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mistyycowoa · 11 hours ago

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Confessing my sins to the internet because my irl friends don't know my tumblr

I'm actually a horrible friend and I don't plan to change :)

I'll be a good friend to anyone I actually like and I usually don't associate with people who I don't like, but sometimes there will be an occasional lonely (usually annoying) kid that follows me around. (They're lonely for a reason.) I kinda hate people who are loud literally all the time but I can hold my tongue and this kinda person just doesn't leave because they're not being told directly to leave.

What do I do? I talk to them only when I need them, I make unnecessarily mean comments as a joke, I point out their obvious flaws that I know they have a hard time changing, and all while they still follow me around like I'm not kinda bullying them.

Sometimes I'll treat them like an actual friend when I'm in a good mood, but if I'm not, then the unfortunate victim becomes my emotional punching bag. (I have ways to quickly fix my mood and this is completely unnecessary and I could distance myself until I feel better like how I do with actual friends.) I think this is like. Breadcrumbing? Anyways yeah, toxic shit.

If any of your "friends" treat you like this, they don't see you as a friend. If they leave you doubting if they like you or not, leave you doubting if you're actually friends, they probably don't see you as a friend. (because that's the case for me :3 )

I'm a horrible human being and I don't feel nearly as bad as I should about it :)

#i had a friend in primary school who was treated like this by me and my then best friend for the whole 6 years #she was very much bullied i think #we literally had a “class x girls group” and “class x girls group without (victim)” and we sometimes shit talked her in there #my best friend was a bit more obvious about not liking her #she would like be my shield anytime things got confrontational while i never stood up for myself #pretty sure she shared snacks with me a lot too and i just never returned the favour.#and now theres this boy that has nearly no friends who follow me around during breaks #just today i literally gave him the silent treatment because i was having an inner monologue and i didn't bother telling him #i even found it kinda funny that i walked around silently while he muttered to himself and questioned if he did anything wrong #like dude no you didn't do anything wrong but also i found it too funny to correct you #i have actual friends that i treat decently btw #like. without all this weird shit #i just take advantage of the loney and probably neurodivergent kids :)#moral of the story. please have more than 1 friend. especially irl. dont let them treat you like how i treat these poor “friends” of mine #ive literally never told the 2 people i mentioned here anything along the lines of “im grateful i have you”#feel free to stop being my friend because of a post like this :3 #i wouldnt say i *like* being a horrible friend but also im like. not doing anything about it and not bothering to change for the sake of #these people who are already kind of outcasted and probably need someone to rely on #“im not doing charity” proceeds to refuse basic respect to these people because theyre “annoying”#you could call this a vent post #im kind of telling myself that im a horrible person to begin with so i feel less bad about “breaking character” on top of being guilty #honestly i hope this kind of person finds someone who genuinely accepts them because they deserve better than this #and also because theyre a headache for me and im sick of them

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