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[batboyblog]

Things Biden and the Democrats did, this week #22

June 7-14 2024

Vice-President Harris announced that the Consumer Financial Protection Bureau is moving to remove medical debt for people's credit score. This move will improve the credit rating of 15 million Americans. Millions of Americans struggling with debt from medical expenses can't get approved for a loan for a car, to start a small business or buy a home. The new rule will improve credit scores by an average of 20 points and lead to 22,000 additional mortgages being approved every year. This comes on top of efforts by the Biden Administration to buy up and forgive medical debt. Through money in the American Rescue Plan $7 billion dollars of medical debt will be forgiven by the end of 2026. To date state and local governments have used ARP funds to buy up and forgive the debt of 3 million Americans and counting.

The EPA, Department of Agriculture, and FDA announced a joint "National Strategy for Reducing Food Loss and Waste and Recycling Organics". The Strategy aimed to cut food waste by 50% by 2030. Currently 24% of municipal solid waste in landfills is food waste, and food waste accounts for 58% of methane emissions from landfills roughly the green house gas emissions of 60 coal-fired power plants every year. This connects to $200 million the EPA already has invested in recycling, the largest investment in recycling by the federal government in 30 years. The average American family loses $1,500 ever year in spoiled food, and the strategy through better labeling, packaging, and education hopes to save people money and reduce hunger as well as the environmental impact.

President Biden signed with Ukrainian President Zelenskyy a ten-year US-Ukraine Security Agreement. The Agreement is aimed at helping Ukraine win the war against Russia, as well as help Ukraine meet the standards it will have to be ready for EU and NATO memberships. President Biden also spearheaded efforts at the G7 meeting to secure $50 billion for Ukraine from the 7 top economic nations.

HHS announced $500 million for the development of new non-injection vaccines against Covid. The money is part of Project NextGen a $5 billion program to accelerate and streamline new Covid vaccines and treatments. The investment announced this week will support a clinical trial of 10,000 people testing a vaccine in pill form. It's also supporting two vaccines administered as nasal sprays that are in earlier stages of development. The government hopes that break throughs in non-needle based vaccines for Covid might be applied to other vaccinations thus making vaccines more widely available and more easily administered.

Secretary of State Antony Blinken announced $404 million in additional humanitarian assistance for Palestinians in Gaza, the West Bank and the region. This brings the total invested by the Biden administration in the Palestinians to $1.8 billion since taking office, over $600 million since the war started in October 2023. The money will focus on safe drinking water, health care, protection, education, shelter, and psychosocial support.

The Department of the Interior announced $142 million for drought resilience and boosting water supplies. The funding will provide about 40,000 acre-feet of annual recycled water, enough to support more than 160,000 people a year. It's funding water recycling programs in California, Hawaii, Kansas, Nevada and Texas. It's also supporting 4 water desalination projects in Southern California. Desalination is proving to be an important tool used by countries with limited freshwater.

President Biden took the lead at the G7 on the Partnership for Global Infrastructure and Investment. The PGI is a global program to connect the developing world to investment in its infrastructure from the G7 nations. So far the US has invested $40 billion into the program with a goal of $200 billion by 2027. The G7 overall plans on $600 billion by 2027. There has been heavy investment in the Lobito Corridor, an economic zone that runs from Angola, through the Democratic Republic of Congo, to Zambia, the PGI has helped connect the 3 nations by rail allowing land locked Zambia and largely landlocked DRC access Angolan ports. The PGI also is investing in a $900 million solar farm in Angola. The PGI got a $5 billion dollar investment from Microsoft aimed at expanding digital access in Kenya, Indonesia, and Malaysia. The PGI's bold vision is to connect Africa and the Indian Ocean region economically through rail and transportation link as well as boost greener economic growth in the developing world and bring developing nations on-line.

[actual-changeling]

crowley loves so much and so deeply, and while there can probably be made an argument that parts of that love are entirely selfish, i think it's more than that.

he sees creation as a way of giving things live, be it stars and nebulas or humans or plants, they all exist and thus have a right to live. i think the thought of his nebulas and the entire universe being shut down after 6k years didn't just make him sad because of the effort he put into it. he sees it as a living, breathing creature that deserve to exist on its own terms.

that is why he asked questions, it certainly played a role in why he fell, and it also puts him right in the moral grey zone because there's no way of thinking that humans deserve free will without questioning the black/white moral system.

having to play his part as a demon is entire counterintuitive to who he is as a person, and it's imo the reason why he barely has relationships with humans (and if he does, they go deep). the constant loss would kill his soul and in a way it already has.

"what's the point" is him having reached a point of depression and an impatience that has morphed into bitter resignation.

look at him returning to the bentley after his fight with aziraphale in episode one. he isn't just upset, he is tired.

what's the point in loving and trying to save those that he loves when over and over again he is told that no, everyone else matters more than you. fixing this is more important than finding the peace we deserve. helping someone who literally tried to kill us matters more than our love for each other. the universe will be created and then destroyed for nothing, you are breathing live into empty spaces and none of it will matter. in the end, the logical conclusion he undoubtedly came to is that he does not matter either.

he tried to find a purpose for his existence in aziraphale and their arrangement, in trying to be kind and do good despite everything - and see where that landed him.

rejected and alone because compared to heaven, he is worthless, and well if that isn't a familiar feeling.

i think aziraphale in 1862 has picked up on that and he isn't wrong when he thinks it's a suicide pill.

season 3 is going to be very, very interesting because i don't think crowley will go down some kind of rage and revenge path, he will just fall deeper into his depression until it threatens to swallow him whole.

[literaryvein-reblogs]

Writing Notes: Jet Lag

Jet lag - sometimes called desynchronosis.

A physiological condition marked by fatigue, insomnia, and irritability.

Caused by air travel—usually going from east to west or from west to east—through many changing time zones.

It is classified as a circadian rhythm sleep disorder because it alters (disrupts) the natural circadian rhythm (‘‘internal body clock’’) in humans.

The temporary condition is primarily caused by air travel across several time zones, but can also be caused by shift work or other factors.

Jet lag comes about from the inability of the internal body clock to adjust quickly enough to drastic changes in the normal sleep and wake cycle.

Usually it lasts only for a few days but it can last longer depending on the length of travel and the steps taken to counter it.

Generally, jet lag lasts longer when traveling west to east, than it does when flying east to west. A general relationship is: jet lag lasts two-thirds of a day for each time zone crossed while flying eastward, and lasts one half of a day for each time zone crossed while heading westward. Thus, flying westward across two time zones would cause jet lag for about one day for the average air traveler.

Symptoms

Disorientation and fatigue are the two most common symptoms of jet lag.

Fatigue

Insomnia

Irritability

Anxiety or mild depression

Nausea

Headache

Disorientation

Loss of appetite

Diarrhea or constipation (along with general gastrointestinal disturbances)

Reduced ability (or inability) to perform common physical and mental tasks

Decreased ability to concentrate

Treatment

In cases of short-term insomnia triggered by jet lag, a physician may recommend over-the-counter (OTC) sleeping pills or prescription medication.

These medicines may help to counter the biological imbalance caused by jet lag.

However, they can cause adverse side effects. Thus, such medication should only be taken under the guidance of a healthcare professional.

Prevention

One cannot prevent jet lag, but it can be minimized. The following precautions taken during an international flight can help to limit or prevent jet lag:

Stay hydrated. Drink plenty of water and juices to prevent dehydration. Beverages and foods with caffeine should be avoided because of their stimulant properties. Alcohol should also be avoided.

Stretch and walk. As much movement as possible during a flight helps circulation, which moves nutrients and waste through the body and aids in elimination.

Stay on time. Set watches and clocks ahead to the time in the destination city to start adjusting to the change.

Eat a light snack upon arrival at the destination.

Get as much natural sunlight as possible to help reset one’s biological clock. Do not stay inside because avoidance of sunlight makes matters worse.

Sleep smart. Draw the shade and sleep during the evening hours in the destination city, even if it is still daylight outside of the airplane. Earplugs and sleep masks maybe helpful in blocking noise and light. Many airlines provide these items on international flights.

Dress comfortably. Wear or bring comfortable clothes that will make sleeping during the flight easier.

Source ⚜ More: Notes & References ⚜ Sleep Metaphors ⚜ Writers' Sleep Habits

[clever-name-change]

I was thinking about mouthwashing today, specifically about Curly and his misadventures in the cryopod, and realized just how horrifying his being found truly would be.

First off, the bodies. As soon as a rescuer came onto the Tulpar they would not only have to contend with a complete lack of oxygen/power (assuming that Curly is found at the tail end of his 20-year-long stasis), but also with the rotted bodies of the rest of the crew, still placed around the table in a travesty of celebration. Seeing as they are in space—and thus removed from the conditions that make rot possible on Earth—the bodies of Daisuke, Swansea, and Anya likely would have been eaten from the inside out by their own bacteria. A good portion of their soft tissue would have sloughed away over time, but the artificial nature of their graves would mean there was no way for them to completely decay. The rescue team would be forced to see them as they lived and died. The same goes for Jimmy. They would find his body just beneath Curly’s cryopod, half-rotted and hateful.

Then we get to Curly himself. Presumably, cryopods work by shutting down a person’s bodily functions, preventing them from aging or dying while trapped within it. Because of this, when Curly is unfrozen there would be a brief moment of respite before he is forced to see again. There would be a moment of time in which Jimmy never crashed the Tulpar, or if he did, where Curly was allowed to pass on in dignity. Then everything comes rushing back. It’s a maelstrom of sensation Curly was not prepared to face, and all of a sudden he is awash in blinding, unending agony. Everything hurts, and now with no pain pills to dull the sensation, he is forced to endure twenty years' worth of suffering in the span of an instant. The rescuers would then remove him from the cryopod—taking the flesh and bandages flash-frozen to its surface off as they did—and carry him out, past the bodies of his now long-dead companions, not sparing their corpses a wayward glance as Curly writhed in their arms, trying to get close enough to apologize one last time.

The whole situation is horrifying. And that’s not even taking into account the media ruckus that would be kicked up once Curly got back home—seeing as the prized captain of Pony Express has now fallen from grace—or the silent “conversations” he would have to sit through with the families of Swansea and Daisuke, who no doubt would blame him (at least partially) for their losses.

Truly, the cruelest thing Jimmy did to Curly was not allowing him to die when he had the chance.

[enemymine2000]

For the women and people with a uterus of the USA: You need to make your plan now. Obviously you need to think about getting your birth control sorted right now. Even if you plan to never have sex, because we know why we always would choose the bear. Birth control pills, implants, IUD, tubal ligation, whatever, just make sure it's in your control, because men can not be trusted with it. Stock up on Plan B now, it apparently has a shelf life of about 4 years. Personally I think it doesn't matter which shelf that is, no matter what your government after January might think about it. Check out PlanC.org for at home abortion information and access to medication per mail, as long as that is possible. Delete all digital traces of your period. Apps (first delete the data within before deleting the app itself), texts, posts, anything from which someone could make a guess as to the status of your uterus. Don't tell doctors either. There normally is no reason for a doctor to know the exact timing of your cycle. Just tell them that you have your period and that it's regular/irregular, but never exact dates. Do so, even if you're in a blue state or plan to move there. You never know how long those protections might last.

Don't get pregnant. Even if you want to have children. 1 in every 3 pregnancies end in a miscarriage. Which is a spontaneous abortion. You might get prosecuted for something sad, but natural. Additionally you might not receive care for other conditions while pregnant, because doctors have real concerns of being prosecuted themselves if that might lead to pregnancy loss.

If your significant other voted for Trump, leave him. Now. Especially if you're married. No matter how much you love him, no matter how much you think you can change him, he does not care about you. Because if he cared about women at all outside of a warm body to sink his dick in and to clean his house, he would not have voted for someone who is a rapist, who will try to strip you of all of your rights. No fault divorce might be the first thing of those to go. In that vein, save as much money as possible that only you can access. Financial dependence is the reason most of our grandmothers were unable to leave, don't make the same mistake.

If you're single, stay that way. Don't date. Don't have casual hook-ups. Men will lie and tell you they were voting for Harris, to get what they want. They have already started on the well-known apps. Cut them out. 4B movement all the way.

But that not only means those men. That also means your father, mother, sister, brother, friend, colleague, etc. who voted against your interests. Let them reap what they sowed. You don't owe them. But of course your safety is paramount.

Get something for your personal protection. I would rather you not buying a gun, because in doubt it would be more trouble than help. But mace, knives, self-defense courses are better than nothing. A roll of coins in a sock, whatever you feel comfortable with.

Get your documents sorted and ready to go. Have a passport.

For every step Trump's government will take, make a plan in advance. How to get your money, how to leave your home/the town when it gets dangerous, who you trust with information, with your power of attorney. Find groups and organizations to find and build community with. Heck, even unionizing at work might give you an edge. Get a VPN, which is from a country that is not part of the "14 eyes". Use Signal to communicate. As mothers and/or as birthing parent you need to educate the children in all those things the MAGAs want to erase from the public conscience. Ideas of equality for all, of feminism, of anti-fascism, even just readings of the bible as it is, are dangerous to their christo-fascist ideology and thus to their power base. To that end, get those books as soon as possible. So far it's only MAGA cleaning out public libraries, but you'll never know. Facts are their worst enemy. Raise your sons right! Because something has been really fucked with that for way too long.

Hopefully it won't all come down to the worst, but better be prepared and not need it, than the other way around.

[lightfromthelighthouse]

Good Morning!☀

The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. John 10:10

People everywhere are seaching for peace of mind and fulfillment. This is a universal desire that cuts across countries, cultures, and classes. Many have come and gone offering solutions of various kinds, often for a price, seeking more to divide you from your money than provide you with a lasting solution. Thus, you are now in a worse state, without the money you had and still without the peace and fulfillment you sought!

Jesus is the only lasting solution to the problem. Only he can give us lasting peace and fulfillment. Only he will add to what we have instead of stealing from us and leaving us worse off. Pills and potions steal from you. Psychiatrists and psychologists are good at taking you apart but are at a loss to know how to put you back together.  Unfortunately, too often, even preachers and teachers in the church point to themselves instead of pointing you to Christ.

Jesus is the good shepherd. A good shepherd knows his sheep, their nature and their needs, what it take for them to be protected and at peace. He came to free us from the limits of sin, and it's hold on our hearts and minds. He came to reconcile us to God because apart from him, we are dead and destitute, having much yet having little, restless sheep!

You can follow the thieves offering much but giving little, or you can follow Jesus, offering much and giving more. The choice is yours!

[crowdeerdire]

(for the sake of my brain I'm gonna yap about my OLBA MC in Step 1) Name: Kelsea "Kel" Last Age: 8 Birthday: August 29th Family: Pam Last (Mom), Noelani Last (Mommy) and Liz Last (Sister) Others: Cove Holden (Best Friend), Cliff Holden (Cove's Dad -> trusts later in Step 1), Shiloh Fields (Friend)

Confident at this age and fearless

Considered a "wild child" and often times a bit clumsey, thus the bandages and bruises

loves bugs; will see how man pill bugs she can collect on her hands at one time

thinks snails are super cool

bedhead 24/7 because she wants to be outside rather then take time to brush her hair

tends to wear oversized shirts from thrift stores because of her "wild child" ways. She climbs everything and tends to ruin clothes - so no fancy clothes like Liz unless they're going somewhere special

she loves her oversized shirts

always cold - touch her hands or arms and they're ice cold

just bad circulation and it usually doesn't bother her unless she has to handle something cold

thank goodness for hot weather california

protective and tries to stand up for others

has freckles at this age - although light. They fade as she gets older

Loves animals and wants a pet... anything! Upset that both moms say no

You would think at school she would be popular...

has 0 friends

becomes very shy around a lot of people and other kids think of her as the 'weird kid' since she's often alone drawing and playing with bugs or being too shy to talk

BUT ONCE SHE'S COMFORTABLE WITH YOU??

certified yapper

does not shut up

undiagonosed ADHD

loves the ocrean and is a strong swimmer because that's mostly what she does in there

shell & sea glass collector

UNFORTUNATELY she can't tan?? (genetics) and she tends to burn more often then not? So she learns early to apply sunscreen a lot

Scar on her leg is from falling out of a tree at age 7 and getting a branch skewered through her leg :)))

likes video games but are terrible at them - still plays them tho

Kel with Cove

Same height as Cove

first reaction upon seeing him on the hill: "I need to protect him"

says she wants to marry him to moms but doesn't understand really what marriage is. Just thinks it means hanging out with them a lot (which is sort of true??)

Plays as Fond (in game) but I would say she has a mild crush on him as well

grows attach to him quickly because Liz has Shiloh, so obviously Cove gets to be her friend

Somehow feels relaxed around him easier and quicker then others

She yaps, he listens... and then they yap together

offended he doesn't love snails as much as she does

Will be protective of him except...

When it comes to scary stuff (like ghosts) she'll hide behind him, claiming she's not scared

tries not to swim or suggest swimming when she hangs out with him during that summer - doesn't want him to feel left out since she knows what that feels like

ran away with him because she needed to protect him (not thinking of telling parents would protect him) and didn't want him to be alone

Kel with Liz

Tends to deffer to her and let her take the lead

Has a generally good relationship with her but it's starting to get a bit rocky

especially when she starts standing up for Cove more against Liz

wants to hang out with Liz more "like they use to", but Liz is starting to be more independent since she's double digits now <- mourns that loss of friendship

teases each other in a friendly way

Kel with Moms

Kel loves her moms dearly (very good relationship)

for the longest time doesn't even think about if it's 'weird' to have two moms and no dad

doesn't cross her mind until some kid at school mentions it

honestly believes at this age her moms are her birth parents - doesn't put two and two together for a while even tho they are open about it

cuddler, especially with Noelani/Mommy

loves Mom/Pam's puns and tries to joke like her

if moms are around she tends to follow their rules

if moms aren't around, the wild child becomes MORE wild

gets worse when she and Cove hang out and egg each other on

Kel with Cliff

After Cliff offers her the 20$, she becomes nervous around him for the first while

won't look up at him or really speak to him

eventually she warms up to him the more he hangs around and at some point thinks of him as someone she can really trusts

honestly thinks of him as family (maybe further down)

will draw him pictures when she's more comfortable with him and he puts them on his fridge along with Cove's work

[cupcraft]

Feel free to completely disagree w me i just want 2 share my thougjts after rewtaching bombshells last night: As much as Cuddy wants to believe that she left House because he couldnt be there for her in the way she wanted to (which is valid but its rlly not what happened imo) She ultimately broke up w him because he relapsed. Forgive my poor memory i may be recalling wrong but the end of the episode vicodin relapse reveal hinted that house had been back on vicodin since before cuddy’s cancer scare, and the moment that Cuddy found out she dropped him. The vicodin was the catalyst in a sense she saw him relapse back into drugs and she was like Nopeee. like it was the longest he’d been sober since he developed the addiction which is a good thing but its like. the expectation that you will relapse at least once. and yeah cuddy had just gotten a big death scare but she had also found out her boyfriend had fallen back into his addiction and instead of allowing them both to comfort eachother on their respective issues she left him liek broo😭😭😭youre dating a known addict and the minute he starts addict-ing you turn away. Also ntm even though cuddy told him outwardly she didnt want him to change, she definitely had inward hope that She could he the one to change him, that he’d love her so much he wiuld change for her and that didnt happen so she quit

No your 100% right and now I'm going to rant about huddy and a missed opportunity for her character's writing.

Cuddy historically has been a character who has understood House's addiction and thus in turn his chronic pain and disability almost the least. She has a repeated history of ableism in the show towards House, but I am going to focus on her lack of understanding around House's addiction and how that ties into why she dumped him and ultimately was a failing on character growth on behalf of the writers.

In season 7 it is implied House has relapsed before the surgery date, and it's implied that he relapsed because of his intense fear of losing Cuddy due to cancer and he loved her and WANTED to be there for her, and in a way this triggered a relapse. In the world of addiction relapse can happen as addiction is a lifelong chronic illness and moments of stress, loss, etc can be a common trigger for relapse. And the fact House wanted to be there for her without panicking, definitely also makes sense why he considered relapsing. Cuddy's problem here, is that she moralizes it. It's understandable she doesn't address her subconscious thoughts on "huh, I wonder if House has relapsed..." because she's actively undergoing a panic of "am I going to die", so it makes sense she doesn't address it until she's finished surgery. But her problem is she MORALIZES this action. Think about what she tells House. She does think House couldn't "be there the way she wanted" and that "he'd never change", but those are the excuses to rationalize how she feels being in a relationship with an addict. She tells House by "being high" he wasn't "REALLY there" for her when she had the surgery/medical scare. Though House might have been pretty high (which is hard to confirm it's never really stated, and House does have a high opiate tolerance to consider), but in the end it doesn't matter if he was. Cuddy thinks House being on Vicodin is in a way subverting his love/care/attention away from her. Instead of seeing the relapse as a concern, as her terminal illness scare, fear of loss of her, wanting to be there for her, she sees it as a means of NOT being there for her. That of course, in the end, House chooses "drugs" over her. Here's a few notable quotes:

Cuddy quite litereally says the pills mean something, as in his addiction is a moral choice in which House chooses to be a careless loveless asshole who is selfish and only cares about himself and in turn cares only about avoiding pain instead of "being there for Cuddy" which is an insane way to look at someone's addiction, and blatantly fucked up. She quite literally dumps him because of this, the relapse, of because he is an addict.

Because the reality is, like I stated, House wasn't afraid Cuddy would hurt him. House isn't afraid to be there for Cuddy. House has also gotten to a point in their relationship by season 7 that he isn't afraid to love Cuddy. He didn't fear experiencing pain, he feared losing her. And he knew, and he WANTED to be there for her in her potentially dying moments because he loved her. And that in turn triggered relapse. Cuddy's interpretation here is that House never changes, but in reality we should see this as Cuddy has never changed. She's never changed since season 1, not understanding how addiction operates.

Early seasons in which Cuddy has a history of the following: Making House go cold turkey and being cruel when he experiences withdrawal instead of intervening to help him, Cuddy telling House his "pain" is just made up in his head and worsened by the Vicodin (not in a medical sense, in a moralizing sense) such that she ignores his bad pain day and tricks him into getting a saline shot and then uses his brief "distraction" from the pain as confirmation it's in his head/drug seeking behavior (again not from a nuanced position of how mental health and chronic pain intersect, instead moralizing it), she doesn't at all ever understand how opiate addiction operates nor how to treat someone's addiction (ie with methadone...foreshadowing for later) and again moralizes his choice to remain on Vicodin (The entire tritter arc), she is ANTI methadone entirely a known medical treatment for opiate addiction enough that instead of recommending House go to a methadone clinic for increased safety and monitoring threatens to fire him unless he agrees to let her control everything about his methadone treatment plan, and etc.

The writer's have posited Cuddy as someone who cares about House, who loves House, but at no point takes a moment to understand his disability, chronic pain, and his addiction. She moralizes it. And when he enters a relationship with her sober just nearly avoiding relapse, she's almost ashamed to be with him. She enters this relationship, ashamed she could be with someone like House. She takes that scene intervening in his relapse as a moral commitment he will prioritize her over drugs, thus entering the relationship without ever really wanting to understand or be compassionate dating someone who has a history of addiction. This is a missed opportunity for her to develop as a character.

Instead, the writing goes as Cuddy doesn't get to change but the narrative wants us to believe it is House who never changed or cared about her enough, because drugs and addicts bad. Which is really fucked considering they took a lot of time making Wilson grow more understanding of addiction. There's that one episode he fears House has relapsed and he says "relapse is common!" ready to help him and when he relapses after the breakup he recommends House get help instead of moralizing it. He even yells at Cuddy for leaving him, not just as a partner but as a friend.

Sorry this is long but I hope...this makes sense

[himeprincessa]

Supplements and Vitamins to start your year RIGHT! 💖

Warning: Make sure that the supplements you are taking do not counteract as this could lead them to be ineffective or even dangerous. Vitamins that interact tend to need to be space out by four hours.

Morning

Iron: It is really common for young adults (especially those who are living on their own for the first time) to develop iron deficiency. Common symptoms are dizziness, a fast heart rate or brittle nails. If you have these symptoms check in with your doctor as taking too much iron can make you sick as well. If you are iron deficienct but don't have full blown anemia, you can take multivitamins that contain iron. These will help boost your levels and keep you full of energy.

Allergy pills: TAKE ALLERGY MEDICINE!!! Especially if you live in an urban environment that contains a lot of trees that produce pollen. It is not normal to be sniffling, coughing and feeling fatigued just from natural air. Generic works just as well as name brand.

Allergy Nasal Spray: If you are like me and your allergies are more extreme, I recommend a nasal spray. These can be prescribed by your doctor or bought over the counter.

Lunch

Multivitamins: If you take nothing else, make sure to take a multivitamin! They contain the majority of vitamins we need everyday to function. So if you're feeling tired even after sleeping a lot, it might be that you're not getting the essential nutrients you need. This can lead to acne, fatigue generally making your body weaker. Make sure to look at the label to see how much daily percentage the bottle you chose has.

Probiotic: One of the most important parts of our body is our gut. It affects our mental health and functioning of our physical bodies. Probiotics help introduce good bacteria into our stomachs as it's needed to keep it healthy. Probiotics can also be found in drinks like kombucha.

B-12: This vitamin helps so much with energy! I started taking 500 mcg but I felt it wasn't enough so now I'm taking 1,000. It's always good to start with a lower dose of any vitamin to see how you react to it.

Biotin: We all know how beneficial biotin is for looking good. It helps strengthen your nails, hair and skin.

Dinner

Calcium: This vitamin helps strengthen your teeth and bones. It's typically considered a supplement you start taking as you're older but by then it's already too late in a sense. I also recommend taking the magnesium zinc version. On top of these two being good for you, they help the calcium absorb so much better.

Fiber: OK I just ran out lol so here's a stock photo. Because most modern food is so processed we typically do not get enough fiber in our diet. Fiber is so important to keep our digestive system running. Adding 5 grams of fiber can make such a difference.

Optional

Saw Palmetto: If you have issues from hair loss like me, anemia is so awful, this can help a lot. Depending on your body, it can either help stop the thinning or even help regrow it. However this is a herbal remedy that can affect your hormones. Thus, it can cause mental health reactions and should be used with caution if you struggle with it.

Get Lit: This I bought on a whim from the Sephora sale! It is meant to help with both skin issues and your mood. It's the type of supplement where you dissolve it into water.

[lindasophie]

"Perfect" Night Routine

I find a good night routine can greatly enhance the day and the one to come. However, toxic versions are often shown on social media, which put even more pressure on me personally. So I would like to say here first that it is only tips that can improve your night routine. I also do not implement all of them and think that everyone has to look for themselfs what suits them best and must find their personal routine.

1. Drink a cup of tea

Calming teas: Calming teas consist of naturally calming herbs which help you to rest better in the evening and fall asleep faster. A further advantage of calming teas is that, unlike other sleeping pills or sedatives, they are completely natural Alkaline teas: Alkaline teas are supposed to help with balancing our acid-alkaline balance.The alkaline herbs contained in the tea help neutralize excessive acidity in the body and help flush out toxins and waste products. Ginger teas: Ginger tea in the evening is considered a weight loss tea because it has a metabolism boosting effect. A cup of ginger tea is therefore supposed to kick-start our metabolism overnight and thus help us lose weight. However, ginger tea has a diuretic effect and could therefore cause you to have to go to the toilet more often at night. In addition, it has a warming and anti-inflammatory effect and is therefore particularly popular for colds, coughs and colds, for example. Fruit teas: If you're not looking for an alkaline, metabolism-boosting or calming tea, but simply a tea that tastes good and won't keep you up at night, you can also reach for a simple fruit tea. Unlike the others, this one does not have any special effect, but it still lets you fall asleep normally at night.

Tea is generally considered a healthy drink but it is important that you choose a caffeine-free tea in the evening to save you from long sleepless nights.

2. Journal

Regular journalling helps to better understand and categorize thoughts and feelings. It promotes the focus on one's own self, one's own self-reflection, and on top of that stimulates the ability to concentrate. It can be used as a self-help or complementary therapy aid. It also strengthens our mind when we write down fears or stressful experiences. Writing helps us to pause to regain our inner stability and to leave your worries behind so that we can fall asleep more quickly. but even if it is not about worries but only about the events of the day, it is helpful because you take time for yourself without your phone to reflect on the day.

3. One hour without phone

Your phone emits blue light that inhibits the production of melatonin, which controls your sleep-wake cycle. A melatonin deficiency can cause sleep disorders and fatigue. A disturbed sleep-wake rhythm can make everyday life more difficult and reduce the quality of life. In addition, you get so many sensory impressions through scrolling that you first have to think about. So if you use your phone right before you go to sleep, you can expect to be awake for a while. Logically, you also lose time while scrolling that you could spend sleeping, which makes you more tired and less focused the next day. So it's best to stay away from your phone an hour before you go to sleep and set it to "do not disturb" or silent. because even if you don't use it, notifications will interrupt your deep sleep.

[baphomet-slumber-queen]

Belphegor ~ Sin of Sloth

Being a former Virtue of Diligence, she loss her need to work or place too much effort into anything - with Lucifer and his family as an exception. She fell shortly after Lucifer, as she questioned why knowledge was a crime. If the Seraphim were ordered to keep something as dangerous as knowledge within an arm's reach of mortals, then why would it be there to be accessible? Curiosity is merely the diligence to improve oneself. As a punishment for questioning the authority of the Seraphim and God, she was sentenced to fall with her fellow brothers and sisters in arms. Her realm, the Sloth Ring, was then created at the very bottom of Hell, allowing all the weight of responsibilities she harbored to be let go and she was glad of it. Thus, the bright lavender skies within the Sloth Ring. She delights in sleep and relaxation. However, she couldn't keep her need to relax to herself. She wanted all who wished to be well rested and relaxed.

So, she opened a hospital that was opened to all manner of demons, selling pharmaceuticals at the back of the hospital. She frequently hires imps, sheep demons and succubi under her staff.

She mixes chemicals and magic for fun, creating various sorts of pills and potions for the public of Hell. This includes, but not limited to pain meds, anti depressants, muscle relaxers, sleep pills, tasteless poison tables and antacids.

[ Right hand employee ]

Likes

Being lazy

Making pills

Profession

Ruler of the Sloth Ring

Owner of Sleepy Pills

Owner of her pharmacy store

[whentherewerebicycles]

okay. i promised myself i would do some long reflective journaling to sort through some Big Feelings and I keep kicking the can down the road because idk sometimes you don't want to sort through the Big Feelings in case you don't like what you find there. but I have a morning of uninterrupted time and I am in a good headspace and I think I will just write through some stuff under the cut.

it sure looks like i might be having a baby next summer, which means that things are moving out of the hypothetical realm and into the realm of being Very Real. so i am experiencing the expected levels of "oh shit oh shit oh shit i am about to be responsible for a living being???" that i imagine all prospective parents experience. more than that, though, i think i am having to confront the reality of single parenthood in a more emotional way than i was expecting! and this is partly because it might be about to become real for me, but also because some people i love very much who are very close to me are pregnant now too, and i am watching them live an experience of pregnancy that is very different from the one i've had thus far and much closer to the socially "normal" path. and i think that is surfacing some unexamined and semi-unexpected feelings of grief/loss for me as well as a complicated mix of horrible bridge troll jealousy feelings. i want to write through some of that so i can get a better handle on what i'm feeling instead of letting the big emotions unexpectedly avalanche over me at random times.

let me think first about my own experience of getting pregnant.

I'm glad I am pregnant and I am extra, extra grateful that things are going well thus far after experiencing a pregnancy loss this summer that kind of turned me inside out for a while. I also know that despite how excruciatingly drawn-out this process has felt, I was able to get pregnant a lot faster/easier than many people are and I don't take that for granted. but man oh man I think getting pregnant via assisted reproduction can really fuck with your head and heart in ways I wasn't anticipating when I started this process a little over a year ago. everything is so intensely medicalized. my life has just been going to appointments and getting ultrasounds and having blood drawn and giving myself hormone shots and undergoing painful medical procedures and healing from an emergency surgery and reading medical journals and swallowing pills and recording symptoms in a tracking journal. I don't feel like I've spent this year preparing for and then actively trying to conceive a child; i feel like I've spent this year receiving intensive treatment for a medical condition (not being pregnant) that requires obsessive anxious monitoring and might be rooted in some deeper flaw or failing in my body. almost no part of this experience has felt private, intimate, precious, spontaneous, joyful, sacred, sexy, or fun in any way. it's all felt mediated by doctors and by an incredibly expensive industry that jacks up the prices knowing most people going this route don't have an alternative (because they're gay or they're single or they have medical conditions that impact their ability to conceive naturally). and the ectopic pregnancy just like intensified and heightened all of that, because all of a sudden i DID have a life-threatening medical condition and all that obsessive monitoring WAS justified and my body HAD fucked up, and everyone afterwards spent a lot of time warning me i'd need to subject myself to even closer monitoring next time because i was at increased risk of it happening again.

idk man it's just been a lot!!!!!! and i think that even though early on I was like "i'm going to try to carve out some part of this experience that can be just mine, separate from the medical aspects of assisted conception," i just kind of failed at doing that. i don't think it's my "fault" or whatever, because idk, there's a lot of cultural pressure to medicalize and pathologize and turn our bodies over to doctors or whatever, and it's hard to swim against the current, especially when you are stressed and spending a lot of money and willing to do whatever an expert tells you to do if it'll get you the thing you want so badly. so i don't blame myself but i also have to acknowledge that i haven't had a very positive experience of trying to get pregnant and i think that the single precious, sacred moment of this whole entire year was when that very kind very gruff tech let me watch the heartbeat on the ultrasound right before the surgery and then went to get warm blankets from the dryer to wrap me in. and maybe also the night that my mom and i had the little burial in the woods. that was it, those were the only sacred moments, and they were moments of deep and wrenching grief, not of joy. even finding out i was pregnant again only a few months after the loss wasn't really a moment of uncomplicated joy, because i was so immediately consumed by anxiety and so instantly sucked back into the vortex of endless medical monitoring. so idk i think i have some unresolved grief around the experience of trying to conceive/early pregnancy i got compared to the one i might've hoped for.

when i found out my SIL was pregnant, in the immediate aftermath of my own loss and on the same timeline i would've been on, i just spent a long time feeling like the most horrible bridge troll version of myself i could possibly imagine. i was just eaten up inside with jealousy and it wasn't just that she was having a joyful, healthy, uncomplicated experience of pregnancy while i was healing from a very raw and painful loss. it was also this feeling that like, she was supposed to be pregnant, she was expected to be pregnant, and the whole world was smiling joyfully upon her pregnancy, and everything was unfolding smoothly for her in ways that it hadn't for me. they're young, they're married, they own a house, they have two good incomes and will easily be able to support a family, she's thin and blond and very pretty, and (while i don't know this for sure) it seemed like they got pregnant for free on almost the first attempt, on the exact schedule they'd decided they wanted to have their first baby. and idk just watching my parents excitedly prepare for their first grandkid and make all these plans for how they'd be involved and coming out to tour fancy daycares with them just sucked! you can be so happy and excited for someone you love and also you can feel like the bitterest, ugliest, most horrid little bridge troll inside. i just felt like, i'm going it alone, i'm older and i have fertility issues that might make it impossible for me to do this, i make less money, i'll never own a house, i don't have a partner, blah blah blah, and even though most of those things are choices i've made about the type of life i want to live, it just felt like... idk. i was just eaten up inside by jealousy!!!! like i know nothing about their experience of trying to conceive or what her experience of pregnancy has been like so far, but my ugly inner troll voice was like, why was it so easy for them and hard for me, why did i have to pour $15,000+ into this process, why did they get to have fun joyful let's-create-a-future-together sex while i had to go to a doctor every other week to get stuck with needles and prodded with ultrasound wands and have an insanely painful cramp-inducing dye injected into my fallopian tubes, and why, WHY did our babies conceived at almost exactly the same time have such different fates.

i mean the answer is just like, this is the world we live in! this is the reality of being a queer person and an unpartnered person who wants a family! these are the life choices we make! this is the randomness of conception outcomes and a healthy dose of plain bad luck! but it was hard (and is hard) to not internalize the differences as like, something is Wrong With Me and something is Right With Them. and i think on the most basic level i was just jealous of their shared joy, and was feeling the ache of, i'm in this by myself, i have to weather this loss by myself, i am the only person who cares about this as deeply as i do. and of course that wasn't wholly true, of course i had my mom and my sister and my closest friends who grieved with me and took such good care of me, but idk. i think it stirred up some feelings about being unpartnered for me that i hadn't really examined all that closely before.

and i think... like... i think that is probably the other big piece that i am going to have to spend time grappling with, maybe for a long time, maybe for the rest of my life! with my students, we often talk about the idea of animating questions, like the big preoccupations you find yourself wrestling with again and again, these questions that won't ever be resolved because they don't have a simple or straightforward answer. they are questions you don't ever answer once and for all, but wrestling with them over the years is what gives shape and meaning to your life as a person on a quest for purpose, for clarity, for deeper understanding. i am carving out a life path for myself that looks different from most of the people around me and i think that sometimes i really really wrestle with the question of, like, does this path represent a failure or a choice? and if i have chosen this path have i made that choice out of cowardice or from a place of strength?

i still have to untangle what i mean here or what i feel around this, but i think like... i don't know... i don't really crave partnership, i don't feel its absence in my adult life, i have cared deeply about past romantic partners as people but i have always felt immensely relieved when relationships end because i get my own space & life back, and i feel like almost all of my human emotional needs for connection are met through my friendships and my work. i like sex and i like the idea of a live-in best friend but i also feel pretty sure that modern dating on the apps is not the avenue through which i would find that person and i don't really know of other ways to go about building relationships like that at this stage in my life. but idk man the cultural PRESSURE you feel to do the expected life path thing is immense!!!! and i think that while most of the time i'm able to set that pressure aside and just live my life, the decision to have a child on my own suddenly reignites all of those uncertainties and some of that shame around like, why isn't this a thing i want, does it mean i am emotionally stunted in some way, will it impact my ability to parent well, blah blah blah.

i suspect i will spend a LOT of time in this next chapter of my life trying to untangle those feelings, so i am not going to put too much pressure on it now!! i just want to begin naming them so they aren't just like, swirling around in the back of my mind seeping into everything. i think what i can say definitively right now is this:

i have never felt a strong impulse towards or yearning for romantic partnership, and thinking about dating mostly just makes me feel tired and like i would be doing it for other people, not for myself. if i really think about it, i can imagine myself in a shared partnership with someone who shares my interests and values and sense of humor, but i truly can't imagine getting there through hinge or bumble or whatever. maybe that is where the sense of tiredness comes from when i think about dating, lol.

that said... i HAVE, for a very long time, felt a very strong impulse towards becoming a parent. i feel nervous about this (money! time! blowing up your life! being responsible for a small person!) but i feel no ambivalence towards it, you know? i want to be a parent and i think i'll be good at being a parent (i mean i am sure i will also feel like i am a Very Bad Parent for much of the time as that seems to be a feature of parenting, but on the whole i feel confident in my ability to provide the love and stability and structure necessary to raise a reasonably happy, well-adjusted kid). i have never been able to imagine a life where i do not become a parent by some route and i feel a deep, wrenching sadness when i imagine a life where i don't raise a family.

i think the sense of total clarity and joy i feel around the choice to parent vs. the profound ambivalence i feel around the idea of dating signals something important! but it is just challenging, you know, to carve out a life for yourself that goes a little or a lot against the grain of what other people's lives look like and what people think would make you happy. i know i am very VERY lucky that over the past five-ish years my parents have gone from being extremely skeptical or worried about my life path to 10000000% supportive and on board and ready to help me make it work. but i also just think i gotta wrestle with the cultural demons in my own head/heart you know!! i am going to have to work hard to get to the point where i feel really secure in my choices!! i know that the horrid bridge troll feelings about other people conceiving easily in the context of happy marriages are normal and okay to feel - it's just human to wish that your own journey was easier, simpler, cheaper, less painful. but i also think that, as liz says all the time, security (in yourself and in your choices) is a gift you give to yourself and everyone around you. i might not be there yet, but i want to work hard to get to a point where i am so secure in the choices i have made that i can experience other people's experiences and choices as simply theirs, not as a reflection or a shaming judgment on mine. i want to be able to say, i am so happy for you, and i am also so happy for me, because we have both worked hard to create the lives we needed and wanted for ourselves, and now we get to live in them. I want to know with total certainty that I, not other people, get to decide what my life means.

but also.... i want to think of this journey not just in terms of Struggling to Make Peace With My Choices but also in terms of like... sometimes taking a different path can produce unexpected joys that people on the regular path won't get to experience. for instance, i can already tell that my mom and my sister are going to be incredibly involved in raising my kid, and that my parents are going to feel an extra sense of responsibility to provide my child with a life that is incredibly rich and full of love. so i am going to have a life that is rich in family relationships, maybe richer than it would've been if i was part of a traditional nuclear family unit. i am going to have to learn to depend on and lean on other people in wholly new ways, which will challenge me (a person who tends towards insularity and independence) to really stretch and grow. i am also going to get to have a different experience of parenting in the home! i am going to have to learn to work things out with my kid without another adult there to help mediate conflicts. we are going to have to figure out how to be a good, functioning team because we are going to have to share responsibility differently than in a two-parent household. and i hope that through this experience i also get to meet and talk with other single parents (something tumblr has already allowed me to start doing!), and i get to develop a deeper, richer understanding of alternative family structures and life paths that don't look like other people's.

i want to be honest: there is some real grief there! i have chosen a life that is different than the one i hazily imagined for myself as a younger person... and already that has meant that i've had a very different experience of trying to conceive/being pregnant than the people closest to me, which has sometimes felt very painful and lonely. and i imagine that as i navigate parenting i will have to keep grappling with the grief of like, living in a culture where it's not "normal" to parent alone, where other people will judge the choices i make, and where i will be missing out on some of the joys of shared childraising i see other people around me experiencing. but i don't know i guess i just have faith in my ability to make meaning out of my life, and i think that the grief will be counterbalanced by joys i'm not able to anticipate from this vantage point because i haven't lived them yet.

and also if i stop for a second and think: would i rather not go down this path at all? the answer comes back to me so clearly and so immediately. of course not. i want you so badly, little seahorse. i'm so ready for you to come into my life. i'm ready to shed my old self, my old life, and become somebody wholly new, in a wholly new relationship with a wholly new human being. hey! i love you! come here and be my baby!

[evillovelust666]

Fictional World Role Play: "The War Between Angels And Sinners" (with a tragic event that occur on that day)

(note: This took place during "The Show Must Go On")

The New Year of 2024 has begun and it's one more week of the end of January my baby Neko is getting worse so I took her to the Danvers Animal Hospital and what the vet told me left a pain in my heart for the worse the next day I'm in the park with Count Duckula sitting on the bench we chat Count Duckula: "How's Neko?" me: "Not too good I'm afraid" I looked up at the sky my eyes were almost teared up this worries Count Duckula Count Duckula: "What happen Stacy? I never seen you this sad" seeing me hurt and sadden I explain (note: this part is true)

me: "Well she's still been puking up hairball, vile, and flem for a long time and taking her to the vet I've been giving her medicine of pills it seems to be helping her at the time but on October the pill she was on made her loss her appetite looking like a skeleton took her back and they switch medicine in the form of liquid last month of December sadly she can only have 1 treat for her Christmas dinner that's chopped up because she's not able to have other treats that are whole with it then on Friday December 29 she puke up what looks like blood the colors between red and brown I tried everything gave her chopped up deli turkey and she ate it but after a while she just sniff at it and doesn't want to eat switching to other food since she stop eating Nutro that's pate I tried Churu she lapped it up but again after a while she just looked at her bowl and not eat so taking her to the Danvers Animal Hospital the vet told me the grim news"

I looked down criss-crossing my hands together when Count Duckula place his hand on mine I looked at him almost started to cry Count Duckula: "What's the grim news?" me: "She has a tumor the size of a walnut in her stomach" his eyes widen in shock hearing this Count Duckula: "Oh Stacy I'm so sorry" I continue me: "It all make sense ever since back in May 2023 why she's been puking has nothing to do with cleaning herself and why she has a hard time swallowing her dry food and treats whole without chewing is that damn tumor was manifesting in her stomach when she eat her wet food she eats it fast like she's been starving in so long thus making her puke from the way she eats so the vets gave me more medicine to help keep the tumor shrinking however they said that she might have a month to live"

he embrace me hugging him tightly almost crying from this we got off the bench holding hands continue our walk in the park Count Duckula: "What she's been doing now?" me: "All Neko wanted to do was hide as if finding a place to pass away other times she stop eating and drinking a little her bathroom is getting more and more diffcult and laying on the couch just staring is a sign of red flags" we stop walking as Count Duckula held my hand brushing my knuckle with his thumb Count Duckula: "Dose this mean that when the time comes…" I stare at the forest seeing all the wild Poke'mon roaming about me: "If her condition continues to deteriorate and if it dose happen then Neko will have to be…." before finishing that last sentence all the wild Poke'mon ran back into Fantasy Forest seeking sanctuary by passing through the japanese wind chimes that protects them the sky turning black thundering noise going around the park is now baron the reason they ran was that an evil presence is coming then we see a shadow slithering by us until appearing in front of us it was Alastor Alastor: "My my I hope I'm not interrupting" Count Duckula stood in front of me in a protect stance but I put my hand on his shoulder reassuring him that it's alright and stood next to him

me: "You're fine Master Alastor what are you doing here in the park?" his grin grew more eviler walking around us as he answer Alastor: "Well my dear it seems that the Exorcists from heaven are making their move by targeting the Hazbin Hotel" me: "I heard they planned the move by started the extermination in 6 months instead of the yearly 12 months but why would they make a dick move on targeting the Hazbin Hotel?" he stood in front of me watching my reaction enjoying the aura I'm giving out from my emotions Alastor: "It seems that the leader of the exterminator Adam is breaking the rules of heaven by doing whatever he wants and if he target your masters Angel Dust, Sir Pentious, and yours truly then…." he made a throat slitting noise with his hand going across his neck Alastor: "If you know what I mean" my eyes widen a drop of sweat sliding down the side of my head as this wasn't bad enough me: "When will this occur?" he pull out his chain pocket watch and estimated the day Alastor: "Til Friday"

I ponder in thought of this as Count Duckula kept his guard up against my master Alastor: "That's why I inquire your assistance on battling against the Exorcists if you want to protect Angel Dust, Sir Pentious, and me from a fate far more worse then to double hell" me: "Well I still need to dog-walk Billie on that same day but I'll be there to assist everyone against heaven when I'm done" I place my hand in a clench on my chest bowing down giving him my vow me: "You have my word Master Alastor I'll be there" he got excited of my devotion and loyalty Alastor: "Splendid! the preparation will occur at the Hazbin Hotel see you then my dear" with his evil laugh his shadow cover him up until he disappear into the ground the sky turn back to blue Count Duckula almost shaken at this sends a chill down his spine Count Duckula: "Woah! I can't believe you put up with this (shudder)" Count Duckula: "Are you sure you're up for this?" me: "I had too it's already bad enough of Neko's health and now Master Sir Pentious, Master Alastor, and Master Angel Dust are in danger I can't let that happen to them" concern at this predicament he turn me around to hold both my hands Count Duckula: "But what's going to happen to Neko?" we both stayed silence at that question knowing that its only a matter of time when that happens the month is now February 2 that date when tragedy struck after dog-walking Billie I went home to shower changing my clothes and grabbing my weapons I looked at Neko laying on the couch in the den still doing nothing I gave her lots of loving kissing her head and hugging her she faintly made a purr-like grunt and resume to lay there seeing Gambit and Buneary I gave them both loving me: "Alright my babies mommy has an important business to attend to so you all be good and looked after Neko"

they looked at me knowing that something is wrong with Neko Count Duckula place his hand on my shoulder letting me know Count Duckula: "I'll let you know if something change with Neko" me: "Thank you Count Duckula" I was about to leave the den when he said Count Duckula: "Stacy?" I turn to looked at him as he softly smile Count Duckula: "I love you and please be safe" me: "I love you too and I'll be careful" going back to him to kiss his lips and hug me back kissing me in return after that I left the den being in the dining room I open the portal and went in coming out on the other side and I'm at the front yard of the Hazbin Hotel I see everyone in training while there's allies of cannibals from Cannibal Town I looked up at the sky seeing a flying surveillance camera that belongs to Vox I sigh and join in the training me: "Well better get started then" meanwhile in Vox's surveillance room, as overlapping videos from various cameras stationed around the Hazbin Hotel play on the screens stationed around him Vox himself is sitting in his office chair, watching them all while drinking from his mug Vox: "No fucking way! They're going to fight? Oh, my god. Hahahaha! Oh, looks like your little hotel didn't work out so well. (watches a screen with Alastor on it, which glitches slightly) Oh, Alastor, I cannot wait to watch you get FUCKED! Ahahahaha!" he laughs maniacally looking at all the monitors until a specific monitor spotted me Vox: "Well well you're here too are you afraid of losing those you Evil Love Stacy? (evil chuckle) oh I can't wait to see what you'll do" he sat back down on his chair drinking his mug back at the Hazbin Hotel the training continues I use my magic to summon a chalk and drawing a circle with sigil symbols Niffty was curious walk to me and ask Niffty: "What you got there Stacy?"

me: "I'm drawing a magic circle with sigil symbols to use with my copycat jutsu to help me with something" Niffty: "Oh that's neat!" after its done I indian sat in the center of the circle Niffty stand back to let me concentrate as I began making hand signs of sigil symbols me: "Copycat jutsu future sight" the energy glow as my hair started waving above in the air as a projection shown with my eyes close of the event that occur and what I saw made my heart hurt in pain after it's done I gasp breathing heavily Niffty saw my state and was concern Niffty: "What's wrong did you see something?" I had to lied I can't let her know about this me: "It's nothing the energy was overwhelming but it's all good" I smile to convince her Niffty: "Okay!" Charlie: "Hey Nifty I got a task for you" Niffty: "Coming Charlie!" she hum as she skip going to see Charlie my expression change sadden at what I saw it scares me there I see Sir Pentious bursts out of the hotel's doors, wearing a Victorian-style British army uniform and looking proud of himself I blush seeing him in his admirable uniform after Charlie gave her inspiration speech everyone cheer and resume training while Vox laughs at this sheer foolery Vox: "Oh, they suck. Oh, they suck so bad! Oh, God. They're gonna fucking die! They're- they're gonna die" inside the bar everyone drank and chat I sat on the stool and looked at Sir Pentious and Angel Dust I smile watching them but sad at one master I'm worry about Husk snap me out of my thoughts Husk: "Hey you okay kid? you look like you seen someone dying" me: "What? oh it's my cat Neko she has little time left to live" I can't let him know on who's is getting killed here in hell so I change the subject by telling him about Neko Husk: "Damn a stomach tumor huh? that's fucked up" I look at the bar sadden while Husk went to the shelves to prepare drinks continue the conversation Husk: "But you gave her the best life she ever had and 13 years must be a nice age for her" me: "I know but loosing any animals that's been with me for so long is hard I sometimes wish I can go back and tell them I'm sorry for what I did that'll end up regretting it for the rest of my life" Husk: "That's life and you know that well"

he mix his drinks shaking it Husk: "Like you said you can't disturb them it's part of all that is nature it is best to let their souls rest after they fulfill their life's" I look at him while he smiles Husk: "You're a good person you have so much passion giving animals a second chance in a loving home that's what makes you a good mother" me: "Yeah that's true you're right about that" he made me a tropical punch fizz handed it to me Husk: "I know you like soda and this is the only drink I know you're not into alcohol" I smile and took the drink me: "Hey Husk please don't let Master Alastor know about this" he wink reassuring me Husk: "Don't worry your worries of Neko is kept between us" me: "Thanks" as Husk went to make more drinks for everyone else I watch as Sir Pentious tries to open up more with Cherri Bomb telling her his feelings the pain of jealousy hit my heart really bad clenching my chest until the pain is gone after shoving the drink down I got up and walk going to the restroom there Kee Kee rub against my leg meowing at me seeing her color I pet her but seeing the image of Neko I still felt sad me: "(sad tone) Hey Kee Kee" after walking away Kee Kee looked sad at seeing me so hurt up on the balcony Alastor and Niffty watch them mezzanine after a few chats and laugh he saw me walking down the hallway his grin grew wider Alastor: "Now where are you going off too Stacy?" his eyes glow in red darkly as I went into the restroom washing my face cleaning my nose me: "Come on you can't let anyone see you like this" I looked at the mirror seeing my Sakura Akamatsu human form me: "It's already bad enough knowing of Neko but now now…." when my wrist glow the Blood Chain Of Fate is taking effect there stood behind me is Black Hat placing his hand under my chin Black Hat: "I can smell your fear your heart must be in so much pain that there's more stitches adding to your wound"

me: "Master Black Hat what brings you here?" Black Hat: "I heard that a war between angels and sinners is happening here so I'm going to broadcast this live on my hat cam bot and stream it live at the Top Villains Hotel and somewhere else" me: "Oh I see" he knows something is up his grin grew more evil Black Hat: "Tell me Stacy what are you afraid of?" I was quiet trying not to let him know about Neko figuring out what to tell him instead he growl seductively pulls the chain to make me looked at him as I gasp from the pain on my wrist Black Hat: "Tell me preciosa presa" I know what to tell him as I looked at him in the eye me: "That one of my master is going to get killed" he was satisfied at my honest answer and continue Black Hat: "Interesting what are you going to do about it estimada?" me: "I'm going to…" the reflection seeing me from his monocle his grin grew even more twisted showing his sharper teeth as I continue on what I'm about to do after that's done he vanish from the restroom as I left walking down the hallway I was trapped against the wall with hands on each side of the wall I looked to see Alastor his eyes glowing in red Alastor: "What were you doing darling?" me: "I I had to use the restroom" he continue interrogating me Alastor: "Who else was with you? I heard voices in there" I sigh and looked at him me: "My Master Black Hat was there he wanted to broadcast the event of the war between angels and sinners and stream this at the Top Villains Hotel" he relax at my answer putting the back of his hand against my cheek stroking it down Alastor: "Are you afraid?" me: "Yes" he chuckle and lean his mouth against my neck feeling his hot breath Alastor: "What are you afraid of doux vulnérable lapine?" me: "I'm afraid and scare of loosing you, Master Sir Pentious, and Master Angel Dust" he tease me keeping me trap in this position

Alastor: "Bonne fille, mon bel outil" then it happen two cameras that are flying throughout the Hazbin Hotel one from Vox and the other from the Black Hat Organization began their broadcast Black Hat: "Greetings all you villains and sinners it is I Black Hat here broadcasting live of the war between angels and sinners!" at the Top Villains Hotel everyone was watching this in their suites some on the couch others on the bed naked (Asmodeus and Fizzarolli) together as Black Hat continues his broadcast Stolas is watching this in his room suspense at what will happen then the clock tower rang after the last drop of sand hit the bottom hour glass the portal from heaven is open Exorcists begin pouring out Black Hat: "It looks like the war has begun!" at the V tower Vox has a box of popcorn and is excited to watch them all die joining with Valentino and Velvette Vox: "Oh, oh. Oh, this is going to be good!" as the Exorcists began charging at the Hazbin Hotel all the guests and cannibals prepare to attack Charlie: "Let's FUCK THEM UP!" me: "IKEI!!!!!!!!!!" as everyone charge I slit my hand on my katana blood spill and the katana was split in 2 with the red flames on one and the black flames on the other they attack the Exorcists while I use my flames from the katanas to slice while incinerating them up on the roof Alastor put up a barrier to kill the Exorcists from the inside and out the fight continues as I heard a loud bang coming from the roof there I see Adam attacking Alastor I summon my raven and bat demon wings and flew up to the roof there I see Alastor wounded back at the V tower the Vees watch while Vox preparing to see Alastor die Vox: "Yes! Fuck you, Alastor! (flips off screen) Ahahaha! (jumps on top of table) THIS IS BETTER THAN SEX!" just as Adam was about to strike him with his guitar again I use my katanas as flames hit him he scream at getting burn Adam: "FUCK!!!! IT BURNS!!!!" I stood protecting Alastor while I pose with my katanas as the flames are enraging

Valentino: "Impressive chica (sultry chuckle)" Vox: "Oh fuck that's hot!" me: "Are you alright Master Alastor?" Alastor: "Just a scratch on my chest nothing to worry about" I looked to see and his wounds are bad me: "That's more then just a scratch (growl) you're going to pay for hurting my master Adam!" he lifts his guitar and as I was about to attack him only for Alastor to grab me from behind holding me back covering my eyes while the other hand hold my right wrist he looked at Adam Alastor: "(singsong) Have to disagree with you there! Radio's not dead, but it is ending this broadcast" feeling being engulf from his shadow we flee the battle and melts into his shadow Adam, laughing, watches us disappear while leaning on his guitar somewhere in the abyss Alastor let me open my eyes hiding somewhere knowing were safe I place my katanas down to see Alastor wounds me: "May I please have a look at it?" knowing he's in pain he took off his shirt and I see his wound bleeding heavily I use my magic to summon the celestial water from the planet just below and to the left (note: from the episode of Kaput & Zosky of “Robinson Hood”) combining with snow from the icy planet of Chertara (Note: from the episode of Kaput & Zosky of “Let it Melt, Let it Melt, Let it Melt”) I began to waterbend placing it on his wound he felt relief as the pain is at eased for now me: "Why did you stop me? I was going to make Adam pay for what he did to you" Alastor: "I admire your devotion mon cher but I couldn't take any chances especially with his holy weapon" me: "But still…."

after healing his wounds I remember something that's about to happen so I summon 2 blood bags for him to take me: "Here to help replenish your strength" he took the blood bags as I got up pick up my katanas and open the portal me: "There's something I had to do back at the Hazbin Hotel" I looked at him while he's holding the blood bags and his broken microphone he put on his signature smile at me me: "I'll come back for you I promise" and flew back into the portal Alastor: "I know darling I know" after putting his shirt back on he sat there ripping one of the blood bags and began drinking meanwhile the portal is open and I'm back at the Hazbin Hotel this is where my vision show me what happen as I flew from behind part of the wall building I see Sir Pentious finally having the courage to kiss Cheeri Bomb and confessing his feelings to her Sir Pentious: "Miss Cherri Bomb, I love you Remember me!" as he slither off I felt the pain hit me through my chest but shake it off as he went inside the airship it broke off part of the Hazbin Hotel building and flying towards Adam me: "No I can't I don't want to loose anyone not like this!" I summon the Clow card of the time card and began the spell me: "Time card freeze the moment!!" the card glow and everything froze in place I flew to the airship using my magic to go through the airship inside I see Sir Pentious pointing at the window of the target there I soul split him leaving the fake part there while I took the real Sir Pentious I open the portal and took him back to the Top Villains Hotel from there I took him to his suite putting my katanas on the bed I summon a dagger and slit my finger writing in blood move in japanese 動く on his forehead he began to move Sir Pentious: "FIRE!!" but then notice he's not in his airship

Sir Pentious: "What? Where-where am I?" he looked at me confuse Sir Pentious: "Stacy what am I doing here instead of firing my death ray at Adam?" I was quiet knowing that I saved someone but that doesn't mean another life can not I hugged him gently he was startle but then notice I'm shaking he place his hand on my head calming me down Sir Pentious: "Hey your quivering tell me what happen?" I make sure to wipe my eyes so he doesn't know as I looked at him me: "You were about to fire your death ray at Adam only for him to make a dick move and he killed you" he was shock as he slither back at hearing this Sir Pentious: "What? I died?" I nodded as he did an anime wine Sir Pentious: "AWW damn it!!! I was looking bad ass as I was about to kill their leader it was suppose to look victorious!!!" I softly smile giggle quietly as he settle down Sir Pentious: "What about my egg boiz's did you save them?" I looked away stopping my smile me: "I'm sorry Master Sir Pentious I was only able to save you" he was quiet and place his hand on my shoulder Sir Pentious: "Well even though you did what you had to thank you for saving me" as he patted my head in an anime manner Sir Pentious: "So what's going to happen now?" me: "You're going to have to stay here until I explain more of the situation my Master Black Hat is broadcasting the war with his hat cam bot live so you'll see what's happening" I grab the remote and turn the T.V on grabbing my katanas I open the portal back to hell and looked back at him me: "I'll show you what happens to you next when I come back so for now stay here" he nodded as I went inside the portal he sat on his bed watching the T.V after coming out of the portal I summon the Clow card of the time card again to resume the event me: "Time card unfreeze!" everything started to move the airship edges closer and closer to Adam, the death ray charging up Adam notices it Adam: "Oh, whoop!" with one blast from his finger, Adam incinerates the airship and everyone inside it Sir Pentious seeing this was shock and got pissed Sir Pentious: "What a dick move that son of a bitch!!!" Adam: "Haha, that coulda been ugly" everyone at the Hazbin Hotel where shock they stare in horror from the ground seeing Sir Pentious killed as they grief while Vaggie helps comfort Charlie she was about to call Razzle and Dazzle to transform when I play my role and pretend to rage of Sir Pentious death me: "MASTER SIR PENTIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Charlie stop from what she's doing as she looked up in the sky I began to scream blood curdling rage transforming into my monster form of Alexia infusing my katanas in each of my hands and began attacking Adam me: "(anime rage screaming)" (note: insert rage music from the Newground video of "Sonic's Quest For Power 3 part 4")

Adam saw me charging at him as he finger bang one blast only I dodge coming faster and faster he was having a hard time aiming his finger at me Adam: "Hold still you bitch!" I came from behind and blast him with my katanas hitting him with the flames scorching his body slashing him everywhere as he's been flung all over the sky like a ragdoll (note: while inserting another rage vibe of the meme from Lethal Company of "give him back (3 times) he's mine!") everyone looked in shock at the grief I'm raging throwing everything I had at Adam for what he's done Angel Dust: "Oh shit" meanwhile in Sir Pentious suite Sir Pentious: "My word" Black Hat broadcasting this: "Such rage! oh what explicit pain she bares!!!! (darkly laugh)" Charlie's eyes sadden seeing me in so much grief and pain Charlie: "Stacy….." Adam's body burn in scorch and gashes from my sword I kept attacking him relentlessly I kept attacking him until Lute lunges at me with her holy weapon a blast of light hitting me reverting back to my Sakura Akamatsu human form naked sending my body flying to the other side of Pentagram City me: "AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I crash somewhere seeing this Charlie growls tears run down her face, the sadness turning into rage she stands up as she summon Razzle and Dazzle to begin her transformation somewhere in part of Pentagram City I'm laying there badly injured my eyes where close at how bad it is breathing heavily as I lay there I felt something furry and recognize that sound her purr-like grunt and pawing at my face seeing barely it's Neko me: "Neko? you can't be here it's dangerous" even though my vision is blurry in reality it's Neko's soul a blue aura surrounding her that's by my side patting her she stay with me purring quietly until she's gone my hand felt nothing and starting to worry me: "Neko? Neko! please you can't wait til I come home you can't die not yet!" I move my hand searching for any sign of Neko but she's no longer here my eyes starting to tears me: "Neko don't go" I reach my hand up to the sky trying to get back up only too wounded my hand about to drop only to be save and held by someone else placing a kiss on it my thumb feeling the ring I started to open my eyes slowly and see that it's Lucifer with his softly smile I weakly spoke me: "Master Lucifer?" Lucifer: "I'm here let me help you by giving you strength" he cover my eyes with his right hand while he bite down on his left wrist spilling gold blood collecting this in his mouth he deepen it with a kiss transferring his blood into my mouth the taste I never felt anything like it slowly swallowing it the injuries on my body started healing me speaking in thought: "This blood why can't I see his blood?" after finish kissing a string of saliva left my mouth he wipe it with his thumb and remove his hand so that I can see Lucifer: "How do you feel?"

I looked at my body and starting to stand up me: "I feel good my magic is coming back fully thank you for your blood Master Lucifer" Lucifer: "Glad that you're recover now if you'll excuse me I gotta go save my daughter" he summon his wings and flew off toward the Hazbin Hotel feeling his blood giving me these strong powers I summon my wings again and flew back to the Hazbin Hotel as well seeing Lucifer fighting with Adam I stay put and watch from the distance Lucifer: "Hyahahah! So this is what you been up to since Eden? (dodges Adam by turning into a goat) Gotta say, you've really let yourself go, buddy" Adam grabs Lucifer by the foot Lucifer turns into a snake briefly to free himself Adam throws him away and Lucifer turns into a bird Adam: "You?! judging me?! You're the most hated being in all of creation!" Adam tries to shoot his angelic light at Lucifer, but Lucifer dodges Lucifer: "Well, your first wife didn't seem to hate what I had to offer… or the second, bow-chicka-pow-pow!" I looked and reacted in blush realizing at what he meant me speaking in thought: "So not only he fucked Lilith but he also fucked Eve?!? holy shit! looks like he'll have to call me a different pet name instead of Second Eve" as the fight continues Adam charges up a huge blast of angelic light at Lucifer he dodges and the light chops the hotel straight in half I flew off just in time while Lucifer save Charlie from falling when Adam charge at them they both grab him and flung him crashing into the ground seeing this opportunity I looked and see Niffty stabbing corpses of dead Exorcists I went to her and tap her shoulder she was about to stab but stop when she notice me Niffty: "Woah you're naked! what happen?" me: "That's not important I need your help you see that male angel coming out of the rubble?" I pointed to that direction as Adam staggering out from the hole she nodded me: "Let's sneak up quietly from behind and stab him repeatedly from the back!" she got excited and position her angelic knife Niffty: "Yeah! yeah! (quietly) stab stab stab stab!" while we're both sneaking from behind I use my magic as Irken symbols began appearing on my left arm then turning my hand into William Birkin monster claws as it ooze out angelic blood from the claws we presume as Adam did his "I'll be back" speech he got impaled from the back by my claws and the angelic knife he shouts in pain everyone looks in shock as an angelic blade and claws is stabbed right through his chest Vaggie: "Woa-hoah!" Lucifer: "Hey, y-ya got somethin' stickin' outta your… your thing there"

Adam collapses face first to the ground, revealing Niffty and me on his back, having sneaked up behind and stabbed while impaling Adam Charlie: "Niffty? Stacy?" pulling my claws out while Niffty stares blankly at Adam for a few seconds before smiling and viciously stabbing Adam again and again, his golden blood going all over her while I joined in stabbing the absolute shit on him with my claws Niffty: "STAB! STAB STAB! Hahahaha! Haha! Hahaha! RUEAhahaha!" me: "SHINEI! SHINEI! SHINEI! SHINDE SHIMAREI!!!!!!!!!! (fucking die)" as I beat up his head so much rage coming out of me everyone looked in shock and disturb while the Vees stare in shock at the screen from V Tower Vox: "Ho-ly shit!" Black Hat: "Such anguish" swirling his wine glass of blood round enjoying my hatred towards Adam Niffty: "Blood! Hahahaha!!" then hearing Lute screaming for Adam I gave him one more kick to the head then walk off while my arm turns back to normal and Niffty follow pursuit skipping off now the war is finally over Lucifer tells Lute to call off her Exorcists followers and return back to heaven she call them to retreat as they left the portal to heaven is open as Lute flew off she was getting hit with rocks and broken glass while the other Exorcists were getting hit from rocks and broken glass Lute turns to looked and see me in so much anger all the Exorcists can do is go back to heaven while getting hit I scream at them cursing them from the top of my lungs me: "FUCK YOU HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Lute look at me scowling and kept on flying while still getting hurt from the throwing rocks and broken glass me: "FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" the portal to heaven close as I pant heavily while growling Angel Dust: "Fuck you're piss as hell" after calming down I looked at Angel me: "Sorry Master Angel Dust it's a rough day couldn't help it" with things settling down the news 666 began broadcasting in hell and at the Top Villains Hotel Katie Killjoy: "Good evening. I'm Katie Killjoy!" Tom Trench: "And I'm…" Katie Killjoy: "Nobody gives a shit who you are, Tom breaking news Extermination day is cancelled! in an unseen turn of events, our demonic head honcho Lucifer stepped in to save his daughter's ass in the last moment We're also hearing reports that Adam, leader of the angelic legions, first man and totally fuckable bad boy, has been slain by a filthy janitor and a rare human! we go live with our reporter Krissie to interview these 2 demoness Krissie?" the camera goes to the dolphin demoness as she began her report Krissie: "That's right Katie Niffty tell us on how it felt to kill the leader of the Exterminator?"

she just froze there unable to speak to the camera feeling awkward she interview me Krissie: "Uh hey you rare human how dose it feel to kill the leader of the Exterminator? since Niffty is unable to speak to the camera" the camera zooming in and out of my naked body I answer the interview me: "He got what he deserve after what he did to 2 of my masters he needs to suffer more and get sent to double hell!" Krissie: "You're masters must be that important to you" me: "They both mean a lot to me and I'll do it again to any of those angelic cunts out there that lay their hands on any of my masters here in hell! (flipping off) and fuck you heaven! now if you'll please excuse me" walking off away from the destruction of the Hazbin Hotel Krissie resume Krissie: "You heard it hear folks she did it for honor of those 2 masters that meant so much to her you can feel her aura glowing such passion she shows" as she resume Valentino sat on the couch watching the news report on his television as Vox in his surveillance room clasped his hands together grinning sinister hearing at the potential powers of me while watching the camera filming me walking off

then back to Black Hat he gave his speech on the conclusion of the event Black Hat: "What a bloodbath!!! the screams of terror their bodies getting dismembered!! (darkly laugh) truly a war that ends with casualties and victory coming to you live from the Black Hat Organization this is Black Hat signing off" after his broadcast ends at the Top Villains Hotel back in hell I was making sure that I'm not being follow from news 666 seeing that the coast is clear I began opening the portal to where Alastor is and found him me: "I promise I come back for you" Alastor: "You're a rabbit that keeps your word could you do me a favor my dear? could you take me to my radio tower at the Hazbin Hotel?" me: "What's left of it from the destruction I'll help you with that" Alastor: "Merci chérie merci" seeing him still sore from his wound I help him arm over the shoulder then I relocate the portal to the destruction of what's left at the Hazbin Hotel his limping towards the ruins of his radio tower while holding the broken pieces of his microphone he began singing lamenting at the ordeal that's occur we both enter into his radio tower he let me go staggering on his own as I watch him walk through his radio tower placing his broken microphone on the broken control broadcast desk station briefly he left claw marks on it as if he snap his eyes darting around the room like he's being watch noticing this his evil smile is not giving out malice or sinister vibe it's like it's something else a different kind of expression he was unable to shown this worries me as he walk by me singing about almost getting killed for caring his friends that he never see's them as friends assure that his deal is in motion in the form of a back door and in riddles of unclipping his wings and who'll be pulling all the strings he laughs maniacally as his shadow looms above him when he's done I grip my shoulder he looks more and more disturbing me: "Are you feeling ok? you're scaring me I never seen you having a hard time of showing your other expression this isn't like you like someone force you to unable to show that" he looked at me twisted as he walk slowly towards me I startle remembering on that day when Husk said about someone who's also on a leash me: "(quietly) Shit!" I stood my ground as he's near me placing his hand under my chin while his other hand his finger gently caressing across my neck as a green chain appear on me from our soul deal his expression shown evilly

Alastor: "In due time my dear all these riddles and plans for what I had in store will come to fruition but for now I like to see you keep guessing on what I'm about to do" I shiver feeling his finger on the chain that's around my neck me: "I'm sorry I didn't mean to mention that is just that your expression you're showing I never seen this before concern's me" his lips on my ear making me gasp as he tease bite it his voice lace with lust and manipulation Alastor: "I want you to keep seeing me as I'm being more and more mysterious til you're dizzy hearing my voice of who's controlling me and my plan" then he kiss my lips deeply his hand place on my chest until I felt something that made me collapse on the floor on my knees I pant at what I felt from what Alastor did to me as the green chain around my neck disappear back to Alastor Alastor: "Mon cher ami" I shudder at what just happen then he's back as his signature self Alastor: "Now let's go back to the new Hazbin Hotel they re-build I know that a certain someone is going be happy to see that I'm alive HA HA!" I got up regaining my balance me: "Understood Master Alastor" as I'm opening the portal I had to ask looking back at the broken microphone on the desk me: "If you need someone to help repair your microphone I know one of my masters can fix it" his face is against mine just messing with my head me: "If you want to that is I just wanted to help you getting your microphone fix and making your powers stronger that's all" he ghost my lips and whisper evilly Alastor: "In due time moi doux in due time" meaning that something will happen later on down the road I looked down as he darkly chuckle me: "Rr right of course"

after going into the portal he made his grand entrance to everyone except Lucifer and Husk who were not happy that he's alive and back after they finish singing I look at the tribute portrait of Sir Pentious with flowers using my magic I summon a purple rose then placing a kiss on it the rose was cover in crystal raindrops and putting it by the tribute portrait I looked at the new building of the Hazbin Hotel smile at the new look but change expression I open the portal to take me to the Top Villains Hotel I went in as Lucifer, Angel Dust, and Alastor notice I left not having time to talk to them showing their worry and concern on their face as I'm back at the Top Villains Hotel I hear cheering laughter and some crying with joy it's all the egg boiz's huddling all over Sir Pentious he smile knowing that even though he lost 5 of his minions back in hell he's happy that he still have millions of his egg boiz's here at the Top Villains Hotel egg boi # 38: "Oh boss you're not dead! you're alive!" egg boi #99: "We thought you were a goner after that bad angel man finger blast you" Sir Pentious almost snort choke chuckle at hearing that Sir Pentious: "(snort choke laugh) Finger blast" egg boi #86: "See? I told them that Stacy will use her magic powers to save our boss from getting killed" egg boi #23: "And there she is!" they all see me egg boi #69: "And naked!" Sir Pentious blush seeing me cover from the battle while all the egg boiz's ran and cheer surrounding me egg boi #76: "You're our savior!" egg boi #58: "Thank you for saving our boss!" I patted all their heads as they blush and oh gosh me: "You're all very welcome just thought I come back to see how Master Sir Pentious is doing" Sir Pentious: "I'm doing alright (looking at my dirty body softly smile) may I accompany you to the fancy bathroom?" me: "After battling with all the Exorcists and beating the shit out of Adam I could use a warm bath" as were walking down the hallway Sir Pentious gave his command to the egg boiz's Sir Pentious: "YOU! grab Stacy a fruity beverage and you! grab her clothes and sneakers for her to get dress in!" they all saluted and obey egg boi #13: "You got it boss!" egg boi #20: "Right away boss!"

they all ran to grab the things he order them to do as where at the fancy bathroom I'm relaxing in the bathtub of warm water while Sir Pentious wash my hair rinsing it after with the shower hose as I'm soaping up my body and rinse inside the tub one of the egg boiz handed me Ocean Spray Cranraspeberry juice for me to drink after that I got out he handed my 2 towels for my body and hair then going into the guest room (that's is where I usually chilled in) blow dry my hair and drying my body the other egg boiz's place on the bed socks, panty, bra, sneakers, long sleeve shirt, and pants after I get dressed happy that all the egg boiz's did their task they left it was just me and Sir Pentious sitting on the guest bed Sir Pentious: "You're deep in thought something on your mind?" me: "Well I've been thinking so much that happen today I'm mentally still scare of something else" Sir Pentious: "Like what?" me: "Um uh……." Sir Pentious: "Has it something to do with your vision?" me: "Yes?" Sir Pentious: "What did you see in your vision?" me: "You finally had the courage to confess your feelings to Cherri Bomb and (hating to say that last part) you kiss" he was surprise that I seen that in my vision Sir Pentious: "Where you jealous?" I grab the pillow to cover my anger me: "(muffle) Yes (angry noise)" he mischievously smile and took the pillow away from me Sir Pentious: "Were you afraid that I'll stop thinking and being around you?" me: "Uh-huh" he place his hand on my face and softly smile Sir Pentious: "Well even though she will be my number 1 I'll always have you to do sinful things with as my second place" me: "I'm thankful for that and I also wanted to say I'm sorry" Sir Pentious: "What are you sorry about?" me: "You see I need to discuss with you on personal things like you can't see Cherri Bomb anymore" he tilt his head concern me: "Remember when I save you from getting killed from Adam what they saw down there they're convince that you're dead" Sir Pentious: "So they all believe that I'm dead even Miss Cherri Bomb" me: "I'm really really sorry I know she meant that much to you and you started confessing your feelings to her but still I took you away from her meaning that you'll never see her again ever" I almost started to get sad when Sir Pentious curl his fingers to prevent tears coming out and gently place me down on the bed I looked at him my emotions overwhelming me he wasn't upset he understood of why he can't see her ever again me: "I done an awful thing to you and I deserve to be punish" he was on top of me smiling softly Sir Pentious: "Why would you think that you done an awful thing to me leaving Miss Cherri Bomb behind? when I know there's someone else that's been looking out for me right here" me: "I'm sorry so very sorry" his body against mine as he place a kiss on my forehead Sir Pentious: "You've done so much for me that's more than enough" after staying like this he remember something Sir Pentious: "Wait if everyone down in hell knew that I was dead then what about those that stay at the Top Villains Hotel……?" the door open and there Lucifer, Angel Dust, and Alastor enter Angel Dust: "Hey Stacy ya left in such a rush that ya didn't stay for Lucifer's….." the 3 of them stare at us in that position on the bed Angel Dust: "Pancakes"

Sir Pentious and I separate ourselves on the bed blushing me: "Please I can explain this!" Angel made a leap on Sir Pentious hugging him happily Angel Dust: "Holy shit! you're alive we all saw you incinerated from the blast!" Lucifer place his hand on Sir Pentious's shoulder Lucifer: "We thought that you're dead" Sir Pentious: "I was save by Stacy she's the one that prevented me from getting blast by Adam" they all stare at me as I stayed quiet Angel Dust: "Is it true Stacy?" me: "Yes" Lucifer: "Then what did we saw back there?" taking a deep breath I explain the situation while Alastor grin with excitement me: "What you saw back there was a shadow a fake counterpart of Sir Pentious that got killed in Adam's blast before the war I use my copycat justsu to do hand signs of sigil symbols I did future sight seeing Sir Pentious killed by Adam not letting that happen I use my magic to freeze time then soul splitting him taking the real Sir Pentious and leaving the fake in his place I brought him here safe at the Top Villains Hotel then coming back to unfreeze everything letting everything take effect I put on the act of my grief and rage of beating the shit out of Adam convincing everyone so they don't get suspicious" they were deep in shock of hearing this Alastor: "Well that must've been some performance it's too bad I didn't stay to watch such splendid entertainment" Lucifer: "You use forbidden magic to make things possible interesting" me: "I'm sorry! but I had too loosing any of you in hell meant that much to me you're all so important to me" Alastor: "Looking back when you went to the restroom Black Hat know about this when you told him what you saw in your vision this is more then having his broadcast in hell" me: "Yes I told Master Black everything of what I seen and what my plans are" Angel Dust: "So what happen to the fake Sir Pentious that we saw get killed?" me: "This is what happen" summoning an orb I show them what happen it projects in Heaven, Sera and Emily are sitting in a room together suddenly, Sir Pentious rises up into the room his color scheme has been changed to white, gold and blue and he now has a love-hearts motif Emily, realizing that this is proof that the Hazbin Hotel works, squeaks with excitement Sera, having come to the same conclusion, looks mortified after the orb vanish everyone's mouth dropped Sir Pentious: "I GOT REDEEMED?!?!?" me: "And became a good guy that's why I saved you from that Master Sir Pentious" he calm down seeing me sadden and afraid as I went to him and hugged him

me: "I Evil Love you as your evil, charming, sinister self I don't like the reform you that you were put in" he hug me back in return understanding that I Evil Love him more in hell then in heaven Angel Dust: "So if your fake part got sent into heaven that would mean….." Lucifer: "That my daughter was right all along that it's possible!!!" he cheer jumping around the room Alastor cringe hearing him happy Lucifer pull out his hellphone about to call Charlie Lucifer: "Wait til Charlie hears this she's going to be so happy!" I place my hand on his hellphone stopping him me: "NO you can't!!!" Lucifer: "But why? with this she has found a way to save her people" me: "Everything that you saw on the orb is what is happening but there's still more to this that any of you don't know about down the road" (for the upcoming event of season 2) me: "Charlie must never know about this she and everyone else in hell doesn't know that he's alive I broke the law of saving Sir Pentious he can't go back to hell anymore" Sir Pentious: "But I can go to other places right?" me: "Yes just not in hell not going back to the re-build Hazbin Hotel" Angel Dust: "At least youse and me can hang out here and other places it's just gonna be different when I'm with Husk and Niffty" Angel Dust: "Poor Frank he would've been happy to know that you're alive" Sir Pentious: "Who's Frank?" me: "He's one of the surviving egg boiz that Master Angel Dust saved from the Exorcist" Sir Pentious: "Wait one of my eggs has names?" me: "Apparently" Lucifer: "So Charlie and everyone else can't know about this?" me: "To keep this a secret from Charlie and the others I'm willing to propose a deal with the 3 of you" Alastor's ears twitch with excitement Alastor: "What kind of deal are you proposing dear?" me: "My proposal is…." only to get cut off from my digital cellphone me: "Excuse me" I went to the corner to answer my digital cellphone me: "Hello?" Count Duckula: "Stacy? its Neko…."

everything was silent for a few moments knowing that it's time I hung up my digital cellphone me: "I got to go something came up!" while walking around everyone were concern of my reaction me: "Will discuss this later but for now this must be quiet from Charlie she must never know this please everything must be kept secret!" Angel Dust: "Sure thing will keep this between us and discuss on what business you want from the 3 of us" me: "Thank you" I open the portal and went inside the King Of Hell, the Overlord Radio Demon, and the 2 sinners stood in the guest room in worry and what is happening when Lucifer notice something Lucifer: "Uh Sir Pentious you got something on your forehead" Sir Pentious: "I do where?" looking at the mirror seeing the word in blood move in japanese 動く disappearing from his forehead Sir Pentious: "Huh must be one of her magic that she use" I'm at home seeing Neko just lying there on the couch I put her in the carrying case and let Gambit and Buneary see her one last time then taking her to the Danvers Animal Hospital Count Duckula and I went to a special room where they euthanized them placing her on the table with a blanket I started crying playing sad music from my cellphone of "Here Comes Garfield So Long Old Friend song" to "Family Guy Brian's death theme" giving her lots of loving kisses and hugs he hug behind me sadden at seeing me like this me: "She didn't meow when taking her here" Count Duckula hug me tighter hearing me cry in so much pain Count Duckula: "She knows that you've giving her a wonderful and loving life and she'll always have a place in your heart and she love you" the vets came in veterinarian: "Are we ready?" I nodded as they gave her a shot so she doesn't feel pain the other shot to put her to sleep I went to the sink grabbing the tissue box to clean my nose from running the vets gave their sorry after checking her heart it stop she's gone covering her in a blanket they carry her out as me and Count Duckula left the room carrying the empty carrying case I see all my B.F.F'S at the waiting room they all gave me a group hug Joey, Marky, and Dee Dee on my shoulders hugging my soaked cheeks Krumm: "Where are they taking her now?" I tried to explain while crying

me: "She's going to get cremated just had to pick out an urn and what to put for the engraving" I broke down crying out for Neko Jack Skellington: "It's okay Stacy we're here" me: "My baby! Mommy loves you Neko!" before I went home they told me if I need help they'll be there to help me from this grief I'm at home placing the carrying case down Gambit looked around knowing that she's not in it in the middle of the night I couldn't sleep Gambit stay with me for a bit then left my room I open the portal to the Top Villains Hotel to grab a snack of candy as I'm walking up the stairs and down the hallway all the egg boiz's and watchdogs saw me egg boi #31: "What are you doing up so late Stacy?" me: "Just couldn't sleep thought I grab some chocolate here" Jerry: "Why are your eyes red?" noticing this I had to be sure of something me: "I can't let my masters see me like this if they knew about it I'll never hear the end of this" egg boi #70: "We won't tell anyone about this" Andy: "We promise" I told them about Neko's passing they're all sad at hearing this sad news Greg: "Oh Stacy we're all so sorry to hear that" egg boi #11: "She knows that you'll never replace her" Bob: "And that she'll be proud that you'll give other animals a second chance in a loving home" egg boi #28: "You're the best mommy they ever had" I cried quietly trying my best not to be loud me: "(crying quietly) I miss her my baby Neko!" they all had me at their level giving me hugs they kept on hugging me as they too started to tears up me: "(crying quietly) Come on I can't be seen like this!" little did I know while I'm crying Sir Pentious was at the corner of the hallway hearing this Sir Pentious speaking quietly: "So that's why you're scare and afraid it's because you don't want to loose me but at the same time you had to let go someone else now I understand" after drying my tears and ate the candy the watchdogs and egg boiz's went back to their room I thought I check up on Sir Pentious again so I knock at his suite door he open and saw me Sir Pentious: "Well hello Stacy can't sleep?" me: "Yeah thought I come by again to see how're doing giving you a new life after soul splitting you leaving the fake part behind" Sir Pentious: "I'm doing well care to join me in watching a movie?"

me: "I would like that thank you" being a gentlenagasnake he let me in as we sat on the couch he put on the movie "Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs" at the scene where Scratch and Scratte nose kiss at the volcanic cliff Sir Pentious decided to fool around ask me Sir Pentious: "Where you thinking of this music as me and Miss Cherri Bomb kiss under the passion of explosion?" embarrassingly I admitted me: "(anime sigh) Yes I was thinking of that when you 2 kissed (under my breath angrily) you had to bring that up" he giggle Sir Pentious: "I know I just enjoy your reaction of your sinful feelings for me" he place his claw finger under my chin to make me looked at him Sir Pentious: "It's cute" I gently push him aside blushing crazy me: "Come on Master Sir Pentious it's been a rough day is already bad enough as it is" we continue watching the movie me: "I still can't believe this you and Cherri Bomb enemies to lovers didn't see that coming even for me!" he nudge my shoulder playfully Sir Pentious: "Totally caught you by surprise doesn't it" I sigh to myself he's been looking at me knowing that I still feel bad of taking him away from her he had to accept of never seeing Cherri Bomb but grateful that I was there first for him it's been hard for me along with the loss of my baby Neko after the movie is over he put in another one "Wallace & Gromit A Close Shave" at the scene where Wallace is reading the papers of accusing Gromit and Gromit in jail the music hit me badly tears started to come out and almost started crying me: "Fuck come on not now not here!" when he saw me in that state he was sadden at what he witness at the hallway his coils wrap around me and embrace me I made an anime huh? noise Sir Pentious: "It's okay I heard about what happen in the hallway I understand why you're sad and afraid of loosen anyone here you have my condolences" I hugged him back thanking him for giving me comfort Sir Pentious: "Let it all out you have my word" I sniff staggering a word

me: "If you dare tell anyone here about my emotions I'll be hearing no end to this" he reassure me resting his head on top of mine Sir Pentious: "Of course my poor sensitive rabbit of course" we stayed like that all night on the couch as the movie continues this is going to be a rough year

In Loving Memory Of Neko

December 15, 2010- February 2, 2024

[oogaboogaspookyman]

If you are asking genuinely what Jimmy Mouthwashing did;

He raped a character called Anya, this rape resulting in pregnancy, I believe there was implied drugging or he at least forced his way into her room as the Tulpar bedrooms didn't have locks (Prior to this he would intentionally make her uncomfortable during the mental evals by telling her things like "I've become sexually aroused at the sight of cartoon horses" their mascot Polly is a horse and this leads into a lot of horse fetal imagery)

When he found out she was pregnant it was heavily implied he went to find the gun case to get the gun to kill Anya so he wouldn't have to take responsibility for the crime he committed against her when their mission ended

Upon realising the gun case and subsequent gun was missing and the axe was in the possession of a character called Swansea (and realising that they were being made redundant as soon as their shipment was complete and he would lose his job and Anya would've had the baby by the time they came back) he proceeded to steer the ship into a meteor shower/band cluster thing to just kill all of them since he couldn't just kill the problem that was Anya and his life would've probably been over once they got back to earth either arrested or unable to find new work, if his life is over all their lives are over

Proceeded to take over as acting captain and just make everything worse

Lied and claimed it was Curly who made them nearly crash into the meteors when it was in fact Curly who tried to save them from dying resulting in the ship crashing but nobody dying but Curly was severely injured in the process

Curly could not speak or refute this after the fact so Curly got the blame from the crew, despite having third degree burns all over his body having lost his hands and lower legs and an eye and being in agonising pain Jimmy kept him alive which was arguably incredibly inhumane because if Curly died he'd likely have to start taking full responsibility but with Curly still alive he can keep the narrative of well it's his fault and he'll pay for this at the end. Looks worse to put the blame on a dead captain than a living one probably

Continued to belittle Anya the nurse who kept Curly alive because she couldnt give Curly his pills complaining that he has to 'do everything' despite demanding to be captain with curly injured (a lot of people think the act of giving curly his pills being too much for her due to pregnancy nausea and the similarity of loss of anatomy from her rape and thus she didn't want to be in that position of power over curly as it was too familiar and triggering)

At one point he beat the injured incapacitated Curly after giving him his pills to get his frustrations out you can hear in the cutscene curly being beaten and crying (did I mention Curly was Jimmy's friend? And the reason he even had the job? So Jimmy was blame shifting villainising inhumanely keeping alive and now beating someone who he had presumably saw as a friend or at least curly saw him as a friend taking advantage of curlys passive nature)

Gives Swansea a drugged cocktail to knock him out and manipulates Daisuke (an intern apprentice on the Tulpar who was basically a child(I don't know his age but he's like obviously not an adult)) into climbing into a dangerous vent system to get to the medical bay because he didn't dare do it himself resulting in Daisuke becoming badly injured

The drugged cocktail he gave Swansea had the last of the medical alcohol in, so to try and treat Daisukes wounds he poured mouthwash on him (the sugar content too high to act as disinfectant) leaving Daisuke in agony, Swansea who had been mentoring Daisuke had to deal the mercy kill

I think it's heavily implied he continued to physically torment and torture curly cutting off body parts after all the other crew members were dead (Anya suicide from overdose on pills presumably to kill the fetus but also died in the process, Daisuke by the mercy kill from Swansea and then Swansea being shot by Jimmy)

Left Curly in the last cryostasis pod after all this where in 20 years time he might wake up still trapped on the Tulpar, never found, still in agony from all his wounds where he would slowly starve to death or rot if his wounds become infected taking himself off screen and killing himself to 'fix it'

Basically because of Jimmy and his actions lack of taking responsibility while also demanding expecting respect and power everyone either dies or is left in a horrific state (tho there is nuance with the fact Curly was told about the rape and did nothing because Jimmy was his friend, Swansea presumably was told and also did nothing, the company being cheap and cutting corners resulting in hardships and the subsequent shutting down of the business would've left them all a bit fucked and likely contributed to Jimmy saying fuck it we all Dying, with Jimmy only knowing of this because Curly spilled the beans too early having read the transmission but was only meant to tell them closer to end of shipment but like for the most part Jimmy is to blame fuck Jimmy all my homies hate Jimmy but there was also other factors)

Okay yeah fUCK JIMMY JESUS CHRIST

[bjornolf-bjarki]

Revamped Sigurd reference sheet(Hellsing AU Lore bits included) Mature content ahead btw

Name(s) of character and explanations:

1: Sigurd Fenryka Magnusson (primary full name given by his father Petr Odayev Aleksander, nicknamed Magnus, and his uncle Wayland Gunther)

2: Constantine Valdorius Pendraco (Secondary full name given by his mother Irene Adriana Pendraco and grandfather Anarawd Pendraco)

The reason for his two full names is that it's a Welsh cultural (at least for my au) norm for families/clans to name their child with two full names to confirm their union in a marriage once it bears a child, thus unifying the two families together.

Art Credit: @v4nt4bl4ck On tumblr as name is shown)

and this one from @cry-ptidd

Classification: Thor Class Supersoldier, Psychically gifted individual.

Species: Human, infected with a curse from a Varcolac (Werewolf/vampire hybrid creature)

Condition and medical treatments: Undiagnosed ADD/Autism, treated Rage addiction, werewolf/vampire hybrid curse with wolfsbane pills and UV light treatment to keep the beast(s) at bay, and a fully enacted super soldier implantations and treatments to help his body grow into the curse so his body wouldn't be ripped apart by physical mutation and enhanced growth.

Age: in 1999 he'd be 20 years old, birth date is January 7th, 1979.

Gender: Male (amab) pronouns being he/him. He's pretty comfortable with how he was born but he does have some oddities he's got in this sort of identity he's got.

Sexuality and Kinks: Considered himself straight for most of his life but realized he was Pansexual/Bisexual when one of his best friends came out to him and they started dating for a little while. He's discovering more about himself each day in that department, especially since he's a confident switch in the dynamics.

NSFT part: He's got a breeding kink, some light bdsm, brat taming, competitive sex, fight play, biting kink, exhibitionism, and other loosely tied kinks as well.

Voice claim: Aiden Caldwell from Dying Light 2

Scars/body details: Incredibly chiseled and well muscled due to genetic modification, scars all over from scratches, deep cuts, stabs, gunshot wounds, notable scars on his face over his right eye and two parallel cut scars diagonally rising from his jaw to his nose, and a large bite wound at his side. He is also covered in Norse-style tattoo at the front of his body to help keep his powers in check and as a retelling of his life story since the 5 years of war beginning in 1994 after what he thought to be a temporary vacation when he met his first love Seras Victoria and was with her for a month while she was in the orphanage. Then he continued the rest of his trip with his older brothers to a huge medieval-themed festival in Kosovo and all the way to his oaths to avenge his oldest brother Joshua. Only for them to be dragged into the grim plans of millennium's schemes for their war against Alucard, England, and then the world. Years of conflict and loss painted his body with not just scars but with tattoos as well. Each rune recounted atoning for old shames and liberating lost lands from vampire hordes spurned on by rebellions in the Balkans. These things are how he bares his soul to those who truly begin to know him. He also has a wedding ring on his finger, though he won't talk much about it to anyone.

Personality: Strangely positive, yet still marked by a deep determination fueled by his grim past. He's also remarkably calm under most pressure he faces. He also feels very strongly about injustices against people and will vocally stand up for more vulnerable, oppressed people since he is deeply anti-authoritarian. He's also very gentle with most people since he still has a hard time gauging his own strength in some moments. He's also a massive adrenaline junkie too, often doing things like parkour in Urban environments if bored enough or maybe something like hunting dangerous games with minimal equipment in rural areas. He's overall a very casual, fun person to be around like Pip would be in Hellsing. Though, with people who would be his sexual/romantic partners, he is much more sensual in his mannerisms. For a morally grey-ish character, he's turned out better than most of the other characters in the Hellsing universe as a whole.

Powers/abilities: He's not only stupidly strong since he's a super soldier but he also has some psychic abilities. One is that he can instill panic/general emotional distress into people around him. It's almost like a full-power sonar blasted in a general area or directly aimed at a spot and you're underwater when it happens as a diver. It's not just loud, it's disorientating, literally to the point you get sick or possibly even die underwater from drowning. Sigurd's powers of course aren't exactly like that, but it's just a heavy, smothering presence in the air that makes you feel like walls are closing in around you. He's caused people to have heart attacks before at its worst. So not only can he bench press a whole-ass black bear and leg press one too, but he would also scare you half to death by getting a little frustrated at you. So he's had to really tone himself back from his angrier past. Another ability he has is being able to communicate to most animals due to his curse.

Professions: To put it bluntly this guy would put the famous doctor, surgeon, therapist, plumber, professor, mechanic, pizza delivery guy, etc Johnny Sins look like a chump. Sigurd's been a commander of entire armies before and more than that too. But he's also had a very humble background in more working-class jobs like being a butcher, factory worker, and construction worker, even tried working in fast food but quit after a week when calling a rude customer a "rambunctious hoe" and slapping his boss across the face for being a dick about it. He's also been a mercenary before for a short period of time during the beginning of the war he was in. He was also a sex worker of sorts after his 19th birthday. So yeah he's had a wild time. Finally, he's found a new job with Hellsing after a war in Italy when Alucard fought him to a near stalemate until Sigurd ran out of steam and surrendered after sending his soldiers away. And instead of being executed, he was spared to recruit him and see what he could do.

(more might be added soon since I posted this at 2:45 am or whenever, kinda going stir crazy)

[drjohannn]

Name: Matryona Timofeevna Grigorieva Weapon name: The Saint EGO: The upper room Details: Pacifism, Strange Disease, Chronic Psychotrauma Age: 45 Height: 172 cm Marital Status: Widow (not exact information) Biography: Born in the Backstreets, the oldest of four daughters. Since she was a babysitter for her younger sisters, she was neglected by her parents until the very end and entered the world of adulthood quite poor. Working part-time wherever she could, she starts working on opening a Uniform Workshop. At the same time she meets Faddey and Efim, two brothers who worked as Adjusters. Matryona falls in love with Faddey and even wants to marry him, but he is sent into a fierce battle from which he does not return. Believing that he is dead, Efim proposes to Matryona to marry him. At the wedding, Faddey still appears and threatens the newlyweds, after which he leaves for another Matryona. Nevertheless, he does not interrupt his relationship with his brother. Matryona and Efim themselves began to live in peace, even if they did not love each other much: they did not fight, did not beat each other, but also did not bestow signs of attention. Soon they become parents, the woman's pregnancy passes easily, but the child dies at the age of three months. Matryona is very hard to cope with the loss, because of which Faddey offers to help them - he hands Efim pills, saying that they are vitamins. Each subsequent pregnancy was given to the woman more and more difficult, and the sixth almost ended in Matryona's death. Soon Efim cannot bear the guilt and goes into battle, from which he does not return home, although there is a rumour among the neighbours that he has gone to another. Continuing to maintain the Workshop alone, Matryona asks Faddey's wife to give her a child to raise. Thus she has an adopted daughter, Kira, to whom Matryona bequeaths her Workshop and house in the future, causing a hunt for her life among her younger sisters and Faddey. In order not to put her daughter in danger, she gives the will to the strongest fighter of the Workshop and leaves with a mysterious lady in the company Limbus. Character: Matryona is the kindest and most sympathetic of the crew. She has nothing behind her soul and simply does not know how to lie. All her intentions are distinguished by a special care for others, and the guys themselves see her as a common mother. Even Faddey and Efim she eventually forgives, she does not wish her sisters harm, and the rest gives only love, which in some of the team responds with special warmth, and in some - hatred. Facts: -Matryona developed an unknown disease - she loses consciousness and does not give signs of life up to three days. -For Matryona any manifestations of lust in her direction become the cause of panic attacks. -The subject of children often brings her to tears. -She wonderfully cooks, sews and cares for others, because of which in the crew she unwittingly took the role of "mistress" "number 50". -Source: Aleksandr Isaevich Solzhenitsyn - "Matryona's Yard"