#like genuinely i have to respect this dude

[cxs-workshops]

Hi. I’m the person who almost attempted suicide, twice. Been nearly a year now, it’s out there, I do not care who knows.

Didn’t want to jump in this but here we fucking go: First to be fucking clear, and which no one, might I add. came to me directly to ask, all the the Logan/anon drama was NOT the reason I did why I did what I did. It didn’t help the situation, but it wasn’t the sole reason. I had so much IRL issues going on at the time, and I realize the petty stuff with the anon hate made it seem like it was the only reason but I barely thought about it while I was doing the thing. I have half the mind to bill a certain party the rest of my medical debt but hey, we’re gonna move on.

I cut myself off from fan servers and from most people in the community due to being anxious all the time, thus being alone since late 2023. If I was talking to anyone, it would be purely about the game or art stuff. Snowy & Goons, how DARE you use my situation to your benefit, and any of the posts I’ve made. You cannot outright accuse someone else of my suicide attempt without any concrete evidence. That’s a damn serious accusation. All we have are petty Tumblr anon messages. And ooo guess what, not every single Logan fan is gathered at Simprock, there are plenty of other individuals within the community, outside of fan servers. Who’s to say that your goons aren’t the ones posing as the anons for them to be framed? Idk but you can’t keep talking out of your ass. My harassment started roughly around 2020/21, I can’t even remember who said what at the time and who’s to say the same people are even around anymore. Should I have collected evidence? Seeing how it all came to this, yeah I definitely should have. I don’t have evidence, but most importantly NEITHER DO YOU. Which applies to many things for you.

Simprock was the last server I had joined. During the brief time I was there, was treated with nothing but kindness and respect. I admit, I do still have a sort of distrust with them, for other reasons, but with this it’s hard not to be on their side( and with apparent evidence) . Actually in fact, it was when Snowy had also joined Simprock, I bolted out of there shortly. I wasn’t there long enough to get to know anyone but I saw your name and my skin immediately crawled. We never talked directly but I first saw you in the bootleg my time server (late 2022-mide2023) the vibes were immediately off. I’m not of fan of Logan either but you were constantly belittling them, not cool. To think you’ve escalated this far…baffling.

Back to using my posts to your benefit, the zine post. How the fuck did you immediately accuse them again when I said I wasn’t joining either zines. Again I couldn’t even guess who the anons were but hey, could be your goons posing again. Just because a person liked it immediately meant it was an attack against you? Dude. Reaching aren’t we.

Some days I take a step back, and think. There were several different ways to have handled my harassment, and I was thinking one of those ways was the one you’re taking Snowy, and I can’t begin to imagine it, not even a little. Why? Because this is fucking insane behavior. I wouldn’t have begun to do something like this good gracious. If I made anyone uncomfortable last year anytime after my attempt or during all the hate anon messages, I genuinely didn’t mean to and I apologize. I appreciate more than anything that the lot of you gathered to help me during and afterwards. I’ll always be thankful.

I’m going to cut myself off here before I get pissed again, but one more thing.

F YOU SNOWY I FN KNEW ITBWAS YOU TALKING SHIT ABOUT QUINLAN. I don’t play about my characters and for you to mischaracterize them like this UGH JUST 🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕

Please Leave me Alone

Hi, I’ve been sort of attempting to avoid making a post about this but due to numerous concerned individuals reaching out to me and the amount of receipts that I’ve been given regarding this I have to make one last attempt to address the person who has been doing this to me for the past few months.

I know what you’re doing, and you know it’s dishonest and wrong. This needs to stop. Targeting others and involving them in your personal drama just for interacting with me is unacceptable, and the misinformation and harassment have to end.

I’m giving you the chance to take accountability and tell the truth. If I continue to hear that this behavior is still happening, I’ll have no choice but to address it directly.

I’m not interested in some self-made competition for attention and the drama - I just want to share my love for this game and community together with my friends. Please leave me alone.

For the record: I have never, and will never, send anonymous hate to anyone - especially not over being queer or creating gay art. As a queer minority myself, I stand for marginalized communities and will always support safe, inclusive spaces for everyone.

It’s incredibly unfair to your friends as well, who you have most likely been feeding false versions of the story. It’s also unfair to pull completely uninvolved individuals trying to enjoy their time in this space into this especially when you know that this is untrue- then hide behind alt accounts and your friends, which will unfairly put them in a position where they have been defending someone who has been dishonest to them.

I wanted to believe that you were going through a rough spot and that it led you to doing this in a bad state of mind, but this is becoming excessive and I want you to please use this opportunity to reflect on this because you know what you have been doing is wrong and hurts everyone.

[girldriveroscar]

it’s hilarious to me that Oscar put down Lando and Carlos as the drivers least likely to pay on a first date. When Lando asked why on Earth he put that Oscar softly goes “idk… I can just see you as that type of… [unintelligible]“ (think he says player?). Oscar did not hesitate to put the reddest flags in that category����

And then when the host tells Oscar: “You’re basically saying don’t go on a date with Lando Norris!” — Lando quickly rebuttals with “Why? Doesn’t mean they don’t have a great time” so Oscar HAS to clarify and defend Lando: “Yeah, well I never said that” 😭 Ok… so Piastri’s taste in men is fuckboys… he fully sees the signs & is going in hard anyway. I respect it. (btw I’m constantly thinking of ur post where you talk about Lando being reddest flag in the world vs Oscar a gf™️ guy & their fwb AU where Lando pretends to be nonchalant while Oscar’s genuinely chilling with Carlos on the other line)

omg those are like the first posts on my account ahsbwjkd. #reflecting on starting this account bc I Needed to psychoanalyze Lando to. back to back conversation about eating cum out of oscar's ass. Such is life ig...

lando in that vid is still like. what put me onto him Hard. (the 4k ongoing word doc about him that is never getting finished:) like what R u doing this for Who r u doing this for... seeing how lando adopts that fuckboy persona whenever he's put in stark comparison to Oscar (thinking as well of the radio interview w the whos most likely to) is very... hmmnnsnnnnn.... in landos head I think hes thinking Oscar is Rated G for everyone and I am PG-13... sillier. dirtier. more sex appeal.. wtv it is- he must attain to the invisible standard everyone has set for him.

in opposition, his one on one content w Oscar shows this Realer side where he's and all soft and pliable and quiet. (note w max F. too) like . Ok i can turn off the fuckboy persona bc Oscar doesn't care and if Oscar doesn't care why shld i. he's in his private world of real people who see him, versus The Digital Panoptican where everyone Thinks they know him.

Rsn why I think he was so offended by that paying thing was cus in his head Its like. Dude u Know me u know I am quiet and Nice and polite and gracious. why r u playing into the PR shtick. n then he just gives up and gives into it because the little insecure worm in his brain tells him Yeah Play it up its what ppl think of u anyways. Deflect Deflect Deflectttttugh Oscar dgaf about all that turmoil he just #needsthat. Hence my silly fwb thought process yayyy.

[candycandy00]

I saw you reblogged a lot of stuff from x men. How would you pair the jjk men with x women?

I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to answer this, anon! I hope you’re still around to see it!

Gojo x Rogue

Both have powers that make them basically untouchable. Both are freakishly strong. Both are considered extremely attractive both in universe and out. Rogue is very used to dealing with a hot, arrogant guy who thinks he’s a gift to humanity (that’s basically her type). Gojo would no doubt like a feisty, fun loving woman like Rogue. 

Geto x Emma Frost

Both can be cunning and duplicitous. Both are extremely sexy. Both are natural leaders that people tend to want to follow. Both have dealt with depression, and both have spent time on the “good side” and the “bad side” in their respective stories. Also Emma is a telepath so she could probably help Geto a lot with his emotional problems.  

Nanami x Storm

Both are considered the “mature one” of their groups. Both care deeply about the younger generation and become mentors. Both are very intelligent, and can be very kind but also stern when necessary. Nanami is one of the few men who wouldn’t feel threatened by Storm being a lot stronger than him. I think they’d get along very well. 

Sukuna x Dark Phoenix

Let me be clear. Dark Phoenix using Jean Grey’s form. Not Jean herself. Honestly I just want to pair Sukuna with someone who completely dwarfs him in power. For fun. I think he’d kinda be turned on by the fact that she devours entire solar systems for breakfast. Oh the chaos they could get up to together. But there are some similarities! Both have taken over the bodies of multiple humans, both are often associated with fire/flame powers and imagery, and both are motivated by their own hedonistic desires for pleasure. 

Choso x Psylocke

Both are strong martial artists. Both have brothers they would and have done anything to save/protect. Both have experience with inhabiting bodies that don’t belong to them. Also Choso needs someone very forward and upfront about her feelings because he’s the type to totally miss signals. And that’s Betsy in a nutshell. Betsy also seems to have a thing for emotionally damaged big brothers. 

Toji x Kitty Pryde

Okay these two have practically nothing in common besides having weird purple creatures that like to hang out on their shoulders. But they are each other’s type for sure. From what little we’ve seen of her, Toji’s wife seemed spunky and feisty (the way she’s grinning in the Zenin family tree thing says a lot). That fits Kitty. And then Kitty’s two primary romances were with a huge, muscular dude and an assassin with a checkered past and very questionable morals. Both with black hair. Toji would be like catnip to her. 

Higuruma x Cecilia Reyes

Both had respectable careers they shined in before being dragged into this superhero nonsense. Both were pulled into the action late in their lives, compared to most other characters, and both had to adapt very quickly to a world of violence and powers and villains. Both are highly intelligent and practical. These two would have plenty to talk about! 

Yuji x Jubilee

This is a match made in heaven, basically. They’re both young and fun loving, both capable of being silly and serious, both orphans who had to grow up fast, both have powerful mentors they greatly respect and want to make proud. Both even have a far more serious black haired friend that they annoy. These two would have a blast together hitting up the arcade or going to the movies. 

Megumi x Husk 

Both are hard working and put a little too much pressure on themselves. Both feel like they have something to prove, and both are a little too willing to sacrifice themselves for what they see as the greater good. Paige has a thing for moody guys in black and Megumi would definitely like a genuinely nice and caring girl like her. 

Yuta x Monet

Both are among the most powerful of their groups. Both are considered prodigies, both have a vast assortment of skills and abilities. Yuta is definitely attracted to strong, domineering women and Monet fits that completely. And due to Monet’s painful past, she really needs someone kind and caring like Yuta. 

Inumaki x Moonstar

Both have abilities they have to be very careful to control or else risk hurting their friends. Other than that, I just think they’re cute together lol. 

[harbingerofsoup]

in a wild turn of events, the professor teaching the early christianity course im taking was and continues to be the only one treating the election results with any sense of proper gravity

[kacievvbbbb]

Look I like Roger enough, I understand what he represents and I generally don’t think he was a bad dude. I do however think he was shit at interpersonal relationships because, what the fuck. Whitebeards crew is infinitely more well adjusted and I’d say he arguably had the more traumatic death.

Like what even, what kind of planning leads a 53 year old man to sire a child knowing he is dying of an incurable illness and is about to turn himself in to be excuted by the marines where he will cause so much chaos it is literally still turning the world on its head 22 years later. He knew he was going to cause so much of a stir that he literally disbanded his crew and told them to spread far and wide to keep them safe. Because he knew the marines would hunt them far and wide But yet he still brought a baby into the world. Babe. What the fuck? What even is that? What was the thought process. I sincerely hope it was an accident and not a deliberate attempt to bring about a new era.

Because if so babe I need to see the recipe or I’m afraid we can never let you cook again

[rainandsugarcane2000]

blah blah blah YOURE NOT OBESE IF YOURE JUST BIGGER WHAT THE FLIP. i dont understand why we throw that word around to hate on ppl. i have two ex gfs, both a bit bigger in size NOT OBESE??? literally just bigger?? healthy bmi and everything (even though bmi is a load of crap you can be a healthy bmi and not be giving your body what you need but you get the point)???

when i tell you. these were some the most beautiful women on this planet. fatshaming them?? really?? just because they dont look like yout idea of 'healthy', really? grow up. genuinely grow up oh my godddd.

and so what if theyre obese?? like? let them live? i promise you theyre aware theyre obese. you dont know them, you dont know their story. you dont know what health conditions they have, eating issues (btw obese ppl can have restrctive eds too), literally so many situations could be contributing to their weight. actually piss off. genuinely what gives u the right to butt into someones person health concerns, literally nothing.

[yardsards]

just read this part of the adventurer's bible and

do you think toshiro was originally attracted to falin (whilst still being irritated by many of her same traits in laios) because he thought his father would find her interesting???

[mistyycowoa]

Confessing my sins to the internet because my irl friends don't know my tumblr

I'm actually a horrible friend and I don't plan to change :)

I'll be a good friend to anyone I actually like and I usually don't associate with people who I don't like, but sometimes there will be an occasional lonely (usually annoying) kid that follows me around. (They're lonely for a reason.) I kinda hate people who are loud literally all the time but I can hold my tongue and this kinda person just doesn't leave because they're not being told directly to leave.

What do I do? I talk to them only when I need them, I make unnecessarily mean comments as a joke, I point out their obvious flaws that I know they have a hard time changing, and all while they still follow me around like I'm not kinda bullying them.

Sometimes I'll treat them like an actual friend when I'm in a good mood, but if I'm not, then the unfortunate victim becomes my emotional punching bag. (I have ways to quickly fix my mood and this is completely unnecessary and I could distance myself until I feel better like how I do with actual friends.) I think this is like. Breadcrumbing? Anyways yeah, toxic shit.

If any of your "friends" treat you like this, they don't see you as a friend. If they leave you doubting if they like you or not, leave you doubting if you're actually friends, they probably don't see you as a friend. (because that's the case for me :3 )

I'm a horrible human being and I don't feel nearly as bad as I should about it :)

[boimgfrog]

love when new ppl ask how me and my bf met and I have to choose whether to tell them "oh we met at a party" or the actual real unsanitized truth of "we met at a party where he got absolutely plastered and trailed after me the entire time failing to hit on me and then again at a separate party where he spent the entire time glued to my hip grabbing my waist and hitting on me until we made out in my friends closet but it's ok bcos I was into it and kinda baited him and he was respectful with it". literally have to become a PR professional trying 2 decode my target audience in any conversation. which is awful bcos its usually like the first question people ask. man I don't know you like that.

[edandstede]

“stizzy” and “edizzy” this “steddyhands polycule” that i’m being violently sick on my shoes actually

[otogariado]

i get why people would opt to say walter was a terrible person since the beginning, but i think that's like, the most boring takeaway you can get about his character. he was already insecure and prideful from the start, and it's what would hurt him and keep hurting him. but like, being insecure and prideful are regular traits any regular person can have. the actions that he makes because of these traits, which in turn keep fueling his ego more and more, are what makes him an interesting character. and he was already pretty capable of hurting other people, but he wasn't doing it out of malice, but more because of careless selfishness at first. what makes walter terrifying is that the more he does it, the more he becomes aware of what he's doing, and the more he keeps going and keeps being more and more meticulous and deliberate about what he does that hurts people and even to the point when it was specifically to hurt people.

i think the traits were there in walter from the beginning—the pilot did a pretty good job of establishing how powerless he's felt all his life and just how susceptible he is to letting this newfound perceived power get to his head so easily. he even says this explicitly in 5x06 "Buyout" when he tells jesse "i'm not in the money business, i'm in the empire business". but saying he was this monster from the start kind of implies he didn't undergo through a character arc throughout the show when it's quite literally what he did. he got worse. so much worse. through mostly the fault of his own fragility.

[f1owermoon]

sorry i just. need to rant for a second

[redneckangelsdrinkmoonshine]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENSEN!!!!!

[rainbowresurrection]

I ended up reading The Price of the Phoenix and while it didn't make me want to bleach my eyes like Killing Time, I still didn't like it as much as I hoped I would. Don't get me wrong, the homoeroticism was intriguing to me, but the actual writing and storyline itself left me with a headache. I think I get my hopes up with these books, given all of the possibilities that the written word has for Trek, and it inevitably sets me up for disappointment lol

[twentythousandvolts]

oh yeah it turns out that an ex of mine has been being fucking weird about me on here again -_- not sure what the point in posting this is i just wanted to complain. about that.

[todayisafridaynight]

*head in hands* whats the opinion on the yakuza tv series brother

i cant have an opinion on a thing when the thing aint even out yet brother