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thistransient · 2 years ago

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google photos gave me one of those "remember this day" things and it turns out I took the same photo 6 years and a couple weeks apart (↑ 2022 ↓ 2016)

#I'm awake at a rude hour cause I'm stressed about tomorrow #but this photo is somehow reassuring #life moves in spirals #i read to one of my friends his letter from the series i was working on and he cried #the only way out is through #i want to go back to sleep but now I'm hungry goddammit #I've also had a weird quasi migraine thing since Tuesday #come on body we can do it

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 7 months ago

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I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #wen qing #jiang cheng #Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile.#This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature.#But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly'#My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out.#Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth.#I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity-#-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly.#Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose.#You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok #Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards.#Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever.#To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss.#Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'.#described in alt text #I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day

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kazanskyy · 4 months ago

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iceman + his concern for maverick post-hop 31

#icemav #top gun edit #ice is a FASCINATING one to watch post-hop 31 imo because while yes‚ obviously‚ the focus is on maverick and his grief and devastation #ice is there the whole time in the background‚ watching. and he's visibly disturbed by what he's seeing. because yeah -#he and mav had a rivalry going and yeah he called maverick dangerous and reckless to his face and he stands by that - he does.#but the problem is that this time - this one fluke freak accident of a time - it wasn't maverick's fault at all.#an unrecoverable flat spin brought on by a compressor stall from ice's jetwash isn't something that maverick could've outflown #by sticking to textbook maneuvers. it was just shit luck and shitty circumstances aligning to create a tragic mishap.#but now - now ice can see the way maverick is unraveling in the aftermath #and i'd bet that on some level it terrifies him to see that.#he's used to seeing maverick with all that brash cocky confidence with the moves to back it up.#he's maybe even had a bit of fun jockeying against that. not that he'd admit that out loud. (yet)#but maverick's spiraling now - a hollowed out shell of his former self - leaking grief and self-doubt and despair everywhere he goes #and it actually hurts to look at for ice‚ seeing maverick like this. seeing how much maverick really REALLY fucking cared under that facade #and wondering if maverick is finally taking the stuff ice said to him to heart‚ but applying it all wrong.#so he watches maverick and eventually that concern builds to a point where he tries to offer an olive branch in the locker room #you can SEE how carefully he gathers himself - how much he's holding back - he doesn't want to say the wrong thing to maverick NOW #he doesn't want to make this worse than it already is. so it comes out stilted. it's earnest - but restrained. he can't find his footing.#he doesn't know where he and maverick stand now but he's sorry - that goose is gone‚ that maverick's going through this‚#that he doesn't know how to help or what to say‚ and - crucially - for his own part in this.#but he wants mav to stick around and push through this. even though he's dangerous. even though he's reckless. ice wants him to beat this.#so when maverick shows up to graduation‚ ice is encouraged. and he's a little warmer. maverick really might pull through.#but then‚ all too soon‚ it's ice's life on the line in maverick's hands. and it scares the shit out of him because maverick's not ready #and now ice - and slider - are going to have to pay the price for that.#and then‚ against all odds‚ maverick pushes through. he comes back for them. he comes back for ice.#and after that...well.#after that‚ ice does know what to say: a vow.#my amvs #linds original

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sforzesco · 2 months ago

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BALAK, PANGAGAD

uhhh conspiracy. can be a courtship dance. ritual. so to speak. & hosting one in your house is an act of service

#(vague hand waving) gender or something as well. the romans sure do love discourses on identity. moving along!#i'm working on something that leads to a scene where Trebonius says that in a different life Cassius would've #made an ideal wife for someone. and Cassius is like. lmao. sure whatever. and it'll spiral out into bickering or whatever and Trebonius #would say something about how Cassius could've been a modern Lucretia. or something.#Cassius would of course return fire with Portia being their modern Lucretia for having to put up with Brutus during All Of That #EH. we're work shopping it. the more immediate one is when Cassius says that his name can handle the weight of a shared #conspiracy (incorrect it requires a sacrifice of Brutus but for a moment they can all indulge in a fantasy)#ANYWAY. back to courtship rituals. the conspiracy can also function as a barkada and serve as the go between #drawing tag #komiks tag #roman republic tag

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isagrimorie · 3 months ago

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Criminal Minds Evolution 17x02 - Contagion | 17x03 - Homesick

People use covert/spy techniques and Emily Prentiss immediately notices. Parts 1, 2, 3 (Don't con a conman -- don't use covert tactics around a former spy)

#criminal minds evolution #tv: criminal minds #cmedit #criminalmindsedit #emily prentiss #david rossi #tyler green #penelope garcia #tara lewis #rebecca wells #honestly at this point of her life #emily is a spy master #even though she hasn't done clandestine operations in years #(who knows what she was up to when she ran interpol #prentiss got a lot more comfortable living in her moral grays #when she returned after london)#also i think only a handful know emily used to be a spy #in between the original show ending #and cm evolution starting; it felt like paget brewster #became more comfortable with pretniss' power #there's a casualness to how prentiss moves and holds herself #i don't think her relaxed posture was there when she was unit chief in seasons 12-15 #now in evolution prentiss standing behind her chair and leaning against it #and listening to tyler debriefing #felt casually powerful and wholly emily #i don't see hotch pulling this move or morgan #i think emily was uncomfortable being #her friends' boss for a large part of the time in seasons 12 -15 #the times we see hints of evolution; post-london emily #is when she drew a line when the team spiraled

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positiveupwardspiral · 13 days ago

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mothofprophecy · 1 year ago

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This will only make sense to the very small percentage of you who know both TMA and the life series but I present to you: distortion Grian

#ferni.doodles #grian #grian distortion #tma #the life series #secret life #okokok this was mainly inspired by the bit where Lizzie had just seen that the door had been moved and said #‘I know this doesn’t make sense to you but this door was not here a second ago’#and then he made that staircase which is very spiral #I also drew BigB distortion last week (I am not obsessed with making people the distortion)#<—lies #but yeah didn’t post the BigB one bc it wasn’t very good

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skunkes · 1 month ago

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gonna keep making this post forever i guess because it just keeps getting wilder the more time passes and my brain forgets the immediate sensations/experience but i can't believe i got SURGERY. CRAZY. Not even this specific surgery but the fact that I got any surgery at all!!! SO WILD

#LIKE. in the way of me having the courage to get it done - the actual physical taking of my body to the hospital to do it - and #the fact that that's something that could even be done with today's medicine. like that's insane its so crazy. i got surgery.#like it wasnt a big deal at all it was short and easy #but its still wild ykwim. insane. and i didnt even freak out either. calmest ive ever been.#only time ive ever been able to actually fall asleep before a Big Event #talkys #i keep looking at my scars and forgetting and remembering like holy shiiiiit i was in the hospital i was in the surgery room i was in the #recovery room. ME. me and my brain and my body all of us. only us. crazy #<- going to stop here before i start spiraling from further train of thought on the matter #how many ppl in history must have wanted dis for themselves but been unable. i am so grateful i love my vessel now #i hope i get to like it more.... please god let me be able to move out soon #i also said this the last time i made this post but i cant wait to experience more things....#so be it life is still beautiful

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bxsmxx · 4 months ago

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we moved on from this way too fast he makes me so sad he makes me so miserable

#he looks so terribly sad i will never move on from this #he just wanted a peaceful and comfortable life :(((((#with a nice job a nice house and a nice family augh :(((((#im already sad today im making myself miserable #im not okay good lord i love him so much im so sad #look at his eyes:(((#and the way he always covers his ears when he's stressed or spiraling im so MISERABLE #shawty said this my comfort character then picks a character that's never known comfort #sorry for the rant i needed to get it off #attack on titan #aot #shingeki no kyojin #snk #jean #jean kirstein

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weidli · 5 months ago

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i know i won't be leaving here with you

#tricked yall. this isn't actually about thorsten and victor it's about those two rabbits from the opening scene of tödliche tarnung #tatort stuttgart #(that was a lie this is my thorsten/victor thesis statement)#are they GOOD for each other? debatable. did they spend 90% of their acquaintance lying to each other? absolutely. are they both really #competent in their respective fields and really good at working together when they want to? yeah. is there something more than a little #homoerotic about all of it?#yes <3 #the thing about take me out is that it's a rival snipers song and it's a song about machinery and knowing only one of you is getting out of #this alive . the thing about take me out is that it's about the moment before you both pull the trigger #still very annoyed by the GAPING continuity fail in spiel auf zeit btw. i'm sorry you're gonna base a whole escape plan on victor faking #there being a daughter thorsten doesn't know about. when tödliche tarnung TOLD us that victor has a daughter and OH YEAH thorsten (or chris #is her GODFATHER #come on. guuuuuyyyssss #i like making vids that feel a little like they're spiraling. repeating the same scenes (but not quite the same moments) over and over #again until it resolves into something either further up or further down but not far away from where we started #flashing back and back unable to look directly at the key moment until it passes and it becomes possible to move on #i ALSO like sebastian's silly little gazelle hop in that scene right after victor saves thorsten's life. symmetry would have demanded i add #some sort of baustelle instead on exactly that beat but no damn you. not throwing out the silly gazelle hop

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swiftiefirefighters · 16 days ago

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late night thought: so like i’m guessing at this point that even tho eddie is chris’ legal guardian and his place of residence is still seemingly la they got chris enrolled in school in el paso bc i doubt he’s just not going so what’s gonna happen to this poor kid when he does go home like yanking him from school and dropping him mid year in a different one seems so unfair bc esp from texas to ca i’m assuming the curriculum is wildly different man idk i know im not supposed to think this hard about it but i can’t help it lmao

#911 #eddie’s just gonna move back to el paso to ruin my life #rip #mostly just kidding but …1 fear etc etc #it’s too late i’m gonna spiral goodnight

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running-in-the-dark · 2 months ago

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can't sleep (despite new meds + melatonin, boo), so I'm thinking about random shit. like: it's insane to me that I'm totally fine living on the ground floor now. it used to really freak me out. I hated being downstairs when we lived in a house. I always felt watched when I had my room on the ground floor. and every time I visited my dad at his ground floor apartment - where I was on my own except for maybe an hour a day - I had what I now know were panic attacks several times a day. so like, that's pretty crazy.

#not once have I thought that I'm about to be murdered since we moved in #and I used to think that everywhere. it was just MUCH worse on the ground floor #idk im just insane maybe #but it's nice that the (other) meds seem to be doing a good job #it feels so crazy now when those kinds of thoughts come back at night. like HOW did I live like this for 30 years?? how did I not kill #myself (too scared lol that's literally the only reason)#anyway hi it seems like I only come here to talk about the dumb shit my brain does at this point #sorry! I mean it doesn't matter I guess bc who would even notice #idk I tried to be online less soooo now I'm back on reddit instead and it is not good for me and I know it #might be spiralling about general life stuff too which is always fun #I'm just so bad at being a productive member of society #literally we went to the city for a couple of hours yesterday and I was so fucking exhausted that I had to sleep for like 5 hours #ughh...#man I really need to fall asleep soon.#personal

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spookykestrel · 1 year ago

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you make plans with your friends when youre growing up that you'll move in togehter and always stay near and go to each other's weddings and always talk and always call and then you get to the age you're supposed to start doing that kind of thing and realize all the friends you had hoped would stay by you forever have gone off to do things without you and you're just in the same spot and suddenly you have to do it all on your own

#kestrel calls #text post #chitter chatter #negative #????#ive no idea im sort of just having a late night spiral #my best and really only good close friend decided to go to college after all #and id always thought and hoped we'd just move out west together #but now tht's not happning and i can't wait for them to finish college #bc my parents are moving #and i can't support myself here #and im sort of just #spiraling and panicking a little tiny bit #i just want to move in with this nb artist i found today on craigslist #but that won't happen and i don't know what im doing with my life #and i feel stuck #and yk.... scary #anywayyyyyy like it's totally fine this is just all i think about everyday dw abt it #but if you know somebody looking for a roommate in the greater mt/idaho/wy/nd area uhhhhh hmu #/hj

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neallo · 3 months ago

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have been experiencing a somewhat unpleasant phenomena on occasion recently wherein i become convinced, in a sort of “not-upset-just-disappointed” way, that virtually everything i've ever written is trite and stupid and worthless. a fun twist on this is that sometimes i instead feel that i have lost my touch and that everything i will ever write from here on out is doomed to be trite and stupid and worthless. i'd like to emphasize that for whatever reason i don't really find this distressing, just a little bit of a bummer. it would be cool if it stopped though i think that would be really swag

#neallopost #malaise city! but we keep moving :-)#one of the things that i am actually happiest about though is that in the last year i feel like i have developed a better ability #to weather these sorts of moods without spiraling. this time last year i was feeling a similar base sort of insecurity #but i was making myself sick over it. and now it's striking again and i kinda hate it #and i'm not really able to talk myself out of feeling this way or believing these things in various moments #but i also do know i'm not likely to always feel this way and i do feel like. happier with my life outside writing #which is all i think helping me weather these little “storms” much better :3

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widevibratobitch · 9 months ago

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in terror, four lieutenants; in t3m, four musketeers. Conclusion?

conclusion - same as always: destiny.

but wait oh christ okay. they even kinda fit...

you've got the og trio of

Wet Pathetic Loser

Deeply Religious Guy

Fancy Lad

which ig would make dundy... d'artagnan?? no. no oh god ok. listen. d'artagnan is jopson im afraid:

1. has a deeply homoerotic father/son relationship with a suicidal alcoholic

2. is actually kinda obsessed with him tbh

3. doesn't really start out as One Of Them, has to wait quite some time to get promoted

4. big part of the fandom actually ships him with little aka our athos

it makes sense you gotta believe me it does it does

#it absolutely doesn't #idk who dundy could be tbh...#ig if you squinted reeeeeally hard you could make him into a quasi mordaunt #since little is our athos equivalent #(that should honestly be crozier but for the sake of making our three musketeers/three lieutenants parallel lets go with little)#and the way little and dundy end up... look dundy is the only surviving officer of erebus.#gore and fitzjames die because life sucks but fairholme's death is arguably crozier's fault #and since in this strange parallel world athos is apparently split into crozier and little...#and since a very popular fandom headcanon is that little is the one to ultimately kill dundy....#i have no idea where im going with this and with all my love to irving #imagining him as an aramis equivalent made me throw up in my mouth a little.#i guess aramis would have to be an insane combination of irving and hickey?? so ig he should kill uhh himself? shit omg wait #he does have a SA in the books.....#oh yeah it's all coming together #(<-lies. this makes no fucking sense)#pizza you've sent my mind into a spiral of eternal damnation im grasping at straws to make some ✨parallels✨#unfortunately im like a vampire in this case.#if you throw at me a bunch of potential parallels i cannot move a muscle until ive found counted and picked them all up #i hate it here #im not even tagging it this post is fucking shameful pathetic and desperate #and yeah hodgson is porthos im afraid deal with that #ask

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banqanas · 5 months ago

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not to be that person who keeps saying highlow highlow highlow like a broken record which seems disregarding whatever projects Idh has for the past years but truly, nothing has topped the life changing, brain-chemical altering effect it has on me

#banantxt #highlow has changed my brain into moving from 2d series -> 3d series #and then even the small action of casting keito as kamui has sent me down the spiral of fantastics #which i have to mention that up until a year ago was my least favourite group in Idh i didnt even care one bit about them #not least favourite in exile tribe but in Idh as in among the many many groups in the company fanta wasnt even in my radar LMAO #the effect kamui had on me was really that life changing.#(i say 'kamui' not keito here)#and the dude barely even had 10 lines in the whole movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I AM DOWN BAD.#exile txt

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