#like a dated journal that is

[whoreishghost]

i rlly wanted to keep a journal this coming yr but as a fomer # studyblr blog im v picky about notebooks and paper (which is probs great for my finances or whatever) so id probs have to buy online so its kinda too late (and also i have no money atm) i was looking at the a6 hobinichi avec bc then id have the limited space from the daily pages bc i often struggle w too much space (i do v little)(also fairly sure they dont have weekly spreads but not 100% on that) and more emotional stuff honestly doesnt take up that much space and id do in a separate not every day what did u do memory archive journal anyway tbh but unforchies the cheapest i can find that is like £30 which is way more than i can afford (wld be worth it 2 me tho lol) (# special interest in stationery idk her) but oh well

[obsob]

one small step for. kitties

[tea-tuesday]

06/18/2024

haven't journaled in a while and i was feeling a little burnt out/sick of desks so i decided to sit in a chair and journal on my laptop case/on my lap instead of at a table. please enjoy this very soothing green plant in natural sunlight🪴💚 i really took delight in resting my eyes on it hehe...

[morganbritton132]

After David tells him that his ex has arrived for Career Day and it’s not even the Wheeler that he asked for, Steve marches over to Mike like, “What are you doing here?”

Wow, David thinks to himself. He’s been told that Steve has some problems with his memory - apparently he compensated for it with a truly insane online calendar - but he didn’t expect him to forget about a whole human being. Just, wow.

Steve loudly tells Mike that he’s never had a real job and Mike scoffs at him and tells him that he wrote for a comic book website for three years. Journalism is just writing with a fancy degree. Will and Mike created a comic book together so, “I’m published.”

“Robin is published,” Steve stresses (Steve’s best friend, David knows that one). “If that was the only qualification I wanted than I would’ve asked Robin to come.”

They start squabbling again in whispered voices so David turns to Dustin and tries to alleviate some of the awkwardness with, “Steve, uh, really has a type, huh?”

Dustin squints at him, “Did you just meet him? Today?”

[coffeeismycallsign]

finding my peace through chaos seems to be a strong suit.

[fully-automatic-ass]

The obm bros as shit I've done

Lucifer: drunk enough coffee that I felt jittery, dizzy, and nauseous for 12 hours

Mammon: stolen ₹20 (0.24 USD) from my mum's purse (as a six year old)

Leviathan: play obm. Like come on he would

Satan: stayed awake for a full 36 hours (I was too busy reading to sleep)

Asmodeus: Owned a perfume collection

Beelzebub: Eaten a whole ear of corn. I mean all of it, including the insides.

Belphegor: slept for a full 15 hours

[etheries1015]

"Babe-" No no no no, I'm gonna stop you right there.

Darling, my beloved, Sweetest, Beautiful, gorgeous, Love, Honey, My love, Dear, Sunshine, Pumpkin, sweatheart...

If you're going to use a pet name for me, I want to feel like this:

Does this makes sense or is it just me idk

[stockholmgf]

i have to mute myself every day on the phone with my bf so i can “tell” him all about the surprises i’m working on for him cause i simply cannot keep my mouth shut

[antlered-prince]

What’s Nightmare writing about? :0

He's compiling some notes about the flowers in his Court (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

[dsmsix]

I just want to announce I pulled such a bad bitch on saturday that when she first started flirting back I looked at her like this

[ellabswilliamson]

Just noticed in the episode Left Behind the song that plays in the background while Ellie and Riley explore the mall is 'Take On Me'

And the song that Ellie sings to Dina around the campfire and in Seattle in Part II is 'Take On Me'

[daftpatience]

figured out how to show off some of the cute pages in my journal yayayay

[kimmiessimmies]

Winter 08: Dateless - Pt. 2 (18/64)

I actually felt a bit silly because my life story isn't half as interesting as his, and I told him that too, but he said he'd read a book about me any day, which again gave me goosebumps.

He hugged me pretty closely when we said goodbye. It felt very nice...

I really didn't want to say goodbye to Malte, but I had a class, so I needed to go...

I very much hope we can see each other again...

Gameplay notes: Rachel and Malte got on like fire! They both kept initiating interactions with each other (when they didn't get distracted by all the books surrounding them...), and their relationship turned into "friends" pretty quickly. From then on, Malte initiated a lot of flirtatious jokes. I wasn't sure if my shy girl would like that, but she did! Eventually, the flirtatious jokes made way for simply "flirt" and there were even autonomous amorous hugs. After the "flirt" interaction, both Malte and Rachel rolled wishes to kiss each other and watch the stars together (even though it was daytime). I didn't want them to kiss because it would be Rachel's first kiss, and she wouldn't just jump in and do that on her first date. That would be out of character. But I did feel bad when it was time to end the date. These two could have had a lot more fun together. Of course, we have many more dates to go, but Malte is a serious contender! They parted as "good friends". Attraction score: 8.

Malte created by @nornities

[wit-and-worry]

Damn none of the Grindr trannies want me man. I don’t wanna be stuck drowning in fucking cheese crusted chaser cock forever. Celibacy is starting to look like my best bet.

Even when the good-looking trannies message first, after I follow up they ghost. Moreover the lot of them are 24+ and don’t wanna date a dickless 18 year old twink that looks like a freshly pubescent boy in thin disguise.

I wanna date trans people because cis men too often do not see trans people as human, even when they’re willing to fuck them, and I am not at all confident in my ability to appeal to cis women and have pretty much decided to put that Sisyphean endeavor on hold indefinitely.

However, trans people are just people and there’s as little guarantee that I will get along with any one of them as with cis people. Some are cunts. Some are boring. Some are weirdos. Many are just irritating. Some may think I’m a weird, boring, and insufferable cunt. Some are just out of my league. Many will have interests incompatible with mine. It’s a small pool. A very small pool.

Fuck.

I know that I’ve only been on testosterone for 8 months, but I wonder when I’ll start to look like a man. It’ll take years for sure, but I dread that it won’t happen until I’m middle aged. I hope for facial hair. At least a moderate rug of stubble.

Having adult urges and desires, and being a legal adult, and looking like a child is fucked. Totally fucked up. Fuck this existence. Being trans is just fucked. I hate carrying all of this tranny baggage. I know the progression of my anger in this rant seems steep but it’s not just about fucking Grindr. It’s not just about the issues of love and sex. It’s fucking everything. My body that’s a betrayal to me, the loneliness, the self hatred that I know is somewhat justified, the rejection and manipulation I put up with because I can’t swallow my (self imposed)loneliness anymore, the guilt, fear, humiliation, boredom, and hopelessness.

I only bear it because I hate the thought of dying as the pathetic loser that I am, without having experienced extra-familial love of a platonic or romantic kind.

Anyway. fuck this shit. I’m going to bed.

[flowersandfashion]

It's always "ooh I crave sapphic romance" "I want a girl to write poems about me"

what if the poems are really bad? what then?

(not a hypothetical. help me)

[thedeafprophet]

@the-dye-stained-socialite THEY ARE

okay real talk, day to day activities in the social sphere are a living hell for Jamie. It was???? somewhat more managable on the surface, back when there was different expectations of them and the like

but now they have to keep track of dates, and social events, and when and how they last responded to someone, and deadlines and due dates and all the other stuff, and messing up in these social spheres can be disastrous

the time blindness and hyper fixation that comes with their writing can lead to very heavy neglect of the self, coming out of their office not even remembering the time of day. They very much have to be reminded to eat and drink at times, and can completely get lost in their own head.

they dont even have the same typical day-night cycles to partially help cue them either. procrastination and unfinished projects haunt them, and the exectutive dysfunction and inability to start tasks does not! make it any easier! The hours spent Wanting to start working on something or responding to something instead spent Sitting There, knowing they should start. but they just can't seem to do it.

not even getting into having to sit still at dinners, of being unable to avoid zoning out in conversations or events. couple on the very strong RSD they have, it makes for a whole lot of mess in an area that can be devasting to fall under

thank goodness they have the house staff now to help with the townhouse, they really, truly, do not take them for granted. having people to do the laundry and the cleaning was neccesary for most houses back then, but especially is for Jamie. Jamie fundamentally cannot keep on top of everything