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#lately i have been really. overwhelmed#and. ikind of feel like. i know my life wont improve for awhile if ever?#ive kind of b een thinking about how stressful everything is. how i have never enouh time and people wsnt more from me than i can give#and i think. well at least i get to die someday because i know itll be relaxing and a relief#and i know thats. like. bad but#it kind of feels like my life is a never ending trouble? and i dont really see anything changing#i dont feel like i can rely on anyone to ever make it easier#i guess i feel like of alone with my issues? i feel like....hm#i used to have hope for change i guess like. different things coming up#i guess i should rethink my priorities in life. and what ive been accepting as s given#im not happy i think; but i dont really know what to do#i kinda feel like i want to cry and just be alone for a week straight#then i can go back to being benignly fine#vent#em yaps
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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)
#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright#here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really#im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting#the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one#like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans#and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall#it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf#i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear#also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb#sth#sonic fanart#sonic#amy rose#nov.aart#nov.junk
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A "RETURN of the Number of PERSONS FLOGGED in the BRITISH NAVY, in each of the Years 1845 and 1846; specifying the Name of the Ship, the Offence, the Sentence and the Number of Lashes Infficted." Parlamentary Paper, Number 661 of Session 1847
So after reading the Post about Jopsons Flogging by @handfuloftime I went down a research rabbit hole because I wanted to see if their exist sufficient & specific enough Data to accuratly compare his punishment and put it in the historical context.
I found this Website, which features the two tables from the Parlamentary Papers and their Source.
(Note: The tables on the website are incomplete and inaccurate in certain places. I compared it from top to bottom to the original source and corrected/added the informations in my table.)
I used that as a basis for my own table, where I also added Averages and Sliders so people can search the Informations!
(Apparently Sliders don't work on Mobil, and I don't know enough about Google Sheets how to fix it :/
If anyone knows or if you find a some kind mistake please let me know.)
This week I visited the University Libary, which has access to the Parlamentary Papers Online, to see if such tables also exist for earlier years but sadly 1845 was the first year where they went into such Specifics.
(I hope to add some of the Years after 1846 to the table, when I can.)
Earlier years only had these Informations per Year:
Total Number of Punishments
Total Number of Lashes
Highest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time
Lowest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time
This Information for 1839 - 1846 under the Cut.
Also under the Read More are some Graphs, Medians & Averages about Flogging for Drunkenness Alone, seperated by Seamen, Marines, Boys and Everyone!
Hope that someone find this useful/interesting !
Corporal Punishment for Drunkenness Alone
Everyone:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 32,75 (1845: 36 | 1846: 31,4)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 31,07 (1845: 31,13 | 1846: 31,02)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,02 | 1846: 30,58)
Seamen:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 36 (1845: 36 | 1846: 36)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 34,37 (1845: 34,62 | 1846: 33,86)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 34,33 (1845: 34,41 | 1846: 33,86)
Marines:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 31,4 (1845: 32 | 1846: 31,4)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 31,09)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 30,69)
Boys:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 24 (1845: 24 | 1846: 33)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 26,22 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 28,5)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 25,33 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 26,5)
Years
1839:
Number of Punishments: 2,007
Number of Lashes: 59,341
Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3
1840:
Number of Punishments: 2,026
Number of Lashes: 60,302
Highest: 48 | Lowest: 1
1841:
Number of Punishments: 2,066
Number of Lashes: 61,669
Highest: 50 | Lowest: 2
1842:
Number of Punishments: 2,472
Number of Lashes: 71,024
Highest: 100* | Lowest: 1
1843:
Number of Punishments: 2,170
Number of Lashes: 63,985
Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3
1844:
Number of Punishments: 1,411
Number of Lashes: 42,352
Highest: 72+ | Lowest: 6
1845:
Number of Punishments: 1,070
Number of Lashes: 33,511
Highest: 48 | Lowest: 3
1846:
Number of Punishments: 1,077
Number of Lashes: 32,360
Highest: 50* | Lowest: 3
*By sentence of a Court Martial.
+By order of the Commander-in-Chief for theft, in a shop at Chusan, and violence to the natives.
Sources: A "RETURN of the CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the ROYAL NAVY, in each of the Years 1839 to 1843, both inclusive, stating the highest and lowest Number of Lashes at each Time, and the aggregate Number of Lashes in each Year [ ]" Parlamentary Paper, Number 308, of Session 1845 + ABSTRACT of Total Numbers of CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the NAVY, and the Total Number of LASHES Inflicted, in each Year up to the 31st December 1846 [ ]. Parlamentary Paper, Number 661, of Session 1847
#british navy#the terror#thomas jopson#cornelius hickey#tagging him also because maybe some fan find this interesting too#good I hope this post is formulated okay#i tend to overthink that#also it's late BUT I finally need to post this#before terror camp next week#okay this week for me#but I havent gone to bed so I dont feel like it's monday yet#i spend lots of hours searching until I found that website the day the post hit#and when the Keynote was Anounced I knew that I had to finally finish the table#I spend SO SO Many Hours on this#I hope at least one person will find this useful#also the Admiralitys Capitalising really didnt help reign my german brain in#also this isn't all the maths I have in my notes#I calculated more Averages but I thought I might overwhelm people so I streamlined this Post a bit#Still mad that I worked so much to get this Sliders to work#even after they Broke#and they not even work on Mobile#need to fix that somehow in the future#i always had the Vibe that Floggings in The Terror might have been tuned down/adjusted for modern audiences
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habby halloweeners :]
#im tryna come back i promise#SOBS#i have so much art and i hope to post it#just been really overwhelmed as of late#BUT ANYWAYS#HERES SOME FREAKS#I LOVE TRIALS#leland coyle#franco barbi#mother gooseberry#art#outlast trials#halloween art#my art#outlast
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i wanted to do a piece to commemorate all the amazing waddle dees who entered the @kirbyoctournament this year! as starstruck is the last dee standing in the mainline tourney, that's a big legacy to carry, but she's doing her best...!
if you want to help her keep fighting the fight for the Humble Waddle Dee against all these super cool knights, dark matters, gods, and ancients, you can vote for starstruck here!
additionally with the first round of second chance voting now open, all these dee's are back for more, and you can give them your vote in the second chance bracket!! sadly a few of them are up against each other, but from top to bottom, here are links to vote for your favourites!
galaxia // ideena // pip // fondue // starry // mimi // daisy // rainbow // wadhat // wridee // stellar // rope mf // keyper // seam // lemon // flower // and of course starstruck being squished to within an inch of her life there 😂
character credits, from top to bottom!
galaxia @centellazul // ideena @tazmilygray // pip @emmyp0ps // fondue @moonmacabre01 // starry @staring-at-a-blank-pagee // mimi @clownie-rainbow // daisy @starrygoober // rainbow @cali-kabi // wadhat @iwontusethis255 // wridee @mxmanynames // stellar @drawscutestuff // rope mf @mint-termsandconditions // keyper @bloodiegawz // seam @cloud-the-forgotten // lemon @snazzyladreal // flower @eliastheownerof0axolotls
i hope you all enjoy it!! best of luck to everyone and their wanyas in the tourney and second chance!! 💖🙏
#starstruck dee#others ocs#my art#kirby oc tournament#all character credits under the cut! this was already long enough 😂#this was a big project but as resident wanya oc enjoyer i really wanted to honour all the waddles in the tourney!#i also made an alt of this for artfight which included 7 *other* waddle dee ocs not in the tourney. might post that later!#don't forget to vote for your favourites!! including starstruck!! she's up against incredible powerhouse Mama D this round!#fingers crossed she makes it. go tiny girlfailure wawa go!!!#i have been desperate to continue my propaganda and answer asks but i've been so overwhelmed with work lately. soon though! i hope!#thanks for sticking around and to everybody who has voted for starstruck so far!! it means a lot to me to see her do well out there! 💖🎀
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one of those nights
#small vent#lately I’ve been questioning things a lot#and this overwhelming feeling of being lonely takes over#and I question myself and my feelings and thoughts on certain things#sometimes i end up thinking im a bad person#the guilt i feel because I don’t do ship art gets overwhelming sometimes#and i end up feeling like an asshole because of it#but I genuinely just can’t (at least not for the gf fandom)#family and platonic moments are just way too important to me#which might explain a small desire wanting to have that but unable to#maybe it’s the aroaceness in me idk#it just gets really lonely sometimes in your own corner#i’m sorry#I know things like this can be annoying but I needed to vent#some more light-hearted things hopefully soon#delete later
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hi guys.................... i still use this site......................... hello......................... gay vocaloids anyone?
#such a niche ship and a crazy change from mp100 AND limbus no?#anyway. ive been avoiding tumblr lately bc of the amount of palestine asks ive been getting.#i know i have the luxury to literally everything i have rn compared to palestinians but#im in no shape to help them in any way i can; best i can do is be informed. i cant really share the asks either bc i dont have much#of an audience so theyre kinda just forced to pile up and its been overwhelming me so much#i do plan on making some sort of masterlist for them eventually.. i just need to sort out myself for a while#sorry for the yap sesh omfg this is just a ship post LOL :sob:#hyaku rambling in tags again....#hyaku art#pikase#utatane piko#fukase#fukase vocaloid#piko vocaloid#vocaloid piko#piko utatane
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Happy Halloween y'all!!!
#I know I've been kinda AWOL a lot lately -meatspace happenings have been really overwhelming and free time a lot more scarce#But I love you peeps and I hope you have a wonderful Halloween- whatever shape it takes#Please accept my quick little painting done in the wee hours of Halloween morning as a thank you for sticking around#Halloween#🎃 Cryptid sighting#watercolor#Dead of Night Studio#My art
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🤍 the cure to all my ailments 🤍
#jinki art is BACK on this blog (back back back)#my drawing tablet was happy to come out of its drawer for a change#should I tag this as *not an edit*?#I've been toning down on the hyper-realism lately but I never know if it will confuse folks lol#anyway#I'm overwhelmed with excitement#he looks so goooooood#lee jinki#ThatGoodOldArtTag#onew#shinee#(I wish I'd had time to glaze and nightshade this but it was taking foreveeeer to download the resources and unzip and setup the#whole thing and I really need to go to bed cause these days I'm working like crazy and it's been stressful#so perhaps the next time I'll have more time to setup these softwares and make them work) *sigh*#shinee shenanigans
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Puppy is being born today probably!!!
#just saw the breeder say her temp dropped last night#exciiiited#need to finally start doing some reading about becoming a multi dog house#want to do everything as well as possible and set everyone up for a happy life together#its almost weird having some anxiety about it when my house growing up always had 3+ dogs in it#idr my parents doing anything in particular to introduce. even when i brought home my sam#i was 14 but i have no memory of his first time being in the house and meeting our other dogs...#angel was such a mama and loved babies so im sure she instantly loved him but the other dogs?? idk#weird to remember picking him (he was a craiglist pup) and getting him in the car and even some of the ride home. talking names with my dad#but that's it#i just want misty and felony to be friiiends#and I'm a little worried about how jealous Misty has been lately. of her toys in particular#and she doesn't really like puppies very much tbh. they annoy and overwhelm her. (even though she's often overbearing with other dogs)#she's been doing this thing with visiting dogs where she'll grab a toy and bring it near them. shaking it around and being playful#but also with lots of growlies. not mean intense growls. but definitely more intense than when im playing with her and she's growly#it almost seems like a play with me but don't touch my toy kind of thing. not really sure what to make of it#if the dog grabs the toy she'll drop it and bark at them. and immediately reclaim the toy if the dog drops it#her preferred way to play would just be to run and shoulder bump and chase and be chased#but she'll do that whole thing with sticks too#if we're outside#idk. time to start reading and learning more#guess ive just been waiting until it felt real
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One thing I think you guys would really appreciate knowing about me is that I don't organize any of my files on my computer, I keep everything in the Downloads folder (regardless of if they were downloaded or not.) As you can imagine, this doesn't cause problems for me.
#woke up to a really sweet message saying people were talking about me in a discord and my approval rating was 100% 🥺#getting a good grade in fun to hang out with at sports games something that is normal to want and possible to achieve#i wish literally any of the 20 people who came for edm gritty night experienced that version of me. alas.....#we need to do over that weekend to the version where i was not so exhausted and overwhelmed i was about to die lmao#pondering going on testosterone again. cons: everything. pros: bear bait#also lost so much weight at some point in the last like 3 months that none of my pants fit so i've been bopping around in leggings#and let me tell you. the yoga pants girlies are onto something#kelly and i are going shopping later today fingers crossed i get jeans that fit. we're also going to build a bear for a wedding present for#a & d since they didn't tell me if they had a wedding registry or not#would love to say i have been more active and that's why i lost weight but i am pretty sure it is just disordered eating and being too sick#to make food lol#quitting my therapist's practice their views on religion are too rigid ���� if you cannot conceive of an in between place in faith then#i fear you will never understand who i am or how i approach the world#now i'm late for church. haha yay#ok that's all. i will return with build a bear pictures#fresno oilers.txt
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#i just need to vent abt this ok pls don’t yell at me or tell me im being ungrateful#but tfw u have almost 500 asks sitting in ur inbox and u literally don’t know what to do with them😀#the guilt that eats away at me because im not getting to what people say to me gets so bad sometimes#like you guys all have such great things to say and i want to be able to respond but there’s just such a large volume i get overwhelmed#and ive been so busy lately they’ve piled up bad#and ive even been missing ones from mutuals which i feel so bad about#im so sorry guys i really am like pls don’t abandon me im sorry ANDJJJSJ#and i just like. esp my regular anons i feel bad because i don’t mean to ignore you but stuff just gets lost#and the worst part is that if im spending hours on asks then im not writing fic#and im so behind on fic too#so. im not excelling in anything currently msdnskdjskdjskdjskdksks#el oh el#sorry i just needed that off my chest#i love u guys i appreciate you all seriously#delete later#🙏🙏🙏
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is a cool dude :D

Me!!?
#thanks Wakey 🥺💖#been going through a bit of a funk for a while#it’s sorta just been getting worse lately:(#which makes the fact that I gotta get through a new term of classes even more difficult 😭#i haven’t really been active on tumblr lately either#hopefully I’ll be able to come back eventually#I think I’m just at a weird crossroads with my life right now#it’s hard to figure out what to do#plus dysphoria has been throwing some tough punches lately#I want nothing more than to get top surgery at last#it’s been 8 years since I first started wanting top surgery and I still have not been able to get it#and I have absolutely no idea how to navigate the medical field either#it’s all so overwhelming along with school too…#but idk.. i guess life goes on#I have no idea how I’ll keep going on…#but I just gotta keep trying ig#I wish everyone well- and I am so sorry for accidentally putting this all in tags#I swear it was not intentional- I just kinda started talking more than i expected to#and then it was too late to go back..
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I dunno about anyone else but I feel like no matter how many funny videos I watch, or craft stuff or gaming, whatever, the tiktok feed always gives me these super detailed autism/adhd videos of people's experiences that are just so similar to how I feel pretty much all the time.
Anyway, I've got into the habit of skipping cos I'm just at my limit, but I clicked on the comments of one that just popped up, and the first comment was just this.
Hey babe, I'm really tired of learning these things about myself.
I don't laugh out loud often, but that got me
Extra - this lady was talking about how migraines/chronic fatigue/PMDD can be linked to people w high masking autism and that kind of just slapped me in the face
#personal#anyway#i dont really talk about stuff like this but lately im just so overwhelmed#i have been back and forth in my mind about whether to look into a diagnosis#part of me cant see what difference it would make#i have been so exhausted in my new job and i think its because i have been learning how to mask in front of this new group of people 🥴
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Charmkinz and other cutes ♥ (Patreon)
#Doodles#Villainsona#Just Desserts#But then again it's Charm so that's a cute constant lol#Do I include the Webkinz tag this time? S'kinda loose style-wise and there's more than just that#Hmmmmmm#Webkinz#Lol#Gah she really looks so cute in that pose! It's a good pose! I like it very much#She looks squidgey hehe <3 Squish lad#Apart from her hands I'd even argue that the second version with her at an angle is even cuter#There's something very satisfying about turning a pose while still keeping it recognizable :D Consistency of depth! Yayy#Taffy is already quite small in actual Just Desserts but this one is tiiiiiiny tiny! Itty bittiest little baah baah#Has to hop up just to land on Charm's shoe! So little...#Must give very careful pats#It's nice that a lot of JD residents would could with their own specialized Buddy haha#I really enjoy pet-specific Buddies! Even though they're meant to be interchangeable!#But what would he PSI and PSF be...#Pet of the Month specialty items would definitely be her candle wings#Probably wouldn't actually be her PSF but Candle Candies is pretty straightforward lol#More happy Charms hooray <3 Good mood! To the point of tears! Haha#I'm glad that's been the prevailing mood of late ♥ Feeling happy! And Charm always feels things The Most haha#Simple happiness is lovely too tho! Not quite so overwhelming just having a good and nice time!#She's so cute <3 Such a fun silhouette to play in
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I would love to see Lam in your style!!
Ask and ye shall receive 🤝

I like the idea of her having glasses, to fit her Oracle knack, but they’re fake, to fit the idea of her sort of being in disguise/hiding :) Giving Nevermoor characters glasses is a great hobby of mine lol
#it’s blurry bc ummmm all my drawings lately have been screenshots of teeny doodles on a massive canvas lol#asks#nevermoor#nevermoor fanart#lambeth amara#I have a love/hate relationship w this brush and just did whatever w the rendering bc I was having fun#I always like to do whatever and experiment with these requests as compared to everything else I draw :)#i always mean to make them More but it truly just depends on when I do them lol#also aside from these occasional requests I am only allowing myself one nevermoor drawing a month until October 😱#so folks that follow me elsewhere don’t get overwhelmed with nevermoor stuff before mogtober rolls around#anyways. what else. I’ve really gotta make some head turnarounds for 919 at some point to work on solidifying my designs. eventually ✍️.#I also just desperately need to study and improve in art in general and have to find ways to draw nevermoor whilst doing so 🤔
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