#look a lot of these people are going to traumatize their younger selves

[negative-speedforce]

your OCs are suddenly faced with small child versions of themselves! what do they do?

Siv: Is ridiculously creeped out because her near-catatonic younger self was creepy af

Jay: Celebrates with his younger self because he got to grow up to be the man he really was

Cassandra: Teaches her how to control her magic bc she does not need little Cassandra blowing a hole in her roof bc she doesn't know how to use her magic yet

Hailey: Tries to hide any evidence that she died and is now a ghost because that would traumatize her younger self

Arya: Teaches their younger self how to commit tax fraud and arson

Esme: Gives her younger self a hug and tells her that yes, someday she is going to feel loved and wanted

Gina: Traumatizes her younger self because she's dead so her younger self just finds a blood-covered corpse on the ground

Ember: Just hangs out with them and lets her younger self be a kid for once

Cat: Teaches her younger self how to commit cyberattacks against the government

Kyle: Beats his younger self at Mario Kart

Max: Tells his younger self to go annoy Kyle

Eric: Let's be honest his younger self is going to be like "Wait- what the heck? We're trans???"

Jacob: Teaches his younger self how to do cool things with magic

Khalil: Lets his younger self follow him along to work as a makeup artist because he knows little Khalil will think his job is cool

Antonio: Gets annoyed because he's at that age where younger kids are SO annyoing

Ameerah: Gets her younger self to help her rob a bank

Rania: Hands her younger self off to Eobard because Rania is a workaholic and has no time for children

Reggie: Shows her younger self cool tricks she can do with her magic

Director Hawke: Gives her younger self a stack of anti-meta propaganda

Meredith: Hugs her younger self because she spent the first few years of its life locked up in a lab

Pippa: Gives her younger self a speedster piggyback ride

Jessi: Just foists responsibility of her younger self onto Hyun-ki

Onnie: Forces their younger self to access her eldritch powers way too early, therefore causing a temporal anomaly by accidentally killing her younger self

Hyun-Ki: Keeps his younger self as far away from Jessi as human possible

Athena: Teaches her younger self how to perform vivisections

Laila: Allows her younger self to be a kid for once because she was trained to be a killing machine from the moment she was created

Thalia: Tries to hide any evidence that the Jedi were all massacred because that'll traumatize her younger self

Reyna: Gives her younger self a giant snake because she thinks its cool

Liah: Hugs her younger self because little Liah definitely needs it

Marie: Traumatizes her younger self because little Marie was absolutely TERRIFIED of getting assimilated someday

Qiara: Gets her younger self to help her with stuff because her disorder only started affecting her powers when she was almost an adult

Soraya: Puts her younger self in a playpen and gets back to work because Soraya's a workaholic

Aldrich: Stays as far away from his younger self as possible because he's still not 100% in control of his bloodlust and he doesn't want to cause a temporal anomaly

Samira: Lets her younger self mess around with a kid's chemistry set while she works

Matt: Impresses his younger self with the severed thumb optical illusion hand trick

Vanessa: Shows off Stevie, her gecko, to her younger self

Sohelia: Teaches her younger self how to shoot a gun because she's gonna need it

Dolores: Cooks food for her younger self because she really misses eating regular food and she can live vicariously through her younger self

Victorie: Traumatizes her younger self because Victorie is very obviously a vampire and little Victorie didn't want to be a vampire

[tiredspacedragon]

I had a quick look in the notes before voting, and I'm kinda surprised by what I saw. Because a lot of people seem to be forgetting a key factor in this matchup: These are all the same person. Which means, as the Doctor gets older, each one of these incarnations remembers being the others, so the younger ones are at a massive disadvantage.

Especially Eccleston. Like don't get me wrong, this is tumblr, we all love Nine here. And yeah, hes angry and bitter and one of the most physically fit out of this bunch. But he is also freshly traumatized, and trying really hard to be Less Violent, Actually. And, this is kinda hugely important, all of the others know all of his tricks. Nine was only 900 years old, he's a baby compared to most of the rest. If it came to a straight grapple, then he has good odds, but he is losing the mental game.

Now Ten is capable of great and twisted violence, and is also spunky and a little unpredictable. However, he also goes down in one punch. Like canonically, it happens more than once. He can take falling from a spaceship, through a glass window, and onto a hard marble floor, but the man has a glass jaw and basically everyone here has a mean punch. So he's out.

Eleven is being criminally underestimated in the notes. Like I get that it's currently trendy to hate on him, but come on. Reducing him to a baby-faced twink is a huge mistake. Eleven was a vicious, cold-blooded, survivor of a bastard, who lived longer than everyone else here put together. He used that baby face as a weapon, underestimating him plays straight into his hands, and Nine and Ten absolutely would underestimate him. He might be hampered by the others though, because again, they'd remember being him and would consider him a high-priority target.

Twelve is an angry chihuahua of a man, and he has a solid hook on him, but he is also physically the oldest here and definitely has a far worse bark than bite. I don't see him winning, but I do see him being a persistent nuisance to all the others, chasing after them, snarling and biting at their heels and just not staying down. He did shoot a guy in the face that one time, but I don't think a fight with his other selves could push him to that level of desperation. In the end, he's sass, not brass.

I don't know much about Thirteen yet, but from what I do know, she's a little deranged and would absolutely fight dirty. I believe she's physically the smallest here, so that could hurt her, but eh... Like I said, fighting dirty. Can solve a lot of problems, that.

Fourteen has no chance. Like actually none, I am sorry. He might not go down as easily as Ten, might stay standing for a while, actually. But he is not going to fight. Absolute heap of a man. Actually, paradoxically, he might not lose, either? Like the others would just look at him and go "Y'know what, I'll leave him alone, he very clearly does not want to be here." Fifteen would probably get him a blanket, sit him down on the sidelines, and periodically go check to see he was alright. So maybe I'm wrong, maybe he actually would win if all the others took each other down.

But I think my bet goes to Fifteen. Yeah he's brand new, so we know basically nothing about him. But he is also the oldest by far, is the only one here with the ability to accurately judge all the others' capabilities, and has one key advantage none of the others do: Mental Health. Fifteen's defining trait so far seems to be that he is Doing Okay, Actually. Fifteen has had therapy. He has had rest and recovery time. He is refreshed. That might take some of the edge off him, but like. It certainly wouldn't make him stupider. And does that edge ever really go away? And would it really matter that much in a straight up brawl? Like plus, have you seen Ncuti Gatwa? This is not your classic skinny Doctor, the man is sculpted. So yeah, we'll see how he turns out, but right now my money's on the new guy.

okay if you were to pit every modern-era Doctor against each other in a fight. no holds barred. they can fight as dirty as they like. physically or mentally. just full on duking it out. who do you think would win. this is not a "who is your favorite" poll it's a "who would beat the shit out of the others most effectively" poll

[mahariel-s]

hi it's me again <3 i would love to come off anon but it's likely that you don't remember me so i don't wanna intrude! especially because i was going through a huge depressive episode (school + life in general plus they gave me the wrong meds) so after being absolutely insufferable for a while one day i just deactivated twitter and tumblr and said to hell with it lol. but i'm doing okay now. i wish i could go back and tell to our younger selves there's hope. AND YEAH gods did you see the state of fandoms on twitter? idrc about mervel or thorloki anymore but damn people are out for BLOOD. like chill... pet a flower or something, it's pixels on a screen. smh. anyways thank you for your beautiful response! <3

in the interest of being totally honest, there's quite a bit that i don't remember from mid-2017 onwards until maybe late 2018?? asjfdslg my sister died and it was a very traumatic time and it's like trying to look through a silent hill extra fog mod BUT THAT SAID,

i don't think it would be intruding if you came off anon :3 even if i don't remember you, i'd like to know you now -- if you were cool with that ofc -- because!!! yolo!!!!! we really only live once and you are so kind and what's the freaking harm!!! it sounds like we had/have a lot in common <3

i'm really glad to hear you're doing ok now. i reached a similar point of Done, where i deleted my blog and pretty much went private mode on all social media and stopped engaging in fandom. i hope you've been being kind to yourself, removing oneself from social media during times of tumult is like the absolute pinnacle of self-care when you think about it 😭 it's just so harddd and can feel so isolating

the current state of fandoms everywhere is why i don't really branch out? i want to make a ton of new friends but i'm so tired of discourse lmao, i see some topics that are p much verbatim BATTLES we would have back in 2012, and i'm like, "we fought this so y'all didn't have to!!!!! find our old posts!!!! stay strong~!!!" LMFAO ;-; but i just step back. to quote my 7th grade history teacher, "History has a tendency to repeat itself." Thank u mr. wiseman. yes, his last name was wiseman. no, i don't know if he changed it to that but he was a very wise old man and us kids could not get over the fact his name was what he also embodied. anyway

(this is an open invitation to say hi btw anyone reading LMAO I JUST DON'T LIVE FOR DRAMA SO I WILL STAY OUT OF IT IF IT COMES UP)

sorry for RAMBLING LMAOOO i'm here if you ever wanna come off anon and talk <333 i hope you have a wonderful week, i really appreciate receiving these messages + i look forward to hearing from u :333 (do NOT read that in a corporate email ' i look forawrd to ur future correspondence' way but in a cooler, Less Stressful way)

[berenicetheiv]

SHORT CHIRON PERSONA CHART OBSERVATIONS AND NOTES 1:

Don't steal, don't repost.

✧*。 If it doesn't resonate, that's okay, there are a lot of factors at play to look at (like aspects, houses, etc).

Our chiron persona chart can show us our wounds and traumas. Experiences that had a huge effect on our selves that we need to heal from- especially from childhood because the events in our younger years greatly shapes and affects our thinking and wellbeing as time goes on. All the things that happened to us that had long lasting effects as the years went by and into the present. How those things shaped what and who we are now. How we think, how we act and how we cope. Not only that, it also tells us what we can do to help heal ourselves (what is best recommended to do and what kind of activities that we can use as an outlet the best etc.) from these wounds to push ourselves forward. As well as how we can heal and comfort others.

✧*。 MOON

The moon shows how our emotions jump out, how we react emotionally when faced with our wounds and when we experience something traumatic. Can show us how we can deal with our emotional wellbeing in relation to the things that we need to heal from.

✧*。 MERCURY

How we communicate what we are going through. If we are comfortable or not sharing our wounds in the first place. How we use our words when trying to talk to others about what they're going through as well. Can show us if we have wounds related to communicating, if we have a hard time doing so.

✧*。 VENUS

The way we take care of ourselves. If we try to treat ourselves and how. Can show us if we are afraid of love or anything intimate. Like any traumas or wounds that make us wary of it. Our problems with love and how it became that way. How we heal or try to comfort others about their experiences.

✧*。 SUN CONJUNCT MARS

Especially in the 4th House or the 12th House.

People with this aspect between the sun and mars in their chiron persona chart came from a broken family. Usually, there's cheating involved with one of the parents (mostly the father in hetero relationships too). Which leads to them developing extreme trust issues and becoming skeptical, wary and afraid of love, relationship and marriages. They become independent and become someone who don't really need anyone special. When they do find someone and try it out, most likely it's with a person who also came from a broken family (who probably has the same aspect) because there's a special connection and understanding between them.

The 4th house represents families and relationships. So having this aspect in this house greatly affects the foundations of the family causing problems. Which of course affects the way these people think of wanting a family, they become those who are extremely cautious of getting into relationships and having their own families.

The 12th house on the other hand represents hidden things, the sun represents the father and mars governs over passions, sex, crimes so crimes of passion -> infidelity/cheating so that's that. The person becomes someone who puts themselves first and while that's good, there's also a negative effect which is the way that they just usually gloss over their wounds and pretend it's nothing instead of trying to heal from it so they can be more at ease.

That's all for now. Thank you so much for reading ♡˖.

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[stark-alchemy]

For the "Insert Tidal Here" Splatoon AU, I wanted to give a bit of a darker story to how Sun and Moon met and then met Stark. they themselves have been through a lot, and their adoptive elder brother, a giant deep-sea squid, was separated from them when they were younger. Their actual parents are either missing or dead and while I wasn't intending for angst I tripped and fell in an angst puddle on my way to write this.

Tw: Body Horror, Trauma

So Sun has the most traumatic story of the brothers. His town where he grew up was on the other side of the Ravine, a cave system that had many underground cities under the Splatlands. One of the cities was a very small community of Starfish, Anemones, and some other Clams and Shellfish. A sickness suddenly hit the Starfish and Anemone citizens and after a few weeks it looked like they would be fine...but then the second wave hit. The anemone citizens got super sick, dying off by the handful, as did the clams, but the starfish got it worse. Starfish wasting disease hit hard, and those that were affected were basically mindless zombies of their former selves, ripping off their arms/hair, legs and chopping off other parts in an effort to rid themselves of a disease that was affecting them on a level they couldn't understand. Whole homes turned into crime scenes overnight and there was no nearby doctor prepared for this level of disease. Sun was one of the very lucky few that got sick but didn't get the full disease, but he lost his family in the process and worse the city was hit so hard that people began moving out in droves. Sun was by himself for a long time until he was forced to leave and wander the tunnels looking for a new home.

Moon was not much better off. He was separated from his family after a cave-in wiped his city off the map and left many of them citizens scattered. Moon was trapped inside his home while his family was out getting things and the house wound up several feet under the rocks and sand. After a while, a rescue crew tried to come help survivors but the damage was done. Too many people had been trapped under the crushing weight or worse their homes had caved in on top of them. Moon was at risk for all of this, when they found him he was in the pantry as that was the only part of his home that hadn't collapsed yet. His family was never found lost beneath the sands and he took to the Tunnels to find somewhere else to go.

Eclipse was a Deep Sea Squid who found both boys wandering about the tunnels 2 weeks from each other. He found Moon first and made sure to take care of his needs like making sure he was fed and had proper clothing. When they found Sun, who was missing 2 of his starfish arms due to being sick, afraid, and stressed, he nursed him back to health. Eclipse was kind and careful around the boys but primarily took to fighting any Octarians and Larger beings that would come looking for a fight. One such battle saw that he lost an eye, which worried the boys to no end and bound them tighter as a family. They stayed together for about 2 years before they were forcibly separated and the two brothers had no choice but to head up into the Splatlands for help and a new home.

A few days into their travel, they meet up with Stark, who kindly takes them with her to Splatsville and let's them crash with her while she's doing Turf Wars. They boys are worried that if she leaves for a "war" that she won't come back but she shows them the videos and previous Splatfests and assures them that she'll be fine. Over time they grow more attached especially when Stark gets sick and Sun has a panic attack, that sends Moon into a panic of his own, and they sit down and talk about their pasts and what they want to do going forward. As they grow up, Sun and Moon decide they want to help with Stark's games so they learn to take up cooking (Sun primarily, Moon is best kept away from an open fire) and creating sweet things to share. Along the way they start making the Drops, specialized candies used for enhancing abilities for a shirt period of time in game, but can be eaten at anytime for enjoyment and a boost of energy! Stark shares them with some of her team mates, then the fellow members of the opposing team to keep fun matches balanced, then other teams found out and started asking for orders. Stark tells the boys that they're candies are a hit <they're kinda miffed because they made them for Stark and only her...darn her sharing> and they start planning to open a little pop-up shop that sells them before matches.

Eventually, they set up a store on the main street, "Swell Sweets", and begin making different flavors and styles of sweets but still focus on the Sundrops and Moondrops. Sun runs the store during daytime hours and cooks the batches of candy. Moon runs the shop at night and does candy packaging. Stark does the marketing and is one of the faces that you'll see selling when she isn't doing Turf Wars. Once she ages out of doing Turf Wars with the other teens, she takes up running the store full time with Sun and Moon. Sun can be seen on the streets during Splatfest since he's a huge Deep Cut fan. Moon is more of a fan of Harmony and her former band The Chirpy Chips, having made her a gift basket and also hanging around the store at times and chatting her up about music. Stark, when not in the shop with Sun or Moon, can be found on the main street handing out flyers to advertise.

Through the years, Stark would visit her family in Inkopolis often. When she left her parents had adopted an octoling baby sister and then a year later, gave her a heads up that they were adopting another octoling, a baby brother named Jamo this time. As the years went on, Stark would visit a few weeks out of the year to meet up with her family and then come back home to the Brothers. One day, about 8 years later, however, she brings her back to town. He'd taken an interest in moving to Splatsville to hang out with his sister and also battle in Turf Wars. Their middle sister, Jazz, had decided to stay in Inkopolis and compete there primarily, so he wanted to branch out and explore.

At first Sun and Moon Don't know what to do with this new visitor, especially one taking all their attention away from them. They try to scare him at first, Jamo doesn't live with them and he stays with friends in another apartment, but it doesn't work as they want it to. Sun's overly intense personality and sly attitude only makes Jamo wonder if his sister has been manipulated to stay with them. Moon insists on trying to scare Jamo off, inviting him into the backroom to show him the candy but then using his glow-in-the-dark patterning and extending out his jaws to give him a frightful scare. All Jamo thinks is that his sister is being threatened to stay under pain of death. Eventually, Stark catches on and gets into a fight with them, annoyed that they've been so rude to her brother as well as way too controlling of her life. The brothers apologize to her and try to make up for their actions, inviting Jamo back and gifting him some of the special candy they made for him and giving him a rightful apology as well. And while Jamo doesn't immediately trust them or forgive them, he does understand that they have been close for a long time and they were afraid of the dynamic shifting. He puts up with them for her sake though he still finds them strange

Eventually as things calm down a new shadow is on the horizon...an old lost elder brother from long ago makes a surprising appearance...but I gotta work on his design so I'm taking my time. Hope yall liked my insane ramblings as I fall headfirst into another AU!

[museguided]

How badly the vampire wanted to interrupt him. Yuu had his heart in the right place, but there was no telling what they had altered before it was too late. Guren, of all people, told him again and again that it would never be worth the risk. On top of that, he only came equipped with enough supplies to recreate the spell to send them back to the present; whatever did change wouldn't be able to be fixed so easily.

The child before him allowed his tears to flow freely now and Mika had an idea of how he felt. It was enough that their entire family fell apart due to his own hasty plans. Being turned into the monster that had killed them had been its own brand of torture. But the younger Mika couldn't understand that it had been so much worse to experience a thirst for blood and the need to find his only living family left before his time ran out.

If he knew himself well enough, right about now, he would wish he had acquired Ferid's gun sooner. But some small part of him would still cling to hope. Knowing what they do now, they had the possibility of changing their fates so no one would have to suffer like their future counterparts had.

Leaving them at this point would be too cruel.

So he let Yuu finish his story. Raising red eyes from himself, he met Yuu's with a small frown of his own. He could only hope Yuu knew what he was doing. To save themselves means upsetting every possible plan laid out for them, for better or worse. Yuu may be able to save him from becoming a vampire, but the world was too dangerous to venture out alone, much less with a handful of kids in tow. They were still part of the Seraph Project, as well; plenty of groups would know who they were and continue to hunt them down.

Despite that, Mika understood how important it was to try. They could have a more in-depth discussion about it later, away from their younger selves to avoid traumatizing them more than they already had. For now, he averted his gaze, feeling the phantom pain of his heart lurching in his chest as it once again landed on the smaller Yuu.

He could recall Yuu withholding himself from accepting the idea of being part of their family. If only his younger self knew how much it meant to hear him say that now, when they were meant to say goodbye. He would be lucky enough to take it for granted. "You didn't have a choice, Yuu," he spoke up, leaving his younger self's side to take a few tentative steps toward the younger Yuu. Knowing how scary he might still be to the other kids, he stopped short and slowly kneeled down before them. "I wouldn't let you. We lost everyone else and I couldn't bear losing you too."

If Mika hadn't fought him—pleaded and pushed and demanded him to go—he knew Yuu would have stayed and faced whatever fate awaited them. "If you need someone to blame, then you can blame me." He didn't look back at his Yuu, practically sensing his disapproval. But, knowing him as well as he did, he knew Yuu had withheld a lot of details from the smaller Mika too. Instead of bringing up the false map, he uttered, "I desperately wanted you to live, even if it was painful, just so I could feel like I hadn't failed you like I had with everyone else."

Slowly, he looked around and met every child's gaze. The way they had died had stained his memory; they had trusted him blindly and he had let them down. No matter what, he couldn't let that go, even if Yuu told him time and time again that it wasn't his fault. It was for Yuu that he continued to withhold information about Ferid, but every piece of him wanted to lower his head to the ground and apologize from the bottom of his heart. As if that would be enough.

"When I was turned, it was the thought of seeing you again that made me not want to give up right then and there," he murmured. "Then, when we did meet again, you told me to keep living for your sake. Because we're family." A corner of his mouth quirked at the memory. "I thought you were the worst at the time, but it was the same thing I told you years ago when I told you to run. We continued to live because that's what our family would want. Then, when you lived long enough, eventually you would find more people that need you, more people you'd call family that would want you to live and be happy, and they'll become your new reason to carry on."

Little Mika turned to the older Yuu, his mouth a wobbling line as he focused on comforting green eyes. He felt sick to his stomach trying to process it all. How could he let it all go so wrong? But no, Yuu was right. He didn't know and there was no way he could have known if he hadn't been told. It was still painful, but they could still fix it. They weren't their older selves, accompanied by grief and guilt heavier than he believed they could bear. Not yet.

He rubbed at the tear tracks with the back of his hand, wincing when he heard the muffled sobs of the kids. Right, he shouldn't be crying like this, acting out like the kid he was supposed to be. They had the others to care for. Still, he stepped forward and curled his arms around the older Yuu's neck, finding comfort there that helped dry the rest of his tears.

"I'm sorry, Yuu-chan," he mumbled into his shoulder, allowing tired eyes to fall closed. He couldn't apologize for what he hadn't done yet, but he still had a lot to be sorry for. Attempting to shift the blame toward Yuu and his older self was wrong. Keeping secrets and trying to handle everything on his own wasn't good either. "You... you must've been sad. I t-told myself I wouldn't let you be alone a-and..." Unable to speak anymore, he shook his head and buried his face into the rough fabric.

The elder Yuu wanted so badly to bring Mika's younger self into a hug. He could see that he was barely holding it together despite the youth's attempts to make it seem otherwise. He knew that expression would become permanent if he didn't stop it from happening all over again. He knew the happy boy he had arrived seeing would become detached and cold from all but him.

He and Mika both could avoid that trauma of actually living that painful night. Their little family would stay alive and maybe even still make it to freedom. Already a plan was forming in his head of sneaking off and to the familiar exit. He'd just kill any small fry vampire that happened to get in his way and get to the surface.

There he'd find somewhere that the family could live, away from the sights of the Four Horsemen and away from the vampires. He could find them a place where they could gather food. Or heck, even drop them on the doorstep of JIDA. Probably not that last one actually.. He didn't want them to escape here only to then be forced into battling vampires and making a pact with a demon.

He'd see to it that they were able to escape older Mika or no older Mika. He knew that in doing so, he'd alter his present, he may even fade from existence entirely.. But he'd rather not live his current life anyway, so that was fine. Now he just had to get little Mika on board. He didn't think that would take much though since the boy himself still seemed hopeful about finding another way.

He nodded and smiled at the youth's question, but before he could open his mouth again there was another flash of light. He'd just shielded his eyes from it when he heard smaller Mika's cry of alarm and didn't think as he stood with a flash and unsheathed his blade. He was about to charge into action, but then his eyes fell on the vampire in question.

He knew him on sight before Akane ever said anything and his fierce expression softened into a smile as he sheathed Asuramaru again. Was Mika already making the connections he had when he first arrived? He could see the stunned look he wore before the ruby gaze settled on him. But before he could answer, the smaller Mika was already moving forward.

Guilt ate at Yuu as he watched the smaller blond walk up to his elder self. If he hadn't fled that night, he could have been turned with him or they could have died together one or the other. He would have been honest with Mika if he'd asked.. He'd even given him a hint that he was still around too by mentioned Mika was still taller than him. Even so, that didn't keep him from flinching at the demanding, hysterical question that came from the boy.

"Didn't make it? What do you mean?! What's going on here?!" Little Yuu demanded. As soon as he saw the vampire appear he'd stood up and positioned himself between the smaller kids and the vampire. He'd realized the identity of the vampire too after a moment and could hardly believe his eyes. "We all got out right?! If we didn't how is older me a soldier?!"

It seemed the cat was out of the bag now.. He had no choice but to tell them. So he raked a hand through his hair again and rather than look at any of the kids, he kept his eyes on the floor.

"I was the only one who made it out that night we tried to escape. I ran when I should have stayed with all of you.. The rest of you had been killed by one of the noble vampires. Mika was slowly dying when I abandoned him and for four agonizing years I thought I'd left him there to die alone.."

He wasn't surprised to hear his voice breaking a bit as he revealed this to them. He didn't even try to hide the tears this time either, the time for show had come to an end. It was time for honesty.

"I didn't know until much later.. He'd been turned into a vampire against his will.. Then starved himself all of that time since.." He was half across the room when he finally lifted his eyes to meet the ruby gaze with a frown of determination and resolve. "I'm determined, it won't go that way twice. I'm getting you all out. That's a promise."

He kept his green gaze locked to Mika's red as he spoke, the frown deepening. It was his subtle way of asking if he was with him in this or not and that whether he was or not, Yuu would be seeing this through. He'd caught Mika's cut off question before the smaller blond became so upset. Now it was his turn to ask without asking. He wouldn't put him on the spot like that.

He only looked away when he finally stood beside the smaller blond and bent to one knee so he was eye level with him.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you.. I was going to, but then I remembered you put all of the guilt on yourself all of this time. I'm telling you here and now, what would have happened is not your fault."

He'd lowered his voice when he said that, knowing the rest of the family still didn't know about his dealings with Ferid yet. It wasn't his place to do himself either. Besides, there was already so much happening, he didn't want to add to it. As for the smaller Yuu, he was stunned all over again by what he heard, his eyes wide as he stared at the floor.

I.. Left them..? I just ran away..? No.. No! That doesn't seem like me.. That's not me!

He would have at least tried to fight the vampire off. If that blood sucker had killed all of his family and had Mika slowly dying then he wouldn't have wanted to live either.. How had he escaped unscathed? And worse.. That future seemed to have been close at hand..

For the first time since his parents went crazy and turned on him, tears started filling his eyes. That sting seemed to be all it took for his head to jerk up and glare at the two supposedly from the future.

"I don't believe you!" he bellowed at the older Yuu, anger and disgust on his face. "I don't know who you actually are, but I would never leave my family like that!"

He was so riled up he didn't realize he had actually claimed them all as family in that moment. He had half a mind to go over there and start pummeling the one who looked like his older self all over again. The only reason he didn't was the kids hiding behind him.

"How did you survive and everyone else didn't?!" he demanded.

[holocene-sims]

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june 11, 2021 2:45 p.m. newcrest counseling center

[grant] that was, um, actually really helpful. i've definitely been feeling like a complete fucking loser and about a whole lot more than slipping up in recovery and letting my mental health symptoms get out of control. and all these feelings started before päivi. it all started a while back when everything went down with my health and my old job. but when you frame everything like that…

[grant] it’s just–no, it’s really depressing to imagine saying all this stuff to little child me. it’s fucked. it’s so fucked. why didn’t someone give me this analogy a long time ago?

[margot] people just aren’t aware of the whole “inner child” concept. that and there’s a time and a place to explore that ground. if you hear it before you’re ready, you’re more likely to re-traumatize yourself and cause a lot of damage than you are to gain benefit. but it is very important and i consider it essential to my work with PTSD and trauma sufferers. it’s something that you, now that you’re in a safe and stable place to receive the idea and work with it, will greatly benefit from.

[grant] i've been angry for so long because of what happened to me when i was younger and i've been doing the same stuff to myself. what the fuck? why would i ever do that?

[margot] unfortunately that is how it happens. we’re trained to think in a certain way by the people who hurt us and even though we’re angry and bitter and destroyed over it, we can’t help but repeat the same behaviors and look at ourselves through that lens. it’s maladaptive but we learn to do it anyway. it’s second nature. we start to believe all those terrible things about us are true.

[margot] the same reasons you’re driven to hate yourself for a little negligible relapse are the same reasons you blamed yourself automatically and unfairly for being cheated on, for thinking you’re an idiot or a loser for suffering the effects of trauma, and so on. most things you’ve struggled with as an adult are because you’ve adopted the thought methods of your abusers.

[margot] i'm sure you knew all this anyway because this part isn’t really news–of course we end up hating ourselves after we’re taught to–but sometimes you have to hear it to understand it. plus it’s hard to reverse that negative thinking without going back in time. i'm sure you’ve also heard before that you should just “stop thinking that way and love yourself” but we don’t know that when we think negatively, we’re wounding that same hurt child over and over again. we often lack empathy for our current selves because of the need for detachment to survive trauma, but if you think about that child and about them still being part of you, you’ll remember you have value. it really is hard to imagine doing or saying the same cruel things to a child, isn't it?

[margot] and if you don’t mind, i'd like to give you a homework assignment.

[grant] sure. i'm down.

[margot] since it seems to be time for inner child work...i’d like you to write a letter to yourself, to your inner child. it doesn’t matter what you say, where you write it, how you write it, or how long it is. just write something. whatever you have to say, say it. it sounds hard and it is, but when you sit down to do it, you’ll find that you’ll know exactly what you need from this. it’s also very likely going to be painful, one of the most painful things i could ask you to do, but as you already know, being acquainted with that pain as you work through it properly is a necessary part of the process.

[margot] and if it helps, you can look through items from your childhood. photos, report cards, drawings...whatever you have. sometimes people have trouble remembering in detail who they were when they were younger and visual cues can be useful. either way, just write a letter. i won't ask to read it or know its contents for now. this is for you and you alone.

[dreamsmp-au-ideas]

I was going to actually post this before asks closed (didn’t get the chance), but Teddy Bear Anon, you are one of my favorite people and a magnificent creature. You get my vibe. 

About Bad canonically being Sapnap’s dad I feel like that has so much extra angst potential when we consider the rest of the found family. Like. Sapnap, Tommy, and Fundy all have dads who started with the best of intentions but for one reason or another ended up slowly becoming a danger to them. I imagine Tommy and Fundy one day showing up with a cake and telling Sapnap “We regretfully welcome you to the shit dad club” and Sapnap is torn between being upset still and laughing over the absurdity of the situation.

Bonus points if Tommy made the cake using a recipe book that Niki gave him, the last gift Niki ever gave to Tommy. Tommy was originally a really bad cook/baker but after the egg really started to take over he went full survivalist. Leaning to cook was necessary but learning to bake was something he did as a way to raise everyone’s spirits. He’s never gotten the flavor quite to match with Niki’s perfectly but everyone agrees he’s gotten pretty decent in terms of skills. He and Fundy in particular will sometimes just spend an entire day in silence baking and then quietly eat their creations while reflecting on the friends they’ve made and lost over the course of L'manberg’s lifetime. When the group got back to the past and Niki made cookies for Tommy and Fundy the pair very nearly started crying.

Tommy is in an interesting position as a character since he did commit a lot of minor crimes and acted as a general nuisance but he was also still a child. (A very traumatized one considering I canonize SMP Earth with its unlimited lives but even more wars. Including against God. Tommy fought God just let me have this.) He acknowledges the moments when he went over the line and has tried to apologize. In particular at some point before the egg fully takes over he pulls aside Jack and tells him that he’s sorry for the way he acted when he was still in exile, taking one of Jack’s lives and all. Jack and Niki in particular are an interesting subject to address and a painful one for immune!Tommy to think about when he sees younger Niki because the three never fully tossed out the hatchet but it was obvious in the eyes of someone like Sam that both of them were growing more and more hesitant to hurt Tommy. It was made worse by the fact neither were even marginally immune, and it didn’t take long for the egg to get to them.

He never stopped being chaotic. Tommy at his core is just that kind of person. He did, however, grow up enough to act in a more mature manner. Started to recognize what’s too much. In particular he became a lot less violent and willing to lash out after Sam Nook in essence reparented him. He’s still an absolute wild card of a person, which in the eyes of Sam and Sapnap is a good thing. For this au I think we should actually address Tommy having severe ptsd and during the building of his hotel/the early days of the egg before it becomes a noticeable threat it shows. He’s a lot more subdued. Shows of aggression all carry a kind of desperation and his typical jokes feel flat. Lashing out at people slowly becomes more of a defense mechanism to see if someone’s going to leave or betray him, to test the limits of how nice they’re willing to be. After all, nice people have only ever been nice to Tommy when they wanted something from him. His eyes, especially after L'manberg is blow sky high, are well and truly gray. The first time Tommy genuinely laughs after filling Sapnap’s room with chickens is considered celebration worthy to them. His pranks take on a more hermitcraft-esque feel to them which honestly makes them more funny.

By the time they get to the past Tommy has recovered, but he still carries the kind of maturity that like Teddy Bear mentioned is reminiscent of age swap Tommy. When he gets especially stressed though, Immune!Tommy will slip into moments where he acts as tired and done with the world as age swap Tommy. With that said, most of the time he just acts like a more mature Tommy. Nothing could ever completely erase his unique vibe which Ranboo has gone on record as describing “Willing to fight God deaf, blind, and backwards just to prove a point." 

Immune Fundy and Tommy get on really well once Fundy manages to catch up with the rest of the group. It gets to the point where everyone from the past is kinda shocked since smp Fundy and Tommy do not get along. At all. Literally the first night Fundy’s back someone goes to wake them up and they find Fundy asleep on top of Tommy which is a wild experience since this Tommy is a goliath who often refuses to take off his full Netherite max enchant armor. He really becomes a "looks like he could kill you but is actually a cinnamon roll” kinda mans.

Also, yeah, this is Dream’s retirement arc. He is literally just sitting in the corner watching Tommy dote on his younger self and Tubbo before completely pile driving two of the most powerful people on the server straight into the dirt. At some point Tommy sits down with past Punz. He tells this Punz that their Punz died protecting him and Tubbo and that Tommy never got to properly thank their Punz so he’s going to thank this Punz. Tommy then gives Punz an entire stack of Netherite. If we’re gonna go ahead and agree on Phoenix Tommy then Tommy is fire proof, meaning he probably spent a large amount of time in the nether to avoid the egg crew and get rare supplies. Meaning he also probably did a lot of mining just to distract himself and it resulted in him being loaded. Tommy used to have a fear of tnt and explosives but he seems like the type of mad lad to say “exposure therapy” and make a massive cavern in the underbelly of the nether.

I think it would also be really interesting to dedicate like, a couple of chapters to other people’s perspectives. I kind of want to set the time they arrive in the past partway through the Pogtopia arc since I like mildly unhinged but not completely gone Wilbur. Plus then it also makes more sense for Techno to be there. Just prefer the aesthetic really. I want to have Wilbur see this version of Tommy and come to a sudden “oh” moment. I want to have a moment where Tubbo looks between his Tommy and this new Tommy, seeing himself nowhere to be found, and has enough what the fuck moments to become aggressively protective of his own Tommy. Especially if immune!Tommy ever admits to the past Tubbo why he is the way he is, what he faced under the thumb of the people he trusted. Which, out of everyone on the server, Tubbo would be the first one from the past to actively learn. 

I am fully on board with Tommy knowing how to sew. That should just automatically be canon in literally ever AU. Tommy for all intents and purposes is still Phil’s child for me. Survival runs in the family the same way that chaos does, so he’s got a ton of basic survival skills that he just doesn’t show off because it’s still Tommy. He would have been completely fine in exile if it wasn’t for Dream. Whenever someone ruins their clothes in the Immune group they automatically go to Tommy and at first the past versions are very confused (except for past Tommy and Tubbo obviously) and then Tommy’s just “Sapnap this is beyond ruined it can’t be saved, let me make you something new” and within a couple days he makes Sapnap a completely new outfit. Like maybe Sapnap fell into a lava pool because Blaze Sapnap Supremacy and his clothes are beyond saving and everyone is beyond baffled when Tommy just acts like this is a weekly occurrence. He’s memorized Sapnap’s measurements and style tastes and already had a new outfit in the works for him that Sapnap immediately adores upon it being presented to him. It takes about a week for past Eret to learn that Tommy stress sews new clothing and he cannot think of a better model. Eret has never had such a full closet. Eret has everything from three piece suits to ball gowns now. Eret lives in terror of the days where Tommy disappears god knows where with Fundy and the two reappear with a new wardrobe for the entire god damn server. 

Speaking of disappearing I really like the idea of part phoenix and part tanuki Tommy for a couple reasons. Being a Tanuki he’d have access to enough magic to hide his hybrid traits, which if they’ve been present for long enough would be a necessity to him. Additionally think about Fundy and Tommy building a den under Church Prime that slowly turns into a maze. Think about it. It starts off simple and then they both start digging more and it gets deeper and deeper and more complicate and the two just refer to it as their den and the only ones who are fully aware of the connotations of that word are Sam, Sapnap, and Ranboo who remember the absolute hell that was trying to navigate the original. Just Fundy and Tommy bonding over the fact they are literally the only creatures on this server that have this catacomb memorized and at the end of the catacomb is their saferoom which connects to rail way that the two spent a month straight on. It goes at least 25k blocks from spawn and it’s a final emergency resort in case they can’t stop the egg and the Immunes needs to regroup and essentially try again (if they keep bringing their younger selves with them then hopefully they’ll finally get an army large enough to stop this, but everyone really hopes it doesn’t come to that.)

I’m working on the first chapter of my fic right now actually if I’m gonna be honest and phoenix Tommy is absolutely without question canon to it but I’ve still been going back and forth on if I want him to be part tanuki as well or just blessed/favored by one like Teddy Bear mentioned. I’m also tucking away the whole thing about the magma blood for later use. Phoenix Tommy just makes sense. They used to call him Zombie Kid for a reason back on SMP Earth, he just literally does not die ever unless he decides he does.

~Snapdragon & Firefly

[loud-whistling-yes]

I have Vivid imaginings of a time travel au with the bench trio and Michael. Something something code mutations due to time travel, blah blah blah, long story short everybody who goes back gets some funky fun hybrid features. Everybody gets one new feature and also a death multiplier on their current features. Tommy gets a lion mane because brave little lion man and also triple wings (archangel tommy pog), Tubbo gets either a little nuclear shulker bunker built in to him or some extra nuclear spider eyes but also double the horns (like jacob sheep, looks like a demon, very good), Ranboo gets nothing amplified because he hasn't died yet but he does get some kinda Warden mutation thing that makes it fucking terrifying when all three of them show up and the lights start dimming. Michael has bee wings because yes.

They show up during the Independence War, watch in the distance as their younger selves dick around, steal Eret's communicator, use it to tell the Dream Team that Wilbur has something important going on at (egg coordinates) and then very gently remotely set off a nuke directly in the Dream Team's faces, resulting in all three going down a life and the egg turning into a chunk error. This makes negotiations for L'Manburgian freedom tilt decidedly in Wilbur's favor, since none of the rebels died as Eret never had the chance to betray any of them, and the Dream Team does not want to risk losing another, especially not when the time travelers make a clear statement that they won't stand for tyranny, whether that be Dream's or anyone else's, and they will kill again to keep that from happening.

In order to make sure that Dream, Wilbur, or anyone else who wants to fuck the server up doesn't go mad with power, the bench trio make Syndicate 2.0 but, y'know, actually dedicated to preventing corruption instead of doing domestic terrorism and making power vacuums. Egyptian god themed instead of Greek because I can so I will. Tommy goes by Sekhmet (lion, war, cow form, pog) and sets a lot of the terms while Ranboo and Tubbo rebuild Snowchester with Michael. Diplomatic, traumatized Tommy goes about as well as you'd expect. Tubbo doesn't want to do politics anymore because being a teen president was not fun, he's here solely to fuck people up when they fuck up, and he goes by Set (chaos god, antelope form, known for both betrayal and protection). Ranboo makes contracts, keeps the books spiffy, keeps everyone honest, and is only seen from the shadows, but goes by Seshat (scribe god, known for record-keeping, if this isn't perfect I don't know what is).

I only have one scene that I've actually thought about.

(Sapnap, a life down and a little more than pissed off, going out and adventuring and finding himself in a snow biome. There's a zombie piglin kid just hanging out in some overworld clothing, with some weird bee cape or whatever.

Sapnap figures it's somebody's pet. He's felt shaky and strange and a little bit sick ever since he went to the coordinates from Eret's stolen communicator and woke up screaming. He could use the catharsis of fucking something up for somebody else.

He shrugs.

He raises his sword.

Then he promptly respawns in his own bed, down to his last life.

Tubbo grimaces, feeling the phantom ache of the long-healed wound that caused his first death twinge in sympathy, puts away his axe, picks up Michael, and goes back home.)

(I'm sorry for how long this is but I've been thinking about it for the past several weeks and I needed to tell someone)

Anon I want you to know I'm now obsessed with this I need more

[nightswithkookmin]

I am curious about your take on something. So Taekook probably hate the idea of Taekook, right? If Jk and Jimin are together (as I beleive they are) then the very idea of taekook has to be like sooo weird for everyone, especially when it results in hate directed at Jimin. So why don't Taekook agree to like NEVER LAY HANDS ON ONE ANOTHER in public. I know they shouldnt have to. They like skinship and all. And no one is going cray cray over jinkook or jihope etc. But its an easy fix? Maybe not?

Tradshippers... Haha.

The gag being Tuktukkers say the same thing about Jimin and Jikook all the time- if V is his soulmate and friend, shouldn't he keep his hands off JK? Shouldn't he respect the sanctity of his friends' relationship? Doesn't he care that his actions with JK hurt Tae? That he is wrecking another man's home, yadda, yadda, yadda.

Heard it all before. Not particularly impressed by that level of rudimentary mental adroitness- at all. It all flows from insecurities and or the shipper's dissatisfaction with how these people in reality interact with one another because that often tend to be in disharmony with their shipping fantasies about their OTP.

The shipping community in general is a fantasy bubble. Haven't done much research on its demographics but from my observation, it seems the younger demographic can't seem to detach fantasy from reality while the much 'adult' population'- perhaps, for fear of having their reality warped or their hearts broken, are too engrossed in reality as such tend to approach shipping with quizical glares at best, cynicism, skepticism and what I like to call a false sense of logic- at worst.

Then of course, there are those in between.

But one thing they all seem to have in common is their emotional response to the demystification of their fantasies. Like any fantasy, people tend to lash out at or carry resentment towards anything or anyone that threatens their false sense of safety built around their fantasy.

For Taekookers they tend to lash out at Jimin or even Jokers because they threaten their sense of ship safety. Jokers do the same with JK more so than Tae, but Tae too nevertheless.

Taekook, Jinkook and the other ships Jikooker's are threatened by are viewed as threats and looked upon with disdain and resentment only because they ruin the fantasy of Jikook for them and nothing else.

And if that's not the case, then these people are too invested in someone else's relationship and lack both personal and emotional boundaries- it's their relationship not ours.

You can't sit in your homes, behind the screens and pilot someone else's relationship or point out what is wrong with their relationship and feel strongly about it to the point you start demanding and dictating how they should relate with eachother or their friends- that's entitlement and borderline toxicity which is scary, not gonna lie.

Jikook and Vmin equally ruin the fantasy of Taekook for their shippers. And they look to Jimin as the grinch and killjoy, hence lash out against him without reservation.

In a perfect shipping alternate universe, Taekook or Jikook would be couples within a group where it's glaringly clear that they are couples and as such no other ship would compete or interact with them in a way that raises questions about the general perception of them as a couple unit within the group or threaten their status as such. But this is reality. Not fantasy. And it just doesn't work that way.

Most of these conversational topics you raise are about how people want their OTP to behave rather than how their OTP actually behave towards one another.

It's especially disconcerting when their disapproval of an interaction stems from them 'wrongly' labeling or interpreting that interaction as 'intimate' and or romantic and proceed to go on an emotionally charged rant on behalf of their OTP calling for them to instill boundaries.

Maybe Tae is not instilling boundaries for JK with Jimin because he doesn't have the right to? Because he is not in a relationship with either Kook or Jimin?

Maybe Jimin is not telling Tae and Kook to keep the skinship off cameras because he is not bothered by the 'hate he receives' because of their interactions?

Tae kook have been interacting on our screens for 7 good years. You think if Jimin found their interactions as problematic or disrespectful to his relationship with Kook that he wouldn't have nipped that in the bud?

Have you not seen him react a countless time to when he is uncomfortable with an interaction that crosses his limits or boundaries? It should tell you he doesn't have a problem with Tae Kook at all.

He only has a problem when an interaction crosses the line. Same with JK. And if due to his ideosyncracy he can't stomach an interaction, he averts his eyes. I don't think he would want them to stop interacting all together. If he did that would be problematic because they are all friends and he doesn't own Kook or vice versa.

Also the statement that Tae Kook need to keep their skinship off camera because Jimin receives a lot of hate because of it is a non sequitur. Tae kook is not the reason Jimin recieves a lot of hate in the fandom. Jikook is.

Taekook doesn't hurt Jimin, Jikook does. People lash out at Jimin because of his interactions with JK not because of JK's interaction with with Tae.

So the solution would not be for Tae and Kook to keep their skinship off camera, it would be for JK and Jimin to not interact on camera at all. I mean if we are being honest.

And all those who claim JK isn't protecting Jimin because his interactions with Tae is what fuels the passions of Tuktukkers towards Jimin, think again...

JK puts up boundaries with Tae as it is. Out of all BTS, they are the two who have openly admitted to having 'drifted apart' over the years- I wonder why. When Tae spoke about wanting JK to treat him as a friend rather than hyung, JK told him he couldn't do that because that would have led to a lot of fights between them. What other boundaries do y'all expect him to put up again?

Dude rarely nurtures his relationship outside Jimin within the group- responding to texts a whole year later and what not.

And even with this, Jimin recieves a lot of backlash regardless. I think we need to stop justifying hate. There is no justification for hate. No excuse is excuse enough for the traumatization of another human being.

JK equally gets dragged for filth in these shipping streets. Tuktukkers hate him as much as they hate Jimin because of his interactions with Jimin. Tae stans hate him. Jimin stans hate him. He is neither here nor there. He got called a pig, sissy, and all kinds of derogatory names when he pulled away at KBS when Tae wanted to hold his hands.

Jokers, PJM jokers drag him for filth in their gcs and shit and equally hates on him because to him he doesn't love Jimin enough or at all. Especially, when he doesn't interact with JM in a way that pleases them.

The problem is Jikook. Both Jimin and JK will have their peace of mind if they didn't interact at all and kept their relationship private. The best way for JK to protect his boyfriend from all this bullshit is to keep a safe distance from him and act like he doesn't know him or never met him- because that is how Kpop idols usually protect their relationships.

And yet, and YET, when he does just that y'all jump on his neck on every turn, screaming Jk hates Jimin and doesn't love him. I gotta ask-

WHAT Y'ALL WANT FROM JK?!

People just like to ruin beautiful things, don't they?

And while we are at it, let me address this Ask I got a few days ago claiming if JK loves Jimin then it doesn't make sense for him to want to act so loud with Jimin or express his feelings for him in a way that out's their relationship because that can hurt Jimin and bring him a lot of hate...

You think Jimin openly loving on JK doesn't bring JK a lot of hate too? Damn. It's the double standards for me. Lmho.

Listen, JM has a duty to protect JK just as much as JK has a duty to protect JM. By your logic, if Jimin loves Jk then he equally needs to stop doting on him in public because his love causes JK as much pain as JK's love causes Jimin- but Jimin can't stay away now can he?

Jimin had to ask JK permission to express himself the way that he does with him- on their Log when he asked JK if he was ok with him saying he loved him on camera. Jk had a need to keep their relationship private, Jimin had a need to keep it open and clearly didn't want to hide their relationship. But they have since outgrown their old selves. Their wants and their needs have changed- if you pay attention to JK's lyrics in recent times.

Their dynamics keep flipping. And they are constantly negotiating their needs, from my perspective anyway- let them do them. Y'all didn't seem to have a problem when in their earlier dynamics Jimin was the one pushing for them to be open with their relationship. JK eventually gave up his need to hide their relationship didn't he? And overtime he became comfortable expressing affection for Jimin openly.

Yet, suddenly when JK wants the same thing in their relationship y'all claim he is being unreasonable and unfair towards Jimin? Huh?

Granted, he over does it sometimes. Yes. Lol.

But you can't hold Jikook to different standards. They are both human and their feelings for eachother are equally valid. Their needs from eachother are valid in the same weight.

If Jimin gets to show the whole world just how much he loves JK and because of that many people are convinced Jimin loves JK more than JK loves him- even if half of the time he is using fanservice as a cover or even his persona as a cover, then why can't JK equally use his art or whatever means he prefers as a cover to show the world just how much he loves Jimin?

...Even if half of the time he is borderline outing him and getting him in trouble? Lol. That's just the love if you ask me. Hehehe.

Chilee JK, you make it hard to defend you sometimes! Lol. Just don't out your man. How hard is that!😭🤭

Seriously though, you don't think he wants people to see he loves Jimin too? Damn, y'all be reading Jimin wrong. Because Jimin loves it when JK shows the world he loves him... Did you see his face after Rosebowl? Why do you think JK keeps cutting it close? Dude is gunning for the points. Lmho. Jikook speak eachother's love language. Let that sink in.

If JK is pushing against the glass closet it's because he is convinced that that is something Jimin wants but is afraid to go after and he is the fearless one among the two. Y'all just be fighting the wrong battles. Lmho.

Jikook is asserting themselves against eachother. They are pushing eachother's boundaries and I don't think that is necessarily a bad thing.

You can't claim JK doesn't love Jimin and in the same breath condemn and disapprove of the ways he expresses himself and his love for Jimin- I think you need to free JK now!

Between Tuktukkers and certain Jokers, I don't know who is worse- Nevermind, I'm not a fan tradshippers in general.

JK is there to please his man not shippers and the way I see it Jimin looks like a satisfied customer to me.

If you are dissatisfied with Jikook, there are a countless other ships in BTS. Get on one. See how that goes. Lol.

Where were we, Anon?

Oh right, Tae Kook. Lol.

I think we need to learn to hold the right people accountable for their actions. The problem is not Tae Kook, or Jikook or any other ship. The problem is with the toxic shippers who use them as an excuse to perpetuate unfathomable hurt towards the boys and towards others.

I think Tuktukkers need to develop a better attitude towards Jikook. Jikooker's need to do the same about Tae Kook or Jin Kook.

Personally, I would rather Jikook kept their relationship private but I also understand their need to take advantage of the glass closet- secrets are hard to hide. They get heavy before they get easy.

And Jimin loves to be loved. He loves when you show him off. It's part of his love language. You can't date him and Keep him a secret- and still we question why JK doesn't want to hide him.

If y'all don't want to ship Jikook that's fine. I'll ship them myself.😒

Whatever decisions they are making, I support it wholeheartedly. I support them with every fiber of my being.

LONG LIVE JIKOOK. JIKOOK IS REAL.

Signed,

GOLDY

[livinglikearoyal]

K-drama Recommendations: Nov. 2019

One of you asked for some K-Drama recommendations and here you are! Keep in mind that I watched some of these quite a while ago so the plot isn’t as fresh in my mind as I’d like. I tried to keep the list to K-dramas that are fairly easy to find either on Netflix or Hulu. I’d love to hear your opinions on these and any recommendations you have for me! Also, these aren’t necessarily in any sort of order...but I will say the top 10 that were described are ones that I will probably rewatch at some point because I enjoyed them so much.

Chicago Typewriter (Netflix)

Summary: This one is hard to summarize without giving away the storyline. It follows a group of three characters through two eras: the 1930s Japanese occupation of Korea and then the present timeline. The characters’ reincarnated selves are brought together seemingly by fate and struggle to find out the truth of the past lives.

Why I liked it: Netflix almost did me dirty on this one. The summary and preview that popped up were not intriguing to me at all. However, it said I’d be interested in this (98%) so I figured I’d give it a shot. Boy...was this a journey. I absolutely fell in love with the characters and I loved how there wasn’t a “weak link” in the trio. They all brought something unique and important to the dynamic of the show. The acting is spectacular and they really allowed these characters to grow. The storyline can be predictable at times...but how they get there is unexpected. The ending had me in happy tears. 10/10 will watch again!

Romance is a Bonus Book (Netflix)

Summary: This kdrama follows Kang Dani, a 30-something mother, and her journey to find herself after a divorce. She reenters the workforce after being a housewife and finds herself at a popular publishing company as a temporary worker (I believe it was an internship). This company just happens to have one of her childhood friends as one of the co-owners and editors-in-chief. That doesn’t make it any easier on her and the series follows her through the hardships and triumphs of finding her independence. 

Why I liked it: The title says it all. The romance is just the cherry on top for this storyline. It really follows Kang Dani and looks at all of the challenges that people of various demographics face: single parents, “older” individuals trying to find a job after a time away (and while competing with the younger folks), women in general, etc. I was going through a bit of a quarter-life crisis when I stumbled upon this...questioning my job, my love life (or lack thereof), the expectations that I was facing...and it really helped ease a lot of the anxiety. Plus, Kang Dani and  Cha Eunho are absolutely adorable working alongside each other. The ending credits of the final episode got me too. This is the one that I couldn’t help to rave about to my coworkers that have never watched a kdrama in their lives. 

Strong Girl Do Bong-Soon (Netflix)

Summary: Bong-Soon was born with superhuman strength like the other women in her family and she aspires to become a video game creator--making a game with a strong female character like herself. In real life, she tries to be more “girly” and “delicate” but it doesn’t always work. One thing leads to another and she finds herself hired as a bodyguard to the CEO(?) of a video game company and also tries to find a kidnapper that is threatening her neighborhood. 

Why I liked it: Strong female lead...duh! :) But in all honesty, I don’t remember all of the details from this one as I watched it a long while ago. I remember it being funny, sweet, inspiring and suspenseful. I loved the main three characters too! 

Hello, My Twenties  (Netflix)

Summary: A group of female college students learns and grows while living together. Each character has their own backstory, secrets, and hardships. The five bond through the various hardships, traumas, and successes that come their way. 

Why I liked it: 5 strong women finding their way in the world. They struggle with so many realistic things: temptations, poverty, insecurities in their love life, an apartment ghost, an attractive neighbor. It was a fun and heartfelt journey. Realistic. You can definitely learn something from this one! Once again, my single self enjoyed that it wasn’t relying on a love story to draw the plot forward also.

The Smile Has Left Your Eyes (Hulu)

Summary: Kim Moo Young has lived a traumatic life and is rolling with the punches. He has also forgotten many of his childhood memories. When he happens upon Jung So Min, he doesn’t think anything of it. They grow on each other and eventually enter a relationship, much to the disapproval of her brother, a homicide detective. He believes Kim Moo Young is more sinister than he lets on. 

Why I liked it: Just looking at clips/photos/quotes from this drama still tugs on my heartstrings. This one made me an emotional MESS. Seo In Guk is PHENOMENAL as Moo Young. Absolutely phenomenal. His character is so cold and detached--flawed--but he still makes the viewer connect with him. The storyline could be cliche (amnesia, secrets, etc), but they execute it so well. Each episode is a cliff-hanger and you get so emotionally invested in the characters, Moo Young especially, that you just stay up all night binging it...knowing that you are on a train that is heading straight for heartbreak. I will definitely rewatch when I’m in my feelings. 

One Spring Night (Netflix)

Summary: Lee Jung-In is a librarian who happens to meet Yoo Jiho at the pharmacy where she buys a remedy to her hangover but forgets her wallet. He tells her to pay him back later and pays for a taxi. She is in a long-term relationship with a very well-off gentleman and is battling with pressure to get married from both her family and her significant other, but she has her doubts. This meeting with Yoo Jiho makes her question marriage even more as she begins to fall for him. Another issue, he is a single father and is looked down upon by their society and her family because of it. 

Why I liked it: I always love a show where they go against the norms. I fell in love with Yoo Jiho immediately and his son even more so. It is real. The conversations are thought-provoking. The love is sweet. 

Just Between Lovers (a.k.a. Rain or Shine) (Netflix)

Summary: Two individuals who lost their loved ones in a tragic mall collapse meet each other after there is news that a new mall is being built in the same location. Lee Gang-Doo was an aspiring soccer player when he lost his father (a construction worker) in the mall collapse and his legs were injured, ruining his dream. He has become a bit of a “bad boy”. Ha Moon-Soo was at the mall with her younger sister when it collapsed. Ha Moon-Soo survived; her sister did not. The two characters find out that their lives are more interwoven than they thought and work to figure out how they can stop another traumatic event from happening in the same location.

Why I liked it: It had mystery. It had trauma. It had love. These two main characters are complete opposites on the outside but their traumas bring them together and they make an awesome team. Another one that really tugs on your heartstrings! 

Black (Netflix)

Summary:  Black is a detective possessed by the Grim Reaper. Ha-Ram can see shadows of death. These two struggle to save the lives of people, breaking the rules of heaven. (from AsianWiki)

Why I liked it: It has been quite a while since I watched this one. It was my first Korean mystery show. This is one that you can’t watch when you are distracted...you need to have your eyes on the screen at all times or you are going to miss something important. It was suspenseful and interesting. I’m not sure if it is one I will rewatch, but it is definitely worth the first time!

Vagabond (Netflix)

Summary: This is a newer addition to Netflix. Cha Dalgun is a stuntman that has taken in his nephew after he was abandoned by his mother. Their relationship becomes strained as his nephew begins to see how much Cha Dalgun hadn’t wanted a child before him and doesn’t have the finances to live a prosperous life. When his nephew dies in a tragic plane crash alongside the rest of his soccer team, we begin to see how much the boy meant to Cha Dalgun. When some video clips shared on the cloud make Dalgun suspect malicious intent in the plane crash, our story begins. He meets Go Haeri, a member of the NIS, when the bereaved families fly in to collect their deceased loved ones. A story of political corruption, big business, terrorism, doubt, and crime-fighting ensues. 

Why I liked it: This one isn’t completed on Netflix yet so I don’t know the ending, but it is definitely suspenseful and you find yourself trying to figure it all out and cheering on or booing at the characters. The characters of Cha Dalgun and Go Haeri both won my heart early on and now I’m hoping their ship sails! Each episode leaves you on the edge of you seat. 

Rookie Historian Goo Hae Ryung (Netflix)

Summary: Goo Hae Ryung is still single in her late twenties and is seen as a sort of misfit as she seeks knowledge rather than a husband. She becomes a female historian in the Joseon Dynasty. Prince Yirim has been living a life away from society, writing love stories that are popular but forbidden by the government. The two happen upon each other in a book store where she speaks poorly of his writing/genre. As they come to be familiar with each other through their positions, they work to uncover the secrets that the rulers would prefer to keep hidden. 

Why I liked it: The cast of characters is spectacular. While Hae Ryung and Yirim are the leads, there are so many supporting characters that catch your attention and win over your heart or make you absolutely hate them. They also aren’t all the boring, simple, support characters. They are so complex that this seems more like a slice of life piece rather than a drama. The storyline is interesting, especially to someone with little to no knowledge about the Joseon dynasty, Hae Ryung stays strong and independent while also showing her vulnerability. Yirim puts off a clueless aura but is really a strong character. Did I mention the characterization is amazing? 

A Few Honorable Mentions...

Something in the Rain (Netflix)

Memories of the Alhambra (Netflix)

When the Camellia Blooms (Netflix)

Descendants of the Sun (Hulu)

Thirty but Seventeen (Hulu)

What's Wrong with Secretary Kim (Hulu)

[everything-laito]

This may be a bit of a weird question, but since Laito "loves" through sexual intercourse, how does he "love" his brothers? Obviously he wouldn't sleep with them, but throughout the series I thought he has shown that he truly does care and love them as brothers (correct me if I am wrong). So, does this mean he does know what healthy love is like before Yui/MC comes to help him realize what it is??

Hi Anon! Thanks for stopping by my ask box! This one’s an interesting one! But the full explanation is under the cut, hope you enjoy!

Ok, I mentioned in another analysis about the differences of saying “I love you” in Japanese. However, I mentioned in that culture that it’s more of a “showing your feelings” culture vs “telling your feelings.” Although I’m learning Japanese myself, and I do know a chunk of the contexts when it comes to this stuff, I’m not sure about what verbal phrases they use when they express family affection, if they’re not showing it. I know from the top of my head that Cordelia uses “ai” (愛) when saying “I love you” to Laito. However, I do know that she’s viewing Laito as not a son, but more of a suitor or even as Karlheinz replacement. I do believe she mentioned that Laito (for some reason?) looks like more like him out of his brothers. (I could be wrong about that but I’m pretty sure she does mention that at one point. I know she also considers Reiji to look like Karl too for some reason). 

For one thing, there’s different kinds of love in general, not even in the Japanese language. When you tell your family that you love them, it’s different from saying “I love you” to a lover, or even a friend as well. So I believe you got confused between the different inferences of love, which is totally fine, because it happens a lot. I did go into detail to definitions of love with the analysis I linked previously as well. Also note, that the Sakamaki’s (and I think??? all the dl boys??? I know the Mukamis for sure as well) AREN’T Japanese. They’re from Europe, also given by the clothes that their younger selves wear too. Also it’s just canon that they’re from Romania. So, the cultural and linguistic differences surrounding saying “I love you” in Eastern Europe vs in Japan can be a bit different. So I hope that clarifies that whole part of your question. 

I know there’s parts where Laito says he loves his brothers (which I usually think he’s referring to Kanato and Ayato most of the time), but I do know that he says he hates them. Obviously, I do think that he cares about them though, it’s just confusing for him. (I’ve analyzed their relationships with Laito too here) It’s also what his other brothers are taught too, the triplets have a pattern of “loving the other so much that they ‘hate them.’” I recently was enlightened to the term “Amadeus syndrome” via the anime, Banana Fish. It’s not a medical term per se, but it refers to the play Amadeus, based off of a stage play about Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. From what I can gather, it involves this other talented pianist who both loves and hates Mozart.

I always found that phrase, “loving someone so much you hate them” that the triplets (and Cordelia) say just as some poetic paradox. Although Dialovers does have many poetic moments, I couldn’t decipher this one, especially at first. Now, given my new perspective with the “Amadeus Syndrome” phrase that Banana Fish coined, I believe I get it now.

The “hatred” in this case has to do more with jealousy than “hatred.” 

And don’t tell me that you haven’t had a friend or family member, or even lover (if you’ve had one) that you haven’t been at least envious of for something at least once. I’m not talking about jealousy here, because envy and jealousy are different. Envy’s definitely a more ��diet” version of jealousy from what I observe. Sure you may not feel envy towards them all the time, but maybe you’re having a bad day and you’re wishing you had more of their personality or skill for something. For some people, it’s in spurts and they have those emotions because of prior feelings (aka having a bad day like I said). For some (probably less than some), they have envy issues with the other person all the time. Either way, that person still loves that other person (assuming they don’t let their feelings get to them), and usually use those negative feelings to make themselves grow more positively, so they stop comparing themselves to said other person. It depends on how you express those feelings (and how secure they are about themselves). Obviously it’s unhealthy to continue to feel those negative emotions towards people you love, and let it fester (and happen often), but I hope this example conveys what I’m trying to say. Does that make sense??? 

This is similar to that situation, except with three traumatized boys and a whole lot of time. Yes, they care for their brothers but they’re jealous of each other for some reason, especially Laito and Ayato. They both confess to each other in the VS II CD that they care about each other, but they hate them because of x, y, z, but it’s more of a jealous type. Laito’s jealous that Ayato’s “pure” and Ayato’s upset that Laito wasn’t there for him when they were kids. 

Basically, no, I don’t think that Laito knows what a healthy relationship is before Yui, since the “healthiest” (and I use that word very lightly in this case) relationship is twisted with jealousy and misunderstandings. In that long analysis about analyzing his relationship with each Sakamaki, there are wonderful analyses (by other people) and examples of him being “big bro Laito” and showing his affection in a more “Laito-style” way. Whether it’s being a mega shitposter and bantering/annoying Reiji or giving Kanato some twisted but “heartfelt” advice, he definitely doesn’t hate them deep down. 

Hopefully that answered your question! If I missed anything or if you have any questions, please let me know!

See you next time! 

-Corn

[ketolifecolorado]

Protecting my energy has been one of my super powers. It's been really hard, but I loved this infographic - it shows exactly all the things I've been doing in this chapter of my life. . A lot of people have been traumatized in their younger years, turning them into people pleasers. Not knowing when to set boundaries or take their own space and make their life and body a priority... . In fact setting boundaries and protecting your energy can really set a lot of people off. They might call you crazy, a loner, a loser, a failure, weird, "special". . Saying no to those who only take, and investing in those who are "open" to inquirey is where it's been at for me. . To a certain extent, of course, I set aside time to serve people, volunteer or go to groups where people may need a shoulder to cry on or an ear, it's beautiful to connect with humans, and scratches an itch nothing else can. . But, protecting your energy, in this world made of energy vibrations, is all we can do to show up as our highest selves. To be able to focus on our own wrong doings/negative pathways we are going down or lies that we are believing.. . It's nice finding people you feel safe with. But you don't know they are there until you start looking. Start by focusing on your actions/taking responsibility for your life and you are happiness, and not others is where it all begins. . We choose our life. We choose our energy. . Tag someone who needs to see this. . #keto #energy #flow #youfirst #nonduality #spiritspo #spiritualawakening #acim #lawofone #chooseyou #youfirst #integratedinquiry #integration #consciousness #ketoandconscious #weightloss #newyou #newyearnewme #mercuryretrograde #twinflames #starseed (at Waxhaw, North Carolina) https://www.instagram.com/p/CVHPIdHA2N0/?utm_medium=tumblr

[guymaito]

For the ask thing :3:

Top 5 animals? Top 5 fav/comfort movies? Top 5 fav cartoons/shows?

I’m honestly glad to know theres other people including you who actually like Pakku and his character :3 Yes he was a completely asshole at the start but he did change, it’s just that it was so subtle that not everyone saw it

Also random song associations with characters:

Fighter by Jack Stauber reminds me very well of Piandao, Pakku, and Jeong Jeong as their younger selves during the war.

Why do I associate Grace by Lewis Capaldi with Bumi? (the music video tho would give more context to why it might make sense)

Oh Klahoma by Jack Stauber reminds me of Piandao and his overall anxieties for his partners.

Consider some of these songs as sorta song recs? Idk but still :3

1. Giraffes!! the reason why their tongues look like That is cause of extra melanin and to prevent sunburn!!

2. Seals!! there are 33 different kinds of pinnipeds and there over 50 extinct pinnipeds

3. Dogs!! they can only see in shades of blue and yellow, so bright red roses look yellowish brown and lively green grass look dehydrated and dead

4. Crows!! a group of them are called a murder

5. Cows!! they’re actually colorblind, they can’t see red specifically, so male cows, bulls aren’t getting mad at the color, they’re getting angry at the movement

1. The Losers movie from 2010, it’s a action mystery movie about Clay and his team that are a part of an elite US Special Forces Unit and are approached by a mysterious woman to exact revenge on their handler, Max, who betrayed them and just,,,the characters, CHRIS EVANS, jake jensen and all of his kinda weird glory, THE ELEVATOR SCENE, also cougar!!

2. Captain America and The Winter Soldier movie, it’s a action movie, which makes me realize that a lot of my faves are prolly gonna be action something, but anyways, it’s about Steve Rogers, who now lives in the nation's capital as he tries to adjust to modern times. An attack on a S.H.I.E.L.D. colleague throws Rogers into a web of intrigue that places the whole world at risk. Joining forces with the Black Widow, Natasha Romanov, and a new ally, Sam Wilson, Steve struggles to expose an ever-widening conspiracy, but he and his team soon come up against an unexpected enemy. oh my god,,,just,,,the fight scenes, the running scene at the beginning of the movie, steve meeting sam that way, just everything!! this was also my introduction to marvel so in my mind no other marvel movie can live up to this (other than spiderman away from home)

3. Spiderman Far from Home, again, it’s a action movie, i’m not gonna explain this cause the post is getting long, but!! mj and peter!! just,,,all of their scenes!! also jake gyllenhaal!! the fight scenes!! the soundtrack!! everything about it is amazing!!

4. Thunderforce, again, i’m not gonna explain, it’s an action adventure and comedy movie (ofc it is look at the other 3 🙄 /s), the relationship between lydia and emily!! the relationship between lydia and emily’s daughter!! the humor!! the fight scenes!! the soundtrack!!,,,,just everything about is good despite the bad ratings

that’s more like a top 4 than a top 5 but that’s like,,,,all the movies i genuinely like and will rewatch if given the chance and for that where’s a honorable mention: Hamilton (the movie version on disney+ that came out i think nearly a year ago), the soundtrack is amazing, the characters are better, got some funny moments and is mostly historically accurate, like yeah angelica did forget her name cause at the time of her meeting alex ham, she was married to a man named john church (or something church idk) so her last name was church but she introduced herself to alexander as angelica schuyler, not angelica church, so in satisfied she was telling the truth about forgetting her own name, but in the same song she said that her father had no sons even though the real angelica had 3 brothers.

1. Avatar the last Airbender, ofc or else i would have a blog (mostly) centered around it and it’s sequel /s but fr though?? it’s such a good show!! zuko’s redemption arc, iroh’s redemption arc (even though his more subtle than zuko’s) , aang!! love him and his character so much, especially when he gets to be a sassy little shit, sokka and his shit humor and brains, katara, toph, hakoda and HIS shit humor, the fight scene with hakoda (he fights kinda like a waterbender, using his opponent’s momentum against them), bato and his lovely, lovely voice, piandao, aang going ‘how about he get on YOUR back and you can fly us to the south pole’ or something like that to sokka after he complained about appa not flying higher, the boiling rock episodes, hakoda apparently being a good dad but a shitty prison riot starter (love that for him), just!! atla is such a good ass show, im not changing my mind. also!! i like the way they introduced ozai, not showing his face but still presenting him as not only a shit dad, but a shit person as well, like up until book three, we only saw him like, the neck down and in like, a flashback or two (i don’t really remember how many flashbacks ozai was in actually cause it’s nearly been a full year since i last watched it) and that’s it, so it made seeing his face for the first time all the more better cause you was already like ‘what the hell does this shitbag look like’ and then you see him and now ur like ‘oh!! THATS what he looks like!!’

2. The Legend of Korra, again, ofc or else i wouldn’t have a blog (mostly) centered around it and it’s prequel, just,,,,korra’s arc from being hot headed to calm is fantastic but also sad considering the way she went from that to this, korra’s book 1 character!! for whatever reason i really like b1 korra, just,,her design, her hair style (even though she had it for nearly the entire series) just!!! book 1 korra <3, also the entirety of book 1!! just amon posing as a anti bender nonbender despite being a waterbender himself, the scene where tenzin and his kids nearly lost their bending, which would’ve meant that, if tenzin did lose his bending but his kids didn’t, that would’ve meant the strongest airbender would’ve been his 11 year old daughter, the gruesome way to end the season finale episode by doing a murder suicide which was dark as fuck for what?? a kids show??, also the villains in this show!! their good as hell!! the backstory of the red lotus and how and why they were created?? amon and his anti bending?? kuvira and her plan to basically rule the earth kingdom (idk i haven’t finished book 4), unalaq and his spiritual stuff and wanting to become a dark avatar and fusing with vaatu?? also!! the other disturbing scene of korra basically getting tortured near the end of book 3, i mean?? it deadass left her hella traumatized and unable to walk, again hella dark for a fucking kids show

3. The Walking Dead, even though i haven’t finished it or watched in like, 4-5 months, i just,,,the way the presented negan!! practically foreshadowing him the entirety of season 6!! him appearing at the very end of the season 6 finale and pretty much having an entire episode dedicated to him in the very beginning of season 7 (which is why some fans argue he was introduced in s7 not s6 cause of the fact that he didn’t show up until the very end of the s6 finale but had an entire episode with him in it in s7, while others say vice versa cause the very the first time we see him was in s6 not s7), the fact that the walking dead logo was getting progressively more and more decayed as the series go on?? the fact that the WALKERS (the zombies) are getting more and more decayed as the series go on?? dale’s death scene?? shane’s death scene?? negan’s relationship with rick’s daughter?? the fact that this show also has what?? 11, 12 seasons?? which reminds me that i’m still on season 9 of twd

4. Sabrina the Teenage Witch, just,,,salem and his sarcasm?? sabrina’s aunts?? sabrina herself?? just!! everyone is just so fucking funny in this show it’s unreal, specially salem!! a lot of my favorite scenes have salem in them, the ‘are you on a women’s chat room again?’ (or something like that) and salem saying ‘i like the attention’ in response, that one harvey and salem scene that i don’t know how to describe without turning this into a giant paragraph like the ones before this one

5. blue’s clues, it was my favorite childhood show and i love the reboot of it so much!! especially p for pride moment in that song i don’t remember the name of, blue themself!! steve leaving which was sad but getting an equally amazing host in the process?? amazing!! the scene where salt and pepper introduced their baby, paprika?? just,,,it’s such good show and i loved it when i was younger and i still love it now!!

[spnreactions]

15x16: Drag Me Away (From You)

The time has come!! 

Let’s get some questions answered and see some young Sam and Dean! I’m pumped! 

Oof. I can tell this episode is still gonna be pretty plot heavy just based on this “then” alone. 

AHHHH my baby crying again. :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Okay quick side note on Cas’s reaction to what Jack tells him: I read something from Matt Cohen that said he just kept the camera rolling for unusually long takes during that scene to see what Misha would do with what Jack was saying, and that, in the process, he totally saw a touch of Misha’s fatherly side when it comes to his own kids. I completely agree, and that is a hardcore acting point for Misha and a definite directing point for Matt. 

YEAH CAS! TELL US! 

UGH! Since it’s a MOTW, we have to wait and watch someone die in the first five minutes before we get resolution. Gosh darnat. 

Also this is a very interesting music choice? XD 

My Mom: “Doctor’s orders.” Do you think that means his shrink told him to go there? 

Oof. “Long time ago.” Suspicious. 

Nice cinematography. Cool shot of this hallway. 

I’m gonna take a wild guess here and say that something happened in that room forever ago that traumatized him. 

Wow. That is a swanky hotel room. (My mom and I said basically the same thing at the same time. XD)

Whiskey. Great start. 

Ope. Music changed. Dude’s gonna die. 

Hey, for future reference, if you’re trying to convince yourself it wasn’t real, it was probably real. 

UMMMMM

LOOKS PRETTY REAL TO ME TRAVIS!!! 

Wait a second...that’s one of the kids from the promo videos?? Isn’t that young him? As a...ghost? 

I’D SAY THAT’S PRETTY REAL TRAVIS!!! 

Jesus...

Okay finally! Resolution. 

Ummmm...this doesn’t look like resolution!!! 

Dude did not slit his own throat, but okay then. 

Ummm...you have a lot to do?? 

Oh da**it...THIS AGAIN??! REALLY DEAN??!! DIDN’T WE LEARN FROM THIS BACK IN SEASON 9?? (No, of course we didn’t, because these two never learn anything.) 

LIAR!! 

Wait wait wait. Can we talk about the fact that Sam’s first thought was that Cas left because he and Dean got into a fight? *cough cough* The Destiel is real *cough cough*. XD XD XD 

SAM YELLING AT HIM FOR TEXTING AND DRIVING OH MY GOD I’M DEAD!!! 

ALSO THAT TEXT FROM CAS HOLY FRICK!!! “Did you tell Sam yet?” I’M LAUGHING SO HARD RIGHT NOW!!!! 

Because the thing is, I can totally imagine Cas just SAYING that, knowing full well that Dean probably didn’t tell Sam, and I read that text with so much sass and scolding in it and I’m dying laughing oh my god. 

And no, of course he didn’t, because WE DON’T GET TO KNOW WHAT IT IS! 

But also...if Dean hasn’t told Sam yet, this is making me think that Cas didn’t tell him about the Empty, but rather about what Jack told him...which means I was wrong. 

Unless I wasn’t. But if it was about the Empty, why wouldn’t Dean tell Sam? 

Although, actually, if it is about Jack, WHY wouldn’t Dean tell Sam? 

DEAN JUST TELL YOUR BROTHER SO WE CAN HEAR WHAT THE IMPORTANT INFORMATION WAS GOSH DARNAT!!! 

Also tell your brother because we should know by now that lying doesn’t get us anywhere. 

Anyways. Moving on. 

God that texting and driving interaction. XD XD 

Ooh! Nice transition! 

When do I get the backstory?? I want the flashbacks! If this is our last flashback episode, I want to revel in it gosh darnat! 

OH WAIT HERE IT IS!! 

LITTLE SAM AND LITTLE DEAN AHHHH!!! 

DEAN’S WEARING THE SAMULET OH MY GOD!!! 

I know it’s, like, not a surprise, but it’s BEEN SO LONG since we’ve seen him wearing it!! It’s SOOO good to see it back!! It’s such a subtle little detail, but man it’s a good one. 

“I’m pretty sure that’s illegal.” XD XD EVEN AS A KID, SAM HAD SO MUCH SASS OMG!! XD XD 

BROTHERS! XD XD 

The way that actor just said victory was SOOO Dean omg. The casting on this show is INCREDIBLE. This kid is already ROCKING the Dean personality and he’s only been on screen for two minutes. 

Young Sam’s actor is nailing it too, for the record. ESPECIALLY with that sass. 

...ouch. That was rude Dean. 

Very Dean (at least at that time), but still rude. 

That music. Yikes. 

DUDE THAT’S THE SAME SOUNDTRACK USED IN SWAN SONG DURING CHUCK’S NARRATION OH MY GOD!! THEY 100% DID THAT ON PURPOSE BECAUSE SAM’S TALKING ABOUT GOING TO COLLEGE AND IT ALL CONNECTS BACK TO WHERE THIS STORY STARTED AND IT’S OUR LAST FLASHBACK EPISODE AND OH MY GOD I LOVE THE SUBTLETIES OF THIS SHOW!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 

This small scene is so poetic wow. Between the music, and Sam setting down the college book to pull out his hunting gear...just...wow. Well done Supernatural. Well done. 

THERE’S FLANNEL IN THAT BAG! It really is a Winchester trait! 

...dude WHAT? I wanna be able to do that. 

YEP! YOUNG TRAVIS! 

Okay so...a monster who imitates their victims...as their younger selves? That...Sam and Dean have fought before? I’m just gonna let them tell me lol. 

Dean has always been suave with the ladies. XD 

Do...do kids of cleaning crew people usually stay in the hotels that their parents work in? Cause I didn’t know that was a thing, but okay. XD 

HA! Yeah, these two were 100% a thing, even if it was a small thing. 

Alright, I like her. She’s fun. 

OOH! Nice transition into older Caitlin, with young Caitlin echoing in the background. 

Okay something about those hugs just made me “awww” out loud. I don’t know if it’s because we haven’t seen them hug anyone in a while or what, but that just felt so sweet. <3 

I would be too, girl. :( 

WHAT DID HAPPEN?! (I know they’ll tell us, but I’m impatient.) 

Oof. See, in most cases, I am all for immersion therapy, because I think it can be useful, but when it’s a monster we’re talking about, that is a hard pass. 

Also my mom just said “ha! Called it.” about the shrink thing. She is significantly better at predicting things in this show then I am...sometimes anyways. XD 

Wow. I loved their reactions with that. Dean knew, probably because he was older, but Sam seem confused. Plus, that change in music was great. It was just the right amount of dramatic. 

She needs you to hunt it. 

WHY DO YOU THINK, SAM?! 

WHO IS “SHE”??!! Someone please tell me. The suspense is killing me. XD XD 

Awww...poor Travis. 

Ummmmm....

JESUS CHRIST!! HOLY FREAKING...

My mom and I both just screamed! AGH! WHAT THE FRICK IS THAT??!! 

Yeah this episode is definitely digging into this show’s horror roots. 

“You okay, kid?” is one of the most Dean lines to ever Dean. 

Yeah okay I can understand how that could be traumatizing enough for him to need therapy. 

Yeah that’s what they all say. 

I mean, I believe you, because I saw it, but...

EVEN AS KIDS, SAM AND DEAN GAVE EACH OTHER THEIR LITTLE NODS I LOVE THEM!!! <3 <3 <3 

The talk--simplified. 

THE FAMILY BUSINESS! <3 <3 

Also Sam not being old enough to be included in the hunting business yet, but old enough to know about it is a big oof. 

Sam backing up his big bro. <3 

Watching young Dean try to ask questions in order to figure out the hunt  is great, because you can tell he’s super inexperienced compared to now in the way he says it, but also that he definitely knows what he’s doing and I love it. 

Oh. Maybe that nod is just a general sibling thing, because Caitlin and Travis just did it lol. It’s still the best when Sam and Dean do it though. XD <3 

Huh. Yeah, I’d call that pretty weird. 

That was a great shot. Down the line like that. I’m really digging this half of the season’s cinematography. 

THAT WAS SUCH A GREAT TRANSITION OH MY GOD! And it just proves how well that young Dean actor (Paxton Singleton) is doing, because young Dean and older Dean’s expressions matched EXACTLY. <3 

Dean do you just not want to admit that you might have not actually killed it? 

Oh. That makes more sense. The lore doesn’t line up. Okay. 

...okay maybe it’s also him being a little overconfident. 

NICE TRANSITION AGAIN! 

I KNEW THAT PROMO PHOTO WAS OF ALL OF THE KIDS HUNTING! 

Welp. That’s it then. 

“Got a knife, got a gun. I’m good.” That is so Dean, and also so dumb. 

“Dad wouldn’t like this.” “Dad’s not here.” Haha I love them. XD <3 

Awww...Dean still protecting his little bro. <3 

Goonies reference. XD 

He does not got this. Calling it now. 

Dean don’t get hurt. 

Either Sam or Caitlin is gonna show up. Calling it. 

Probably Caitlin, ‘cause Sam still listened to him at that age lol. 

YEP. 

Also the way he pointed that gun at her omg. Have I mentioned that Paxton Singleton is doing an AMAZING job as Dean? Because WOW. 

Ha! Yeah these two totally had a thing. A small thing, but a thing. 

Ha! Okay, I like her sass. She’s cool. 

My mom is not digging the high-pitched tone that’s attached to this music lol. 

Yeah okay this episode is scaring me (in the best way lol). I’m loving it! We haven’t seen a horror-based episode in a while. It’s good to have one. 

Awww...little bros bonding. 

“Whatever it is, my brother will kill it.” He’s always had so much faith in him. <3 <3 <3 

Although...the fact that they’re showing us the two boys back at the motel pretty much tells me that the monster isn’t where Dean and Caitlin are, but where Sam and Travis are. So...that’s great. 

Ha! Too true. 

Nice shot with the flashlight and the cobwebs. 

Okay, now your optimism and chattiness is a little unnecessary, girl. Dean’s scared because he knows what could be out there. So shush. 

But also I like your sass. XD 

Oh...frick. What’s under there? It looks like the stuff from the kids. 

YUUUUP. Called it. The monster is with them. Friiiiick. Sam still knows...how to hunt, right? He can handle this, right? 

Remains? Mangled bodies? Something like that I bet. 

Wow. Dean you hid that panic REALLY well. He really has been burying his emotions for years. No wonder he’s so good at it. 

FRIIIIICK. 

FRICK FRICK FRICK!! 

*screams* *jumps* 

Yep. Horror based episode. Lots of jump scares. But it’s AWESOME. 

...okay, that young Sam actor (Christian Michael Cooper) has been doing really well, but that “Travis!” shout was really bad acting...

FRICK! DO SOMETHING SAM! 

Dude I LOVE how that just went down. Sam rescuing Travis even if it meant putting himself in harm’s way and Dean immediately coming to his rescue. It’s very characteristic of them. 

Oh...so it has...fingers. That can be cut off. Which means it isn’t a ghost like I thought it was all this time. 

Also great shot with the slicing off of the fingers. 

Nice Dean! 

Sam holding a protective arm in front of Travis I love it. 

Oh frick. It’s the ring. That’s why she’s back. (And hey! We know who the she is now! Still don’t know what she is, but we’ve seen her.) 

Wait a second...wasn’t Travis wearing a ring on his necklace? Could it be the same ring? 

That’s...that’s weird though. Why would he have kept a ring from the most traumatic moment of his life? 

I love that Caitlin’s a hugger and runs to her brother. 

That look that Sam and Dena share there is awesome. 

OOH! GREAT TRANSITION AGAIN! 

Dean, why on EARTH would that have been Sam? 

Okay yeah, so this monster is manifesting itself as younger versions of its victims. 

Hey Dean, just a thought, but I’m feeling like your instinct that it wasn’t back is the wrong instinct. 

OOOOOF. 

Ummm...excuse me? 

HEEEEEEEY HOLD ON!!! 

WHERE IS SAM??!! 

SAMUEL WINCHESTER COME SAVE YOUR BROTHER!!! 

DEAN STOP!!!! 

DEAN!!!! 

OH THANK GOD! 

HOLY FRICK THAT WAS TOO CLOSE!! 

Wait..what? The knife...wasn’t even...real? And Sam didn’t see the monster at all...does this thing make you hallucinate? Cause that’s terrifying. 

Yeah no DUH. 

My Mom: Well, there’s only one of it, and it can’t imitate them both, so as long as they stay together, they should be fine, right?  Me: Yes, theoretically, but when do they ever actually stay together?  My Mom: True. 

Ummm...our visual just cut out? All we’re seeing is the CW logo. We can hear it though. 

Oh shoot it’s starting again. Hopefully this fixes itself soon. At least we can still hear it? 

Feelings/hunches are valid, Caitlin. Especially with this kind of thing. 

Dean that’s not your fault. Don’t blame yourself. I can hear you blaming yourself. 

Oh good. Visual’s back. Phew. I was getting nervous. 

“She’s scary.” Me too girl. XD 

She 100% plays with people. 

“Lore?” XD That’s hilarious. I’ve gotten so used to them saying it that it doesn’t even occur to me as a weird thing, but that’s a good point that normal people wouldn’t understand what he means. XD 

Ope. That’s what he saw. 

Yikes...though gotta admit, that was a little less gruesome than I was expecting it to be. Still sad and scary though. 

Awww Dean. :( :( :( :( :( :( 

God he really has been shoving feelings down all his life. That’s super not healthy, Dean. 

Awww...poor Dean! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

“We used to keep a lot of secrets from each other.” USED TO? Sam where have you been for the last fifteen years? XD XD 

Or is he just referring to this season? Because in that case, that’s a good point. There hasn’t been a lot of lying this season. Well, excluding the fact that Dean is hiding whatever Cas said to him from Sam....

Welp. I can already see that parallel...so you better come clean, Dean! 

“Cause I know my brother’s gonna ask”. 

HA! Me too, server lady. 

BILLIE! JESUS! 

“Working a case? Now?” HA! I said the same thing! 

...hoh boy. That’s not good. They’ve spent so much time talking about how close he is to being done, but now he’s actually done. That’s...super not good. 

Yeah no Billie. We’re not doing that. 

So it WAS about Jack! GOOD! Then they’ll all know and they can all stop it! (So Dean tell your brother already.) 

YES! Dean is upset about it!! That’s a good sign! Screw you and your plan, Billie!! 

HEY!! HOLD ON A SECOND BILLIE! Are you telling me, that you’re the one who put that thought into Jack’s head?? WTF??!! SCREW YOU!!! THAT IS SO NOT OKAY!!! HOW DARE YOU!!! I don’t care HOW badly you want Chuck dead! That manipulation was NOT the way to go!!! I didn’t hate you, but now I do. Now I really really do. Screw you. We’ll find another way. 

Yes. You were wrong. 

...Dean you better tell her she was wrong. 

HA! 

Gotta be honest, I can’t believe we’re still having the conversation about Sam and Dean being normal--especially Sam. I mean, I can believe it, because it makes sense, but at this point, it’s just so hilarious to me. Like, “yeah no, that ship sailed a LONG time ago. Sorry girl, but there’s no way Sam’s getting out of it now.” XD XD 

Awww... :( :( 

Ummm...say what now? 

SERIOUSLY Billie??!! SERIOUSLY??!! You’re just gonna...set up our beloved kid to be a bomb and then walk on out?? Wow. Yeah okay I’m really mad at you now, I don’t care if you brought Jack back. Not if this was the endgame. Screw you. 

“One Messenger of God’s Destruction right here.” XD XD 

YES we have a problem! TELL HER WE HAVE A PROBLEM!! 

DEAN!!! 

GOD DA**IT DEAN!!! It is not worth sacrificing your SON!! DIDN’T WE ALREADY GO THROUGH THIS??!! WHATEVER HAPPENED TO NOT LETTING ANYONE KILL HIM??!! TO THAT BIRTHDAY PARTY??!! WHATEVER HAPPENED TO FORGIVENESS?? TO FAMILY!! HE IS YOUR SON GOSH DARNAT!! ACT LIKE IT!!! 

Jesus Christ. This show is making it harder and harder for Dean to be my second favorite character...

He better not let it happen in the end. It better be like what happened with Season 14. No matter how mad he is, he can’t lose Jack. It better stay that way, or I’m gonna be super pissed at him all over again, just like in 14x19. 

YOU HEAR ME DEAN?! STOP IT!! DON’T BE AN IDIOT!! 

HA! Billie saw RIGHT THROUGH YOU Dean. 

Welp. Now I know why Dean hasn’t told Sam. Because Sam is not gonna like it. 

You know what Billie? Screw you. Shut the f**k up. 

He doesn’t have his house in order. There’s conflict there, and it’s not gonna happen. Shut up, Billie. 

Please Dean. Please help me out here. Don’t let your son die. :( :( :( :( :( :( 

Wait wait...Baba Yaga? As in...that witch that that security friend dude Kurt is so afraid of in Ant-Man and the Wasp? (Look at me, mixing my fandoms. XD)

So that’s a yes then. 

I CALLED IT! I KNEW IT WAS THE RING! (I mean, they kind of made it obvious, but still.) 

Oh friiiiick. That’s why she disappeared for a while, but then came back...in time to kill him. 

...she’s gonna go get the ring. She must have it. 

But also TAKE SAM WITH YOU CAITLIN! ARE YOU AN IDIOT?! 

Ummm....

...where’s the ring? 

FRICK! 

I TOLD YOU TO TAKE SAM WITH YOU!! 

She dead. 

SAM! 

FRIIIIICK! 

Oof. 

My Mom: NO! Don’t split up!  Me: I told you! They never learn.  My Mom: They really don’t. 

Alright, let’s take bets. Who’s gonna get attacked? Sam, or Dean? 

Ope. Looks like it might be Sam. 

CALL YOUR BROTHER FIRST GOSH DARNAT! Seriously. You two are the worst. 

Oh! Never mind. XD XD 

My mom just burst out laughing. XD XD XD 

Okay yeah, that was a good comedy reveal. XD XD XD 

So...it’ll be Dean then. 

Better find your bro quick, Sam. 

Oof. The vending machine. Original attack. Must be close. 

Dean don’t roll your eyes and act like you never watch (or do) that kind of thing. XD XD 

“I’ve seen this movie before.” PROMO! CALLING IT! 

YES! I was right! XD XD 

I love him. 

Okay, so I’m mad at him for the Jack thing, but I still love him okay? He’s just too great. XD <3 <3 

DEAN DON’T GO IN ALONE ARE YOU KIDDING ME??!! 

You literally saw it coming. 

YEP! EXACTLY! 

Okay wait what??

...that’s not what I was expecting. 

Wait...hallucinations, right? So that must be what this is. 

But...I think he found her nest. 

Oh yep. Definitely a hallucination. 

One of my favorite things about this show is that any time Sam or Dean has a bad vision/hallucination/nightmare caused by a monster, the other brother is always dead in it. Like, it makes perfect sense for their relationship, and as sad and scary as it is, it works beautifully. 

Wow. Yeah I can totally believe that that gave Dean nightmares for the longest time just on that acting alone. Now Dean was terrified even re-living it a little bit. :( 

Oof. 

Ummm...you know what she is, but CAN YOU KILL HER? 

...welp. Guns don’t work. What’s Plan B, Dean?? 

EEP! 

That feels very Pennywise yikes. 

HURRY SAM!! 

SEE?! THIS is why you shouldn’t split up! 

Welp, at least their fighting is loud. 

Yep. Hallucination. 

Oh. Caitlin isn’t dead. That’s good. 

Sam to the rescue. 

YES DEAN! 

WOW! Now THAT was awesome. The way he smashed that ring, and the shot--it was all beautiful. 

WHOA! Green fire. That was cool. 

Okay. I liked that monster, and how it went down. Very cool. 

Ha! 

“You tell the truth more because you know that lies...they don’t make anything better.” My Mom: I have never, ever heard anyone say that about getting older. XD 

Yeah I’m with her on this one. Not a great line, but it was definitely in there intentionally to make Dean feel guilty about not telling Sam the truth about Jack. Which means...he’s going to tell him, RIGHT?! 

Awww! A sweet little hug again! 

THAT TRANSITION!! 

I knew she was holding a business card in that promo photo! 

...oof. 

Yep. Dean’s definitely gonna tell Sam. They showed that scene of him lying to Sam as a kid about the bodies, and they keep talking about how he’s changed. He is definitely going to tell Sam before this episode ends. ...and I bet it’s not gonna go well. 

“That I handled it.” XD <3 

“WITH A LITTLE HELP!” <3 <3 <3 <3 

AWWW DEAN!!! Still being a supportive bro!! 

“We do make a good team, right?” “Yeah, we do.” I’M SERIOUSLY ABOUT TO CRY OH MY GOD!!! :’( :’( <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Awww...we don’t actually get to see a version of young John. Just an arm from a stand-in lol. 

Nice shot of Sam, though. 

AWESOME transition. 

Ope. Here it comes. 

OOOF!! Dean you better say something, or Cas will! 

THERE WE GO!! FINALLY!! 

Oooooh...this is gonna be rough. 

Ummm....okay. Good start. 

THERE YA GO! 

Well...okay then. Just...come out with it I guess. 

Dean...doesn’t sound happy about that. And he doesn’t seem to be handling it well. I really really really really REALLY hope he doesn’t let it happen. I’m gonna be really upset if he does. 

Ope. Here it comes. 

Uh-oh...Sam is mad. 

Oh FRICK. Wrong answer, Dean. 

Dean I’m with Sam on this one. 

Oh god...this fight. :’( :’( 

DEAN!!! 

NOOOOO NO NOOOOOOO!!!! 

Oh my god...the way Sam just yelled at him. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

That was even worse than I thought it was gonna be holy frick....

“Just drive.” :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

...well....

God. That was a TERRIBLE ending, Jesus Christ. All the bonding and family teamwork that’s been happening this season just went out the window with that fight.:’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

I‘ve always loved Dean, obviously, but Jesus Christ dude. Ugh. This better resolve itself. :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

GOD! Could SPN please STOP with the emotionally charged endings that are hurting my heart! Because this was a DANG GOOD EPISODE, and then they just HAD to do that!! :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( :’( 

Welp...my heart hurts, but review here we come. 

I really really loved this episode. I mentioned it already, but I’m really glad we got to see some of Supernatural’s elements of horror in this episode. It was genuinely terrifying at several points in time, and we haven’t had an episode like that in a while. 

Also, as I often do, I loved the flashback scenes, and all the subtleties that came with it. One of my favorite things about flashback episodes is getting to see just how close Sam and Dean have always been, and I really love seeing them at different times in their life with how their relationship has changed over the years and how it compares to how they are now. It’s nice to see how much they’ve grown, but also how much about their relationship has stayed the same in the sense of that they still love and care for each other and have such a strong bond. It’s a beautiful thing, and this episode conveyed that really well. 

Paxton. Singleton. Oh my god. What. An. Actor. I don’t know if he watched episode after episode of this show before being in this episode, but WOW did he NAIL Dean Winchester. I pointed out several specific instances in my reactions, but seriously, his interpretation of Dean was incredible. I was totally able to believe that that was a younger version of Dean, easily. It was amazing. This show’s casting team will always impress me. 

All of that said....let’s address that ending. 

Holy frick. God that hurt. First of all, as if I haven’t made this clear enough, I really really need Dean to acknowledge that he loves Jack and can’t lose him so that we don’t lose my precious baby, okay? That’s a thing that definitely needs to happen. 

Second of all, I do not at all blame Sam for the way he reacted. In fact, I’m actually really impressed with how upset he got, because it plays so much into what’s been going on this season and what’s bound to come. 

At the end of Season 14, our team was divided. Between Dean and Cas’s fight over Mary’s death, Sam and Dean locking Jack in the box, and then Sam and Dean fighting over Dean wanting to kill Jack, our boys were a mess. Then, Jack was dead, and Sam and Dean and Cas were grieving, which meant taking things out on each other and being angry and distraught. But within the first several episodes of Season 15, they started to latch onto each other again, and they stayed that way and only progressed further. For the majority of this season, we have seen them bonding and being a family again. We’ve barely seen them fight, and the only exception to that was Dean and Cas’s tension with each other. However, once they made up in 15x09, everything changed. That’s when the OG team was really back. And then when Jack came back, everyone was together again. They were all starting to learn to be a family and work together to take down their enemy. And, I already analyzed this, but after Last Holiday (15x14), even Dean and Jack’s tension was released, to a degree. Sam and Dean and Jack got to bond, and it felt like everyone was ready to take on the enemy together. And then SPN hit us with this. 

With Jack and Cas’s emotional turmoil--Jack feeling like the only way to ever have Sam and Dean forgive him was for him to sacrifice herself. Cue the divide between Cas and Jack. 

And then this. Dean hiding something from Sam again. After everything they’ve been through this season, after trusting each other more than anything, learning to communicate with each other again, and having each other’s backs every step of the way with no secrets...Dean hid something. And it tore them apart.

Our team is broken again, and right when we need them to be together the most. 

And as much as it hurts my heart and made me break into tears and scares the heck out of me for what’s to come, it makes perfect sense, and it’s beautiful. 

Because the next episode is called “Unity”. And that’s exactly the opposite of what we have right now, but the hope and the thought is that, when it comes down to it, they’re still a family, and they all still love each other, and they’re all going to be there for each other, and they’re not gonna let anyone go down without the rest of their family’s support. 

At least, that’s what I’m hoping. 

And maybe I’m over-analyzing. Maybe I’m being too optimistic or hopeful for my boi Jack’s future. But honestly, I feel like I’m right, because I feel like this is exactly what the writers are going for. And I’m excited to see it. 

So, obviously, I loved that episode. It had horror, it had great representation of Sam and Dean’s brotherly relationship, it had flashbacks (our last ones :’( :’( :’( :’( ), and, at the very end, it had some very intense feels. But it was a great set-up, and beautifully done, and I absolutely loved it. 

My Rating: 10/10

[thewisekenisme]

The more you know

Summary:  Tiny!sides. Thomas takes on the responsibility of taking care of his sides who had mysteriously turned into children during the night. while trying to figure out how to turn them back into their normal selves Thomas realizes how much Patton actually does when the others regress without him knowing. will Thomas learn more about each side during this time? will he be able to keep up with the needs of five children? or will he not be able to keep up with their needs making this a horrible experience for everyone. Or will Thomas prove to them that he can help take care of them if something like this happens again?

warnings: crying, mentions of separation anxiety, fighting

words: 15,663

To say Thomas was confused was an understatement. It was currently one in the morning He had just gotten home after seeing a movie and having dinner with Joan and Talyn, somehow they had convinced him to go see a horror movie thought he was scared he couldn't help but not mind because he was with the most important people in his life, his friends. But when he arrived home he couldn't help but noticed the feeling that something was off. He had just walked through the front door when the feeling hit him, he carefully closed the front door walking towards the living room as quiet as he could trying not to alert whoever was in his house that he was going towards where they were. As he approached the living room he began to hear children voices echo throughout the room.

"Are you sure we should be here? I would rather be in my room and watch Disney movies." Groaned a bored sounding voice. "I mean we can have a marathon until we get back to normal."

"Yes I am, we need to so if we need any help he will be here so nothing will go wrong." A cheerful voice replied reassuring the other. 

"I think its a good idea, we totally shouldn't go back and not bother Thomas " another voice spoke up sounding annoyed at the other two. 

Thomas frowned slightly hearing one of the voices say his name, why did they need his help? Do they know the who's house they are in? and why are they, child!? Carefully pressing himself against the wall Thomas looked around the corner to see who was in his living room and why they needed his help. Once he got a good view into the living room his jaw dropped at what he saw. 

There in his living room was five children three were sitting on the couch and two were standing in front of the other three. The two standing seemed to be the oldest and youngest of the group. The oldest one was wearing a black shirt with jeans, their glasses seemed to be too big for his face so it seemed to be sliding off his face.  The younger one was pressed against the older one's side, he was wrapped up in an oversize version of Virgil hoodie. Their arms were wrapped around the other's waist holding onto them tightly.

"I still do not see the point of coming here now. Why not wait until the morning, he needs to maintain a proper sleep schedule even if he is out late with his friends." Lectured the older.

The three on the couch seemed to be the ages in between the other two. The second oldest was wearing a smaller version of a Prince outfit with a large sash on his shoulders. Next to him was a boy who seemed to be the same age as the one next to him, he had glasses that seemed way to bug for his little face but none the less adorable wearing them. He was wearing Patrons Cat hoodie that almost covered their entire body.  The last kid was leaning on the one with the cat hoodie, his left side was pressed against the other wrapped up in a black thin blanket that almost looked like Deceits cape.

"Because I said so! And I'm the dad so you have to listen to me." A sudden shout of annoyance

The closer Thomas looked and the more they knelt talking. he could see the kids actually looked like younger versions of himself when he was younger. His eyes widened slightly "wait these couldn't be." He said without realizing he said the sentence out loud.

The oldest looked over towards his direction wincing slightly, he carefully adjusted his glasses before speaking. " Salutations Thomas. We thought you still out, Apologize for barging in without warning." His voice squicked slightly causing the child's cheeks to have a light dusting of blush.

"Logan, is that you?" Thomas asked slowly coming into the living room getting a better view of all the kids in the room. The closer he got the more his bad feeling started to make its self known to him. He couldn't believe his eyes, he didn't want to believe them. He wanted to believe that his sides were just pulling an April fools joke on him it was only a couple days late, but the more he thought about it the logic set in.  Logan wouldn't participate in a practical joke like this, neither would Virgil or Deceit.

Logan sighed softly nodding, he carefully tries to turn to face him, but the younger one he decided must be Virgil had tightened his grip on his waist let out a frustrated whine. Logan sighed carefully lifting Virgil into his arms who instantly hid his face in his shoulder as he tried to Thomas. " Sadly you are correct, I am Logan" he replied giving Thomas a pointed look.

"So that means that." He gulped slightly looking from Logan to the three on the couch wishing it wasn't true.

"Greetings Thomas! I was going to put on a movie for us to enjoy while we wait for you! But someone 'Patton' told me that it would be rude if I had without permission!" pouted Roman, as he sent glares to who he assumed, was Patton.

Patton gasped narrowing his eyes pushing up his glasses giving Roman a  sharp look  "That's cause it would be! If we went into your room and picked out your favorite movie and watched it without you, you would be so mad you wouldn't talk to us for a hundred years!" He argued almost as dramatically as Roman would. He was careful not to move his arms too much in fear he would disturb the other who had moved from his side and was now laying happily on his lap.  "Besides it's past your bedtime!"

"No, it's not! I don't have a bedtime dee and Vergie does!" Roman shout back causing Virgil to tense up and try to hide in his hoodie more than he already was. This caused Logan to send stern glares at the others for being too loud.

Thomas quickly got between them, pulling Roman off the couch and to his other side making sure he and Patron had distance between them. "Wow hey time out you two, nobody has a bedtime right now, we need to figure out what's going on. Now first off I need to know what happened to all of you." He sighed making sure Roman was giving Patton dirty looks behind his back.

"I know what happened." Deceit grinned sitting up still wrapped in his cape. His face was showing fully now so Thomas could see that his scales were a lighter color then they normally are. His eyes shined brightly as he saw Thomas had given him his full attention. "We weren't eating pizza Ro-Ro made, and we didn't watch a movie with Pat-Pat, and then Vergie and I didn't go to sleep and wake up here." He relayed the information with a huge smile on his face.

Thomas gave him a small smile "that's very important information, Dee! Thank you for telling me."He said sweetly as he reached over carefully ruffling the boy's hair. He tried not to go full Patton on the side when he realized he was leaning into his hand. He looked toward Logan giving him a look that was begging him to explain what had happened while Deceit forced his left hand to stay on top of his head.

"In shorter words, we have no idea. We fell asleep during our movie night, then awaken regressed." He sighed pinching the bridge of his nose. "As far as I can tell you haven't encountered anything traumatic to cause all of us to regress. And as far Roman can tell the dragon witch hasn't gotten out of his kingdom to do this to us. So in coming here since we all are regressed, we were hoping you wouldn't mind helping to take care of us" Logan asked sheepishly obviously not wanting to be the one to ask for help.

"Yeah! So we can come and play with your kiddo! I can't wait I hope we can play a lot of things together! Like, hide and seek, tag and, and dress up!" Patrin shouted excitedly, he smiled widely grabbing Thomas free hand bouncing on the couch excitedly. The bouncing caused his glasses to become ajar on his face which he didn't miss a beat pushing his glasses back into place.

Thomas looked from Logan to the other thinking about how much responsibility it would be to take care of 5 children in different age groups. He didn't know the first thing about raising kids or taking care of them, but he thought back to how much they had helped him, how they are still helping him every day, there was no way he could in good continuous say no to them. "Alright yeah I'll take care of you guys no problem, just would you mind telling me how old all of you are so I have an idea of how to properly take care of you all?" He asked carefully removing his hands from their captor to remove his jacket and shoes.

Roman raised his hand waving it quickly "Oh I can tell you! Please let me tell you!" He practically begged grabbing onto Thomas's arm swinging it back and forth waiting for the elder to reply.

"Okay, Roman you can answers." He said honestly feeling tired just watching how much energy both Patton and Roman have, he had a feeling he might have a hard time keeping up with them both.

Romans smile widened "Patton and I are 8 so that means we don't have a bedtime we can stay up as late as we want, and we can watch all the movies we want and, and we can have as many cookies as we want!" He smiled widely looking at Patton giving a look. Patton must have gotten the message because he was nodding in agreement with whatever Roman was saying.

Logan sighed holding a hand up to stop Roman quickly "Roman all you need to say is your age not a bunch of falsehoods." He scolds Turing towards Thomas carefully pointing to Deceit "Dee is 6, Roman and Patron are both 8, I myself am 13 and Virgil he is about 3."He replied shifting Virgil slightly so Thomas could have a better look at him. "Virgil I believe Thomas would like to say hello. Could you please look towards him so he knows he has your attention." Logan spoke gently as he rubbed Virgil's back. 

Slowly Virgil moved from where his face was hiding on Logan's shoulder with a grumpy huff. He looked to Thomas avoiding eye contact not saying anything just content with holding onto Logan waiting for Thomas say something.

Thomas gave him a small smile "Hey there Virge, are you okay with all this?" He asked softly careful not to make him feel belittled for being regressed to such a young age. he tilted his head to the side slightly giving him a curious look.

Virgil slowly looked up at Thomas giving him a curious look, he looked from Thomas to Roman who was still hanging on Thomas's arms. Then too Patton who was giving him a curious look. He scowled slightly at Patton before he shrugged turning back to hide his face back in Logan's shoulders.

Thomas frowned slightly giving Logan a confused look before standing up straight He looked down again when he noticed Patton had hidden his face in his side looking away from Logan and Virgil. "Pat are you okay?"

Logan let out a long sigh again, he carefully walked towards the couch picking up Deceit noticing he was leaning on the armchair looking tired. Carefully balancing the two in his arms Logan turned back towards Thomas giving him a tired sigh "It has seems an hour after we woke up like this Patton was playing too rough while playing tag, causing Virgil to trip. Ever since he has refused to leave my side."

He nodded slowly frowning slightly hearing two small yawns from both of his side's confused. He looked towards the digital clock on his television noticing that it said it was two in the morning. He gave Logan a soft smile "come on Lo, we can talk about this when we all are more awake. But for right now I think we all need to get to bed." He promised. Carefully picking up both Patton and Roman heading towards the stairs, once they both were comfortably rested in his arms, they let their heads rest on his shoulder getting comfortable in his arms.

Frowning slowly he followed walking up the stairs, careful not disturb the two in his arms, once they made it to their destination his eyes went wide slightly as he realized where they were heading "But Thomas we will be fine here in the living room, you don't have to let us stay in here." Logan protested following Thomas into his room.

Shaking his head Thomas carefully pulled the covers back laying Patton and Roman on his bed so they were sharing a pillow carefully taking Patton's glasses placing them on his nightstand, both sides curled up next to each other. "Lo there's five you, I'm not sticking you all on the floor. besides, I bet the 'sleep' you had before this was the first time you slept in a day or so was it?" he asked walking over to logan carefully taking Deceit into his arms before laying him next to Patton who instantly wrapped his arms around the  younger one pulling him into the cuddle pile.

Logan opened his mouth to protest but a yawn had come out instead causing him to scowled rubbing his eyes under his glasses. "But were will you sleep?" he asked snapping his fingers so they were now in their pajama's ready to settle in for a long night. Roman was wearing a Dragon onesie, Patton in a cat onesie, Deceit in a yellow snake onesie, Virgil was wearing a Jack the Skelton onesie. While everyone was wearing a onesie Logans pajamas was just a black shirt with fluffy dark blue PJ pants that had stars all over it.

"Besides Virgil and Dee need's a nightlight to sleep with. and I need to help you figure out why we regressed. So I cannot simply get to sleep now I need to find a way to get us back to normal. And what if Virgil has a nightmare?" He rambled looking around the room avoiding Thomas knowing gaze.

"Logan hey look at me," he spoke gently placing a hand on said sides shoulder causing the rambling to halt for the moment. "We have all day tomorrow to figure out what happened, besides you guys came here for me to help and take care of you and that's what I intend on doing and if anyone including Virgil has a nightmare I'll be there to provide comfort for everyone," he replied giving him a small smile, he went towards one of his lamps that was placed at the other end of the room, he turned it on letting the dim light filled the room giving off the illusion of a nightlight. "Alright, Lo lay down with Virgil okay I'll go grab an extra pillow and blanket so I can set myself up on the floor."

Logan sighed looking towards the bed, he had to admit he was tired and wanted nothing then to curl up under the covers and get some well deserved rest. he slowly nodded going towards the bed carefully laying down with Virgil still in his arms. "I'll only sleep for a little while, not the full recommended amount of time bit merely a nap. I would like to get an early start in researching." he yawned again laying his head down on the free pillow holding Virgil close in his arms.

Virgil snuggled closer to Logan letting out a soft yawn laying his head down on his chest rubbing his eyes slowly letting them fall close falling into a light sleep surrounded by the people that he loved and felt safe next to him. Before he fell asleep he whispered "Night, night Lo". It was quiet enough that only Logan could hear.  which he whispered back a quiet "Night Vergie."

Thomas smiled softly carefully putting the Blankets over all the sides in the be careful to make sure they all were tucked in and comfortable. He stopped noticing Logan giving him a curious look. "Don't worry Logan I need to make sure I finished some editing before heading off to sleep anyways. Besides, it'll be like a sleepover" He reassured giving him a soft smile as he gently took Logan's glasses into his hands carefully folding them before placing them into the bedside table.

Logan yawned nuzzling into the pillow letting out a comfortable sigh, letting the warmth of the pillow, blanket and Virgil's body heat make him relax."I can help if you want. Just because I regressed doesn't mean I can't be logical." he whispered fighting his slowly closing eyes. He carefully rubbed his eyes frustratedly careful not to disturb Virgil. "I can be of use I promise. You can still count on me" he mumbled giving Thomas pleading eyes hoping that his request would be approved.

"That's okay Logan I'm just going to look over it and make sure I have everything in order so we can go over it once your back yo your normal size." He replied gently moving the hair away from his face not commenting on the way Logan selfconsciously leaned into his hand "Besides it's late and we both need sleep, you even more than me. Tomorrow is going to be a long day and I need you to be rested so you can help me keep an eye on everyone, especially Roman and Patton" he joked carefully cradling his fingers through the logical side's hair copying the action he's seen Patton do when Logan was overworking himself when they would be brainstorming for video idea's.

slowly his eyes fell close letting the soothing motion lull him into a deep sleep, but he didn't go without whispering just one last thing to Thomas. "Falsehood, I don't need sleep." He spoke so quietly he had to lean down to hear his words go silent as he was dragged down into sleep.

Thomas stood up straight looking at the sides fast asleep in his bed happily cuddled up with each other. He turned around walking towards his closet carefully opening it grabbing a spare pillow and blanket, he closed the closet door placing his pillow and blanket onto the floor before grabbing a pair of plaid pants, and a plain black shirt. he walked towards the bathroom to change deep in thought trying to figure out why someone or something would turn his side's into children. Or if he had stressed so much that he made them all turn, he hoped that wasn't the case he really didn't want to be the cause of his side's turning into children he didn't know how he would feel if that was the case but he had a feeling he would feel guilty.

Sighing softly he got dressed before he walked back into his room quietly making sure that they were still asleep. once determining they were asleep he walked to his pillow and blanket to try and make himself comfortable. He ended up laying awake for a few hours just listening to the extra breathing and snoring in the room. He found out that Roman is the loudest out of all of them who snore, he was snoring so much he was afraid he'd have to wake him up just to get him to stop for a little while, Thankfully he rolled onto his side which caused the snoring to stop. Thomas finally surrendered to sleep around 4 in the morning thankful that no snoring or anyone having nightmares woke him up while he tried to get as much comfortable sleep as he could on the hard floor.

"Pat should we wake him?" A voice above Thomas loudly whispered

"Shh No, he needs sleep." Another replied from behind the other voice.

The loud whispering slowly brought Thomas out of deep sleep. He squeezed his eyes shut taking in a deep breath before he slowly opened them blinking a few times trying to think why there were kids whispering about him. Was he babysitting again? Once his eyes began to focus he could Roman, Patton, Deceit, and Virgil standing over him debating on whether they should wake him or not. 'Oh that's right, they regressed.' He thought to himself

Deceit pat Patton (no pun intended) on the arm gently "Pat, Thomas isn't awake." He whispered pointing at their host.

Patton turned away from Roman to look at Thomas, he smiled widely pushing up his glasses so they wouldn't fall "Thomas sorry if we woke you up."He replied sheepishly swaying side to side holding onto Virgil's hand. Virgil didn't particularly look too happy to be awake but he held onto Patton's hand regardless.

Slowly Thomas sits up regretting sleeping on the floor when he felt his back stiffly give him some pain. He shook the thought away reminding himself that he didn't want to stick the others on the couch. He yawned slightly giving Patton a small smile "your okay Pat, what are you guys doing out of bed? I would have of thought you would have wanted to sleep longer. What time is it?" He asked looking for his alarm clock to see If he could find the time.

"Shh Thomas you'll wake up Logan! it's only 7 O'clock" Roman pouted grabbing Thomas hand carefully pulling him towards the door giving him an annoyed look when he would move"Can we go downstairs? I'm hungry but Pat wouldn't let me go down without you." he whined accidentally knocking into Deceit who nodded agreeing with Roman.

"Oh yeah sure, Logan's still asleep?" he asked carefully standing up letting Roman drag him towards the door. Before they were out the door he let the other two run ahead going down the stairs. Thomas stooped and looked towards the bed see if Logan was okay. He couldn't help but chuckle when he saw that Logan was still fast asleep, instead of sleeping on one side of the bed he was now in the middle of the bed taking advantage of the extra room to stretch out snoring softly as he slept, the blanket was pulled over his head to block out any light. He smiled softly before opening the door letting everyone file out. he watched Patton struggle to get Virgil who seemed to be laying where he was not only a couple of moments ago to follow them to the door. "Pat I got him, go on down and make sure Roman doesn't make a mess in the kitchen." he winked careful that roman didn't hear him

Patton gave Thomas a small frown before nodding. "Okay, he's still sleepy so he is a little grumpy when he doesn't get his way, we will meet you downstairs" he whispered back slowly letting go of Virgil's hand. he carefully kissed Virgil's forehead giving him a smile "Virgie I'm going to the kitchen okay? Thomas is going to talk to you." he whispered making sure he was okay before standing up going to the door, he looked back nervously giving Thomas a look before disappearing behind the door to fallow the others downstairs.

Thomas smiled softly going over to Virgil sitting next to him, they sat in silence the only noise in the room was logans deep breathing. "Hey, Virgil you okay?" He asked quietly careful not to scare him just in case he was trying to sleep again but loud enough he could still hear him.

Virgil moved his hands towards his eyes carefully rubbing them letting out a small yawn causing Thomas to cough covering up a slight squealed. "LoLo." He whispered pointing to Logan with a slight pout, he scrunched up his nose giving Thomas an annoyed look. "LoLo okay?" he asked looking towards the bed with a slight frown.

"Yeah, he's still asleep. Do you want to check on him?" He asked watching Virgil carefully hoping he wouldn't be too anxious. Seeing Virgil give him a slow nod Thomas carefully got into a kneeling position giving him a small smile "is it okay if I pick you up?"

Virgil looked from Logan to Thomas. He stayed quiet and still for a moment thinking about his decision. Slowly he nodded lifting his hands toward Thomas opening and closing his hands making a grabby motion. "Up, please " He replied shyly as he looked away from Thomas blushing slightly.

"Of course Vergie." Thomas smiled softly carefully picking him up holding him close to his chest as he stood up straight. Walking towards the bed he stepped carefully as to not make the floorboards squeak to wake Logan up. He stopped at the side of the bed reaching over to slowly but carefully pull the blanket off of Logan's head, careful not to wake him up.

Logan let a soft whine at the sudden movement but settles down once the blanket was off his face. He had both hands behind his head laying as if he was watching the clouds on a nice sunny day, his head lulled to the side allowing his mouth to be opened slightly letting small snores escape past his lips. He seemed so relaxed, more then anyone has seen him even when he regressed he's sometimes not this relaxed. Maybe it was because he was regressed into a teenager and teens normally like to relax, but it was strange to see Logan so relaxed.

"See Virgil, Lo is just sleeping. He's still tired bud." He replied gently dropping the blanket back into Logan's chest. "He may sleep as long as you do when you're big again." He joked gently poking Virgil's nose causing the younger to giggle slightly.

Virgil laid his head downThomas's shoulder watching Logan for a second before looking back to the other. His stomach growled making him wrapped his arms around Thomas's neck hiding his face in his shoulder. " 'm hungry." He hummed tiredly into his shoulder.

Thomas gently placed his hand on Virgil back rubbing soothing circles along his back slowly walking towards the door. "Alright let's head on down and make sure the others haven't wrecked the kitchen. you know how much Patton likes to make breakfast even if he's regressed." he joked slowly opening the door again slowly walking out closing the door behind them. keeping hold of Virgil he walked towards the kitchen preparing himself for what was waiting for him to clean. he stopped midstep seeing a small figure sitting at the top of the stairs sniffling. blinking a couple of times letting his eyes adjust to the light he could barely make out the shape of a tail behind the figure. "Dee is that you?" he asked softly wincing slightly when the figure jumped.

"N-no." They said quickly hiding their face in their hands, voice quivering slightly as they turned their body so they were pressed against the wall.

Frowning he walked towards Deceit still holding onto Virgil as he knelt down carefully to get a better look at the deceitful side. He let out a soft 'Awe' sound when he saw his year stain cheeks puff out slightly, accusing his scales to shine a bit. He couldn't help but notice the younger one shivering slightly. "Dee are you okay? are you cold?" He asked worriedly.

He shook his head rubbing his eyes " Patton and Roman didn't leave me to wait for you, and it's dark and I'm not scared." he replied looking up towards Thomas tears streaming down his cheeks, no matter how much he tried to scrub the tears they wouldn't stop falling. He hung his head hiccuping slightly "I'm not scared, I'm brave."

"It's okay to be scared Dee, it is kinda spooky up here isn't?" He asked gently placing his hand under his chin lifting his head up carefully so he could look Thomas in the eyes, giving him a small smile he carefully using the pad of his thumb to wipe his tears away. "Would you like a hug? maybe it will make you feel less scared, I know it helps me" he suggested looking at Virgil gently bouncing him to look at them.

Virgil turned his head facing Deceit with sleepy eyes, he slowly nodded "Pat gives the bestest hug." He smiled softly nuzzling into Thomas's shoulder "Thomas too, not the bestest like Pat but good." He giggled slightly tightening his grip around Thomas's neck making Thomas heart melt into a puddle at how pure he sounded.

Deceit looked from Virgil to Thomas looking deep in thought weighing his options, he looked back to Thomas tears welling up in his eyes, his bottom lip shivered slightly. Slowly he lifted his arms making a grabbing motion signaling he wanted to be picked up. "I would not like a hug please." He cried moving closer to Thomas.

Thomas scooped the crying side into his arms holding him close to his chest gently rocking them both. he frowned slightly feeling Deceit burry his face into the crock of his neck, he couldn't help but shiver feeling how cold his scales felt on his neck. "I think I know what will make you feel better, how about we set you and Virgil up on the couch with the fluffiest blanket I own. And maybe you two can pick a movie you both can watch while I get breakfast ready. How does that sound?" he cooed walking towards the hall closet carefully shifting Deceit to his other arm balancing both him and Virgil on one arm while he reached up to the shelf to grab a heated blanket he uses when he went to visit family in the north. Once he had it in his hands he carefully held the blanket in his hands as he held onto both kids back to their original places in his arms.

Together the three started to walk towards the stairs to go and start on the plan Thomas had suggested the two to do when suddenly a loud crash caused the three to jump out in fright. Virgil let out a startled cry tightening trying to curl up into himself trying to make himself small, Deceit copying his action both crying into his shoulder. From downstairs there was a loud "I'm okay!" From Roman. Thomas groaned making his steps faster as he tried to comfort the two as he went to find out what happened.

once he stepped off the last step he disposed of the blanket onto the couch, carefully sitting Deceit and Virgil down beside of each other as he rushed towards the kitchen mentally preparing himself for what he was about to witness. once he got into the kitchen he had to stop eye's wide, mouth hung open slightly when he saw the state of his kitchen. flour was everywhere, there were pots and pans all over the floor, standing in the middle of the mess was Patton and Roman arms crossed glaring at each other. "What in the name of Disney is going on in here?" He asked causing both Roman and Patton to quickly look towards him they quickly pointing to each other yelling 'he did it!'.

Thomas groaned rubbing his temple "I don't care who did it, why did you do it?" He asked his mind going everywhere trying to figure out why Patton and Roman wrecked his kitchen and trying to stop himself from scooping Virgil up and cuddle him until he stopped crying, he had to deal with the problem at hand he just hopped Virgil wouldn't be too angry with him for letting him cry for a while his heart really didn't want he would do if he was mad, all he could do was hope Deceit was comforting the other while he dealt with the problem at hand. "Guys you were out of my sight for only five minutes and you wreck the kitchen." He said putting his hands on his hips giving them a stern look.

Patton looked away sheepishly holding his hands in front of him staying quiet for a few moments while he tried to figure out what to say "well you were busy with Virgil and you're letting us stay, I wanted to make everyone breakfast so you didn't have too. But I couldn't reach the bag of flour so I asked Roman to help but he wouldn't give me the bag, so I pulled and he pulled and then it ripped! And went everywhere!" He exclaimed waving his arms pointing to the ripped bag of flour on the floor.

Roman huffed crossing his arms turning his back away from Patton and Thomas pouting like he didn't get his way. "It wasn't my fault, you wouldn't listen to my idea for breakfast! So I tried to do my own breakfast but Patty told me no trying to take away my pots and pans and now they are all over the floor dirty with flour on them so I can't do anything now because Patton thinks he's my boss, today only Logan and you are my bosses not him" He stomped his foot glaring at the floor refusing to look at either Thomas or Patton.

Sighing softly Thomas gave both of them a soft look " okay how about we all calm down okay? Go wash up while I take care of Virgil and Dee and I clean up this mess okay? " he asked helping them both out of the kitchen making sure they didn't track any more flour out of the kitchen. "Just leave your onesie in the bathroom, I'll grab them later on to clean them." He sighed taking them to the stairs making sure they went upstairs. Both kids walked up the stairs their heads hung low as they walked, they were mumbling to each other as they walked up the stairs towards the bathroom. Leaving Thomas alone to stand there and sigh.

Thomas stood up straight Turing away from the stairs going towards the couch were Deceit and Virgil, he knelt in front of them frowning softly. "Virgil, can you copy my breathing for me? good job, you're doing amazing" He spoke calmly. Carefully slowing his breathing so Virgil was able to copy his breathing and calm down. Slowly but surely after fifteen minutes of crying and reassuring him, Virgil finally stopped crying. He coughed a bit as he rubbed his eyes frustratedly trying to get the tears off his face as he leaned into Deceit.

He gave him a small smile slowly picking up the heated blanket wrapping it around both boys before plugging it into the wall socket. "There now you two are warm and toasty how about some cartoons while I clean up the kitchen. What would you like to watch?" He asked quietly picking up the remote looking at the two patiently.

"Nightmare before Christmas." They both agreed without hesitation. Deceit pulling the blanket curling up under it letting out a happy sigh bleeping slightly letting the warmth surround him. Virgil sniffles reaching out for Thomas to pick him up giving him a teary eyed look "Thomas up please." he begged sounding absolutely miserable.

"Virgie I have to go clean the mess Pat and Ro made in the kitchen, I promise after breakfast I will give you as many hugs as you want okay?" he asked putting on the nightmare before Christmas on the tv, trying to stay strong with his decision of not picking him up but Virgil was making it hard on him because he had now started whining. "No Virgil I will pick you up once I'm done okay?" he carefully stood up placing the remote onto the coffee table heading towards the hall closet grabbing a broom and dustpan to get to work.

Virgil slipped off the couch trying to follow him into the kitchen "Thomas up!" he repeated keeping his arms stretched out to him. He letting some big crocodile tears fall as he tried to follow him in, but Thomas simple held his hand walking him back to the couch sitting him down next to Deceit going back to the kitchen. Virgil showed he wasn't having any of this. He got back off the couch and marched towards the kitchen sitting himself down in front of the entrance and yelled "up Thomas please !" Again Thomas gently held his hand helping him stand taking him back to the couch going back to the kitchen. This time Virgil started to wail getting frustrated that he wasn't getting his way. He walked back to the entrance this time he laid on his back and just sobbed trying to get Thomas attention. 

Thomas sighed sweeping the floor trying so hard not scoop up Virgil and give him what he wanted, but he knew if he did there would be no way he would be able to put him down anytime soon. he frowned slightly listening to the wails of said side wondering if he did this to the others when he regresses or if this is something new. "I'm sorry Virgil but I have to clean the kitchen so I can make breakfast for all of you, I'm making pancakes," he promised sweeping the flour into a pile carefully sweeping it into the dustpan before going over to the trash can.

Deceit whined covering his ears looking towards the kitchen. "Thomas he's not gonna wake up Logan, make him stop I can totally hear the movie over his crying," he called giving Thomas an annoyed look, but it quickly turned to a worried one when he heard Virgil start coughing because of how much he was crying.

"Okay, okay sorry Dee" he sighed giving in, he leaned the broom against the counter before walking towards Virgil who was still laying on the ground. carefully Thomas knelt down taking Virgil into his arms holding him close to his chest. "Okay you win, shh it's okay, Let's see if we can make Breakfast together won't that be fun?" he whispered gently rubbing his back rocking him back and forth carefully standing up keeping his arms tightly around him.

Virgil wrapped his arms around his neck and legs around his midsection. resting his face on the side of Thomas his tears dampening his cheek. He coughed slightly nodded tightening his grip taking deep breaths copying Thomas's breathing. "Okay. no down please" he hiccuped gently pushing his face closer to his taking in shaky breaths.

He sighed softly nodding as he stood up gently rubbing a hand through his hair "Okay bud I won't put you down." he promised walking towards the Kitchen grabbing the broom and dustpan going back to the closet to put it away. "I'm sorry I didn't pick you up, I had to get the kitchen swept. I couldn't have you in here getting the flour on you."He replied carefully picking up the pots and pans putting them into the skin, just as Roman and Patton came back downstairs all clean and dressed for the day. He couldn't help but smile when he felt tiny fingers go through his hair as he was cleaning.

Once he got all the pots and pans put in the sink to be washed later. He tried to put Virgil down so he could make pancakes but he quickly stopped when said side started screaming. So he decided the easiest thing would to just make everyone toast and put whatever they wanted on it. So around 10:30 he finished getting the toast toasted and placed on plates."Pat, Roman, Dee come on in so we can get your breakfast." He called into the living room grabbing peanut butter, butter and crofters placing them on the dining table. "Virge, I'm glad you calmed down and my hair has never looked better. But would it be okay if I set you down so you can eat breakfast with the other and I can get Logan?" He asked softly as the others came rushing in. He only got an unhappy whine in response as his arms and legs tightened around Thomas. He sighed softly "okay okay."

Roman gasped once he got to the table "Toast? I thought you said we were having Pancakes. What happened to pancakes?" He asked sitting in his chair glaring at the toast as if it had offended him.

"Ro be nice, Thomas doesn't have to make us breakfast but he's doing it out of the kindness of his heart. So no complaining." Patton scolded sitting in the seat across from Roman. He grabbed a couple of napkins placing them in front of each plate of toast. "Thomas do you want me to go wake up lo?" He asked helping Deceit spread some Peanut butter on his toast.

"It's okay Pat I'm just about to head upstairs to get him, you guy go ahead and eat, sorry i couldn't make pancakes because the flour you used to decorate the kitchen was now all I had so toast is all I can make for now, so you guys eat up and  I'll go get Logan up," he replied walking towards the cupboard grabbing a couple cups placing them on the table before walking towards the stairs. "But before I head up what do you guys want to drink? I have milk, orange juice, and apple juice." 

"I want milk please!" Patton asked with a huge smile before he suddenly gasped looking to Thomas with wide eye's "Can we make it chocolate milk?" he whispered basically vibrating in his seat. he looked at deceit smiling widely "Dee do you want chocolate milk too?" he asked softly hoping if both him and Deceit wanted it Thomas would say yes.

Deceit looked at Patton then to Thomas, he stayed quiet for a second thinking about his options carefully. he slowly pointed past Thomas to the Orange juice. "I would not like Orange juice, Please Thomas" he replied leaning back into his seat looking back to Patton wondering if he said the right thing. He smiled widely when Patton gave him a thumbs up showing he was okay with his answer

Roman huffed "I want some apple juice chocolate milk is for babies and orange juice is only for people who are boring like logan, which I am neither." he said crossing his arms looking towards Thomas with a grin on his face. "Princes only drink apple juice, it helps keep the Dragon witch away." He exclaimed waving his hands around.

"Okay okay, but Roman it wasn't nice of you to say only babies drink chocolate milk and boring people drink orange juice. Everyone can have what they want to drink." He lightly scolds carefully pouring out the drinks for each carefully placing them in front of them. "Okay does Anyone need anything before I go upstairs?" He asked readjusting his hold on Virgil carefully rubbing his back gently going back to the cabinet grabbing a glass for Logan and himself and a plastic cup for Virgil.

"No thank you "Patton smiled eating his butter toast happily munching on it.

Deceit shook his head taking a sip of his orange juice sitting on his knees so he was able to reach anything that was in the middle of the table. "I am not okay, thank you." He replied with a wide smile melting Thomas heart into a puddle.

Roman shrugged reaching for the crofters "nope why do you have to get the nerd anyway? he's going to be all boring and telling us what not to do. And then he's gonna be grumpy because we won't listen" He whined dramatically leaning back into his seat.

Thomas sighed shaking his head. "Yes I'm waking him up Roman, and you better watch how mean your being because I have stairs and I will make you sit there for 8 minutes in time out do I make myself clear?" He asked using his stern voice "and that's not just for Roman that's for all of you, I mean I can't put Logan in time out but you four I can. Especially, Virgil you can't use sad eyes on me no sir, I'm not Patton I won't fall for it." he exclaimed poking Virgil's side smiling softly when he heard a small giggle. Once the others gave him a small "okay" He gave the others a small smile walking towards the entrance of the kitchen taking one last look before he made his way up the stairs to go wake up the teenager. 

Virgil laid his head on Thomas's shoulder watching the kitchen become smaller as they walked towards the kitchen, he turned his head towards Thomas gently running his fingers through his hair again smiling to himself when he saw Thomas's hair stick up more than it already was. "Lolo gonna be grumpy." He said in a 'matter of fact' voice, making a face as he began to sit up when Thomas started to walk up the stairs. 

"Yeah well, it's okay to be a little grumpy when you just wake up in the morning, not Princey's type of grouchy like he is today but more like when you don't get your coffee." He explained "And if I'm not mistaken not but fifteen minutes ago you were being a grouch because I wouldn't pick you up," he replied raising an eyebrow at him, he smiled softly when Virgil shook his head as fast as he could denying that he was ever in a foul mood. "No, it wasn't you? I could have sworn it was. then there must be another person in the house with looks exactly like you being a grouch" he chuckled walking to his bedroom carefully opening his bedroom door walking in quietly, he hoped when Virgil was back to his normal self he would feel that it is okay for him to be silly and have fun with the others.

Virgil grinned laying his head back down on Thomas's shoulder staying quiet as they entered the room "Roro always grumpy, Pat pat can too. Dee sometimes grumpy when he's sleepy." He replied looking towards the bed, he giggled seeing Logan was now laying on his stomach arms down at his side and head almost under the pillow, The blankets were now laying on his legs no longer providing warmth for the sleeping side. Under the mess of blankets, he could spot a familiar plaid purple sleeve sticking out from under the blanket. He suddenly sat up pointed to the sleeve  making a grabbing motion "Thomas please." He exclaimed excitedly

He followed were Virgil was pointing. "Oh yeah, I got it." He replied going over to the bed gently pulling the covers away before picking up the hoodie, "here you go Virge" he smiled giving the hoodie to Virgil who happily tried to put it on himself, But with Thomas help, he was now happily warm in his hoodie snuggled up against Thomas's shoulder. Thomas smiled softly going over to the bed were Logan had managed to place himself, he gently placed a hand on his shoulder "Logan? Lo it's time to get up, I've got breakfast ready downstairs." He said gently giving his shoulder a shake careful not to be too loud to scare him awake, but loud enough that he would wake up.

Logan continued to lay there unmoved, his breathing still even as he slept, the only sign of him waking up was his eyes were moving around under his eyes lids.  Thomas tried once more shaking his shoulder again causing Logan to scrunch up his nose and frown his brows as he let out a whine. He moved his arms to grab the pillow to try and hide his face away. "Go away, Let me sleep." He whined softly suddenly being more stubborn then Roman was when he didn't get his way on movie night.

Thomas winced slightly hearing Logan, he hadn't expected Logan to whine about getting up but from what Patton had told him even adult Logan could get like this from time to time and it was just best to try to get him up and moving, even if he is being a complete grump. "Sorry, Lo I can't, I've got Roman and Patton downstairs I feel like I've left then down there by themselves to long, and I've got Dee with them snuggled up in a blanket. And Virgil is right here with me so now it's your turn to get up." He replied carefully taking the pillow off his head and placing it on the other side of the bed.

He huffed as he sat up in the bed rubbing his eyes frustratedly. He gave Thomas a glare as he tried to wake himself up more than he actually was. "I'll meet you downstairs if you're worried that Roman and Patton are causing chaos." He said laying back down shoving his face into the pillow planning on going back to sleep once Thomas left.

"I don't think so, sorry Lo I know what you're trying to do, come on up you go." He replied holding his hand out giving Logan a small smile "once you get up and eat then you can take a nap I won't stop you there. Maybe Roman and Patton will follow your lead"He replied helping him off the bed handing over The abandoned glasses that were on the nightstand.

Once Logan put his glasses on he continued to give Thomas an annoyed look showing how displeased he was with him. "I do not nap Thomas I am old enough to function without one no matter what Patton says, let's just go get breakfast done I request a cup of coffee please." He replied his serious tone wad interrupted by a yawn. He rubbed his eyes under his glasses before standing up straight. His annoyed look replaced with a tired one.

"Sorry Lo I don't think coffee will be a good thing for you right now, but I do have orange juice, Apple juice, and chocolate milk if that's okay ?" He asked adjusting Virgil on so he was resting on his hip, he walked towards the door opening it wider so they could walk out of the room. He sighed softly when he saw the annoyed look come back to Logan's face. "I'm sorry Lo I can't risk anyone else getting into it especially Roman and Patton." He said. As if I'm cue there was a loud Thud that came from the living room followed by an "I'm okay!" From Patton. He sighed softly giving Logan an 'I'm not risking it' look.

Logan sighed hanging his head as he followed him to the door. "Okay I guess it wouldn't be ideal to keep a caffeinated drink out for anyone could grab wouldn't be smart." He replied lifting his head slightly now noticing Virgil staring at him with wide eyes. "Salutations Virgil, are you enjoying your morning?" He asked giving him a small smile hiding any look of annoyance he had towards Thomas.

Virgil gave him a small smile tightening his grip on Thomas's shirt. His hands covered by his hoodie sleeves but he didn't let that stop him from having a tight grip. He shrugged keeping his head rested on his shoulder. "Hi Lolo, I'm okay. You not grumpy at me?" He asked quietly carefully using one hand to push his hair out of his face so he was able to see Logan better. 

"I'm fine Virgil, there is no need to worry about me I am merely tired that's all, I'm not grumpy with you more Thomas then anyone" he replied following them out of the room before giving Thomas another look before  straightening his glasses. "are you feeling grumpy today Virgil?" he asked as they made their way down the stairs towards the Livingroom were he could hear a the others playing some sort of game in the distance.

he thought for a moment wondering if he should tell him he did feel upset earlier but he really didn't want to worry him. so he just shook his head with a small bashful smile "No I not grumpy." he replied snuggling closer to Thomas as they reached the last step and walked towards the kitchen.

"Logan!" Patton shouted running towards the trio jumping into Logan's arms almost knocking him off balanced, thankfully Thomas Caught Logan's arm before he was able to fall backward. "Lo, when you're done with breakfast, do you want to play with us? me and Ro are going to save Dee from the dragon witch, we need a wizard" he rambled loudly holding onto Logan as tightly as he could giving him a huge grin.

"Patton I have to help Thomas figure out how to get us back to normal," he replied wincing at the sad look he got from Patton. "But I guess a few moments of playing pretend couldn't hurt, so yes I would be happy to join you in your quest against the dragon witch." he agreed smiling softly.

Patton's eyes widened as his smile grew he gave Logan one last squeeze before running to Thomas carefully taking hold of Virgil's hand smiling widely "if you want to you can play with us too, you can be a wizard too.  but you don't have too if you don't want too we won't be upset I promise" he replied giving him a small smile giving his hand a small squeeze.

Virgil quickly shook his head hiding his face in his hoodie tightening his grip on Thomas "No thank you, Pat Pat, I stay with Thomas" He replied quickly shaking his hand away wrapping his arms around Thomas's neck holding onto him tightly. Afraid they would make him leave  Thomas and play a game he didn't wants to play at all.

"That's okay no worries, you can stay with Thomas, just remember if you want to play you can okay?" He asked. Once he got a jerk nod from the younger he ran back to Roman and Deceit happily placing himself next to Roman to make a plan to help rescue Deceit.

Thomas raised an eyebrow at Virgil. He was starting to get more confused the more Virgil held onto him. He gave Logan a look before taking them into the kitchen "Virgil can I put you down so you can eat breakfast? While you eat I can go get Ro and Patton's onesies so I can put them in the wash " He asked gently pulling one of the chairs away from the table to trying to put him down in the chair, but as soon as he tried Virgil tightened his grip and started yelling 'No no No! No down Thomas no down!' Making Thomas quickly pulling him back into his arms holding him closer to his chest. He frowned feeling him tremble against his chest, he gave Logan a panicked look to see what he would do.

Logan pushed his glasses up seeming not to gazed by Virgil's actions. He walked over towards the table carefully picking up the crofters and butter knife spreading the jam on two pieces of toast. He gave Thomas a blank stare "oh yes I forgot to mention, Virgil has developed a form of separation anxiety when he regresses so suddenly like yesterday. It has seemed that he has no longer found interest with me and has moved to stay with you. I do hope Virgil takes it easy on you "He stated the obvious placing one toast back on the plate before picking up the other toast carefully doing the same.

He frowned slightly holding onto Virgil gently rocking him to keep him calm. "What is that suppose to mean Logan?" He asked worried what he actually meant by his words. "He's been fine so far, besides not letting me put him down."

"Let me put it simply Thomas." He replied giving him a devilish grin that sent chills down his spin "I can use the bathroom alone, you can't." He said taking a bit of his toast waking towards the entrance of the kitchen " and if you try you will have an ear full from Virgil himself. As of now, I wish you luck I am off on a quest" He chuckled darkly walking away leaving Thomas standing there shocked and worried.

Thomas looked from were Logan was standing back Virgil, he carefully sat in the seat bringing the toast in front of them staying silent for a moment watching as Virgil slowly detach himself from his death grip around his neck to eat his breakfast , he still kept a tight grip on his shirt making sure he didn't go anywhere. "You'll go easy on me right Virge?" He asked quietly.

Virgil looked at Thomas shrugging taking a bite of his toast humming happily as he leaned into Thomas's chest acting all cute and innocent trying to make his heart melt, causing  Thomas to sigh softly running a hand through his hair and have a feeling that today was going to be a long day for all of them. 

Once breakfast was finished and Logan kept Patton, Roman, and Deceit busy playing pretend having a good time. while Thomas was able to gather up things that needed to be washed, keeping Virgil balanced on his hip as he went along listening to Virgil babble about his favorite stuff animal that Roman had. everything seemed peaceful and right with the world, that is until it was getting closer to lunch time.

Thomas was currently making grilled cheeses for everyone to eat, sadly he had to set Virgil down onto the ground so he was able to use the stove, so he was clinging to his leg pulling on his shirt sobbing, begging to be picked up and held again. Roman was now sitting in the corner of the kitchen crying loudly saying that he didn't mean to hit Patton when they were playing and he didn't mean to knock Deceit down when he was running. Deceit and Patton were in the living room crying on Logan's shoulders telling him about what happened.

He sighed tiredly putting the last grilled cheese on the plate Turing off the stove, carefully he turned towards the table placing the plates around the table before moving to the fridge getting everyone a cup of juice moving fast so they could have a drink with their lunch, he was moving to fast for Virgil to keep up, which started to make him more and more frustrated so he just sat down in the middle of the kitchen floor and just sobbed. Thomas sighed taking a deep breath putting the cups on the table before he walked over to Roman, he crouched down in front of the younger giving him a serious look. "Ro deep breaths okay? let's stop crying so we can talk okay?" he asked staying calm as he spoke.

Roman coughed before taking in a deep breath hiccuping. "I didn't mean too I thought I was hitting the dragon witch but Pat was in my way when I was running to get you then I tripped over dee and then I hurt them both, I didn't mean too" he coughed again before the waterworks started up again. he put his hands over his eyes as he cried "Now they're gonna be mad at me and never want to play with me again!" he sobbed louder dramatically taking in gasps of breath making it sound like he was hyperventilating.

"Ro they won't be mad at you I promise. deep breaths Ro let's calm down okay" he said carefully pulling Roman into a hug gently rubbing his back gently trying to help him calm down. once Roman was calmed down he carefully pulled away wiping his tears away gently" we all are just going to take a break for a while from playing after lunch okay? for right now how about you go to them and try to apologize. Logan will make sure they listen to you okay?" he asked giving him a small smile happy to hear the other two in the living room had finally calmed down as well.

Roman sniffled nodding. "I want to be their princely big brother I have to be nice and apologize." he admitted as he held onto Thomas for a little while before letting go giving him a small smile "Okay, if your sure they won't be mad at me I'll go apologize" he whispered rubbing his eyes slowly moving away from Thomas going into the living room to apologize to the others for what had happened before leaving Thomas with an upset Virgil.

Thomas stayed crouched for a few moments taking a few seconds to collect himself before he could do anything, it had only been a few hours since they all woke up but he was feeling extremely exhausted maybe he could use their calm down time to catch a quick nap. he suddenly jumped when Virgil's crying got louder, he turned around to see Virgil red in the face tears pouring down his cheeks, he reached for Thomas he was sitting on his knees trying to make himself bigger. "Virgil I'm sorry bud, I'll pick you up once we finish lunch okay?" he asked slowly standing up going towards him so he could get him into the chair so he could eat lunch.

Once Thomas got closer he grabbed his pants leg leaning closer to him rubbing his tear stained cheek onto his pants taking in a rushed shaky breath before coughing as he took in another breath before crying again. "Daddy up! daddy up please" he begged sobbing louder causing his voice to quiver as he wrapped his arms around his leg squeezing as tightly as he could.

He Froze eyes widened as he looked down at Virgil, wondering if he heard him right. 'did he just call me what I think he called me?' he thought to himself staying still to see if Virgil would yell it again. He noticed Virgil getting more anxious the longer he waited to see if he would say the sentence again so he gave him picking him up. "Okay, okay I got you Virgie, deep breaths, there you go, you got this" he whispered gently having Virgil rest his head on his shoulder as he rubbed circles on his back, gently counting for Virgil going through his breathing exercises.

Once Virgil had calmed down he stayed rested against Thomas hiccuping as he wrapped his arms around his neck sniffling softly "bad daddy, you promise no down. You broke it" He hiccuped making himself sound so miserable it made Thomas feel guilty for even putting him down in the first place.

He leaned on the counter sighing softly. He carefully turned his head to face Virgil, reaching up he wipes away the stray tears that lined the younger face. "I know that wasn't nice of me, was it? I'm sorry Virgie. How about when we pick a movie to watch so we all can calm down I give you all the cuddles you want, how does that sound?" He whispered gently walking towards the entrance of the living room checking in to make sure that the others were okay. Roman had both Patton and Deceit in a big bear hug, they seemed to have made up "Hey guys lunchtime."He called quietly giving them a small smile.

Patton smiled pulling away from Roman quickly grabbing his and Deceits hand running towards Thomas giving him a wide smile "Thomas! Guess What!." He grinned excitedly. Before he let Thomas say anything he was already bouncing with excitement telling him what he was going to say. "Ro said he was sorry for hitting me and tripping on Dee, and I said I was sorry that I was in the way and so did Dee, but then he said he thought we didn't want to play with him ever again, but we said that it wasn't true! And that we thought he didn't want to play with us anymore. But then Lolo said that sometimes when People are sad they think the worstest thing ever. But now we made up and after we eat lunch we are gonna play some more! Thomas can we color, please? That will be fun we can draw you a lot of pictures!" Patton said as fast as he could making Thomas have a hard time keeping up with what he was saying.

Thomas gave him a soft smile "that's great Pat I'm glad you all made up, I'll see what I can do about the coloring for right now let's get you all lunch how does that sound?" He asked carefully crouching down to their level keeping a tight hold on Virgil continuing to rub circles alone his back. "I was thinking maybe we could watch big hero six while you guys color." He replied looking to Logan he hid a grin on his face when he saw his eyes light up at the movie suggestion he quickly looked away trying not to show Thomas that he was excited about it.

"I don't like big hero six!" Deceit said excitedly bouncing up and down were he stood next to Patton, he seemed to almost have the same amount of energy that Patton and Roman did once he was warm and kept entertained. "Especially Baymax he's so not cute and soft. I really don't want a Baymax." He put one hand over his mouth giggling excitedly, he hid face in Patton's shoulder hugging the other tightly.

Roman throw a fist into the air letting out a cheer "yes Disney is always the answer Thomas, you know us so well!" He smiled proudly gently pulling Patton's hand towards the dining table where their lunch was "Patton Dee wanna sit with me while we eat lunch?"He asked as they walked past Thomas towards the table, they continued to have their own conversation leaving Thomas with Logan.

He chuckled carefully standing up giving Logan a look "come on Lo let's eat before they get too hungry they might steal ours." He joked walking towards the Logical side holding out his hand smiling softly. He gently pulled Logan up when he gave him his hand. "Besides I can't put on your favorite movie if you don't each lunch, that would be wrong of me to have the others follow rules and you not. "He smiled putting a hand on Logan's shoulders.

Logan looked away a light dusting of blush speed across his cheeks. He adjusted his glasses looking up at Thomas "I suppose I do have an interest in the movie."He mumbled slightly looking towards the others. He suddenly turned towards Virgil giving him a slightly annoyed look. "Okay fine I love that movie, you don't have to give me that look, Virgil, I admitted it you can stop now" He pouted crossing his arms looking away from the two huffings in annoyance walking towards the table leaving them alone.

Virgil gave a small watery giggle looking up at Thomas with a small smile. "Lolo silly daddy. He poutin' cause I look at him like this" He said giving him a serious look rising one eyebrow, a few seconds later he fell into a fit of giggles again sounding like he was feeling a lot better then he had earlier. Thomas was still shocked that he was calling him daddy but he wasn't going to stop him if he felt comfortable with that. "I like the kitty, hairy baby." He laughed putting his sleeve covered hand on top of Thomas's head fluffing his hair when he said 'hairy baby'

"Oh yeah, you were giving him a look? Well, let's go eat some lunch before he gives us a look huh?" He asked smiling walking towards the Table taking a seat next to Logan holding Virgil on his lap "and yes Hairy baby is a good kitty huh?" He asked gently moving some plates around so his and Virgil's is now in front of them. He looked around and frowned. He had now noticing everyone was dressed ready for the day.

Patton was wearing a light blue shirt that had a paw print in the front, he was wearing a pair of khaki shorts and socks on his feet. Roman was wearing a grey shirt that had Minnie and Mickey mouse hugging the space between each other with a heart in the middle of his chest, He was wearing red shorts with grey socks. Deceit was had a black shirt that had a yellow snake that wrapped around from his back to his form. He was wearing jean shorts with yellow socks. Logan was wearing his normal outfit except he wasn't wearing his tie.

Thomas looked down at himself and Virgil frowning, they both were still in their pajamas, he wanted to change but he wasn't sure if Virgil would want to change as well. "Um, Virgil do you want to change into day clothes so we can wash your pajamas? We can change back into them tonight before we go back to bed" He suggested taking a sip from his bottle of water wondering how he could change and not make Virgil upset at the same time, he might have to bring him into the room with him he wasn't prepared for another temper tantrum from Virgil.

He hummed lifting his arms up letting his long sleeves all as far as they could so he could pick up his sandwich taking a bite of his grilled cheese, he smiled happily as he took another bit. Shaking his head he looked back at Thomas "No thank you, daddy I wanna stay in my PJs all day please."He replied placing his sandwich back on the plate before carefully picking up his glass with help from Thomas he took a drink of his Apple juice.

Patton quickly put his hands over his mouth to suppress an excited squeal when he heard what Virgil called Thomas, he quickly hid the expression and looked towards his sandwich eating happily pretending that he didn't hear him but on the inside, he was squealing. 'Virgil your so cute, I hope your able to stay this happy when we are back to normal.' he thought to himself He turned to Dee and happily went back to their conversation about what they could draw while they watched the movie.

Logan suddenly groaned crossing his arms giving Virgil a glare "Thomas make him stop please, he keeps giving me that look. I've asked him to stop but he proceeds to give me the same look. I would appreciate if he did not look at me like that anymore" He said giving Virgil an annoyed look when he keeps staring at each other. It was hilarious to see Logan so annoyed with Virgil for just giving him a simple look, but Thomas knew if he didn't stop Virgil soon Logan may get to the point where he might start shouting in frustration.

"Virgil leave Logan alone, he's asked you nicely so let's just eat our lunch okay?" He asked gently placing a hand in front of Virgil's Face hiding whatever look he was giving Logan. "I know you like to antagonize but I don't think lo appreciates that bud." He replied handing Virgil his other part of his sandwich.

Virgil took the sandwich into his hands looking at Roman having an idea come to him, he suddenly had a huge mischievous grin come on to his face, sadly before he could even try to give Roman a hand time Thomas gently covered his eyes with his hand sighing softly. He pouted putting the sandwich back onto the plate leaning back trying to push away Thomas's hands "all done, no more." He replied pressing himself further into his chest.

Thomas sighed softly gently moving Virgil's plate away, he looked over everyone enjoying their lunch, he couldn't help but wonder how this could have happened, or who could have done this to them, he wasn't going to worry about it at this moment he decided once they were watching their movie, he'd talk to Logan more about what they had done within the last week that may have caused them all to regress so suddenly without warning. 

Once everyone finished lunch they all went off to do their own things. Roman and Patton were happily sat around the coffee table happily drawing Multiple pictures of puppies, kittens, and even a couple dragon witches quietly planning their next adventure they were going to play. Logan sat next to Thomas leaning on the older slightly having his full attention on the movie, occasionally he would turn to Thomas asking him questions that have made him curious while watching the movie, Questions he would ask was more along the line of 'what do you think Tadashi made Baymax out of? he seems too soft to be any sort of metal.' or 'why did the college let Hiro get in at such a young age, that is highly doubtful especially nowadays being a genius is taken for granted.' in which Thomas would say 'Well he made Baymax is a special type of material that makes him soft.' and 'I'm not sure Lo, but I bet you could do it if people saw how smart you are.' which made Logan give a satisfied smile, But then he would ask questions that Thomas couldn't answer himself so he had to google the answers, he read at least four different articles within the last twenty minutes just so he could find out how likely it is for a child to skip a grade. Thomas found himself laying on the couch with Deciet happily laying on his legs watching the movie letting out a couple giggles as he tried to get Thomas to do the fist bump but every time he tried Thomas woukd do the 'balala' noise causing the other to go into another fit of giggles, Virgil was snuggled up against Thomas's chest head rested over Thomas heart listening to the steady rhythm eyes drooping slowly the longer he laid there, he was trying to fight off the need for a nap the best he could, but Thomas wasn't helping as he gently brushed his hand through his hair in a soothing motion causing him to let out a soft whine and tighten his hands on his shirt every so often but refused to remove the hand away from his head. Laying over top the three was his heated blanket turned onto the lowest setting providing making them feel warm and comforting. They all seemed to be in a happy calm mood at the moment which made Thomas thankful for.

Thomas opened his mouth to say something to Logan when he suddenly saw a figure appear by the stairs out of the corner of his eye causing him to go into protection mode. He turned his head quickly to see who had suddenly appeared in his apartment and if he needed to get ready to fight to protect the others. Standing there was a figure wearing a white shirt and leather jacket with jeans, they had sunglasses resting over his eyes and a messenger bag resting over his shoulder. He had a Starbucks cup firmly in. They brought the drink up to his mouth taking a long sip before giving a cocky grin. "Sup gurl what did I miss?" He asked setting the cup next to him as he sat on the steps.

"Remy!" Deceit suddenly shouted excitedly quickly getting off of Thomas legs rushing over to the other launching himself into the arms of the other troughing his arms around the other's neck almost knocking the sunglasses of their face as he gave them a tight squeeze. "I didn't miss you! Guess what! I didn't get saved by Pat Pat Ro, and lo 'cause the dragon witch took me away. And we didn't eat grilled cheese and orange juice for lunch!" He smiled widely snuggling into the other's neck giving them a happy giggle. "What are you doing here?" He asked his eyes shown curiously as he tilted his head to the side slightly.

"Woah! Careful there Dee, don't want my glasses falling off now do we?" He asked gently giving the other a squeeze hug smiling softly when the other burst into a fit of giggles. "That sounds like a lot of fun hon, I'm so glad two handsome princes were able to save you as well as a wizard, next time call me if love to be rescued by some handsome princes like Pat and Ro" he said winking ag roman and and Patton who both had proud smiles on their faces. "Anyways I'm here because Emmy wanted to make sure you all were okay. Someone didn't  leave him a note saying they were going to Thomas's so he can take care of them and I don't think it was Dee, Vergie, Ro or Pat would be able to write a note explaining why you all suddenly left,"he replied gently pushing his sunglasses down on his nose giving Logan a slight look, his grin widens when said side crossed their arms looking away a slight blush dusting their cheeks.

Logan huffed turning back to Remy giving him an annoyed look. "So you mean to tell us that Emile let you out of his so called 'time out' after grounding you for a week after you decided to keep everyone away the day before filming seasons of love audio, just because Roman said your sunglasses weren't um Gucci?" He questioned looking to Thomas to see if he said that word write, once he was giving a nod he continued "so what out of the goodness of your heart you decided that you would check on us? I highly doubt that is why you're here. I bet you snuck out and you're using us as an excuse just so you won't get in trouble again." He replied getting back into his comfortable position on the couch laying his head on Thomas's shoulder looking satisfied with his response.

Remy pushed his sunglasses back up on his nose before standing up holding Deceit on his hip and placing his other hand over his heart. "Gurl how cold hearted do you think I am, yes Emmy wanted me to check on you all so I agreed. I was worried too, especially our little snake right here, last time he regressed he spent the whole time hanging out with me huh?" He asked gently bouncing Deceit causing him to giggle holding onto the other's shirt as tightly as he could. "But anyways , I see everyone is okay now for me to do my Job, looks like our little storm cloud is fighting a nap, hon if you wait any longer you will altimently ruining your sleep schedule and you know Lolo will have a cow about that,"he said walking over to Thomas kneeling down next to him giving Virgil a slight look.

Virgil turned his head to look at Remy for a few seconds looking at him through droopy eyes, he gave him a small frown he huffed in annoyance before turning his head into Thomas's chest shaking his head "No nap stay with daddy." He replied holding onto Thomas as tightly as he could trying not to show that he really was tired. "Only stay with daddy, no one else." He replied sounding serious. Causing Remy to give Thomas a strange look.

Thomas frowned slightly gently placing a hand on Virgil's back "Virgil I won't leave when you fall asleep I promise. And when you wake up all of us will be right here ready to hang out with you and we could watch a movie." he replied giving him a small smile gently rubbing soothing circles on his back. Trying not to think about how much he needs to use the restroom

Virgil placed a hand over Thomas' mouth slowly lifting his head giving him a slight look of annoyance. He turned his head to Remy waving " go away Rem, only Emmy, Pat-Pat, Lo, and daddy tell me what to do. Not you, you not responsible enough " He said sticking his tongue out at him. He said with a satisfied grin when Remy gave him a shocked gasp at the sudden attitude. He laid his head back down slowly moving his hand away from Thomas's mouth. He snuggled further into his chest looking at Remy waving his hand at him "bye bye. No nap never ever" He whispered causing himself and Deceit to go into a fit of giggles at his reaction.

Remy pouted slightly going back to the stairs picking up his Starbucks "you know what, since no one can control the little beast I'll go get someone who can. I'm also taking Dee with me maybe he can help sweeten the deal" He huffed sinking out taking Deceit with him leaving an empty space at the bottom of the stairs.

Patton slowly moved towards Thomas and Virgil giving them his serious dad look, he put his hands on his hips standing tall so he would look more serious "now Vergie that wasn't very nice, I'm still the dad even if I'm small so your going to time out because you were mean to Remy, come on big guy you need a time out." He said without worming he picked up Virgil walking towards the step placing him there gently patting his head "I'll be back in three minutes, don't you move a muscle." He said walking back to his coloring pages going back to his coloring. Surprising everyone Virgil didn't fight he just sat there putting his hood over his head and cried quietly.

Roman winced slightly watching Patton put Virgil in time out, he looked towards Logan "I hope I'm not next, time outs the worst" he whispered careful not to let Patton hear him, Causing Logan to roll his eyes and go back to the movie.

The living room was quiet for a moment other then Virgil's crying and the movie playing no one made a sound, but not a moment later they all jumped hearing someone yell "da! Ta Da da Ta! Da ta da ta da ta da!" They looked towards the kitchen and saw a hand doing the jazz hand before a full figure came out with a big smile, wearing a tan cardigan over a white button up with a pink tie, their hair was neatly combed and glasses placed on his face,  quickly pushed his glasses up walking into the living room saying in front of the stairs  keeping the smile on his face "ah there you all are,  Do you how to do?" He asked looking at everyone.

"Greetings Emile, we are here  I suspect you're here because of Remy?" Logan asked adjusting his glasses lazily as he sat up allowing Thomas to sit up as well. He crossed his legs moving so he was facing the other better.

"Awe Lo not just because Remy came to get me, It because I was worried about you guys, you were supose to stay in the mind scape."He replied frowning softly seeming to finally hear the soft crying from behind him. He turned around and frowned seeing Virgil now sitting up rubbing his eyes. Emile knelt down in front of Virgil "Awe Virgil why are you sitting all the way over here? Why not turn that frown upside down?" He asked softly.

Virgil looked up sniffling, he pointed to Patton letting more tears fall "pat pat said I was mean to Rem, so I have to sit in time out." He cried putting his face back into his hands crying softly trying to make Emile feel bad for him so he could get out of time out if that didn't work he at least hoped he could get out maybe a little sooner. "I'm not mean rem is."

Remy came out of the kitchen gasping Deceit still happily placed on his hip taking sips of Remys Starbucks. "I am not mean! Gurl if I'm mean because I'm trying to make you take a nap then I must be a horrible person. I'm not the one who put you in time out doll face" He huffed looking towards Emile giving him a 'do something look'

Emile sighed looking at Patron for permission to pick him up. Once he got the thumbs up he carefully picked Virgil up holding him close frowning softly "Virgil." He said softly before whispering something into his ear that only he could hear. Virgil suddenly sat straight up his bottom lip quivered slightly "daddy saw a scary movie." He replied hugging Emile who nodded rubbing the others back gently, While he whispered something else to the other who reluctantly nodded hiding his face in the others shoulder.

"Emile is Virgil Okay? Why are you whispering" Patton asked worriedly slowly going over to the two gently placing his hand on Virgil's leg giving him a worried look. "Is he sick? what if he's sick? I didn't notice oh no!" He gasped standing on his tiptoes trying to reach his forehead to make sure he didn't have a temperature. "I'm sorry Vergie I should have checked your temperature before i even put you in time out I'm sorry." He said still trying to get to his forehead.

Emile gave pat a small smile "he's okay Pat, he just feels very upset at the moment."He replied gently putting a hand on Patton's head having him stand still "he's not upset with you no worries, he's just a little worried that you all will be angry with him once I tell you why you guys are small. Dee is it okay?"he sighed softly looking at Virgil who tried to make himself smaller in Emile’s arms. Deceit laid his head on Remy's shoulder bleeping happily while Remy gently scratched his scales under his eye, he looked as if he didn't Have care in the world.

Thomas frowned slightly he sat up watching the others give Emile worried glances as they nodded for him to proceed with what he was going to say all looking worried. He stayed waiting to see what would happen he hoped Virgil was okay he looked ready to burst into tears at whatever Emile was about to tell them.

"Well, a month ago Virgil and Dee came to me wanting help with an April fools day joke, the idea was to make you three think you guys regressed for no reason and then try to figure out how to help each other while doing silly tasks to 'make yourselves bigger'. They Decided not to do the prank on April fools day because of everyone freaking out the day before with the 'selfishness or selflessness' video caused a lot of fans to think it was a prank, they figured they wouldn't want you all under any more stress. So we waited until last night to do the prank, what we weren't planning on Thomas seeing a scary movie which caused Virgil to panic and Dee to go into overdrive to lie saying Thomas wasn't scared of the movie, which as you can see has caused them to regress" he explained  softly holding onto Virgil's shaking frame, he gently rubbed his back slowly carefully he lifted his hand and flicked his wrist Turing Roman, Logan, and Patton back into their adults selves all dressed in their normal attire, leaving Dee and Virgil still regressed.

Thomas winced slightly looking at both Deceit and Virgil, he was the cause for them regressing he felt horrible "sorry guys, I didn't mean to make you two regress."He sighed softly giving them a sad look. His apologies were ignored when he heard Patton suddenly gasp.

Patton rushed over to Emile gently placing his hand over Virgil's gently running his thumb over his knuckles giving him a small smile "Awe irs okay Virge, it was a good prank when you think about it. I'm excited to hear what kind of silly adventures you were going to have us do. Right guys?" He asked looking over to Roman and Logan giving them a slight look.

Roman stood up from where he was sitting still drawing his mighty steed "i'd have to say I'm more upset that I didn't come up with that idea myself, I may have to use it next year." Roman said standing behind Patton giving Virgil a small smile.

Virgil sat up looking at the two confused he expected them to get upset and angry at him. "You're not mad?" He asked looking to Dee giving him a shocked look before twisting his body in Emile's arms to get a better look at Logan's eyes widens "Lolo not mad?" He asked confused.

Logan stood up walking over to the other adjusting his glasses shaking his head "No I am not upset Virgil, it was a harmless prank, I am more concerned about how you are feeling after this all has happened, you seemed pretty determined not to leave Thomas side today. Though I do not particularly mind you staying by his side, I wish you will tell us in the future if this happens again, we will not be angry with you for something so silly as this." He replied giving him a rare small smile.

He nodded slowly looking at Thomas with a small frown "daddy?" He asked tilting his head slightly hoping Thomas wasn't angry because of all of this.

Thomas laughed softly shaking his head softly "Don't worry Virgil it's okay I didn't mind taking care of you at all, I actually enjoyed it because I was able to get to know you all more." he smiled softly. he gave a sheepish chuckle when he noticed everyone giving him weird looks. "I mean I found out Logan is still really curious about different things, Roman is very quick to defend others when his actions hurt others, Patton is still our very loveable happy pappy Patton, Virgil gets really cuddly when he's stressed or tired which if you need any cuddles I will be here to give you any, and Dee he loves to stay warm and loves to have his scales scratched lightly."He replied giving him a soft smile "so No Virgil I'm not upset at all."

Virgil smiled slightly reaching for Patton hugging him tightly before letting out a small yawn as he rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand "I'm sleepy." He finally admired laying his head down on Patton's shoulder snuggling closet to him.

Patton smiled softly "Awe okay kiddo well go take a nap, wave by to Thomas. Thanks for taking care of us Thomas." He smiled holding Virgil close. Virgil lifted his hand and waved slightly "bye bye." He whispered just as Patton sunk out taking Virgil with him.

"Well, I guess that's my cue to leave, come on Dee let's go get some Starbees before pat finds out. maybe we can get some cookies if we're lucky you can give them a cute look and we will get our drinks and cookies for free" He smirked bouncing Deceit again making him giggle and cheer before they both sunk out.

Emile winced slightly "I better make sure he doesn't give him any more coffee, I do believe Patton wouldn't be happy with me if I allow this." He sighed softly shaking his head as he sunk out following Remy and Deceit making sure they stay out of trouble.

Roman stretched slightly letting out a deep breath "Well I'm gonna go shower and have some me time in my kingdom, I bid you all a good day Thomas thank you for trying to entertain us!" He smiled sinking out in the most dramatic way leaving Logan and Thomas alone in the living room.

Logan looked around the room frowning at how messy it was, he sighed flicking his wrist cleaning the living room leaving only Thomas heated blanket. "Thank you again, Thomas, for taking care of us, I am sorry we came so late into the night last night for help but it is appreciated. I shall go find Patton and make sure Virgil is alright. Please call if you need anything." Logan nodded his head slowly sinking out now leaving Thomas alone.

Thomas smiled softly couldn't help but smile when he thought about the events that happened today he was overjoyed that the sides trusted him enough to take care of things while they figured out what was wrong with them, even if it was a harmless prank he was still happy.  He walked over to the couch laying back down pulling the warm blanket back over him snuggling into the warmness of the blanket  draw him into a happy sleepy mood 'a nap does sound pretty nice at the moment' he thought to himself closing his eyes letting the peace of the room draw him into a slightly dazed mood. He suddenly sat up straight eyes wide and panicked he forgot something important. "I still have to pee!"

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