#like. this isnt even related to the meds

[al-luviec]

juvie buddies

[sparkleyiff]

Not sure if I'll be doing anything more for artfight this year I am. suffering. sorry :(

[secretlyofthefeywild]

gay panicked my way through a conversation w an attractive coworker and now i am so unbelievably sweaty

[haunted-house-heart]

yknow one thing about me is that i've never been told i'm difficult to buy gifts for

[phagodyke]

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[ichthysgospel]

re ur tags fucking hell that sucks im so sorry. i shouldn't have assumed that was snarky, the notes on this post have been full of people being like WELL I SAW A DOCTOR ONE TIME AND IT DIDNT HELP! GOTCHA! so i kinda jumped to conclusions which was shitty & im sorry. i wish i had good advice for finding good doctors i literally just kept going to different ones until someone listened and giving the finger to the ones that didnt. to be fair when i got my ptsd dx i hadnt slept in a week (to avoid nightmares) and was tripping absolute balls (because apparently lack of sleep = hallucinations) so it was sort of. painfully in-your-face obvious what was going on. the doctor i was seeing before that told me i should just try to be more positive. and then refused to refill my meds unless i scheduled a pap smear. the guy before that was willing to prescribe meds but he didnt bother to look at my history and ordered meds that were straight up contraindicated for me. my most recent psychiatrist refused to prescribe anything for adhd because he thought i was ??? following a trend or something??? idk i have a good team now but it took like a decade and a lot of assholes along the way. i guess im saying hang in there/keep fighting to find a good one? and also sorry for being an ass.

aw this is actually so sweet thank you :( I'm not mad at you at all I genuine just kinda. forgot (?) doctors actually have a job besides taking your money and telling you to wait it out. I think I'm finally starting to get lucky with the doctors I have now I really appreciate the encouragement :)

[the-s1lly-corner]

Various CRPs x reader who struggles w/ self care part 2

Oh yeah baby we are expanding older prompts with more characters

Characters: Splendorman, Jeff the Killer, Ticci Toby

Notes: reader is GN, heavily based off the admins experience

CWs: mental health stuff

SPLENDORMAN

He makes sure to check in on you whenever he can

Hes not going to make you throw yourself into larger acts of self care if you dont have the energy or motivation; brush your teeth if you can but hes not going to make you shower if you cant bring yourself to at the moment kind of deal

Keeps your home tidy and tackles meals so you have less to worry about and dont drown in your guilt and mess.. makes foods he knows you like but dont feel too overwhelming to eat- simple stuff!

Reminds you take your meds if you have any, he even gets the medication out and gets you a drink

Leaves you notes , words of encouragement and reminders

JEFF THE KILLER

Hes rather... blunt in reminding you to take care of yourself

There isn't much gentleness to reminding you drink your water and to go brush your teeth, sometimes it can come off as him ordering you around

He means well, it's just that being gentle and mindful isnt his strong suit

Like at all

Will forcefully make you take your meds if he has to by wrapping them in cheese/hj

Leaves you a water bottle and a bag of snacks when you don't feel like making a meal- jeff.. is a terrible cook

TICCI TOBY

Struggles with self care as well, for multiple reasons- so you both relate in this regard

Generally putting his needs on hold, time blindness, and so on

It actually encourages the both of you to remind each other to go eat or drink some water, stuff like that

You dont badger each other to do it, but it becomes a subconscious routine and habit to ask the other if they've done x that day

You guys dont even notice until you both start feeling a little better in general

[butchnetpicker]

Disclaimer: im critical of hb. Look at my username goddamit

Some of you hb criticals are really fucking weird and ableist towards people with mental illness ngl. I haven’t interacted much in the community myself because i have been working on my own mental health snd getting a diagnosis and proper meds(aytypical anti psychotics) and jesus fuck why are people claiming vivziepop is ‘delusional’ and viv fans are ‘mentally ill’ just because they’re being an asshole or lying or have slightly weird ideas. And dont fucking give me ‘ohhj i grew up around mental illness so i know this is it’ or ‘ohh the hb fans are impacting my mrntal health’ grow the fuck up or delete your account. Vivziepop isnt ‘delusional’ just because she has a shitty, stupid discourse opinion that a ton of 30 year old bisexual women on the internet share. She’s just a person who falls for bad retoric, she doesn’t have a condition that causes delusions and your shithead words would be way fucking worse and so much more dangerous if she genuinely did, i can tell you that.

And if not liking hb is giving you mental health problems maybe try not being so stubborn and fixated on that? Get consueling if it’s too too much for your poor hater mind?

Because i can guarantee that it isn’t giving you an actual psychological condition, and if it’s enhancimg one you already had, you should totally stop engaging with anyone involved and log out. Focus on ocs or something maybe.

Trust me, my autism gave me a SPINTREST on hb critique and even i am not as much of a fucking weirdo and loser as these people who are claiming vivziepop has a condition that makes her have delusions. Seriously fuck off you are poisoning the hb critical community. This is the reason i’ve been posting nearly nothing related to hb you guys. Too tired. The fans think narracustic abuse is a real term and the criticals think everyone who wrote it is mentally ill for no reason.

I’m not fighting anyone in the comments or rbs so don’t even try because i am DONE with these shitheads , i am honestly only saying this for my followers so know if you try to argue with me i’ll delete your comment

[zanukavat]

it’s morty headcanon time! go go go

YIPPEE MORTY MY LITTLE GUY

- this kid has audhd!!!!!!!!!!its written all over him, neurodivergent little guy. im sure he gets it from rick but hell no one in this family is NT and jerry is like. passing but the fucker is so autistic too lets be honest

- horrible sleeping habits. he gets up a lot at night, wanders around the house. walks down to the kitchen. if someone spots him, he'll just say he was thirsty and needed to grab a glass of water or something. has trouble falling asleep to the point where dr wong advised him to try sleeping meds, but he never followed up on it

usually he'll just stay up listening to music or videos on his phone until he passes out, then sleep in very late on the weekends unless rick drags him out of bed. in a way, rick gives him a somewhat better sleep schedule by forcing him to wake up lol

- has a lot of "staring off into space" / zoning out moments, except when talking to rick. usually being around rick will help him focus, because he talks in a way that morty can follow and make sense of most of the time. even when he blabbers about something drunkenly.

- music to help him focus! i know this is canon, but i relate to that a lot. always having music playing to give your brain that baseline of occupation but not too much. adhd having ass

- i think he was really interested in what the citadel has to offer back in s1 - s2-ish. sure, hes a curious kid in general, but i think he wouldve loved to take some sort of vacation on the citadel to see what life is like on there. rick never wouldve agreed but the thought was there

- speaking of curiosity, morty is such a quick learner imo. he gets talked down to for being slower than his peers but thats because he just works differently, and rick knows this!

as i mentioned before, i think morty picks up languages fast and is able to understand common words and phrases from many common alien languages that he hears a lot. in general i think he is more gifted in arts and crafts, language and interpersonal skills rather than strict science and math. tho he is also good at math, he just needs to be nudged in the right direction!! genuinely, he has so much potential, only it isnt immediately visible to those who arent looking for it and so they write him off as slow or stupid. which just isnt fair, hes such a clever kid </3

[kittydoodle]

i just wanna talk a little bit about my art journey the past few years, about my mental health related to it, and about my recently rediscovered joy in art. this doesnt have any real point, id just like to share (under the cut because its pretty long lol)

for a very long time, like several years, i was deeply unmotivated and uninspired to make any art. getting out of high school and eventually quitting my first job, i just felt really depressed, and with undiagnosed psoriatic arthritis putting me in worse and worse pain every day, i was lucky if i could even physically sit down and get a doodle out.

i also held myself to secret unsaid rules about how to create my art. no starting a piece unless i intend to finish it in the same day. no creating anything that isnt fully colored and polished. no making anything that doesnt have perfect lines or proportions im perfectly satisfied with. it stunted my self expression, it took all the joy out of making my art, and it made me upset because i believed i was somehow losing my passion for making art.

i sincerely believed i was growing out of my desire to draw, forever. i was distraught and grieving. i couldnt even draw things i was excited to, i would think to myself, "wow! id love to draw this idea!" and then id sit down and think about how id have to finish a full, perfect piece, and id immediately lose my motivation. so all id ever make were full, finished pieces every once in awhile, and i was still deeply unsatisfied with them.

however, in the past 6 months or so, a few things have come together that have really restored my excitement for creating art

first, (DISCLAIMER: this is not advice! dont follow my example!) i quit my adhd meds. yes, really. i was suddenly out of them for a couple weeks and in those couple weeks i realized i felt better than i had in years, and, ironically, it was way easier for my to do chores without it. the only thing i can really think of to explain it is that i was on a stimulant medication for a very, very long time, like most of my working memory ive been on them. i guess after so long it stopped working the way it should to due to tolerance buildup and was just bogging me down instead of stimulating me.

second, i doodle, i sketch, i make quick drawings i have no intention of finishing. i allow myself not to finish or perfect a piece. i even draw random ideas i wont do anything else with, just for fun. at the advice of a few friends, i have forcefully practiced letting myself get messy and unrefined with my art so that its less intimidating, and to my surprise it actually worked.

third, i started arthritis meds and i listen to my body way better now so i can avoid inflaming and injuring myself, which makes it a lot easier to draw without pain! i even do stretches! im still working on fully effective treatment for my pain, but im doing at least a little better

i dont really know where im going with this tbh... for anyone who has followed me for a long time, uve seen this blog get quiet with little to no art posts for months and months at a time for the past few years, so i hope u are excited to see me posting more frequently again! i missed it! i hope u enjoy me now as much as im enjoying me!

im happy to be creating again and i hope i can keep my passion going! im happier now than i have been in an extremely long time, and im excited to show everyone the things ive been creating more often

umm thats all i guess! if u read this far ummmm One Big Kissaroo From Me To You okay 🩷🩷🩷 MWAH

[terraliensvent]

I’m not defending the anon you’re all dogpiling, but it is an extremely chronically online take to say that 19 and 16 is a “weird” age gap for serious conversations. The trauma dumping should not have happened, and it is the older person’s responsibility to cope with their issues themselves… But sometimes we blurt things out when we’re not in a healthy state of mind. I’m sure a lot of us can say that we’ve unintentionally trauma dumped on someone before when they come to us and ask “hey are you doing okay? do you wanna talk about it?” and we just let the floodgates open.

Maybe I’m just being too sympathetic as someone who’s been in a dark place and has spewed my trauma on friends who try to comfort me. But I guess the difference is that gin needs to acknowledge that they can’t just continuously vent their life issues on some stranger on the internet. Having a support group is good, but you never know when someone you think is your friend will screenshot all your DMs with them and then post them online, right? lol

In all seriousness, I genuinely hope that gin wakes up one day and realizes that they NEED to just take a step back from social media and work out their problems offline. This is not healthy and they seem to just be prone to drama. I think both sides of this argument have their good and bad takes. The 16 y.o probably shouldn’t have publicized this in a whole document, and gin obviously should not have dumped their life problems onto them.

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thats why i said IN MY OPINION, it is weird. it is their responsibility to check who theyre talking to, and if it were hypothetically a more egregious gap, like for example 23 and 16, it would still be weird to me for them to use the younger person as a crutch. im not even saying you cant do small vents to your minor friends, this post put it pretty well and its one thing to say "yeah im just having a tough time right now," vs "hey are you ok?" "yeah i just stopped taking my meds and im coping with alcoholism," its also an issue to me that veal seemingly had to manage civ to the point of making sure they go to class and do their morning routine, and when veal was offline for an hour civ spammed them.

having a bad mental state can be an explanation for clouded judgement, but i think its still the responsibility of the older person to make sure theyre staying in line (and if they dont, to properly acknowledge the behavior was wrong, NOT defend it and act like it wasnt a big deal)

theres also the discrepancy that, to my knowledge, civ and veal barely knew each other. the doc says they only met around the terra revolution in April, which means they'd only have been online friends for around 5 months at that point. being online friends with someone is a LOT different than being irls, and it is a lot to dump on someone out of the blue, especially someone who's only in high school.

i do agree though, civ severely needs to get offline, seek professional help, and build a support system irl. the way these issues just pop up continually shows a trend that maybe being so online isnt good for them

[hekkoto]

Friend! :D would you like to pet this lil bby? ^^ I definetelly do [poor insects and animals I find, Im always petting them >XD even if its some spider, moth or frog ;D] Hi darklings, here I come with another update! Sorry you had to wait, I wanted to manage to do everything before saying more ;p so, I got my meds for ADHD! I hope it will help me focus more on arts and such ^^ honestly just after one pill I can say its better! I have lowest dose right now as Im just starting but I have appointment in like 2 or 3 weeks and we will talk if Im feeling fine and if its enough for me. I guess I will be getting higher dose and I really hope it can change my life. Honestly, for now I can say it will – I have 0 side effects and even this small dose help me think more clearly. Maybe I will be able to finally do stuff? ;p there is some issue with aviablity of this med but when I will be taking them regularly I will be able to plan how I gonna get it [huge thanks to my husband's friend help who bought it cause only pharmacy which had it was on the other side of Warsaw >XD] Oh btw, Im getting a lot of financial support from my parents so I can go on therapy also my fridge isnt empty ;p Im super grateful for how supportive they are, they are really trying help me as much as possible <3 its really making things easier as I dont need to worry so much for surviving ;D hopefully I will be able to be more chill thanks to it, financial struggles were really fucking up my head I plan to go back to regular posting stuff, both arts and videos; first I gonna finish everything commissions and Patreon print/mail related so just a few days and I will finish this all ^^ I really much catch up on stuff! Im feeling really good, its such nice feeling to not feel like shit ;p wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate <3

[scaredgirlsilly]

big vent sorry lksdfjsk

when one of my friends watched i saw the tv glow (hi duna ::3 )her reaction was "thank god i transitioned" and like. thats so real klsjhfjks but i think. idk i think even tho i transitioned i. i still feel like im doing what the main character did in istvg yk. like pre transition feels lifetimes away, to the point that its hard to think of that as me at all, so rlly it feels like my life has just been the past 2 or 3 years after transitioning. and what have i been doing in the past 2-3 years?? fucking Nothing. laying in bed rotting. sometimes i make new friends but i tend to lose them. some i dont which im grateful for but im not very good at keeping friends so. who knows,, but all of them are so far away that they. kinda dont feel real. or yk. not as real as like. people i can touch and hug yk. i dont go out of my house except to go to the pharmacy to get my hrt meds or to go to a friends house once every like. several months ad even that is happening less frequently. it doesnt feel like im apart of the world. like i simply do not live in the society everyone else lives in. i walk through the world like a ghost, no one to recognize me, only seeing me when they have to. it genuinely feels like some day in the not too distant future im just gonna. fizzle out. dissapear without a trace or care and the world will move on like nothing happened. and i know logically that isnt true. but. idk. logic can only get you so far. and there are steps i can take to hopefully work myself out of it. to try and worm my way into the minds of other people around me. i could get a job, learn to drive, meet people around me, but it all just feels so. daunting. like its all just too much. like im not made to do all of those things. im just made to be some specter in your computer who says jokes no one laughs at and talks to herself until i lose the will to keep my corporeal form together and evaporate. i didnt like being a boy but the memories arent all tainted because in school at least i was real. now im some. shadow of a person, knowing a light is gonna shine on me and banish me to wherever shadows go, just waiting for it to happen. i rlly lost my train of thought anyways klsjfhgjks like. its odd being this young and also literally i already transitioned but i still. idk. relate to that movie alot,,,,,,,, i need something drastic to happen (positive dw not anything bad like i need to meet new people LKHDSGLKJ)

[pienhime]

ive finally gone full on hater mode on my roommate it seems bc even my bestie and my mom are like "u might be being a hater here"

but maybe its bc of my chronic illness + frequent injuries but like. a dislocated knee isnt a good reason to quit a job before orientation right?? its waitressing. ur fine. just rest and take steroids and tylenol and have a drs note say u can sit when needed.

i said "everyones worked w a dislocated something before, grow up" but i. have been told that isnt true

im only so sensitive to this bc his parents fund his constant goings to festivals and expensive shit but he tries to relate to me when i had to fucking skip meals for nearly two months to be able to go to disney w friends and STILL it wasnt enough, often have to choose between meds and food, and yet he constantly asks me to buy him shit and drive him places like he doesnt have his own car and money. and hes been unemployed for months. and kept turning down jobs bc the didnt fit w his imaginary (nonexistent) schedule. and he finally took up a job offer (50 minutes away btw) only to the next day be like... hm i think ill quit my knee is dislocated. BROTHER‼️‼️ THIS IS WHY UR PARENTS DONT FW U‼️‼️‼️

anyways im probably just being a spiteful bitch but i just needed to rant ab it

[caffeinatedopossum]

AH! Okay Im reading the Book of Joy by the Dalai Lama and Archbishop Desmond Tutu. The Dalai Lama was asked how he could experience joy when he had so much stuff thats happened to him and he said, based on a practice from another teacher, basically it was if you cant do anything, why worry, and if you can, why be worried? In other words ofc but thats a phrase we use a lot, isnt it?

But then he talked about being exiled and all his people who are suffering from it, too. If he looked at just that he would be really worried, but if he looked at how the muslims are also struggling and the people in China? He can unite his suffering with theirs and not be so worried. Like, he can see we are all human brothers and sisters suffering together (not comparing pains and saying his is less than or anything). Which I guess means he cant do anything with worry on that scale except be responsible for his joy and mental state. (And point to ignore, since western ideals is that if youre not worried then you must not be doing anything, it doesnt mean that at all. Hate that bit of propaganda, i swear).

How do you think this works? And what it means? And how to apply it to other situations, like being disabled or having been hurt by another in the past or something. I really like the idea but my brain is giving me an error warning. Though buddhism is one of those things you just vibe with and cant think about lol

Oo! First of all, I love thought-provoking things like this so thank you c: also hope you're doing well!

I think the simplest way I've heard it put is "pain shared is halved, joy shared is doubled" so even when we or people around us are suffering from things outside our control, the simple ability to connect with or relate to each other is really powerful.

On that same note, though, I don't think happiness/contentedness is something we have complete control over. I mean, it'd be a little weird if I did, as someone who was miserable until I got the right antidepressants recently. I always used to feel like I was just doing something wrong, like there was something I was missing if I couldn't make myself happy or okay. But then I got these meds, and it was like a switch was flipped, and suddenly everything was just okay.

I think ultimately this concept is about acceptance and connection - like accepting what you can't control and taking comfort in the unity of pain. With being disabled, I guess what that means for me is just reminding myself that this could happen to anyone (and it does happen to others) and that even though my pain and limitations may be of a different nature or intensity than most people I see day-to-day, that doesn't mean we don't have anything in common. We both still have felt pain, no matter what. That's just a part of life everyone can relate to.

[magnoliamyrrh]

i find the whole conversation around self-dxing to be interesting too because while self-dxing can indeed be dangerous and bad, on the other hand i am also quite anti-psychiatry, if youve got something youve obviously got it without a diagnosis, and getting a diagnosis can be hard af

like idk i think way too many ppl push this "go get therapy go get professional help and evaluation!!!" thing all the time. as if many therapists and psychs arent stupid af, as if they cant be wrong, as if they cant further traumatize someone, as if they can't be smart and kind ppl but Still get things wrong. and as if the entire psych system for the most part isnt fucked in manyyy ways...... like... yea, if you can and find a good one go i guess depending on circumstance... but you better take everything they say with a grain of salt too, wtf

.... yes teenagers and in general young ppl self diagnoing themselves with 2000 things is harmful. they may be doing it either for attention, because its cool and trendy, bc theyve actually got histrionic or mauchausens, bc theyre pathologizing normal human reactions, or bc theyve not done enough actual research and went off of articles which explain things in such a way that frankly most humans would relate. or they may confuse disorders among each other, or they may not be pragmatic enough abt it. yes this is a huge issue. weve got 20000 teenagers and young adults and even some adults running around saying theyve got turrets or did or autism or bpd or ocd or whatever the hell is trendy. psych wards for symptoms and conditions (which are themselves often imperfect) have been watered down to an extreme and are thrown around. therapy talk is being used to make excuses for behavior which should not be excused

...... at the same time. yea self diagnosis isnt inherently harmful all the time. the ppl who say otherwise and are 2000% certain only docs can tell u shit arent skeptical enough of docs. with some things its obvious. i didnt need any doctor to tell me i had anorexia nervosa or bulimia lmaoooo that shit was obvious and clear as day. i didnt need to be told i had bpd, i caught on at a young age i had it, and bc i neither could go to therapy nor wanted to, i spend years understanding that disorder on every which side and way and recovering from it myself. it saved my life. i dont even wanna know how bad things would have been if i didnt accept i had that and understood it - and yea, i didnt need no doctor to tell me to know. and low and behold, docs agree i used to have bpd, still hsve some symptoms, but have mostly recovered from it. funnily enough i caught onto having some sort of osdd/did years ago, than denied it completely to myself for years, than i couldnt ignore it and deny it anymore. ended up getting a diagnosis for that too. :/ i figured i had adhd for years on end but docs either thought it was something else or i wouldn't bring it up much. low and behold i have a diagnosis and the high doses of adhd meds i can handle without feeling st all "drugged out" are proof that i do actually have adhd

if anything lmaoo i have personal experience with having a crazy psych. a woman who mistook cptsd&osdd/did for bipolar disorder, gave me drugs literally illegally which ate at my body and told me not to tell anyone, and also yelled at me that i was crazy. had a therapist who thinks being molested makes ppl homosexual and that step-parent sexual attraction is normal on some level.....;;;; like;;;;;;..... yea. the psychs and therapists arent some sort of final say people. they can be crazy and they can be wrong

and the idea that Inherently someone with bpd, or did/osdd or whatever else Cant Know of their disorder before being told (tho the latter was actually suggested to me many yrs ago by someone) is just. wrong and harmful frankly. yea in some cases pls dont know, or theyre in extreme denial (like with anorexia). but not with all. not with all. 👀 my psychs found it surprising how self aware i was, impressive, but they did not think this was some sort of disqualification

idk. yea. like. theres definetely issues around self-dex especially in the hell were living today but acting like its Always Inherently Bad and Will Never Help and docs are some sort of authority who are the only ones with some say... ,,,, yeaaaa. no. that's also dangerous