the residue of the day away from your flushed skin, rinsing the sand and sunscreen and sweat away beneath the warm, sluicing water. You’re alone, and yet your thoughts are consumed by another. By Santiago specifically; of course. 

He had promised you something -to give you what you want, need- and you’re trembling already in anticipation of it. You feel butterflies unfurling in the pit of you at the thought of laying down with him. Of baring yourself to him. Of surrendering. Having him hold you. Not urgently or desperately this time - no. Intentionally. Deliberately. Gently. 

You unhook the shower head to rinse the soapy suds away from the contours of you and you think of him - because how can you think of anything else? Indeed, your want is so barreling that even your own hands smoothing over your skin - your breasts, your stomach, your thighs - arouse you, your own touch the precursor to the path his warm, rough fingers might travel. 

You are about to merge with him, but he already feels so much a part of you. 

You belong to Santiago. 

It’s Santiago who is indelibly written onto your body, the map of scars telling the story and you and him. The scar on your shoulder from a bullet wound, the scar on your calf from an off-road collision, the lines and marks all over you where Santiago has been there for you, taken fire for you, pressed his lethal hands to you to keep your lifeforce from ebbing away. 

There’s that, but also, there are the more invisible markers which your life with him - alongside him- has left on your skin. There’s the scrape of his stubble against your neck. The grip of his broad hands on your hips. The pulse between your legs which your body remembers. You have catalogued and cartographed the soft and harsh parts of his body - and his soul. But, you still do not have the map to his heart. He is yet to show you the way; but even so…

He is your ride or die, and your body knows it. Always has. 

Your body knows that you are about to collide with him. To be subsumed by the surge and undertow of him, and you throb for it. You expel a sugared moan into the steamy air as the jet of water provides pressure against your wanting clit, and for a moment you wonder how you can be so gone for him. You have been waiting for him to choose you;  but, in truth, for you it was never a choice. 

One of you can not hope to be read -to be understood- without the other. Your bodies are forever moving through the world as a team, as a pair, even if you leave each other’s side. You didn’t choose it so much as it just happened. A lifetime, wearing familiar dirt tracks into clear waymarked paths with every step forward. 

Still, the map has always remained incomplete. You could never quite see where this path with him ended. How far it could take you. Whether he would walk alongside you some or all of the way. 

You are grateful for him. So grateful. But you always want more. More of him. How could you not? 

Santiago has already made your life beautiful in so many ways. Can he give you something beautiful tonight, too, like he had promised? Something that feels different to those waves which break, over and over, self-defeating. Something that feels different to an ending?

You startle as there is a soft rap at the door, and Santiago’s voice bleeds through the panelled wood, sounding as warm and grainy as sun-heated sand. Like summer. Like sunlight through a clearing in dense, gnarled woods. “Are you ready, querida?”

Are you? 

Are you ready for what he has promised? Because you are suddenly all too aware that what he has offered -in not so many words- is to make love to you tonight. To give himself to you. To let you bask in him. 

Are you ready for that? To see him in more than fragments. Not only snatching the haphazard pieces of him he offers - so jagged that they cut the palm you grasped them tightly in. Are you ready to feel whole? 

Can you take his love if it doesn’t hurt? 

Your heart thuds in your neck; from the hot, billowing steam, and from him. The mere idea of him. You step carefully out of the cubicle, steam venting into the room. Your skin is hot and wet and dripping, and you feel that same way too. 

“Two minutes.” 

You towel off, your hands lightly trembling. 

You think of him, because how can you do anything else?

You think of the water, sluicing down his sturdy body as he showered off in the main bathroom. Of him getting himself ready for you. You wonder if he aches for you as you do for him. You wonder if he grew rigid beneath his hand as you were becoming liquid for him. You wonder, if his heart ever once felt like it had a choice.

You think about him waiting for you right now in the bedroom. Maybe shirtless, black-grey curls wet and tight, his golden brown skin lit with the soft orange glow of the lamp. Of him poised there in the quiet and stillness waiting to collide with you, just like the sea washing over this frayed edge of land in this endless dance - consuming, taking, giving, repeating. Working as a team. 

You wonder if he feels this flutter in him too. This movement in him. This undeniable, slow drag which has always pulled you two to one another. Always. 

And so, he asks you. Are you ready? And you do what you can to prepare yourself for this collision. So eager to merge with him, but basking in the fact that, for once, you get to take your time. That you don’t have to fear or brace, thinking about whether, when you crack the door to the bedroom, he will already be gone. 

Taking your time then, and with subtly jittering hands, discombobulated breath, you smooth sweet-smelling lotion all over your body. Of course, you think of his hands and where they might travel too when they get their chance. Of how Santiago can touch you better than you could ever touch yourself. How he knows your body, seemingly, as well as he knows his own.

And so, you think of him. You think of him and of the ocean and the rocks. Of valleys and summits. Of dense jungles and sunlit clearings. Of the frayed edges of the land and the frayed edges of yourself. Of all the places where things collide and all the places where they merge, and how those places are so often one and the same.  

So then, when you think that you are finally ready? When you have smoothed lotion into your skin and smoothed your pleasant, buzzing nerves, you step out into the bedroom.

And that is the very moment you realise. Realise that you’re not at all ready. That you could never be. How could you be? How could he fail to take your breath away, even once? 

Just look at him. 

You enter the bedroom, your silk robe draped appealingly over the contours of your body and Santiago stands, surging up from where he had perched himself so impermanently on the edge of the mattress. He’s been waiting for you and he looks; immediately. Drinking you in. His jaw falling slack. He looks like he might’ve smiled at first - or greeted you in words. But he can’t do so now. The words are swallowed, perhaps, as a gulp trails down his corded neck. Santiago looks serious, his brows weighted. He looks as though he knows how much this matters. Like he finally knows how much you matter. 

You look at him too, and you find you can’t smile either. After all, Santiago fills you with a joy so heavy that sometimes, it is hard to recognise it as such. 

You simply take him in, then. All at once. The contours and ridges of him, and the paths your hands might travel over his smooth brown skin. You see him. Your lust-ridden and love-sparked eyes dance over his wetted, grizzled curls, scrunched-up but with errant strands coiling across his forehead. You take in his bare, sculpted chest. His toned arms and his soft, inviting stomach. You drink in the way his brushed cotton joggers cling to his ample hips. To his sturdy thighs and to the clear outline of the bulge at his crotch as he swells with anticipation from the sight of you alone. 

His hands hang loose yet primed at his sides as he looks at you from beneath his thick, fanning lashes. The pace of his breathing is slightly quickened, his gilded shoulders rise and fall with greater vigour as he scoops a hand over his flecked stubble and you hear it rasp. Feel it as though his fingers were your own. As though there is no difference or distance between you at all. Not the distance between here and Colombia. Not the distance he runs from you whenever you get too close. 

Your chest tightens with the sheer familiarity of him. Because of the fact you already know how he feels and how he tastes. How the vibration of his moans in his corded throat feel against your skin. Your chest tightens, because even in the mellow light of the room he still looks sharp and sure. Formidable. But he looks like home too. You remember all the ways you already know he is tender, and you want to learn every other way too. 

You take a deep, steadying breath as you sway towards him, from one steamy room to another, Santiago’s warmth every bit as enclosing. You are grateful that the window is cracked open, cool air kissing your heating skin. The sound of the swollen waves mirroring the surge within you.

In this moment, Santiago is not a man to you at all. Rather, he is a landscape. He is your whole life laid out before you. He is everywhere you have been, and he is everywhere you may go. His lands are your topography, and you know that you will walk his paths forever hoping to find a way to his heart. Hoping that, one day, he will let you call him home, even though you’ve already been here learning him for as long as you can remember. 

He is everything. And you’re not ready. And it’s all too much. 

Finally though, Santiago looks certain. He looks ready. He looks at you as though you are the moon and he is the tide, and that within moments he will move oceans for you. That he will flood your frayed edges, smooth and overcoming and inevitable. 

He closes the distance, his warm palm slipping up to gingerly cup your face and his lips slanting to capture yours. His fingertips tugging at the bow of your robe, about to release it. 

But you? You hesitate. You turn, almost impercebtibly, but it is enough for Santiago to notice. 

You hesitate because, by now, you are so used to breaking. And you’re not sure you can do it again. 

For so long, he has viewed you in pieces, and you have started to wonder whether he was the one who broke you apart in the first place. 

Now though? His gentle, earnest eyes reading your face and your body so carefully? His hand reaching out for you in a way that promises healing? That shows his palm holds nothing jagged - nothing but love? 

To your utter surprise, your skin flushes hot with embarrassment and you blink, your lashes fluttering towards your cheek. A modest, bashful smile is primed on your mouth. An apology readying itself on your tongue. It seems silly, you think. Silly to be hesitant now, after everything. Seems silly that after all of the times you have given in when he would promise you nothing, that you would shrink back when he offers you something more. Most of all, you think, it seems silly to be hesitant with him, after all the ways and places and times he has touched you.

You don’t quite understand it, but to his credit, Santiago seems to. When he senses your apprehension, his eyes narrow a little. His brow furrows, and his mouth slants up into a gentle, reassuring smile. 

“Come here,” he says instead, before your garbled, unnecessary apology can free itself from your throat. His voice is as soft as the shushing waves and the mellow light and he takes you by the hand, his fingers twined delicately with yours. He leads you, but not forcefully. He leads you the way the sun leads the moon into the night sky as it chases its warm light - you gladly follow, his palm bleeding heat. His eyes full of sunlight. He leads you then to your bed and he peels the covers back, inviting you to lie with him through a subtle nod of his head. The way this all started the first time he undid you - except tonight, you know, is so very different. 

Santiago climbs in first, never letting go of your hand, and he pats the spot on the mattress exposed by the turned-back comforter. Your fingers tug on your robe and you finally slip out of it, exposing the contours of your body to the pooling lamplight. Santiago’s tongue traces along his lower lip as he drinks you in, watching awestruck as the fabric shimmies to floor, pooling at your feet and leaving you bare. For a moment, you even feel self-conscious as Santiago regards you; for once not frenzied and desperate, but with time to study you. You feel on display and yet he makes you feel nothing but beautiful. Makes it seem natural as you allow the caress of the smooth fabric to be replaced by the warm embrace of him. You slip in beside him, shuffling under the covers. Both of you lying on your side to face each other, but still with some distance between you. 

You breath hitches as Santiago’s arm folds over your bare middle, his lithe fingers applying smooth caresses to your skin, the pads of him dancing up the notches of your spine, tracing the line of your shoulder blade. You are happy for him to touch you. You want it. But you do not reach for him just yet. Your arms remain bunched in the space between you, your forearms guarding your chest. 

“You still want this?” he asks, voice as soft as dissolving sugar. 

You can’t bring yourself to meet his gaze, for you know it will be an irresistible, sweet, moreish thing. You can’t allow him to gaze into the depths of your own eyes just yet. After all, it is not only your body which is laid bare for him. Your feelings are too, you fear. Every single want and dream and desire and insecurity. He can read you. Knows you. 

“Yes,” you attempt to state levelly, and yet your voice cracks wide open. “I want this more than anything.” 

With a soft, perhaps relieved, exhale, Santiago shimmies forward then, closing some of the distance between your bodies. Tangles his thighs up with yours. Shifts his head so you are almost nose to nose on the pillow, dipping briefly to plant a fleeting kiss to the tip of your nose. All the while, too, his hand continues to wander over your body. Stroking you, caressing you, asking for nothing in return, and you bask in these slow, stretched, careful moments. 

“Then… what is it?” 

You finally look up at him then and, try as you might, you can’t disguise the way your eyes shimmer with emotion as you note the way concern has etched its way into his brow. For reassurance, your arms tug tighter into your chest. 

His eyes become liquid too, the earthy mirror to your own. They shine with a deep well of friendship, of care, of love. And you realise exactly “what”.

Part of you is afraid, sure. Part of you has been hurt too much to accept that you could share something truly joyful with the man. But a larger part of you is keen to relish in this waiting and restraint for other reasons.

Why, though? Why on earth would you wait? Hesitate? Well - it’s quite simple, really. Because if it doesn’t begin, it can’t ever be over. If you don’t have him like this - whole, fully - then you can never lose all of him. Losing pieces of him was hard enough, wasn’t it? And you don’t know that you could bear to lose a scrap more than that. 

Santiago’s gaze dips to your mouth and you can tell he’s eager. Good to go when and only if you should give him the green light. You want that. You do. Still, upon examining his expression more closely, something tells you that there is one more wall to fall. You’ve encountered so many of his walls already, that you’re not sure you have the strength to tear this one down. 

In the end, you are grateful that you don’t have to. That he does it for you. 

“You were wrong, you know,” Santiago’s voice sounds out, a gentle tone but full of subtle cracks. His hand slides up, gingerly capturing your cheek in his palm, holding your gaze with his. You don’t know what’s coming, but your chest tightens with some unknown thing, even as Santiago’s thumb tenderly strokes back and forth over your cheek to soothe you. Your brows knot, and you shake your head lightly, exhibiting your confusion. 

Pursing his lips, preparing himself, Santiago tugs the covers up to your shoulders, keeping you warm. “That night in Philadelphia,” he continues, a divot carving itself into his brow at first, and yet a mere moment later, his face lilts into a soft, wistful smile. “That was it. That was the night.” 

His smile widens, ever so subtly, and his eyes shine with enough adoration that you wonder if you’re meant to be here. If he can really be looking at you like that, or if you’ve momentarily stolen someone else’s life. “The night that… what?” 

“The night my dumb ass first realised that I was in love with you. And… the night I first realised you didn’t love me back.” 

You face scrunches with even deeper confusion now. 

What?! But, that couldn’t possibly… 

That night was years before you even hooked-up. Years and years and years before all of this. Before you even felt…. 

Oh. 

Oh. 

Your breath stalls in your chest then as comprehension floods you. 

He loved you first.

Your chest constricts, and your heartbeat pushes the rhythm of his name into your mouth, in lieu of any words. 

Santiago. 

Santiago. 

Santiago. 

All this time? 

He crooks his finger under your chin, his gaze level and calm - no blame in it. “You were wrong, see? You didn’t get there first, querida. I was waiting a long time for you. I guess I got scared you’d never catch me up, and so I…” His eyes swim briefly then, clouding over with something like regret. “...I started running. And I guess I just…” His shoulders hunch up towards his ears. “I didn’t know how to stop.”

Santiago. 

Santiago. 

Santiago. 

Your heart thuds his name, and you are overcome with too many emotions to name. Emotions which bend you from the inside out, mobilising you to unfurl yourself, to move towards him. But you don’t; not just yet. 

You do see it plainly now, as you look into his earnest, regretful eyes. You’d spent so long acting as though he had something to prove to you, but you already know who he is, don’t you? Know that he’d never hurt you if he could help it. You see plainly how it has hurt him to love you. That it still hurts him to love you. 

You don’t want that for him. You never wanted that. In fact, all you’ve ever wanted is for him to feel safe. To feel loved. And so, if Santiago can’t run freely into your safe hands? If he doesn’t believe he’s brave enough to do so? If your arms were closed to him for so long that he forgot what it felt to be open? If all of that is true, then you will reach for him instead.  

“Santiago.” You breathe his name, finally pushing the syllables from out of your chest. Finally squeezing errant tears from the corners of your eyes as you realise all of this time you’ve loved each other alone instead of together like you should have. As you mourn all the missed moments. As you lament all of the things which got in the way. 

That doesn’t matter now though. All of that feels inconsequential. It all feels like bullshit now that your paths have finally converged. 

And so, you do reach for him with your careful, killing hands. It is your turn to gingerly cup his cheek with your palm now, his stubble rasping beneath your hand, and his long-lashed eyes fanning closed as he leans gratefully into your touch. 

There’s so much that you want to tell him. So much that you want to say. 

That you’re here now. That you love him. That he doesn’t need to run. 

But… you don’t want to say it with words. After all, that was never the language you two shared most fluently. You want to tell him with touch. You need to. Want to tell him plainly and hear those sentiments returned in the writhing conflux of your bodies. In the moment, with your love for him spilling out of you, it seems no other way you could tell him - show him - could be enough. 

You reach out then, and with a stuttered inhale, your chest a butterfly house, you press your palm to his warm, bare chest. You feel his heartbeat thudding under your hand. Faster, Faster, Faster, as you touch him. 

You love the man. You will keep his heart safe in the roll cage of your ribs if he’ll let you. You will. You promise. You’ll be gentle with it. No more bracing. No more collisions. 

“Santiago,” you breathe as you move closer. As close as you can get, in fact, your form pressed up against his, skin to skin. “What do you want, right now?” You speak the words into the junction of his neck, his pulse point throbbing against your wanton lips. “What would make you happy in this moment?” 

You feel the deep vibration in his throat as he hums, moans, begs - dumbly - and you know intuitively that he cannot rely on words in this moment either - only on his touch. Can only tell you -show you - what he wants, craves, in the act of reaching for you, his hands finding familiar paths on your skin but walking them in a new way tonight. He reaches for you. Rolls you beneath him in a fluid motion because you yield, already a boneless, molten thing under him. 

He touches you. Caresses you. Kisses you. You return it. For a moment you are a mess of ragged breath and sweat and clashing teeth and tangled tongues. Of pads of fingers and brushed cotton and soft heaving moans. And then, his strong arms bracing him over you, Santiago pauses - amidst a breath snatched from your mouth. Pauses just to look at you there beneath him. His eyes flit all over your face, and he huffs out a disbelieving puff of air. 

”Holy shit, hermosa.”  He looks at you as though you’re the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen. Perhaps you are. His molten, lust-dark eyes certainly make you believe it. 

Still, just before your greedy fingers can wind up and over, brushing over the prickle of short, buzzed hairs at the nape of his neck to drag his mouth back over yours, Santiago shifts, his kiss eluding you.  

Santiago has always had the map to your heart, and as his fingers trail so confidently down your skin, his lips working down the column of your throat, your breasts, your puffy nipples, stubble grazing you, you think that maybe, finally, he is following it home. Your bodies always were symbiotic; moving, fighting, then fucking as a team. He already knows as well as you do that your bodies, the cartography of your love, is a terrain which can be best understood by traversing it. That touch is the language you share. That you were always fluent in. This time, it is not a touch borne out of jealously or frustration or anger. It is not half-hearted or contingent. It is beautiful and joyful and giving. It is soft and attentive and God he’s never felt so good. 

You expel a breathy, silent moan - a plea really - as Santiago presses his body up against yours, his knee nudging to kick open your thighs. His hips dipped to grind his clothed erection into your heat. Your skin heats, desire curling in the pit of you and you kick away the covers, his warmth more than enough now. With a gust of air, a show of restraint - you swear he’s so desperate for you he could have dry-humped you through his clothes - Santiago manoeuvres his sweat pants off of him, and when he settles in position again he is bare and warm and hard against your slick. 

“Are you-? Do we need-?” 

“-I’m protected,” you answer as his muscled form braces over you, his strong arms boxing you in, the tip of his nose nudging yours, his thighs between your parted legs as the straining mass of his arousal glides over your folds. You wrap your legs and arms around him, holding him tightly, your nails tracing lovingly up and down the canopy of his broad shoulders. Twining into the mess of damp curls on top of his head. You feel the press of his soft stomach against yours. The heat of him everywhere. 

His lips meet yours desperately then, his mouth so needy for yours you could swear his lower lip is trembling as he opens up to shove his tongue over yours. “Baby,” he asks, wracked by need already, his brow burdened with the weight of it and his words barely intelligible. “Are you ready for me? I need you, querida.” 

“You’ve got me,” you soothe. “But I… I want you like this.” He looks surprised for a moment as gently, you guide him on to his back, rolling yourself on top of him until you’re straddling his meaty thighs. You take control away from him and for a moment, you can see he feels the loss of it. That he seems vulnerable, unsure. That while he had clearly intended to give into you, fully, that doesn’t mean it’s at all easy for him to surrender. “Just lie back and let me take care of you, okay?” 

His eyes lock on to yours, soft and uncertain, and it occurs to you again that you’ve never taken him like this. That he has always tacitly taken control. That he has always focussed on your pleasure as paramount. His words, whispered against your skin, into the shell of your ear - that’s it, princesa, right there, huh? - still echo in the depths of you. And now, you want to focus on him. Tonight, things are different. 

You feel desire twist in the pit of you as you look at him all spread out beneath you like this. Evidently needy for you, his cock rock hard and nestled against his stomach. You want to keep him on the edge for hours. Want to hear gruff moans unspooling from deep in his chest. Want to see his fingers rake through the sheets and his jaw tipping to the sky as he writhes his curls back into the pillow, eyes rolling to oblivion. 

You want to kiss him, everywhere. Want to smooth your hands over his brown skin until he melts into the mattress. You want to cover him with your body until he feels safe. 

You want him to feel safe. 

As you examine his form, already near boneless on top of the mattress but reaching for you - reaching with his fingers, with a jut of his chin to raise his pretty mouth, with a buck of his hips to chase your friction -  you settle for a compromise. A balance of your urges to demolish and exalt him. 

For a moment then, you even entertain the idea that you can exhibit restraint enough for foreplay. To tease him. To drag this out. Indeed, Santiago whimpers, an uncharacteristic sound from a man too stubborn to ever admit defeat, and with the sound, your stomach lurches with want. He grows entirely needy as you suckle at his neck, leaving purple love bites in your wake.

You shuffle your hips down his sturdy thighs so that you can fold to slide your tongue over his pecs, circling his pebbled nipple, beginning to trail your warm, wet mouth down his abdomen in a way that makes his glistening cock -wet with your juices- twitch on air. 

“Please. Goddamn,” he begs already, his thighs shaking beneath you, and you don’t need to be told twice. You want the thick, needy, ruddy length of him inside of you as badly as he appears to want that too.

You’ve waited long enough for this. To hold him so completely and to love him with your whole body. 

And so, you shift up until your slick arousal settles over the hot, straining mass of him. It’s slippy - you’re so wet already, and the contact earns a deep, guttural noise from him. 

Then, as you settle in position, automatically - more than automatically, like it’s preordained - Santiago’s hands settle at your hips the moment you are on top of him. They rest in that familiar place he loves to hold, fingers splaying, pads digging into your supple flesh. He grips you in his broad, lethal hands. 

Hands that were trained to kill but made to hold you tenderly; just like this, you think. 

He holds you, and ever so suddenly everything falls into place. As though you were lost all of this time and you have finally found where you were supposed to be. Like someone just handed you a map and assured you you can never lose your way again - not now that you’ve found him. Not as long as you hold on and don’t let go. 

You look down at him, your whole world beneath you and Christ, he’s usually beautiful - luminescent even - but you’ve never seen him look quite like this before. He looks… undone. Unguarded. Needy. Dishevelled. Vulnerable. His lust-blown eyes are blackened with desire yet shining too with adoration. His lids are heavy. Screwing shut as you glide yourself along his shaft. Gusts of breath coming from the circle of his soft, plush lips. That stubbled jaw raising, tipping up as his crown of lustrous curls beds down into the pillow. Light and shadow pooling and dancing and swimming in the contours of him - his sharp nose and heavy brows and sculpted chest. All that and more; but the true beauty? 

The true beauty is when his eyes flutter open once more; and you clearly see the eyes of your best friend looking back at you. 

You see him all at once, rather than the parts of him he’s attempted to compartmentalise. 

Emotion and desire twist in your gut and all you want in that moment is to show him. To show him that he’s loved. 

He’s so, so loved. 

And so are you. 

You hinge at the hips, your head falling to the side of his, temple to temple, cheek to cheek, his stubble rough against you. His familiar scent, woody and citrus, fills your lungs. You feel his brow against yours is already slick with a sheen of sweat as you dip your mouth towards the shell of his ear. “Are you ready?” 

His voice is hoarse. He is levelled by his want, but his face still cracks with a smile, the muscles in his cheek shifting against yours and the rake of his stubble conveying heat all the way to your core. “Are you kidding? I know you didn’t miss this.” 

He plants his feet and bucks his needy shaft against you with greater pressure, the head of him pressing at your swollen clit, gliding over it. You moan at the unexpected zip of pleasure, blooming out from your centre to every extremity, and you feel Santiago’s dirty, satisfied chuckle vibrate through you, chest to chest. 

His chuckle quickly digresses to a moan as you return the favour just as suddenly. As you rise slightly on your thighs, until you are able to grip his aching shaft in your hand and notch him in position, your folds caressing the blunt head of him. His grip on your hips tightens as you lower yourself on to him, feeling how he spreads you open as his girth pushes past your entrance with a thick, hot glide. 

Santiago chokes as he bottoms out, and you can feel him throb and pulse in your centre as he adjusts to the sensations. 

You feel full of him. Full in every sense. 

Fuck. You didn’t know. You didn’t know it could feel like this with him. Light. Playful. Delicate. Joyful. Beautiful. 

“Fuck, hermosa,” Santiago keens as you begin to move, folding over him once again, covering him with your body, your thighs enclosing his ample hips and your forearms planted, bracing yourself against the cushioning either side of his head. 

It feels soft and syrupy as you enclose him in your wetness. Sweat beads and gathers between your bodies as you undulate and rise and fall on him, the slow, sensuous drag of you causing him to bite down into the meat of your shoulder, his breath hot as it billows into the hollow of your collarbone. 

Santiago clings to your hips for a moment, an admirable attempt to guide your motions - until it all becomes too much. Until he surrenders fully and lets you lead. His hands first fist into the sheets at his side, and then they wrap around your back, coming to rest there, his fingers intermittently dancing over your skin. For once, his embrace is not a desperate thing. He’s not attempting to pull you closer or to push you away. He simply wants you exactly where you are. Exactly like this. 

It’s tender, the way he’s touching you. The way he’s trusting you and letting you set the pace. The way he kisses a string of pearls along your skin, the wet, percussive sounds filtering down to your bones. It makes you feel some kind of way, so you try desperately to focus on the sensations his friction is stoking in your centre. In the way the glide and drag and pressure of him inside of you is causing a steady, building, eddying ball of light to hover in the core of you, getting ready to burst out and fill your whole body with sunshine. 

It has felt dark, sometimes, to love him. But right now? It feels like dawn. 

You screw your eyes shut against the dam of emotion breaking within you. Against the tears threatening to spill over. You distract yourself from feeling too much all at once, planting kisses along the length of his beautiful, sculpted jaw. By devouring his mouth the way one would savour a feast. Slowly. Intentionally. Your tongue, ever so deliberate against his. 

“Fuck,” Santiago curses, his voice trembling. “You’re dripping all over me. Jesus fucking Christ.” 

You are. You can hear it. Feel it. This pooling slick between your legs being worked out of you. Coating him. Making everything smooth and fluid and easy, after so long with such friction between you. 

You ride him like this, communing with grunts and moans. Communing with his body, which you read so well. So automatically. You know what each shift and expression passing over his face means. You understand the tightening of his thighs beneath you. You can read his breath, his touch, his sounds, his movements, and you relish in the ways that you know him. All the ways you know how to make him feel good. 

You kiss a bead of sweat from his temple, the salt flooding your tongue as you rise up on him, lifting your body away from his to let the cool air soothe your heat-pricked skin. Relishing the look and feel of him beneath you. Relishing the way he drinks the sight of you in too with a slack-jaw, watching the way your hips work over him. The way your breasts bounce and sway lightly with the motion. You shift your angle slightly, until a long, gritted exhale unspools from Santiago’s plush mouth, his pretty eyes fluttering shut and his grip on your hips unwavering but weakening. 

“That’s it. Right there? Just like that?” 

“Uh. Uh huh,” he replies through gritted teeth, his expression looking pained as he tries to work through it. “Holy shit, baby.” 

You beam a devilish smile down at him until his eyes spark with mischief, and your core clenches on his dick as you watch him swipe the pad of his thumb over his pink, supple tongue, liberally gathering spit. He reaches for you, rubbing the pad of him gently against your clit. 

“Good?” 

Good? Yeah. Good enough to make your toes curl and your legs weaken beneath you. Good enough that you can scarcely continue your ministrations, your body sagging forward again, slumped almost boneless over him. 

“Tired?” Santiago asks you, and you stubbornly answer no despite the burn and tremble in your spent thighs. He sees right through it. “Let me flip you over?”

Reluctantly you concede and he rolls you, carefully, staying inside of you and never breaking contact. Settling your back against the mattress and his sweat-sheened body over you like a canopy. Like safety. 

He kisses you - deeply. 

He thrusts himself inside of you, the noises between your bodies obscenely wet by now, his grunts and groans percussive as he continues to stoke that white hot ball of light in your middle. 

He has never rocked you like this. So tenderly. So reverently. Slow and sure. Not racing towards any ending. He makes love to you as though he’s not afraid of any kind of ending at all. Like this perfect moment can just stretch on forever. Like he can always be buried inside you. 

You, though? You are still afraid of that ending. 

It feels good. God. It feels impossibly good to be held by him like this; but it’s bittersweet. Bittersweet enough that you still have to screw your eyes shut against the flood of emotion you are continuing to hold back behind that dam. 

Santiago’s lips graze your cheek, a softly planted, lingering kiss. “Hermosa,” he encourages. “Look at me.” 

“I can’t,” you admit, and you feel a sting of prickled heat beneath your eyelids. You feel vulnerable, exposed, in a way you’re not used to either. You feel like you want to run, but you know now. That never did very much good. 

“Look at me,” he insists, his voice soft and smooth, no sand left in his throat. So you do. You trust him. You follow him. Walk with him, like you’ve been on the same road all along, each without a map. 

You don’t know what you expect to see when you open your eyes, but all you do see is his gaze fall softly on yours, even as he fills you. You see him as a friend and a lover. You see him as everywhere you’ve been and everywhere you’re going. He’s a landscape, and his whole being is expansive and opened up to you. 

He fucks into you, his pace consistent and steady, and he plants intermittent kisses over your cheeks, scattering them into your hairline, your neck, the corner of your mouth. That ball of light inside you tightens, shrinking down, and you know it’s getting ready to burst. To radiate out into every extremity. 

You feel like you’re heavy and weightless at the same time. Like you’ve sunk so far into the mattress that you’re inches below it. Like you’re floating up to the ceiling. “It f-feels too g-good,” you stutter, your voice mere breath.

It does - feel too good. Not just the sensations, but him. The familiarity and safety of him feels too perfect to risk never having this again. 

Your eyes roll back into your head as Santiago keeps hitting that spot deep inside of you over and over, pleasure sparking and sizzling, white hot. “It’s okay, querida. I got you. Just keep looking at me. I got you.” 

You wrap him up like the gift he is, your legs folding around him, the tender soles of your feet settling on to his plush ass cheeks. Your arms winding around his middle, tightening, drawing him to you. Drawing him so close to you that you can’t look at him anymore, his head buried into the junction of your shoulder, his curls tickling your cheek. You draw him close enough that there is no space between your writhing bodies. So close that you don’t know where he ends and you begin, a mess of breath and sweat and limbs like twined dense jungle.

I love you.

I love you is what you want to say. I love you too is what you want to hear back from him - but your mouth makes the shape of some different words instead. “I don’t want to lose you.” 

It’s a broken, laid-bare plea. It’s what all this comes down to, isn’t it? You can’t fathom losing him. Can’t fathom being without him. 

“Cariño,” Santiago speaks against your neck, his lips sliding hot and wet down the column of your throat. “I’m never lost when I’m touching you.” 

It’s not what you wanted to say. It’s not what you wanted to hear. But you realise, in that moment, as Santiago moves his mouth to meld desperately with yours. As a lone tear sluices over the bridge of his strong nose. You realise that the words each of you spoke mean the same damn thing anyway. 

His tongue shoves unceremoniously over yours then, Santiago coming undone now, ragged and frayed like an edge of land as you wash over him, flooding him with liquid. He opens you up, everywhere. The cave of your mouth, your weeping cunt, your heart breaking open like dawn. 

You moan and he punches your name from his lungs as his hips stutter into you. His thrusts become sloppy but he keeps consistent pace long enough to tip your pleasure over the brink. For you to come undone, a star bursting from your middle, light pulsing out to every extremity and sending jittering aftershocks through your body. You clamp down on him, hold him close to you as you ride it out, your head buried in the crook of his shoulder, his creamy load pumping into you, deep and urgent, and his disbelieving, wracked moans sounding in the shell of your ear. 

You convulse on him, squeezing every last drop from him, your legs quivering. 

You cling to him. Cling to him for dear life as your pleasure swells and breaks and ebbs and flows. 

In turn, Santiago comes down with a shudder, his chest rising and falling in ragged breaths above you. Eventually, he slips out of you, wordlessly, his eyes shining still with unwaning, transparent adoration. He kisses you, everywhere. Puts his hands on you. He laves his tongue over you in gratitude. He kisses every crook and peak and contour and valley of you. He kisses your scars, his mouth curved with a smile the whole while. He applies love across the cartography of you, of your life together. He presses his lethal hands to you and he kills you; softly. Gathers you up to him. 

It is then, in this moment of impossible tenderness, that your tears find their release. 

It floods you. All the times you’ve almost lost him. All the times you should have been holding each other close instead of pushing each other away. All the times you should have been cherishing this beautiful, fragile thing between you instead of fearing it. 

You let the tears eke out; but then Santiago kisses them away too, concern shimmying in his molten eyes. 

In this moment, you feel that he’s loving you how he’s always wanted to love you. Showing you what he’s always wanted to show you. 

And then, something else slips out of you. “I love you.” Your voice is small. Afraid. Even now. 

But this time, Santiago does not hesitate. “I love you too.” 

A few more tears fall. You would like to believe they are happy tears, but you still somehow feel that they are bittersweet. 

Wordlessly, Santiago shifts you, gently, bundling you up against his warm, sturdy chest. 

You listen to his heartbeat thudding in the shell of your ear, noticing it gradually slow. 

You let him trace idle shapes into your skin. 

Let him hold you close, until he stills. Until his breathing is so soporific that you wonder if he has succumbed to sleep. 

“You still awake?” You venture. 

“Yeah.”

“We made a mess.” 

“I know. But it’s okay. I put you in the wet patch.” 

The laugh that escapes you is unexpected. Shifts some of the heaviness in your chest. You bat him playfully in the pec, tweaking his nipple for good measure. “You’re a bastard, Garcia.” 

You think his throaty, reciprocal laughter is the most beautiful sound you’ve ever heard. “I’m kidding! I’m kidding!” 

You shift back just a little, enough to look up at his face. His teasing grin slips effortlessly into something far softer and more earnest when he’s looking at you. 

“Come here,” he proposes softly, guiding you up. Leading you back into the shower. You follow him. You follow him though he never would seem to follow you anywhere. 

Still, you push all that away, in favour of the here and now. With him looking at you like that, what else is there? 

And so, you let yourself enjoy it. You enjoy it as he playfully tweaks your nipple in return and you giggle. As he wraps his arms around you from behind and your fingertip draws a tentative heart in the steamed-up mirror. As he leads you into the cubicle with him, beneath the spray of warm water. 

As you step beneath the stream with him, his fingers twined with yours, you realise that he’s taking you all over again. Making you his, but not by fucking - no. This time, he’s taking you with his soft eyes. With the way his soaped hands move with reverence over your slick body, reluctantly washing the traces of him away from your skin. With the way his mouth moves languidly against yours - and he tastes of soap but you don’t care. He’s taking you. Piece by piece. Taking you until there’s nothing left. Until your heart has migrated little by little, bit by bit, into the roll cage of his chest. Gently, this time - as though for once he might even keep it safe. 

You dry off together, and you settle back on to the bed. 

Already, you can feel Santiago packing this away. 

Putting his heart back inside his chest like a folded map.  

You drag his lips to yours and you kiss him. You’re not sure if you’re trying to kiss him to death or kiss him to life; but you know that you have to kiss him with everything you’ve got regardless.

You know that you have to beg him, without words. With touch. The language you two have always shared, your bodies moving symbiotically through this world, as a team - no matter the distance between you. One of you incapable of being read without the other. 

You know that you have to beg him. 

Stay. 

Stay. 

Stay. 

Stay; ‘til the sun comes up. 

Stay; forever. 

For every new day. 

He could never run towards you, he insists. Not yet. So, instead, you reach for him, your arms wide open. You soften your lethal hands. You relax that killing grip. You make him feel safe. Feel loved. It’s all you’ve ever wanted, if only he would let you try. 

“Turn over,” you whisper, with a soft curl of your lips, and he does so. He lets you wrap him in your arms, chest to his back, and he hums - a low, resonant sound - as you plant a lingering kiss to the back of his neck. You stay like that, until the both of you fall asleep. 

It turned out to be a beautiful night. The most beautiful night of your life, in fact, with the person you love most in all the world. You held him all night. Kept him safe and warm. 

But, when you wake up, you feel only cold air at your back. Cold sheets under your palm as you reach for him. 

Maybe he did stay, at least until the sun came up. But now, he is gone. 

In truth though, you’re not even upset. At least, maybe… you’re not even surprised. 

He’d promised you something that didn’t feel like an ending. He’d given you that, but in many ways it had still felt like a goodbye. 

At least this time, you had said the kind of goodbye you would have wished for. Not an angry, bitter thing. At least this time, you did all you could to let him know how you feel, in all the ways you know how. 

You sit up on the edge of the bed, and you tug in a long slow breath, releasing it into the quiet solitude of the room. 

Is it true that there are some people who you can only ever love in fragments? 

You don’t know, honestly. For now, you only know that you feel broken into pieces too. 

It always hurts when you say goodbye to him, doesn’t it? 

At least this time, it was a more beautiful thing; just like he’d promised, right? 

And, as you stand and move to begin your day, you remind yourself that he hadn’t promised you any more than that. 

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INKtober 2024-Knight⚔️

Last year I drew the Red Knight, thus, I’m following him up with THE BLACK KNIGHT!Sometimes a villain, sometimes an antihero, but usually a mystery!

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I forgot to post this Bella drawing I did a few days ago! I was playing around with blending my markers again. I'm really happy with it!

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Chapter Two: Adjusting

(Gotham Rogue Vlad Masters prequel)

Chapter one | The Lab | Masterlist

Vlad liked to think he was good at adjusting.

He’d managed to adjust to his own death after all, but this was making him question that ability of his.

Adjusting to being the primary caretaker of two children was something Vlad was apparently not very good at.

He knew this because Jazz was very vocal about it.

“He doesn’t like his eggs like that!” Jazz complained as he set down food in front of Daniel. The boy stayed silent, poking the egg with a fork. “You need to cut it up smaller! Let me do it!” The redhead tried to jump and snatch a knife from the block, but Vlad wrapped an arm around her middle and deposited her back in her chair.

“I will do it.” He refused to get frustrated. Deep breaths. He couldn’t blame children for being annoying after being orphaned. Even when they were really, really annoying.

He cut up the egg until Jazz stopped glaring at him, effectively pulverizing it. Daniel was happy with the end result, eagerly shoveling it down. Jazz barely touched her food after she’d stabbed or repeatedly, it felt like a threat.

They’d warned him that Jasmine would likely be difficult to handle. They’d tried to place her in a foster home while Daniel was still in the hospital and she’d had a rather violent reaction. Her case worker said that she felt like she had to be the one to take care of Danny and that she would likely fight him on every aspect of his care. They’d stressed to him not to let her, that she had to be a kid and not her brothers parent. Fighting her was becoming exhausting. Everything he did was wrong.

She refused to talk with the children’s therapist he drove them two hours to see, only speaking to psychoanalyze the therapist and throw everything back in her face.

Daniel’s therapist said he was compartmentalizing the accident because he didn’t understand what had happened. He talked about death calmly, telling every stranger how his parents were dead, but it was okay because they would come back as ghosts.

Unlike his therapist Vlad knew that ghosts did exist and that Daniel had been raised by ghost hunters, it wasn’t a strange deduction to make. Vlad himself wondered if the Fentons, if his beloved Maddie, had become ghosts, but he couldn’t abandon the children to go and look for a possibility. Only some ghosts in the ghost zone were once human, others were manifestations of concepts and ideas.

The children had scars to show from the accident. Jazz had burns on her hands that she screamed and kicked at him for touching when it was time to apply her scar cream. She wanted to do Daniel’s by herself but he’d managed to talk her down to just helping. The fight exhausted him, but Jazz seemed pleased.

Daniel’s scars were worse, with large branching Lichtenberg scars down his chest and arm that were an angry pink. He cried when they applied cream to them, Jazz snapping at him to be more gentle no matter how hard he tried to not hurt the boy.

He picked two rooms on the first floor for the children and moved his stuff to a room down the hall, close enough to where he could reach them easily but far enough that it wasn’t suffocating. He gave them children’s catalogue and a marker and told them to pick whatever they wanted for their rooms.

Daniel circled everything that had to do with space, finally talking more as he told Vlad about stars. They filled his room with space ships and star charts and he purchased a high end telescope for one of the castle towers. Daniel was over the moon about it.

Jazz refused to circle a single thing. She glared at him when he tried to suggest things and focused on helping Danny choose.

Vlad hadn’t gotten this far in life by not being able to read people, so he studied the girl. Her eyes lingered on stuffed animals and she often chose teal and pink when Danny asked her to colour with him, the clothes she’d meticulously put away in her closet were mostly flowery sundresses. Somewhere behind the mask of anger and overprotection there was a little girl who enjoyed things.

He asked for Daniel’s help and they put together a little girls room with stuffed animals and a full wardrobe.

Jazz refused to use it, sneaking in and sleeping on Daniel’s floor until he put a bed in the corner for her. It had an aqua blue comforter the same shade as her eyes and a bedside table with a lamp.

She looked at the bed for a long time before she looked up at him with her piercing gaze.

“Thank you.”

Vlad didn’t hide his surprise well, eyebrows shooting upwards. Jazz just sniffed at him, turning her nose up and walking away to play astronauts with Daniel.

-

Perhaps it was the trauma, but the children lasted a week before the fights started. According to the case worker siblings were supposed to fight, but this was ridiculous.

They fought over everything, mostly because Jazz didn’t trust Daniel to do anything by himself. She threw a fit that she wasn’t allowed to bathe him.

“It’s my job!” She screamed in his face, expression twisted in anger with tears in her eyes. “I’m supposed to take care of Danny! You’re supposed to hunt ghosts, I’m supposed to help Danny!”

“It’s not appropriate, Jasmine.” He sighed as he wrestled with Daniel to get his clothes off. Super strength was nice for some things, like being able to stay looking Jazz in the eye when Daniel’s foot connected with his jaw.

Jazz tried to think of more words and screamed when she couldn’t, storming away and slamming the door to her room. Hey, at least she used the room for something.

Daniel eventually got in the bath once he realized Vlad had bought him a toy spaceship that floated. He only whined a little as Vlad scrubbed his hair.

“You like baths?” He asked as he dunked a tiny space man under the water.

“Depends on the day.” Vlad didn’t dislike baths as long as his face didn’t get wet. He’d discovered that particular trigger by accident while washing his hair. He now washed his hair with his back to the shower head and washed his face with a wet washcloth.

“Oh. Are you supposed to pee in the bath?”

“No, Daniel.”

Daniel smiled at him, looking so much like his father.

“Oops.”

Vlad sighed, glad his drain was an external switch and not submerged, and grabbed the shower head.

Once Daniel was finally clean he wrapped the child in one of his monogrammed towels and carried the child over his shoulder. Daniel shrieking with laughter and kicking his feet.

He ended up having to chase the naked child around for ten minutes before he got him clothed in pajamas. Daniel just laughed the entire time, overjoyed at the game.

Vlad thanked a higher power when Jazz told him she could shower all by herself.

-

It was the beginning of the week when Jazz finally asked for something.

He had been working on his computer in the study, remotely handling his job duties as a CEO. He’d taken a step back from the company in the wake of getting the children, his company still small enough that it wasn’t a big deal.

He saw a flash of aqua and turned his head to see Jazz standing in the doorway. Her arms were folded and her hands were tucked away from sight.

“Jasmine?” He checked his watch, it would be bedtime soon. He’d left the children in front of the tv so he could work, but had told them how to find him if they needed.

“I have a request.” Jazz stared at him, feet shuffling nervously.

“What is it?” Honestly there were few things he wouldn’t give her.

“You helped mom and dad make stuff right?”

“Yes, I suppose I did.” The three of them had made many things in their college days and had created blueprints for many more.

Jazz nodded to herself, taking a deep breath.

“I want an ecto blaster.”

Vlad blinked in surprise at the small girl, caught off guard. Jazz seemed to take his lack of answer badly, rushing to talk more.

“I had one before, dad made it! They took it away when they took me and Danny and didn’t give it back.”

Vlad chewed on that for a long moment. Jazz hadn’t asked for anything yet other than this and he needed to prove to her she could come to him for things, but should he arm a child? He knew the reasonable answer was no, but this wasn’t any child, this was Maddie’s daughter.

“Would that make you feel more safe?” It wasn’t as if Jazz hadn’t been arming herself with whatever she had on hand. She’d thrown a book at the head of someone in the therapists waiting room for asking Daniel a question.

Jazz nodded eagerly.

“Would you promise to use it only when strictly necessary, which means not just when someone makes you mad?” An ecto blaster was made to hurt ghosts, but it didn’t feel particularly nice to humans either. It would hurt him either way, so he really hoped this decision wouldn’t mean Jazz just shot him in the face when they fought.

Jazz nodded again, face hopeful.

“We’ll see. Prove to me you can handle your anger.” He needed time to recreate a smaller scale ecto blaster anyways, it would give him a chance to be sure about his decision.

A cloud of anger crossed over Jazz’s face before she shook her head and nodded, turning on her heel and marching away.

He finished typing his email before getting up and cracking his back, heading to the living room to get the kids ready for bed before Jazz could try and do it by herself.

-

Vlad learned new things about the kids with each day.

Jazz could somehow vault over the table, apparently Maddie taught the children acrobatics as well as weapon handling.

Danny mostly had just been taught how to break out of a hold since he was so small, and Maddie had told him to escape by any means necessary. Unfortunately this meant that Daniel decided biting Vlad hard enough to to draw blood was a good way to solve his problems. Vlad was glad he healed fast and had a high pain tolerance, but prying Daniel off his arm still wasn’t fun.

“He did that to dad a lot.” Jazz walked over and plugged Daniel’s nose until he unclamped to take a breath. “That’s how mom got him off. You’re not allowed to do it though, just me.”

Vlad smiled a tight smile, clamping a hand over the red splotches growing on his white button up and standing to bandage it before it healed over.

After that he started calling Daniel little badger, which delighted the boy.

Jazz, he decided, was more of a tabby cat. He’d always considered Maddie a wild cat, while Jack was more of a bear. Jazz was like a kitten, angry and hissy, but small and needed protecting.

She reminded him of the feral cat that used to live in his parents back shed, a fiery orange tabby that hissed at him. He’d eventually earned her trust only to find out she was protecting kittens. A coyote got them one day while he was at school.

Jazz did not like the name tabby cat, glaring at him and ignoring anything he said. She only responded to Jazz and Jasmine, while Daniel liked only Danny and Badger.

He’d left her stuffed bear on the bed of his room and it had disappeared, but he’d seen a fuzzy ear peeking out from under the comforter when he checked them at night. He took that as a hopeful sign.

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Most common funerary burials by flight:

Putting this one below the cut due to death mentions and burial descriptions I understand this can be a topic of discomfort no matter how vague one is when speaking on it <3

Arcane: opalization, the body is taken and layed in the shallows of intensely magic rich pools in a resting position, where it will rapidly opalize in a matter of weeks or months due to the volitile arcane energy of the land, sometimes individual scales are opalized instead and the rest of the body is cremated to be scattered amid their favorite place of study

Earth: mummification, the body is taken and embalmed, richly doused in spices, oils, and linen wraps, the organs removed are in canopic jars that resemble the dragon's own visage. Some earth mages practice petrification of the body as well upon request. Another practice is glass blowing cremated remains into colorful works of art, often colorful globes of glittering glass or glass sculptures of the deceased's visage

Shadow: the body is often cremated and the ashes greatly compressed into logs or bricks, before being soaked in spores and water to allow the mushrooms the the tangled wood to reclaim them and take them home. Other practices include burials or creating wrought iron burial markers. Celebrations of life are held around these burial sites

Light: due to the.... emperor problem.... graveyards have rapidly been destroyed and the fear of merging with Luminax sits like a stone in the heart of every imperial. Cremation is the most common practice as of now but celestial burials used to be common practice where the sun would always be able to touch you even in death (also known as sky burials) a new practice adopted from the earth flight includes taking these cremated remains and turning them into glass suncatchers

Plague: plague dragons believe that returning to the land you've survived is a must, dying of old age is a great achievement!! Often the body is returned to the land, buried or laid to be reclaimed by the ecosystem. Some more sentimental dragons or close loved ones will save scales or tan parts of wing membrane to carry close to their heart

Nature: burials are the most common practice, continuing to feed the shrieking wilds, some pathways have small markers or idols where loved ones frequent so that they can continue to pay homage in the labyrinthian jungle

Ice: ice dragons actually do not freeze their deceased, instead they take parts of membranes and tan them before tattooing a depiction of their loved one into their own hide, complete with a name, date of birth and date of death, its too cold to dig in this land so they cremate the remains and scatter them amid the tundra so in spring they can help the flowers return. The tanned memento is kept with a clan's priest, shaman, or spiritual leader with the rest of them, under expert care

Fire: forge pyres, often when fire dragons die their own heat resistance can make cremation a difficult process. So their remains are given to forge masters who are capable of reaching intense heat, working bellows and feeding the flames until the body is reclaimed by the flames. Other practices include caldera funerals, where the body is taken to be sunk in the lava of volcanoes or lava floes. Sometimes blackened skeletons can be reclaimed by loved ones in doing this

Wind: sky burials. The body is taken high up and laid under open sky for the sun and the wind to reclaim, it is believed that in doing this their spirit may continue to soar. Also refered to as celestial burials

Water: sinking of the body in designated graveyards is a common practice, often referred to as a burial at sea. Tiny tiny fragments of the dragon are often kept to be artificially put into oysters so that a pearl can be formed from their loved one's remains. Another practice is water cremation or Alkaline hydrolysis is another practice that is starting to gain traction

Lightning: the desert sand is not suitable for proper burials and grave markers aren't reliable in the shifting expanse, often the body is dehydrated first before undergoing electrical cremation, with no fluid the body will burn rapidly, the ashes then mixed with sand are placed amid one of hundreds of electrical storms with a tall metal rod in the center of the remains. To be struck by lightning turning them into "fulgurites" or "fossilized lightning" these unique and intimate structures are then returned to loved ones to be kept similarly to an urn

There are always exceptions to funeral practices. Dragons like obelisks and imperials often require additional care in the event the obelisk returns to stone or cremation is not an option for the imperial but these are the common or most popular practices in each region (non cannon)

As always I'd love to hear your own headcannons and takes too!!

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If it's okay could you do something with yandere! Ciel and yandere! Sebastian x timid reader who develops stockholm syndrome? 👀 There would be no escaping them theyre too powerful rip.

! Yandere!Sebaciel x Reader !

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tw: mental abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, neglect

Ciel and Sebastian were both partners before you came around, but when you did, something clicked inside the two of them. They didn’t need to verbally express it. All it needed was a mutual look in the eye to know what each other wanted.

Ciel being a yandere is troubling, but both? You’re in for a ride.

They’re two different yanderes. Sebastian likes to tend to you, keeping you as safe as possible. Ciel likes to mark you, to make you his territory.

Sometimes Ciel will go over the top. Of course he won’t do things you explicitly tell him no to. Though if he can, he’ll bruise you, bite you, or write on you with permanent marker.

Sebastian treats you like you’re his master/mistress, except, times 10.

..This scares you. A lot. You can’t go anywhere with the feeling of Sebastian lurking over your shoulder. Ciel’s presence is threatening, you have to walk on eggshells with him.

And at the end of the day, you couldn’t bring yourself to entertain them. It just lead you to be punished.

Sebastian’s punishments are emotional anguish. He’s the most caring, so you’re drawn to him more than Ciel. Admittedly, you don’t mind the way he tends to you. It’s the way he does it. So when he randomly stops tending to you snd gets Ciel to do it, you panic.

This continues until you beg for him to keep going. Even then, he won’t continue if you don’t say you’re sorry.

Ciel’s can be physical and mental, albeit not straight up punching you, he will make you constantly feel uncomfortable. Being a bit too close, wearing textures you find unpleasant, and wearing clothes colored to make your eyes sore.

One of Ciel’s punishments, he had you on your knees in front of him. He was slowly stroking your cheek, breathing softly through his mouth. He was close enough that you felt the heat on you, and it made you quite uncomfortable.. especially with how close his thumbs were to your eyes.

The moment you began to fall in love, was the moment you broke. It was the same night Sebastian found you trying to escape the manor.

“Whatever do you think you’re doing?” he states, tray to his hip. “My, my..”

He ordered you to sit on the couch, being guarded by Baldroy. He told Ciel what had happened, and they both agreed on a punishment.

You were in an old room the household rarely ever touched. It was completely cleared out, perhaps originally going to be used for storage or a guest room. They sat you in there. There was nothing to do.

You sat in there for who knows how long. None of them told you an exact timeframe. Though, Ciel said it was between a few days and two weeks.

The only way you survived was being given water and plain food. White bread with unsalted, dehydrating crackers. The way they gave it to you? They waited until you were passed out from exhaustion to put it in the room. Even the plate and utensils were bland.

They wanted you to have as little stimuli as possible.

Ciel was delivering your food one day, but you weren’t completely passed out. You were spread out on the floor, eyes just barely open, facing the door. He placed the food and drink down, then sighed through his nose. Even waking you up with noises was something they couldn’t have.

You noticed that there were extra portions this time, something out of character for Ciel. He probably missed you.

Just barely, you croaked out a ‘thank you’ and a ‘you’re kind’.

Even in this situation.. you thought he was kind?

Ciel called off the punishment and had you in his arms those same ten minutes. Somehow, that was the weirdest part of all of this. Being neglected stimuli for potentially weeks and then suddenly feeling warmth and comfort…

It took you a while to get back to your old self. You were still nervous around them, but you noticed more about them. Whenever Sebastian looked at you, his eyes would momentarily light up with love.

Whenever you looked at Ciel, his jaw would unclench, and his shoulders would relax. Something about knowing these facts comforted you. They had their guard down around you, so why shouldn’t yours be?

Sebastian was the first you kissed. He was bathing you, asking for permission to touch your chest or groin. You gave him a kiss mid question, right on the cheek.

“You don’t have to ask to touch when you bathe me..” you mumble. “If you don’t get spots, they’ll be dirty and infected..”

He was in shock, though softly chuckled at your words and nodded. “You’re very right.”

Ciel was more forceful. Not in a mean way, but when he heard you kiss Sebastian, he grabbed your cheeks and kissed your lips.

“That bastard better have not taken your first kiss. Did he?” “…N-No..” “Good. You’re mine. Stay in this room with me until I excuse you.”

You sat on his lap the whole time.