#makes me more productive plus I remembered I actually like drawing

[i-exist-solely-for-fandom]

have been physically craving the feeling of drawing lately and it’s very exciting I’m trying to get back into fanart hooray!! did some quick sketches of some House characters and Booth & Brennan and I don’t really like them but im gonna draw more and maybe I’ll post some once im a bit better at the faces !!

[michaelsfavgirl]

chubby chaser

Pairing: Michael Jackson x plus-size!fem!reader

Synopsis: just mike having a strong preference for chubby women. <3

Word Count: 1k

Requested: yes/no (one of you gave me an idea for this a while back)

Author’s Note: this is for my fellow softies! love y'all

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This man has been into fuller women all his life.

He cannot quite pinpoint when this so-called preference began, yet he vividly remembers his entire family teasing him about it.

Once, during his childhood, he stumbled across a pinup magazine featuring a drawing of a fat woman. Captivated, he quickly cut out the picture and tucked it neatly into his notebook. Each afternoon after school, this adorable fool would pull it out and stare at it, daydreaming instead of completing his homework.

The peace didn’t last long though. One day, his mother, Katherine, discovered the picture while tidying up. She chuckled, thinking it harmless, and set it conspicuously on his desk. That’s when chaos truly ensued. Marlon barged into the room unannounced, as was his habit, and immediately spotted it. Oh, it was over for little Mike. The relentless teasing that followed could fill a book.

“Damn, Mike, we didn’t know you were into fuller gals,” Jermaine said with exaggerated emphasis, holding the picture for the other brothers to see.

 “What’s this, Mike? Planning your future with Miss Chubby Cheeks?” Tito teased, grinning ear to ear. He was mortified, face burning red as his brothers howled with laughter. 

Naturally he got embarrassed from their teasing yet it didn't make him any less ashamed of what he was into. 

Always ran after the rounder girls in school.

It crushed him every time they turned him down.

Poor thing couldn’t comprehend that being into softer girls wasn’t mainstream.

As he grew older, his innocent admiration evolved into a more passionate, teenage longing.

His once puppy eyed stares grew more sinful as his hormones kicked in.

The urge to kiss soft, chubby cheeks turned into a desire to bury his face in full, ample tits and to grip meaty love handles. 

Every time a curvy girl walked by, his breath would hitch, his gaze following the hypnotic sway of wide hips and jiggling bellies.

But even in his late teens, the frustration mounted. Porn magazines, ubiquitous among his peers, featured nothing but slim women. Respect them though he did, they simply didn’t ignite his imagination. leaving him to rely on his thoughts , filthy thoughts might I add.

Often imagining a fuller girl astride him, her soft body bouncing as she rode him, her weight pressing him into the mattress. His fantasies would leave him fisting his stiff cock fast like a mad man.

As he moved onto his solo career, away from his brothers, he had to be very careful about his image. 

That's something both he and Frank agreed on, however that's not what Michael insinuated when it came to his dating life, or the type of women he wanted in his short films.

One such instance occurred during the production of the Thriller music video. Michael and his manager Frank DiLeo sat reviewing headshots of potential female leads.

“Hm, no, not this one,” Michael said, tossing aside yet another photo of a slender model.

Frank groaned, exhausted. “Michael, for God’s sake, this is the hundredth girl you’ve rejected. Pick someone so we can move on.”

Michael shrugged casually. “Hey, all these girls are cute, but I want it to be realistic.”

Frank gaped. “Realistic?! Michael, you’re playing a werewolf in this video!”

Michael sighed, annoyed. “Not that kind of realistic, Frank. If I’m supposed to give this girl a damn promise ring in the video, she should look like the kind of girl I’d actually give it to.”

Frank pinched the bridge of his nose. “Michael, we’ve been over this—”

Michael’s voice turned sharp, leaving no room for debate. “No, you’ve been over it. I’m not changing my mind. Either find me a softie, or I’ll find myself a new manager.” 

Thankfully, things often worked in his favor. 

Whenever he brought a curvy girl to set, no one batted an eye, assuming she was just a friend. 

No one noticed that these “friends” never appeared more than once, nor did they question why his hand always rested possessively on their plush hips.

He’d smirk, thanking god for how clueless people could be.

Of course, not everyone was oblivious. Karen, his longtime makeup artist, had clocked his preference long ago. 

She’d tried everything to seduce him—short dresses, red lipstick, flirty banter—but to no avail. 

One day, as she applied his makeup, she noticed his attention fixed elsewhere.

She followed his gaze, annoyed that he wasn't facing her, to see him staring intently at another makeup artist across the room, her round cheeks glowing as she did his back up dancers makeup.

“Do you know her, K?” he asked, still staring, eyes never straying away from her round features.

Karen’s lips thinned. “No,” she said curtly, jealousy simmering beneath her skin. It was then she understood the truth.

By the time interviewers began prying into his love life, the pattern was unmistakable.

Questions about his “hidden” relationships amused him.

He wanted to laugh every time someone asked why he was so secretive. Secretive? Hardly. The world’s ignorance was the real culprit. 

For years, he’d been openly hand-in-hand with his soft little muse, yet the tabloids never caught on.

Finally, he decided to just say ‘fuck it’ after marrying the love of his life in a beautiful secret ceremony. 

The second the wedding photos were released, chaos erupted. No one could stop gossiping about it.

“Did you see the photos?” one host exclaimed. “He married a curvy girl! I mean, she’s stunning, but no one saw this coming.”

 “I know, right?” another added. “I thought he’d end up with a model or actress, not someone so… chubby.”

Back at neverland, you lowered the TV volume and turned to him.

 “You know this isn’t going to blow over anytime soon, right?” you asked.

Michael smirked, pulling you into his arms. “Who said I wanted it to? I want the world to know you’re my pretty wife—nobody else’s.”

He pressed a line of kisses up your neck, pausing to playfully nibble at your soft double chin.

“Ow! Hey, I’m not food,” you giggled.

He raised a brow. “Oh really? Because you tasted real sweet this morning—” You silenced him with a hand over his mouth, his muffled laughter warming your heart.

© michaelsfavgirl 2025

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Inside No 9 - The Party's Over digital painting study~

So... you may remember that back in last December I posted my Inside no 9 painting project where I painted a screenshot from every one of the 55 episodes as a way of celebrating the show...

But since I posted it before the documentary came out I wasn't able to do a painting study of that..... until NOW!

So have the very final (and I mean FINAL lol... promise!) painting as part of this project, and of course I had to draw them hugging :''')

One of the reasons I wanted to do this additional painting was because I'd been umming and ahhing about making this project into an Art Book, purely because I wanted to have some sort of physical record of my descent into madness love of this show!

See below for more details about that, including some pics of the book, if that's something you're interested in!

Above is the front & back cover of the book! (the matte cover is lovely but it does show off finger prints really easily, especially when u have sweaty palms like me pfft...)

It's A5 size, soft cover & features all 56 paintings!

Here are some examples of the pages (sorry for the glare lol the pages are gloss which means it's super hard to photograph lol):

I'm really pleased with how this came out, plus it's really nice to have something physical that I can actually flick through and reminisce about this amazing show every so often!

So if you are interested in getting your own check it out here:

[valjeancrazylover2]

Javert's Inspirations

So, neither option won that poll, so I'm making this post first. This is probably going to be me ranting more about Javerts I like than actually talking about my own Javert.

The characterisations of other characters have been taken from either one primary source, musical actor, or my own personal take. For example, Cosette is mainly inspired by the 1982 film, but has some influence from musical actresses such as Beatrice Penny-Touré.

Exeptions to this is the versions of the characters post-barricade, as from there is where my story mainly diverges, as most Javert & Valjean Live AUs do. Most of that is my own interpretation, since they are no longer in "normal" circumstances.

As such, Javert has been very fun to work on, because there have been many different characterisations that I find VERY entertaining. They all seem to lean into one aspect of his character more than the others, which makes him... strangely versatile, for such a rigid character?

So... what does this mean for my favourite baldie?

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Let's start with the guy who started it all, and my blog icon: Todd Alan Johnson. There will be several musical Javerts listed here, but nobody was doing it like TAJavert. I blame him in part for getting me into Les Mis, as I had been a fan of TAJ for a while, when I stumbled across him in 2021 in Little Shop of Horrors as Orin Scrivello (my favourite character - can you tell I like villains). After being introduced to Les Mis through the work experience I was doing in Feb 2024, i revisited TAJ, finding out he had in fact played Javert - first in the third national US tour, and a few other times in smaller productions.

Thats when I found the pictures from Surflight's 2013 production.

And thus Chauvert was cemented in the brain. simply couldnt have it any other way. he just HAD to be bald. Because of this, and at the time I began designing him I didn't know anybody else who played Javert (this would later be changed when I saw stewart clarke live, but nothing really changed after that except for the javert bug eye truth to be solidified)

I really wish there was more footage of this production past these photos, because I NEED more of his bald head as Javert. And look at those sideburns! They're all-natural! Plus, i thought his face was a good fit in general for Javert. It's less obvious with his sideburns, but he's got that big jaw, talks with his bottom teeth showing, intense eyebrows, big buggy eyes when he wants them to be.

Pic from him as Sweeney Todd. My Javert's face is just a heavily cariacaturised version of his.

Additionally, I'm sure you're all familiar with jadenvargen/melancholyarchivist's art. I was a fan before, so finding out there was les mis art too was huge. My Javert was always a bit on the larger side, but that one drawing with Javert and Valjean labelled something like "tremendously large man" and "bigger even huger man" or whatever, cant find the piece right now. anyway that definitely confirmed for me that they were BOTH gonna be built and fat, rather than the lanky javert that I see most people draw.

So, that was the foundation.

From here I'm not really sure in what order inspirations came, but next was probably Anthony Perkins in LM1978, because you just dont get more diva that that. We all know how much of a drama queen Javert is, and in fact Perkins was so good at this that the first thing I did after watching this film was go downstairs and ask my mother if Perkins was gay (to which she replied "Oh, absolutely flaming")

My inspiration for Javert usually comes from small, inconsequential little actions or demeanour that catch my eye... Perkins had plenty, as well as a ring on his finger, which I always forget to draw, but my Javert is supposed to have.

Here's a select few bits I like of his, that have directly influenced my Javert. There's probably more, but I can't remember off the top of my head.

1) the walk. 2) the way he hold's the cane??

3) this whole scene, but specifically the there is no monsieur in this room! there is only a scoundrel! line. 4) the way he reacts to finding out valjean is still alive. VERY similar to how it goes down in my canon, just in a different setting/scenario.

outside of 1978, there havent really been any non-musical adaptation Javerts that have particularly stood out to me. I havent watched 1998 but he doesnt look like he'd be like my Javert, and 1982 despite being my favourite adaptation ... did not have the most memorable Javert.

Even in the radio dramas, which i love to death, don't really have much influence over my Javert, since I already have a very clear idea in my head of his speech, and most inspiration comes from visuals. the CBS radio drama probably comes the closest to the way he speaks, though. (his voiceclaims are either roger allam, todd alan johnson, or some random french guy with a really deep voice who came up on my instagram feed once. yes, I'm serious, my javert sounds like that.)

My javert is not exactly expressive, or outwardly "sassy", per se? I think he's more subtly camp, perhaps with the way he stands sometimes. Don't worry, he's still the absolute drama queen he is in the brick, with "would you like my hat?" and all, but he delivers it in a much more flat way. that's why I don't exactly look at the way perkins delivers "monsieur, monsieur le inspector now!" for my javert. yes, he'd say that, but with a little less visible sass, if that makes sense.

Pre-seine, he's expressive in his own way. whenever he loses control a little he's prone to getting visibly angry; distressed (see: losing valjean when chasing him through paris); when you can see him setting his jaw with a visible vein in his head, short-tempered and curt; or that sort of sinister glee with his "bark" of a laugh or patronising sneer. But other than that... you've gotta hear it in his voice. Sorry to all the cuntvert fans out there, my Javert tries to keep it professional when he can, but he's still trying to out-diva everyone at any given opportunity!

So we return to musical Javerts, then.

I've seen a few, so it's hard to gauge who's had an actual effect and who hasn't. There are a few I do know for a fact I have taken little bits from:

Terrence Mann is familiar to everyone I'm sure. sass-central, which contradicts the above paragraph, but he does it in a wonderfully weird and kind of menacing way which i LOVE. My javert leans more into that menacing side of things. He's always JUST in the shadows, just so that you might not notice him, but if you were wary of authority, you'd see him lurking. his stature, you might think would make him a bit lumbering, but he's shockingly agile and snakelike. Think of a tiger. (oh yeah, shere khan from the jungle book is another inspiration i guess, but I won't include him here - we know.) Terrence Mann is delightfully snide and insane and I love it.

Gifs of small bits of his performance I like.

And his soliloquy? oof.. believably absolutely losing his mind.

The Javert who has probably influenced mine the most is Hartwig Rudolz, from the german Duisburg production in the 90s. He's commanding, he's dignified and haughty, he's even got the sinister chipperness about him from time to time (he's chummy with Madeleine in the cart scene, even laughing and smiling with him. While not really my Javert, it's worth a mention. Also does a condescending chuckle when Thenardier asks to be let go before Stars.)

More gifs of bits I like!

Bonus gif, cus that wig is loooong!

Three more would be Nic Greenshields, Jordan Simon Pollard and Michael Ball. They are all great Javerts (which might be a hot take, I'm not sure if ballvert is popular but I've been a fan of his for 5 years so maybe i'm biased.) I can't say TOO much on Nic and Michael acting-wise, because Michael Ball has only been in the arena tours, and the footage ive seen of Nic Greenshields is not the GREATEST quality - but they all have an air of haughty dignity about them, which obviously i try to give my Javert.

Jordan I've had the pleasure of seeing in person, twice, as well as meeting the guy. He's been the understudy for a while. He takes quite an expressive approach to Javert, using mainly his eyebrows, which i definitely think makes up most of my Javert's expressiveness. He really knows how to use his face to act - seriously, I can barely believe it's the same guy ! He usually has quite a furrowed brow, with his chin jutting out a little, standing with his chest puffed out. He's 6'3, and quite broad-chested (seeing as he works out) so you can imagine what kind of a presence that creates.

Both Nic and Jordan, being in the same production (Jordan was Nic's u/s in the UK tour, is now Stewart Clarke's on the West End) had this moment, but after Thenardier asks to be let go, on "it was me what told you so!", they turn and step forward so that Javert is basically chest-to-face with Thenardier (and the guy playing him at the time was like, a foot shorter than the both of them). I liked that a lot. Absolutely something my Javert is doing. He's got the height and the tits for it, there's no way he isn't, cmon

Also, both Nic and Michael also have the benefit of being broader than most Javerts, Nic especially, as he stands at a whopping 6'6, so he's a SERIOUS presence onstage. My javert is around that margin at 6'6-6'7, so that checks.

I know a lot of people say Ballvert is "too cute" or whatever, and i'd totally agree as a michael ball fan, but if you ignore the fact it's Michael Ball, i think he seems a bit more "unsuspectingly cruel" than outwardly intimidating. While this doesn't exactly reflect my Javert, he DOES have some good bits. From my notes when I saw him in the arena tour:

the wway he takes off his gloves in the confrontation was not only kinda sexy (sorry) but a bit foreboding. he has a nice amount of sass, which of course is always appreciated. his general attitude in Stars, too, like he's truly earnest, and someone mentioned how he sings it like a love song - yuuup. His soliloquy is also amazing, the way he portrays Javert as being just so scared of what's happening, but lapsing into anger... ouuh.

I have not fully planned out my Javert's suicide (attempt) yet, how he would be responding, but I've been leaning into the more fearful approach. I mean, his entire worldview has been shattered like that, the entire structure of which he built his life on has just crumbled in front of him, i'd be frightened too.

Anyway, random detail - if you were interested in the origin of Javert's scar, like, from a meta perspective:

Adam Robert Lewis, of course, with his cool nose scar.

My javert had a scar anyway, just a small cut on the lip, probably from a nasty hit to the face which never quite healed right and scarred, but something about ARL's scar really worked... so the scar extended a few inches up the face. It's changed places since then, originally going from the lip to the nose, then from the lip to below the eye, but now it's branched off to both. I still don't have a specific origin for the scar in canon, so you can make one up yourself.

Linking to that scar, and also linking back to Michael Ball - i mistook a shadow on his eye for a burst blood vessel, and thought it would be an interesting look for my Javert. I'm a sucker for temporary details (Javert's moustache post-msurm, for one), so I've given him a bad eye for early M-sur-M. Very recent development.

HONORABLE JAVERT MENTIONS, THAT INSPIRED ME SLIGHTLY OR CEMENTED A SPECIFIC IDEA:

Stewart Clarke. He was the first I physically SAW, and also the one I've seen the most, since he's the current West End Javert. Very good javert, unsettling with those eyeballs, very spitty, which I totally forgot to mention is also an integral part to my Javert. So, thanks Stew! His soliloquy is also just out-of-this-world, seriously. Seek out a recent audio of his if you haven't heard him. He's nuts.

Jeremy Secomb. Sir Eyeballs Supreme. If you want a Javert with an unsettling stare, he's your guy. And he's currently the Bishop in the arena tour! What a way to convince Valjean to be a good guy, just staring him down with your evil fucking peepers. When partnered with Peter Lockyer, they form THE valvert duo, they kissed on video in costume, so many cute photos of them together, and they LOOK the parts. Jeremy looking like those toys you sqeeze and their eyes pop out vs Peter's soft face and kind smile like a golden retriever or something. Seriously perfect.

Nick Rehberger. Current US Javert. Great at really minor acting choices, sassy man apocalypse. Very dignified. VERY handsome. Bit gay. Amazing voice. What more could you want?

Roger Allam. Now, I'm getting a bit ahead of myself here. I've already mentioned he's one of the 3 people I cycle through for my Javert's voiceclaim, and there's like NO (publically available) footage of him. I am planning on viewing the footage they do have, but that's some time in the future. The OLCR is my personal listening choice when I'm listening to the musical soundtrack, so Allam is kind of burned into my brain. I know it probably sounds crazy but the way his voice sounds really influenced the way I have Javert physically speak, with his heavy jaw. Anything about his specific physicality is completely imagined - but hopefully not for long.

Chris Murray. Another german Javert I really like, from a 2007 nonrep production. If you like unhinged Javerts with eyeballs for days, he's your man. He's also just greatly unsettling. He almost made the cut with gifs, but unfortunately Terrence Mann won out. He was just a little TOO chipper about things. But i do love how his amiability is very obviously a ruse, with the way he holds a stiff smile in The Robbery on "But where's the gentleman gone / And why on Earth did he run?" (or, the German lyrics, whatever. It's that part of the song.)

Preston Truman Boyd. One part only. He's the reason I gave Javert a moustache and weird little chin beard thing post-msurm. I just thought that was important enough to get a mention, other than that I haven't really seen much of him enough to say.

ANYWAY, that's about it !!

There's probably more i've missed, but it's 5.30am right now, and I'm flagging. Plus, the post is long enough as is.

If you've read this far, I gotta know - who's your favourite Javert, or at least top 5? Have they influenced the way you view Javert in any way?

If you're like me and like taking tidbits from different sources, what are yours? Im curious to know !!! PLEASE tell me!!!!!!

Much love to my favourite bald freak <3

[kristea9ay]

Just binged ur celestial mk au and I love it smmm!!

Wanted to ask how mk and red son first met in this series!

Awww thank you so much!! It makes me really happy that you like it 😭❤️

They've actually known each other ever since they can remember ^^ I plan on doing some cute mini comics about MK, Mei and RedSon, but I don't really have much time because of UNI :(

Plus, I kind of got an "art block"

It's not that I don't know what to draw, more like I don't LIKE the finished product and overall stopped liking my art style 💀

So I am trying to practice and get better but it's kind of frustrating LATELY.

BUT!!

I do want to continue this comic! I just need to get over this setback 🙌✨

[ros3ybabe]

Life Update: 5/26/25

Hello lovelies, long time no see, at least it feels like it's been a long time. I finished off my spring semester, not as strong as I had hoped honestly. I barely managed to pass the classes I was worried about, and I was honestly so so burnt out by the end of the semester. Like, I think I slept the most I ever have in the week following my last day of the semester.

So far this summer, I've only worked 2 days (as of tomorrow it'll be 2 days of work this summer) because I decided I wanted a break from school AND work which I am thankfully able to afford at the moment. It has been wonderful. I've spent my days reading, taking walks outside, working out, napping, and indulging in hobbies like painting, coloring, and I plan on picking up sewing, crochet, and drawing soon. It has been so restorative for me so far and I am so beyond grateful for this time I've had for myself.

Work has become a super toxic place for me, as I have some co workers that have made it their mission to talk trash about me and my life and the decisions I make. One of them is actually a former friend who can't seem to not talk about me. I've had at least 4 people confirm that she talks about me constantly and it's honestly draining to hear all the garbage and nonsense she talks. I just wish everyone would remember we are adults and we certainly have much more important things to do then just talk about other people. It also hurts, because we used to be such good friends, and I haven't spoken one word bad on her since the friendship ended, because I don't see it as productive or necessary. I just wish other people thought the same, that there's no need to speak ill on others.

I would find a new job if I could, but because I don't drive AND my current job pays well, I feel as though I am a bit stuck. But we will see what happens when the semester gets closer. Maybe I can take a pay cut and get a new job. Who knows?

I will post my todo list for today soon, as today is a full relaxation/restoration day for me. I started my period and had a really rough night last night, plus I work tomorrow (deep cleaning the restaurant I work at, so nothing too bad), so I figured having a full day of ease would be most beneficial.

I'm going to try to update as regularly as I can, as I do have some stuff that I need to accomplish this summer before the semester starts. It feels good to be back.

til next time lovelies 🩷

[ghostinthegallery]

Nearly all of my writing projects require a fight/battle scene right now...

I am not in the mood to write a fight/battle scene...

I know! I'll write about fight/battle scenes instead!! That's productive, right?

Truth be told, in general I do love writing action. One-on-one, small scale fights, huge battles. I love it! The movement, the drama, the tension and release of it all. But I do hear some people struggle with it, so here is my approach. Maybe it'll be helpful.

Golden rule: writing a fight scene is just like writing a sex scene. It is physical and emotional. The action should build on and be based around the characters. And it is very important to keep track of how many limbs everyone has and what they are doing.

I am lucky to have experience as a fencer, some martial arts, I've shot firearms, and I am a general history nerd. It is very helpful to have a baseline understanding of how weapons are used and how they feel. But with the internet this information is easily acquired! Go to youtube, search for the weapons your characters are using (or the closest equivalent for magic/scifi weaponry) and watch people fight. SCA and historical fencing tournaments are great for this. Trust me, weapon nerds love explaining how their stuff works.

Now, the main thing to remember when writing action is that you are balancing believability with entertainment. Note I say believability and not realism. Because in reality, most fights are short, brutal, and not fun to watch. This is not our goal as writers. However, you want your audience to believe the action on some level, so I like to go in vaguely knowing the most grounded version of how a fight would go, and then building off of that to make it actually fun.

Okay, that's all the background but what about the actual writing? At its core, an action scene is no different from any other type of scene. Your character has a goal and they are taking steps to achieve it. So in the fight, what is your character's goal? Don't just pick "survival". Get more specific. How are they going to survive? Escape? Kill their opponent? Disable them? Or is their goal something different, like holding an enemy back or reaching a destination? Protecting someone or something? Once you know that, it is much easier to come up with the beats of a fight because that goal will determine the actions your characters take.

This also works for large scale battle scenes. In fact, I would say a clearly defined goal is even more important in that context! Otherwise the audience will get lost in all the moving parts. Star Wars, great example: the final battle against the Death Star gives everyone the explicit goal of firing torpedoes into the vent before the DS blows up the rebel base. Simple, easy to to follow, orients the audience so we know what they heck is going on.

Make the stakes clear. What will happen if your protags win the fight? What will happen if they lose? Usually this is easier in smaller encounters (life or death, losing mcguffins). But battles have stakes too. Will a lot of people die if the enemy takes a city (Lord of the Rings, Helms Deep great example). Will your character be shamed if they lose? Do they have something to gain in victory? Or are they a soldier on the front lines just trying to find a way to stay alive? If the goal and stakes are clear, it is much easier to make your audience care about the outcome of whatever you have set up.

As for the actions your characters will take and how to write them? That is where you draw on your research plus your knowledge of the characters. Are they bold and reckless? Cautious? Write their fighting style accordingly.

When I write, I try to vary up action with reaction. A character lunges with their sword, describe the physicality of that. Describe how they feel when their sword is parried or their opponent leaps out of range. Describe the counterattack, then how your character reacts. Use these moments of outward action and internal reaction to set the pace of the fight.

Short sentences mean faster pacing. More frenetic. Faster, desperate. They build tension. Whereas longer sentences will slow things down and give the reader a chance to breathe and absorb what has just happened. You will use both, but use them deliberately.

Mastering the pacing of an action scene takes practice, like everything else, but you will start to get a feel for things after a while!

Battles can be harder because most of us are not generals schooled in military tactics, so they seem quite intimidating. However, most battles come down to two things:

do not get flanked

do not break formation

If the enemy surrounds you? Bad. If the enemy messes up the formation of your army? Bad. All battles pretty much come down to that. The rest is just flavor based on your setting and what people have access to in order to inflict violence on people they do not like.

(One trick I enjoy is to find major historical battles and just...copy them. Trust me, nobody will know ;))

Do not forget the environment in which the battle or fight is taking place! It is vitally important (and will give you things to write about besides just punches/blows or whatever). Watch the John Wick movies for super good examples of this for fight scenes. And remember, clever use of terrain has changed the course of history (*cough* Agincourt *cough*) so do not neglect it!

That is pretty much it! Feel free to ask me questions, I love talking about this (and procrastinating. what? who said that?).

[citrus-cactus]

Citrus' Art Summary 2023!

The year is almost over, so here's my art summary for 2023! I got this template from here. This is my third year in a row being able to populate every month with a finished(/digital) piece (and really, I did a LOT more than what's shown here!), so that feels like something to celebrate!

Technically some of these choices don’t match up with their post dates; I counted some months as “when I was primarily working on them” and some as “when I actually published them,” but the sentiment remains. Like I said, it was a busy year! :)

Some more rambling + links to all featured artwork beneath the cut:

I remember last year I was quite worried about/was actually teetering on the edge of artistic burnout. There were definitely some months during this year that I felt a bit overwhelmed (particularly during the summer, when I was working on a 5-illustration series in a style that was DEFINITELY outside my norm, PLUS a bunch of other stuff), but I also appreciated the stylistic variety, and doing a lot of sketchbook drawings/marginalia that were(/are) just for me, so they never had to be "finished” or even "good." Even though almost everything pictured here is Digimon(/anime) art, I did experiment with a more "realistic" style for the Dracula Daily series (Aug/Sept), as well as trying to relearn the "Disney" style I started drawing in waaaaaaay back in high school, only now with a LOT more understanding of facial structure and anatomy. Largely, this style shake-up has been incredibly freeing (these are still sketchbook-only studies at this point, but I'm planning on some digital illustrations in the Disney style in 2024). I'm sure they still look pretty anime-influenced, and I'm not sure I'll ever truly be able to escape that, but honestly I don't mind; the anime aesthetic IS a part of my preference/style!

Let's see, the prevailing fandoms for what's shown here are Digimon Survive and Adventure 02. I really want to draw more Survive art next year!! Really happy with the collabo between @vidramon and myself (July), and honestly most (if not all) of these pieces. I worked hard, I branched out, I took on some really ambitious projects, and finished a ton of things (looking at you, March! That Knight drawing was a WIP for an entire year, but I finished it instead of abandoning it, which is what usually happens when things sit around that long!). Ultimately, I believe I told (and helped tell!) some great stories through my creative projects and art this year, which is my true goal forever and always.

Honestly I'm happiest with April's drawing. That one was a ton of fun to do, but I would have to work really hard to replicate that coloring style because I don't remember my brushes/settings, ahaha. Sadly this is how it usually goes with coloring for me; I make it up as I go almost every single time, which is why series are so difficult for me. I am nothing if not inconsistent -_-;

I would be remiss to mention that a huge part of my productivity this year was due to setting and tracking monthly goals for myself. I gotta thank everyone on the @campdigimonth server for their help in keeping me organized and motivated throughout the year! I plan on continuing my creative check-in posts in 2024.

Next year, I want to a) make more Survive art (particularly with Survive Week coming up), b) draw some more flippin' gargoyles (CRIIIINGE, but no, cringe is dead, I'mma do what I want!), and c) keep working on my personal project! And I am, once again, thinking about bookbinding. That's a "maybe" for next year as well!

Descriptions and links to the full artwork pictured for each month:

January: Survive Week, Day 5

February: Survive Gang Aromantic Week

March: Knight Unryuuji and Friend

April: “Rose-Tinted” fic illustration

May: Happy Birthday Vi!

June: Happy Birthday Haru Shinkai!

July: Happy 1st Anniversary Survive! (aka BEST SOCK FRIENDS)

August: Dracula, September 13

September: Dracula, September 20

October: Adv 02 Countdown Event, Day 7

November: “Boo!” on the Cob

December: Digimon Secret Santa 2023

[gale-dragon-writer]

Okay, doing something I usually don’t do, but I watched “The Chipmunk Adventure” recently on Youtube and I decided to give my thoughts on the movie now that I’m an adult in a Movie Review.

I remember having this movie on VHS when I was a kid (Yes, I am a 90’s baby, so yes, I had that kind of media growing up) and loving the movie at the time. So, I decided to re-watch the movie now to see how it holds up against the test of time.

I’ll start with the negatives of “The Chipmunk Adventure” and then the movie’s positives. I shall try to avoid as many spoilers as I can.

Cons of The Chipmunk Adventure:

Oh boy! Did the bulk of the representation of the other countries that were featured NOT age well! I get that this movie was released in 1987 and clearly their research was rather limited on those countries, so I’m not going to be as harsh on this part. (If this movie does somehow get a remake, I honestly hope that the representation get’s fixed).

The whole Girls vs Boys thing… Again, this movie was made and released in the 80’s, so… Yeah… I don’t think I should linger on this too much, but again, product of the time. Plus, the whole Girls vs Boys thing really only applies to Alvin and Brittany because they’re the only ones who actually care about it, since Simon, Theodore, Jeanette, and Eleanor were more dragged into the race and are chilled with each other.

According to the 1980 media, Alvin, Simon, and Theodore are 8 to 9-years-old. And I assume the Chipettes are the same age-range. So… Why are there multiple panty shot scenes with the Chipettes 😖? And what’s with the whole ‘attire’ change after both groups got caught? (How come they didn’t think to change back to their og clothing after getting out of their situation? Especially given where one of the groups went to after that 😑 ). Not to mention one of the songs was “Getting Lucky” with some snakes 🐍 😬… Yeah… I don’t know why the animators and/or writers of the movie added those, however… The Chipmunks and Chipettes are Literal Children!! 😡

The actual villains of this movie are… A little underwhelming 😞. Granted, their personalities are good for the types of baddies they are, but they didn’t really do much other than be kept posted on the “progress of the race”, at least until close to the end of the movie. Also… To keep the spoilers to a minimum, I will only say that they more or less sabotaged their whole grand plan.

There were some animation errors regarding some of the dolls, but that’s somewhat a minor complaint.

Now for the pros of The Chipmunk Adventure:

Let’s get this one out of the way, because it’s the most obvious one… The music 🎶 was great, songs were on brand and catchy (Except for one given the context, but it’s not enough to bring the enjoyment of the music down and it was technically well executed, now moving on). My only technical complaint about the songs is that there should’ve been more than one song with both the Chipmunks and Chipettes singing together. But it’s a minor complaint.

The “Adventure” part of the movie is/feels like an homage to “Around the world in 80 Days” given that the main task is to be the team to travel around the world in a hot air balloon 🎈 the fastest. The Chipmunks and Chipettes do take two different routes to complete this goal and have to exchange their respective doll for the doll of the other team to prove that they reached each check point they’re supposed to hit. It does somewhat feel like a relay race given the check points part, but it does play into the plot very well in a logical way.

Of course, the main characters are in character and work well of each other in an organic way.

Miss Miller is a chaotically good character that is comedy gold and never failed to make me simultaneously laugh and cringe at the same time 😅.

The overall plot of the movie was pretty good and easy to understand. Plus, I do give this movie points for not just going with the obvious tourist drawing locations when planning the teams’ routes.

There is a plot twist in this movie that as a kid I didn’t see coming, and as an adult with vague recollection of the movie, I still think that it was a well executed twist that really puts things into perspective given what was going on. (Yes, I am NOT saying what it is because I promised to keep this review as spoiler-free as possible).

Now that that is done, my overall score for The Chipmunk Adventure is…

6.7/10, and it’s a pretty decent kids movie despite some of the parts that didn’t age well. The overall plot was a great draw for me and I ended up watching the entire movie through w/o pausing or skipping over anything.

If you want to watch The Chipmunk Adventure, it’s on Youtube, but Idk for how long given copyrights. However, there are some physical meadia of this movie, but they’re VHS and as far as I know it didn’t have a DVD re-release. (But it might be on other streaming media’s or online somewhere that’s not Youtube).

And let me know if you want me to do another movie review in the future. (Not going to be taking movie requests, but if this is something you want me to do occasionally, let me know.)

[genericpuff]

Hiii, I read your post about the stiff dialogue in LO, and I wanted to add my own two cents!

I myself am a person with a nice case of dyslexia (it will most likely show in this message). While I can’t speak for everyone with dyslexia, I pesonally cannot and will not publish anything ”official”, without spell checking it to hell and back. This is mostly because I’m hyper aware of this being one of my ”shortcomings”.

I also wanted to say, that most of, if not all, people with dyslexia that I know are rather self-consious about it. I just find it a bit unbeliavable that all the misspellings/awkward text in LO are there simply because Rachel has dyslexia. To me personally, it seems to be more a product of laziness and/or indifference.

Of course there is the fact that I’m not working on a long project, and I can usually take my time with my work, so maybe I just have more recourses to be careful. I also want to make clear that I don’t mean to say that Rachel’s dyslexia doesn’t affect her workload at all, but I do think she should have the means to check these things, especially since she is quite successful in the field.

Thanks for pitching in on this! I myself do not have dyslexia, but I do understand the struggle of missing words or misspelling them as my brain tends to move too quick at times for my writing speed to keep up LMAO It happens a lot when I'm writing by hand as I can't handwrite as fast as I can type so words sometimes go missing while my brain speeds ahead 😂

I can get why someone might be a little more self-conscious about typos being pointed out if they're making their comic entirely on their own and for free, or if they're just self-conscious about making mistakes in general (it can be scary to put a piece of work out into the world!) but Rachel is literally the top creator on the platform so there's zero excuse for it to have gone this long without at least a copy editor. And frankly it's still weird that they hire a copy editor at all just for checking typos because that's something that can be done so easily (again, Rachel has 4-5 other assistants per episode, you're telling me NONE of them could do it for her? Oh that's right, because she has them all draw their panels in isolation of one another and then she slaps the dialogue in at the last minute -.- the copy editor she has right now seems like the 'last step' before she submits the comic).

That said, if you go back far enough, you can actually find Rachel's take on correcting her misspellings and it's... frankly way saltier than it ought to be? Like I get it, it might feel like an attack for someone to say "hey, I spotted this mistake!" especially if you're self-conscious about it or are living with a learning disorder that affects your every day life, but when you get over that self-consciousness of making mistakes, it's really not that big of a deal? Like, yeah, it can be really frustrating when people point those mistakes out because it makes you feel bad or reminds you that you're struggling with something like spelling that seems so natural and 'easy' to everyone else, but I find true genuine fans of your work don't point these things out to be mean, just to be helpful. Yes, some people are mean about it, but you can usually tell which ones are the mean ones and which ones are the nice ones.

I've made spelling and grammatical errors in both Time Gate and Rekindled that have been kindly pointed out, and you know what I do when people find them? I thank them for spotting what I clearly didn't and I go and fix it. Because it makes my work better for my audience and my own peace of mind.

Rachel, meanwhile-

(tiny picture translation:

Question: Why do you have typos?

Rachel's answer: Yes, believe it or not I speak English. (English-New Zealand not English-American) Remember... not everyone cares about spelling. And frankly if go around pointing out spelling mistakes in peoples comics you have an issue. Plus I'm dyslexic you insensitive ass!)

Like... that whole thing is from her FAQ section that she made herself and she's still having a tone of voice that implies she's directing her answer at one specific person as if it was like an anon ask LMAO and really, I get the spirit of what she's saying, it can be pretentious/rude to point out people's spelling mistakes... in an informal or conversational setting. If you're making a comic or writing a book, though, it's basically a bare minimum expectation that you should be using spell check and making sure things are readable. You're making the work for other people to read after all. So her tone in this followed by the whole "I'm dyslexic you ass" bit just feels so unnecessarily hostile over something that was an innocent mistake and happens to literally everyone. Like, she really do be hurting her own feelings in her own FAQ that she made on her own time, this isn't the only question in there that reeks of 2000's edgy era "fuck you for asking" energy lmao

That said, to be fair, that is from her 2000's edgy era, so I'm hoping she's grown out of that at least slightly, but judging by how she's been managing her comic the past few years, it's clear she still isn't bothering to employ simple tactics to keep mistakes from slipping through the cracks and would rather lean on her dyslexia as an excuse rather than a reason. Dyslexia is a reason for typos, but where it becomes an excuse IMO is when she blames her dyslexia and then doesn't fix the mistakes that arise due to her dyslexia or do anything to make her life easier going forward.

Again, she's hired a copy editor, so if they're a permanent part of the team now, that will hopefully make things better. But why weren't they one of the first people hired when it's clear that Rachel could really use the help to ensure her comic comes out being the best version of itself it could be? It's like she's been literally shooting herself in the foot for the last 5 years.

It really feels lazy and, frankly, disrespectful. I know that might be a hot take or seem a little overblown to use that word here, but if you're going to be creating a comic for an audience - and expecting that audience to read your comic each week and in Rachel's case be expected to pay money for it - then you should be doing them the service of making it worth reading and sticking around for. If you can't even do so much as spell check your work - or go back and edit the errors when they arise - then that really goes to show how little you care about your own audience because you're not willing to put in the time and effort to even just fix a typo, let alone give them something worth coming back to and paying for each week. Sure, not everyone pays for the comics, but those viewership analytics are still valuable and it's very clear at this point that they're dropping rapidly week after week, and yet Rachel is doing barely anything to help turn things around.

Lore Olympus disrespects its audience in more ways beyond just the typos, of course, but the typos feel like the shopping cart litmus test - it costs next to nothing to resolve the issue, so if you still choose not to, it speaks to how little effort you're willing to put in to do something helpful for others that already only requires the bare minimum to do.

Of course, much of this is all speculative so take it with grains of salt, but judging by her responses to her own audience way back in the day, it really paints a picture of how Rachel views her audience. It makes it feel like she doesn't release her work into the world to genuinely entertain people or to find others who may connect and resonate with the work, she does it purely for herself and herself alone. That wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing in and of itself, it's pretty difficult to keep up a project if you aren't doing it for yourself to some degree (and you shouldn't create a comic just to earn an audience because that's just setting up unfair expectations for yourself lol), but in Rachel's case, it feels more like she's emulating the same edgelord energy of her "boss babe" Persephone - if you don't love every part of her and her work regardless of its genuine flaws, no matter how easy said flaws would be to fix, then you should just shut up and read her work and/or pay for it anyways because she should be allowed to do whatever she wants and if you don't like it, then you're an insensitive ass.

[blueikeproductions]

So the original pitch bible for Transformers Prime was revealed, its prototypical stage was called Robots in Disguise funnily enough, and I’m mixed on what I’ve seen.

Let’s be clear, Prime is ok, but I’ve always found it bland. Flash over substance, best remembered for being gritty and violent with little to say outside of that becoming a forced amalgam of what came before, while its true saving grace being it got Peter Cullen and Frank Welker back on TV in their best known roles. It never knew what it wanted to be, and it’s why I preferred RiD15 since, while far more “kiddy”, I respect a show that at least knows what it is sincere about it.

With that in mind, the concept art oddly feels more cohesive than Prime. The general gist was pretty unabashedly Bayformers: The Animated Series and to a degree I’m surprised they didn’t just do that with NEST, Sam & Mikayla instead of trying to make douchebag hacker Spike a thing.

Indeed, Spike was originally meant as the lead human, described as a rebellious hacker seeking the truth, and one day discovers a Transformer. While there’s no design drawn, reference photos use what looks like stereotypical teens from the 2000’s, ranging from a skateboarder to a grungy emo teen that reminds me of douchebag SM3 Peter with the symbiote. Going by the description and visuals, Spike was evidently split apart into Jack, Raf and Miko, which might explain why they never worked… at least to me. They became a fragment of Spike’s original personality and never fully grew beyond that, when keeping them a single character might’ve been far more interesting.

It appears NEST inspired TASK, no idea what it stands for, but they were similarly a military unit aligned with the Autobots. A female love interest was sketched out, though frankly with how masculine the sketch looks, I keep thinking it’s a guy. Sort of the reverse TF Zone Akira (looks like a girl, is actually a dude). Frankly I say keep the military person a love interest and make ’em a dude: let’s get Akira and Cain up in here with it lol. (I know they weren’t officially a couple, but I still think it’s funny. Plus a version of Spike with a boyfriend could be fun as something different.)

Anyhow, a big emphasis was humanity joining the fight, as well as how they’d react to the TF’s Great War. This didn’t really make it into the final product beyond Prime and RiD’s over fixation on hiding the robots (when in both cases it was becoming increasingly hard to believe people didn’t see anything or just shrugged it off. Though RiD at least had some funny bits poking fun at this I liked.) TASK was basically NEST, and in some cases was just one letter away from just becoming MASK. …Which leads into the toy aspect.

I think had they played their cards right with this early pitch, they could’ve had Autobots, Decepticons, and TASK/MASK transforming vehicles. A huge emphasis was placed on Optimus having specialized trailers, all seemingly based on the Armada and Prime Force drones from Energon to some extent. There was the base trailer that unfolded into a military platform for Autobots and humans to use, a drill trailer for Energon mining, a submarine trailer for water missions, I think I saw a jet trailer, and a tank trailer. It appears they could all Transform to some extent, even becoming armor for other characters to combine with. They evoke the later Cyberverse Spark Armor vehicle combinations with a dash of ROTF Jet Optimus, so the concept made it out just not in Proto-Prime lol.

There was also a proposed Energon Weapon gimmick that strongly resembles the RB style Energon Tools gimmick, so presumably it too got repurposed.

Curiously there’s a LOT of concept art of the Autobots in underwater missions, wearing armor that resembles the submarine armor TFA Bumblebee toy. One concept art drawing features a giant robot manta-fish guy, who I’m assuming was a Seacon or a Sharkticon of some sort. The later TFP prequel stuff that did get made involves an adventure on Aquatron, with Megatron becoming a liberator of the Sharkticons, so I guess that’s where that came from? Megatron even got a Sharkticon inspired toy to boot. I suppose it’s ironic we have all this water business but no one thought to include guys like Sea Spray (and NOT kill him off screen). The robot designs were all over the place. A lot of art mostly uses stylized G1 designs, but the proposed designs were a stronger hybrid of the movies and G1, as opposed to what we got which was purely movie inspired with a dash of Animated. It’s funny to me that after years of praise for Prime’s art style, upon seeing the concept art, it’s now ok to absolutely dunk on Prime. Megatron is the stand out for many, being a hybrid of his WFC, body, his Cybertron Mode Animated body and his Revenge of the Fallen bodies. His vehicle mode was a tank, instead of the first Bayformer space jet thing. He also had what I think might have been a battle axe on his back. It’s definitely cooler than what we got, and I get a strong sense it might crop up as a toy in a future Concept Art Studio Series release. The other designs I think got repurposed though. Bee’s design looks to be what eventually became RiD15, CV and ES Bee, Starscream became RiD15 Screamer, Soundwave’s Earth Mode became RiD15 and CV Soundwave. I genuinely believe RiD15 was where some of these designs were saved lol. Optimus was pry the more G1 looking, with the look possibly influencing his CV and RBA bodies. Soundwave had an alternate design that was his ROTF design, but with Fixit’s wheel feet. I personally hate this look, buts pretty clear ROTF Soundwave was still a huge influence for what became the final and genuinely popular TFP Soundwave design. Ironhide was one of the main Autobots along with Ratchet, both being heavily influenced by their Movie selves, like what would’ve happened with TFA Ironhide and TFA Ratchet. I suppose the funny thing is the Ironhide design made it through, becoming Kup in the American release but staying Ironhide in the Japanese release. Still, the designs were very rough, and as much as people seem to be more for them, they’re too busy and are still clearly finding a balance in what they wanted. I think had they refined it a bit more we could’ve had the perfect Godzilla: The Animated Series equivalent to the original Bayformers. Alas we got Prime, while well intentioned was a show that coasted hard on being dark and gritty, shackled to continued unpopular modern ideas that’s only held TF down than uplift it. I think at the very least EarthSpark is a better version of Prime’s ideas even if I don’t agree with its execution.

[hattiestgal]

Right, now to like actually talk about the current situation in a little more detail.

To put it simply, I'm taking a break from doing art for a bit, and opening a secret drawing box in its stead as a sorta thing to fill the gap (You can find that here). I'd love to show off all of you guys' lovely art!!

I don't imagine my break'll be too long. I've got plenty of things I wanna draw, just not a whole lot of energy to do it at the moment! Recovery time and all...

Now, for a slightly more detailed look at what all has happened. So I'm sure you can imagine, but I'm in funky burnout purgatory at the moment, and that's for one relatively simple reason. I just pushed myself too hard.

This is the first time I've ever really grown any kind of community on any social media site. For the first time in a long time, my enthusiasm for drawing was completely rejuvenated cause I wanted to make cool stuff for all these people who started following me! Plus, I felt like I could really express myself here. I met cool people, I got some really cool mutuals, it's always a joy to read people's tags, so I just kept on making stuff.

Eventually, the doodle game got introduced into the mix. I got to interact with my community and make the art they were interested in seeing directly! But as I kept going, I kept pushing myself to improve the quality of the drawings. Suddenly, doodles turned to rough commission quality lineart, all while I was keeping up the same pace I did when I had introduced the game in the first place, and well, I overworked myself.

I had to stop and just do something else. And yet, I couldn't help but feel guilty the entire time. I tried time and time again over the past few days to get the last asks done to no avail, and that just made everything worse. Burnout is a cruel thing when you tie things like self-worth to productivity (thank you, capitalist society), and it just sorta spiraled.

So by last night, I've put a lot of this together in my head (with the help of one of my lovely followers reaching out to me to give me some perspective), and honestly I just sort made things worse in the process, my brain was insistent that I should have known better.

But I think there's one very helpful bit of advice I've been learning, especially recently, and that's the fact that I'm still learning. This was literally the first time I've ever really done something like this. I haven't had the community to get overenthusiastic over before, so how would I have known better? I wouldn't have! And I just think it's important to remember that I'm not gonna be good at anything on my first try, but I have the capacity to learn. Things will improve with experience.

I'm feeling far better now than I was before, especially with everyone's kind words and love. I deeply appreciate all of you. I've learned my lesson and will be taking steps to handle all of this better in the future. Thank you all for understanding <3

[spread-positivity-everywhere]

I have this fear of get dragged by Time™, of years passing in a blink, making decisions that i will regret later and realize that I wasted time or that i should have done something different. I still don't know what to do to make a living and secure an income that allows me to stand by myself when I need it in the future.

I don't to want to grow up in age.

I feel like if I don't stay conscious in the moment i'm in, life will go too fast. I know it feels like time flies when we are happy and don't think about anything, like just letting ourselves be (it could be that i'm afraid of not evaluating my decisions and behaviour if i just let myself be happy forever). When I don't feel confident if something is the thing i should be doing, i give myself trouble. I just don't start anything and keep scrolling on my phone.

When we are happy, is it possible to keep reflecting? I don't want to stop reflecting about my behaviour and decisions, i don't want to go on mindlessly on life.

Maybe i'm judging wrong what "being happy" is like.

It could be that i'm understimating me. There's some behaviours i had when i was in middle school i didn't realize i had at the time. I regret have been so strong-headed. I'm afraid of not realizing again my bad behaviour if i just let myself be.

But I'm an adult now, i should be able to do better, no? being better at catching myself when i'm not doing something right.

About my fear of making wrong decisions and wasting time because of it. There's so much now i wish i could have done when i was younger (i'm 21), like learning cool hobbies (musical instruments, sports, drawing, etc), study more (cuz i didn't learn shit, i was just there for the grades thus memorizing things i would forget quickly) and start reading for fun at an earlier age.

It's not too late to learn but how can i have the patience to wait for results. I feel like i'm way behind people my age. I didn't cultivate myself intellectually all these years.

There's so much i want to learn and that kind of paralyzes me, cuz what if i start learning something, i dedicate a lot to it and then one day i feel like i wasted my time on it. And that's the thing i want to avoid. I don't want to go again through "i should have done this other thing". I don't want to feel that type of regret.

When i finished middle school, the thing i regreted the most... i don't actually remember what it was but i know my experience as someone who cared too much about grades caused me to be determined to enjoy highschool and have lots of fun (which i didn't feel i had accomplished and that made me feel worse, cuz i really wanted to get the most out of it). Now I have an issue with productivity after that plus four years of doing nothing after finishing highschool

That’s how you know you’ve grown if you look back on your life from a previous time and know how you would’ve done things differently.

I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, whether that’s as a lesson or not.

You can be happy and still be reflecting. If anything, that helps you appreciate what you have going on in the present even more.

This is going to sound so cliche, but you’re still super young. You’ve got loads of time to change your life if you want to.

Honestly, someone once told me some advice that may help you when you feel like you’re behind compared to others. “Comparison is the thief of joy.”

You have to live your life and make your choices for yourself. It’s YOUR life. Follow what makes you happy.

[rosegoldenatlas]

yeah so that whole "no cutting for 2 weeks" thing went down the drain just about instantly. i mean its nice that i made it a week and a half but still. i dont know what i expected

i was a useless fuck all day

i barely got any animation done

i tried to make some homemade ice cream and brownies to cheer myself up but it all went wrong for some long and complicated reasons that effectively boil down to "god i fucking hate my mother" and that just made my day even worse

i was a fucking useless greedy gluttonous pig all day too

my art sucks

i wish i was dead

i dont know why im even writing this

you would be better off never having known me

good night i guess

i dont care

Hey. Hey. Queen its okay. Nearing on two weeks is insane for a lot of people I know. You did good. I'm still proud of you, yeah? You had optimism for yourself. That's good. Just because you were optimistic about your situation doesn't mean you were stupid or naive like you might think. You did well, you just didn't have the support you needed. Everyone needs support, hell, I need a shit ton more than most people, but needing doesn't mean you're weak. It means you're human like the rest of us, okay?

Hey. Most days are like that. The past week and a half for me has been just me being a lazy bitch. I admit. But it felt nice to be a lazy bitch even if half of the time was my brain screaming about it. Fuck all days are good for your mental health even if your brain is screaming at you otherwise.

Getting anything done is more than what I did. My dumbass decided laying around was productive. You did a lot more than me even if it was just a few frames.

Damn. That sucks. I hate your mom too. But hey, ice cream and brownies are a big plus even if the during and after was shit. My mom is on an elimination diet right now. Which means even if I dont have to participate. She is only buying stuff she can eat (meat and vegetables. That's it. I'm not kidding. No sugars or bread or dairy or fruit) so at the moment i don't have any food unless I beg to be allowed to go to town and buy food (but I'm a broke ass MF after my last job let me go for finance reasons (hurricane dmg))

Hey wait. Nuh uh. I guarantee you weren't. In this economy, to be actually gluttonous requires that your family is rich rich. I think like that too sometimes but then I remember that the only reason I feel like that is because that's the thought process my mother has engrained into my skull since birth and she denies it now. I don't know how you are about food, but for me I'll eat a normal amount of food and feel so full I'm sick with it because I usually only eat one sad meal a day. This happens twice a week so its a constant. Maybe that's what's happening with you?

No it don't. I saw and it looks great and I swear I'm not just saying that.

Sometimes I do too. The world fucking sucks. But guess what. Since my life has no meaning anyways I may as well fuck around and find out for a while first. I can't be wasting this opportunity.

Im glad you are. I like talking to you even if it makes me a lil sad.

I don't think so! You are so sweet to me! Even if I try to self isolate you seem to understand and you drew me a silly lil drawing that one time. And recorded yourself reading me myths for fucks sake!

Good night.

I care.

[thesilliestdevteam]

What and WHO the shit is Play-A-Thing Productions?

Hi hi hi, guys, gals, ghouls, and everyone else beyond and in between!! This is a more in-depth rant on why this little blog exists! I'm Fox [he/him]!! A very tired lad who has a dream aaaaand like- three more years of high school. For a while, I've wanted to do something that revolved around video games. I love all kinds of games, the characters, world building, secrets, the whole package. I'd love drawing fanart and watching random internet people hack into games to see what's hidden around. And recently I thought "Its really cool to see all the work and effort put into these games- I wonder if I can do that" So that somehow magically lead to a shit ton of different game titles written in a word document and I only remember about 3 of the ideas for them. I want to take coding and animation classes eventually once I at the very least get a decent functioning laptop and art skills that don't look like a 6 year old was the one drawing. Until then, all the work, characters, ideas, and concepts will kinda just get thrown here! Plus, if artists, game devs, and even just normal folk like you guys see this, I am always glad to see comments, tips, and whatever else! Now as for the team, cause I said 'there ain't no way in actual hell I'm working on this alone': There are two other people on the team at the current moment! My darling and lovely reason-I-won't-die-alone, @a-simple-traveler-anon

and a really cool friend who I dragged along because I wanted them to suffer with me, @crispywaffles2 I'll let them do their own silly little introductions whenever they can :) Soooo what do we have so far?? The ones with the most work put in is A Spark of Something Sweet [basic animatronic mascot game], Figure of Ashes [a 2D COTL style and visual novel horror comedy game, which Im working on solo], and Brain Splatters! [an edutainment horror game that I plan on dragging my fellow critters in on]. The other ideas we have uhm... haven't even been touched yet really- so I probably won't be making any new game concepts until all the ideas get their own pages in my silly word document. Nothing will actually be worked on any time soon, but I'm trying my best, and I'm glad to have two of the worlds swaggiest critters behind me while I do this!! Thank you two, you two can always get the gears turning with creativity!! And thank YOU, the creature reading this right now!! The whole purpose for a game developer is to express themselves and entertain those around them!! So I really hope you like everything thats to come!!

[byanyan]

" hey, you know what? i think you should let me do your makeup, i trusted you enough to let you do mine, so i think it's only fair that you should return the favor. " she likes to think that her makeup is flawless, so it should be easy for them to trust her, right? and besides, makeup is one of the few things she takes seriously, she wouldn't purposefully make them look bad, she actually cares about them too much to do that. " it'll be so fun! i always carry the essentials with me... eyeliner, lipstick, mascara, but if you want- and if you trust me enough- i can work with what you've got, i'm sure you've got more on you than i do. " ( from perona! )

ㅤㅤ" ...really? "ㅤthe suggestion is unexpected, and it has byan looking up from their phone, surprised. she... wants to do their makeup? it's a little out of the blue, seems like a kind of random idea to bring up in this particular moment, but... they aren't uninterested. in fact, they're quite keen on the offer. no one's ever wanted to do their makeup before. —well, okay, that's not entirely true; they can remember a couple times growing up where girls they were friends with would play around with makeup with them, but that was when they were a kid, it doesn't count. since then, no one has offered, so they're sure as hell not about to turn this opportunity down.

ㅤㅤ" that does sound kinda fun. "ㅤit actually sounds very fun, but they're trying to downplay their excitement here, mortified by the idea of coming off as too eager. pulling their lip between their teeth in an effort to fight back the grin that wants to spread wide, their eyes are the only thing which betray their air of nonchalance, sparkling with a cheery eagerness as byan reaches for their backpack.

ㅤㅤ" i do actually got, like, a little bit'a everything with me today, just in case i wanted t' do somethin' more at any point. "ㅤthey'd decided to go for a more simple look this morning, after all — a little bit of eyeliner, a dash of light blush, a simple tinted lip gloss, and not much else — but always like having the option of doing something more fun if they get bored at any point in the day. leg bouncing energetically as they dig around inside their bag, byan pulls out all the products they've brought with them and begins spreading them out across the table, still chewing away at their lip.

ㅤㅤ" i don't trust most people with this stuff, "ㅤthe stuff they've collected which holds a great importance to them, that is, such as their makeup,ㅤ" but y'did let me do yours, that's true... plus, like, your makeup is always on point anyway, so... "ㅤwith only a flicker of hesitation as they turn the kuromi pouch full of all their makeup brushes over in their hand, they draw in a breath and finally slide it across the table to perona. their gaze flits up to her face, eyes still shining, and allow their smile to spread at last.

ㅤㅤ" alright, i'll trust ya. lemme just wipe off what i already got on 'n then you can go wild, just gimme whatever kinda look you wanna do. "