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High-ish quality scans of the Silco & Vander pages from the artbook
#the passage abt how Silco was the only one willing to do anything to not be treated like he was dirty#UGH vander being the only person that didn't think of him that way and then trying to drown him in the lake like an animal#in trying to earn himself respect he lost the only person who didn't see him like something dirty#also on a less depressing note he was fruity af looking bye#arcane#arcane artbook#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#silco#vander#silco arcane#vander arcane#zaundads#vanco
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there's lots of things to talk about in the huge dump of "CANCELLED PLANS FOR DISCO ELYSIUM 2: CUNO BOOGALOO" but i am fixated on this little diagram of a mechanic where the better the kids are getting along, the closer they will walk to each other, and at maximum, they start holding hands

the whole game was going to be based on this complicated relationship between two traumatized orphans. and then it was going to end with them fighting to the death
#disco elysium#locust city#the fact that cuno and cunoesse were going to share skills? sharing a fucking brain??#so at the end of the game if one of them is dead they have fucking lost half of themselves#apparently the 'cuno kills cunoesse' ending he just uhhhh goes to wait for death in an abandoned prison. punishing himself eternally#even though she was planning on killing (or 'killing') him from the very beginning aaAAAAAAGH. BUT HE STILL LOVED HER#proud
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i think alphonse would still experience depersonalization and dysmorphia even after getting his body back
#alphonse elric#obviously hes glad about having it back#but there's this unease at the back of his mind#because hes been put into a new body that is drastically different from the one he was in for years for a second time#and that body isnt the one he lost. it had changed so much since he was 10 and i dont even think he could recognize himself for a while#i also think thats why he got the exact same haircut he had as a kid. to feel more like that younger and more familiar version of himself.#anyway i think he would still feel like he lost another part of himself by gaining everything back#even if he hated every second of being in that armor and even if all he ever wanted was to be normal again#he still spent 5 years in that body. long enough to begrudgingly become used to it#and for his body to change instantly into an unrecognizable version of himself#i dont think he had an easy time adjusting to being so different physically#even beyond the fact that he had to spend months/years physically recovering#oughhh its such a weird and complex feeling to miss something that made him miserable#just because that familiarity is more comforting than all of the pain and overstimulation of gaining his senses back#and being a completely different person physically#i also think hed have trouble sleeping for a while and start Thinking About Things He Shouldn't at night again#this is one of those things#fma#fullmetal alchemist#fma fanart#fmab fanart#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#fma art#fmab#fma brotherhood
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Lost sheep and young shepherd
I came up with the idea of drawing this before the trailer, after watching the trailer I changed the ending a bit
#cookie run kingdom#crk fandom#pure vanilla cookie#truthless recluse#crk#crk comic#crk fanart#I drew this when I was thinking what it would be like if Truthless Recluse met a younger version of himself#I really wanted to draw young Pure Vanilla with a horror uncanny vibe#The original intention was that this was a torment story for TR#because I think it will never be easy for him to meet his childhood version when he is at his worst#TR will definitely feel guilty when he sees his younger version#like a form of punishment#But even so#young PV will still help TR#TR is a lost sheep but also a shepherd#so this scene also means that no one can save TR from hell except “himself”#my art
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Shen Yuan, who opens his eyes and has just transmigrated into some strange demon deep in the Endless Abyss. Well, GREAT! He's a demon, and while he's not OP, if he behaves and doesn't mess with Binghe's women, maybe they could even be traveling companions. Cool! Incredible!!
It doesn't take long for him to find Luo Binghe in the Abyss some time later. He leaves a trail of carnage... And he's speedrunning!! Ignore the wife and solo plots, just mow down monsters and charge forward! He's awesome!
Shen Yuan tries to avoid the red flags that the stallion protagonist isn't, well, forming a harem. Maybe he would form later, when he had more power!! He's not exactly sure in which narrative arc are.
However, his days of watching Luo Binghe through the shadows are soon over. Luo Binghe catches him!! He has obviously noticed Shen Yuan following him. What does he want? Is he looking for him to kill him?
Shen Yuan ducks out a bit, but ultimately decides to impart his honed Abyss 101 knowledge from months of Wiki editing. He disguises himself as a demon who has been searching for a way out of the Abyss, and he knows that he can only do so with Xin Mo, but he knows he doesn't have enough power to wield it. So, he will tell Luo Binghe where the portal-opening sword is, if he allows him to travel by his side and accompany him when he leaves!!
... It's very easy to become travel companions after that.
Luo Binghe is suspicious (of course he would be!! After all, who wouldn't be?!) but he's nice when he's not on his monster-killing rampage. Shen Yuan kills minor monsters, but in reality, he might be getting into more trouble than he should... spiritual flora, ancient artifacts! Luo Binghe should collect them and become more stronger with them! Shen Yuan rambles a lot: he talks about flora, beasts, monsters, demonic history, he throws out fact after fact of PIDW backstories that never got fleshed out from the old demonic civilizations, banished kingdoms, people literally turned into black jade statues...
Luo Binghe seems to find it irritating that he's talking at first, but actually... It's like he can't stop looking at him afterward. Shen Yuan guesses that he must be considering getting rid of him, sometimes: Luo Binghe looks at him with an expression of dismay and doubt. It's like he's searching for something in him. Like he sees something familiar, but Shen Yuan finds it ridiculous. Bah!! As if there's something familiar about him to some random NPC in the world!
One day, after several weeks of traveling, Luo Binghe asks him: "Little Demon. Do you have a name?" And it's not like Shen Yuan has introduced himself, but he considers saying "Shen Yuan" to him not to be wrong.
After that, Luo Binghe... gets worse? He also becomes a little more talkative, which is good, they can have conversations. Shen Yuan enjoys learning little things about his favorite character: how he likes tea, what he misses most is not water or clean clothes but being able to cook with spices, his favorite food, his mother's favorite recipe, about his life on Qing Jing Peak...
That's when everything goes to hell.
A kind Shen Qingqiu? What the fuck? Luo Binghe speaks about his Shizun with more passion than he has spoken about Ning Yingying or any other person or thing. That he had had this horrible qi deviation, but right after, he had been so kind, giving him medicine, a new cultivation manual, fair training, even letting him live in the bamboo house! For the past few years, Shen Qingqiu had practically spoiled him: the best missions, all the running of the Peak, he was basically the head disciple in all but name.
That Luo Binghe had fallen in love with him. Deeply, devastatingly. And Shen Qingqiu had pushed him into the Abyss when his heritage was revealed. However, Luo Binghe will not doubt! He will leave the Abyss, return to his Shizun, and show him that his heritage does not determine who he is. He will become a righteous cultivator and will have his respect to reach his heart.
OOC! So OOC! What the fuck!? Where was the scum villain!? Why is Luo Binghe gay now!? What weird fanfic did he end up in!? Actually, Shen Yuan supposes, well. That means at least he wouldn't destroy Cang Qiong and all that. Wow. Dramatic but calm ending. A better world!! And worse for him, being a demon. Maybe Could he find a way to disguise himself as a human? He believes he has already won Luo Binghe's friendship and sympathy. Maybe he'll even help him to disguise.
Revelations are a rare thing, but Shen Yuan guesses, it's okay. They continue their travel, collecting flowers along the way (for real, not meimeis) who improve the cultivation, and occasionally fight for their lives. Shen Yuan has defended himself very well with his claws so far, but Luo Binghe teaches him how to use a sword, and it's nice to have one.
Shen Yuan has drawn a map, more or less: it is the path that must be taken to reach Xin Mo. He knows that some of those places will be more difficult than others; he explains to Binghe many times that collecting things to strengthen him is necessary: it's a waste of time for him to meet with his Shizun now, but he'll be grateful! He'll need to get strong fast!
Shen Yuan shamelessly takes advantage of all his knowledge of the plot: he teaches Luo Binghe everything he knows, all the weaknesses of the beasts, all the strengths of certain flowers or roots. However, the more Shen Yuan teaches him over the weeks of their travel together, the more Luo Binghe seems... weirder. If he looked at him too much before, now it's incredibly worse. Sometimes he even asks extremely specific questions and seems frustrated when Shen Yuan doesn't answer exactly as he expects. Once, even, when they are crossing some paths surrounded by magma and the heat is suffocating, Binghe improvises a folded fan of leaves for him, and he seems clearly aggrieved when Shen Yuan's first instinct is to fan Binghe!
Luo Binghe is a frustrating little creature who seems to be testing him. Constantly. Shen Yuan assumes it's normal, but still!! He thought he had the protagonist's confidence!! Something seems to sparkle in his eyes when Shen Yuan stops halfway to explore a forest of giant mushrooms and talks at length about the properties and, above all, about the mole-squirrels who get high off their asses biting mushrooms, and he even seems fucking frustrated when he offers some weird herbal blend similar to a bitter tea and Shen Yuan accepts it just out of politeness because it tastes awful. It's like they're running in circles!!
Still, they continue on their way.
There is still a large stretch of the map to go, which Shen Yuan translates into a few more months of travel, when they are cornered by some beasts. They're horrible, disgusting spider-beetles the size of a fucking elephant; it's an unfair fight, seven against two, and even with their swords the bugs are fast, their legs sharp, and Shen Yuan is too exhausted after hours of only being able to defeat two of them.
Luo Binghe fights majestically, but even so, there is one thing Luo Binghe cannot fight: being outnumbered. And when Shen Yuan sees the giant insect's attack at Binghe, his only instinct is to get in the way.
The insect's leg pierces through him. It doesn't quite touch Binghe, but Shen Yuan isn't even aware of the pain from the way his nerves have been ripped apart. He's stunned, disoriented, and only a moment later Luo Binghe enters that desperate berserk mode that the protagonist only got once every two hundred chapters. The horrible insects fall, and Shen Yuan doesn't even know why he's still alive.
He supposes that dying while Binghe is fighting is a bit anticlimactic. He's in a pool of his own blood and he's sure that not even the blood parasites will be able to regenerate any of it. He's dying, he knows it, and from the way Binghe drops to his knees beside him after defeating the insects and holds him, Binghe knows it too.
"It's okay," Shen Yuan manages to speak, weakly patting Binghe's face, "follow the map, leave the Abyss and meet your Shizun. I bet you'll scare him to death, but hey. You're a great boy. A very good one. Show him there's no one better than you for him."
Luo Binghe holds him. Shen Yuan is aware that there were blood parasites in his food months ago, but oh well. Nothing can be done now. It's too much.
Actually, he wants to say something else, something other than a pathetic goodbye talking about how the ex-stallion protagonist should go after his Shizun's bone, but while he recognizes that he is dying (he already died once, damn it, he recognizes death) a blue screen flashes in his head.
[ Recalculating data... Correcting recipient... Downloading files... Importing... ]
[ Bugs fixed! ]
[ Returning the Host to his main user... ]
At the exact moment Shen Yuan dies, Shen Qingqiu wakes up in Qian Cao with a gasp, suddenly touching his chest where a second ago he had felt a hole that pierced him from side to side. His head hurts, his muscles burn, and someone definitely screams in surprise because a bunch of disciples call out to Mu Qingfang and, damn, it's fucking chaos.
He's apparently been in a coma for the past eighteen long months since the Immortal Alliance Conference. A qi deviation? No one knew. It was as if he were just asleep, but nothing woke him. His vital signs were normal, low, but active. Except for Without-a-cure, there was nothing else in his spiritual veins, and Without-a-cure could not cause his current state.
Now, with a huge headache, Shen Qingqiu remembers. He remembers not only the last year and a half with Binghe in the Abyss, but his last years as Shen Qingqiu. And he remembers that, just after of pushing into the Abyss, the fucking System COLLAPSED! Damn SHITTY AI! And Shen Qingqiu believed that he was really going to deport him back to his body even if he pushed Binghe into the Abyss! ... But he hadn't. Just to a random demon's body until the system repaired itself.
The story he tells to Mu Qingfang about the qi deviation after Binghe was swallowed by the Abyss is as good as any. So, Mu Qingfang finally lets him rest until he recovers, and Shen Qingqiu accepts it.
During the Abyss, he had been... Free, somehow. He had no memory of being Shen Qingqiu, and he hadn't had to pretend to be anyone else. It had been the greatest freedom he had had since he arrived. Fuck, he has a lot to think about. How, above all, what the hell he's going to do now that, damn it, he knows Luo Binghe has somehow fallen in love with him. Fuck.
... Well, at least the other transmigrant on the scene will surely have something to say. Eighteen months in a coma! Ha! Shang Qinghua wouldn't even know what hit him.
#svsss#svsss ideas#mxtx svsss#svsss au#bingqiu#bingyuan#luo binghe#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#bingyuan in the abyss so that bingqiu may be in paradise#binghe: why am i falling in love with this demon who looks like shizun but looks nothing like him at the same time!?#he probably had a very bad time#imagine saying that you will be loyal to your shizun and first love#meanwhile you fall in love with someone who resembles him and not at the same time#and you suffer a lot because you feel unfaithful#then this person dies and you just “oh fuck i really loved him and i lost him and he will never know”#that is the emotional arc with which binghe will emerge from the abyss#(“everything i love perishes” but make it more dramatic)#this could also lead to lbg being AFRAID of approaching sqq for not wanting him to die too#which would make it angsty funny now that sqq is waiting for a disciple who will come out of the abyss to court him#sqq: if binghe has already emerged from the abyss where is my courtship?#lbg: *hyperventilating when he is near his shizun because he doesnt want him to die and convinced himself that everything he loves will die*
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You know how like. You imagine a story and you come up with a bunch of scenes that you really want to draw so the entire time. The whole beginning of the story is for the sake of getting to those scenes? Yep. Prowl is about to have a really funny interesting conversation with Rung and this is gonna be one of the scenes. I finally got to draw it *manic laughter*
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#maccadam#transformers#jazz#prowl#jazzprowl#ratchet#lost light#rung#Roddy isn’t here but Jazz is speaking his voice#Prowl: I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE (A demonic ritual secret survivor)#Rung: OH NO HE KNOWS WHAT I AM (a motherfuckin god himself)#looks at the drafts#there’s gonna be so much Rung. Thank god (ha) he’s fun to draw#tf mimics au
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A lost kryptonian founded.
Superman was just taking a break out of the Fortress of solitude after a couple of training to defend himself against kryptonite in case of another fight against Lethor.
Clark watched the Icy landscape in silence. It was quiet as the sky was dark, with only the tiny sound of a dangerously slow beating of a drum or a heart right underneath the ice..
Clark immediately went into Superman mode, driving right into the very glacier of frozen ice, only to nearly crash into a body in some large tunnel hole large enough to fit an adult.
It was a boy, a preteen at most curled up in a ball hugging himself with black and white hair that had a frost covered half of a crown on his head, eyes closed as If asleep with frozen tears stuck to his face like icicles, wearing a kryptonian suit with the initials rip on his chest.
Superman didn't think much or twice as he grabbed the boy carefully, diving out the hole he made from the Icy grounds.
The boy was ice cold, much colder then space itself if it weren't for the icy breath.
He dove back to the Fortress of Solitude in a tiny bit of panic, not to think at all as the Fortress's voice of Lara spoke out with a hologram.
"DNA Recognition, distant cousin once removed, Emergency Defense security disarmed."
Her eyes flickered a bit as if a message was being played, her face look a bit worried and hopeful.
"Oh, child of my beloved brother, Jac-al, if you have survived long enough under the eccentric of my brother and found the Fortress of Solitude. I hope you that you didn't inherit my brother eccentric antic to malfunction everything he built without forgetting to check if they are faulty."
#dpxdc#danny phantom#dc x dp#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dcxdp#dc x dp prompt#danny is the ghost king#danny got lost in time chasing Dani who pranked him#they accidentally changed the past#danny had watched in pure horror after they came back only to find amity park no longer existing#Danny had a complete meltdown but refused to be dan#he rathered buried himself in the artic and hope dani can find a natural portal back to the ghost zone#he found a nice icy place in the artic near a crystallized dome#he trying to calm down freezing everything around him that made the artic harder to melt#he fell asleep#doesn't realized how long it has been#he still have clockwork's medallion in his core so time slipping by him without him noticing#superman#clark think danny is a kyptonian which is kind of true.. but he ain't the father#Jack fenton is a kyptonian but he had amnesia#he got amnesia after he crashed in earth and got adopted by the fenton when he was young#dc is basically where jack never made it to earth due to a faulty spacecraft on his accounts
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i kno bill canonically loves pain i just wanted to draw him making a funny face
#bill cipher#billford#stanford pines#gravity falls#artfart#Bill with the cig on his tongue is cuz i saw a drawing of him burning himself like that but i lost it forever#if u drew bill with putting a cig out on his tongue u inspired me but i dont know where ur drawing is anymore or else i woulda credited u
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Summary of John's ships:
#he love(d)s Lemar so much; after losing him John completely lost himself and then everything he ever had.#thunderbolts#thunderbolts*#john walker#lemar hoskins#bucky barnes#bob reynolds#ava starr#olivia walker#jolivia#lemarjohn#ghostwalker#winteragent#sentryagent#robert reynolds#voidwalker#new avengers#my post
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#bruce wayne#batfam#dick grayson#batman#nightwing#robin#dc comics#my ramblings#batcest dni#sometimes I think about how Dick used to have Bruce just for himself and now there are a bunch of kids to share him with#like I think he deserves a day once in a while where it's just him and Bruce and he can have all the attention back#Also Bruce looking at Dick and still seeing the 8 years old he took in#I have the hc that as Brucie he is VERY vocal about how much he loves his kids and if he loses one of them at a gala or party#he is telling everyone how he lost his baby and how miserable he is#the baby is a grown ass man but people think it's an actual baby because Bruce getting more kids is on brand
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Something Old, Something New.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#a-yuan#Hey now! It's been a long while since we've seen that hair style!#Something old - in the way you see a little glimpse of a boy that died a long time ago#Something new in a man who has a new direction and purpose. Somehow it is still you. But you can't ever be that *you* again.#I think grief comes from a mourning of futures we lost. We associate it with love-#-but what else do we mourn if not the future we had with them? So too do we feel grief over the future our past self once hoped for.#I love the radish extra because it is so sweet and so full of small sorrows.#WWX is as playful as always with A-Yuan but there is a constant presence of how he no longer sees a future for himself.#Be it in the way he talks about the impossibility of him having children.#Or in the way he creates this silly and artificial game of helping A-yuan grow-up faster.#It's always about the moment to moment with him. Tomorrow isn't guaranteed.#His major hubris moment has yet to come but I would strongly argue that the seeds of doubt were already gestating.#It might be a bit of a 'ship tease' moment when WWX comments that his idea kid would be more like LWJ than himself -#But I consider it to be a true (if unconscious) sentiment that he sees himself as having gone down the wrong path.#It's not a 'I want LWJ to have my kids' moment. It's an 'if I were to have kid - I'd want them to never know what I went through.'#WWX is the parent that breaks the cycle. He walked for 10km through the corpse piles everyday and by god he's driving you to school.#LWJ is also a cycle breaker parent but in the opposite direction. He packs chocolate chip cookies and extra snacks in your bag.
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I need a scene with Bruce and Jason arguing, and, them, having a "I lost my son / And I lost everything" type of conversation. That's it. That is all I wanted to say.
#both of them right you cannot counter that#except Bruce got his son back he just cannot accept the one that returned#while Jason is...#well Jason got nothing back#not even himself#me at the grief-stricken competition but i see Bruce and Jason arriving and realise I lost#jason todd#red hood#batman#dcu#dcu comics#dc universe#batfamily#bruce wayne#batfam
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9-1-1 | Bobby & Athena
#911#911edit#911 abc#bathena#bobby nash#athena grant nash#i love when bobby says silly things because he's always so proud of himself and athena is just done#they are so married#thinking about how bobby lost everyone he loved and how much he struggled#and now he has this!! he gets to be a silly husband who loves his wife and he gets to be loved
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who!Sun is the kinda person to have a mental breakdown if his cereal isn’t made correctly
he’s soooo mentally stable! :)
(sarcasm) (this guy ain’t got a mentally stable bone in his body)
#fnaf#fnaf sb#fnaf dca#dca fandom#fnaf sun#dca who au#doodle dump#dialogue dump#he is always one straw away from breaking. as most Suns are <3#“how did he make the cereal wrong?” i dunno! lost track of himself i guess
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I think one of my favorite little details about spike's character is how he treated drusilla. he wasn't just "patient" with her disability, he actively treated it as just another thing about her to love. he verry rarely coddled her or tried to get her to be more present in a situation when she wasn't capable. (I can't think of a single time that he did but i feel like there were some when he was already upset at other people?). he learned to understand what she was saying even when it sounded like nonsense. when she was upset he comforted her, no matter how often it happened. when she started dancing he danced with her.
and we see in buffy 5x20 that it wasn't just his love for dru that made him act like that. when tara was incoherent and opened the window in the van, he didn't just immediately forgive her for burning him, he never got upset in the first place. he yelled, of course, because he was hurt, but as soon as willow started apologizing and trying to explain he just nodded. because it's no biggie! he already understands. some people are just like that, and he doesn't see accommodating that as the big deal that the people around him are making it out to be.
#I've just been thinking about this a lot#it's such a small trait but it's consistent and I love it so much#i find it interesting when people call him a sociopath because I think it's clear that he always cared about people.#like he changed when he died. obviously. he lost his soul and killed for fun. but I think it was less of a complete disregard for people#and more of just making the very best of what he had to do.#it's even obvious when he tells buffy about the slayers that he killed.#it was a sport. he was hunting and having fun. but he was also thinking about their experiences#because every slayer has a deathwish! his actions weren't noble in any way but it's like he was trying to justify them to himself#even when he was supposedly a cold blooded killer with no empathy.#losing his soul didn't stop him from being the sensitive loser poet. he had to purposefully beat that out of himself#and thats why he didn't need a soul to start his whole redemption arc. it was all there already.#that got so off topic but whatever. all of it evidenced by the fact that he was so good at accommodating people#thank you and good night#spike btvs#hey this animal can talk
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Drift’s “Dead end” design is my Roman Empire…
Like. His Crystal City look is great. His mtmte look is also great. And the Lost Light one too. But when I look at this specific design eh idk there’s something very special about it. It’s the way he was created by Cybertron if I’m not wrong. I love this colour scheme. It’s so calm and simple.
#maccadam#transformers#drift#mtmte#………#I almost tagged it as Deadlock haha#but it’s not Deadlock. It’s what Drift looked like before he became Deadlock#but gjjgjg GOSH he’s s o similar eah#bear with me. His Lost light design is cool but it has so much contrast. Shiny white with RED-red and pitch black#still. cool.#but I kinda. KINDA SORTA wish that after all the changes he did to his frame#wouldn’t it be poetic if he returned to his original form?#I just.#My boy is always so quick to change himself. And every time he strays further and further away from his original frame#the only thing that stayed till the end are his finals and kinda maybe top part of his helmet
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