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aurae-rori Ā· 11 months ago
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DR RATIO ANALYSIS
SPOILERS FOR 2.1 CONTENT!
Now, you might be saying - "Aurae, Oh No! and Are You Satisfied? are much too basic songs to analyze Dr. Ratio to! Just because he's a scholar doesn't mean that he has academic trauma!" WRONG! Before we start, I have been researching psychology for approximately six years and I plan to go into it professionally. HOWEVER, that said, I am NOT a professional (YET. One day I will be. Yay for Aurae!) so understand that everything I come to conclusions about has been analyzed with some personal judgement, personal interpretations, and this is just what I have concluded with the info that I have deconstructed from his brain. If you disagree, that's fine!
I will be pulling from my own experiences with being a "golden" and "gifted" child, as well as the experiences I've had speaking to other people who were those. I will also be pulling from my experiences of researching and seeing how people with superiority complexes work, as well as diving into how those work (from what I've seen, as well as how they conceal a lack of self-esteem).
OKAY, NOW THAT THAT LONG AHH DISCLAIMER IS OVER, ALLOW ME TO WORK MY PSYCH ENJOYER MAGIC! Let's deconstruct Dr. Ratio like a lego toy.
Let's start off with how Dr. Ratio presents himself. When you first meet him, he seems like a haughty, arrogant asshole. He likes to PRESENT himself as a stoic, superior scholar who is purely in it to win it, and I got total "*stares down at your tiny body and laughs at how you lack knowledge*" vibes at the very start, due to how he goes around calling people idiots all the time. However, he DOES lose the idgaf war, and we can very quickly see that he does care for other people, even if in his own, strange way. Dr Ratio presentation: An asshole. The reality?
His entire character is based around the idea of helping the masses. He wishes to spread knowledge through the cosmos and give people who didn't have access to it, access. He's a harsh teacher, and calling people 'idiots' is NOT the way to motivate them, but he's doing his bestā„¢.
Actually, no, I'm going to go full psych into this. Okay, so here starts the Dr. Ratio and my FATHER COMPARISONS. My father is a professor and he is often called a harsh grader by his students. However, I've spoken to him multiple times because I was curious - why is he so harsh and diligent with his grading system? The answer is - he wants them to actually learn. When he's grading, he gives them harsh marks because he wants them to know exactly where they messed up, and he's always willing to stay after hours to help students understand where they can't. My father also is an enjoyer of knowledge, and for as long as I've remembered, he has prioritized teaching me how to think critically. He wants me to be able to think for myself - and I think that's what Dr. Ratio wants, too. He wants for his students to be able to fully comprehend and absorb the information that he teaches, and although his methods are harsh, he genuinely wants to help. My father's like this too - he hates students that waste his time or aren't here because their hearts are in it. Dr. Ratio hates people who aren't taking their education seriously because knowledge is important. Knowledge is a tool, and to disregard it completely is lowkey kind of insulting - especially when there are people who weren't privileged enough to actually get it, so this isn't something that you should take for granted. Dr. Ratio despises people who take knowledge for granted.
Also, I disagree with the claims that say that Dr. Ratio hates the genius society. He shows open respect for them in his voice lines. Just check them if you need proof. Also, I'll delve into the idea of Aeons and recognition later.
Now that weā€™ve established that Dr. Ratio kins my dad, letā€™s let's tackle the 'stoic' allegations. He is LOSING the idgaf war. Like, really badly. He has a temper of a thousand suns and snaps at people frequently, despite his 'impassive' face, his tone holds a LOT of emotion. He seems to feel very deeply and has a shit ton of empathy for others - why else would he be dedicating his entire career to helping others? Of course, he doesn't express this in 'typical' ways of being openly kind - but it doesn't mean that he doesn't care for other people. In fact, he seems to be pretty good at putting himself in the shoes of others and understanding them - expressed in the 2.1 quest where he tells Aventurine to tell him if he can't hold on any longer. Also, he loses the IDGAF war because he is actively trying to help people who want to learn and trying to spread logic and knowledge across the cosmos to those who didn't have it before. Would a man who didn't GAF do that? No!
Now that we've covered his view on knowledge and the way that he presents himself, let's turn to the way that he SEES himself. Now, this is where we get into the nitty gritty of gifted child trauma & academic trauma as well as crippling expectations. It's literally explicitly said in his character stories that he sees himself as mediocre, and it's canon that he doesn't have a good view of himself. His self-esteem is down in the fucking trenches along with my sanity as I write this analysis. The reality is - being called a genius your whole life doesn't really make you feel better about yourself. I'd know. I was. In fact, it makes you feel fucking worse when you can't live up to an expectation. We all fail in life. It's part of being human. But when you're held to such high standards - idolized for your knowledge and the way that you're 'gifted' - the crash comes really fucking hard. Failure is inevitable, and when people who are held on that pedestal experience it, they take it really bad.
The reality is that nobody - not even geniuses - are perfect, but you grow up believing that you are. Then, when you fail for the first time, it all comes tumbling down. The first time I came home with a bad grade was one of the most humiliating moments of my life. I hadn't studied because I was arrogant and I thought that I was smart enough to pass without putting any extra effort into it - because I was a 'gifted' child, right? I should've been able to do it without studying like the other kids. And that's the thing with gifted children ā€“ you grow reliant on that title. You cling onto it for dear life for motivation, as well as self-perception. Little by little, the person you are falls apart as you slave away to the perception other people have of you. I think basically every gifted child that I've ever spoken to is a victim of this ā€“ and of course, you can heal from this mindset - but it's a hard one to shake.
Ratio's way of presenting himself as being a 'genius' and 'arrogant' also seems to contradict the way that he calls himself 'mundane' at the same time. However, these are two mindsets that can coexist. One part of you believes that you are a genius and that you are perfect, while the other part is crumbling and calling yourself good-for-nothing every time you make a mistake. It's a tiring cycle to live in. This usually leads to people shutting themselves out and closing themselves off after living like that, pushing back your own feelings in favour of being the perfect child. However, we don't know the exact details of Dr. Ratio's childhood, but we can infer that he was held to a pedestal, and this is a very harmful mindset for a child to have.
His superiority complex comes both from how other people view him, but it's a way to cope with his crippling lack of self-esteem. I'm sorry my guy. Also helping others probably helps him feel like he's worth something and makes him feel better because he bases his entire worth off of what he can do and how he can help others. However, this is just my personal interpretation backed by what I have already deconstructed.Ā 
In general, this is an easy way to crush self-esteem. You spend your whole life working to meet the image of what other people think you are. In fact, another reason why Dr. Ratio might be so harsh is because thatā€™s the kind of attitude he holds towards himself when conducting research ā€“ heā€™s as hard on himself as he is to others. You end up hating the idea of failure, instead of seeing it as it should be - a way to improve and grow. Actually, I think this could be a reason that he went out of his way to break that illusion of 'worshipping geniuses' in the Space Station. Maybe some sort of childhood connection? Personal connection? In his endeavour to spread more knowledge and make people think for themselves and not blindly follow geniuses, to wake them up and let them think for themselves - maybe, somewhere, in there, he's helping that little child that was almost dehumanized for his intelligence. TLDR: Conflicting mindsets due to trauma, brain vs heart almost - his knowledge that he is a genius vs the crippling lack of his self worth.
Now that we've established Dr. Ratio's self worth, let's take a look at the impact Aeons had on him. Nous, the Aeon of Knowledge itself. I think in a world where the Gods are real, tangible beings that you can reach out and talk to - it makes sense that someone with high ambition and someone who's been called a genius his whole life would seek the confirmation of Nous. When you're a man of knowledge, and you've spent your whole life working with it, being praised for it ā€“ it feels natural to look for a god to look down upon you and bless you, right? The Genius Society ā€“ it should house him, because he is a genius as well, right? Imagine this ā€“ you have been called a genius your whole life, held to that kind of pedestal for so long, and now you wait for the recognition of the Gods. Because if you truly are a genius ā€“ then surely, a higher being will recognize your intelligence, right?
The invitation never comes.
And then, comes the doubt.
What if I'm really not a genius? What if everything I've worked for is a lie? Aeons are beings that are 'absolute'. If the god of Knowledge won't accept you or even cast a glance upon you, does that mean that everything was wrong. Gods see more than humans, after all. Gods know more than humans - and that spiral... I think you can see if. (If you don't let me know. I will ramble about how a failure like that can make you spiral down into a worse mindset).Ā 
However, the reason why Ratio was never invited to the Genius Society is simple. Itā€™s because he LOSES THE IDGAF WAR. Now, if we look at all the people we know who are in the Genius Society - we find one thing in common. Theyā€™re in it to win it for themselves. They donā€™t help others using the knowledge that theyā€™ve gotten - they use it to pursue shit for themselves. The people of the Genius Society are inherently self-serving. They WIN the idgaf war. Ratio LOSES. Do we see now?Ā 
Ratioā€™s empathy is the reason why he wasnā€™t let in. He is too human. Nous is a computer. Herta is detached from people. Ruan Mei is literally looking at life as test subjects. Screwllum is a robot.Ā 
OUR DOCTOR MAN LOST THE IDGAF WAR, BECAUSE HE IS HUMAN AND FEELS FOR OTHERS!!!Ā 
Also, itā€™s a plausible theory that Nousā€™s definition of ā€˜geniusā€™ is different from the human definition of ā€˜geniusā€™ ā€“ itā€™s a computer, after all. Who knows whatā€™s going on in that code head of its.Ā 
However, we still love you Ratio. Never stop losing the IDGAF war.Ā 
TLDR: Nous is a computer. It is also in it to win it. It is also self serving. It gazes upon the hoes who are here to win it for themselves. Ratio is busy serving the masses and cooking knowledge in his frying pan. To it, there is no logical reason to be doing this. Therefore, no reason to invite this guy to the Genius Society.Ā 
Ratioā€™s gifted child trauma says otherwise. He wants in. Why wouldnā€™t he? Heā€™s been working his whole life as a genius.Ā 
Nous is likeā€¦ nah bro, you care too much. Ratio is like, ā€˜what the fuck?ā€™ And then the AEON OF KNOWLEDGE GOES FOR THE MILK.Ā 
Okay, now, quick shoutout to Ratio wanting to help others. He is just like me fr. SO BASICALLY, RECAP OF EVERYTHING I JUST SAID:
Ratio LOSES the idgaf war because he cares about other people. Spent his whole life as the golden egg, and then turns to the gods for recognition because of the inherent trauma of being a child genius. He goes, "hey bro, can you confirm that I am in fact a genius?" and Nous goes, "no, you are too busy cheffing for the masses." Ratio goes, "what the fuck?" and then we collectively realize his attitude comes from blocking off his feelings (while failing miserably), being salty about not being recognized, being put on a pedestal for his whole life, and his crippling depression *cough* lack of self worth *cough*.Ā 
Oh, and the "I will never be enough" thought train probably hits him every single day. He is not enough to be recognized by a God. Gods are superior to humans. Maybe nothing has worth after all. Hey, that's Nihility! Hi IX, let's hear what you have to say.
*muffled ix noises*
I see, I see.
The consensus is: HE'S TRAUMATIZED BY EXPECTATIONS! HE WILL PROBABLY SUFFER FROM BURNT OUT GIFTED CHILD IF HE HAS NOT ALREADY!
Okay, now, before I delve into song lyrics (and I KNOW this has been long, just bear with me) I want to talk a little bit (read: a lot) about his relationship with Aventurine. We all know that he cares about Aventurine in his own way. But I want to pull in another idea that I didnā€™t cover before:Ā 
Ratioā€™s fucking emotional constipation.Ā 
Basically, the reason why he has trouble connecting with others is because he was most likely alienated by others as a symptom of being called a genius and being put on a pedestal. This makes him seem unapproachable to his peers, most likely, and therefore, as a result, doesnā€™t know how to properly connect with others. This just makes his way of presenting affection and care to others even more challenging ā€“ because he just doesnā€™t know how to do it in a healthy and clear way. Academic trauma causing emotional problems, because heā€™s probably a little bit out of touch with his own. Processing? No! Research. Also, this is very important for understanding Ratioā€™s character in my opinion, because heā€™s just a little guy who doesnā€™t know how to articulate. Maybe heā€™s got a touch of the ā€˜tism. Tism mutuals, do we agree or disagree?Ā 
However, in comes Aventurine. Love Aventurine, but they are both emotionally constipated. Aventurine displays his affection in ways that Ratio probably only catches after re-analyzing their time together about five times. Heā€™s also a very closed off individual ā€“ but Ratio knows this. A cute thing is that Ratio is patient where he needs to be, even if heā€™s generally a pretty hot-headed guy, and Iā€™m likeā€¦ broā€¦ that letterā€¦ ā€œI wish you the best of luckā€... I will wait for youā€¦. GAY ASS MANā€¦
Sorry the Aventio demons took over. Anyway, what Iā€™m trying to say here is that they both have nonverbal communication with one another that they clearly decipher and Ratio obviously cares for him (he came back and almost jeopardized the plan just for the sake of his ā€˜coworkerā€™... okay gayboyā€¦) and they just have such a neat little dynamicā€¦ Aventurine lets Dr. Ratio do his thingā€¦ understands his emotional alienation to a degreeā€¦. theyā€™re so neatā€¦.
Okay, Aventurine segment over. NOW, FINALLY, WE CAN GET TO THE SONG LYRICS!!! YAY!!!! We all cheered!!!
We are going to be here for two more amber eras, because I realized I actually want to analyze every single lyric from both of these songs. Brace yourself for like, 2k more words. Help.Ā 
I think itā€™s only proper that we start off with ā€˜Oh No!ā€™ the song that has haunted me since my childhood.
ā€œDonā€™t do love, donā€™t do friends
Iā€™m only after success
Donā€™t need a relationship
Iā€™ll never soften my gripā€
Remember when I mentioned that alienation was a big part of Ratio lore? Yeah, that manifests itself in this. When you spend your entire life chasing after knowledge and being held to that standard of untouchable genius, it makes sense that you couldnā€™t connect with others and that you turn your gaze only to success. Therefore, relationships that are interpersonal lose meaning for a bit ā€“ youā€™re just looking for answers and ways to help them, not connect with them. Also, this is what he wants to do ā€“ so heā€™s never going to pass down an opportunity to better himself or to help someone else.Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t want cash, donā€™t want card
Want it fast, want it hardĀ 
Donā€™t need money, donā€™t need fame
I just want to make a change
I just wanna change, I just wanna changeā€Ā 
This is directly alluding to his reasonings for distributing knowledge across the cosmos. Was he based on this song? Maybe he was. Heā€™s not looking for money or fame, his ultimate goal is actually pretty selfless ā€“ to bring knowledge and give people the tools they need to think for themselves. He just wants to make a change ā€“ he just wants people to be able to have access to knowledge and help cure ā€˜stupidityā€™. He wants to do it as quickly as possible, always reaching for lofty goals that might seem impossible, but he will make them possible.Ā 
ā€œI know exactly what I want and who I want to be
I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine
Iā€™m now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy
Oh! Oh no! Oh no! Oh no, oh!ā€Ā 
Ratio knows his goal. He knows what heā€™s working towards. I do believe that he understands why he is the way that he is ā€“ he has a degree in Psychology, after all. He knows how heā€™s been hurt but at the same time, the trauma brain probably doesnā€™t want to recognize it and he hasnā€™t stepped into healing yet. He knows what he went through impacted him, but heā€™s too busy helping others to help himself. Heā€™s becoming what he wants to be, and yet heā€™s not, all at the same time ā€“ which causes the idea of ā€œoh no!ā€ as a kind of cry for help, almost. Heā€™s too proud to ask for it himself, of course, so heā€™ll fall alone until someone manages to catch him and give him the strength to continue holding on. Aventurine is that.Ā 
ā€œOne track mind, one track heart
If I fail, Iā€™ll fall apart
Maybe it is all a test
ā€˜Cause I feel like Iā€™m the worst
So I always act like Iā€™m the bestā€Ā 
Now, these are the exact lyrics that made me associate this song with Ratio in the first place. Heā€™s got a singular goal that he will do nothing to stop at getting, that he goes so far to get to. However, as I mentioned earlier, failure is not an option for those who were deemed gifted or genius. You are perfect, so therefore you must live up to everyoneā€™s every expectation and surpass them, too, in order to keep your perception of yourself intact. Ratio does not hold himself in high regard, but acts arrogant in order to hold himself together and not fall to the self-deprecating thoughts, even if they fall through the cracks. It gets tiring to hold yourself together like that for a long time, you know?Ā 
ā€œIā€™m gonna live, Iā€™m gonna fly
Iā€™m gonna fail, Iā€™m gonna die
Iā€™m gonna live, Iā€™m gonna fly
Iā€™m gonna fail, Iā€™m gonna dieā€Ā 
Remember how I was talking about contradictory mindsets and how they can coexist. This is them. The feeling of crippling self-hatred and lack of self esteem versus the idea that you can do it, you can make a difference ā€“ you were born a genius, this is what youā€™re going to do. This is the knowledge that you are a genius vs the lack of self-esteem that Ratio has. ā€œMediocreā€ vs ā€œgeniusā€ mindset, eh?Ā 
All the other lyrics in this song are repetitions of what Iā€™ve analyzed before, so letā€™s move onto ā€œAre you Satisfied?ā€Ā 
To be honest, there are only a few lines in this song that allow me to connect it to Ratio, so therefore, I will only be analyzing them. However, if you think that other lyrics can connect to him, Iā€™d be interested in knowing how.Ā 
ā€œWhat youā€™re gonna beĀ 
Itā€™s not my problem if you donā€™t see what I see
And I do not give a damn if you donā€™t believe
My problem, itā€™s my problem that I never am happy
Itā€™s my problem, itā€™s my problem on how fast I will succeedā€
Pretending to not care about how the world sees you is so fucking real. Sometimes, you really donā€™t give a shit, and sometimes itā€™s all you can think about. Ratioā€¦ doesnā€™t seem like heā€™s the happiest person. He works himself hard and heā€™s always chasing after a goal that must be exhausting. Heā€™s always doing his best, and I think even with his empathy, itā€™s easy to start not giving a shit after trying for so long and so hard. Accepting help is one of the hardest things that anybody can do, especially with how much pride he has. His personal problems are his personal problems and he can deal with them on his own.Ā 
ā€œHigh achiever, donā€™t you see?Ā 
Baby, nothing comes for free
They say Iā€™m a control freak
Driven by a greed to succeed
Nobody can stop meā€Ā 
Nothing comes for free. A lot of the things Ratio has achieved is due to his own intelligence, yes, but also because of a shit ton of hard work. His goal is literally to cure the universe of ā€˜stupidityā€™ ā€“ and thatā€™s a pretty large fucking goal. He is a high achiever who likes to know the details of every situation when he can in order to try and make things better, and he is driven by a greed to succeed. Why wouldnā€™t he be? Success is important, and success means helping more people. He isnā€™t going to allow himself to be stopped by anybody ā€“ not even anybody from the Genius society.Ā 
Okay, and we have finally reached the end of my analysis! This caps at around 4k words, so if you stuck around for this long, thank you so much. I would love to hear any of your comments, and I hope you laughed a little bit. Thank you again! This means so much to me that you read. <3
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raziiyah Ā· 3 months ago
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Since you made that post about the Monster World and their Beauty standards
How attractive do you think Randall is by the monster world standards?
Obviously in Monster's University he's MEANT to be seen as this wimpy, scrawny geek and a loser šŸ¤“
But what about during the Monster's Inc era?
Out of the 3 Main Monsters (Mike, Sulley, and Randall) we see that Mike is the only one who isn't "Bitchless" or "Maidenless" (as the Twitter crowd would say šŸ™„)
Which I find hilariously ironic considering Mike is the only of those 3 who wasn't a scarer nor does he really fit into any of the Beauty standards šŸ¤”
(Now from a real life perspective I can understand why Randall and Sulley are single due to Randall's status as the villain and giving Sulley a love interest would've distracted too much attention away from his relationship with Boo)
But it is kinda funny from an In-Universe perspective because you'd think Randall and ESPECIALLY Sulley would both have an army of Women (and Men šŸŒˆ) trying to vouch for their attention due to their status as the 2 biggest Top Scarers
Tho with Randall I suppose you could argue that his personality was probably a turn off for anyone who actually might've tried to date him or get to know him (I love the dude but honestly he seems like he'd be kinda difficult to deal with in a relationship).
Not sure what the excuse for Sulley is tho lol
hi i will gladly talk about randallā€™s hotness šŸ˜‹
okay for real though i think randall would actually be considered handsome (i swear im not biased) randall definitely possesses scary traits, from sharp teeth, big independently moving eyes, multiple limbs, etc., and has a general scary appearance, so i think itā€™s fair to say heā€™s considered quite attractive. also the fact he was in ror; the top frat in MU, presumably the most elite university in monstropolis, and is a scarer, the best career you could ever have (and with him and sulley being the two candidates to get the all time scare record, one of the best in the whole monster world??) probably helps too
another thing i want to mention that iā€™ve thought about is there are many round cyclops monsters like mike and big horned furry monsters like sulley, but there isnā€™t really any monster in the monster world (or in other media) that quite looks like randall.
joy has reptilian features but she looks very different from randall (though iā€™d like to point out that she was the number 1 scarer at fear co., which could be more evidence that randall is very scary and therefore more attractive) mr. crummyham bears some resemblance to randall, but he has smoother skin, a skinnier body, and a very different face
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other than the fact that the vas in mi bear resemblance to their characters to me, randall has such a fine distinct design, so something i thought about is randallā€™s attractiveness could be compared to his va steve buscemi in our world. there are many people who consider buscemi as handsome, and i've also seen some people describe his look to be ā€œuniqueā€. with randall having a design so distinct from the other monsters and possessing scary/attractive traits, i feel like randallā€™s attractiveness in the monster world could also be described the same way
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i definitely agree with the idea that they didnā€™t include any romantic stuff for sulley and randall because it would be unnecessary and distracting, but that aside,,
iā€™m sure there are many monsters who were attracted to sulley. sulley's been the number 1 scarer at monsters inc for a very long time, is the son of a famous scarer, and is shown to be very popular both in and at work. for one, these two in mu seemed attracted to him
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in mi, on his way to work, basically everyone knows him and greets him, both on the street and at work. so in that way, there are actually a lot of monsters that vie for sulley's attention (including the fcking CDA šŸ˜­)
maybe some monsters are nervous around sulley and think he's out of their league. even though he is friendly, he does have a very high status so he may be intimidating to talk to; like look at how nervous needleman is here when talking to him hehe
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on randallā€™s end, though heā€™s probably not nearly as social, he probably gets a fair share of recognition (though is probably very overshadowed by sulley) but there are likely some monsters that donā€™t like his personality and because of that aren't interested, or are scared/intimidated to actually talk to him. but they can admire him from an appearance and achievement perspective, though perhaps from a distance
but as you said, i definitely think that personality plays a big role into which monsters are considered attractive
first, mike is full of personality, being charming, funny and witty. he's shown to be a smooth talker, whether flirting with celia or distracting waternoose and randall with convincing lies. mike may not fit into the "scary" beauty standard, but i think some monsters don't really care. and i know that celia genuinely thinks mike is handsome :] mike was also very likely the smartest scaring student on muā€™s campus. but judging by mike's locker in the credits for mu, celia may have started crushing on mike around the time when he was just a cafeteria worker and i like to think she fell for mike early on for both his looks and personality šŸ©·
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sulley on the other hand is shown to be a bit clumsy and not as smooth with his words, so he probably has no rizz šŸ˜”āœŠļø/jk (it's v cute though)
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randall's personality is pretty self explanatory LOL, though interestingly, even though randall is a prick, his coworkers were genuinely happy for him when he became the scare leader and when they thought he broke the scare record. so i feel like heā€™s only directly mean to sulley, mike and fungus, while he just tolerates everyone else (unless they cross his path) like his coworkers are probably aware of his bitter attitude but may undermine it since he's not directly mean to them and randall probably has respect for being #2 in the whole comany, because i don't think all those monsters would be happy for him if he treated all of them how he treats the three i mentioned. and i mean he showed a liking towards johnny so we know he's capable of not feeling utter hate for everyone. though he may not always be directly mean to his other coworkers, iā€™m sure his attitude is still noticed and deemed undesirable for lots of monsters. i feel like randall would be viewed as skilled and attractive but a dick lol
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but in the end i think a big reason why i think sulley and randall aren't in a relationship is because theyā€™re so career focused.
sulley probably wasn't interested or focused on getting into a relationship since he was focused on his career and reaching the scare record. before he met boo, he didn't have much else going on for him outside of scaring. he does work out as a hobby but even that was scaring related; mike even calls him out for this
it was likely the same with randall, and between the scare record and the scream extractor, he probably has no time or desire to get into a relationship. and his commitment to his job and one-upping sulley could impair his attention in a relationship (you better believe this is something i incorporated into lia and randall's relationship but lets not get into that right now haha ā˜‰ā€æā˜‰) there may have been monsters who were brave enough to confess to him but he's likely rejected him because his priority is the grind šŸ˜¤šŸ’ÆšŸ’°
in maw sulley may have lost some of his reputation by bringing laugh energy to mi, plus jill broadcasting to all of monstropolis that sulley cheated in the scare games, got expelled, and was associated with the convicted criminal who is waternoose, probably didn't help his popularity. though after the end of maw season 2 i know more monsters will warm up to him, not to mention there are probably many who admire him already
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(where did they get this image šŸ˜­)
if anyone johnny is probably the pinnicle of monster attractiveness, from appearance, skills, demenour and status. i was cracking up over how much game this man had, like everyone wanted him šŸ˜­ he got with claire, then it was shown that jill, tylor's mom, and his grandma were shown to be down bad for him (not the generational thirsting) not to mention chet and randall wanting to get his attention, like fck this mf has game, he was probably on a magazine with "sexiest monster alive" on the cover LMAO
he was whole package, well until, you know
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fumifooms Ā· 10 months ago
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hey i have a lore discussion for ya. so. basilisk chapter: laios is like 'wow monsters that are a mix of multiple animals are so cool! i used to have this fake monster that had all these cool attributes. but i've realized now that i'm older that it's better if a chimera only has two or three animals, instead of a bunch.' however, the Ultimate Monster has about 12 animals in it. and because chilchuck says 'i thought he grew out of this', it's clearly not a continuity error. 1/2
So. Do you think this Ultimate Monster transformation was influenced by the Winged Lion, and it's evidence that the Winged Lion was specifically preying on the fantasies of laios when he was a kid dreaming about being a monster? i've never seen anyone talk about how odd it is that despite laios saying 'chimeras are better if it's just one or two monsters', he still likes his Ultimate Monster design, and even adds the third head to it during the story. 2/2
Youā€™re right that this is a layered topic, but no I donā€™t think itā€™s a fantasy he only had as a kid that the WL had to dig for. Below we have a EverydayHeroes Scans glossary page plus the final chimera sketch. As you said, the third head is added during the story. "That scylla sure was cool, letā€™s add a wolf head in there." Something which he has to note down before going to fight the Winged Lion.
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Notice the emphasis on "cool". I think the familiar chapter is the other major relevant bit for this plot thread. It shows us with no ambiguity that Laios does care about aesthetics. It shows us that he can build a monster through logic and be reasonable about it, but heā€™s also not immune from getting carried away.
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Ultimately, itā€™s still Marcille who builds the perfect familiar that succeeds for the situation, and Laios undermines it for its looks before seeing it in action. Marcille here ALSO mentions how he ā€˜should have grown out of this phaseā€™.
So yes I mean, I think itā€™s clear that Laiosā€™ fantasy is a fantasy, itā€™s not rational or logical or even something good that would work out, and even he knows that. Kind of like how when the winged lion showed him visions of a golden kingdom he reigned over during the succubus-induced dream he ended up saying "yeahā€¦ Things wouldnā€™t be so simple". The winged lion draws from deep seated desires, wether or not the person knows itā€™s stupid or that they shouldnā€™t, morally or otherwise, doesnā€™t matter. The winged lion is brute forcing through enticement for them to cave in. I donā€™t think Laios thinks becoming a monster would be all that heā€™s hoped for rationally, especially after seeing the whole chimera Falin situation. Itā€™s like people irl saying theyā€™d like to be a housecat and lounge all day; itā€™s a fantasy but not something that would really work out, as most people can acknowledge while nevertheless still keeping that pleasant daydream. The winged lion calls it out too! "If youā€™d wanted to be another kind of monster instead of animal, youā€™d be invincible right now". His preference for chimeras itself is a matter of taste and not practicality. Itā€™s not well thought out, itā€™s a craving. Laios wanting to be a chimera is a soup mix of comfort fantasy and childhood coping mechanism and special interest hobby and idealization, and more.
And!!! Thatā€™s the point! What saves the world, how Laios saves the world, isnā€™t a flawless plan! What saves the world is Laiosā€™ most authentic most flawedly human desires, ones he couldnā€™t control or repress. Itā€™s the weird interest that everyone shamed and denigrated, his uniqueness and feeling of disconnect towards humans, that ultimately saves humanity. Because he genuinely desired becoming a monster, genuinely had that hungry curious nature in the deepest corner of his soul.
The Winged Lion doesnā€™t work through thoughts and the brain but through wants that are more primal, in your guts, in your heart. It doesnā€™t seek to checkmate you through logic, it wants you to surrender yourself willingly through manipulating your wants, your weaknesses, your emotions.
Itā€™s like Laiosā€™ curse at the end too, and even the succubus. If Laios were to rationally go through these desires-based trials, itā€™d reflect his actual wants, instead of just desires and cravings: the curse would have been that Falin canā€™t be revived, and his most alluring form would have been Falin safe. Dunmeshi in this way is kind of about the struggle of rising above our animality and these deep seated desires that go against productivity and what we actually want, like say, always feeling physically hungry even if youā€™ve eaten more than enough and knowing you should stop there. Like, itā€™s why weā€™re talking about allure and enticement.
Like aughhhh!! Why Laios got to eat desires is because he genuinely wanted to see how it tasted so bad, it wouldnā€™t have been granted by the lion if it wasnā€™t something he truly desired, like <3 itā€™s not something he could have simply strategized he needed to genuinely want it. It wasnā€™t the plan. It wasnā€™t plan A or B or C.
Laios my favorite fucked up cinnamon roll who saves the world through his authentic selfish desires
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But no I donā€™t think Winged Lion was preying on his kid fantasies as much as like. The remnants of it that are still there and repressed in him. Kinda like how Marcilleā€™s desire is also about childhood trauma, but if itā€™d been processed better it might have been different. I do feel like irl we carry a lot of stuff with us that was shaped in our childhoods, often some level of unhealthy and irrational that we have to kinda work through and be like ok thatā€™s enough of that letā€™s be serious now. And yeah! Yeah. Youā€™re very right that his chimera is strongly associated with his childhood desires though. Itā€™s just that these desires really do stick, and sometimes they can overtake logic, wether or not youā€™re an adult and wether or not you have a demon on your shoulder telling you to let yourself be tempted.
So yes! Laios knows that a chimera with fewer animals is logically better, but a True Heartā€™s Desire isnā€™t always rational or good and his heart yearns for the Rule of Cool.
Itā€™s, again, like the succubi! Laios is interesting for this because the thing with succubi is that they freeze people: they make the prey freeze and not want to resist/run away, but they donā€™t make it reciprocate either. They donā€™t- they donā€™t usually have to reason with them and be like "no i swear weā€™re totally real <3". Like no one in the party thinks thereā€™s any chance of hot naked blonde women, general Hareus or Izuā€™s mom actually walking out of the darkness in the dungeon, especially since they were already on guard and knew succubi were going to attack. But with Laios it was more complex than that. And I think itā€™s way less "oh haha yeah what youā€™re saying makes so much sense" and more "I want to believe this is real so for a lack of a better reaction Iā€™m just going to not do anything, maybe just maybe it might be". Again itā€™s enticement, it appeals to your desires. Again it doesnā€™t operate on a rational level, and that makes sense because the succubi are monsters who seek to trigger your fight or flight or freeze instinct and make it land on freeze; it doesnā€™t operate on a rational level but a deep seated one that seeks to shortcircuit logic and better instincts. And part of that was Laiosā€™ succubus going "oh your party members have 4 heads each!!!! Ainā€™t that cool!!!" like, his desire for chimeras and many headed monsters is so not rooted on a logical level.
Itā€™s a silly fantasy. He thinks several heads are cool and he wants them, like the familiar he makes with Marcille. He chooses aesthetic over practicality becahse he wants to try and believe itā€™ll work out so bad, and truly I canā€™t blame him.
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dellamortethelesser Ā· 16 days ago
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i'm a slow reader but i am reading my way through your wmj analysis. thanks for the love and passion you put into it šŸ«¶
ough!!! thank YOU anon!!!
it really is a passion project for me and in a world where i wasn't so mired down by My Life i would have presented these opinions to you all in the form of a beautiful longpost essay but alas that was just not going to be. so everyone reading through wmj with me it is!!!
i do this out of love for both the characters and the setting but also for the fandom lol. as much as i gripe i've made many of my bestest friends in the dragon age fandom and this is my way of giving back!
sorry for using your anon as a lil space to talk lol i really do appreciate everyone who reads and enjoys any of my posts! <3
i have also been thinking about doing a recording of the wigmaker job as there is currently no tevinter nights audiobook but i'm not sure if i'd post that publicly bc i'm not a professional </3 but maybe for mutuals...
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biggestangstlover Ā· 1 month ago
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Obsessive-compulsive disorder (ocd)
What is OCD?
What are the symptoms?
What causes it?
How is it treated?
What is OCD?
I'm pretty sure you have heard of people mentioning OCD before since it's popular in social media as minor personality quirk, maybe you've even heard of kids saying "I'm little bit of ocd" but, despite being portrayed like that, obsessive-compulsive disorder is serious debilitating mental health disorder that affects people of all ages and occurs when a person gets caught in a cycle of obsessions and compulsions.
Just to be clear, you don't have OCD if you just have few obsessive thoughts, are neat freak or bit of compulsive behavior from time to time. This disorder is extremely serious that impacts person's every day life and gets in the way of important activities.
I mentioned that ocd has obsessions and compulsions. So what are they exactly?
Obsessions are unwanted thoughts, images or impulses that occur over and over again and feel outside of person's control. Obsessions are typically accompanied by intense and uncomfortable feelings such as fear, disgust, doubt, uncertainty and/or a feeling that things have been done in a way that is just right. Obsessions are time consuming and as mentioned from earlier, gets in the way of one's important activities.
People often mistake OCD's obsessions with obsessive personality traits so I'll take the chance and speak about this as well. Nowadays, we can be "obsessed" with anything due to how often we use the word "obsessed". It even became a word to express your positivity about something. For example: "I'm obsessed with Billie Eilish's songs, they're so good!" and/or "I'm obsessed with gothic culture, I find it so interesting!" However, that is not the obsession we are referring to when mentioning OCD. OCD has more serious obsessions such as:
Fear of acting on an impulse to harm oneself or others
Excessive concern with violent or horrific images in one's mind
Fear of coming in contact with germs, dirt, household chemicals, body fluids and etc
Fear of being responsible for something terrible happening
Fear of offending God and/or committing blasphemy (if you're religious)
Excessive concern with morality
Fear of harming others due to not being careful enough
Excessive concern with the need to know or remember
Fear of losing, or forgetting important information
Obsessions about life and death
Fears of sexually harming children/relatives or others
Fears of acting on your hormones
Excessive concern with performing tasks "perfectly" or "correctly"
Fears of making mistakes
"Was it real or false memory?" Obsession
Fear of catching personality traits of other individuals
Relationship related obsessions (no, not the romantised one that is used in booktok but the ones where one obsessively worries about whether or not their partner is really the one for them)
So, obsessions aren't just worrying about your loved one's safety or worrying about getting sick. While these are also part of ocd obsessions, it can be also everyone's obsession.
Now let's move on to compulsions. Just what are they?
They're repetitive behaviors or thoughts that person uses to neutralize or counteract the obsession - essentially to try and make their obsession go away. People with OCD realize this is only a temporary solution, but without a better way to cope, they rely on compulsions nonetheless. Compulsions can include avoiding situations that trigger obsessions. However, not every repetitive behavior is compulsion in the context of OCD. You don't have OCD if you're just repeating your activity to develop new skill, or it's your bedtime routine, your morning routine or religious practices. These are usually positive part of our daily lives. You aren't with OCD either if you just like to stay neat and clean. In the context of OCD, compulsions are something that people with this disorder rather not do but feel driven to do these often torturous acts. Rather than because of pleasure and likability, people with ocd perform compulsions because they think it's necessary. Common compulsions in OCD are:
Checking that you didn't and will not harm others or yourself
Repeating body movements (e.g blinking, tapping)
Checking that you did not make a mistake or nothing bad happened
Putting things in order or arranging things until it feels right.
Avoiding situations that might trigger your obsessions
Telling, confessing or asking to get reassurance
Washing hands excessively or in certain way
Excessively showering, bathing, tooth-brushing and etc
Mentally review events to prevent harm
Praying to prevent harm
Counting while performing a task to end on a good, right or safe number.
Replacing a bad word with good word to cancel it out
To help people differentiate everyday thoughts/behaviors from OCD, I'll elaborate further.
People with everyday thoughts/behaviors do "compulsions" that aligns with their identity, their values, core, beliefs and desires.
People with OCD are ego-dystonic, hence their behavior/thoughts are seperate or opposite of what they agree with, believe in and value. People with OCD are distressed by the content of their intrusive thoughts and would truly prefer not to do the compulsive behaviors or have compulsive thoughts that keep their distress at bay for a moment.
What causes OCD?
Unfortunately, scientists aren't exactly sure what causes it and are uncertain about it but plenty of researches has been done that gave us ideas of what could cause OCD in people.
Genetic: studies has shown that ocd can be inherited. Between 10%-20% of children who have a parent with ocd will develop the same disorder themselves. (But 80%-90% will not). However, we must be careful to not assume that such serious disorder is simply caused by genetics, since researchers believe that a combination of genetics and environmental factors play a role in the development of OCD. (There is no definitive evidence that OCD is a learned behavior or is solely caused by environmental factors. A study with twins showed that genetics had stronger role and that shared environment did not significantly impact OCD expression. However, non-shared environments did have small effect).
Imbalance of Neurotransmitters: There is no conclusive research evidence that OCD is caused solely by a dysfunctional serotonin levels, or of Other Neurotransmitters (chemicals found in the brain and other systems of the body). The idea of chemical imbalance being the only cause of OCD is too simplistic. However, an imbalance in Neurotransmitters can play a role in OCD, with strong evidence that serotonin is implicated. Research has also shown that differences in the neurotransmitters dopamine, glutamate and GABA can also contribute to the progression of OCD.
PANDAS/PANS: Pediatric Autoimmune Neurophychiatric Disorders Associated with Streptococcal infections and Pediatric Acute-onset Neurophychiatric Syndrome are disorders related to OCD that occur in childhood following the body's reaction to an Infection. PANDAS is associated with Group A Streptococcus- the bacteria responsible for step throat and other serious infections. PANDAS and PANS look very different from other forms of childhood OCD, with the most obvious difference being that they happen very suddenly; the child develops symptoms seemingly overnight that have a very severe impact on their life. It is important to understand that because of the way PANDAS/PANS are diagnosed based on retrospective self- (or parent-) reporting, it is not possible to know for sure that the OCD symptoms were caused by an infection.
How is OCD treated?
The most effective treatments for OCD are Cognitive Behavior Therapy. More specifically, the most effective treatments are a type of CBT called Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP), which has the strongest evidence supporting its use in the treatment of OCD, and/or a class of medications called serotonin reuptake inhibitors, or SRIs.
Exposure and Response Prevention is typically done by a licensed mental health professional (such as a psychologist, social worker, or mental health counselor) in an outpatient setting. This means you visit your therapistā€™s office at a set appointment time once or a few times a week.
Medications can only be prescribed by a licensed medical professional (such as your physician or a psychiatrist), who would ideally work together with your therapist to develop a treatment plan.
Other recommendations from the APA Practice Guideline,1 cite research showing that ERP delivered in a group format, as well as ERP therapy delivered via videoconferencing (teletherapy), might be effective. Also, there is some promising new research showing that Acceptance and Commitment Therapy may be helpful for OCD. You can search for any of these treatment types in the Resource Directory.The IOCDF embraces and actively supports researching and advancing mental health treatments, and acknowledges the potential of Inference-Based Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (I-CBT) as an emerging intervention. The early evidence provided by its developers and anecdotal reports from clinicians that support I-CBT are promising. That said, there is a need for more large-scale, rigorously controlled, independent, and diverse scientific studies and data to validate its efficacy, mechanisms of action, and performance compared to more established treatment approaches. The evidence base for ICBT is not yet at the point where the OCD scientific community can consider I-CBT to be a first-line treatment for this disorder.The IOCDF will continue to monitor how these clinical studies unfold, and provide up-to-date information to our community as it becomes available.
OCD treatment can be difficult and requires a lot of courage and determination. Having a support network to talk to during treatment can make all the difference. Consider accessing a support group in your area.
The following lists therapy options from least intensive to most intensive:
Traditional Outpatient ā€“ Patients see a therapist for individual sessions as often as recommended by their therapist generally one or two times a week for 45-50 minutes. (Most Therapists in the Resource Directory as well as ā€œSpecialty Outpatient Clinicsā€ offer this type of treatment).
Intensive Outpatient ā€“ Patients may attend groups and one individual session per day several days per week. Clinics designated as ā€œIntensive Treatment Programsā€ in the Resource Directory offer this level of treatment.
Day Program ā€“ Patients attend treatment during the day (typically group and individual therapy) at a mental health treatment center usually from 9am ā€“ 5pm up to five days a week. Many clinics designated as ā€œIntensive Treatment Programsā€ in the Resource Directory offer this level of treatment.
Partial Hospitalization ā€“ Same as the Day Program but patients attend the treatment at a mental health hospital. Several clinics designated as ā€œIntensive Treatment Programsā€ in the Resource Directory offer this level of treatment.
Residential ā€“ Patients are treated while living voluntarily in an unlocked mental health treatment center or hospital. Clinics designated as ā€œResidentialā€ in the Resource Directory offer this level of treatment.
Inpatient ā€“ This is the highest level of care for a mental health condition. Treatment is provided on a locked unit in a mental health hospital on a voluntary or sometimes involuntary basis. Patients are admitted into this level of care if they are unable to care for themselves or are a danger to themselves or others. The goals of inpatient treatment are to stabilize the patient, which generally takes several days to a week, and then transition the patient to a lower level of care.
When severe OCD proves resistant to standard forms of treatment, there are other options available. However, it should be noted that all of the following procedures are still currently being researched. While there is evidence to suggest that they could potentially be helpful in reducing OCD symptoms, they are not concretely proven to do so. These should be utilized as a last resort when all of the evidence-based treatment methods for OCD (outlined above) have already been accessed:
Brain Surgery
Gamma Knife
Deep Brain Stimulation (DBS)
Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS)
The Importance of Glutamate and Potential New OCD Medications
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dkniade Ā· 1 year ago
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So between (the visual novel) Touchstarvedā€™s Kuras ([kəĖˆraŹƒ] ā€¦?) and Genshin Impactā€™s Diluc (default outfit), Kaeya (alt outfit), Albedo, Fischl (default & alt outfit), Rosaria (alt outfit), Neuvillette, Yun Jin, Yaoyaoā€¦
Do I just really like characters with symmetric outfits, lots of metallic details, and a black/white/other colour/gold accent colour scheme (Yun Jin and Yaoyao donā€™t quite fit the pattern but their outfits are really colourful and cute...)
Yun Jinā€™s symmetry and values work well with the colour scheme of purple/pink (analogous) + red/yellow/blue (triad) accents,
And Yaoyaoā€™s outfit just looks so soft and cuddly like a plushie with a bunch of warm analogous colours (yellow-green/yellow/orange/gold?) & dark neutral colours (dark-brown/white). A lot of shapes are repeated (sleeves and tassel are both white-to-beige; eyes, bells, and pouch are all round with warm colours)
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[Kuras image from here / Hereā€™s Genshin Impact wikiā€™s character list]
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As for Inazuma characters, Iā€™d say I like Kokomi and Yoimiya. But I wish they pushed the kimono part for Kokomi more and not have her look like sheā€™s got a frilly swimsuit with thigh highs. If sheā€™s known as a ā€œDivine Priestessā€ and has water and dragon themes (not to be confused with Neuvillette as the Hydro Dragon), and one of her attacks is called å„€ę„ē¾½č”£ (Girai Hagoromo) in Japanese, hagoromo referring to ā€œthe kimono worn by celestial beings (tennin) that grants them the ability to fly, and thus ascend to heavenā€ (Elemental Burst trivia wiki page)ā€” Then itā€™d be nice if her outfit looks more like a tenninā€™s.
As for Sumeru, I like Laylaā€™s design (black/white/blue/gold again huh) butā€¦ if I didnā€™t know any better, I wouldā€™ve thought sheā€™s a Knight of Favonius. However, according to this Reddit post, it seems Layla means night in Arabic, and Layla is the Arabic equivalent of Little Red Riding Hood? I wonder if that served for an inspiration behind her characterā€™s concept. Aside from that, Kavehā€™s design looks nice and uncluttered if not too pale. According to his pageā€™s etymology section, ā€œKaveh (Persian: Ś©Ų§ŁˆŁ‡) is a name of Persian origin which is used as both a given name and a surname. One famous figure with this name is Kaveh the Blacksmith, a figure recorded in the Shahnamah who led an uprising against the serpent Zahhak, also known in Avestan as Azhi Dahāka and was the inspiration for Azhdaha.ā€
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prince-kallisto Ā· 7 days ago
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I have a long analysis that will be posted later today, but I want to separate this because I feel it doesnā€™t belong.
However? I found it very curious that one of Crowleyā€™s lines may have changed. I do not understand Japanese, so I canā€™t really tell šŸ˜… If you have any information, please let me know! šŸ’–šŸ¦ā€ā¬› However, when Crowleyā€™s card was released in the JP server, @/mysteryshoptls translated his lesson lines, one of which being: ā€œHave I gained weightā€¦?ā€
But in the official EN translation, he says ā€œPerhaps I need to calibrate for my adult weight.ā€
EN has a long history of changing lines relating to food, flirting, insults, and especially mentions of weight and calories. @/yuurei20ā€™s post regarding EN changes to Azul showcases this best I think. Hmā€¦itā€™s interesting to me that Crowley MAY be another one of these cases.
Even if the line doesnā€™t feel drastically changed at first, itā€™s one that has me a little confused. According to Trein and Crewel, Crowley hasnā€™t a changed a bit in implied DECADES. And if Lilia and Malleus are anything to judge by, Crowley would have had an ā€œadult weightā€ for centuries now if he is indeed a fae.
And even if brooms were calibrated to ā€œstudent weight,ā€ thereā€™s a variety of heights and weights amongst the main cast. For example, Riddle and Jack would have drastically different weights because of their contrast in height and muscle mass. I reckon that Jack likely weighs far more than Crowley šŸ˜…
Thus, the idea of calibration would only make sense to me if Crowley did indeed gain weight, which would be an important factor to adjust to in keeping proper balance of a broom. Even with a stretch of the imagination and knowledge of the JP text, I struggle to find this implication obvious in the EN translation (*Ā“-`)
Ahh Iā€™m afraid I sound too serious and angry! šŸ¤£ Iā€™m not, but EN does make some curious choices. I donā€™t feel I entirely agree with completely avoiding certain topics (OG Fairy Gala being an exception due to some rather poor taste imo) if the resulting translation fails to make logical sense in the end. But perhaps that is too harsh for such a throwaway lesson line
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tofuto-art Ā· 16 days ago
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King Candy drawings I made during my free time
Normally Iā€™d avoid drawing anything Disney art style related bc I simply cannot replicate it BUT Turbo/King Candy is an exception. I was so disturbed by this dude back when I was a lil kid, now thanks to a particular 2 hrs long analysis video he became my favorite Disney villain lmao. He was a nightmare to draw for me, I am not used to drawing characters like him. I am surprised how well some of these turned out tho. Heā€™s a good drawing practice for me, pushed me outta my comfort zone. Also wanted to use this cardboard ahh paper for a long time, finally got the chance to do so.
Ignore my sona sitting in the corner
[close ups on the Candybug drawing below šŸ‘‡]
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kesia-stupid-arts Ā· 3 months ago
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please share your woodrow / wx headcanons im so curious. I also widely disagree with most of what the fandom has to say about them
Ahh, sorry for taking so long to respond to this! WX-78's buildday was tomorrow, maybe this is the best time to respond to this! LOL
I've thought about this, and I've realized this is not exactly a headcannon... just an analysis and theory of their canon, but everyone can have a different interpretation anyways.
You see, I usually see how people write WX as someone who still has the memories of their time as a human, but if you analyze it well, they don't.
If you take a good look at their dialogues, you will notice that they are ignorant about some things that humans commonly should know about, for example, WX does not know what a cat is, they don't know about christmas traditions, and a lot of other dialogues that make it seem like they know nothing about human's world.
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But the best evidence is in their animated short, when Winona re-connects the Empathy Module, their memories as "Woodrow" flow back (they immediatly remove it because they don't like it). In my opinion, the Empathy Module isn't exactly a component that gives WX-78 emotions or empathy, but it's a module where Woodrow's memories were stored, and by removing it, they lose all their memories as a human.
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However, WX-78 might not forget EVERYTHING, there's some dialogues that they imply they still remember a few things:
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Probably there were a few memories so deeply stuck into WX's mind that it survived the removal of the Empathy Module.
Btw, a little theory I'd like to share: In my opinion, WX-78 and Wagstaff knew about the Moon even BEFORE entering the Constant. The way WX speaks about the Moon makes it seem that's was always a goal they've been pursuing for a long time, which makes me think that Wagstaff found out about Alter's power at the time Woodrow or WX were working with him, and by consequence, WX also knew about it. This might also be a memory stuck with WX that survived the disconnection of the Empathy Module: Their goal to get the Moon's power.
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But anyway, that's just my interpretation and theories about their character, no one is wrong for having their own theories or hcs!
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oakdwn Ā· 4 months ago
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spymaster, becoming the doctor, and gardening ā€“ a little character study
anyone else obsessed with the master and margarita short story?? no?? just me?? oh well youā€™re getting a character analysis anyway, long rant about spymasters obsession with the doctor via mushrooms under the cut :3
tw for dissociation and substance induced hallucinations (weird ahh mushrooms as torture)
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for those of you who havenā€™t read the master and margarita (i def recommend its super fun) itā€™s about what dhawan!master was doing during his 77 years on earth in that time skip during spyfall 2. heā€™s a mushroom farmer in russia, crazy hijinks and thoschei references ensue. maybe iā€™m going too deep into it but i really love the idea of him as a gardener and what that implies for everything we see in ttc/potd
iā€™d like to start with the fact that out of all the masters, dhawans is the one least confident in his identity. classic who masters and saxon held their title with pride with their ā€œheā€™s the master and you will obey himā€ shtick. missy, even when she was debating her morality, never saw herself as anything other than missy. her title wasnā€™t being questioned, it was what she chose to do with it. meanwhile, spymaster just... loses himself after looking into the panopticon. heā€™s faced with the reality that the doctor is more important than he could ever be, and given that he sees his worth as interwoven with hers (the history between us, constantly refers back to their past/when they were equal), this makes him lose all sense of self. it used to be theta and koschei. the doctor and the master. now itā€™s just the timeless child andā€¦.. thatā€™s it. thereā€™s no significant place for him in her life. whatā€™s he supposed to do now, when heā€™s based his whole history around her?
easy! fracture himself into different personalities, hide behind disguises (i mean, THREE disguises in one episode? calm down dude) in an attempt to hide his unimportance. while the timeless child is the story of child abuse and colonialism, a hurt the doctor will have to live with even if she canā€™t remember it, the master sees it as a triumph. he is lesser. she is the timeless child and she has existed forever and he is some dumb timelord who fell in love and meant nothing to her in the long-run. he feels like heā€™s not deserving of being in his own skin anymore so he hides behind whatever name and personality he can find.
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but the thing about all his disguises is that they are so human. agent o, a shy little analyst at MI6 with the wide eyed stare and wits to be the doctorā€™s companion. rasputin, famous bachelor and a piece of history the doctor would notice. he says he despises humans but he dresses up as them because well, do you know who does love them? the doctor :(
which is why his name and intentions in the master and margarita are soooo so interesting to me. first off, his human alias is mikhail (ā€œson of godā€, writer of the og master and margarita) afanasyevich (ā€œimmortalā€, also the og writer of master and margarita) gospodinov (roughly translated to ā€œlordā€ and ā€œmasterā€). he steals a name, just like rasputin in potd, with a lot of weight on who he is right now. an emphasis on ā€œimmortalā€ ā€œtime lordā€ when hes dealing with the pressure of ttc. hes basically copying the doctor and making a title for himself like the ā€˜timeless childā€™ to feel equal again. itā€™s not the only time he copies the doctor either, hes basically working for ā€œevil russian unitā€ in this short story.Ā 
(remind you of anything?? yes im talking about the doctor-master. super cool foreshadowing on how hes been trying to become/be one with the doctor before potd)
and itā€™s literally in the text. the whole reason he spends months cultivating mushrooms for russia is to change history a bit so that jo grantā€™s marriage will be ruined. such a Doctor thing to do, kind of parallels clara and danny. to love a human is to be overly dramatic over them. the master, again, uses humans for his own benefit but has never been overly fond of them, with the exception of the doctors little companions. hes copying her again.
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but the thing is, he keeps cultivating them. he gains a love for caring for them. mushrooms are just mushrooms until they arent. in a time where he thinks heā€™s the doctors opposite, he begins farming mushrooms bc of jo grant, a detail the doctor would remember just bc he misses her. he couldve spent his time escaping and getting back to his regular timeline to defeat the doctor, but he stayed. because of a human attachment. very doctor-y.
and if that bit of nostalgia wasnā€™t enough, he even hallucinates the third doctor in this. Which. okay. give me a non-thoschei explanation for this.
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i just really like what that short story has to offer as far as the masters obsession with other people and his disguises go. and what it means for him to spend months of his live caring for something, like the doctor would, when all hes done before is kill. what does it mean for the champion of death to cultivate life :(
nyways, if you made it this far, i really hope you enjoyed !! i just love talking about spymaster can you tell lmfaooo and if you liked any of this id recommend reading the gardener by ritheh on ao3 which expands on his whole ā€œkiller heals for onceā€ thing its soooo good <33 ok bye see u guys next time
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aurae-rori Ā· 10 months ago
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DR RATIO ANALYSIS PT 3 BUT IT'S JUST GAY
Now, you might be saying - "Aurae, you've done part one, and part two, so why do we need a part three?" The answer is because of two things - one. I made a deal with the Tumblr Peoples that if one of my posts hit more than 50 likes I would do this analysis. Two. Mihoyo is making this shit canon. I CAN'T MAKE THIS UP. So, let's delve into my usual disclaimer, as we might have some new people joining us for the first time with my insanity.
I have been researching psychology personally for about six years, so although I am not a professional (crawling my way there through the education system. I will be one, one day.) I do have some experience with analyzing homosexuals. Psychology hours, my children. They don't call me "chronically cooking" for nothing. Maybe I should change my url to that...
NOW THAT MY LONG AHH DISCLAIMER IS OVER, LET'S GET INTO THIS! It's time to deconstruct these homosexuals like a modern airplane, because they might as well be taking off with how canon they are.
"It can't be canon," they say, but then Mihoyo DOES PAID SPONSORSHIPS WITH THESE FUCKERS BEING GAY. We've all seen the paid partnership edit. We've all seen the video where Aventurine has the audio of "nice rack" as he talks to Dr. Ratio. PAID SPONSORSHIPS. Now, if that piece of evidence isn't enough for you - let's dive into their actual relationship, which is just a HOMOSEXUAL MESS. I will be focusing more on how Dr. Ratio sees this guy as this is a Dr. Ratio analysisā„¢, but hey, the crumbs.. we eat 'em all. Amen.
Let's start off (I say as I write this part three days later) about how people are like, 'Aven is Ratio's favourite idiot' WRONG. Ratio does NOT consider Aventurine to be an idiot and knows that he is smart and capable in his own right. While Ratio is book smart, Aven is extremely street smart and holds his own very well. Ratio does not consider Aventurine to be an idiot as he takes off his plaster head around him and actually indulges in his whims around him. This is a blatant showcase of fondness because although he is emotionally constipated and can't be affectionate through words without sounding semi-backhanded because he's never had true affection in his life, he showcases his love through actions rather than words. He's just bad at showing love, okay? But he does love Aven. Or like him, to some extent, if you don't want to see them as romantic, which is fine. However, no matter what you label their bond as, it's obvious that they care for one another.
Also, the fucking ZEST FEST that was 'keeping up with Star Rail'. He says, "wait a minute - MUTUAL?" which indicates that he has respect for Aventurine in the first place. He LITERALLY TOLD US that he respects Aventurine and he was commenting on Aventurine's playstyle & everything.. also, at the end, he was here because 'I appreciate this show's dedication to knowledge' - his TONE. Kudos to the VA because that was not convincing at all. Bro was NOT here for the knowledge, bro was here to be GAY!!! Also his little own bathtub couch. We all know Aven bought it for him. Trust, I am John Hoyoverse.
"The Charming Audacity" HUH? BRO? Okay this is hilarious to me because this is the first time that we ever really see them interact with one another, and we get absolutely bitchslapped in the fact that Dr. Ratio calls this guy's audacity 'charming'. That's GAY. That's HOMOSEXUAL.
Also, comparing him to a peacock.. a very beautiful bird.... Must I say more?
Now, the part that I really want to focus on is the part where he gives the Doctor's Note to Aventurine. This shit is important. And I agree with the people who are like - Acheron helped him. Because she did. She was a big part of it and she helped Aventurine get back on his feet in the void. Dr. Ratio is not his only reason to live, but the note, showing that someone will stay by his side? Showing that someone truly cares for him? Someone who's waiting for him when he get back? This bond that he has with Dr. Ratio isn't fake. He already has a starting point to get back to - an anchor to return to. Dr. Ratio is his anchor. Whenever he goes off to do crazy shit, Veritas Ratio will be there when he returns. Because Ratio is loyal. Ratio cares. He cared enough to almost jeopardize their plan to make sure that Aventurine was going to be okay. He cares so damn much about Aventurine that he decided that this man's emotional state after the fake betrayal was more important than all of fucking Penacony.
If you want an example of "I would let the world burn for you," it's Ratio. He's a romantic not in the traditional sense, but he cares and loves Aventurine so damn much it makes my heart hurt. "Do stay alive," he says, knowing that Aventurine struggles with living. Those three words mean the whole fucking world to someone who struggles with suicidal ideation and suicidal thoughts. Someone wants you to live. Someone wants you to stay. Someone wants you by their side.
Dr. Ratio cares. Let me say that again - he cares. He banters with Aventurine, tries to create an environment where Aventurine can feel a little bit more comfortable with the two of them, even in a place as dangerous as Penacony. He will put his own life on the line for Aventurine.
He cares. He cares so damn much. I hate gay people. They make me VIOLENTLY homophobic.
Dr. Ratio after expressing his care indirectly and complimenting Aventurine indirectly: Did I do it?
Aventurine, who has caught none of the hints:
Anyway, thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.
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majorproblems77 Ā· 11 months ago
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Hi, Linked Maze fans! It's me again!
Ohhhh boy we are cooking and I am excited. Let's do a late-night ramble with yours truly
When I tell you I looked at these panels for a reasonable amount of time I was lying and it was longer than that.
Now a link to the comic page can be found Here! Please go give it some love :D
For the important stuff!
Linked Maze belongs to @linked-maze and its wonderful creator @frulleboi. (You should follow them, they are wonderful) And as a heads up, Linked maze is for more mature audiences! :)
As usual, you know the drill, Grab some water, Grab some popcorn and prepare for me to ramble at you for however long it is!
Here we go!
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Oh lordy it's the sun (you'll see why later.)
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He sniffin. Sniff Sniff
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Now, Everyone remembers the first rule of exploring. Dont run off! That includes you Wolfy!
Now I have a theory. Which I'll come back to in detail later. But just, Remember the shadow behind four for me. We'll get back to it.
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Warrior is the group Dad at this point. also, I love this side shot of him thank you.
Also
Warrior. Speaking to Wolfie like he is a kid rather than a wolf.
WARRIOR KNOWS SOMETHING IS UP YOU CANT CHANGE MY MIND
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I dont think It'll be Sky. I think it'll be a hero we haven't met yet!
We interupt this comic analysis for unhinged analysis :D
Ready? Me too, lets go
Because, that shadow?
this one?
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I dont think it's wolfy, It can't be.
Wolfie's shadow has a definition to it. It has a shape.
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You can see the outlines of his tail, which is what we would see if it were him.
Where this one is a blob. Closer to a person.
Ie Winds's shadow
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the blob
In fact, if I had to give you a position for Wolfy right now. It's not there. Let me explain.
Shadowssssss
Remember the sun? (Me too, I miss it;-;)
The sun can tell us a bunch about time and stuff. But also where a person is (Because fun angles and maths that I know way too much about tbh)
Anyway
So Wolfy's shadow hits another wall
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This wall looks flat so it can't be a corner. (Taking the grass as reference)
And his face isn't shadowed at all, So he himself isn't behind a wall. He's approaching one tho. So in this case I reckon Wolfie isn't visible at all to wind and Warriors at the point Four turns to them.
So who is this mysterious shadow?
It ain't angel. No way.
I reckon it is another Link group. And we are either going to meet the last of the Links we are yet to meet. Or we are pulling groups together.
You know what....
I think it's World or Spirit. And we are gonna see these guys interact before they meet the other larger group of heroes.
Though im leaning towards Spirit just because of the shadow's shape. (And the lack of Sheerow)
Let me know what you think because I'm not 100% sure and I'm interested in what you think.
Okay ramble over, but to be fair that's why your here right?
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Oh windddddd
the poor boy
I feel so bad for him he didn't deserve this. He probably tried to open his eye cause he was excited. :(
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:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
The boyyyyyyy
He's trying to be a strong hero in front of these other heroes again. This poor kid i feel so bad for him.
ALSO THE EARS :(
They have expressive ears and it kills me to see wind sad like this.
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AHHHHHH
BIG BRO WARRIOR
I LOVE HIM
And his little ear lower of worry for the small I love him sm okay.
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Excuse me?
bhdjlhsafdnsajkfndas;nfdas
You can't leave it like that
Where's wolfy
Wheres four?
Will the small boy ever not be in pain?
I have questions!
Ahh okay okay I loved this update it was very fun. Im excited to see what's coming up in the next chapter.
Thats all from me!
Have a great night all! :D
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coffeecat1983 Ā· 6 days ago
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Robotnik x Stone: "As the song says" pt 1
(apologies for any inconsistencies etc, this is set roughly after the second movie and I still haven't seen the third)
Ā  Ā  Ā  The wilderness of Alaska holds many secrets. Ā  Ā  Ā  Travel to a small waterfall tucked away in a pine forest and carefully make your way past the icy waters into a nook carved out in the black rock. Search carefully and you will find a panel hidden behind a false rock cover. Should you manage to enter the correct code and get past the voice recognition, a large panel would slide away to reveal an elevator. Take this down and you are now at a long hallway lined with metallic doors. The rock walls and ground are replaced with sleek tiles that light up from within, giving an almost eerie appearance to the place. The doors are all closed except for one at the end of the hall. It's cracked open and a driving beat echoes out.
Ā  Ā  Ā  Robotnik leaned back in his chair, foot tapping along to the pulsing beat. The table near him was loaded down with papers, sketches of new robot designs, and three computer monitors glowed brightly. Two showed various documents while the third was pulled up to show a media player, the visualizer throbbing to the music. Robotnik spun in his chair to the melody before slamming a foot down to stop the movement. He moved the controller on the arm of the chair, floating over to the table. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Ahh, you may present yourself as a deceased Mus musculus, but your melodies are definitely alive." he said, picking another song and adding it to the playlist. Reaching over blindly to where his afternoon coffee should have been, he grasped empty air. Turning, he stared at the vacant spot before glancing at the clock. It was just past four in the afternoon; Stone should have slipped in and placed his drink on the table by now. Pausing the music, he got up and entered the hallway. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Stone?!" he called out. A faint click and the sound of fumbling came from behind the closest door. It whooshed open and Stone rushed out, looking like a deer in headlights. Robotnik raised an eyebrow at him. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "You're late." he said bluntly. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Sorry sir!" Stone darted into his room and back out before taking off for the kitchen. "I'll get that done now!" Robotnik tapped his foot again, taking note of the original room Stone came out of. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "The medical bay. Strange." Glancing down the hall towards the kitchen door, he slipped into the med bay. The overhead lights came on as he entered, revealing the bright, sterile room. Everything seemed in place. Reaching up, he snapped a finger. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Yes, Lord Robotnik?" a computerized female voice responded to the trigger sound. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "What device was just used in this room?" he asked. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Record indicates the medical diagnostics was used last by one Lee Stone." Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "And what tests were run?" Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "My apologies, due to HIPAA inclusion in medical programming, I am unable to provide that information." Ā  Ā  Ā  Robotnik grumbled. "I knew including that would be a mistake." Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Not that I'm suggesting you search for this," the robo voice spoke up, "but medical diagnostics always include a paper printout with the analysis." Ā  Ā  Ā  "Of course! And Stone was holding a paper when he left here." Robotnik smirked. "Glad I thought of it."
Ā  Ā  Ā  Entering Stone's room, his sharp eyes took everything in. He had never ventured into his henchman's private quarters before. The room was tidy, bed neatly made, a bookcase full of carefully arranged books and a desk with a laptop and some writing tools. The one thing out of place was the crumpled-up paper that hadn't made it into the waste basket beside the desk. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Well, well, what do we have here." He picked it up and smoothed it out, reading over the rumpled printing. He paused, rubbed at his eyes, and read it again. Ā  Ā  Ā  'Possibility of prolonging lifespan with treatment: 5% - 12%' Ā  Ā  Ā  'Known cures: 0.' The word 'terminal' in bright red ink glared back at him. Crumpling the paper back up and placing it back beside the basket, he quietly went back to the lab. Ā  Ā  Ā  As he entered, the lights came on and the media player resumed. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  'Did I tell you, I loved you, today?' the sweet, smokey vocals echoed out. Something in the words hit him and he froze, chest tight. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  'Did I tell you, I loved you, today?'Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  His fist slammed into the monitor, cracking it. He hunched over the desk, panting as the song finished playing. Feeling a tickle on his cheek, he reached up, his gloved fingertips coming away wet. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Sir?" Ā  Ā  Ā  Robotnik yelped, nearly spinning around but stopping himself on time, not wanting Stone to see his face. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "What is it?!" he snapped. Ā  Ā  Ā  Stone peered past his boss at the broken and sparking monitor as he set the steaming latte down. "Er, I was just wondering if you had any requests for tonight's dinner." Ā  Ā  Ā  This made the other pause. "That's right, it's Sunday, isn't it?" he muttered. While Stone usually laid out plans for weekly meals, Sunday was random and Robotnik would pick from a list of his favorites. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "Yes, sir. So," Stone glanced at the monitor again. "Any requests?" Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "You pick tonight." Robotnik said, still not looking at him. Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  "I...Sir?" Making sure his eyes were dry, Robotnik turned, tugging on his coat to straighten it. "You heard me, Stone, you pick something. And not something you'd usually make for me. Make it," he hesitated at the strange words, "something you would enjoy." Ā  Ā  Ā  Stone's face lit up. "Yes sir!" he turned to rush out but stopped at the door, looking back. "And don't worry! I'll make sure it's something you'll like too; I promise!" he looked behind the scientist. "Did, did you need any help with..." he pointed. Ā  Ā  Ā  Robotnik glanced back at the monitor which had started to smoke lightly. "Ah, that. No, no, that's nothing. Just a disagreement with a brainless moron, as usual. Claimed Einstein was a 'genius'. One of my robots will clean it up." he said casually.Ā 
To be continued....
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tubbytarchia Ā· 10 months ago
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Jimmy EVO thoughts
This is a loooong thread of summarized thoughts (cough 5500 words) of Jimmy in Evo, though mostly his and Martyn's Property Police relationship and how it leads into future treatment of Jimmy, as well as general Jimmy character analysis. Plus some Netty thoughts and such in relation to Jimmy too
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Obligatory: I talk about characters only
The following is separated into categories, somewhat, but 90% of that is property police related... Netty and misc thoughts are down below
Shoutout once again to my friend for pointing out some stuff I missed or better than I could
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(Martyn's self portrait. Idk felt appropriate)
1. Jimmy and Martyn (Property police) thoughts
Jimmy and Martyn overall are pretty cute and supportive and protective of one another but there are many many instances that Martyn unfairly scolds and plays him down. But then he'll turn around and show some form of care towards Jimmy which leaves me feeling conflicted. The way Martyn treats Jimmy here pretty effortlessly leads into Jimmy's further mistreatment in future SMPs imo
I'm gonna start off with a lot of negative aspects to the Property Police dynamic but trust me ok I've noted down all the cool and nice things too at a later point. As I said they're overall cute and nice!!! There's just a lot... to note... (I'm a big solidwood fan ok. sobs)
1.1 Martyn's caretaker role and the "chief"
All throughout, Martyn keeps bringing up this made-up character "chief" who they speak of as both a sort of boogeyman as well as a parental figure (Jimmy later says the chief is his father)? Like Jimmy causes trouble and Martyn goes "ahh I'm gonna have to tell the chief about this" to which Jimmy tries to plead his case. Or Martyn would express needing the chief to weigh in on whether Jimmy's doing a good enough job as Property Police. This makes sense though given Martyn's self-assigned caretaker role
Martyn largely acts like he needs to be taking care of Jimmy and doesn't trust him when he's alone (will be talked about in depth at the next point) and makes up this police chief character to spook Jimmy but also to, again, serve as some kind of replication of a parental figure... Jimmy himself talks about the chief that way too, saying stuff like "the chief told me to be careful"
There's some kind of pride essential to Martyn that he gets from taking on some kind of provider role, and/or it might be essential to him being able to show affection, at least at this point in time and at least towards Jimmy
Martyn likes to feel depended on and Jimmy does make it feel that way. He's constantly considering Martyn, following him around, supporting him. When he's not there, he frequently talks about him, how he's not here today but will be another time, how he's taking a break, how they'll be doing stuff together later... How they both agree that Jimmy doesn't fare well on his own (and how Jimmy and other people in Jimmy's life will hold onto this belief)
In one episode they're both finding these vacation apartments to buy? and Jimmy goes "can we be next to each other though? I'll miss you too much if we don't" :(
At some point Netty's appalled by how poor Jimmy is so he and Martyn make plans to mine together, and they decide to mine in different directions only for Jimmy to go back to Martyn anyway
I'm so sorry to be a weeb and use a screenshot from Free! of all things but this is Martyn and Jimmy. I don't make the rules
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There's also a moment where Jimmy says "I think I might need you" to which Martyn goes "is this you confessing your love to me?" and then they do this bit where they act out the chief talking to them "you can love who you want to love. As long as you do your job right". So basically the chief is validating gay marriage. Awesome
Anyway, Jimmy at several points gets told off by Martyn because he's "fine" and doesn't need Jimmy following him around but what else is he gonna doā€¦ you cant just leave him on the street like a lost puppyā€¦
At one point in the SMP, they all get together to take on the ender dragon (after which Grian left). Unfortunately, they don't end up in one End dimension and instead, they all have to fight the Enderdragon by themselves. Jimmy does fantastic. He's very focused and gets it done in spite of a few struggles. He even says "those endermen made me so angry. I haven't been so angry in awhile" when it really didn't show that he was THAT angry when a bunch of them piled on him. He stayed focused and finished the job... Sigh. He can be so confident and competent and good, if only he didn't get played down so frequently just for often getting excited and tunnel visioned easily...
It's implied that the others thought he was gone for good when Jimmy finally made it back to the overworld after some... bliss in the great void? Of course he starts asking himself about Martyn and expressing hope that Martyn's alive. He and Martyn eventually communicate here and there but still don't meet up for awhile longer. Jimmy for this time period is surviving pretty much independently, and even when Martyn starts turning up in his episodes more again, there's much less of Jimmy following Martyn around like he used to, and I think Martyn took note. It feels like he took note that Jimmy no longer depended on him and kinda fucked off a little bit. This would carry over to stuff like 3L as reasoning for why Martyn acted the way he did towards Jimmy? Evidently caring about him yet pushing him away, even after Jimmy asked to join him, even after Martyn himself told Jimmy that he thought Scott was using him
(Headcanony here, but I still jive with the idea that there was some kind of watcher/listener/Evo members confrontation at the end that forced that world to come to an end, from which Jimmy and Pearl were spared as they went on to quickly be part of new worlds unlike the others. And then some of them eventually returning like Martyn, but not Netty, and the idea that Martyn now holds some kind of resentment towards Jimmy for not having gone through that and never being able to understand how Martyn feels, in spite of still caring about Jimmy, having wanted to spare him from whatever went down to begin with. This, combined with him seeing Jimmy become more independent, when Jimmy was always waiting for him and wanted to make him proud for surviving on his own, and missed and needed him even if Martyn doesn't think so. This will be reinforced at later points here too)
1.2 Martyn's lack of trust in Jimmy and Jimmy's self-deprecation
Apparently whenever Jimmy's on the server without Martyn, he just becomes a troublemaker and Martyn goes "I don't trust you half the time", granted, lightheartedly, but this notion will keep being repeated. His first reaction to the property police being faulted for anything, or Jimmy being hesitant with telling him something, is to assume and accuse Jimmy of messing something up. Eg when there is a scene resembling a protest built outside their base, Jimmy questions what they've done to be opposed, to which Martyn goes "What have YOU done?". This leads to/deepens Jimmy's need to prove himself to be good and competent, and his hesitancy to let Martyn know/fear of Martyn finding out when he's messed something up
Jimmy gets himself utterly blown up by Grian's prank, Martyn's not there so he goes "guys, you cannot tell Morty (Martyn), he will kill me". He sounds genuinely pretty upset too "I don't- I don't know anymore." He's not even nice to their current dog, with him walking around pretty aimlessly before going to their dog who's standing up and repeatedly trying to make it sit, sternly saying "Sit down, sit down." when previously he's shown a lot of affection towards their dogs (though honestly uncertain how much of it has been totally genuine when he has also joked about a dog dying before it can be nametagged and stuff)
Martyn's not around and look what happens - exactly what Martyn has drilled in. Of course Jimmy is flustered and upset, and of course he doesn't want Martyn to know- for Martyn to comment again about his lack of trust in him by his lonesome, or about his unsuitability for his job as a cop. It only makes sense that Jimmy comes to believe he's incapable of handling himself alone and that he needs to rely on someone. It's only natural he follows Scott around in 3L without question when Scott doesn't trust him to something. It's only natural that even with Tango, at the start of DL, he voices concern to Bdubs that he's afraid Tango will yell at him for having done a bad job begging for resources. (Ofc Tango doesn't but it's really fucking sad!! That Jimmy's been conditioned to consider that!!)
Another example of "Jimmy's incompetency" is when Jimmy's dog has been taken hostage for awhile, but they find it almost instantly when Martyn comes back on. Jimmy says he needed the dog to keep him company and expresses a lot of grievance over the dog's living condition in the hole it was kept in, while Martyn questions if he even put in that much of an effort to try and find it. They joke about and Jimmy agrees to him not doing well on his own. (Also I'm not sure what to take away from the fact that the dog was kept in oddly good conditions and Jimmy still feeling bad for the dog...? Aside from the lack of sunlight ofc, it had room and water and a bed)
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At some point (spoken more of in the Netty section), Jimmy gives Netty all his resources he gathered from their mining trip together and then asks "did you get a picture? Did you get a picture of that?". Naturally Netty comments on his need to immortalize his good deeds but you can't blame the guy when the people around him, especially his best pal Martyn, keep calling him a bad cop and not trusting him to be good when he's left alone. It makes sense for Jimmy to want proof of him being good to show Martyn...
Start of Evo ep 46, Salems says in chat something along the lines of "be good now Jimmy, no one's here to watch over you" to which Jimmy replies "I'm always good tyvm!!" And then proceeds to praise himself for the rest of the episode despite having difficulty dealing with the property police station being flooded. Eg sees that he has a bucket in one of his chests and going "Good job Jim good job" etc. He's trying so hard and then turns around to see more water and goes "this makes me sad" :(
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(It was genuinely really bad lol this image does not do it justice)
Jimmy's self deprecation is also present in Evo even when it's not being brought on by anyone else, only himself. Eg under the video in which he got miserably blown up by Grian's prank, he has his pinned comment: "I was excited okay. I did not see the plates, don't ruin the comment section! Thank you. I am a noob though. HA!" and at the start of a different episode, Jimmy says to the audience "You didn't miss me, did ya? I know you didn't miss me" :(
There's also the time where he, Martyn and Netty do a race all individually and in the end it's revealed that Jimmy was the last one by a second and he repeatedly goes "oh wow so funny let's laugh (mock laughter)". Something about this one... Sure they joked about him coming last a few times through the episode but that felt kind of out of left field. Why is he so mocking... why are you being so SO mean to yourself Jimmy...
Jimmy is pretty frequently insisting on being a good cop even when the situation doesn't call for it because "people have been having a go at me lately". This notion of Jimmy being a bad cop extends further yet when Martyn's mayor campaign begins
1.3 Martyn's mayor arc, Jimmy's reinforced unsuitability and getting caught in the crossfire
Martyn runs for mayor, during which Jimmy is unwaveringly backing him, ofc. Following him around, propping him up... At one point Martyn even says "You're the best run-in partner I could've asked for"
But then things start falling apart and Martyn starts to a go a little bit mad. He wants to give up and Jimmy is basically pleading with him saying stuff like "but I've done so much to back to you" but Martyn's not hearing it "You've done nothing". (what a switch from that last paragraph lol)
Back to the Property Police station being flooded - Jimmy was openly supporting Martyn's mayor campaign but he didn't cause any of the destruction during the fallout when Martyn gave up. It was all Martyn and in retaliation the property police base has been significantly flooded and plastered with vines and Jimmy's the one to have to clean it all up. This doesn't get acknowledged (in Jimmy's POV at least). This is also very true in other SMPs like X Life, that Jimmy largely suffers due to no bad actions of his own but rather the crossfire of others'
It's always Martyn being on break... It's always Jimmy saying "the chief gave him days off!" and Martyn saying "I need a break from you and everything". Has anyone considered maybe Jimmy needs a little break too.. Has anyone considered that Jimmy also feels bad for not having his efforts recognized... He's always there to prop Martyn up to largely get deprecated in return in spite of everything he does (and isn't that a familiar theme with Jimmy...)
Anyway, next episode Martyn's back and Jimmy wants to show him something nice he made for him for being torn up about the mayor thing, but Martyn's immediate reaction is "what did you do!?". Well, the nice thing Jimmy made was a padded cell and he trapped Martyn in there for a bit for having gone a little mad lol
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Martyn for a short period of time ends up becoming mayor anyway, during which he hits and berates Jimmy quite a bit (clenches fist) and reasons why Jimmy would always be second in charge at most because people don't want him as mayor. They do this whole bit where Jimmy replaces all the previous signs directed towards Tatiz (the last mayor) for them to say nice things about Martyn instead cause it's not like anyone's gonna know they're all just done by Jimmy... and then Martyn doesn't even let him into the office and punches him and Jimmy fake sniffles away
Martyn has another meltdown over the Watchers being against him becoming mayor, though Jimmy's still supporting him through it even as Martyn's playing him down. At the very end of the episode, Martyn jumps down a well when he says he's gonna go sleep so Jimmy's like "oh. Don't drown, we still need you" and Martyn sounds genuinely kind of gut-wrenchingly defeated when he replies "apparently not". Good time to remember Martyn's pride in feeling needed
Next time Martyn's on, he's on a quest to exile himself, saying he's going to find the next portal and leave and never come back. Jimmy is valiantly following him around and basically pleading for him to stay and that they need him (I think it's just you Jimmy... it's you who needs him...). Him saying "we've been on the force for 9 years, does that not mean anything to you?" makes for a painful parallel to Martyn accusing Jimmy of not caring about property police in 3L... Paraphrasing a bit, but the back and forth between Martyn and Jimmy: "You can explain to Netty why I'm leaving. I didn't want to explain to anyone but you've forced it on me. I'm happy to leave, everything's fine" - "Alright, fine. Fine, I accept it, no I accept it, I'm coming to wave goodbye" - "You coming with me, or?" - "No, I'm not leaving all this behind, but I'll come wave goodbye". Even with Jimmy giving up or having implied giving up on trying to convince Martyn to stay, he still wants to follow him, to at least say goodbye... Jimmy also says he's tearing up as Martyn's digging down to the stronghold where he plans to make his exit. Martyn drops into the stronghold with a bunch of mobs though and Jimmy goes "yess kill him, kill him!" (because that'd bring Martyn back to spawn and halt his self exile) before jumping down and helping defend Martyn anyway... Ultimately Martyn fails because the portal isn't even there and he dies to a creeper. Later, when Martyn's back, this is largely treated as a bad dream and that Martyn was just in a daze
I'm not sure exactly where this thought started but at some point Jimmy starts to express having to become mayor himself (and then at a later point, as mentioned above, Martyn explaining why people would never want him as a mayor). Jimmy says things like "I'm gonna end up being the mayor aren't I?" when things get tentative and unstable with Martyn, and "I reckon anything that comes - if a situation comes along again where someone has to take charge and i-in- lead and vote for something or even go for something... think Pete Bills should take it- I think Pete Bills should take it, and, you know... Give his best shot"
This is significant to me because Jimmy wanting to be in any kind of leading role, but never managing it, is a theme that comes up frequently in his POVs. Jimmy is already treated as being at the bottom of some player perceived hierarchy, and as such constantly teased and played down, which naturally, for the others, makes it unlikely if not absurd for him to be in leadership positions, and this imo carries over to his relationships
He hardly has authority and when he tries to enforce it, he gets disregarded, discouraged and/or made fun of, eg in ESMP2. He hardly if ever gets authority in 3L FH (flower husbands), or ESMP2 fWhimmy, or, Evo Solidwood to an extent. The whole mayor deal is very resemblant of what would go on to happen in X Life too. Where Jimmy is happy to be part of "Jeremyism" with Joel as the leader, though he enforces very little power, but when that position is about to be handed over to Scott, Jimmy desperately tries to get himself to be the leader instead, and upon failing, begs Joel to retain his position, only to end up following Scott's lead anyway without further vocal protest
Jimmy taking charge, in relationships or otherwise, almost always gets shut down. Pensive
1.4 Martyn's also kind to Jimmy though...
But then there are times like Martyn showing concern towards his wellbeing, voicing fear of him hurting himself, saying things like "I was worried you hurt yourself"
There are times like Salem cornering Jimmy and Martyn going "Salem, back it up, go back a few blocks, get away from him". Times like them talking about food and Jimmy says he's the priority so he should eat. Martyn naturally questions it and then chases him around for a bit, threatening to hit him, but then throws him the food anyway without arguing against it...
Something about Martyn not being entirely against the padded cell that Jimmy made for and trapped him in briefly. Martyn willingly goes in there when "he's had a thought" and says for Jimmy to trust him to stay in there even though one of the doors is broken and keeps opening. Something about Jimmy's ideas being given a chance and made use of even when its. a fucking padded cell
There's an episode that starts with Martyn calling Jimmy upset and a loser as is not at all unusual (grrr) but then he goes all soft "How you doing, you alright? Sorry I've been away" and all I can do is shake my fist, unable to quite punch him. There's something here about Martyn struggling to express affection, really well showcased in the bread incident too, without having a go at Jimmy first as if it were a balance that he needs to keep in check, rather than being nice to Jimmy just... because.
There's a trap they build, mostly Martyn, and he claims "Jimmy was such a big support" and Jimmy naturally goes "I didn't really do much" but all Martyn replies is "well its this kind of trap that having two people work on it would have been difficult..." thank you for validating Jimmy and not making a joke out of him for "doing less"
There's this kind of respect towards Jimmy here largely absent from a lot of other people in other SMPs...
Jimmy shushing Martyn and Martyn actually shuts up. Wow basic decency and respect towards my son !!! Jimmy suggests a viewer suggested bevarage name for their little pub thing, and Martyn says it's bad, but when Jimmy reinforces a little later that he thought it was good, Martyn encourages him to put up a sign for it anyway.
It's not just Jimmy who's being accused of having done something etc. Jimmy's also more assertive towards Martyn and asking him if he's sure he's not done anything bad. And also holding Martyn accountable. This is largely a saving grace for Solidwood to me as opposed to some other Jimmy relationships in select SMPs because it goes both ways here even if still in uneven portions...
There's also Jimmy's antics being played into it as opposed to being disregarded or made fun of. A lot of it tends to be turned back around to making fun of Jimmy and then that's it, that's the joke, but with Martyn, he participates in the jokes. Jimmy can just ask for silly stuff or be silly and Martyn will easily go along or provide without knocking him or anything. Jimmy "can I get a cool intro please" and Martyn will just do it without question. The whole thing they had with Evo news (genuinely please go watch this one tiny animatic of one of their "Evo News" segments on Jimmy's channel, it's so adorable). Or whatever other cringy joke bits they do. Mmgh I just wish this was the case with more people than just Martyn
This kind of stuff, a lot of the time does still involve teasing Jimmy, but it's fun... It's not just fun on Jimmy's expense, it's fun that involves him, and that makes this endlessly more enjoyable to me than the "lol Jimmy is incompetent and stupid and deserves no rights" jokes with no further nuance to them. Those do very much appear in Evo still, and do hurt me, although I see no harm to them as long as they're less frequent and as such don't become fully stale after the first few times, but at least it's not. coughempiresseason2cough cough.
Idk where else to put this but Martyn and Jimmy start the "Property Police" bit in episode 2 already and it goes on for pretty much the entire series. They both adopt specific names for it though. Jimmy decides on ā€œPete Billsā€ but itā€™s mostly just him who ever uses it. Martyn picks ā€œMortyā€ and Jimmy continues calling Martyn that for the entire series. Kind of cute of them to have nicknames for one another, Morty and Timmy respectively, even if it was Grian who started the Timmy bit
1.5 Setting Jimmy up for failure
This kind of casual hitting and deprecation from Martyn is what I think leads to Jimmy's further minimization and need of dependency, which I brought into question way back at the start. While Property Police is largely pretty carefree and accountability and such isn't always one-sided and can go both ways, there are so many things to point to in retrospect as frontrunners for repeating themes in how Jimmy gets treated by others, and how he views himself. A lot of Martyn's treatment of Jimmy both within and after Evo make me grit my teeth but there's these saving factors... Where Martyn evidently does really care, and he'll at least sometimes express as much... What gets in the way is his tendency to be hot-headed and selfish, and skewed in his ways of affection and pride
It's so fucked up how Jimmy's led to believe to have been at fault for so many things that happen to him through all the deprecation and reinforcement of him being the worst player of the bunch. How when he apologizes, no one tells him he's no need to.
Before one of the portal hops, when everyoneā€™s having a meeting to switch versions, someone trapped Jimmy in 4 Iron doors (idk who, Jimmy cut it out) but Grian goes "donā€™t worry I have a way to get you out of there" and blows the doors up with TNT. He then asks Jimmy to clean it up and Jimmy's all "sorry I'll clean it up" and he keeps apologizing. Another time when Jimmy loses a race in evo and Mini punches him "you're stupid, Jimmy, you're stupid, you should have won that race" to which Jimmy briefly flees before going back to him to apologize (doesn't that sound familiar...grrr)
It started with Martyn, who Jimmy followed around, supported, needed and missed, and then X Life Joel (Jeremyism) and then 3L Scott etc. Jimmy doesn't need to depend on anyone, that's just how his fucked up love life and expectations of affection (and when whether or not he deserves any) have gone, cause I feel the need to reinforce that Jimmy is very good and capable, he is!! If the damn Enderdragon fight is anything to go by if nothing else!! He should start murdering people!! Anyway
Appropriate time to think again about Martyn, in 3L, voicing concern over Scott slapping Jimmy around, when he has also admitted to using Jimmy ("Sometimes I feel that you use me" - "I 100% do")
For further similarities, few times Martyn scolded Jimmy, like when Jimmy accidentally kills Martyn at one point with a single pickaxe swipe and Martyn scolds him like "alright, now you get back on the surface, bring all my stuff back to me" and Jimmy can only stutter and make a few whimpers. His ā€œHow were you on that low H- Howā€¦ Hmph :(ā€œ... I want someone to hold Jimmy so badly you donā€™t understand... or the time Jimmy and Martyn were standing by the blaze spawner to get double spawning rate, when for some reason Jimmy decides to leave and take a little gander alone at which Martyn very angrily goes "did you just leave? You can't do that! Are you guys seeing this teamwork??". He's getting scolded... No blazes were spawning and he got anxious and needed to go for a walk Martyn it's okay...
Also like. He lived and slept in the same room as Jimmy all throughout. Something about Jimmy only ever being part of at least SOMEWHAT nice relationships when he's sleeping together with that person and not alone. coughs
2. Jimmy and Netty (and Martyn) thoughts
Seeing as Netty's skin is a bush baby and she built a treehouse, I'm still sticking with the headcanon that little Martyn and Jimmy just found this creature (Netty) in the woods one day. Anyway
Martyn, Jimmy and Netty are on a goose chase and I found it really cute how they came across a decent water crossing, Martyn asks Netty in chat "boats or swim?" meanwhile Jimmy is already swimming off and Netty doesnt answer and just jumps in after Jimmy. He and Netty also fall down the exact same hole simultaneously later, itā€™s adorable.
When they make it to where the new portal is, Netty hits Jimmy into some water, to which Jimmy of course shakes his fist, and then later Netty accidentally nudged him to his death by fall. Jimmy said she will pay for her crimes, but it was an accident Jimmy... she didn't mean it that time... And then Netty's slowly crawling towards Jimmy with her head down, occasionally looking up with puppydog eyes no doubt. You know the cubito body language. But Jimmy's just shaking his head at her.... Jimmy feels bad though, I think, so he went up to her but she thought he was going to attack and ran away
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Jimmy POV vs Netty POV (yeah I don't blame her for getting scared lol) Jimmy's disappointed though and says "I'm done with her" :(
In a later episode, Jimmy is helping Netty gather resources for her library. They go mining together, both having very little to their name and almost no torches, Jimmy mistakenly asks Netty for sticks before realizing he already has plenty but Netty gives him hers anyway and they rejoice and laugh about it... She also says "in real life I would actually trust you with my life but in Evo I do not want anything to do with you, you are too mischievous". Because this mentions the CCs specifically, and I'm strictly talking about characters, I'm not gonna think about it much but idk, I like that Netty's reasoning is "You're too mischevious" and they're just laughing about it. Netty's and Jimmy's banter in general is just really cute. There's a point where she's saying "Stop trying to make that a thing!" in response to Jimmy using this phrase "fan dabi dozi" with his own little inflection and when Jimmy asks "does it irritate you?" she says no, it makes her laugh. It's something about the way Netty does very much tease Jimmy but there's much less maliciousness in it than there is for some other people doing the same. She's not as quick to fault or accuse him, and she's quicker to laugh things off in unison and not at Jimmy
When they're done mining, Jimmy offers and gives her all the resources that he mined, to Netty's very genuine surprise though. Jimmy reasons "that's the whole reason I came with you" and like, yeah, he's right, this was established lol, but still... He's not being taken for granted... Netty didn't just assume he'd hand his resources over... And then Netty's New Years resolution is "to make Jimmy be less mean" ???? Netty.......
In spite of the few hiccups that I find hard to excuse though, Netty's attitude towards Jimmy is very similar to Martyn's when he's being nice. Basically what I already said a paragraph ago. Their banter is largely cute (when it involves Martyn, too, they make for a very fun and cute trio) and she spends the last episode with Jimmy and Pearl and it's very bittersweet
Other Jimmy things
There's a bit they do at the beginning of an episode where Jimmy attempts to propose marriage to Martyn. "Oh my god you need to see this, you need to see this, basically I've been... I've been thinking a lot lately and um-" - "Mate I'm already taken" (Martyn whips out the rose that Netty gave him early on and that he's kept in his hotbar ever since (mad cute btw))
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At the very start of the SMP, Jimmy and Martyn immediately run off together and they're very sweet but anyway when Jimmy finds his first iron, he calls Martyn over to remember the occasion. Martyn then whips out 3 iron like ā€œoops I already got someā€ but. Something about Jimmy treasuring the moment like thatā€¦ Something about him and resourcesā€¦
Jimmy is also claustrophobic apparently, with Martyn commenting about feeling bad about making him crawl through a tight space although Jimmy says it's fine. I'm just... thinking about 3L FH... their secure, claustrophobic base at the edge of the world away from everyone else... and Jimmy's few attempts of reaching out... Jimmy..... sorry this isn't about 3L uhhh
When Netty questions why Jimmy's bad at handling Creepers, he says "it's my parents"?? With the previous implication that the "chief" figure is Jimmy's dad, did the chief not teach him how to fight... This is kinda funny but also kinda sad because it makes me think of him being treated as the runt of the litter and no more, he was not the favorite child...
Zee throughout Evo is in direct opposition of the property police, being one of the two members of the mafia. He's responsible for doing and helping in many pranks aimed against the property police. In spite of this, near the end of the SMP, when he has reason to be upset with Jimmy, he's ultimately pretty nice about it... Jimmy's been stealing all his chickens from his chicken farm and not leaving any for Zee, but even then Zee is not that confrontational with him about it... Jimmy tries to derail, Zee catches on, Jimmy insists whilst also admitting to it and Zee's like "haha ok go on". Jimmy also tried to kill him but Zee caught on and killed him instead, but because it was with lava and all of Jimmy's stuff burned as a result (including all of Zee's TNT that he'd just stolen), Zee felt bad and gave him all the diamonds he had... Zee has 3 reasons to be upset with Jimmy, and Jimmy is usually the runt of the litter, the punching bag, and yet... Thank you Zee for being relatively kind to my son
Hello insane person for reaching this point. When my life series merch is ready I will start giving people like you discount codes at the ends of these posts. wink10 for 10% off. Remember it. Go read my X Life Jimmy thoughts too if you haven't. please
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Okay I have far too many headcanons/ideas about scarayn and music theyā€™ve done or would later do post-swy. So bc I have no life atm and this is all I can think about here are a couple:
ā€¢ Iā€™ve already mentioned them shifting their music to literally only writing shit about each other (largely to spite everyone telling them to write about anything else than each other for the rest of eternity), but I raise you ā€” one of them finally writing about something else like a breakup or other relationship issues and dropping it with no prior warning to anyone. Naturally this causes everyone and their mother to question if their beloved otp is going to break up or if theyā€™re having trouble getting along again. Only for their friends to find out they wrote the song bc a) they just felt like it, literally no other reason or b) they wrote it together just to fuck with everyone
ā€¢ second/last one (bc I didnā€™t realize this was already pretty long and I wanna get out of your hair abt this before I end up writing you a 50 page essay and analysis on this smau šŸ’€) ā€” I was listening to My Kink is Karma by Chappel roan and canā€™t get the idea out of my head that thatā€™s a song y/n made in this au. The music video is this au is similar to Chappelā€™s actual mv. And it just so happens that one of scaraā€™s previous mvā€™s have a very similar vibe to y/nā€™s, leading to a now very popular scarayn edit where Simone used clips that work surprisingly well together to make the my kink is karma mv with both y/n and scara together and itā€™s hot and done concerningly well to where a small amount of people have seen clips of the edit and thought it was the real mv. (Hopefully that makes sense šŸ˜…)
Okay, thatā€™s enough from me, I loved the new chapter tho!! Got me giggling, kicking my feet over two characters unable to express their emotions ā¤ļøā¤ļø
omg i love long asks donā€™t even be sorry SEND ME ALL THE ANALYSISā€™S U WANT MY WAY EVEN IF IT TAKES ME A WHILE TO REPLY
omg i love this i can see scarayn in their lowk honeymoon phase and only wanting to release songs about each other or related to each other. like obviously the albums do well but the fans r like wow we miss scaras old style can he release smth different and scara fucks around and releases an album thatā€™s the opposite themes of his usual happier songs centered around u and ppl think u both broke up for a few hours anyway i have more but ill save it for the end of the au so i donā€™t spoil too much
OMG YES I GET WHAT UR SAYING it reminds me of when ppl edit together hyyh yoonkook with their new mvs ,, another song i had a head canon about was close to you by gracie abrams and its a song one of them wrong about eo, maybe scara about yn and he releases it a while after the show and gets yn to be in the mv and it cuts between them two do u guys see the vision or do i sound insane
and ahh thank u!! im so glad u enjoyed and iā€™m always so flattered people have headcanons for my fic
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baejax-the-great Ā· 3 months ago
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this is super late but I think of you as THE Achilles pov writer. the way you weave his mythology and humanity, arrogance and vulnerability, selfishness and generosity so effortlessly and IN HIS HEAD has made me cry so many times. Thank you thank you!
Ahh, thank you!!
It's funny, because I tend to default to writing from Pat's perspective, and I think I only have a few fics where Achilles POV gets to shine (Sunset, Agua Caliente, Numbered Days... that might be it).
Achilles really is such a fascinating character to me--a spiteful child and a great leader, generous and unyielding, calm and respectful to the men who take away Briseis and the Embassy while also purposefully causing the deaths of hundreds of his own side... And then, of course, there is his all-consuming grief (the only reason I read the Iliad if I'm being honest), grief so big it changed the course of the war, it changed the very landscape, it changed history--and it changed absolutely nothing at all.
He's just so... (I was going to put an emoji, but is there one for staring off into the distance for fifteen minutes thinking about the futility of the journey of grief, how it is long and winding and necessary and required and yet never leads you to a place beyond the grief because it will be with you forever, it simply cannot be undone, and the strongest, fastest man in history cannot outrun it and he cannot bear it so all there is to do is accept the crushing weight that his life has come to nothing and everyone in his entire culture was complicit in this conclusion...)
Anyway, I am working on an Achilles POV one-shot right now, but it's basically pwp so I don't know that any of that character analysis will realllllly be in there šŸ˜‚
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