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sweetdreamstilsunbeamsfindyou · 1 year ago

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y’all ever read a fanfic so weird you have to pause and take a minute to question every choice you’ve ever made in your life that brought you to this moment

#fanfic #writing #fanfiction #cursed #ellabs #yes it was a tlou fic but i’m not telling you which one #tlou #ellie williams #els i love you #lowkey feeling strange about it #adding some harry potter and mcu tags too because there’s some pretty peculiar fics in those fandoms too tbh #harry potter #harry potter fanfiction #marvel mcu #mcu #fandom #struggles of a fangirl ig

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werewolfoffeverswamp · 2 months ago

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me when my fate approaches me at alarming speed but i am completely oblivious. because i am just a pool toy.

#umm the future as a concept is problematic lowkey :/#cro talks #art #my art #vent art #im in a fucking strange headspace rn. i watched an hour long analysis of we’re all going to the worlds fair and #im like semi high still and everything feels like its blurring. and like im about to be met with a terrible fate #probably bc of the video. lol #fuckit 4am pooltoy horror posting on main #further elaboration on the themes explored in this piece: whats going on? can anyone hear me?#im alone again and this time the problem is bigger than it was!#this is like. nonsensical i feel.#but it means something to me i guess

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ahollowgrave · 16 days ago

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Febhyurary 2025 | Day 4: Touch [feat. Dar of @darcar!]

... she smells of citrus and flowers and warm spice.

Dar being so kind and taking a look at Viatrix's scarring. Out of the goodness of her heart. No other reason. Some extra shots:

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thesmokinpossum · 3 months ago

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Didn't felt like mentioning it immediately but shoutout to my sick and twisted brain for getting so triggered by an unexpected Christmas parade that I ended up havin the absolute worst panic attack of my entire life (potentially the only real one? I've had a couple other episodes I thought of as panic attacks but they were not even close to that so who knows) to the point where I spent the very last day of my 30th year on this earth in the ER, good times, good times 😊

#that was 10 days ago and i honestly was fine immediately after it ended so don't worry for me <3 #but yeah this shit was crazy holy hell #like i knew intellectually that 'feeling like you're dying' is a symptom of a panic attack but *actually* feeling it is another thing...#and even at the worst i was like 'ok i'm clearly having a panic attack it's not nice but it's gonna be ok'#but there was a piece of my brain that was like 'ok but what if your mom or grandma had told themselves that...'#'when they were having heart attack? They would have died and so will you 😊'#and i was like shit can't argue with that better get my ass to the hospital before i die #spoiler alert: i didn't died #ironically enough the revolting state of our healthcare system is lowkey what helped me calmed the fuck down #because i was tiny but i do remember when my mom had her heart attack and they sure as hell didn't let her wait for 7h+#so when i realized that this is what was gonna happen after i spent a brief moment with a nurse i was just like...oh i'm fine actually lol #and then i had to go take the bus in my fake crocs that i usually never wear outside of the house smh #interestingly enough my phobia of hospital seems to have competely disappear! which makes me believe that it was more a trauma response #than an actual phobia #not that the name changes that much but still interesting development #also no i'm not wearing a mask because nobody gave me one #that's actually one of the thing that made me leave lmao #oh and btw the christmas parade is true but also a bit more complex than that #basically i had a full sleepless night and i was mad so i decided to go buy myself some weed #turned out that there was a huge christmas parade 5 minutes away from the weed store so i hade to find another way #and then i got lost on the way back #and saw no less than 3 big fights between different homeless people #including one man randomly kicking another man's dog (which kinda really messed with me tbh)#and then i smoked a big joint (first one in like 10 days) with 0 sleep and zero food in my body #and then i took the bus #and then the bus driver yelled at an elderly man for not waiting at the right place #and then i took a sip of water and for some truly strange reason my brain decided that the water had gone in my lungs #and that i was actively drowning #and the rational part of me was like...girl that's not what drowning feels like what are you even talking about??#and then my brain went 'well if we're not drowning than we're having a heart attack'

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blackcrystalball · 4 months ago

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So is the Kermit Joker guy being deadass or....?

Because I was just looking through his blog and it feels like a bit, but also the seemingly related Reddit post and his general rancid vibes are tripping me up.

#lexi's diary #kermit joker #I'm talking about that guy that apparently “kins” Kermit #and also the joker i guess #his blog lowkey feels like a fever dream #also lmao strange aeons has been added to his dni list

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robotsafari · 5 months ago

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I am not the sunshine, I am not the moon at night

I'm no one if I'm nowhere in between

#beep boop you want fries with that #cw scopophobia #kingdom hearts #re:kh #riku #HAPPY SPOOKY MONTH #tHATS THE ONLY REASON WHY I DREW THIS. its not actually related to my rewrite besides the dream eater riku design #the design is the only reason its tagged re:kh!!! yep!!#uhm but. ive had so much weird feelings on how to go about drawing dark mode because i always thought putting abs on a kid was weird #so ive tried simplifying it to look less.. ab-y? still looked strange #so this time i leaned more into looking like the muscle tissue was torn and there was blue underneath. morbid but this suit is supposed to #look organic and unnerving. which i love. anything organic looking when it comes to darkness or heartless is so fucking cool to me.#also for once i draw dark mode riku and not repliku . thats funny.#might be the first time i do that.#also YES caption is dr sunshine is dead by will wood #why is it lowkey a riku song <- IT MAY JUST BE GOING CRAZY.

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suddencolds · 7 months ago

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#very random (not snz) haha but #does anyone else feel like their social battery fluctuates like. 0 to 100 with no middle ground or is this perhaps something wrong with me #i will go for weeks without having the social energy to talk to people i love and treasure 😭#maybe it's a lack of dopamine in general idk... would not be thrilled to add another mental illness to the list #but then i'll have a night where i am super talkative and happily reply to half the people i've been talking to #or times when i send off all my responses and sit at my laptop like when are my friends going to reply 🙂 i can't wait to talk to them 🙂#i apologize if you have personally been on the receiving end of my extreme inconsistency 😭#i have been thinking about it recently and i think that's in part the reason why i also gravitate towards long form conversations;#it feels mentally easier for me to deliver a meaningful response once in a blue moon than like sustain that level of #conversational depth on a more consistent basis? because i am inconsistent #but sometimes in the long wait between responses (which i have arguably played a large role in establishing) i feel unexpectedly social and #then feel strangely lonely 😭 (🤡)... truly i feel like i am lowkey a badly adjusted adult #this is not a catastrophizing post (though i did catastrophize slightly more over it in past weeks); just passive musings atp #i go through similar flows with artistic motivation but the highs and lows are not synced with my social energy at all #i think i am someone who likes to analyze my habits just as a whole because i really enjoy optimizing for things 😭 so this tendency in #particular really perplexes me #delete later perhaps because i know this is truly a yap post. (i apologize)#i met with a friend earlier irl and this might be the remnants of the social energy from seeing her or it might be a function of #the drink i had (strawberry matcha 🥰) if you have read this far i apologize personally

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lokilysolbitch · 9 months ago

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guys i think i dislocated my rib

like i'm fine it's probably the eds/hsd but i'm connecting the dots that this pain i get sometimes is probably. like not random. it's probably dislocation. and it's dislocated right now

anyways breathing hurts

#it's lowkey funny bc the signs were all there and i was just like hmm wonder what that's about #why does my rib feel slippery sometimes🤔🤔that's strange. oh well #eds #hsd #ehlers danlos syndrome #hypermobile #handmadeorganicpost #disabled

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floatingwithlaura · 1 month ago

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I think I am fixed, mentally healthy, cured and fantastic.

#lowkey thought about quitting therapy after todays session #ik its my fault it wasn’t very helpful but good god #i know psychoanalysis is a defects based therapy but with me working on those defects hands-on in NA it feels kinda fruitless #it’s strange #jasmine rambles

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kingdomoftyto · 10 months ago

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...BIG FEELS AND BIG PLOT DEVELOPMENTS AT THE END OF THAT BOOK, HUH

#Tyto reads WoF #i know it's not the most pressing issue what with the vengeful ex-Queen and the murderous sister and all #but I still want to point out how alarming it is that the new crew are all going to be wearing seemingly radioactive rocks as jewelry now #Turtle please don't pick up strange rocks that give off their own heat for the love of all that's good #ANYWAY yeah what the actual frick is going on with Darkstalker huh. I genuinely do NOT know whether he's trustworthy or not #desperately lonely and unfairly demonized? absolutely. truly cares about Moon as a friend? I think so.#capable of integrating peacefully into modern dragon society without letting his own ego turn him into the monster he denies ever being?#....... 😬 remains to be seen #god and there's Scarlet's mysterious new accomplice(?) with the maddeningly vague physical description and also THE SCROLL(!!!!)#and i just realized we failed to get resolutions in this book for EITHER the vision of Turtle attacking Anemone OR #Flame's unique and frightening ability to sense and/or attack mindreaders????#where the HECK are we going with Flame I am going lowkey INSANE over him #ugh frick and Umber and Sora are both on the run too...!! this book is nearly as cliffhangery as Dark Secret #(though thankfully i prepared for this by checking the next book out ahead of time so i wouldn't have to wait LOL)#uhh buhh final thoughts before i force myself to go to sleep:#I love Moon and everything going on with her but I do feel like on some level it's even more of a slap in the face for poor Starflight #that the only tribe to get multiple POV characters in this first. like. extended arc(?) appears to be the NightWings #and Starflight himself doesn't get any of the tribe's unique defining features or abilities #i mean i guess the same is sort of true of Sunny and yes i know it was the POINT of book 4 that the tribe had no powers #but still idk it just feels like kicking the poor boy when he's already down. in addition to him literally getting beaten up again #(... now watch me be a total fool and the arc actually extends past book 8 or something making this point moot lol)#(I'm only assuming it ends at 8 bc that's where the previews in the back of the previous books have stopped)#EDIT: LOL yep turns out this arc does extend out to book 10 and the other POVs are Turtle and Qibli so I stand corrected.#that's what I get for nightblogging

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dent-de-leon · 1 year ago

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Forever wondering what the Matron of Ravens thinks of Molly/King. I mean, we know Lucien was fate touched—did that extend to Tealeaf too? They’re from the same soul, after all. Did the Matron loathe him for cheating death so many times? Or the fact that it was a Divine Intervention that brought him back once more? Or is it merely another mark of his soul’s ability to defy fate, King/Molly pulling at the threads of destiny until both him and Lucien are free—

#just thought about how Lucien loathed going to the matron of raven’s chapel when he was with the orders and #hm #I wonder what the matron thought of him #what she thought of molly #how molly/king would feel if they ever found out about being fate touched #or ever wonderd into one of the matron’s temples—#if king would be wary of her after dying so many times #or feel strangely drawn to her #lowkey wonder if the matron knew the moonweaver kept taking care of tealeaf’s soul whenever he died

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mewhenifreakit · 5 months ago

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curled up by the fire, tail waggin

#long day puppies in my phone long day #so so tired i dont have class tmr cos lecture not there so i get to sleep in yay but i wake up early anyways woah just dont Have to be up #going to try meet a friend because i feel like i havent seen anyon outside of college in months even tho its been 2 weeks #this old friend if mine kinda lowkey ditched me when he got a bucnh of new friends like 2 yesrs ago and hes been reaching out a lot to try #hangout and like hm im hurt abiut how he dropped me and he like genrally wasnt a great friend anyways:/ but i feel bad being kike i cant #hang but i also amnt even lyin genuinely cant hang i havent seen my best friend in so long i only see college and my home and therapist once #but also like ugh i dont like this guy i need him to not be beggin me to hang he could be reslly mean like too often but he was nice ..ugh #i wish there was a chill bot harsh way to cut domeone out like i dont hate u i just dont love u soz #and i love my friends so so deeply like i only have time for my besties who i would est whole if i could pike the way people talk about #their blorbo from my shows is how i feel talking about my friends like i want to squish them and poke em n kiss em their my little loves #so if i dont even like someone idk like i dont have time for people j dont love or who dont give a shit about me #hashtag being autistic and my 3 close friends are all also auttistic genuinly the 3 of them got diagnosed in the past 4 yesrs..dominos #i miss my friends wailing college too busy i miss my babies #n i feel really bad for not wanting to hang with this guy who litersllybdidnt care if i lived or died like a year ago #but now is all about me strangely #anyways hm will possible rant more ive had such a long day and nowmim currles on pillows in a bjg hoodie and its so good

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invinciblerodent · 8 months ago

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there are many things I like about writing primarily by hand (pretty stationery, the feeling of physically engaging with the words, the ease of limiting distractions to a minimum, the slower speed of actual literal writing which gives me time to think as I write and allows for more fluidity, the inherently portable and cordless nature of of the thing, being able to put post-it notes and arrows and extra note-sheets right into the text), but there is definitely one big drawback

which is, fucking ouch, my hand

#squirrel speaks #i appear to have written roughly 10k words over two days #which would be perfectly fine if I was doing it in a word processing software #but by hand; especially with my strange twisty way of writing?#i didn't mention in the positives the ability to add adorable stickers to my writing but that's also up there #i reward myself with a molang sticker in the header whenever i finish a scene/bit/one-shot/something :3 #nothing like a cute bunny to make you feel accomplished for writing 16 pages about eating pussy #(also lowkey hiding this in an edit of the tags of a personal post- please don't send me fundraisers if you're not even following me)#(i've been personally sent far too many obvious scams to trust random requests of aid out of the blue)#(... i mean also don't follow me just to send me a fundraiser; that's also lowkey shitty but you know what I mean)

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cottagewhores · 9 months ago

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I think my adhd has always been kept at bay by ocd and anxiety but with this new medication the adhd is off the rails. I have nothing but the urge to yap. My thoughts are going from brain to mouth without hesitation. Is this good? Is this bad? The world may never know.

#some of the yapping is actually typing #I almost started cussing at people earlier because they were stressing me out #lowkey feel like I’m on the brink of a mental break because what do you mean I’m not having anxiety all day every day #it feels so strange but good but unnerving #mp #adding on to the cussing thing I was like opening my mouth about to say some things and I NEVER do that #new meds new me

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seventh-district · 2 years ago

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why have i suddenly been gripped with the desire to get back into fishkeeping

#Seven.txt #fish stuff #fishkeeping #fish keeping #fishblr #i’m not complaining cause i’ve lowkey missed feeling so passionate about the hobby but. my brain couldn’t have picked a less convenient tim #me: trying to spend less money and manage my time better #my brain: hey hey hey you know what you should do? you should get back into a really expensive and time-consuming hobby!!! it’ll be fun!!!#and i mean. it’s not like i truly ever got out of it i just sort of dialed back the number of tanks and fish i have over the past few years #so i’ve currently got a bunch of empty tanks and equipment sitting around collecting dust #i do still have three fish that i thought would be my last for a While. i’ve had them for a number of years and they’re all old by now #so i’m just trying to help them live the rest of their days as comfortably as they can #well. Paprika and Thing One are near their end but in spite of the Mystery Growth on Thing Two’s head that little guy is still doing fine #so he could still be here for awhile. who knows. but anyways #fishkeeping was one of my first really intense and long lasting special interests/hyperfixations so it’s such a strange feeling #to have it come back so strongly and for no obvious reason. but. that’s the nature of fixations i suppose!#insert Drake and Josh ‘I do not control the hyperfixation’ meme here #anyways. the project to finally set up the 75gal that’s been sitting empty for years is finally underway!!! so that’s exciting!#now i’ve got to make a list of things i need and find somewhere to set up a quarantine tank. hrmmm #and also cry over the fact that the filter i need is 200 dollars ahahahaaaaa why did my brain have to latch onto this hobby oh my god #oh man. i’ve gotta order the snails and activated media before the weather gets any warmer or they’ll cook in the bag on the way here ugh #This Post Brought To You By- me sitting here refreshing my email every 10 mins. waiting for Cynthia to let me know if she still has #these two adorable Sakura Ranchus avaliable to purchase. i mean. they were listed in Sep. 2021 so i will be Shocked if she still has them #but maybe the universe will smile upon me and i'll get lucky!

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grapecaseschoices · 2 years ago

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as a die-hard m-mancer who has never had any bfff except m, this new information confirms that i will never have any other bff if m is just not going to like me

lmao. i can't blame you for that choice mc. im highly consider it, but no. i really want to collect them all. if continue with this story (and i know that it's silly but this truth really cooled my ardor for the story/series), i'll just have to choose really neutral interactions with M and A as well as respect the fact that Sera doesn't know how to write friendships.

#it never realized bc it made sense for A to doubt my other detectives (tho i did find the whole doubt to respect jump jarring) and for #M to be iffy about Pierre #then right after that I played my M romancer and my N romancer has M as a bff #it's soo weird to me because i can't help wonder wtf happened to a development in book two #i am lowkey tempted to @ sera about this bc -- this just feels strange i knowwhat the other anon said but im convincing myself maybe this #is an error #twc book 3 #anon #grapecase answers #how could morgan and adam not love kendis? does this mean that mason won't love val?#weeps

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