#manifestation diary

[manifestingprincipessa]

week 1 of manifesting my dream life

At the beginning of this week, I posted my manifestation goals and I'm proud to say I already have updates! I got my salary this week and a bonus so I hit 20k in savings. This is huge for me!

I finally started being proactive about other areas of my finances - I initiated reclaiming the money for previous work expenses and getting savings from an account my grandparents and mom started for me.

I also cleaned my room quite a bit which is another big achievement, I struggled with throwing away things for so long and now I threw out a big bag of clothing and a lot of old paper and other trash.

I found a YouTube channel that talks a lot about the law of assumption and many ideas and techniques he talks about really resonated with me.

Next week I will focus on manifesting success in my work as a PhD student, understanding the techniques I am working with, and publishing my first paper. My script is:

I have sent in my first paper for publishing, and it has been accepted without revisions. I am smart and capable. I understand all the statistical techniques for my PhD. I am great at Maths and I understand new statistical concepts easily and quickly. I am proactive and I finish all of my tasks super fast. When I get an email, I respond to it right away. Other people view me as a statistics wizard. Academic institutions give me money left and right to do research and go to conferences.

Wish me luck!

Best,

Em

[peachkkuma]

📓. DIARY ENTRY 06 ︴MAY 11, 2024

dear loass diary…

it’s very late at night and I should probably go sleep but I have to get stuff off my sleep deprived mind first. (reader beware, I have no idea what my fingers are about to type but there’s a high chance it’ll be a mess because of how tired I am)

so, as a human being, ofc I have my moments. One of those moments being a “ugh, why is it so hard to identify with being in the sowf?”. Which, first, I think it’s important to normalize (eeeeuuuughhh I hate that word) having those small moments. There’s a difference between having limiting beliefs and little doubts here and there. You’re human, it’s bound to happen. Just know that nothing has been messed up or stopped. Back to my original point, I was thinking “why can’t I identify as the version of myself who has xyz?” Until randomly and unexpectedly I had a thought that said “why is it so easy for you to identify with not having it?” And I’m not gonna lie, I was gagged like I ate with that response. That had never come across my mind before, certainly not when I was in the middle of a “aaauuuughhh why is this so harddddd” kinda moment. Anyways, let’s answer that question. Obviously that’s because of the 3D. Since I am always acknowledging or interacting with it, I’m gonna find it easy to identify with it. But just because something’s easy doesn’t mean it’s what I’m supposed to do. I have to remind myself that this, my circumstances, my situation, my 3D, my senses, whatever— it has the same value as imagination. Now, despite me knowing imagination is where ir all happens and is the one true reality and is superior to the 3D in every way, I may or may not but most definitely am subconsciously holding onto the embarrassing habit of seeing the 4D as less than or not as real as the 3D. Anyways, I wasn’t stuck in the 3D, no not at all. U can never be stuck in a state or reality since u have all the ability to change it. I was choosing the 3D, choosing my circumstances, choosing my physical and limited senses. Because that’s all I can do, every thought, assumption, belief you have all stems from a choice u made. I chose to accept my 3D and so those thoughts came. And so the assumption that I was stuck came. So ofc, if I can choose the 3D then I obviously can choose imagination, can choose my desires. But then came another thought “erm, choosing my desires is hard” GIRL NO ITS NOT!! I mean it when I say it’s not!! u think it’s hard because ur still prioritizing what u can see with ur physical senses.Just imagine, see what u want as if u had it in ur minds eye and remind urself that it is real. Entertain the thoughts ur ideal self would entertain because u are her. U already are everhthing, just choose it.

alright, good night y’all I’m gonna go to sleep and hope that any of this was comprehendible.

kisses, peachkkuma

[curepareo]

8 / 21 / 24

slept with subliminals overnight for the first time in a while ! im finally back on my grind ! ☆ i woke up to good news ! after literal YEARS of trying to have a sleepover with my girlfriend without her siblings, her parents finally said yes ! i also left my makeup at her house and they are finally mailing it to me ! ♡ im in a great mood !

now onto physical results,

i woke up w extremely smooth lips, usually they are incredibly chapped n dry but they r so nice ! they look plump too ^_^

okay bye bye everyone ♡

[manifesting-principessa]

day 11 - money success story

Finally sent the invoice for my last project and received the payment within a day. And now I have 15.9k in my main bank account!

Not getting in your own way is such an important part of manifestation! I often feel I have internal blocks and when I become aware of them I do my best to tackle them proactively. So I wrote that invoice even though I felt so anxious…

I also learned about the FIRE movement this week and am thinking a lot about what I can take from that. The FIRE (=financial independence retire early) movement is a community of people that save and invest money to retire early.

While extreme frugality is not my thing (I’m more of a hedonist), I find it interesting and think I can learn from many people in the movement how to make smarter financial decisions.

Feeling wealthy and inspired 💸

Eternally grateful!

[my-manifesting-journal-online]

Update On My Life And Manifesting Journey

-I’ve been trying to get used to one thing before I jump to the next. For example, I’ve been trying to focus on getting used to my new group of Christian friends. One upsetting thing is that my main friend in that group, who’s kind of like my “safe person” in the group, will be moving away in a month, and I still feel a little awkward around the other people, like I don’t fit in. And I don’t fit in entirely, but I figure I can figure out how to blend in. I’ve gone to some of the Bible studies, and to two church services, and I’m trying to go to more. I’m sort of just taking what I can from the lessons, as I’m still a firm believer in the original way I was taught at my more progressive Christian high school, and this church is more traditional and strict.

-I’ve cleaned out my closet and found a ton of clothes to get rid of to make room for new clothes, and I’ve been keeping up with chores more.

-I’ve been making money working and applied to another position in the school district, so hopefully I’ll get an interview

-Finished my short story draft and sent it to someone who can help me edit it

So yeah, not much has happened

Plans for the rest of May/the summer

-Fill out a volunteer application for my sorority so I can start volunteering with the collegiate members and make new friends

-Publish my short story

-Take a trip to Salem for a mini vacation

-Go to an anime convention with friends, two cons if I’m lucky

-Continue manifesting until I’m my ideal self

[1t-g1rl]

Happy new year!!!!!

new year means it time for an ed diary

[blysstastic]

Dear diary~

I wish to dream of gold and white toned silks and pink colored lace. I wish to wake up to the smell of pink sugar and strawberry short cake and the taste of vanilla bean fresh on my tongue. I wish to live in my quiet cottage surrounded only by the flowers, the fairies, and me. I wish to go about my days worried only of myself, my peace, and my next nail appointment. Most importantly I wish to love and be loved in a way that defies logic; beyond comprehension… i wish… ☁️🧿

[mojitolime]

i’m not sure what this means but i had this strangle tingling in my neck (but it wasn’t a real pain, more like it felt like something needed to get moved around) so i did a couple yoga flows and then just totally randomly started crying. i’m not sad, it didn’t even feel like i was sad, but for some reason i just sat on the floor and cried. it was the weirdest thing though, i wasn’t sad! i have a weird sense that it was me crying over my old life? but i’m not sure. it felt like my body had to release something — and i guess maybe that was it? but we’ll see. i figured i’d chronicle it to see if anything manifests from the release.

[fuckitfinethen]

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all you need to do is not eat.

[lanalove2012]

[divacult]

[manifestingprincipessa]

week 4 of manifesting my dream life

This week has been a success. I worked hard on the manuscript for my first paper which is so close to being done now. My supervisors gave me some last feedback which I am working on right now. I will send the final version to my collaborator next week and then I can submit it!

After working hard all week, I took Friday off to go to ADE with my boyfriend. ADE is a huge dance event in Amsterdam with over 1,000 parties all over the city. We went to see Charlotte de Witte on Thursday and to another, smaller party on Friday. I don't drink or do drugs so sometimes it can be a bit of an experience to be completely sober at these huge techno events. Everyone was so respectful and nice, though. I danced with my boyfriend and my friends all night. I feel so proud and happy I got to spend some quality time with them!

Most pictures I post are taken off Pinterest but these are the real texts my boyfriend sent me yesterday:

Safe to say that I have achieved one of my manifestation goals already: 

💖 I am in an honest and loving relationship. I love my partner and my partner loves me. We communicate openly and support each other.

Other than that, I have a big life change coming up: In less than a month I will be moving to Oslo to work there for half a year. I am so grateful I got this opportunity and will make the most of it. Next week is my last week before a holiday. I am planning to go through a little rebrand so I can enter my Scandi girl era. I wanted to share a video with you guys that I found inspiring:

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A post shared by Maureen Evelyn | Content Creation Coach (@maureensmarketing)

I will use this for my Scandi rebrand by:

✨ Becoming the director of my own life and taking decisive action.

✨ Mapping out this next season of my life, planning, and scripting it.

✨ Writing down my goals - income, emotions, habit -  and making Pinterest boards for them.

✨ Meticulously plan who I want to be and start living that version of my life already.

I work really well with gamification so I love videos like that one. I hope it will inspire you to chase your dreams and enjoy the process, too. As always, thank you so much for reading!

Best,

Em

[peachkkuma]

📓. DIARY ENTRY 01 ︴MARCH 27, 2024

dear loass diary…

I think one of my biggest problems when it comes to manifesting is that I think it’s all above me. I’ve been in this community for so long— despite manifestation actually clicking for me 8 months ago —and so I’ve put it all on a pedestal. now it just seems like I’ll never be able to even feel like I’ll have my desires, let alone have them. I see people talking about how they feel satisfied imagining or how they get into the sowf and I just have never been able to do that. But at the same time, I’ve never actually stuck around long enough, never persisted for long enough, to actually feel good when manifesting. It’s like I use manifesting as instant gratification. I’ll satisfy myself for a while and then go back to my unwanted state. the worst part is, I see the sowf as something temporary. It’s almost like I subconsciously intend on not staying persistent in my desired state.

to switch gears for a second, there’s something else on my mind. I wonder why I feel like I haven’t manifested. Like I haven’t made any progress. I know, really know, that the 3D isn’t confirmation. So why am I treating it like it is? is it out of habit? I feel like I’ve over consumed so much loa content that I don’t even know anything anymore. everytime something makes sense my brain goes “well that loablogger actually said so and so about that☝️🤓” anyways back to my main point, who said I didn’t have what I wanted? that I wasn’t in the end? That the manifestation isn’t complete? no one, so why is every thought in my head “I haven’t manifested yet” “I’ve been slacking with manifestation”. and don’t even get me started on how I treat manifestation like it’s a verb, like it’s simply just conscious repetition.

creation is finished point blank period. as soon as I desired my desire way back when, it was already made. the state where I live everyday like I want to already exists. There’s nothing I have to create. The state where every little desire I have coexists with each other and is in my posession already exists!!! all I have to do is be conscious of it! embody it! so why is that so hard? Me not having my desire is also a state, I’m not even experience the 3D I’m just experiencing my state. and that state, my current one, the one where I don’t have what I want, the one I identify with— is just a state. And I feel that to be real, despite it being unfavorable I unintentionally fulfilled it. This is what I am conscious of and is what I am assuming, that’s all. It’s just a state. Favorable states are no different.

feels like I kinda had a full circle moment here 😭😭

kisses, peachkkuma

[esotericesther]

‼️shifting proof

please read everything that’s on here.

i have more if you want it!

i hope this motivates you to another try.

[manifesting-principessa]

day 3

ngl, today was a bit rough. came back to amsterdam and did some reading on the train. then i sort of went into a procrastination hole that i am pulling out of now. really love listening to david googins on days like these - he makes me feel less sorry for myself. also signed up to the gym near my house so i can start lifting soon and grow them glutes!

the seeds i have planted have germinated in my absence and i’m so excited to watch them grow 🌱

so take this as a reminder that manifestation is a lot like growing a plant - the universe can forgive a day off and reality will continue to form if you remember to feed it consistently 💖

[my-manifesting-journal-online]

The second cheer practice went well. I talked to some teammates a bit about non cheer related stuff, which was nice. I’m officially labeled as a flyer, which isn’t a surprise considering I’m the shortest and probably lightest on the team. I’m getting it down a lot better than I originally thought.

I’m still trying to figure out when to jump in on conversations and stuff- I had an experience last week with a coworker kind of treated me like a kid when I tried to comment on something she said to another coworker (an innocent convo about travel) that left me embarrassed and wondering if I was unintentionally rude. My friends don’t think I was so I guess I’m fine? Maybe it’s just my youthful voice and looks that makes people unintentionally treat me like a teenager.

But I did get some compliments at work which felt nice considering that this week was absolutely insane with the amount of stuff going on with the kids in the room I was in. I kind of wish I was treated as one of them instead of just a substitute in the room considering I’ve been in their class for almost two weeks now. It feels awkward when I’m left out of the conversation sometimes. I mean I know the other teachers in the room know each other a lot better and stuff and I’m on the quiet side but it’s still awkward. I’m thankful for my one coworker who treats me more like a friend than the others do.

So yeah, that’s a breakdown of my week. I’m disappointed that the schools didn’t allow costumes for Halloween because I know both students and staff wanted to dress up and I would have loved to do a casual cosplay of my favorite character. Maybe next year.