#makes me feel guilty

[haowenyang]

if i live in denial i can ignore the fact that the script got changed into something 100x more ableist

[traaumaa]

i feel even worse about wanting to kill myself because i really want to but if i do then my cat will probably think i abandoned her :(

[the-cinnamon-snail]

My parents get upset when I share that I get a bit upset when I hear them hating an entire area due to stereotypes and their small experiences in that area

[azz-modeus]

Every time Dick tries to have a serious conversation with Jason it gets shut down very quickly. If anyone asks the context imma just say they’re taking a small break on patrol and Jason took off his helmet to smoke.

[lunerabo]

I regretted this post almost as soon as I made it because I didn’t clarify some things I think a lot of people aren’t aware of, and I also looked into it to check my facts before this reblog and I was also dead wrong about some things I wrote in the tags, so if there’s any part of this post you should pay attention to, it’s this part.

This post is not about shit like viagra, even though that’s a huge point of interest when arguments like these are made. Those medications open your blood vessels. They’re made to treat heart conditions, which, obviously, are researched tremendously, because their indicators are difficult to detect. And they’re a little bit easier to detect in men, because an inability to get hard AKA an inability to get blood flowing to the penis is a pretty significant indicator of a much larger, more serious issue.

There’s also the fact that men have this weird fucking attitude towards going to the doctor where they think of the penis as something of such monumental importance that they’ll sooner visit the doctor for a small abnormality on that than for a missing leg. And that’s society’s problem, not the medical industry’s. In this particular case it had a positive outcome, because doctors noticed that it wasn’t a coincidence that most of the men complaining about not being able to get it up in bed also happened to have heart conditions, but this type of thinking is another aspect of this many headed issue that’s too important to ignore.

It’s also worth mentioning that plenty of doctors actually do want to help you. There’s only so much they’re allowed to do to help you, because insurance companies love to prolong the problem. Keeping you on treatment makes them money, but solving the problem costs them money. If you don’t have a problem, they’re not making anything off you. So, to make as much as they can, they want you to wait until the problem is disastrous to actually seek a permanent fix.

And women’s health IS researched, I found out, and even gets decent funding, but they don’t actually research solutions. This is a problem for men’s health too, because the companies need to be making money off everybody, but it’s way easier to do that with women because we don’t know as much about women as we do about men. It’s super easy to say female body is such a mystery while dicking around with treatments that make insurance companies more money rather than researching solutions for problems, and then telling everybody about the progress they made researching what are essentially bandaids when the patients need surgery. And we eat that shit up every time, because bandaids are way less expensive than surgery. And since women are statistically more likely to be hypochondriacs, they’re either given shitty treatments so they can be used as cash cows or not taken seriously because they visit the doctor more often than men typically do (another thing that isn’t always the fault of the doctors themselves; they often don’t have time to look into something, or there are restrictions on what they can look into because it costs the company to have an employee who spends time and resources looking into every issue).

So, this post is about a lot of things. It’s about how certain problems are more difficult to detect in women and we don’t seem to care to find out how to detect them because it makes researchers more money to research treatment than cures. It’s also about men’s attitude of not going to the doctors until it’s about dick and balls. It’s also about women not being taken seriously at the doctor because the doctor straight up isn’t allowed to take them seriously sometimes. It’s also about insurance companies caring so little about actually protecting people that they wait until the last possible minute to solve a problem for good so that they can get every penny they can out of you. I think we as a society are focused on only one specific aspect of a very large problem, and it’s not even a cause, it’s a result. And it’s one caused by many different things. The picture is so much bigger than we realize, and we can’t get anywhere in solving the problem we’re focused on unless we pay attention to every part of it.

Women: every waking moment I am in debilitating pain. My entire body is on fire and I can barely go to work. I have been waiting for an actual diagnosis for three years. My mother had this and it killed her. Please help me

Doctors: that sucks lmao hope it gets worse faker

Men: dick no worky :(

Doctors: ohguhh oh mym fUCJKIGn god we have to DO something about this

[vulpinesaint]

skipped the catholic guilt around sex by being ace and skipped the catholic guilt around being gay by being aro so instead i have to invent new and oblique things to feel guilty about all the time. nobody talks about how much effort it takes to feel properly condemned in this situation

[dirtytransmasc]

I find it deeply depressing that every adult in Spider's life had children, yet he was never anyone's priority. every adult he could and most likely attempted to match in to. the adults he remembered as the closest things he had to parents since birth (Jake and Norm, even if they weren't acting as his parents, because Spider, genuinely, would not know better). down to his actual foster family (the McCoskers). essentially went out of their way to de-prioritize him.

like I'm not faulting them for having kids, for having a family. but Spider was their first priority. he didn't need to be adopted by any of them, per say, but he was their responsibility. he was their orphan, Jake especially, considering he was the chief of his people, but Norm as well, seeing as he's a prominent figure head of the clan/Hellsgate.

the McCoskers took him in, but over the years, as they had their own children, he was more and more neglected. he was now no longer his actually appointed guardians priority. and that only gets worse and worse as he ages until they become outright abusive (Nash does anyway, cause thats what I'm gonna call violently kidnapping his, throwing him in a room and locking him there, and trying to kill all of them, him included, when they run away. as abuse. and I'll get back to the whole "you have to turn yourself in to the RDA" x2 speech from Jake in a second). they also didn't really accept his culture. with their resentment towards the Na'vi brewing, Spider most definitely faced some heat for being more of the forest than of humans, in terms of culture.

3 times over, Spider came first and was put last. put last by parents who know damn well how much love, time, care, and attention a child needs. who should be able to see when a kid is being neglected. who dialed to advocate and protect him from neglect (instead of calling him a stray).

he was a child and they were his advocates. all three parties failed in their duty as advocates, to protect Spider. to ensure he always had a loving home that made him their priority. that fulfilled all his needs, not just the physical ones. but all put their own families first, and abandoned Spider to the scraps of their love, time, and affection.

imagine being Spider, an orphan who can't even mention his birth parents and is always treated like he is the physical rebirth of his father's sins by half the people around him. every adult in your life has kids and seems like they're such a good parent. you watch their kids being loved and tended to and having a steady home. they receive love and affection constantly. but your fosters pay less and less attention to you as they have babies. and now your a stray to the man you look up to so much. and the man who probably taught you how to put an exopack on has less and less time for you. no one has time for you. you're no one's child. no one's priority. just a stray. a nuisance. and you don't truly belong anywhere.

no one was putting him first. children need to be someone's priority. psychology. they need it.

and then the RDA returns. the McCoskers leave, Spider is expected to leave everything he has ever known, to join the very people he hates and has been trying so hard since he could understand what it meant, to prove that he wasn't like them. Jake, the man he once looked up to, was telling him to leave. sending him away. stripping him of the little amount of family he could somewhatly claim, that being his siblings.

once again, Jake is his chief, should be looking out for him. not even as a father, per say, but as his duty to Spider as his chief. a chief should never be sending away his most vulnerable ward, a child he should consider his own (as all of his clans children should be one with his own children), to the opposing enemy force.

this happens again when they're running away, Jake tells him ever more directly to hide in the forest alone until the RDA stops shooting at everything that moves and then turn himself in so he can his own children could run. once again, putting him last, instead of protecting all of them.

then for a year, Spider has no family. no one. the McCoskers are gone and no one has stepped up to bat for him. he's 15/16 and alone. his the big sibling to the Sully's. those kids are all he has, but they aren't really looking out for him. he's looking out for them. cause he's the oldest. that's just how it is. he is one with the clan. lives with them. does chores. watches out for his siblings, the whole nine. but Jake isn't doing his duty of watching out for his ward. he is once again giving and giving and giving, and not receiving.

and then he is taken, he is taken, and while Jake may not have had the means to go back for Spider, or been able to take the risk of going back for him, he abandons him without a thought for his safety, and puts his children first. it's the language and attitude be poses towards the situation that is wild to me. he has every right to be worried about his children, but he could not spare Spider an ounce of concern, even knowing the danger he was in, and is more concerned about him spilling details then anything else. Spider is, once again, not his first, second, or even third priority. he is a means to an end. a necessary loss.

people only care about Spider when there's nothing else they can put before him.

[phonification]

ive been thinking about taco and balloon forming a little alliance post s1/ pre s2 where they'd (begrudgingly) work together planning on how to break into hotel OJ to steal stuff to take back to their makeshift camp like food, blankets, pillows, etc,,, anything that could be useful to them

[ruporas]

feast (ID in alt)

[crimeschild]

the barbie (2023) experience as an afab non binary person is just [reconnecting with your femininity and love for pink bc you couldnt when u were younger bc being too girly will get u made fun of] [feeling guilt bc u dont identify with being a girl but girlhood is so inherently beautiful and magical and no experience is truly like it] [healing the inner child in you by allowing yourself to enjoy dolls and pink and maximalism] [unapologetically letting yourself wear pink and be stereotypically girly in a society where being non binary means you have to be presenting androgynous 24/7] [getting your grown-up heart shattered and then put back together again by your inner child using sparkly glue over and over in the span of two hours] [realizing that no matter what you do you have somewhat experienced girlhood and it shaped you to be the person you are today and you will never get to erase that experience or truly disconnect yourself from it] [appreciating and understanding your mother in a way that you thought wasnt possible without experiecing motherhood]

[stillgotscars]

have we talked about how “we twist in our self-made cages” in the midnights prologue preceded “this cage was once just fine, am i allowed to cry?” in guilty as sin by almost two years because… oof. that’s just absolutely devastating to think about.

[pseudophan]

i really hope that after dan and phil get to bully us on stage on tour people will finally give all this self phlagellation a fucking rest. you literally cannot post anything at all about phandom history without someone chiming in to remind you of how horrible and awful and evil we were like jesus fucking christ do you people just lay awake every single night crying over everything you said and did at 14? get OVER it. contrary to popular belief you can actually reminisce and speak fondly of times that weren't entirely perfect without having to add ten disclaimers about how you used to be the devil incarnate but you've grown as a person and now if you ever accidentally step on a snail on the pavement you will make sure to throw yourself into oncoming traffic as punishment. aren't you tired

[agarthanguide]

Weeks ago, @teaweltzer asked me what is going on with Orym’s level 10 shirt, and now I’m undressing him layer by layer on my iPad. I’ll keep you updated as I go lol.

[anew-flame]

Emmrich each time Rook makes him face his fear of death by dragging his ass around to every quest and battle

Inspired from this screenshot I have where he is just so. done.

[deoidesign]

I met the me who made different choices

[raepliica]

protecting each other