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āG!ā Scar grins as he sees the other approaching his train. He jumps down the ladder, landing with wobbly feet as he makes contact with the ground. āJust the birdie I was looking for!ā
Grian lifts a brow, āOh? What a coincidence. I was looking for you as well.ā His wings flutter and twitch in response, folding neatly against his back. āGot any diamonds to spare?ā
āDonāt tell me youāve run out of diamonds again,ā Scar tuts as he shakes his head in disapproval. Grian grimaces in answer, earning a disappointed sigh from the zoo keeper. āFor shame, sir!ā
āJust be happy Iām not skimming from the top of Ore Mountain again.ā Grian squints at him, crossing his arms over his chest. āCan I borrow a few or what?ā
Scar makes a show of thinking about it, dramatizing his hum and tapping his chin. āYou happen to have amayzinā timing, considering I had something to give you.ā
āOh?ā Grian tilts his head, looking at the other with curiosity. āDo I get the diamonds too?ā
āOh yes, of course, of course!ā Scar joyfully nods, his warm smile not doing a single thing to cover up his salesman voice (as Grian has so lovingly dubbed it). āThis would be an exchange of goods, after all! Itās only fair youāre compensated for your time!ā
Grian stares at him for a second, eyes just shy of a squint. He doesnāt think thereās really an exchange going on, considering heās not giving Scar anything in return; besides his presence, that is. He could point out to Scar that this isnāt an equal trade (barely a trade at all, really), but where would the fun in that be? He kind of wants to see where Scar is going with this.
Plus if he really feels bad about whatever this is, Grian can always find some way to repay Scar later.
Wings fluttering against his back, he shrugs. āOkay.ā
āGreat!ā Scar beams at him, clapping his hands together. āAlright, I need you to stay perfectly still, no twitching a single feather, mister! Oh, and close your eyes too!ā he directs the avian, earning an odd look from Grian.
āOā¦kay..?ā Doing as told, Grian closes his eyes, curious. Itās definitely some surprise Scar has for him. But what is it? And why? He hasnāt missed any birthdays or anniversaries, has he? Maybe he can take a little peekā¦ Scar never said anything about keeping his Watcher Eyes closed.
As if reading his thoughts, he hears Scar exclaim, āYes that includes your funky magic eyeballs too, you pesky bird!ā
Drat.
Grian sighs, resolving himself to the agony of waiting patiently. How horrible. Scar should feel terrible for making him wait like this. The build up is killing him! Heās eager with anticipation!
His breath stills as he feels Scarās presence get closer to him. Grian can feel the warmth of his exhales as he releases them, all gentle and soft. Scar makes a few concentrated noises, and Grian can imagine the way his tongue pokes out from his mouth just slightly. He waits before feeling something being carefully set on his head, gentle palms combing through his hair. The feeling is followed by soft lips against his nose, as well as a little laugh as he scrunches his face.
āOkay, now open your eyes!ā
Grian squints against the sunlight as his eyes open again, having to blink a few times before he looks at Scar in front of him. It takes him a second to notice anything different, setting a hand on top of his hair as he looks at the zoo keeper. He feels soft petals under his fingers, and finds that Scar has a crown made of sunflowers nestled in his hair. āFlower crowns?ā he asks, confused.
āI made us matching ones!ā Scar exclaims, his smile growing impossibly larger. āSee I got the idea from Pearl after talking with her about doing a gift shop for the zooābecause you canāt have a zoo and no gift shop, thatās criminal!ā and then bayum, it hit me! Iāll sell flower crowns as one of the items since Iāve got sniffers!ā He gestures with his hands as he speaks, and Grian is captured by every word from the brilliant man. āI donāt even have a single enclosure of the zoo done yet but oh Grian I got so inspired, I had to do something with the idea!ā
Grian canāt help his fond look as he sets a hand on his hip. āSo you made some flower crowns?ā
Scar eagerly nods, āYup! I made them with you in mind soā¦ who better to share the first try with than my pretty bird?ā
The feathers on Grianās wings fluff up at that. āYouāve got to be the biggest sap I know,ā he sighs, although he finds the gesture incredibly sweet. āThough I have to ask, how is this an exchange? Iām not giving you anything.ā
āSure you are,ā Scar argues, turning to set down his ender chest. āI get customer feedback and a free excuse to see you smile!ā He looks at Grian, pleased, before ducking down to dig into his ender chest.
Grian decides right then and there that heās going to kiss this man silly. Then heās going to properly repay him.
(And if Grian leaves him a small arrangement of flowers on top of the shulker box of sniffer eggs? Well. Scar knows exactly who theyāre from.)
#mochi writes#scarian#hermitshipping#found this sitting in my drafts and just HAD to finish it#look at me posting writing again :D#soft scarian for the soul <3#theyāre in love your honor
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I've been doing a lot of reflection as of late, especially after this past class.
This past class was about the Torah and Tanakh in general, and the way the rabbi talked about the commandments (specifically the ten commandments) has made me really reflect on how I interpret them, specifically the fifth commandment, or honoring your mother and father.
This is a commandment I have wrestled with for a long time - in fact, it brought me away from g-d at multiple times. I was severely abused when I was incredibly young by my mother, and I used to feel insulted at the implication that I were to honor her while she got to live a better life. It was hypocritical, in my eyes.
But this rabbi surmised that this particular commandment was because parenthood is an act of creation, something that is like the g-d from which we come from. My realization is this: I don't think we're necessarily meant to take even these commandments literally.
I this particular commandment is more of a call to honor creation - creation is a gift, and like any gift, many people simply will not like it and will discard it. The person who abused me created me, but she did not honor creation. She didn't honor me, but I can still honor it.
I have started to honor creation much more. I'm too young, too unstable, not mature enough to be a father (though I fantasize about it), but I create all the time. I create relationships, I create with my hands through crochet. I create memories, I create my world. And I can honor who I am and where I came from that made me who I am. I've been learning one of the mother tongues of my family (Italian, since part of my family originates there) and it was judaism that inspired me to do this.
I don't think g-d wants me to honor my abuser. I think He wants me to remember the Holy action of creation. When I am a father, that act of creation will be Holy, and indeed, I am already joyful about the thought.
I have seen many people struggle with this particular commandment, but I think this perspective helps me personally. I don't think I ever have to forgive my abusers (plural), and I don't think I am commanded to simply because they happened to be family. I am commanded to recognize the holy, to elevate the mundane. In doing so, I will remember g-d. Through creation, I honor g-d and everything he has done for us, for me, and for our collective people.
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#personal thoughts tag#abuse tw#i am not sharing this for the sake of pity and i also ask not to be told to divulge my abuse story. that isn't relevant#i have been needing to engage with this topic for a long time though and judaism has helped me a bit in navigating healing#but i decided to share this publicly in the hopes it will help other survivors specifically of familial/parental abuse#i know how it feels (in general). it's so lonely and you can really harbor (understandable) baggage about this particular commandment#i have a meeting with My Rabbi (sponsoring rabbi) and i might bring this up. we've only spoken once face-to-face (zoom)#so that might be really Intense to bring up to him but he is very kind and i trust him (which is why he is My Rabbi)#and he has already told me that he WANTS me to wrestle with g-d and His word *with* him#again i am posting this publicly so i can document my thoughts and keep them straight but also with the hope it MIGHT help others#if it even *casually* inspires another survivor i will feel so grateful (though it is THEIR achievement and not mine to claim)#i want us to survive. i want us to eat well. i want us to smile#i will say that this must be a very sudden whiplash in tone from my last post about sex. from sex to awful horrific abuse#my stream of consciousness is just Like This though in the sense that i have very sudden realizations and tonal whiplashes#so you're just getting a very frank look into how my brain is structured and what my brain thinks are important enough to think about#if i seem much more verbose it's because i needed to write this on my laptop which makes typing and more importantly yapping even *easier*
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Lights, Camera, Sing Your Sins Archive š„
This is just so I can reference au things and keep details organized lol, I'll edit this post and try to keep it updated
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Original Art (by waivyjellyfish)
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Song Ask
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Scripted Harm Ask 1
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Scripted Harm Drabble
Movie Night Ask 1
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Cover Song Ask 1
Cover Song Ask 2
Misc Thoughts Ask
MV Es Ask
Es/Jailbreak Team Ask 1
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Kazui Makeup Ask
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Yuno fic "Fell and Found Out" (by amugoffandoms)
Order of Attack AU Drabble
#thank you everyone for such incredible ideas#i never get this deep into aus so its been a ton of to collaborate on so many ideas and details :D#but i also realized the posts were getting spread out and i wanted a quick way to find things given my challenged memory š
#there were a few other posts just having fun chatting :) i didnt forget about them -- i was just collecting info-related ones#i almost dont feel as bad for not writing more fic looking at all the extra stuff i have here lol#and once again if you make au content you are morally obligated to tell me so I can SEE >:3#lights camera sing your sins#milgram
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Read a Twitter thread a few days ago how Katsuki, Izuku and Tomura are meant to be the pillars of hope and change for hero society (by Kikibats, go check her out, the thread is her pinned tweet), and that got me thinking about Tomura's birth name, so I looked up the kanji for his name (åæę č»¢å¼§, for those curious), and I wanted to share.
(someone probably already did make this connection and worded it better but screw it we bail let's go-)
Kikibats' thread has mentioned what "Shimura" could have originally meant In-Universe, especially "Mura", so it's about a paragraph short, because I'm writing what it could mean in the story as it is (again, In-Universe):
So from the name Shimura Tenko, we have:
Shi (åæ):
"Determination, ambition, intent", which Tenko does have, arguably even more than Izuku has (I mean, running around barely sleeping while facing Gigantomachia for three months? spending four months in a tube and resurrecting by sheer anger?), but ambitious is after realizing his convictions and intends to carry on the League's. It can also refer to āwillā as in willpower, the one trait AFO doesn't have, and the reason he was selected as his vessel.
Mura (ę):
Mentioned in her thread, but "Village", could be an ironic spin on āit takes a village to raise a childā, since after his family's death no one was willing to take him in, and the one who did only did so to groom him into a monster. It could also refer to a heroic trait he has (yes, even as he was annoyed at Toya and Himiko when he first met them): taking people in when he thinks they're lonely, have been rejected, wronged by society and wanting to carry on their convictions, which leads to:
Ten (č»¢):
a verb; "to shift", and sure enough, he's the one who created the Vanguard Action Squad with the purpose of kidnapping Katsuki, setting off the Kamino Incident and shifting the status quo of society. You could argue he has been since the USJ but no one really feared him until Stain came along. Tomura is also one of the characters whose goals and motivations develop the most through the story.
It can also mean "to turn", from changed from the sweet kid who wanted to play heroes with his friends, to a symbol of fear. And physically, he's the willing participant in Dr. Garaki's body experimentation and his body is constantly shapeshifted depending on his (and AFO's) mental state.
Finally, āKoā (弧):
The kanji for āarcā, which is admittedly very vague and it could mean nothing, but.
It could refer to the arc he goes through.
From a kid playing with those others ignored who wanted to be a hero, to being groomed into the Symbol of Evil('s puppet), which eventually unravels once he becomes powerful enough to fight Izuku, resulting in the reveal that in spite of all what heās been through, heās still that kid willing to extend his hand (well, in a metaphorical way) for those who want/need someone to rely on. Someone who wants to be the LoV's hero.
Not quite a full circle, but still not too far off from his beginning.
A bonus point, since we (readers and watchers who like to read the raws/watch subbed anime) use "Ko" we usually think of "å" as in komodo, the kanji for "kid", this one abandoned by a complacent village. And remember since Izuku wants to offer him a hand, a crying lonely child in need of a hero. With AFO taking control of him, while Izuku (and most of Class 1-A) trying to save him, wouldn't it be neat to see Tomura choosing to take Izuku's hand, especially someone whose identity was forcefully defined by a touch of death?
Not quite the same innocent kid, but still the kid who wanted to be a hero for those left behind.
Would be fitting for this arc to come full circle, wouldn't it?
#Boku No Hero Academia#BNHA Spoilers#MHA Spoilers#Shigaraki Tomura#Shimura Tenko#spider.posts#Again check out Kikibats' thread on TWT it's a very fun read#idk what compelled me to see Tenko's kanji today but ykw I don't regret it. I might see what are the other character's later#also I looked up on the wiki to see if I got the correct kanji. fun fact: ''Shigaraki'' is literally death grip's tree funeral#''ki'' is tree and the kanji is in Yagi Toshinori's name just his is read as ''gi''. now I wanna write parallels and foils they share#makes me wonder even more why don't we see more sweet and angsty fics with Toshinori and Tomura are right there#screw DFO I wanna see the other side that is Toshinori adopting the hell out of Tomura more than ever-#i'm going off topic so Imma wrap up the tags#thank you for reading this post. have a nice one! :D
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#applying to jobs that are way out of my league/paygrade/level but idgaf i need MONEY i wanna attain it#hopefully i can start doing that next week/mid next week#need to update my resume & apply š#iām also genuinely. so drained from these past few weeks i donāt even have the energy to write posts/read simple stories or read fics šŖ#hopefully EVENTUALLY i can do that#i donāt like being in this Slump it makes me MAD#grrrrrrr snarl hiss bark#so i fear i may not be on here as much until the Drainingness goes away </3#BUT ALSO#tbh. may have to sign back into my armytwt acct again i havenāt been on since summer of 23#but jin is coming back soon so :3#AHHHHHHHH i hope things look up! i hope i get whatever i apply for and be blessed w lots of money & opportunities#we shall seeeeeeeee :3 hope everything is going amazingly for everyone! i hope everything works out in your favor @ anyone who sees this!#MWAH! :D#another also. enjoy the taechwita gif itās one of my FAVS.#personal
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I'm a c!Tommy fan and didn't mind your aspd c!Tommy post. I don't think it was ableist. I don't exactly agree with it either though but you have a right to say it and not get talked about behind your back. I'm sorry that happened. I would probably send an ask about my interpretation in the distant future once all this has calmed down and the abundance of c!Tommy asks have stopped š
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I really appreciate you saying that. :) Iām glad I havenāt pissed everyone off lol, whether you agree or donāt, or like c!Tommy or don't. I mean I personally don't think it's really right to talk badly about people behind their back anyways, but it certainly does feel a little unreasonable to call me dumb, crazy and delusional without even trying to have a conversation with me. What's sad is that there are points to be made and would have been interesting to discuss like an alternative diagnosis or looking more at the diagnosing criteria. Like this is not a hill I would die on, it's not my favorite analysis or take, it's just an opinion and viewpoint I shared with reasons why, the context of which was actually countering the argument of people calling c!Dream a psychopath.
And while I'm at it, I would like to note a few things. In the essay I didn't even call c!Tommy evil or ASPD evil, and I have tried to be very clear that by no means do I believe c!Tommy deserved to be abused in Exile or any other time. And in regards to the alignment chart, I really disliked that analysis anyways. It just doesn't really work. It's a simplified tool for dnd to help people stay to character, but how do you decide what is good, lawful, and evil in a story where, as I have talked about so many times, there is no true system of laws or government, and no widely accepted bounds of morality... So just to be clear, I will reiterate - no one deserves abuse, I do not think c!Tommy is "evil" or the "Bad guy" and I do not think there is a dsmp character who is. And while it may seem like I have a vendetta or am targeting c!Tommy specifically, that's just where discussion has lead recently, mostly because of the finale, anons, and also because of noticing how often c!Tommy calls c!Dream a psychopath I thought it was interesting to look at how it might be the other way around...
Also... I guess... I don't know, aren't y'all bored of having the same old discussions and takes on c!Dream, c!Tommy, c!Wilbur, c!Punz, c!Tubbo... etc over and over? Is it not fun to look at things in a different way and say - what if this is true or - that is true and how does that change things? Is it not interesting to take the same story and lore and see if it can be seen still canonically in a different way? I mean, applying diagnosis is never going to fit perfectly, not just because I'm a 23 year old autistic engineer not a psychologist of any kind, but also mostly because we only have a set chaotic few years of them to look at with no past to base on. But beyond that, isn't it fun and interesting to see if it fits, if it provides an explanation for behavior we didn't have before? Is it so wrong of me to try and see if there are fun new ways of looking at lore instead of having detailed ships and aus?...
Anyways sorry, I may have gotten carried away there, it has been a long Monday. Regardless, it is a shame that it ruined the chance for actual exciting productive conversation and discussion to happen, because I can't say I am not curious on your interpretation. Guess we will just circle back around to it (it seems to be inevitable at his point lol) <3 <3 <3
#I look forward to reading what you have cooked up when I can stand to talk about tommy again <3#hello there#(yea I may have made the mistake in reading what they said and now broke my vary own rule oops... in fairness I'm defending my honor not#writing an essay so it's different...... sorry)#crumbs#technically just to be clearly legally ASPD is not considered a disability so Iām pretty sure I canāt be ableist about it regardlessā¦.#like come on are we really to the point of calling people with actual multiple disabilities ableist because I showed how a character meets#the criteria of sociopathy?ā¦#I feel like thats a bit far. Though I am genuinely sorry to have made anyone feel discriminated#against or hurt by what I saidā¦ your feelings are valid even if the accusation is unfitting <3 <3#clarifications#oh I'm a she and her btw. Not a guy#just to be clear so the least you can do while shiting on me behind my back would be to use the proper#pronouns I have listed right at the top ;) thanks......#(and yea I wondered if those other posts might be about me ... but I wrongly assumed you'd come talk to me like a person...#ha guess I am not always right after all ;D...)#you know what's the oddest thing of all here is how c!tommy is just a character while I am a living breathing person behind a keyboard#who does feel things and can get hurt when people bad mouth me behind my back...
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Miss you! Works kicking my ass but you're loved and missed. Well maybe not the elf but I still š¤£š¤£
[ ** hugs you ** ;O;// <5 I miss you too! Cue the battle music as we ride to face work. Hope you get some time to chill out soon. Sending you love and strength!! Also we are noting you said "maybe" so we will take that as Nnoitra growing on him u v u // . ]
#gildinbainas#[ aaa this was super sweet thank you t-t <5 ]#[ really made me smile a lot! ]#[ looking forward to when we can write together again :D <5 ]#[ in the meantime take care of yourself!! ]#toby post. ā± out of character.#saved.
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Hm ok what's your favorite or a really cool worlbuilding thing you've done? For any fandom or original or even an unimplemented idea
Hmm well at least in the past decade, my big worldbuilding projects have mostly come down to three-ish stories: Other Side of the Gun, Adventures of GƦilo and Ethon, and Just Desserts
OSG was an Invader ZiM fancomic concept I started around 2013 to justify every single Irken headcanon I ever came up with lol - I never finished it, or even really started it, but I put a lot of time and energy into its roughs back in the day :)
^A stick figure recap of Ch. 1, inspired by - what else - the Vargas stick figure recaps lol
One that you can see over here is all the work I did for my DnD campaign, AGE! (Though its sideblog hasn't been updated in a while haha - the AGE tag over here works just as well) I basically homebrewed a pantheon and had an absolute blast designing all the gods and their forms before they became gods and even things like architectural differences in their churches and the BBEG and his motivations and just ah <3 Such a fun project :D
It also laid the groundwork for things like Pokemon Homestyle, specifically all my papercrafts! You can really see how I leveled up haha
And my latest has been Just Desserts! Even with less time under its belt, it's still pretty expansive, as evidenced by my icon and theme and the backlog lol, and it's the one I have the most AUs of! (Though OSG does come close actually haha) There are still some thorny details I'm trying to iron out, especially to do with the magic system, but all the characters and creatures and the fact that I made my own fighting minigame, ah, pleased! I've never been so happy with a sona before Charm! ā„ From the very beginning it's been so fun to work on and I still want to improve!
#Long post#There have been others of course - things like BunBonBop and TMatM and quite a handful of original species lol#I was also involved in an IZRP that got very in depth which is where Bar comes from actually!#As well as my brief stint into being a TGWDLM askblog lol soz to everyone over there ouq#And little stories like Karera no Kotogara and Yanderapy but those mostly set in cartoon-reality y'know?#No magic or sci fi there haha#Man looking back through the OSG stuff kinda makes me wanna unstore Ch. 0 - I've grown a lot since then!#To the point where it almost doesn't feel ''mine'' anymore haha - it has been almost ten years! Maybe to celebrate its anniversary :)#Also yeah if you look hard enough I've been in love with and inspired by Vargas for as long as I've known about it haha#AGE was so much fun <3 I would like to get back to it someday but picking back up after so long is hard!#I still hold all of them fondly of course ā„ Mar especially since they were the tipping point for me loving spiders :D#It's hard to believe Just Desserts is already four years deep! It still feels so new to me haha#I know I big up Charm and her design a lot lol but for me it really is exactly what I want <3 It's my perfect :)#I still really want to get into 3D modeling to make her as I originally envisioned her!#If I had the funds I'd absolutely commission someone but tbh I don't know many names on that side of art haha#I've also heard about people who give advice/brainstorming sessions for magic systems and I've been intrigued ever since :0#I'd love to sit down with someone and hash out Exactly how their magic works! It feels like it just needs a few more pushes!#Then again that's what I said about the TVAU outfits too haha āŖ Maybe it would all fall into place!#To the base question tho: I never know how to qualify ''implemented'' - does just putting it out there as a concept count?#Writing a story? Making a comic? A series? Polished? Completed?? Where's the line haha#I'm always so full of ideas but focusing on anything long enough to make it ''pretty'' is so hard for me still#I just keep creating never stopping haha
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i had some thoughts about this kinda idea before but it came to me again last night ā i often think about how hard life gets for yuna after she becomes high summoner. living in spira as a popular religious figure just intensifies the process of trying to live your days with trauma you cannot ever fully process + forming bonds that are meaningful / do not feel false because even in x-2 new yevon ( or the youth league ) tried to take advantage of that, for example ( seeking her as approval to gain spira's general appreciation, trying an arranged marriage between the high summoner + the praetor and whatnot ). everyone would want the approval of the high summoner, and thus it becomes basically impossible for yuna to do things that go under the radar. i think people in spira need a long time to learn what it is like to live life without sin, and so falling into the old habits is very effective, especially when they've been perpetuated for decades. i have this idea that they would easily try to see meaning behind anything yuna were to do, because of her influential status as a) braska's daughter, b) a high summoner, c) the only living high summoner, and the list could go on with other features such as two times saviour, seymour's widow possibly having some influence on it as well for the most old yevonites / guados? all of that has meaning in front of the eyes of the believers ā i mean, all of spira, really.
my thought is that yuna is not naive the way she was, and now knows the way of her world, and especially knows that everyone is selfish in their own pursuits to some degree. so i've mentioned before how over time she tends to close in itself and as a result not speak much anymore / freely as she once did, part of the reason i would say is because she knows she needs to weight her words now; she would freely express herself in her entirety before, when she knew her life had a deadline and that her words would be used perhaps to do good once she was gone, but now that she's the first of a long series of sacrificial high summoners she does not know who to look back to for an example to follow, and she is setting in stone the end of all summoners who were seen as so high, and she the highest of them all.
i think another expression of that is also her inability to form meaningful new bonds. she's hyper aware of her surroundings and she does not trust anything she's being told / people she meets anymore. she's very attached to the past, but that too brings about too much unresolved trauma that ends up making her more stoic as time passes. she decides to take after her father and what people told her he was like ā ultimately, at heart she will always be the same yuna, but time has consumed all her energy, and distanced herself from the one that would blindly see the good in the world. there is evil in the shadows and she knows she must put an end to all of it, which is also the reason why her body and mind seem to give in as years go by: her biggest fault is taking everything as her own responsibility. high summoners were always seen as saviors, as problem solvers, the shields of spira even literally, and now her internalized issue is that she thinks everything that may cause distress is hers to fix and solve. it's the main streamlined idea as to why i think she suffers the farpane's instability, even though realistically she cannot do anything about it. she knows that only the guado have the tools to maintain it, and yet she feels this need to take it upon herself to "fix" it.
she has shown savior complex a lot of times before, even in canon ( i think x-2 is the prime example. it's presented as a plotline with yuna being "selfish" and trying to live her life in spite of her past, but if you have played through it you know that in the end it's just her going place to place to fix things, taking things upon herself she does not need to ā i mean, vegnagun itself was not something that she should have tasked herself with, even knowing that the crimson squad / new yevon / the youth league was on it way before her she still pursues it, and many more examples in the entirety of the plot honestly ) and i have reason to believe it is so internalized that it seems almost impossible to put a bandaid to it, which is why she takes onto the life long task of studying all of via infinito ( + all the hidden things beneath bevelle and possibly beneath zanarkand ruins tbh, there's no way the same isn't there ) when, truly, her role as spira's savior should have ended long ago.
#meta tag.#honestly i was just thinking that she has a lot of similiarities with ka.tniss ... .#because of the way they view their lives ā u know how kat had to āfakeā her life for the capitol;#i always think the same of yuna. she had to fake or act out some things for sure;#for the sake of spira / of bevelle most probably;#they truly all look up to her in a way that makes it so unhealthy.#it's like spira does not have any guidance anymore and she's the last standing hero ā#spira has this habit of always having to look to someone to know what to do and think esp. yevonites;#sooo oooo yeah i . don't ask me anything about the political and social settings of spira post x i will COMBUST !#me writing long ass meta posts for no reason instead of studying? more likely than u think !#btw trema i hope u d*e ( AGAIN ) !
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Dang.
Resurrection day and cc!Tommyās birthday and a good writing day and getting to spend time with baby cousins?? All on the same day???
#this was a very fun day :D#THE KING IS RISEN!!!!!!! YES!!!!!#listened to Christ And Christ Crucified earlier todayāabsolutely amazing song fantastic just wonderful just incredible one of my favorites#I actually heard it for the first time a year ago exactly! it was during the Easter service my church does :)#but yes amazing song amazing DAY Jesus is ALIVE!!!!#I actually didnāt realize it was Tommyās birthday until today XD#canāt believe heās 19 now oh my gosh :0#hope he had a good day :)#and writing okayokay; this past week has been pretty busy for me so I didnāt have as much time to write as I usually do#which has been a little frustrating#but I ended up writing over 1K words in about an hour (which was surprising sjsvsjdbwksvsi) and it feltā¦ really really good#especially because I worked on two stories that Iāve been stuck with for a while. it was soooo nice to have inspiration for those again#me and a ton of family members all met up today to celebrate easter/hang out#MY BABY COUSINS I GOT TO SPEND TIME WITH THEM šš I LOVE THEM SO MUCH#the youngest wanted me to read him a book (twice!!) and held onto my finger as he looked for plastic eggs outside and he just apsgsiagsskshw#and the oldest wanted me to play with her and she gave me a flower and said it was a BFF flower ššššššš#my heart exploded#I love my baby cousins SO DARN MUCH#but anyway allll this to say: today has been good. really fun and kinda busy but really really good#my post#rambling in tags#I AM FILLED WITH SO MUCH HAPPINESS AND LOVE AND JOY
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good morning!
#honestly it feels nice having venti on my romantic list again#i'll try to post about him a couple times today to officially welcome him back <3#but other than that -- today should be a chill day bc sunday#i've been making progress on exploring the new desert area again (64% total :D)#maybe i'll make more progress today? or at least write another fic?#i really should make a tag for these morning posts#so they're all in one place for me to look back on later ^-^#morning rambles
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kiss it better
in which spencer notices your bruised knees and tries to make it up to you
18+ (fluff, allusions to past intimacy) warnings/tags: gn!reader i believe, reader has bruised knees lol, guess why, implied intimacy, hurt/comfort, sorta implied d/s dynamics maybe?? spencer is so smart and not very smart, but forever my no. 1 cutie pie a/n: why do i love writing about smut like before and after smut way more than i actually like writing smut LOL anyways here is this cause i haven't been posting very much!!! (also ik I said I don't like babe as a pet name but shhh) and GIF :D
āHey,ā you grunt as you flop on the bed in your pajamas, rumpling the neat covers. āPay attention to me.ā
Spencer holds his Sudoku off to the side and watches, eyebrows raised, as you scoot closer, tossing your leg over him. Soon heās abandoning the book and pen on the bedside table in favor of hooking his fingers under your knee and stroking your leg, much to your delight.Ā
āOkay. What kind of attention would you like?ā
You allow him to put his other arm around you and settle your cheek on his shoulder.Ā
āThis is pretty good.ā
āOh,Ā good,ā he says with only a hint of teasing, leaning down slightly to kiss your lips and then the tip of your nose.Ā
When he pulls away you canāt help smiling up at him like a lovestruck idiot. Obviously heās perfect all the time, but in his glasses, with his hair messy, wearing a navy crewneck instead of a button up and tieā¦ heās justā¦ heās just soā¦
Heās just soĀ alarmed?
āHoney, your knee.ā
āMyĀ knee?ā Your own brows furrow and you track his eye line, craning your neck to look down to the blotchy sprawl of purple and red marring your skin. āOh.ā
The pillow is soft under your head where it falls, unconcerned even as Spencer gawps at you, baffled by your nonchalance.Ā
āWhat did youĀ do?ā
You snort.Ā
āWhat didĀ youĀ do, Spencer?ā
Itās cute, the way his lips move as he silently repeats the sentence, trying to discern the meaning of your words.Ā
āWhat do you mean?Ā IĀ didĀ something?ā
āBabe.ā
The knot between his brows has not loosened anyāin fact youāre worried heās going to give himself a headache. Or at least make himself dizzy, with the way his eyes cycle between your own. You try again, covering his anxious hand on the bend of your leg with your own.Ā
āWhen we got back from Penelopeās thing, the other night?ā
Slowly the understanding seeps into his expressionāsoft guilt in his eyes, and a deep red stain in his cheeks. At least his face relaxes.Ā
āOh.ā
God, heās so cute. He canāt hold eye contact, looking down once the shock of embarrassment has faded and swallowing, a little frown twisting his features once more. You reach up, brushing his cheek with a thumb and adjusting his glasses.Ā
āWhatās wrong?ā
The question comes out too smiley, but you canāt help it.Ā
āI hurt you,ā he says, quietly, utterly ashamed. āIām sorry. I didnāt mean to.ā
āI kinda think you did,ā you tease, and Spencer says your name with a serious edge. You try to quit grinning so much. āBaby, itās fine. You didnāt hurt me. Donāt you ever get mysterious bruises?ā
His eyes are wide and honest on yours when he meets them again.Ā
āNo. My iron levels are optimal.ā
Naturally.Ā
āOkay, well, lots of people do. Sometimes I get a bruise and I have no idea what itās from because it never hurt. These,ā you look down, gesturing to your knee, ānever hurt. Itās just what happens when your knees hit the floor.ā
āWell you shouldnāt haveĀ beenĀ on the floor,ā he scolds, countering with a sweet touch on your cheek. āIām never letting you touch the floor ever again.ā
Your shit-eating grin is back and better than ever. āOh, so youāre going to carry me everywhere we go?ā
āIf thatās what it takes. I donāt like seeing you bruised up.ā
āItās okay. I bruised myself doing something I love.ā
At this Spencer rolls his eyes and kisses you once more before gently pushing your leg away and getting out of bed.Ā
āWhere are you going?ā You ask, all smugness gone and more concerned than you ought to be as he flicks the bathroom light on. For a moment you receive no answer, but then he reappears bearing a white tube.Ā
āGive me your legs,ā he says, sitting next to you on the bed. You swing your legs over his lap and watch on in mild interest as he dispenses lotion from the bottle and tosses it aside, carefully rubbing it into the bruised skin. Every few seconds he glances up to gauge your reaction, and though itās definitely tender, you avoid wincing. āYou donāt have to do that. I can tell it hurts.ā
You laugh.Ā
āYeah, well, it didnāt until you started trying toĀ fixĀ it.ā The ointment is pungent and you make a face. āWhat are you rubbing all over me?ā
āThis is vitamin K and Arnica. It will make the bruises go away faster.ā
āAw. You donāt think theyāre pretty on me?ā
He sets the bottle on the nightstand and retrieves the pen heād been doing Sudoku with earlier, uncapping it. Your heart swells as he draws tiny sad faces by the bruises on your knees, glasses slipping down his nose as he focuses intently.Ā
āI always think youāre pretty. I just never want you to be hurt, ever.ā
āAre you done taking care of me now?ā You ask, reaching out for him. The pen joins the bottle and suddenly he has no concern for your bodily health, practically crushing you with a hug. When he speaks itās muffled by your shoulder.Ā
āNever.ā
You hum, nose tickled in his hair and forming a dastardly plan.Ā
āYou could kiss them better.ā
Spencer laughs and presses his lips briefly to your neck.Ā
āI might just do that.ā
#spencer reid fic#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid fanfiction#spencer reid#criminal minds#spencer reid imagine#spencer reid x fem!reader#spencer reid x you#spencer reid one shot#spencer reid x self insert#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds imagine#criminal minds fic
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#ig wouldnt let me post the word whore. coward.#had to blur it.#not happy with this but. again. drew it in a single day. ya know. to see. what i can accomplish. in a day. and to. let go.#sigh.#Kyle. Age 23. Secretary. Loyal Ambassador. And Emissary to Renais. Never learned how to fuckin' write.#c-c fk#fk#WHY DO WAX SEAL STAMPS LOOK SO PH*LL*C#Spent roughly 3 whole entire hours fiddling with the color balance on this one and i still dont like it.#WHATEVER my yt thumbnail.#omg do i have a masoch*sm k*nk?#ive already come to terms with the fact that i have a sir one thanks to d*ck g*mshoe of all ppl -eye roll emoji-#not how i wanted to learn that but it is what it is.#m fk#i just think kyle acts like a fucking idiot in private probably. granted he acts that way in public too . afucking idiot i mean. but like a#different KIND of idiot.#there are multiple. in public its like. jackasss hypocrite idiot. in private its . dumbass idiot.#yes baby yes i'm romantic and jackasss. yes baby yes if u want just kick my ass.#fucking insane to em that i only draw 1 singular character over and over again but im such a bad *rtist he NEVER looks the same. i said#this b4 but like i swear i have to opposite of same face syndrome. i cant fucking draw the same face twice like ive been stuck up on this#for awhile. i abso fucking lutely do not have a consistent artstyle. its all over the goddamn place. its mine. yes. but. its hard to explai#its like. OH i drew that No one else would draw like that. but simultaneously its not consistent in the slightest. yet theres smthn about i#that makes it mine. makes no sense. its kinda wacky idk. i think its just my shapes perhaps? only defining factor. bc im a really bad artis#so i have the flattest shapes imaginable. and then i try and compensate for it by overrendering. and its like. im literally not good at#a single thing in the 'art' process. like everyone has strengths and weaknesses apparently. or so im told... yet ive always felt i neither#excelled in any category NOR was i horridly TERRIBLE at anything per se. im just. painfully average at everything. so naturally#thats how all my art ends up looking collectively. painfully average and mediocre and amateur are how my finished works are.#like its not TERRIBLE i guess. but it's DEFINITELY not GOOD either.#like a jack of all trades. except my name is not jack and im far too disabled to be in a trade. so. not like a jack of all trades at all hu#god i dont shut up do i .
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*dusting off this old blog* Well it's been a while, isn't it?
#hello :D so I've been missing since September- scheduled queue aside#Life was stressing me out and I needed to cool off to focus on wrapping up the year else I'd lose it#then Life got worse by Sep-Oct (y'know. horrible real life events + personal stuff + holy shit I need to learn how to Adult)#forgot my password for a while so I was mostly on Twitter and it was Not Fun (and it still isn't)#and I remembered it by the end of January where I was getting most of my shit together and was mostly on Discord with friends#who were the reason I wasn't completely losing it so if you're reading this. thank you and I love you very much <3#but I missed being on Tumblr and the friends/moots i made. just got nervous to come back here. idk why. brain works in weird ways.#it looks like I'm justifying why I wasn't here and on one hand. yeah it's kind of an update#but it's mostly because I don't like going out and returning like stuff wasn't happening so it's really a me thing so anxiety won't spike#idk if I'm gonna go missing like that again or not but. yeah i'm still alive#(felt good to write that last phrase so maybe *something's* going right in life)#but yeah i think i'm back (not 100% because. Life) and will do a pinned. if you read all of it thank you! :D#okay i'm gonna post this now before my brain decides it's a bad idea-
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a decade ignoring the reader?...suguru please
I KNOWWWW OMFG HEāS SO !!!!! like itās wild bc he doesnāt wanna be around reader BECAUSE he thinks his thoughts about non-sorcerers would be as bad as they were in hs! (in this au, i think he kinda got over it overallā¦ he knows itās stupid to think thereād be a world w/o non-sorcerersā¦ ESP if reader is still aliveā¦ bc reader would absolute decimate suguru & any of his plans had he gone rogue ā another reason why he didnāt go through w his murderous ideals, he knows he wouldāve lost.)
but over time i think he begins to liveā¦ normally? and by the time he takes up his tokyo offer, he thinks enough time has gone by now that he can finally meet reader and not lose his absolute marbles š he doesnāt wanna make a fool of himself/revert back to his old waysā¦ and i think he just has a lot of SHAME with how heā¦ ended things w readerā¦ iāll get more into it in the fic but thatās the gist! a decade really was the amount of time for him to kinda get his shit together and be comfortable enough to exist again & be at a better headspace mentally/emotionally!
#asks#anon#i just hope the timeframe makes sense as i write it#itās linear but iām just wondering how i should go about it when it comes to suguru in kyoto & reader in tokyo#that part might be shorter but i mainly wanna focus on pre-leaving & post-coming back!#mind you that reader is unaware of a lot of the things going on tooā¦ theyāre fr just killing & having a giggle w their students a majority#of the time ššš#suguru: pain agony mental illness ššš#reader: yuji look at me balancing on this sword :3#P.S. reader isnāt a teacher in this fic! theyāre kinda there as a weapons/fighting handler!#they teach the kids how to fight but they arenāt. a Teacher like how satoru & suguru & utahime are#btw thank you for being interested enough to ask questions i LOVE answering questions like this so much š„°#it helps me flesh out the ideas/characters a bit more too :D so thanks again!
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Could you please write about the Harbingers spending time with the reader on their birthdays? But maybe they send what they did with you as a letter to the Traveler like the in-game feature? :D
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synopsis: The Traveler naturally expects mail in their inbox whenever the Harbingers' birthdays roll around. However, they didn't expect it to be so... lovey-dovey, and all about you.
includes: all harbingers w/ gn! reader
notes: I've finally finished it! I've been wanting to write something similar to my voice line post for a while, so here it is - the Harbingers sending birthday mail, except they're very down bad for you :3 Includes a letter, a photograph, and attached items with the letter! (Sorry to the Pulcinella fans, I was too lazy to write him in.)
āHomeā¦ā
Sender: Pierro
It is my birthday today. Normally, I would have continued on my day as usual, but [Name] had another idea in mind, going so far as to get the Tsaritsa herself to block the door to my office and then dragging me away. It seems they were planning this for a whileā¦ The last birthday I celebrated was the year Khaenriāah fell. What purpose did today serve when my homeland and people were gone? As the years went on, it began to slip my mind and I nearly would have forgotten the date, were it not for [Name]ās question a while ago. I thought nothing of it, but I did not think [Name] would have taken this so seriously.
They knew I would enjoy anything so long as it was with them, yet they had the entire day planned out. Claiming that I needed some fresh air, we walked through the Snezhnayan streets, the normally biting frost a bit warmer than usual. Casual browsing at some new stores that opened up. [Name]ās attempt at starting a snowball fight. And lastlyā¦ grocery shopping.
When we got back, they wouldnāt let me help or look. But I could tell from the smell exactly what they were making. It turns out that they managed to make a dish from my home country. I am not sure how they managed to get a hold of this recipeā¦ I must have mentioned it offhandedly and they improvised from there. Of course, itās not an exact replica, but nonetheless, it tasted delicious. Just for a few minutes, I was taken back to my previous home. That home will never come back, but I have a new one now.
And now the day is almost over. Despite their best efforts to stay awake until the end of the day, they succumbed to their sleepiness, now lying on my lap. They were supposed to read me something they made, but perhaps Iāll find out what that was tomorrow.Ā
Tomorrow will be back to normal again. But that is alright. I still do not believe I deserve a day like today but, if this is what [Name] desires, then I shall not refuse them again. Iāll look forward to the next birthday just as they do.
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Pierro and you in it. The Harbinger is seated at a table with a homemade dish in front of him. His giant coat and mask are placed off to the side, revealing scars from long ago. Youāre glued to his side, trying to feed him by holding the spoon close to his mouth. Pierro is a grown man, the Traveler thinks, he does not need you to feed himā¦ However, he looks quite content with this arrangement so the blonde wonāt question it any further. In fact, he looks as if heās right at home.
Attached Items:
Ancient Khaenriāahn Dish [A meal unique to Khaneriāah that has long been forgotten by the world. Although you clearly struggled to make it due to a lack of experience, even the Traveler can taste how much of your love was put into it.]
Khaenriāahn Story Book [A book that contains numerous fairy tales and various stories originating from the lost nation, written by none other than Pierro himself, and illustrated by you. Apparently, it was born from you begging him to tell you stories from his home, and eventually, the Harbinger began to write them down so you could read them instead of bothering him so often. However, it made the problem worse as now you bother him to read them to you. How sweet.]
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āA Day Off.ā
Sender: Dottore
[Name] has convinced me to go back to Sumeru with them for a couple of days. I couldnāt care less about this day, but they were adamant about spending the whole day with me, and that they āwill not be spending my birthday in a dark gloomy lab again.āĀ
My research has regrettably halted for a bit, but I suppose this was not a bad idea. This was the first time in many years that either of us had stepped foot back into Sumeru - we had not been back since I was expelled from the Akademiya, besides my segments of course.
[Name] and I trekked the same path we used to walk during our studies at the Akademiya. It was a good spot for studying and conducting experiments without any disturbances - that was until they started following me around. They were a nuisance at firstā¦ but eventually, [Name] began to help me deconstruct a variety of machines, which was helpful. And then would laugh at me whenever I ended up breaking them.Ā
Ever since I met them, [Name] has always said a lot of strange things, but their most recent comment was that they wanted to drink the blue liquid in the vial I carry around. They think it looksā¦ tropical and vibrant. Of course, I refused them. But I had a feeling that if I didnāt provide them with it, theyād try and get it themselves. I was not interested in having to inject an antidote into them, so I came up with a solution.
I know that I am no chef, but this goes outside the realm of cooking. It wasnāt hard to create a sweet drink that would be to [Name]ās liking with the same color. They were more pleased than I thought and demanded that I make it for them more often. I do not care much for nourishment, but perhaps Iāll try my hand at it more often. They have insisted that I send you some, too. So, Traveler, is it to your liking as well? Even if itās not, I do not care, so donāt bother telling me.
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Dottore and you in it. Despite how much the Traveler has explored Sumeru, they canāt seem to pinpoint the location where it was taken. It must really be a secret place, just for the two of you. Dottoreās mask is on his lap, revealing crimson eyes and scarred skin. You seem to have fallen asleep on his shoulder, as your eyes are closed, though your mouth seems to be agape, perhaps mumbling some nonsense in your sleep. Dottoreās expression is exasperated, but there is a certain fondness in his eyes, one that the Traveler canāt distinguish, or rather, they refuse to believe it. Did the Kamera have an editing function now? Because surely, the photograph must have been forged or something, because there was no way The Doctor could ever have such a tender look in his eyesā¦Ā
Attached Items:
Strange Blue Concoction [Some kind of legitimate drink thatās the same color as the vial Dottore carries around. According to [Name], it is quite delicious, but would any sane person dare to try anything from The Doctor of all peopleā¦? Who knows, these two might be trying to poison the blonde.]
Assortment of Ruin Guard Parts [Parts from Ruin Guards Dottore created and assembled himself. A wide variety of parts are here, including Chaos Cores, Circuits, and Devices. Waitā¦ they seem to all be damaged and broken. Hey, did Dottore just send the Traveler his useless parts?!]
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āCare For A Show?āĀ
Sender: Columbina
Hello dear Traveler! How are you?~ Today has been such a wonderful day. Why, you ask? Because itās my birthday of course! āŖ The one day when I have the ability to drag my beloved [Name] wherever I want, with no resistance. Normally they protest for quite a bit, telling me I have a mountain of work to do but, they donāt need to worry their pretty little head about that. ā« Is it that much of a crime to slack off to spend time with oneās beloved? But oh, that little routine of ours is something that I do cherish.
My dearest [Name] took me to a play. We were among the first to see it, as it was the opening day. You know, they always tell me that as a Harbinger, I should be more conscious of how I present myself. But is it really a problem to sit in their lap instead of my chair? Itās not like anyone can see us all the way up on the balcony seats, hmm? ā¬ Moving on though~ The play was quite an interesting story.Ā
It was of an angel who fell in love with a mere human, despite how taboo it was. When the two were caught, the angel had to decide - would she rather retain their purity and remain in the heavens or fall down, stripped of her divinity to be with her human? Well, if you want to see the ending, youāll just have to come to Snezhnaya and watch it yourself. āŖ But do tell me Traveler, if you were in a situation like that, what would you choose? ā¦ I already know what my choice would be.
Ah, but that show was not even the best part! After that, [Name] put on their own performance for me, just the two of us. It was beautiful of course, the way they convey their choice of art is always worthy of praise. But, they always seem to seek my feedback and criticismā¦ they told me they want to keep improving to make me even more pleased but, how many times do I need to explain to them that I already believe their craft is beautiful? Nevertheless, I do indulge them, if only to satisfy my love. Why donāt you take a look at one of our collaborations, Traveler? It is quite good if I do say so myself. ā«
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Columbina and you in it. The lighting in the theater is a bit dim, so your figures are a bit faded but, the Traveler can still make out the two of you. The two of you have separate chairs but, Columbina is practically spilling onto yours, her head comfortably resting against your chest. You seem as though this is normal for you, which it probably is. Wait, is Columbina sleeping? It seems she probably got bored during the intermissionā¦ Thatās why you specifically chose your clothes to double as a blanket for your wife.
Attached Items:
Music Score [A music score composed by both you and Columbina. The two of you performed it perfectly together as a present to your wife. Of course, itās bound to be mesmerizing considering Columbinaās participation. So hauntingly beautiful, that in fact, it might end your life before you get to the endā¦ is that an exaggeration? Well, it seems like the Traveler will have to take that risk.]
Pair of Tickets [Tickets gifted to the Traveler and Paimon. Thereās no name on it or any expiration date, so it can be used to watch a single play in Snezhnaya for free, with the best seats in-house, so pick carefully. These things are quite expensive, so donāt go losing them now! Otherwise, Columbina and [Name] might ban the traveling duo from the theaterā¦]
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āAn Excellent Day.ā
Sender: Capitano
Today is my birthday. However, I have never been very adept at celebrating this day. I realize that it is the norm to celebrate oneās birthday, but I have never felt the need to. Though, ever since I became a Harbinger, my recruits have always wished me well today. Unfortunately, when the bolder ones ask me what I have planned, I have nothing interesting to respond with, always prompting them to urge me to do somethingā¦ In the hallways, I always hear conversations along the lines of even though being a Harbinger is busy, I deserve to do something nice on my birthday. But in reality, it does not bother me at all. Is it really that strange not to do anything on oneās birthday?
When [Name] found out how I normally spend my birthdays, they shared a similar sentiment and promised to make this one āthe most eventful and fun and best one Iāve ever had.ā They said that since this is our first year together, they need to make my birthday an excellent one. Although I tried to reassure them they neednāt try so hard for me, they were insistent. However, true to their word, I would say my birthday did end up being an excellent one.
One thing about [Name] is they never fail to teach me something new. In this case, they taught me what it means to celebrate a birthday, and Iād say I learned a lot. As stated by them, there is no exact or definite way to celebrate. It is what you make of it. And they, knowing the kind of man I was, chose the activities accordingly. (There were a few mishaps but everything went well for the most part. It is not customary to break a few knives while cutting cake, so I feared that I may have ruined things, but [Name] reassured me it was normal.)
So all in all, today was an excellent day. However, I am faced with a problem now. What should I do when [Name]ās birthday comes? Should I do the same thing they did for me? But would they think that is low effort and unoriginal? I do not wish to disappoint them. Traveler, do you have any ideas? Also, please ask Tartaglia for me as well. The last time I spoke to him, he tried to ask me for a duel.
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Capitano and you in it. The snowy forest terrain looks as picturesque as ever, but what really draws attention is the man and his lover in the middle. Mostly, the Harbinger who has a squirrel or two perched on him, not to mention the few birds that made their nest in the fluff of his coat. And even some cats? Where did they come from?! Well, itās best not to question it. Itās rather endearing. Rather, one should question how silent and unmoving the Captain is in an effort to not disturb all the animals. Just ignore the deer in the background waiting for some attention too.
Attached Items:
How To Celebrate Your Birthday Pamphlet [A collaboration between Capitanoās Fan Club and [Name]. The fan club loves you immensely because you help to put their long-awaited plans into action. The numerous activities in this guide (blowing out the candles, feeding each other cake, gift giving, lots of affection, etc) were written out by the club and dutifully carried out by you. There were also birthday punches, but Capitano was confused as to why you were tickling him.]
Capitano and [Name]ās Picture Book [Donāt tell anyone this, but Capitano has a tendency to name all the creatures of the forest near his mansion. At first, he went there to train, but decided against it after seeing all the animals around there, because he doesnāt want to scare them away. What he did not expect was to befriend all of themā¦ you came across him one day talking to them after searching for him. How can he tell them apart? Even you donāt know. But this book is dedicated to all of his animal friends, with pictures taken by you of course. So if the Traveler happens to visit Snezhnaya someday, make sure to be nice to these little guys!]
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āTheyāre Annoyingā¦ā
Sender: Wanderer
It is that time of year again when my birthday rolls around. You know very well I do not care much for this day, but once again, there are always annoyances at my every turnā¦ Both Lesser Lord Kusanali and [Name] always prove to be a thorn in my side on this day. In the past, I usually spent my birthdays under the sakura trees in Inazuma, visiting [Name]. But, things have changed now. I no longer am who I once was, and my relationship with [Name] is no longer the same. They have forgotten me, and our past togetherā¦ but Lesser Lord Kusanali has forced us to interact again numerous times, leading to our current relationship. Lesser Lord Kusanali always pats my back, saying that time will lead us back to each otherā¦ how irritating.Ā
Speaking of her being irritating, she decided to tell [Name] that today was my birthday, a horrible decision. Now, theyāve run all over Sumeru looking for me, until they finally found me in the House of Daena. Panting and gasping for air, all I could hear was them sincerely apologizing over and over for not knowing my birthday. They promised theyād get me a late birthday gift, even though I kept repeating that it was unnecessary. Unfortunately, it has always been hard to get things through their thick skull. All I know for sure is that Lesser Lord Kusanali definitely planned this and that she will tease me to no end the next time I see herā¦Ā
Still, they dragged me through Sumeru City. According to them, they knew I wouldnāt like anything too fancy, so they brought me to an alleyway. Your typical textbook dark and narrow one. And at the end wereā¦ cats. Many of them. [Name] turned to me with a smile and said they bet I didnāt know about this secret kitty haven, and that it was a perfect gift for someone like me. I do wonder if Sumeruās sun has made them crazy sometimes.
But, this birthday wasnāt as boring as I thought itād be. Soā¦ thatās nice, I guess. Actually, Lesser Lord Kusanali had assigned me a paper to write. A paper on [Name], on my own birthday. She said that she wasnāt going to read or check it, but it was for my sake. How preposterous, right? How would anything like that help me?
But tonightā¦ I feel as though Iāll make some progress on it.
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Wanderer and you in it. The puppet is at the top of the ladder in the House of Daena, searching for books (most likely forced to by the Dendro Archon), but your figure can be made out at the bottom. You seem to be waving and beckoning him to come down, so he can have a good time with you for his birthday. Wanderer doesnāt seem very excited about it, butā¦ he will always indulge you, the person he canāt deny he loves. Hmm? Why is he using a ladder instead of his Anemo powers? Well, perhaps the puppet doesnāt like drawing attention to himself.
Attached Items:
Essay Concerning Inazuman Society and Politics [An essay Wanderer has written during his time spent in Vahumana. What, did the Traveler really think heād send the essay he wrote about [Name]? However, Paimon couldnāt make it through the title page, and even the Traveler struggled through it. But, it seems to be your favorite essay of his, considering all the notes you made in it, not to mention the noodles you drew when you got boredā¦ Wanderer probably scolded you for that but, itās never in bad faith.]
Tricolor Dango [A plate of dango that [Name] brought for Wanderer as a treat. It seems that they are unaware of his dislike of sweet foodā¦ But the puppet did not want to hurt their feelings considering the thought and effort they put into his birthday, so he did not decline it.]
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āA Lavish Tea Party.ā
Sender: Sandrone
Unbeknownst to me, [Name] recently had a variety of sweets from Fontaine imported. It seemed like they tinkered with my bots once again, to get them on their side so I would remain in the darkā¦ they can be such a hassle to deal with sometimes. However, this means that their skills are ever improving, as Iāve been improving my Automatons to be much more complex. As expected of my assistant. Speaking of, theyāve also imported some other things that Iāve been wanting for a while. Hopefully, theyāre up to standard this time, or theyāll have to be returned. Ugh, I hate dealing with the Ninth whenever that happensā¦
Though back to the subject, it seems that [Name] has once again needlessly gone out of their way, since today is my date of birth. Although I donāt like being distracted from my research, and I see no need to waste time just because I happened to be born today, this break that [Name] has prepared for me isnāt too bad. I have not attended a proper tea party in far too long. The fools I have for agents can never set it up correctly.
[Name] is not someone who dresses up very often, but they always make the effort to match their attire with mine. Something that other people should learn from, but alas. Though, I wish they did it more often. Not even the most well-crafted doll could match their beauty. Have I told them that? No, they should be smart enough to figure that out by themselves.
Regardless, I must cut this letter short. After this, I want to work on an Automaton with [Name]. I have held off on it because they have expressed interest in it, and since we are together now, it is the perfect time to work on it. I was expecting them to get huffy at me working today, but it seems that they are pleased to work with me. I wonder why.
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Sandrone and you in it. A wide array of treats and sweets are plated on numerous platters, along with ceramic tea cups waiting to be filled with piping hot tea. The surrounding robots are also fashioned in a similar style as her, perfect attire for the tea party, holding additional trays of desserts. (Can these robots eat too?) Youāre pouring your wife her favorite kind of tea as youāve already set her plate, while she sits patiently with her hands folded. Despite Sandroneās doll-like features, one can see a small smile on her face.
Attached Items:
Instructions For A Perfect Tea Party [Sandroneās set of instructions as to how a perfect tea party is conducted. Some of the rules seem nonsensical and impossible to many, which is why no Fatui agent can ever live up to the Harbingerās expectations, as she will not accept anything less than what she desires. However, you are the only person who has managed to fulfill all the rules to a tee, which is one of the reasons she greatly favors you. Sending this list to the Traveler and Paimon is also her way of saying they are never invited as they will never be able to fulfill the rules in a way that satisfies herā¦ how rude!]
Clockwork Toy of Sandrone [A Harbinger toy from Leschots Clockwork Workshop in Fontaine. They seem to have dabbled in making toys of the Harbingers as they said they would, and who better to start with than the machinery genius herself? Of course, Sandrone can point out numerous flaws with the design and components, and probably criticized it heavily to you, but you still seem to love it, because itās of her! Unfortunately, your wife doesnāt like that very muchā¦ why settle for something inferior when you could have it in much higher quality? So the Harbinger decided to make a toy of herself that lives up to her standard. The Traveler can have the faulty oneā¦]
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āAnother Year Passesā¦ā
Sender: La Signora
In the past, I used to be quite fond of birthdays. In Mondstadt, I would always celebrate it with him every year. But after he died, birthdays left a bitter taste in my mouth, and I never dared think about doing anything on this day ever again. How could I, when he was no longer by my side? But today is my birthday again, and I find myself happy. Why? Because of [Name], the person who taught me how to love again. Admittedly, I pushed away the idea at first. But after some more reflection, I decided it wouldnāt be fair to [Name]. The past is the past, and the present is the present. If [Name] wants to make me feel special on my birthday, then who am I to stop them?
And indeed they did pamper me. They always pamper me but, today it was much more than normal. Breakfast in bed, massages, hair brushing, helping me put on my clothes, opening doors for me, fancy dinner and wine after work. I donāt think there was a single moment where they werenāt trying to do something for me. It gave me a good chuckle, which made them embarrassed. But truly, it made me happy. I hadā¦ forgotten what it feels like to be cared for on my birthday. Itās a foreign feeling but, I hope that the foreignness eventually goes away after some time.
However, I must tell them that thereās no need to overexert themselves just because it is my birthday. Although I do enjoy the extra treatment, it does neither of us any good for them to fall asleep before the night is even over. But, thatās okay. There is always next year, yes?
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Signora and you in it. You are fast asleep on the Fair Ladyās lap, a peaceful expression on your face. A similar one is on Signoraās, as there is no one else around, and she can let her guard down around you. There are a few of her flame moths scattered around the room as well, a few on the two of you. As her blonde hair spills onto your face and body, one can only guess what she is thinking.
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Tea Break Pancakes [Despite Signoraās history with her home nation, itās said that she still enjoys the cuisine from there. So, you like to cook her food from there whenever you can. It might not be as good as a professionalās but it provides her a taste of home. A taste of your love, which is her favorite flavor.]
Rose [Itās no secret that roses are Signoraās favorite flower. Beautiful yet thorny, alluring yet dangerous. There are many kinds of roses with all sorts of meanings in this world, but you two have been seen exchanging only one kind - a red one. Whatever could it mean?]
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āBirthdaysā¦ā
Sender: Pantalone
When I was a child, birthdays did not mean much to me. After all, how could one focus on their date of birth when it seemed like life was full of nothing but curses and suffering? It was only another day of working to survive. But when I met [Name], they changed that. With them, the day began to haveā¦ meaning. Purpose. It wasnāt anything grand, but they made it special, distracting me from another day of poverty. Even with their meager earnings, they never failed to gift me something, even if it was of little to no value, or not the best qualityā¦ I cherished it. No one else had ever thought of me so much. When I look back, every time my birthday came around again, my love for them only grew more.
Now that we are adults, my only wish is to repay their kindness and spoil them with as many gifts as they deserve. However, there are a few issues with this. There are times I find myself more disappointed with the world than usual because it has yet to create something that would be a suitable gift that would be on par with my love for my dear [Name]. However, whenever my spouse gifts me something, their thoughtfulness never ceases to amaze me. How is it that they always manage to gift me something wonderful and touching? When I questioned them about this, they raised an eyebrow and gave me a strange look. It seems that I will not learn their secret anytime soon. How unfortunate.
Not to mention, dearest [Name] gets upset when I spend āludicrous amounts of moneyā (their words) on them, especially on my birthday, so theyāve āforbiddenā me from doing so today. They are rather persistent on this, and their long lectures and expressions are rather amusing, so Iāll indulge themā¦ for now. Do you think they realize Iāll just spend double the amount the next day? Regardless, birthdays are always well spent with [Name], and I plan to enjoy this one fully, just as I have in the past because they are the one who makes my birthday a day worth celebrating.
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Pantalone and you in it. The two of you are taking a walk in Snezhnaya, browsing stores and the like. Even though it is Pantaloneās birthday, he seems insistent on trying to buy out a few stores for you once againā¦ so in order to prevent him from doing that, youāve hidden yourself in his coat, stopping him from walking properly. The Harbinger seems rather entertained by your antics and your head popping out of his coatā¦ he should make you do this more often. Itās perfect for head pats.
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Pantaloneās Spare Change [As it is his birthday, Pantalone is feeling more generous than usual, so he is sending a bit of funds to the Traveler. There is no need for any repayment, take it as a symbol of the Fatuiās goodwill. (However, it would do good to proceed with cautionā¦ this is the Ninth, after all.) Opening it up, the duo expects to see an average amount of money, but instead are presented with a couple of million Moraā¦ if this is what Pantalone is willing to send to the Traveler, how much does he spend on [Name]?! Paimon doesnāt want to imagine the number!]
[Name]ās Guide to Gift Giving [A piece written by you to detail how you always choose the best gift for Pantalone, unbeknownst to your husband. Opening it up, the Traveler is very curious as to how you manage to win over the Harbinger every time, a man who has everything he could possibly want at his fingertips. But instead, only one sentence is written on the paper - āI donāt know how I do it either.ā]
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āAppreciation.ā
Sender: Arlecchino
Birthdays were not very much celebrated in the House of Hearth, especially when the former Knave was around. However, that changed when [Name] came along. Years ago, I still remember when they gifted Lynette her first tea cup set. Freminet, a collection of spare parts that he ended up using to make another clockwork toy. And probably the biggest hassleā¦ gifting little Lyney a white rabbit. However, I do appreciate my loverās efforts. The children always look forward to their birthdays much more now, some even going as far as to drop hints about their desired gift and give puppy eyes to [Name] when the time rolls around. I have to remind my children not to get greedy, and to be grateful for what they already haveā¦
I also remember the first birthday they gifted me something as well. A part of me expected it, considering the way they behaved, but still, it was anā¦ unfamiliar feeling, to be gifted something. And, it was also the day little Lyney and Lynette presented their first amateur magic show to me. Of course, they had much to improve on, but looking back it was a suitable birthday gift, considering how much Iāve seen the two grow now. Needless to say, I appreciate [Name] very much, for what they have given me and my children.
My birthday has come once more, and [Name] is celebrating it as they always feel the need to. Really, even if they did nothing, I would still appreciate it, considering all theyāve done. The sweets they gathered this time were exceptional, and we had a lovely chat, before taking a walk through Fontaine. They say that the flowers that grow in the wild are always the prettiest, especially the Rainbow Roses.
Ah, last of all, if you could do me a favor, that would be greatly appreciated. You have been in Fontaine for a while now, yes? It would be a great help to me if you could point me to some good operas. [Name] and I have watched many in Snezhnaya, however, we donāt often have the chance to watch any in Fontaine, with our work and all. Thank you. And please, do not bore me or waste my time.
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Arlecchino and you in it. You two are sitting in a field in Fontaine somewhere, with Rainbow Roses to the side. One of them has been tucked into the Harbingerās hair, while you seem to be focusing on creatingā¦ a flower crown? Despite the pinkness of the rose greatly contrasting with Arlecchinoās whole dark red, black, and white look, she seems to not mind your antics and waits patiently for you to complete your work of art. Of course, as a Fontainian, she knows very well what Rainbow Roses symbolize, and wonāt turn down the physical manifestation of your feelings.
Attached Items:
List of Yummy Hidden Gems [A list of great places to buy sweets from in Fontaine, courtesy of [Name], passed on by Arlecchino. Sure, Hotel Debord and CafƩ Lutece do have some excellent sweets, but there are many hidden restaurants and bakeries that provide delicious treats as well! Do stop by and give them a try. Arlecchino favors many of their products. If one needs a similar list for the other nations, do tell.]
Slice of Birthday Cake [An exquisite slice of cake cut from Arlecchinoās birthday cake. She doesnāt care much for the tradition, but [Name] always buys one anyway as an excuse to treat the children from the House to something nice. You know you shouldnāt spoil them so much, but you canāt help it!]
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āSplash!ā
Sender: Tartaglia
Hey comrade! How have you been? Sorry if my handwriting isnāt the best. I sparred with [Name] for my birthday, and they really roughed me up. Not that I mind, I asked them to go all out. Normally they donāt like fighting with me, because they always insist they donāt like hurting me, but they couldnāt say no to me today. You know, I would like to see the two of you fight. It would be an exhilarating experience.
But anyway, after they patched me up, we took a dive in Fontaineās waters! You know, whenever I visit Liyue, we often go to cool off in Yaoguang Shoal, but Fontaineās oceans are so much different. The scenery, the terrain, the greenery, the wildlifeā¦ good thing I bought them a waterproof Kamera. Speaking of wildlife, [Name] and I befriended a blubberbeast. [Name] instantly fell in love with the creature, and I feel as though they gave a bit too much attention to it, but, seeing them smile is the best gift I could ever ask for. Maybe I should gift them a plushie of it? However, it is a bit amusing that something that looks as defenseless as that could pack such a punch!
Did you know this, Traveler? Apparently, Romaritime Flowers represent loyalty. [Name] gifted me a bouquet which I was initially confused about since I usually give them flowers instead. But after some quick research, these flowers mean unbreaking oaths. It was a bit ironic really, for I should have gifted them instead as I always swore to be loyal to them, my family, and the Tsaritsa, but it was a wonderful gift. Not to mention the delicious meal they prepared. Theyāve been busy researching the best Fontaine recipes for me, so I could make them for Teucer and the others back home, but maybe I should just drag them to Snezhnaya so they could do it insteadā¦ I never leave anything but empty plates whenever [Name] cooks for me, but theyāve packaged some for you too, Traveler!
Next time we fight at the Golden House, Iāll bring [Name] along too. Do you think you can hold your own against both of us at the same time?
Attached Photograph:
A picture is included with the letter that has Childe and you in it. You two are under the sea, with a Blubberbeast between the two of you. The creature is nudging you while Childe looks on amused. It seems that itās been begging for some more attention, food, and head pats. Maybe some tummy rubs too. Apparently, you named it Big Cutie, because wellā¦ itās a big cutie! Unfortunately, it seems to have a little bit of a grudge against the Harbinger because he accidentally attacked it.
Attached Items:
[Name]ās Special Macarons [Rainbow Macarons but with a special twist from [Name]. On the top and bottom of the sweet treat areā¦ faces? Very detailed ones too, with colored hair and eyes! Ah, the faces are none other than [Name], Childe, Teucer, and all of his other siblings! Oh, and macarons of Traveler and Paimon were made as well, how kind! Childe says theyāre quite delicious, and he is a great cook, so they must be.]
Freshly Caught Fish [Fish caught by Childe. It seems that the two lovers also went fishing after diving a bit, as one knows how much Childe loves to fish. Sadly, your fishing skills still pale in comparison compared to his and you barely caught anythingā¦ Thatās alright though! No matter how long it takes, heāll always happily help you hone your skills!]
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