#like what if I fail *sobs*

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

[hella1975]

noah kahan really said growing up in a small, bitter hometown is about the rage and the hatred that's been sung about many times before but it's also about love and devotion and the 'all three of us were drowning and we didn't know how to save each other but there was an understanding that we were all drowning together' of it all and knowing people so intimately yet not being able to help anyone and he's morally grey at best in a lot of his songs and objectively the bad guy in others and that's just how it is and it's about substance abuse and normalised crime and teen suicide and country roads and failed exams and leaving and being left and love and hate and love and hate and love and

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

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[000marie198]

You guys ever think about Post Frontiers Sonic? Cuz I do. A lot.

[lesbianraskolnikov]

RODYA WAS A MAMAS BOY HE DID NOT HAVE MOMMY ISSUES.

You must understand he is in a situation that will make you want to bark at everyone at some point... He is already extremely isolated but combined with his own issues it can make you want to push everyone away. Not to mention he's in all this for his family. But he doesn't hate them. He doesn't want to see them because he's depressed and isolated, and he (feels that he) FAILED THEM!!! He's out here to get an education to support his family, and now he's expelled and cant manage a job and his mama is having to send over money so he can get by. Of course he doesn't want to see her or his family. He's ashamed he's DEPRESSED.

Any moment he claims to hate his family is not literal. There's a lot going through his brain. He did also just kill someone. And then his family returns, so the guilt is making him insane. You forget he calls her mama/mommy. Deep down, he's child who wants to run back to mama. In my opinion. He loves her deeply.

[elegyofthemoon]

brain: can you maybe draw something nice

me:

saw this and well. you know.

[sidesteppostinghours]

having a normal time this fine morning <- is making up an au for an au

[meowmedusa]

looking at the clock and going "oh. i didn't. even realize it was past 8pm." and its not funny or cool its just unbelievably concerning

[vegaseatsass]

Just rewatched DFF ep 9 and I really do think this show is so beautifully meticulously artistically written, with themes and layers and so much thoughtful care. I trust wherever it leads, even if it doesn't lead to the places I want most in my heart (PerthNon vs. PheeTan revenge teams at crosshairs, culminating in a heartfelt brotherly reunion, lol if playfully grudging at how much they fucked up each other's plans despite having the same goals, and a Non who has moved on with someone who has life experiences similar enough to his to actually understand him, listen to him, and trust him. But most importantly A HEARTFELT BROTHERLY REUNION). It's just always fun to watch a show where you can expect to be surprised, you can expect to be angry at the characters, you can expect to not get what you want, and you can still expect to appreciate the writing and enjoy the experience. Love to let the story seduce me you see

[ansy-tea]

Y'all ever stopped listening to your favorite bands for about 2 years for reasons you don't even know yourself. Maybe it's because you're busy. Maybe it's because you thought you've acquired new tastes. You really don't know. But then suddenly you listened to one song of theirs again and now you're sobbing over how good the songwriting was? And now that you're not a dumb High Schooler without much experience you understand the lyrics even more?

Anyways that's me with Fall Out Boy right now lmao. It's high time I listen to their new album later.

[activesplooger]

are you ever j like so busy and stressed that you just wanna collapse on ur bed and die? bc same

[sharkjumpers]

aughhhh (clutches my cursed eye.)

[mondaymelon]

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNN.

ur wanderer theme made me remember this <3333 i know u r downbad, blushing, screaming, dying, choking af rn ur welcome for the wanderer fanservice 😋😋

lily what happened. lily please i thought. i thought. i thought we were friends lily.

did i do something wrong. did i do something to upset you ? for what reason have you decided to... uhm... put these lovely things in my inbox?

listen lily. its not too late to repent. its not too late to acknowledge your sins and turn back from this horrid path youre walking on.

all... all i forsee... is your terrible, terrible, misfortune.,.

ooOOoOooo ghost noises OoOOoOoOoOoOoOo

[rustystars]

s1 of true detective has its own share of misogyny but at the very least, there’s a thread throughout it that not treating the women in your life with respect leads to those women not wanting to be around you. marty consistently views women & girls as either in need of protection or in want of sex rather than as complex people, & the story punishes him for this. maggie leaves him & his daughters barely talk to him & his girlfriends are few & far between. & this doesn’t make him a bad person! he’s the hero of the story & he cares incredibly deeply about them, but until he sees them as people, it’s hard for them to want to be around him. it’s a baseline understanding that misogyny, both systematically & on personal levels, leads to women being miserable.

compare that with s2, which somewhat builds itself around conversations of sexual agency & exploitation, but cannot define a single woman outside of her relationship to men. women are abused by men & must be saved by them; when women help themselves they do so ineffectively; they scream & cry & fuck & even then men know how to do it better. even ani, the main character & the Strong Badass Woman detective, is punished for having sex. she cannot protect herself or process her own sexual trauma (only men can help her do that), & she cannot make good decisions in terms of partners (& it's only fair that men degrade & shame her in response.) the only way she, & any other woman in s2, can be happy is through marriage or motherhood. she expresses nowhere in the show that she wants to be a mother, but the viewer is meant to accept her ending as happy, because she has a baby, so she MUST be. the only women who matter, or who can find any sort of contentment, are the mothers of sons. every child in s2 is a boy because women exist only to raise or fuck them, & have no experience of girlhood at all. you can be happy only if you find a good man, & if you can't, only if you commit yourself to being a good mother to your sons. women can only be happy with men to guide them. & also the mystery is boring to watch because fuck you

[microfeelings]

I finished reading Dungeon Meshi in a week...

[inspector-montoya-fox]

Lol