#like i think if he thought about it for even a moment hed realize oh

[broareweabouttoviberightnow]

in case u were curious I will never actually be shutting up about the dynamic between Pony n Steve BC I think Steve has an instinct in him to hit below the belt when he feels threatened, to hurt when he means to be gentle, to put up his fists when he means to put them down. n pony is, well, a bitch. he is desperately coddled by one brother n parented by the other n has the type of mean streak only a 14-year-old can. There's a sort of restless energy in them they can only unlearn by taking out on each other sometimes. n maybe its not HEALTHY but man it works

[mindless-existence1]

Shadow x fem or gn reader thats sonic’s sibling but they don’t mention it until they get together, how would Shadow and Sonic react? Thought this idea was funny (oneshot)

Idk if ur requests are open, but take your time !

I didn't realize I finished this so I was scrolling through my writing app and found it finished and girl I was shocked. Sorry it's gone so long without being posted 😅😅

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Shadow wasn’t the type to meet many people unless it was absolutely necessary. So when you brought up introducing him to your brother, he raised an eyebrow but didn’t argue, hed do anything if you said it nice enough.

The two of you had yet to start officially dating, you wanted to wait untill he at least knew your family. You spent nearly every day together, and it was clear to anyone with eyes that there was something deeper than friendship between you.

Still, you hadn’t exactly told Shadow everything about yourself. Not because you were hiding anything—far from it—but because, well, some details just never seemed relevant. Like the fact that your brother was none other than Sonic the Hedgehog.

You didn’t think much of it. Shadow never really talked about Sonic, and you didn’t bring him up often either. It wasn’t until you arranged for the two of them to meet at a local café that you realized the glaring oversight in your plan.

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You arrived first with Shadow, finding a cozy table in the corner of the café. He sat next to you, arms crossed, his usual stoic demeanor firmly in place. “So, your brother,” Shadow said, glancing at you. “What’s he like?”

You smiled. “Oh, he’s great. Kind of cocky sometimes, but he’s got a good heart. You’ll like him.” Shadow raised an eyebrow at that, but before he could respond, the door jingled, and you turned to see Sonic stroll in, his signature confident grin plastered across his face.

“Hey, there you are!” Sonic called out, making his way over to your table. His eyes flicked to Shadow, and his grin faltered slightly. “Oh. It’s you.” Shadow’s expression darkened immediately. “Of course. It’s you.”

You blinked, looking between the two of them. “Wait... you two know each other?” Sonic chuckled dryly, crossing his arms. “Know each other? Yeah, you could say that. Shadow and I have a bit of... history.”

Shadow scoffed, glaring at Sonic. “History? Is that what we’re calling it now? I’d call it a series of your insufferable antics.”

“Insufferable? Please,” Sonic shot back, smirking. “You’re just mad because I’m better and you're supposed to be "the ultimate lifeform".” Your mouth fell open as the two of them glared at each other, the tension thick enough to cut with a knife.

“Okay, hold on,” you said, holding up your hands. “I feel like I’m missing something here. How do you two even know each other?” Sonic blinked, glancing at you. “Wait... you’re telling me you never mentioned me to him?”

“I didn’t think it was important!” you said defensively. “Why, exactly, is this such a big deal?” Shadow narrowed his eyes at Sonic. “You didn’t tell me your brother was him.”

“Well, you didn’t tell me you hated my brother!” you shot back, exasperated.Sonic snorted. “Hate’s a strong word. It’s more like... mild irritation.”

“Mutual disdain,” Shadow corrected, his tone dry.You groaned, rubbing your temples. “Okay, look. Can we all just... start over? Shadow, this is my brother, Sonic. Sonic, this is Shadow. He’s... someone very important to me.”

Sonic’s eyebrows shot up, and a sly grin spread across his face. “Oh, very important, huh? Didn’t realize you had a thing for dark and broody hedgehogs.”

“Don’t start,” you warned, shooting him a glare. Shadow, for his part, simply crossed his arms and leaned back in his chair. You shush himbefore he can let out the remark you could sense about to come from him, “You two are going to get along if it kills me. Sonic, stop being a smartass. Shadow, stop being... you.”

The two of them exchanged a glance, and for a moment, it seemed like they might actually listen.Then Sonic grinned again. “Fine. But only because I like you more than I dislike him.”

Shadow sighed, his expression softening slightly as he looked at you. “I’ll tolerate this... for you.” You rolled your eyes but couldn’t help the small smile tugging at your lips. It was going to take some time, but you had a feeling that, eventually, these two might just get along—or at least not fight on sight every time they were in the same room.

[howlsofbloodhounds]

headcanon that the thing that draws killer to color first is color's six souls situation. he wants to experiment on them so badly, but can never get to beat color so he goes plan b: pretend to befriend color then backstab him later. fortunately the plan backfires and the rest is history :)

also, i do wonder if killer has ever offered color to absorb his red soul. like, is killer's soul human enough? would color become a god after absorbing killer's soul? i think that would be a conversation color has to steer away, but killer can't stop his curiosity and self-destructive hypothesizing. color can become a god. color will be invincible. color can finally be safe like that. and like, maybe if color absorbs killer's soul, killer can finally communicate with the six souls and realize the horrors of raising six semi-children in your head as a single parent.

~ crowshipping anon

crow, how I’ve missed you. you and delta anon are the backbones of this blog btw.

And I absolutely adore the idea of how it started being that killer wanted to experiment on him lmao. Especially if its like “if this guys gonna keep lingering around, might as well make him useful,” and then he just keeps getting his ass beat over and over.

And then he decides to just go the friend route, play along and pretend he’s listening to the “bullshit” Color’s spewing, but color’s actually being genuinely nice. like, genuinely? hes not even trying to make killer stop or change, just firmly setting boundaries and redirecting killer’s curiosity on to something less destructive. and now, oh no, he likes him. hes fascinating.

and i think killer proposing the idea of color absorbing his soul even once is interesting, even if indirectly and possibly during one of his more self destructive or paranoid moments. perhaps if something happens that threatened colors life or somehow caused him to be hurt, or if something is just making killer think about them being separated. perhaps stage 1’s insecurity or just nightmares.

probably proposed it something like, “what if we became one” and color makes a light joke like “that would be awful, this heads already so full, dont you dislike children?” and then killer keeps going on with his line of thought. how color would be a god basically, how they’d be together, how maybe killers soul could help be a source of further power for color.

how hed be safe. killers soul is strong enough to rewrite entire timelines. color wouldn’t even have to worry about death.

of course killer may phrase it as something along the lines of how itd make color more powerful whenever he voices it, but color doesn’t care for more power and they both know that and color knows that he knows. color can read between the lines and killer knows that, too.

maybe this is even just killers way of expressing or wondering about how much closer they could get it, how much more there is to understand.

maybe killer less wants to know about colors souls now and more that he wants to know the souls because he wants to know color. maybe he wants to know everything he can learn about him; learn everything he can.

idk just the idea of killer being so intensely fascinated with and curious about color tickles me—something about it becomes less like scientific curiosity and more now that extremely rare desire to connect with someone. because color makes him feel understood and for the first time he feels safe being understood.

and perhaps if/when he becomes more aware of that, the intensity, is enough to cause killer to withdraw emotionally from color for a bit; even if he can’t stop mulling it over in his mind. maybe he even thinks if color absorbs his soul, then he’ll never lose access to that hope and happiness again. theres no threat of it. perhaps becoming a little lost in his fantasy for a bit.

[z0mb1epuzzy]

hii again (i sent the josh/chris with a nipple peircing request teehee, i absolutely LOVED what you did with it holyyy)

i was wondering about your thoughts on our characters with a size difference/kink? particularly with a shorter reader? (although mike with a taller reader actually makes me CRUMBLEEE because holy god, he'd be so whipped) also i apologize because none of my asks are likely to be completely gender neutral, i unconsciously write reader inserts as feminine unfortunately 😭

but in particular, mike and chris (chris hyperfixation been hitting hard because of you. it's all your fault, i say with heart eyes)

i wasnt positive if youd already done this, but i thought id ask just in casee

i imagine mike being cocky about it, but not too outwardly. he would more-so just tease you about it, but he makes sure to be gentle as well. hed think its just soooo cute when youre pressed up with your back against his chest, struggling to take just two of his fingers inside of you, you huffing a "fucking hell" in pitiful anger as you curse your genes under your breath, wanting him to just fuck you already. hed chuckle breathily into your neck, kissing the soft skin under your ear sweetly. "you know how this goes, hon. we need to get you all ready for me.. wouldnt want you to get hurt, now would we?"

chris, im a bit more uncertain how he would feel about it. i cant remember how tall he is off the top of my head, but he's taller than mike in game, isnt he? i feel like hes definitely used to people being noticeably shorter than him, almost all his friends are (if not all of them), so he's not usually very surprised when he encounters someone shorter than him. but then he meets you, standing at an almost sad 5'1", and he is WHIPPED. not even sexually, he just wants to hold you. you're like the perfect size for him to spoon and hold, and oh god- have in his lap. he would definitely, when hes sitting, pull you straight onto his thighs at any given moment - with absolutely no struggle, might i add. (i live for beefy!chris)

OMG, and do NOTTT even get me started on sex. he is basically using you to get off. after youve finally taken him inch by inch and gotten comfortable, as soon as he's close to finishing, he's gripping your hips, grinding and slamming you against him like his own personal fleshlight. he really didnt mean to be so rough. he apologizes for it after the fact, of course he does, because he really didnt mean to, you just felt so good and tight around him, and he just lost his resolve... i feel like hed forget his own strength sometimes? leaving bruises occasionally from accidentally gripping your hips too hard, or at least he gets close to it. hes just not used to having someone so much smaller than him. youre like a tiny teddy bear.

- 🙀

HELLO ANON OMG??? we’re gonna kiss rn bc… i am also a size kink enjoyer… i love me a big man!!!!! also it’s okay if ur asks aren’t gender neutral! i am afab myself so i totally get how u can lean a certain way without realizing!! i don’t mind :3

heehee now for the sauce i am so hype for this currently…

for this, i’m gonna focus on the smaller reader x bigger mike/chris, but if any tall babes want me to elaborate for them, i 100% can you beautiful gorgeous lengthy creatures you…

mike!! absolutely reads as a man who would (not subtly) have a size kink!!

if you’re shorter/smaller than him, it makes him feel so strong, definitely an ego boost.. watching you struggle to take him? your little hands on his body?? HELLO??!!?!!!

and even if you’re taller/bigger than mike, that’s a still a total ego boost if you let him dom you… watching someone who’s physically capable or possibly assertive totally crumble for him? LORT!

.

it’s so hot to me when a big ol man is so teasing about his physical advantage, but also gentle with you to make sure you’re okay… Mike is one of those guys, he’s a perfect mix of teasing and gentle, like his words make you expect he’s gonna be rough, but he genuinely does take care to not hurt you!! it’s cute to him when you get all whiny, his big hands on your body, one helping to stretch you a little… y’know, to make it a little more comfortable! it makes him wanna cave a little, hearing you beg sooo sweetly, but he’s gonna make you wait! it’s for your own good♥️

and chris.. drools..

chris wouldn’t realize he has a size kink necessarily.. it’s normal to like how big your hands look on your partner’s, isn’t it? doesn’t everyone feel a little extra riled up at the idea of their partner needing a lil extra foreplay to take them?

so he wouldn’t openly acknowledge it as a kink, but it absolutely is, without a doubt. just imagine… chris’s big hands squeezing your hips and thighs, basically throwing you around like a little ragdoll… bc i AGREE! chris is a strong guy who doesn’t recognize his strength sometimes, he’s just too eager to please!!?! his grip on your hips tighter than he intended, leaving little purple splotches where his fingertips had been before… UGHH!!

[vanillablankcanvas]

The night of the Battle of the Bands.

Everyone is preparing backstage.

Cider was changing things last minute and rattling everyone.

“Steel, you're playing the Sensitive set.”

“Floyd's Songs? You said we could do our songs tonight?”

“And now I'm saying you're playing the Sensitive set. It's not that hard of a request, Steel. Sheesh. Don't make me say it again.”

Steel death glared Cider as he disappeared from backstage.

Much to his brother's dismay, Floyd offered help to those on the opposing team.

Cider had apparently told the drummer of Head Lice to quote “Smile more, you look prettier that way.”

Hed and Les were also having issues with outfits that Cider had told them to wear.

Apparently the outfits ‘appealed to the audience more’ but it made them uncomfortable and it felt like they were purposely being hidden behind the looks.

Floyd stepped in to help the band prevent Liv from ripping Cider to shreds and also offered some encouraging advice about their clothes. “In the end, Cider wants you to perform at your best. Wear what you think will help you do that.”

Floyd offered words and assistance to Four The Madlads who were having similar issues. Everyone had been discouraged from their usual onstage quirks and flourishes.

Floyd had put two and two together and found that apparently everyone had been told off by Cider, except the members who were Rock Trolls.

Floyd helped as much as he could in the moment but could tell from their faces that they were apprehensive about going against what Cider had told them to do.

Floyd even helped Steel with his equipment.

“I thought you would’ve figured this stuff out by now, huh Steel?” Floyd tried to joke.

Steel grunted in response and snatched the guitar back from Floyd.

“Don't let Cider get to you. He's not worth the energy.”

“I owe him everything.”

“That doesn't mean he gets to control you.”

“He doesn't control me!” Steel growled.

Floyd sighed in defeat and started to walk away.

“Hey!” Steel shouted.

“What?”

“Did he… control you?”

“Every chance he got. I didn't even realize what he was doing till it was too late.”

Steel goes quiet as if thinking those words over.

Floyd turned to leave but stopped.

“Oh.. Steel?”

“What?”

Floyd smirked, “Don't be gentle.”

Steel snort laughed “You know I never am.”

In the background.

Otto frustratedly complained to noone in particular as he did his makeup. “Dafuq? We're all about to go on! What could possibly be more important that Cider's decided to disappear NOW?!”

@felsicveins @zivazivc wonderful characters ❤️

Where did Cider go? 🫨

[6sixx6sexual6]

|DATING MICHAEL MONROE|

I HAVEN'T WRITTEN IN SO LONG AND I DONT KNOW HOW MANY MORE “writings coming soon” I CAN GET AWAY WITH LMAOO IM SORRY💔

ONCE AGAIN WRITING FOR SOMEONE NEW. I NEVER SEE ANY FICS OF HANOI ROCKS. I'LL PROBABLY DO A PART 2 WITH MORE DETAILS BC I THINK MICHAEL WOULD BE SUCH A FUN BOYFRIEND AND HES SO SWEET. MAYBE NSFW AT SOME POINT..

word count: 1,199

warnings: alcohol, drugs, razzles death, and cuteness.

Definitely calls you “love”, “my love” maybe “lovie”, “sweetheart” sometimes “baby” or maybe like a little inside joke name thats still cute.

so he wrote a little bit of the songs but Andy wrote most of them because he thought he wrote better stuff, but I feel like Michael would write a line in a song about you.

but like something funny like how you put your jacket on wrong onetime or something like that.

if andy didn't like it Michael would say he wouldn't do the song unless this one line was in there

HE FIGHTS FOR YOU❤❤

your number one supporter and the spirit of a hyper puppy who loves affection can be a lot and most can't keep up with him but you can and he loves it, so he's very patient with you.also super forgiving (obviously.. cough. vince.) 

honestly I think it would take a lot for him to actually be upset or mad at you.

actually if anything I think he gets more upset and rarely madlike, he wouldn't be upset if you forgot that you had reservations at a restaurant.

it'd but him out a little but you can make it up by hanging out at home or something.

but he would have to trust you a lot to not walk all over him because he knows hes so forgiving and sweet.

he knows hes a gem lol

he loves that you don't mind that he's so flamboyant and flashy and stuff or that you don't comment on his weight.

I remember him saying in an interview he actually kinda liked when people would point out that he was so skinny because he got to be all like “oh yeah? you got a problem with me being so skinny?”

but he gets it if you're concerned about him. I think he worked out.

lots of sas. and attitude. 

he thanks you for putting up with his sas and stuff because he doesn't really realize he has a smart mouth sometimes.

that and also his body movements. hes a diva.

you probably have sas-offs.

you two just sit there and have your hands on your hips and moving around pretty much going back and forth. he always ends up winning because hes so quick with what to say haha.

you wanna do his makeup? yeah! he wants to do your makeup? yeah!

probably has more makeup than you.

and if you carry around a makeup bag in your purse (or like me and just has it loose in my purse) hed probably have his own makeup in there.

you know what, your purse is probably his purse too lol.

mini hairspray, if you don't have a hair tie he does.

also probably has more nail polish than you. you won't even need to buy any since he has so many colors.would definitely paint your nails while you guys have deep conversation and stuff.

gets you flowers all the time for no reason. if your sick he gets you flowers. your birthday, anniversary, you're upset, on your period, hes got flowers. the ones from last week died? he has new ones.

also writes a little card for each batch just because.

you both always have something to do and there's never a dull moment. 

he plays like 5 instruments, he'll definitely try and teach you how to play the harmonica or the piano or the saxophone. or roam around the city you're staying in.

and even if you're just at home you two will talk and talk until your mouths are tired. or if you wanna just lay there together while a movie plays, he loves that too.

he does smoke weed. he likes when you two smoke together and get high. he gets all warm inside and probably has his head on your shoulder while you pass a joint back and forth.

there's time where he won't feel like himself.

he always has makeup on because it's something for him to do but sometimes, rarely, he won't do it.

usually that's when he just doesn't wanna do anything and just be with you or someone in the band but you're his first choice.

hes appreciates when you try and make him feel better by picking out something over the top for him to wear and offer to do each others makeup and it works most of the time.

he just needed that little push.

he hates when you're not being yourself and he hopes that you'll talk about it with him because if you don't, it'll bug him the whole day while trying to get you to feel better.

communication is something he absolutely needs in a relationship.

he won't force you to talk if you say you don't wanna tell him but after a day or two he'll ask you what happened again.

Michael is more of a stay in kinda guy and doesn't like to drink or anything because he doesn't want to feel sick, but if you do then he'll stay with you the whole night and make sure you don't do anything stupid.

he'll probably suggest you get more of a fruity drink than straight liquor of anything.

if you're interested in trying a drug, he'll wanna know.

he will tell you not to if its a hard drug, but something like a psychedelic is different.

hes done speed, hash, acid, coke. if you wanted to smoke hash for the first time hed try and give you pros and cons.or if you wanted to try LSD hed tell you to be careful and hed wanna be with you incase you freak out.

he holds your hair when you're hungover and throwing up and already has medicine and water ready.

if you're dating after razzle died then you're pretty much the only thing keeping him from doing anything stupid and keeping his head level.

he knows that life will get better but he also felt like he shouldn't wait for it to get better.

he was a bit coked up after razzle died but you would stop him from doing it too much or doing it at all.

hed maybe try and shut you out but would regret it because he feels bad and doesn't know what he wants.he also broke his foot around the time razzle died so you would definitely help him with things he struggled to do especially him moving back to London.

hes not ashamed to cry in front of you and he definitely did cry to you. you both probably cried.

you helped him start his solo career and moved to New York with him.

he was excited to write songs by himself without andy taking over but he wouldn't forget to show you and ask what you thought of his songs.

he had you in the studio with him all the time.

also I'm gonna put this in because I think its cute. I think his concentrating face looks kinda serious. like, his mouth is closed and his eyebrows are furrowed and maybe tilts his head to the side. idk, he probably looks like that when he's trying to roll a joint

[thevalleyoftriumph]

oh my god okay. copying and pasting some of my thoughts from earlier today over to here because im not rewriting all that from memory.

these arent... ALL of my thoughts. just mild introspection about a particular scene that made me crazy insane in the head that i wrote frantically once i got home and then didnt really think too hard on. spoilers of course.

do you think for a while after the end, the sight of orions corpse haunts megatron, just for a little while? do you think he thinks about the fact that he did that, that HE killed him, does it stick with him for a bit? that he wakes up at night and all he can see is the gaping hole in orions chest that HE put there? do you think he first blames himself, then orion for being so stupid as to jump in front of that shot? does he blame sentinel, then, for the situation to begin with, and thus orions brief death, their loss of friendship? does he blame alpha trion for giving them this responsibility, giving them the freedom to choose while pinning them in unavoidable tragedy and loss? does megatron think about this At All. "im done saving you" did he really mean that? did he consider that those wouldnt be the last words hed say to his friend, or did he believe they would be and only want to hurt him, his own pain and rage and agony pushing him to hurt others, to hurt the one he cares the most about? to spread that pain to someone else, if only for a moment? do you think he dreams about letting go. do you think he regrets it. do you think.

similarly, does optimus ever think about it? was he even aware enough to realize what was going to happen to him? that d16 let him fall? do you think he even felt it past the pain of losing an arm, half his chest, damaging his spark- .. was it relief he felt, when d16 caught his hand? was it a sense of dulled calm, or a dim and frantic panic, seeing his friend so upset? do you think he realized, in the moments with d16s head bowed, that he made the choice to drop him? do you think he even heard what he said? does it haunt him like it haunts megatron? does he wake up to the feeling of falling, of burning in his chest, a phantom agony in his arm? does he scratch at his chest over the matrix, over the burning pressure it leaves, over the responsibilities he never asked for? does he dream of the hate in megatrons gaze, the way he stared at him with such unfamiliarity, with such desperate anger? does he think of what he could have done differently? does he see himself as selfish, like how megatron says he is? its his fault, after all - if hed only stayed in his lane, a nice little miner bot, pliant and obediant, would he still have his best friend with him? theyd be living a lie, sure, but at least theyd be happy together, right? maybe he blames himself for not just this, but the lives lost, the future lost, the retun of a war that destroyed their planet.

do you think he wishes, sometimes, that he stayed dead when megatron let him fall?

[kid-blinks-eyepatch]

york n graves

york yells😰

-Graves- 

Neither of us really knew what we had been fighting about, I honestly don’t think it was really anything. We were both exhausted and we’d started to argue. At some point I’d started screaming at York. I was fully aware our neighbors would be able to hear as the building wasn’t known for having thick walls. 

The only good thing was we weren’t the only couple fighting at he moment as i coil dhear our neighbors faintly.

I was screaming pretty much as loud as I could at York, who just stared at me. He spoke in a normal volume, a bit louder than usual, but nowhere even close to shouting..  

“God fucking dammit Roger!” I yelled, throwing my hands up “Are you just gonna fucking stand there?” He shrugged his shoulders, looking at me as i spat out words angrily. He sighed, rubbing his face. That just pissed me off more somehow

“What would you rather i do?” He replied in a voice dangerously close to a snarl. I threw up my hands again, at this point i was stalking back and forth, not having enough breath to let ou all the energy

“Fucking react? Not stand there like a goddamned statue!” I shouted angrily, staring at him. He had one hand on the counter, hed been standing like that pretty mich the whole time. 

“I don’t- This is me reacting” he snarled “because i cna fucking control myself unlike other people”  HE snapped angrily, gripping the countertop so hard his knuckles were white. 

“HOw the fuck is that reacting? Did your dad beat the ability to have basic human

emotions out of you? I dont even get whu you ket him hit you- you could’ve stopped him-“ the second i mentioned his dad he got a sort of shocked look on his face- almost like a kicked puppy. it slowly registered what id said to him. And then rhe shock was gone and it was pure rage. 

“Dont you ever,” he shouted at me “*ever* bring him up” He was screaming at me. he’d never done that before. 

“I-“ I tried, fighting the impulse to hide.

“dont you ever fucking act like you have the goddamn slightest idea what he was like. dont you ever try to fucking make me feel like i could’ve done something” He was so loud. I stared up at him. It hit me at that point how much bigger he was than me. And he was so loud. I felt myself start to cry, my vision blurring as hot tears squeezed out of my eyes. As he kept shouting at me i realized that i was *scared* of him. Holy fuck i was scared of my boyfriend.  I didn’t know how long he screamed at me,  all i knew was by the time he stopped, I was sobbing. He glared at me, his chest rising and falling rapidly as he breathed, before he turned and stalked to our room. I heard the door slam and i went o find a hiding spot. I managed to wiggle into the dryer and curl up inside of it, sobbing. 

He’d never yelled at me before. The more i thought about it the more i realized id never heard him shout. 

never.

not once.

Even the time Myron had inadvertently made a joke about his dad hitting him, he’d never yelled. 

he just got really quiet and he’d squeezed me tight. 

And the thing that scared me the most was that he’d never even raised his voice at me

I was sobbing uncontrollably at this point, i knew i was read and snotty from the crying at this point, but just couldn’t help it. He’d looked so *angry*. He could’ve hurt me if he wanted. He could’ve picked me up and thrown me, or even hit me. and somehow that scared me more than him shouting. His voice was so loud- so so *loud*. oh god i was so scared. I whimpered as i sobbed, trying to calm myself down. I heard the bedrom door open- the thing was squeaky as hell. i hod my face in my - well technically York’s - hoodie, shaking. I could hear him walking around. 

“Graves?” he called “Carlos?”

I hid more in the hoodie.

“Are you here?” he called. I didn’t respond, I didn’t trust myself to speak and not break down sobbing again. I took a few deep breaths. He was talking to himself now.

“god fucking dammit roger” he snarled, sounding more upset than angry.

“Carlos? are you in here?” he called. I nodded, then realized he couldn’t see me 

“y-yeah” I sniffed, trying to get out of the dryer. He walked into the laundry room and crouched in front of the dryer

“Graves?” he asked, looking at me. his face was red, but it was probably just from the shouting. oh god the *shouting*. I hid my face in his hoodie and sniffed

“how- how the fuck do you fit in the dryer?”

“I- I-“ I sniffed, my voice shaking “im tiny-“

“are you stuck?” He asked. I nodded. he held out his hand. 

“cmon doll- gimmie ya hand” I shrank back, curling up and shaking my head violently. I saw the expression on his face- he looked like a kicked puppy again. It was a weird look on him. i didn’t like it. he rubbed his face with his hands before looking bsck at me.

“Carlos- did i scare you?” he asked gently. I nodded, curling up more. he sighed, rubbing his face.

“god im- im so sorry honey” He said, looking up at me “you don’t gotta forgive me but can i at least gelp you outta the dryer?” he asked, holding out his habd again. I nodded, taking it. he tugged and after a minute or so i tumbled out of the dryer and into his lap. I knew normally he would have hugged me but he just froze. that was something I loved about him- he’d never pushed boundaries. I looked up at him and calmed down a little. this was my york. I wiped off my face with the hoodie sleeves, drawing a slight squeak from York. I nuzzled against him

“can i hug you?” he asked softly. I nodded. he held me in his lap on the floor of the laundry room.

“im so sorry i scared you” he murmured to me “and ya dont gotta be okay with it i just want ya to know im sorry” I looked up and him and kissed his chin

“its okay- qand im sorry for what i said- i shouldn’t have gone there”

 “its okay love- i know you didnt mean it” he said gently. I nuzzled him, kissing him lightly.

“is this something we talk about or something we ignore?” he asked me, kissing my head. Another thing i loved- he’d let me *set* boundaries.

“ignore?” i replied, looking up at him. he nodded, squeezing me. neither of us would forget the fight, not for a long time, if ever, bur we both knew the other didn’t mean it.

I was still a bit spooked, but this was the york i was used to. The York who’d just hold me and let me calm down and wouldn’t ask questions if i didn’t want him to. 

We’d forgive each other. Maybe not right away, but i knew we’d get over it. 

York kissed my forehead

“whaddya want for dinner love? other than dryer sheets that is” I giggled, sticking out my tongue

“its cozy”

“try claustrophobic”

“I love you Roger” 

“I love you too my little dryer sheet” 

i love these two sm they’re basically ocs at this pointy but idc they’re so cute wrote this for a friend so yall get it too

[jackienautism]

There’s something very funny about none of the other counselors having an issue with Laura wanting to kill Chris. They were like “lmao fuck that guy fr” and no one comments on it later.

LMAO IVE NEVER THOUGHT ABT THIS BEFORE

it IS extremely funny how ryan was the ONLY one opposed to laura wanting to kill chris. but at the same time. he was the only one who didn't necessarily believe laura too? so maybe it was sort of like .... everyone else (dylan kaitlyn and abi) didnt mind too much bc thheyre beginning to realize just how AWFUL the hacketts actually are? if that makes sense? bc like... remember when dylan made a comment abt the lodge being a mess and kaitlyn responded w/ something along the lines of "if half of what laura says is true, i really dont care about what mr h thinks"? it may mainly be a sense of. oh everyone believes laura, hence why theyre ok w/ her going through w/ her plan. but at the same time. its kind of hard to believe that ryan was the ONLY one who created / had some sort of relationship w/ him prior to this moment fkdgdfg but to be fair we don't rly know abt the rest of the counselors' dynamics w/ chris. so its hard to say

regardless of the explanation, it is quite funny fdgkdfg esp taken at face value. bc no one gaf abt laura's plan. abi even. stood UP for laura in that moment. soo eyah. they rly said "fuck chris hackett" huh

they mustve all atleast liked him a little though right? bc i know dylan makes a comment abt chris being cool, despite the defiance he can put up regarding charging his phone. but also. he must be SOMEWHAT be close enough to even THINK that hed be able to use one of chris' phone chargers right? and the whole "dj dylan" thing? chris letting dylan use the radio hut for his announcements, at the expense of storing chris' tools ik and all but???? hello?

im just sooo interested in this now. i know chris refers to ryan as "one of the good ones," so who are the other "good ones"? who are the other counselors chris sees as on par w/ ryan?

[soliddaddy96]

3, 4, 6, 8 for reigen :3

oh heavens the freaker ... the jerkr

3. How did your oc discover themself? Did something cause them to question, or did they always know?

i rememebr i wrote this down somewhere but 2 me he realized he was queer of some sort when he went to one of his sisters friends quinceanera and made out w the birthday girls older cousin behind the venue ... this was when he was like , a highschooler in arizona still . after this he was liek Hmm i think somethings up . he didnt act on these feelings until he was hitchhiking to jess' apartment like years later tho ..... not much else 2 think abt besides how you might be gay for your friendon the open road and such .

with his gender i think he always kindve knew , early on his dad kindve picked up on it and went "heyy y. i dont mind if you ... experiment . with your gender . yoru still my kid all the same 😁" to rei who, at the time, went "? Ok (doesnt think about this encounter until years later)". its also a main reason (2 me ) as to why connor bullied him a bit - in my brain milwaukee is a pretty ... closed minded town , so its only natural people would spread their bigotry onto their children < which is why when connor saw how rei was like "im a MAN" but (in connors mind) didnt make any "real" effort into presenting masc , he 1 thought rei was just doing it for attention and 2 sought out to "fix" him ....... < cornering him and cutting his hair along w just. General torment

4. Is your oc's environment supportive about their identity? How does this impact them?

until he was around middleschool he only really had the support of his dad < his mother being a devout catholic whereas his dad was laid back and also queer himself . after he died and they moved back to arizona rei just kindve caved in on himself and gave up on any presentation gender or sexuality wise ... until one day he felt too suffocated by it all nd went back to the one place he ever really Did feel accepted < milwaukeeeeee 😁and by extension jess nd ashe . the latter i dont know if they met later but i think their presence helps rei greatly ... nervous cheetah and emotional support dog type thang . when hes back w the gang he feels pretty comfortable w them and while he still has his moments of doubt from time to time he still feels confident that theyll never judge him (which they wouldnt thankfully). ave maria

6. How does your oc feel about labels? Theirs, or in general?

he would rather be gutted like a fish than talk about labels ... i dont think he feels all that comfortable w himself to say hes for sure gay ... and as for being trans , he keeps that shit LOCKED UP !!! very stealth with it ... even if being called a woman bothers him hed rather just take it and smile than out himself and risk being harassed . as he gets older he just stops gaf. i think hed just call ashe up randomly one day nd go "Hey .im gay." and then just hang up . theyd understand

8. Have they had struggles with their identity, be it due to internal or external reasons?

hes the prime struggler and transgender allegory ... if hes not actively repressing his feelings for guys then hes trying as hard as he can to come off as a cis guy . i think it stems from the hostile environment milwaukee generally is as well as internal stuff < after his dads passing his mom blamed his homosexuality for it and deemed him a sinner ... her side of the family also just talked shit abt him a lot 😭this diswayed rei Greatly from ever being open . even in his 20s i think despite him being more cool w being gay nd stuff hed still be a little nervous ... i dont think his anxiousness abt it would ever go away for realsies , but with time he wouldnt think abt it too much 👍

AVE MARIA can youtell i want him dead

[narwhalandchill]

kafka quest spoilers + 1.3 dhil character story leaks (just some thoughts)

ok so. blade actually spilling some really interesting stuff at the end??? im also just glad he gets that little moment to speak with us there so hes not just like. silent spirit whisper patient the entire time. its nice to see how he is in just like. normal mode. weirdo old man i just like to see him and hear him talk.

him actually staying behind to see someone on the luofu that hes 'greatly indebted to' i feel like with the dhil story 3 stuff has to be abt baiheng? dont think hed be that vague about dan heng. jing yuan no way. i guess if he means indebted in a very twisted morbid way it could be jingliu but like. how would he know shes just recently returned?

so i think baiheng makes the most sense given her self sacrifice when shuhu was attacking the luofu. real question is like. i assume blade just means where baiheng died probably? or where they attempted resurrecting her. i would guess that he doesnt know about bailus existence assuming the baiheng-bailu rly is where theyre going with that lore (which seems more and more likely). but if he does somehow know thats honestly even more interesting & id love to see that interaction

im really curious where this all is going in 1.3 tho it kinda seems like a bad omen to me that now both jingliu (who we can almost 99% presume went insane from mara post-sedition/baihengs fate) and blade have been set up to be present on the luofu on their own. when we know their history. like kafka told blade to avoid familiar faces but.... not getting a good feeling about his chances with that rn to no fault of his own. jingliu literally said shes searching for him too like this is not looking good.

then the stuff he reveals about the trailblazers history with kafka is... honestly interesting. very funny also that blade just lowkey sabotages kafkas mystery act by being like oh bitch i remember you. im not super into the kafka n trailblazer relationship so far just ambivalent but im glad the history of it is at least being set up in a fairly compelling manner & looking forward to where it goes tbh which i am surprised by

anyway

me when im in a catching Ls competition and my opponent is yanqing💀💀💀💀 GIVE THIS POOR BOY A BREAK SHDJDJFJHKH

also editing to add my foolishly late realization that like. both bailus origins and jinglius arrival are technically things blade couldve just been told by elio? with his bs 20/20 future vision. so actually the plot just thickens bc If that is the case... hmmmm. dunno how plausible it is for elio so definitely not sth im betting on but. the possibility is there

[winderlylandchime]

2/2 ‘BRIAN AND EMMETT! LOOK AT THE BEST FRIENDS. When you think about it, theyre basically the same person. (Emmett says it hasnt been his year dick wise) THIS is what im being robbed off when they don’t give me them as friends! Since when does Em know about cancer? I know for a fact that’d be a sweet moment between them and i was robbed! This is how he’s telling people? Iconic. If this was today, he’d just post it on his IG Story.’ And we are back at Mel and Mikey ‘I genuinely say this from the bottom of my heart: i hate them both. Finally lindsay has a fucking brain shes using. Unfortunately she still has a horrible haircut though’ Loretta brings Deb heart shapped dessert ‘oh rosie. My sweet Rosie *long pause and then looks at me and points to his Brian inside a heart shirt* This is literally me with Brian.’ ‘FINALLY TED MAKEOVER! I get triggered every time they say queer guy, just thought you should know. I’m so happy that Emy and Teddy are friends again’ ‘look Mike is realizing he’s an asshole. I could’ve told you that 4 seasons ago. Or episodes. The next apology and confirmation that he’s an asshole needs to be to Brian that dinner pissed me off! Who does that to a friend? Just watches while they get attacked?. I still hate him for that. BRIAN! Look at this cutie (and Ted reveal happens) TEDDY! He looks good. Wait, I need a video of Brian saying Ted is fabulous on a loop’ ‘they brought Rosie just for a little kissy kiss and that was it? Good for her. *looks at me like he just figured out all the world problems* mmm she probably had to go back to work on her show’ (she did not the show was already over at that point but he refused to believe me) Mel asks Linds if she is giving up JR bc she doesnt want to be her mother ‘girl, after how you and michael behaved? Even i dont wanna see that damn baby anymore. Now where the fuck is Gus, the real star of the show? Give him to Brian and Justin for a sleepover’ ‘mike acts like he’s got it all figured out and like he’s this grown up dude who is suddenly too good for Liberty Avenue and yet he’s a fucking idiot and a child. WHY IS HUNTER BACK ON THE STREET? What the fuck is going on with him? Why would they do that?’ AND we are at that Britin scene now ‘Blondie! Look at him drawing. Imagine if they hung out at Brians office and Blondie worked on his art and Bri was working on his shit? I should’ve been a writer on the show. God, im so happy his hair is back. BRI BRI! Okay what the fuck is going on? He doesnt wanna fuck Brian? Okay cool that’s okay. Can’t relate but to each their own, i guess but why does he look like hed rather jump off Empire State Building? He’s acting like he killed someone calm down it’s just an std it happens, what the fuck? WHAT IS GOING ON? Since when does Justin care for all this? Why is he being like this?’ Justin reveals the Rage drawings ‘WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THIS? When are you gonna stop fucking every et that moves??? NEVER? And he gave him a virus in the series? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK JUST HAPPENED? Did i hallucinate the part where Justin and him had that foursome? Or when those dudes were all over him in babylon? OR THE LA FUCKS? WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY BLONDIE? Blondie i said never change? What is this? And dont even get me started on the Rage comic. Thats fucked up, thats why he hid it from Brian cause he knows that’s fucked up. I hate this. What the fuck is going on?’ He then got up and went outside to smoke and didn’t come back for 20 minutes. And when he finally did all he said was ‘this is bullshit’ and then he left the house to go on a walk to clear his head. And when he came back he refused to talk about qaf. So the beginning of the end has officially started.

BRIAN AND EMMETT! LOOK AT THE BEST FRIENDS. When you think about it, theyre basically the same person. (Emmett says it hasnt been his year dick wise) THIS is what im being robbed off when they don’t give me them as friends!

Your brother is feeding my little KinneyCutt shaped heart. They are basically the same person, I've been saying that! Also, they're both tall.

*long pause and then looks at me and points to his Brian inside a heart shirt* This is literally me with Brian. Yes it is, Brother. If Loretta adopted a cat (which she will in a half a second because she's a lesbian, yes this is a self-own) she would/will name it Debbie.

mike acts like he’s got it all figured out and like he’s this grown up dude who is suddenly too good for Liberty Avenue and yet he’s a fucking idiot and a child. The joy I am getting from your brother reading Michael is immeasurable.

I should’ve been a writer on the show. Yes, he should have.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THIS? When are you gonna stop fucking every et that moves??? NEVER? And he gave him a virus in the series? WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK JUST HAPPENED? Did i hallucinate the part where Justin and him had that foursome? Or when those dudes were all over him in babylon? OR THE LA FUCKS? WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MY BLONDIE? Blondie i said never change? What is this?

I'm crying. I'm so sorry anon. I'm so sorry Brother. It gets worse. It gets so much worse.

(To be clear, I love the Only Time speech because it encapsulates them, but Brian proposing and every moment of that is awful. (okay we get some cute couple moments from them being engaged BUT AT WHAT COST? Justin not being at Babylon in the last shot is awful. It is entirely out of character. I hate the writers)

I'm sorry.

[s0lar-ch3ri]

omfg the fnc guy!! welcome to my blog (loved fools gold) and im glad to see we're on the same mental wave of insanity about the fish bitch and the "just-a-guy" bastard so fuck it ill research for making a dnd campaign later rn i must talk GAYLY (spoilers ahead)

i kinda felt like chip would be that "other chosen one" the moment it was mentioned (or jay but chip feels more connected to the destiny) but i do enjoy how in the idea of polar opposites are just the two images in a mirror, chip isnt any sort of special guy, hes just followed footsteps that he believed hed be lost without and in doing so he carved gillion out of the destiny he had been so harshly molded in like how someone may incorrectly put together 2 pieces of clay (if you only smudge the two sides of the clay together or dont do chicken scratching and just use water, you trap in air bubbles that will fucking explode the sculpture. another thing about uncooked clay is if the piece is big enough, you could still put it into the hole made and mold it to fit. am i implying that if it wasnt gill, someone else (maybe even edyn because shes also a tidestrider and still very close to gillion and shes also a triton in the undersea so still a possible target) would have been lied to as a "chosen one"? no, im stating truth because this is a genuine emotional abuse tactic, making one believe theyre special and the only one so they do what you say. :D).

gillion wasnt meant to be his own person, chip didnt know how to be his own person. while gill learns from chip and jay how to stop being a tool for others selfish needs, gill and jay cant exactly teach chip how to realize that his want to be like the black rose pirates or his want to be like arlin shouldnt be his only life goal. but yet chip fucking listens because of them. i forgot if i mentioned it before (and i struggle reading my own long posts all over again) but do keep in mind that chip only knows what he does about being a pirate from his time on the black rose. any ideas of a parental figure? arlin. how to defend himself and how easy it is to lie and stab someone in the back? price (and atleast some defense from the black rose).

just like his fellow co captains, chip didnt really get much a child hood i bet (growing up on the streets, then being put in danger on the black rose countless times because while its not mentioned you cant tell me that the most famous pirates in mana (or one of the most famous crews) being on the 4 seas would not; a, encounter a single navy ship or bounty hunter trying to make some gold; or b, never deal with a single bit of sea trouble, sea monster, etc; because that makes no fucking sense) and i feel like childhoods really help shape the person you are and how you think. and sure, i say gill and jay lost their childhoods (cause they did) but rather then following a persons shadow, they followed a persons/a group of people's ideals because the figures in their childhoods conditioned them for it. but chip? he was just a small kid they found in a town one day and let aboard the ship. rather then thinking of who he wanted to be, he probably thought about, oh i dont know, getting food to fucking eat because CHIP WAS A FUCKING ORPHAN WITHOUT AN ADULT TO PROVIDE FOOD TO HIM AND SHIT! all he knows is either self-taught or learned vaguely from the black rose/price. i talked a lot about how chips experiences have each changed him a lot (for better and worse) and this is no different! so yeah, chip having no knowledge of healthy relationships whatsoever has resulted in "i care about this person deeply and admire them a lot" -> "i will do anything to be just like them because theyre so cool" (silly way of phrasing but still gets the point across)

but that changes, and we really get to look on that with the talk ollie and chip have ("im not a good person ollie, im barely even a good captain") and the rooftop talk ("to the riptide pirates!"), though its seen more in the rooftop one. the banishing of the bastard shell makes it kind of hard to see chip learn through the world to stop letting someone who might not even be alive control his will to survive, and for good reason (but ill touch on that next). but we see the progress of him trying to change as he tells ollie he'll gonna try to make things right. and we definitely see how much it has controlled chip when jay points it out to chip that theres a chance arlins dead and gone and he needs to be ready to accept it if thats the case. all chip focuses on though is denying the possibility that arlin could be dead, because who is he without him? if he cant be worthy enough to follow the black rose and arlin couldnt help them captain, what was the point?

taking a break from deep and soul crushing questions, lets continue soul crushing and talk about the defense mechanism that is chip's lying. a part of his stop of being a bastard is his stop with lying to gillion (though he takes it as lying around him in general). however, theres someone who hes been lying to as well: himself. when chip confesses in the block that hes never had a plan before, he doesnt just mean for battle. he didnt have a plan if shit went down. he didnt have a plan if arlin was dead this whole time. he didnt have a plan if gillion would have disappeared for good. he didnt have a plan if the demonic contract came back to bite him in the ass. and so he lied. he told himself and the crew he knew, because hed lose himself if he didnt.

talking more on why for good reason the bastardness was more obvious then what seems a pretty key part in how he may act! unlike how bastard-y he acts, we dont actually hear chip say this sort of admiration, because he lied so hard he believes its just admiration, when really its an obsession. thats why only when a character mentions that need for change we can see how much progress he made and that theres no exact "start" to bettering it because it was all internal that we didnt see shit for. chip does a lot of visible changing, sure, but theres so much that goes on in his head and while hes an expressive guy, hes so good at hiding too. also considering how not saying anything is lying in gill's moral code (aka hiding shit), thats probably why we see more now of chips change!

alright, so i started this talking about how chip was "just a guy", but with my rambles it seems a lot like hes more then that and that goes several ways in my book. in the world of mana, he is just a guy, because everyone has similar stories. chip believes hes just a guy because of how amazing his crew is and hes just chip (ESPECIALLY when we see a bit of how insecure chip is about being magicless in humble beginnings when talking to jay that one time you know what i mean right). he thinks hes just a guy, but gill can see so much more (to keep back with the whole fnc posting). lots of misenterpitation (read "misinterpretation") of who chip is as a character. chip starts as just a guy but slowly and quickly evolves into more then that. so many possible answers

and now lets talk about how gill was never cut out to be just a guy yet still is just a guy but also isnt and- ill stop cutting corners now lol

while i love the idea of gill being heavily tormented by the elders in his mind and still believing the elders to be righteous in fics and shit, in canon we've seen him acknowledge that his destiny was used as a bait to get him to follow the elders (he says that they didnt want a hero they wanted a weapon in one ep i just cant remember which one) multiple times. he knows hes someone beyond destiny and hes unlearnt many unhealthy behaviors with chip and jay (i cant help but think he sees how chip acts and wonders how he can be his hero, and he gets caught back up in being everyones hero all over and theyre just so special to each other in the end anyways). and while yes hes super powerful and so strong and a fucking tank at the end he too is just a guy. but they dont see that, they see what makes him a hero and his overpowered strength. like how chip doesnt see all hes done for himself and hes more then just some dude in this world.

gillion wasnt meant to be humane, he was meant to be a weapon molded "to follow the goddess's wishes" as one may put it (quotes used cause its fake af). like i said, he wasnt meant to be just a guy. and as a result, hes both just like chip, but they dont reguard that. they see gillion as someone so far from "just a guy" and see chip as the pinnacle of just a random man. but theyre both. chip is the hurt yet attempting unresentment man who doesnt understand relationships who cant see anything but a bad person when he looks in the mirror, gillion is the hurt yet hiding resentment hero whos been always regarded as right and a hero yet it burdens him. at the same time, chip is simply chip and gillion is gillion (tidestrider, champion of the undersea, hero of the deep, singer/songwriter of the hole- /j (fr though, he really is hidden under so many titles there and ill probs add something about it on my jay and gill ramble thing lmfao)) and theyre just people in the best way possible.

random thing for chip i forgot to mention but i say his gaining of magic didnt just come from all his time with magic users but also was something he worked so hard internally without knowing and all his hard work was showing his power and he connected that idea to gillion and his water magic and his cool sword and triton shit, thus why at first he used shape water. however, part of his exploration means he needed to learn how to disconnect with that bad idealization, so it shifted into flames. a polar opposite of gills water. maybe he thought this meant they were so different and didnt mix ever, but fire and water are so similar if you look! they can be started several ways, both can be healing yet devastating, plus some fires can be on water! every opposite is always so connected to its opposite and thats not a bad thing ever. getting rid of one leaves one to reign for a while then die. and it for me means ever so much when just before hes dropkicked and downed, he uses his magic on gill, getting "the last hit", thats where the tactoos change. the last time they got here, he refused to keep fighting and wanted to let gill slice his neck. he had such admiration in him still then and he still does now, but its not that obsessive. now, when hes transformed out of the idea of being in the shadow of gillion, the non magic tattoos magically burn away that idea to him (im also certain arlin had wave tattoos, so symbolism to that heavy obsessive admiration burning away too).

chip has grown and while still admires many he does it now where its not life corrupting and living in the shadow of one and you can bet your sweet ass gill has some part in it!

ill probs do more a gill ramble later lmao anyways my neurodivergency has had me start at 7 and nows its barely turned 10 so yay

thinking about him (spoilers for jrwi)

thinking about how in atleast 2 scenarios chip has blamed himself more then needed, first with ollie ("i took him from his home") then with gillion ("i gave him the card") and each time he tried to put on a confident face but really it ate away at him inside.

thinking about how gillion is constantly taking on responsibility and chip canonically sees gillion as inspiration (humble beginnings, bizly says the inspo from the future is from gillion tidestrider) and its not like he only takes some blame but usually its all the blame because gillion knows how to acknowledge his faults somewhat.

thinking about how chip takes promises ever so seriously (ie, not even doing simple lies after promising gill that he wouldnt) yet hes such an example of "change doesnt happen overnight" and how he acts can be directly or indirectly related to past adventures and/or trauma (probably even how he copes is atleast somewhat connected to the guy he killed under price).

thinking about how chip grew up looking up to arlin and seeing what a great example of pirates the black rose were and trying to be something atleast somewhat great and feeling like he failed when hes the only one on deck with somewhat an idea of what a pirate is.

thinking about how chip would lie to protect his friends yes but became a lying machine to protect himself before and hid his intents because while he can absolutely trust his crew his instinct is too not because he got used to being on his own and putting himself first and now hes around people (mostly gill) who put themselves before him to help protect him.

thinking about how easily gillion made friends with people on islands and eventually it rubbed onto chip too (ie: gryffin, felipe, etc) as he unlearned the idea that hes alone in a cruel world that only exists to make him suffer and theres a light in everyones life that makes it even just slightly better, no matter the background (main example is gill again).

thinking about how much gillion is willing to sacrifice for his friends and when felipe wanted to stab him every night, it was chip who tried to talk sense into gill because he cares for gillion and (most likely) was worried that felipe may be lying about healing and may full on kill him.

and all these thoughts (and more) make me feel so much when they found the empty rowboat with nothing but ashes and a fiendish smell and gillion starts blaming himself so chip grabs his shoulders and says "its not your fault, you werent the one who made him grab the card" because somewhere in my heart it feels like maybe chip isnt just talking to gill but to the part of himself that keeps on trying to hold onto every wrong hes done, every sin that keeps him up at night, every lie that is amplified in his skull, that he deserves forgiveness and not everything in the world lays on his shoulders.

and with these thoughts, one more comes to mind: chip and gillion are so similar in backgrounds and morals and thats why theyre the ones that break each others walls and misunderstand each other and fight because they probably dont even fucking see it.

[fcknstar]

Will you do dating Harry Osborn includes for the amazing Spider-Man harry?

hihi! i wasnt quite sure what you meant by harryosborn includes.. so i just did like a headcanon and a snippet abt how itd be like! so apologies if it was wrong..

,, love me "

harryosborn x reader

a.n : i wanna apologize for the inactivity, i started sch on 3rd jan and had alot of admin work to do and didnt have enough time to fully sit down and type away.. i really enjoy doing request so please feel free loves! btw i have alot more ideas so yea. im still learning french, so sorry if i got some mistakes!

warnings : none. some use of french!

**lowercase intended**

he would cook for you

walking into your shared penthouse, you were met with a mouthwatering smell. you knew harry enjoyed cooking, for you at least and would cook all types of cuisine. entering the kitchen, it seems like hes cooking grilled steak. your favourite. you had told him on your first few dates that you loved grilled steak and there he is, preparing you some. " baby, i didnt know you were back home " he greeted you with a hug. " and i didnt know you knew how to cook grilled steak. " you teased him after releasing him from your grasp. " well i had to learn for my love. " he pulled you closer as he kissed your temple.

harry knows your schedule so hed prepare a surprise date for you both every now and then.

“ where are we going? “ you questioned. harry had picked you up from your shift, youd usually walk home in your own comfort since the place you worked at is merely a short walk to your shared penthouse. '' somewhere i know you'd like " he replied simply, giving you a lopsided smile.

when you first meet him, you wouldn't think that hes into affection, but he is big into it. he loves loves loves hugs so so much. due to the height difference, hed place his chin on your head.

he loves dressing you up.

" when i was younger, i wanted to be a princess. funny right? " you laughed, flashes of your kiddly past replayed in your mind. harry just smiled. the next day, he brought you shopping and you were able to heal your inner child all thanks to him.

he would bring you shopping at least once a week for any necessities or wants that youve been eyeing.

hed play with your hair whenever youre concentrated on something.

he loves spending time just looking at you.

if you were to make gifts and just love hands on craft, hed appreciate every piece you make him. he even has a shelf just to display your gifts. hed try to make some stuff for you, even if it looks bad in his eyes, you love it.

" i uh, tried to make a clay figurine for you.. but it looks horrible, i know " harry whispered, preparing for the nasty comments he knew you wouldn't share. handing it to you, he is met with a kiss on the cheek and a sequel. " oh harry! i love it so so much. " seeing you run off to your shared bedroom confused him so he followed your trail. you kneeled infront of your cupboard, you took out a box. ' i didnt know you had that.. " harry thought. what he saw next warmed his heart dearly. over the years of you both dating, youd each would gift each other often. he hadnt realize he had made a clay figurine in the first years of dating after seeing how much you value homemade stuff. you pulled out a clay figurine and paired it with the one he recently gifted you. " harry! look how cute it is! " you giggled. harry appreciated these moments he had with you. kneeling next to you, he peeked into the box. he saw those love letters he wrote to you years ago, kept in its pristine condition which made him smile.

he likes to read, you like to read = perfect match. he would share with you a book he had recently finished reading at the dining table and would chat about it, you doing the same thing. you both love poetry and what warmed your heart was that he wrote his own poems to you. when harry confessed his feelings for you, it wasnt just a simple " i like you, wanna go on a date ". he was better.

he secretly loves when you shower him with love, extra extra love. well because growing up, he craved it. you are his safe haven. you are his best friend, girlfriend. basically his everything.

if you want to continue studying, he would fund your trip. he would want to call you everyday, every second of the day.

" have you eaten? " harrys voiced displayed concern, even if you couldn't see his face. " yea.. i have. " harry picked on how solemn your voice were. " whats wrong baby? you know you can talk to me right? " harrys question made you laugh. " yea well, i just uhm. miss you alot that is.. you know.. your hugs, you. " you whispered, trying not to let your voice break. " me too sweetheart. but hey! youre coming back in a week or so right? just keep that in mind darling. " harry tried to keep his tone cheerful, despite how bad his heart is hurting. once your calle ended, he booked a flight there, wanting to give you as much support you needed while studying abroad. france was a scary place. but very romantic. as you were about to walk past an alleyway, a person blocked your view. " désolée(sorry) " . looking up, you saw harry. " hi baby " you beemed with joy, jumping up and hugging him so tightly it could choke him to death. " right right, i need to breathe if not i cannot function properly. " he chuckled. " god, i missed you. " you whispered into his neck, kissing it gently. " well i missed you more.. mon amour " harry replied, lifting you up slightly and spining you both around.

[xenia-cenia]

Hello there! Can I request Dazai x Fem! or Gn!reader that acts like Nagito Komaeda? They are very intelligent and self-loath a lot and they’re always smiling. Thank you!

i have no excuse for how long this took 

also danganronpa? on MY tumblr page? more likely than youd think.

-his first thought was that you’re joking

-‘oh! Theyre making a joke - that’s funny’

-but then after you keep doing for that weeks he begins to realize that you genuinely believe everything you’re saying

-so he goes on a personal mission to make you start to love yourself

-you say something self deprecating?

-he suddenly appears next to you and starts complimenting you

-you of course notice the pattern pretty quickly

-but it’s impossible to shake him once he starts on a mission

-though it blows him away every time he sees you in action

-a self-depreciating grin on your face as you analyze a map or predict an enemies move and always finding things he never even stops to think of

-youre always three steps ahead of him and he finds it exhilirating 

-to be unable to read someone? truly, fully unable? he almost feels alive as he ponders you

-(though, recently, he finds he feels alive each time you smile at him - a true, genuine smile)

-it was a normal day at the office

-well normal enough considering their line of work

-and dazai watched as you flipped through a file with almost alarming speed

-he was tempted to tease you about not actually reading it but he knew better

-he knew you already had it memorized by the first read

-so instead he watched in fascination as you slammed the file down in frustration and moved to the next already memorized file

-what were you looking for? he wanted to ask so bad

-but for some reason when it came to all matters considering you his throat would squeeze and his words would die

-so he simply watched the light dance in your eyes (how strange, he thought, he’d never seen eyes like that before)

-he hadnt even realized he was staring at you until your head popped up, your usual somewhat resentful grin replaced by a semi-real look of glee

-you had organized the scattered papers and dashed out of the room, hardly acknowledging him as you left

-a small half-wave

-a half-grin

-a half

-he knew in that moment in that half-moment that you were his other half

-a version of him that could of existed in another world

-he barely knew what he was saying what he doing when he stood

-”wait.” 

-in his head he knew he was stupid

-he we telling himself of loop

-shut up shut up shut up shut up

-youre going to ruin this.

-you know you dont get miracles

-but then your head turned

-his face was alight and his fingers instinctually went to pick at his bandages

-you looked at him and as that stupid half grin grew on your face

-(he hated that half grin. he hated how it made his heart pound and his words die in his throat)

-”i... love you” 

-a scratchy painful voice

-he reeled back in surprise and you did too

-for a moment you both sat in silence both trying to figure out who had said it

-”i love you too!” the two of you said in perfect synchrony 

-and suddenly he blacked out

-maybe it was the lack of oxygen

-maybe it was the surplus of it

-but all he could think about was the words you had said

-those words he had been waiting for

-begging for

-and here they were.

-at 7-something at night standing on a shag carpet with coffee stains and the horrible scent of sweat lingering in the air

-he should of been uncomfortable

-he should of been running

-but all he could do was stare emptily

-stare at something he hadnt seen in years

-stare at someone he never thought hed see again

-you were staring at him

-your eyes following his glassy gaze

-with a slight turn you saw what had evaded you for so long

-suffocating

-it was suffocating to see it

-the window was the same as always

-the sight was the same as ever

-yet tonight it seemed almost beautiful

-almost...

-bright

-your reflection stared at you

-but tonight? 

-tonight it was almost

-almost half of what it used to be

-almost half way there

-almost half way happier

-as you turned to face dazai you knew he saw it too

-a half happy ending

-a half happy beginning

-you shut your eyes and smiled

-(a half real smile)

-it was beautiful out tonight and you knew what to do

[aliensunflower-fics]

Marinette The Perfect Daughter In Law: A Prompt

[ I've seen a few ‘everyone loves Marinette AU’s’ and a couple Marvel DC ‘all the mentors want THEIR kid to end up with Marinette AU’s’ and well frankly! I felt inspired! So I present to you my new prompt / AU thing! In which all the most powerful / rich / popular people in Paris decide to play matchmaker… ]

It starts when Adrien and Kagami have a less than AMICABLE break up according to their parents and the media anyway in reality it was a really REALLY dull break up. The pair have been ‘dating’ (using each other as an excuse to go out and experience normal teenage stuff) since they were 15. Now at 17 soon to be 18 the pair decided to publicly break up in order to pursue other people and interests. The problem is they never told their parents the truth so both Gabriel and Kagami’s mother Tomeo feel protective and concerned about what must surely be an upsetting first heartbreak for their child. And okay maybe both parents take that out on each other and both get a bit defensive and protective. And MAYBE it ends with Tomeo vowing to get revenge for her daughter. Enter, Marinette. Up and coming fashion designer for the rich and famous! She’s single, talented, and as far as Tomeo knows Gabriel is interested in the girl for her talent. So what better revenge could exist but having Marinette take an interest in Kagami!

Kagami has no idea why her mother suddenly has an interest in Marinette but she wont complain about having more time with her very cute designer friend. And all the outfits Tomeo is paying Marinette to make for Kagami is giving the young fencer plenty of up-close and personal moments with Marinette. And okay Marinette is VERY cute and Kagami wont question why she suddenly has all this tine with Marinette, eating ice cream with the girl and having brunch. But she knows shes absolutely head over heels when Marinette shows up at her fencing tournament gives her a luck charm and cheers her on wearing HER colors. Obviously Kagami wiped the floor with all the competition she cant be seen hesitating in front of Marinette!

On Tomeo’s side of things she makes sure that the paparazzi still lurking around after Kagami and Adrien’s breakup catch photos of what could easily be interpreted as dates between the girls. After all this is a revenge ploy but also Marinette is fantastic so Tomeo is 300% down with Kagami ‘bringing her into the family’ something she tells Kagami after the first paparazzi ‘date photos’ leak into the news. Kagami still has no idea this was an orchestrated affair and just thinks her mothers caught on to her feelings and is overjoyed that Marinette is approved of because after the cheek kiss Marinette gave her for winning the fencing tournament Kagami was preparing to fight her mother for the right to pursue the young designer seriously. After all she never hesitates! 

But Tomeo never realized Gabriel isnt the only one interested in Marinette. Audrey Bourgeouis has been keeping an eye on Marinette trying to find a way to get Marinette on to her side and away from Gabriel. So when she sees the photos of Kagami and Marinette she sees an opportunity. After all if Marinette isnt exclusively into men (and those photos of her flushed cheeks as Kagami cleans ice cream off her bottom lip are a clear indication shes not) then Audrey smells opportunity. After all Marinette was Chloe’s first crush! How cute would that be! The next day Marinette is being offered yet another opportunity to intern under Audrey this time with much looser restrictions. When Marinette accepts she suddenly finds herself working with Chloe… A LOT. The pair are modeling together, often paired together for shoots in perfect complementary clothes that screams ‘opposites attract’. Chloe is also helping manage Marinette’s brand and the two start to get along very well. The model photos and their business lunches are soon plastered alongside the Kagami and Marinette outings with parisian gossip blogs finding their interest picked by this potential love triangle.

Chloe for one, was confused at first. Sure she knew her mom was interested in Marinette but she never thought SHE would be working so closely with her first crush. And Chloe tries to ignore it, after all those are dead feelings! And Marinette woud never forgive her anyway so why even- Wait. Is that Marinette in a downright gorgeous golden dress? A-and she will be posing right next to Chloe for their shared shoot? Well… Chloe always thought herself deserving of royalty and damn if Marinette aint the princess of her dreams. Sorry Adriken’s you had your chance to get the girl, but now its winner keeps all and Marinette is the only prize shes interested in. For the record Alya is freaked out by Chloe being nice, but shes more weirded out by Chloe being protective and handsy and downright shamelessly flirty with Marinette. Audrey is pleased when she hears the news and is quick to give her daughter encouragement acting as if none of this was premeditated at ALL.

Oh but they have no idea that this is just the beginning. Because guess who's moved back into town. Adrien’s favorite cousin and aunty. And Felix’s mom is quite the busybody and dammit Felix needs friends! And maybe a cute girlfriend! And oh whos that pretty girl on the magazine cover? Marinette? The one her celebrity connections have nothing but praise for? Perfect! Shes invited to lunch with Felix and herself on friday to discuss movie costumes! And oh Audrey dear dont you think Marinette would look fabulous sandwiched between TWO blondes! Felix hasnt modeled in a while but come now. So suddenly Marinette is being spotted with Felix guiding him about paris and modeling with him AND Chloe under AUDREY’s brand NOT Gabriels.

Felix thought hed really hate Marinette; he tried to ignore her he really did. But shes funny, witty and sweet. Not to mention trustworthy, so a good candidate for a business partner. And thats it, but then he has to admit hes impressed when he rolls up to a photoshoot and Chloe! The definition of brat personified is acting… Bearable. Yes, somehow Marinette has done the impossible! She has tamed the beast known as Chloe. And yes fine he will admit shes drop dead gorgeous and how intelligent of her to learn all sides of the fashion industry and boost her rep with modelling! Soon hes spending more time with her, he tries to argue he needs a guide, that shes the most bearable person to be with! That she is just a friend- Oh god. No it cant be! He sounds like-! Like ADRIEN! And Chloe already told him about THAT mess! No! Absolutely not! He will not lead on Marinette like his idiot cousin! Marinette is a rare and beautiful woman! She could be his queen! And god he has to admit it much as he loathes too Marinette’s smile is enough to make him thank every non-existent god. He will win her heart, show her that she deserves better than his brain dead cousin! Felix is sure mother will approve of his decision to pursue the girl, now he just needs to do more shoots with Marinette...

And that's what finally gets Gabriel to snap. Because REALLY Felix!? Is there no loyalty to FAMILY. Not to mention he was totally drafting a potential contract for Marinette when Audrey snapped her up the witch! But its fine! Marinette has always been interested in Adrien! Surely she still is? Surely she's not been swayed by any of her new suitors! Right? Gabriel knows he can't mess with Audrey’s contract so he goes through Adrien, freeing up his sons schedule and telling him to spend time with Marinette to help her ‘adapt’ to the harsh world of fashion and modeling. He uses Adrien’s heroic nature to make it sound like hed be saving her from Chloe and Felix. And sure enough Adrien bites, using his friendship with Chloe to worm into fittings, meetings, and photo shoots. At first hes just there to make sure Chloe and Felix arent hurting sweet Marinette. But when he sees the blondes fighting for her attention, flirting with her, posing with her in some rather romantic settings. Suddenly hes less worried and more… Jealous? No! Not him! Hes concerned, confused, suspicious! Obviously he needs to spend more time with Mari- Wait! When did Kagami get here to take Marinette to lunch! And why are they all ignoring him!!!

Now Marinette is fully in the public's eye. Gossip blogs are being fed bits of info writing up each ‘candidates’ appeal as THE romantic partner to the Marinette Dupain-Cheng paris new darling, the girl with a heart of gold too oblivious to see the trail of hearts following her around! But there is still another contender yet to enter the game! Jaggeds been away on tour teaching Luka his up and coming protege all the tricks. And lets not lie Luka has his own fans now, enough to rival all the others. Jagged sees Luka as his own son, even calling him as much! Hell hes even adopted Luka and Juleka and when I say adopted I mean Jagged literally got shared custody of the kids when their real dad tried to start trouble once Luka started gaining fame. Luka and Juleka for one love their adopted father and his wonderful fiance Penny. But back to Jagged, being Jagged. 

The moment Jagged is back in Paris he's checking up on his favorite designer and hopefully future daughter in law! When… WHAT'S THIS?! All the other ritchies in Paris are playing his game! Trying to get Marinette married into THEIR families! Not rock and roll at all! He was here first! And so being Jagged he decides to make Luka’s stake in the race for Marinette’s heart clear! By spamming social media with photos of Marinette being cute with Luka, taking his measurements, going out with him, the pair babying Fang, the two passed out against each other after a long concert. And he has photos going back at least a year or two! Soon Luka’s fans pick up the hype starting a trending hashtag finding the pair cute! Jagged feels confident that hes won! When Audrey retaliates, and from there its a complete train wreck. Before long each pair has a hashtag filled with cute moments and arguing over whos dating the model / fashion designer! 

Meanwhile Adrien is drowning in denial as he goes through each hashtag seething about how many MORE photos everyone else has with Marinette, when HE is her very good friend and was here first! Felix, Chloe and Kagami on the other hand have declared open war after they tried to talk to each other about the hashtags reasonably only for it to devolve into “so you agree Marinette is best with me!” - “WHAT! No! Thats not what I said! Besides she clearly is best with me!” - “Ridiculous!” And so on. Poor Luka is having an entirely different reaction hiding in shame unsure how to face Marinette because he WAS going to ask her on a proper date now that she seems over Adrien, because even with everything she's the melody playing in his heart and he had a plan! But now his mom and sister are texting him and teasing him and apparently he has MORE competition! Who do these people think they are to deserve Marinette! No! Luka won't lose Jagged has been teaching him to be bold and confident! And Marinette is worth all of his efforts! Jagged REGRETS NOTHING even if Penny confiscated the tv remote!

Marinette meanwhile has no idea what's going on because the whole class made a dumb bet on when the designer would notice with one of the bet conditions being that no one could tip Marinette off and that they have to keep her away from Paparazzi so they dont spoil it either. And sense Alya is helping manage Marinette’s social media Marinette hasn't looked at it yet so she has NO idea what's happening. But her birthday is coming up next week and Chloe definitely didn't get dibs on planning a surprise party for her all so she could spoil the girl and RUB her GREAT relationship with Marinette into her competitions FACES! The competition however (and Adrien JustAfriend Agreste) have decided that they really aren't going down without a fight!

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