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itissadbutitsmy-artblog · 5 months ago

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i overturn my uncles barbeque grill and turn the Fourth Of July into the Fourth Of Shit

theres a gray one becaesu i actually hate coloring things so much

#really upset i didnt sraw them Hollering. that is very them. but its okay. i wanted to draw this so so badly.#adventure itme #wizard city #distant lands #spader #blaine #wizard guards #digital #spaders invited to the wizard guard cookout because he is blaines best friend :] larrys inside. in the Magic AC.#COLORING IS SO HARD?????? ummm oh fuck they have shoes. idunno. (slides around on the color wheel) idk. pink. (fill color) okay next.#like what the fuck. how else do you do it.#i know how complementary colors work. but like. on a full scale image??? theres so many tiny little ass things.#and they all have to be different colors and shades so they track to the eye as different thigns.#-> guy who drew SPADER in a WHITE t-shirt voice 'they all have to be different shades'#but i did get a good brush that makes pretty clouds :]#ANYWAYS. i did an overlay layer and i feel better now.#little spader is bringing me such joy look at him. tiny man invited to the barbecue to watch shit go down.

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howlonomy · 8 months ago

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I wonder what clovers parents would think if they did know, like I’m assume there are still human problems and clovers parents seem to be the type of trashy people who would be xenophobic.

i dont think they would care all that much bc it doesnt matter WHAT clover is; just that they’re something they can use to keep their house clean and boss around. they would take clover back just to keep them and parade them around as a hero!

i dont wanna go tooo into the racism aspect bc. its not really my place to talk about being a minority bc im not. but i think they would be terrible people even without being racist

#asked and answered #monster clover au #mcau lore #also i hate the metaphor of different species=rac/ism bc thats. not how rac/ism works #but i digress #tumblr wont post this without me censoring the word lmao <333 #NAD OP U DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG BRINGING IT UP bc thats the way a lot of undertale postsurface stuff tends to go #i just dont think i need to mention it bc like yeah! there ARE gonna be rac/ist freaks!!!#i wanna make em terrible without added that onto it. you feel??#seems a little unnecessary is all!!#ALSO I KNOW THIS IS A SENSITIVE SUBJECT SO I HOPE I DIDNT FUCK UP MY EXPLANAITION TOO BADLY. THUNBS UP!!!!

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volfoss · 4 months ago

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it is beyond infuriating how anne rice seems to insist on marius being a positive force in anyone's life ever. like she can't fully commit to exploring the fact he groomed armand and has repeatedly taken away his consent for what marius thinks is best (take the end of TVA as an example) and just kind of flatly puts it in the narrative. there's not really much interest in how these horrific events make marius come across as the worst because EVERYONE loves him. for gods sake, lestat learns from armand exactly what marius did to him in TVL and then proceeds to go find marius and be super friendly to him in the same fucking book. even armand and pandora, two of the people who have MORE than enough right to hate him, do not. it doesnt feel like shes trying to explore the toxicity of the abusive dynamic he traps them in, it just is there. and like yeah ofc the toxic vampire romance series but i think that this should be handled with more care. and it is not ever really framed in a way that she is interested in exploring how marius should easily be one of the most horrific characters in this series because it kind of feels like sa/rape/grooming/other things of that sort are just put there to further plot and not to really get the respect that they deserve in a medium.

#twist rambles #vc posting #grooming mention #for blocklist sorry im on my im really mad about this fucking series soapbox again #to be fucking honest she treats slavery similar. like its just THERE and the characters doing it dont really feel bad about it (much like m #rius doesnt seem to.. feel much if any remorse for arm.and) and it is just like... ok heres another bad thing with no examination. this isn #a super coherent post but i went a bit forward to see how b&g was handling the arm.and stuff and oh my god. oh im so mad. like i just... i #wish so badly that arma.nds abuse was taken seriously other than haha its sooo quirky that mari.us is in a position of power over him and #provides housing money sex comfort etc for him and is abusing him but hes sooo happy with himmmm. like he fucking sold him into sex slavery #and we are supposed to root for him #ask to tag #sorry this is just. its a very triggering part of the books but its something that i kind of keep returning to to mull over because it is #handled really badly. like i think she was trying to go for a lo.lita vibe (iirc she did actually mention nabok.ov as an inspiration) but #didnt really care enough to examine WHY that is an interesting take on the subject matter. not even to get into pan.doras stuff bc its just #really bad but at least he waited until she was an adult i suppose. like i will give anne one thing that she has characters and (poorly han #led) writing that makes you really think and analyze. which i think is where i enjoy media that is like... this kind of sucks at points but #u can tell the authors viewpoints soo transparently. and u can examine it thru this. like i think thats why i find the gr.ell run of GA int #resting too bc u can telll that man is a libertarian and doesnt respect women. and then claims to do so. its interesting to me. anyways #did u guys know she defended bill clin.ton when the monica stuff came out and victim blamed her. just a funny coincidence.#sorry for the really long tag rant but i am sooo fed up with how she treats this topic forever and ever. bc its been this way forever.#anyways back to reading had to get that out. lmk if u need me to tag this bc its a lot of tws :)

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fellhellion · 1 year ago

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Something something the spot’s goofy antics distract from how dangerous his own entitlement and resentment is

#I don’t want to be that guy but I feel a little bit like spot gets sanded down a tad into just the fact he’s funny #and he IS funny I get it. but what makes him scary is the power to lash out with his entitlement and resentment towards miles #it’s you did this TO ME (miles didn’t #he was busy getting pummeled by kingpin and then venom shocking him back and the building was being EVACUATED it’s literally no one’s fault #but spot’s that he was there AND miles didn’t even know he was there when the collider exploded)#so I’m owed the role that you made me into <- miles literally didn’t do this #I’m OWED being your nemesis because I created you <- when all of itsv is about its miles own choices that make him heroic and not the bite #spot can’t even take ownership of his own actions. he’s like oh IM not robbing you that’s the bank. well buddy I don’t see you robbing the #bank I see you harassing some guy owning a corner store #like I get it. ur a cosmic horror and it sucks capitalism is pushing u down and u can’t get a job but like OWN UP TO WHAT THE HELL YOU DO #LMAO #and even miles trying to genuinely reach out and say look I’m sorry I made u feel bad (even though this isn’t an owed apology) and spot #STILL is hellbent on breaking miles back for an imagined slight #I AM GOING TO KILL YOUR LITERAL FATHER BECAUSE I BLAME YOU FOR SOMETHING YOU DIDNT DO #like god lmao. he’s a fun silly villain but there’s legitimate anger and spite and RESENTMENT motivating him purely to try hurt miles back a #as* badly as he imagines miles hurt him. when it’s like dude. own tf up to who’s responsible here #I’m not angry at the spot btw I actually think he’s a fun villain but I think recognising that resentment is what makes him effective as a #*frightening* villain and one that poses legitimate danger #tunes talks spiderverse #apologies xinakwans ik u said you didn’t want to read any spot posts hopefully this snags on ur filtered content block shdjfjfk

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adustoflove · 2 months ago

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Its only 6 am and things are already not going well

#personal #im trying so hard not to be a huge giant bitch to people either 😔😩 thank you bpd for turning minor inconveniences #into im going to destroy people verbally moments #like actually i didnt fucking make this appointment at 11 pm you dumb fuckinf bitch??? it says ON THE EMAIL YOU RESENT #9:30 AM TO 10 AM....???? WDYM ITS AT 11PM AND THATS A PROBLEM. UHM NOT ITS NIT?????#and i made sure to send her a SCREENSHOT so she knows shes a fucking IDIOT #why does it feel like people will do anything BUT their job . so sick of that around here #😔😭 oct 1st ruined by 6 am . im going back to bed no one wake me up ever again #💀 except i made a hair appt and am supposed to see a movie. like do I wanna do that anymore. how badly is THAT gonna go too #yes I realize im havjng a meltdown like a toddler. but god damn #october CANCELED i dont wanna do it anymore 😭😭😭

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thetimelordbatgirl · 3 months ago

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New school attendance rules (that are stupid as fuck) being published has me learning people didn't even know that the UK fines people for their kids not being in school unauthorized???

#i...i....yeah to anyone who didnt know #we do #this country is obsessed with school attendance #if its not authorized your fucked #hell even if authorized aka your carer did phone for you and shit #depending how many you have it can stack up and they'll get sus #and you'll get in trouble even then #like the new rules alone are increasingly making it clear if your not authorized you can get bankrupt depending how many kids you have #which yes makes the new rules abelist as fuck and also only rich people will survive it #hell if the schools cant fine you they'll at least make you feel shame #as my school had a form system where at the end of each term a form will be rewarded for the best attendance #so rip if you were the fucker that took i dunno one or two days off for sickness or whatever #because you just costed your form room the award and the classmates know it and will look at you #source: me who had to take sick days off #hell snow days you wont free at my school #my roads and pathways were iced so i couldnt go in #but noooo according to my head of year i should have tried cause he hunted all of us who took the day off and interograted us #and if our excuse wasnt good enough for him we were told off #and they'd literally encourage you to only take sick day off if your throwing up #my head of year literally said he dont care if we got a headache or small cough or sniffle just come in #...huh wonder how they did during 2020...#but yeah attendance in the UK in terms of schools is fucking strict #(also if your curious they did send us home if we were bad-bad #i got sent home once i think??? i dont recall much of that school for my own sanity #but i badly burnt my hand in DT via a soldering iron and i had to go home and the doctors and return to school #with a hand i couldnt write with which was my writing hand so um #yeah i couldnt work much until it recovered...well my english teacher forced me to write with my non-writing hand but #and one girl got sent home for throwing up on the stairs #and another from my limited memories for falling down the stairs which uh were stone in a way so um #(i fell up those stairs somehow once...didnt get sent home but i missed english so) they had no choices sometimes)

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anastacialy · 6 months ago

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y'know, i keep making a habit of swinging my bat at hornets nests, but i have to say i'm getting so, so tired of people complaining about shows not making perfect sense when they aren't even close to done. we're four episodes into this season of doctor who. we're four episodes into this season of bridgerton. and yet in both fandoms i keep seeing people whine that such and such didn't make sense or it wasn't explained all the way and by god you guys i think maybe explanations might come later in the season. this is something most viewers will recognize as being called a 'plot.'

#like maybe a tiny bit of media literacy... might save you #and if you think i'm being mean like. its okay if you don't get it at first. it's okay if you don't understand the themes. but maybe #instead of stamping your feet and saying this makes no sense and i hate what they're doing and and and #maybe you could try listening to other people's interpretations of things and you'll find that what the show is trying to tell you becomes #more clear! would you look at that. wild how that happens #like im sorry you're entitled to your opinions but calling things bad writing just because you don't quite get it or it doesn't resonate #with you personally... i don't think you should just say this was shitty and worthless #the examples im using are because both resonate with me btw. 73 yards was existential horror it was hill house and bly manor #(im going to write about this in another post btw bc it compels me so)#it was about the way fear of abandonment can haunt you how mental illness can haunt you how you feel like you can drive people away #just by being yourself (the Woman was Herself what caused ruby to be abandoned was Her it's about her feeling as though she was the cause #of everyone who left her even as a baby even the people who loved her most could decide to not love her at the drop of a hat)#colin bridgerton is masking and faking a personality because it has been proven that time and time again #being Himself is Wrong that he annoys people he makes himself into what people expect of him because he's tired of being abandoned too #his family ignores and does not reply to his letters this season PEN stopped replying to his letters #his brother was cruel to him for being a romantic his friends LAUGHED AT HIM for saying sex is meaningful to him and don't they feel lonely #his Fake Rake persona makes viewers cringe because! its!! fake!!! he's faking it! HE GETS CALLED OUT ON IT TWICE IN EP ONE #if you don't understand he's faking it then that's on you at that point! i don't know! maybe take a minute to sit in the discomfort and ask #why did this show make me react this way and do you think maybe it was on purpose #''73 yards was confusing'' do you think confusion may be one of the ways ruby feels about her abandonment?#there is a theme in all of her episodes so far is it ''badly written'' unclear to you or do you just refuse to think critically about it #txtly #and im sorry for tagging this its just for my blog i kinda wish they still didnt show up in tags if i tag them all the way at the bottom #[old lady ruby voice] ''i used to be able to tag things just for myself once upon a time''#bridgerton #bridgerton spoilers #doctor who #doctor who spoilers

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perenlop · 2 months ago

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jesus christ what the fuck happened here. i knew the dub episodes were out of order but this is such a baffling list. what do you mean they didn't air the parm and memu episode until 94 episodes in... how does that happen

#maybe its just bc i havent seen tooooo many 4kids properties but i feel like kirby was one of their more butchered shows #which makes sense bc it wasnt like a big name thing like pokemon was #while that and sonic got really stupid 4kids edits theyre at least trying to be close to the original #while with kirby it feels like they didnt give a shit and cut things left and right for the most banal offenses #like. how do you fuck up the wolfwrath episode that badly #there's a ton of script changes that dont matter or even actively make the episode worse in several episodes #(like theres been a poorly done script change in over half the episodes ive seen so far)#i mean. i guess it couldve been worse bc eve told me the tokyo mew mew dub was done exceptionally poorly too #and they got entire plot episodes out of order. at least kirby's plot/continuity episodes are mostly consistent with the airing order #echoed voice #hnk liveblog

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monachopism · 7 months ago

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being jewish with zero affiliation to israel and rather a generational line of activists for palestine is a hard line to walk and sometimes i wish i could just fall off

#i hate zionist jews i hate i stand with israel signs in my neighborhood i hate leftists who write and speak and act like theyve never met an #actual jewish person in their life and believe that were all genocidal monsters (in spite of our own genocide which i assume will eventuall #flip around to leftist holocaust denial) i hate that people are blaming israeli civilians for the faults of their deeply corrupt government #i hate that i cant say zionism is inherently antsemitic without getting fucking maimed i fucking hate it here the world is on fire just #fucking let me burn #anyways #sorry #free palestine #any other #jumblr #girlies (gn) relating to my vent #bc im started to feel ashamed of myself my culture and my people #and its such a fucking shitty feeling #like i can barely look in palestine / gaza / etc. tag without seeing blindingly blatant antisemitism coming from left right and center #like just say you hate jews and fuck off #i cant look at this shit anymore fuck #idk why im so worked up about this rn i just. btwn weeding out all the zionist blogs i didnt know i followed and just being so fucking-#and weeding out all the antisemitic leftist blogs i didnt know i was supporting its all just crashing down #im so fucking tired #and im so fucking tired of having to defend myself any time i talk about the jewish experience in any of this #and im so fucking tired of people equating judaism with religion only #and im so fucking tired of the double standard of also equating with only one race #like there arent jews of every race #the reason you cant see any of this shit is because nearly a century later were still dealing with the aftermath of the 6mil person murder #were always at the cross roads of some ridiculous double standard or the scapegoat for when things are going badly #like fuck i just #dont want to have this fucking identity anymore it makes me a walking talking breathing living fucking target #idk what to do I'm just #desolate

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natjennie · 11 months ago

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ousaugoahgh I love lou wilson so MUCH i want to be his friend so BAD.

#im so excited for junior year #and im glad that they all seem excited for it #because honestly as much as i love the bad kids #it felt kind of selfish of me to want them back so badly #when the cast clearly wanted to be doing other things #like i feel kind of guilty for 'making them' do fantasy high again #yknow what i mean?#it just kind of seemed like- esp from emily saying she considered retiring fig-#it seemed for a minute like they didnt want to do fh again like they were done with it #but at least from the little behind the scenes vids it looks like theyre excited #im so ready for them to be silly goofy and insane again #so many of the other seasons are like. a touch too serious for me #a lot of them veer a little too far into like. critical role territory for me.#which is why fantasy high and starstruck are my favorite seasons #i missed them being wild and fun #i hope its good. i really hope its good #fantasy high #d20

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candlebel · 9 months ago

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I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.

#I was interested. I wanted to get to know you.#I did not want validation. I only said it because you said it... I don't know why. I was susceptible.#I was blindly accepting certain things that you said about me. Judgement that you had for me.#I was under severe stress from my job at the time; while at the same time dealing with unresolved emotional trauma and very low self worth.#vent #I was burnt out. Crushed... Completely.#I didn't want attention. I did not want you to cure my depression. I though I was just letting you know me. I wasn't aware I was oversharin #I tried... SO HARD to get over the things that triggered me and hurt me but I just couldn't...#I wanted to. I did everything in my might; I took it to therapy; I looked everywhere within me; to either get over it #or completely forget about you and stop caring at all; so things were ok and normal again; but it didn't go away...#I just feel so... unsafe... at the idea of talking again #I know I wasn't the best listener and I profoundly regret that.#I was not only thinking about myself like you said and I was aware of the effort that other's put; but I was afraid/resistant to PRECISELY #that cause of past events with other people. Because in some I was the one putting that effort and ended badly for me. Looking back #that was inappropiate of you because you felt too comfortable generalizing my past relationships and why in your head they failed.#“I cant help but feel you are looking down on people who” Stay away from me if you ever make a stretch like this again.#By “experiment” I meant that you don't know how a relatioship with somebody is gonna turn out until you go and try. That's all I meant.#I didn't want things to turn out this way. I'm sorry they did.#The effort I put for you may have been shit to you. But to me it was a lot. And I'm done taking judgement.#Altho I love my friends I still keep distance. I still can't completely help that. I can go months not talking to my BF.#You were my BF during my teenage years. I remembered you fondly. I still do.#I don't feel ready to talk again having to keep to myself interest that I might have. Related to trauma. I do not feel comfortable with tha #No I do not look at your blogs.#The day I said I was abused I had a panic attack right after that. That's mainly why I had to cut contact: I didn't want another one.#I didn't tell you because I didn't trust you to not say “talk to the void” again. I didn't trust you to want to hear about it. I didnt feel #safe with you anymore. Event tho we ressumed contact I felt that way the entire time.#I wanted to answer all the questions you had; I really did; until I couldn't stand it anymore.#And the day I removed you from discord... I know you probably had an awful day that day... I'm so; so sorry...#I'd like to one day be completely unbothered by assumptions and stuff cuz I know it's not your fault... You went through stuff too...#stuff

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audiovisualrecall · 15 days ago

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This is a start, anyway. Lots of research and work ahead.

#still unsure what i can do when adhd brain doesnt let me do my hobbies in the little free time i have #but in the other hand if i can be sure that if i got a health insurance plan thru the ACA on the state market #that it would still cover me even if the ACA gets slashed - including thru the following enrollment period (that they wont be able to drop #me due to 'preexisting condition'. then i can leave my job and have a lot more time to be active and involved with this stuff.)#like I'm gonna do what i can anywY and I'm not gonna assume i cant do anything bc i have a strong motivation w this so adhd brain might be #chill w letting me do something #it feels like theres no time left tho but I'm trying to ignore that #but i just got my work schedule for Thanksgiving week and between the wk before and wk of I'm working 7 days straight. bc I'm dumb and #volunteered to be the one to work on Thanksgiving Day (why. bc i didnt want to make the 60+ yr old do 7+ days in a row or the 20-yr old.)#(shouldve asked if the kid was willing tho tbh. I'm gonna be burned tf out so badly.)#and i shouldve asked for the rest of the week off tbh but only got the 29th and 30th off. boo.#anyway abd then its december and we're gonna be busy busy with stupid Xmas stuff plants decor etc...#I'm just. worried I'll blink and itll be january.#but lets try lets do..something somehow #id like to find a way to squeeze the eye dr. vaccines. and dental extractions and healing time in before January #as well as getting involved in this stuff #and trying to overcome my intense social anxiety to do so #and looking into health insurance stuff #and RESTING too. need to do that. somehow.#but my whole November is booked now bc of work.#id love a 4 day workweek instead of 5 at least tbh but cant be floral specialist if I'm not full time amd cant stay on the insurance thru #work if I'm not fulltime either #and somehwere in the midst is...thanksgiving hah. and hanukkah which is Very important especially noe #now*#one story of hanukkah is of a small group fighting back against oppressors and succeeding #so.#idk where I'm going with this. but this day off is half over and.. i did this list thing yesterday actually but added to it today.#today ive also...devoured all current pages of a miraculous ladybug fancomic. put up one load of laundry. and opened the door #dor some fresh air and commection grounding etc..#i should call the eye dr guy so i can get a basic eye exam sooner than later and get new lenses ordered bc my glasses are at least 2 yrs ood

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asfdhgsdkjhgb · 27 days ago

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had quite the night drive earlier this evening.

#just me rambling again #web weaving #(?)#uh. one of my friends who is out of town for college was visiting and i got to see him and our friends and the only core member of that #group of people missing was my ex girlfriend who you may also know of as my wonderful wife #who has I assume been very busy with their own life things but has also barely and very sparsely had any hint of communication with any of #us within the past few months which I've been realizing very recently sort of hurts my feelings because we used to be so close and #they had been saying that they would be constantly making sure we still were in each other's lives. but then very quickly have #seemingly dropped off the face of the earth #anyways. I was driving aforementioned friend who is in town back home (family home not college obv) and when i was finally going back #towards my house afterwards my Google maps finally lead me to an area that i was more familiar with driving and i got to an #intersection and it was telling me to take a right to go home but i knew that i knew the way perfectly from that intersection to my #ex girlfriend / best friend / wifes familys house from all of the times I've gone that direction through the past years and so #i turned off my directions and i took a left towards their house #not super sure why but my brain and body just knew it was something i needed to do and so i went and drove down their street and cried #a lot the whole time and then drove myself home from their house once again following a super familiar path #and idk im still feeling very emotional about it. the fact that halloween by noah kahan was the first song to play on Spotify #after i made that left turn im sure didnt help (knowing that i miss them so much and am going to be leaving this area myself #soon enough here and there's been an open offer for a while now that they are welcome to follow and live with me once they get their degree #(and also um. halloween is next week lol)#idk i just havent felt the full force of how badly i miss having them in my life until tonight. when i was around this person i could feel #our souls singing in harmony. i genuinely cannot describe the feelings of our relationship in words i feel like only vaguely abstract art #could communicate the connection that was forged between us and the level of understanding and knowing #something not dissimilar to looking into the sun directly or trying to describe a vivid color to someone who is completely blind #something about the way the entire universe breathes in unison and everything around us are all pieces of the same stars #sigh #i miss my wife tails i miss her a lot /ref

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pleasedontcareaboutme · 1 month ago

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i posted that stupid shit on my instagram i might just kill myself fr

now im afraid i wont sleep for another 24 hours damn 😭😭

#took me like 50 hours but we did it 🔫😼#i might still delete jt #the anxiety is no joke #like no joke #ahahs7bsudbdus #im so tired man #so like fuck me.but i cant justify killing myseld before trying. after that i can. somehow. Im tired and i want nothing more than that but #maybe i just want to stop the pain. nevertheless #i hope someone anyone who sees. that even if im being too open or too vulnerable online i hope it inspires someone a little bit to do the #same. i hope the reactions wont be too harsh. just dont ask me abt it irl cuz ill cry.#fuck mental illness and traumas man. acchan i hope it wasnt so suffocating for u. at least hopefully the people who loved u could make it #better.#tbh now my anxiety ia better cuz nobody is awake xddd #whatever its not that serious. only for me ig #sorry ppl the mental illness really said emphasis on the illness these past 2 days. i didnt think id live it so badly but here we are. well #i hope with this i managed to get something heavy off my chest. i hope i can continue for just a little longer #to see if it's worth it. i dont even wanna think abt tge fact imma have prom on sunday. why is that im always most suicidal when i have to #graduate? i skipped elementary graduation cuz of it. im not skipping this one but im not participating in the dance cuz i knew id somehow b #at a bad place and i wouldnt have a partner also. hmm whatever. i should sleep now maybe. i feel good now a bit. really have to sigh get my #shit together now.#not sunday friday the 50 hours no sleep getting to me

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sepulchrorum · 10 months ago

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I just think it’s stupid that I can take my antidepressants every day for years and years and will probably take them forever and they can help and make life livable and YET sometimes I can still be so horribly depressed. It seems unfair that that’s how it works. Would the depressive episodes be way worse if I wasn’t taking my antidepressants? Yes but why can I still feel the misery.

#i talked to a sleep doctor today abt doing a sleep study and they said they usually like to have ppl off of antidepressants for 2 weeks #before they do the study and i wanted so badly to say ‘i mean that would fix the fatigue problem if i went off bc i’d just kms’ but i didnt #i just don’t understand why brains can be sooooo mean and i can feel so sad and miserable #i know not everyone hates me and i know nothing has really changed and i KNOW i could do things to make myself feel less lonely #all of my problems are solvable but i am so tired. i am so tired

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dandyshucks · 2 months ago

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me meeting someone new and Guz making a point to use my pronouns casually in the conversation so that we don't have to make a big deal of it, and he just gives me the proudest silliest thumbs-up after managing to introduce me using both they and it 😭😭💗💗💗

#dealing w rly uncomfortable unintentional transphobia in a server a potential irl friend invited me to so sdjfkl i'm Coping #its weird bc i can deal w being misgendered irl just fine but online it feels a lot different #i guess bc ppl dont rly know very well irl that i am not a she/her. but online i usually make it Very Clear that i use they/them #(i use they/it technically but it/its only feels right in certain spaces fsdjkl i have to feel safe and comfortable for that set)#so it feels a lot less excusable when it happens online :[ OH WELLLL i live in a conservative small town so i should be used to it lol #still feels bad. also kinda scary to have an irl person know my pronouns without me telling her directly but she's been rly nice abt it :3 #im SO glad she's been cool about it. that was a rly big gamble i made to trust her w that fsjkl adding her on discord where it says they/it #like if she had taken it badly then i could've been outed to the whole centre and would've lost that space + that bit of income from there #and like. a huge chunk of my meagre support network. BUT I DIDNT SO ITS OKAY. YAYYYY #and now i may have an irl friend... i could like... do things in town with someone... thats so crazy fdjkl i haven't had that in 5+ yrs #ANYWAYS. i love guz so much and he makes me very happy and he is a trans ally forever and ever amen #dandy.cmd

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