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it's kind of like insanely isolating that literally every aspec or "ace & aro" space I've found has been in actuality, solely for aces. perhaps arospec aces or aroaces who entirely prioritize their asexuality could also find company there, but even as an aromantic person who is also asexual, they're really not intended for me. so I can only imagine how isolating it must be if you're aromantic and allosexual
#I went to this aspec club on campus last fallâ and cliquiness asideâ they were literally talking about dating in there. like one guy was all#''I've been talking to this girl.... you think I should get her number?'' yada yada yada#like ok I guess this is just for asexuals then.#I can put up with hearing vague romance talk in other situations but in an allegedly 'aro and ace' club? nah fam#alsoâ the first time I went (I gave up after the second meeting lol)â we went around and introduced ourselves and then you could say what#kind of aspec you were if you wanted to#and everyone was saying asexualâ with maybe 4 or 5 aroacesâ and then when it got to me I said ''aromanticâ probably asexual'' and they just#all looked at me weird#maybe I imagined that. I'm bad at reading expressions#but cmon. imagine if I'd said aro straight or aro gay or smth#anyway I really do not like how the aspec community as a whole prioritizes asexuality over aromanticism#partially it's likely bc asexual used to mean aroace before the SAM was a thing#but I think its also bc people can imagine going without sex in a relationship (although they may conflate it with celibacy) (and not to say#people treat alloaces well at all lol)#(but the idea of someone eschewing romance entirelyâ whether they (want to) have sex or notâ is still widely horrifying or confusing or#scary to many people. including other queer people and including asexual people#)#I'd make my tag rant into an actual post if I was sure I could word it right lol#aro#aromantic#aroallo#aroace#non sam aro#o.
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I need to make a whole post sometime about Timmy's Mom and the things she is and isn't tolerant of... Doesn't want to go out for her own anniversary, turned off by her own husband, goes on defensive when people are nice to her (or Timmy, technically)... Fascinating.
She loves holding kittens despite being allergic to cat hair. I'm guessing her defining childhood trait was that she wouldn't question anything, hence why she was chill with "Timmy's Dad" (Timmy) talking to her in the past about how she would one day grow up to marry him and that her new task was to gaslight him into believing he had run a race... ok.
#Shout-out to Mom repeatedly making clear that she's not especially attracted to her husband but never elaborating on this#Doesn't want to kiss but loves doing activities like ghost-hunting together. Instantly rebounded after Sheldon dumped her...#Girl I think you might be aspec... She likes how fun he is. Dad woke up and said âYAY!â when he saw her in bed. She went âD:â (Beddy Bye)#Kind of interesting because it's heavily implied they were only married a few days or so before Timmy was born... girl do u wanna talk#Manic Mom Day#Riddle watches FOP#FAIRIES!#Perfect pink beaver boy#Thaddeus and Dominika
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Understand that this is coming from someone who is decidedly romance-averse and has been active in the aro & ace headcanon and fanwork sphere longer than many people have even been on tumblr, so I get it, the frustration with shipping culture is real, I have the text posts I've been harassed over to prove it.
But also. If you are so focused on the lens other fans will choose to apply to certain scenes that it totally poisons your ability to enjoy any close, affectionate interactions between two characters you otherwise like, you are.... also kind of falling prey to "This is your brain on amatonormativity" and I promise you there are other options.
Embrace ambiguity. Have fun with ace and aro headcanons on various parts of the spectrum or imagine characters having messy and complicated relationships with aspec identity. Interpret canon queerplatonically. Ignore the voices of people who insist the "only" way to make sense of an interaction is if two characters are involved romantically and instead do a cool high-five with the ones who like the ship but also like letting you do your thing and can respect someone else who loves the same relationship they do, just in a different flavor. Not only is it less exhausting, but it's decidedly more radical and relationship anarchist than saying "These two characters held hands, so I guess they're basically dating.... sigh"
#also like.... as a weary romance-averse aro in a queerplatonic relationship who already gets a lot of assumptions from allo folks#feels. kind of weird to see these takes from other aspec people and go 'ah ok so if you saw me and my qpp out walking around together'#'you would ALSO assume we were dating'#sometimes you want absolutely nothing to do with the idea of romance but like holding hands. or cuddling. or little forehead kisses#this is not only allowed but great (if it's your jam). embrace it and be free#aroblogging#aceblogging
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2024 reads / storygraph
Sea Of Broken Glass
fantasy
two sisters who live on a floating village in a shallow ocean are exiled when one develops magic and canât hide it like her sister does
they travel to the land, trying to survive searching for their mother who was exiled 20 years ago, through the wilderness and magical caves
crystal/mineral magic, magical creatures, sister relationships
#sea of broken glass#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#damn this is like. weird and whimsical fantasy world. unique magic system? weird religion? creatures? CAVES?#aroace & sapphic-aspec MCs with basically no romance? MADE FOR ME! unfortunately itâs bad#like just the writing quality is not at all there. like it took me 1/3 to even sort of realise that in theory this is exactly#my kind of thing bc the not good writing was too distracting#the beginning is EXTREMELY fast paced; thereâs no breathing room and everything happens too fast to get a sense of anything#The voice of both POVs is the same. Their relationship is so back and forth and all over the place it got a bit annoying#+ they both feel like 16yos not 20-somethings.#worldbuilding details were distracting me - some were answered eventually but not before I was getting distracted with questions.#eg I need to know about the ocean ecosystem. if itâs knee deep where do fish live. where are ocean plants. are there deeper parts of the oc#they hear a wolf howling. how do you know what a wolf sounds like youâve never heard one.#why does everyone hate magic? Obviously bigotry doesnât have a reason but like. just felt like it was there to make the plot happen?#if she has magic crystal powers that she can make anything with why did she not make them a boat?????? or shoes???#they walk across the sea for days??#and like I am happy with weird and slightly nonsensical worldbuilding details if the writing style and tone is very whimsical yknow?#but this is not that.#And like there ARE lots of cool elements! salt based magic? the giant cave frogs??#but unfortunately the writing style and execution is just not there.#I had to drag myself through most of it just because I wanted to form an opinion on the whole thing#Also it really awkwardly mentions their sexualities immediately. I donât mind a slightly awkward delivery of that tbh#but do you need to do so in the first few pages of their pov?
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i wish i could love in a way that matters
#ignore me its 4 am and i scared myself awake LOL#idk nightly rambling w a side of sleepy brain fog im gonma delete this later i think#i've been thinking a lot ab my aromanticism and how. idk. i keep running into my own mental resistance to it#ik theres prob a lot of internalized bs there i gotta work out on my own terms but like#ig i feel almost. disappointed? in knowing that's who i am#no disappointed isn't the right word. im not disappointed in my sexuality and i certainly don't hate the fact that im aspec#in fact i feel More secure in knowing why i feel the way i do about relationships#but at the same time i wish. that wasn't just it for me?#i think what im trying to say is i feel like im missing a huge part of. the human experience i guess. in knowing i don't feel romantic love#i don't understand it. i never have. and it feels almost restricting to me in a way#theres just this whole facet of human relationships that i'll just never be able to fully explore#whether that's in my creative works or in my own life#and that. almost makes me sad#don't get me wrong the love i Do feel and am surrounded by every day is so so fulfilling to me. i love my friends+family more than anything#but ig in knowing im aro i feel almost. shut out from the possibility of exploring a truly deep and nuanced connection with another person#bc every relationship i Have had like that before never once felt like i was truly myself. like i was putting on an act and miming what i#Thought you were supposed to do in those kinds of relationships#i just feel like what i Want and who i Am are fundamentally at odds w one another#and i guess i just have to. learn to accept that.#idk#im going back to sleep#skip speaks
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I've cropped out the username because I have absolutely no desire to start drama or make a personal âcalloutâ or have people go harass someone or anything like that (and if you take this kind of thing as an opportunity to go and be horrible to another Tumblr user then that is terrible and you should stop), but wow, I have never seen such a clanging example of amatonormativity. I don't think OP necessarily meant it this way, I don't think they meant any harm, I don't think they're consciously arophobic or something - it's far more likely that they're simply unfamiliar with aspec issues, and I always prefer to assume good faith - but I want to talk about this post anyway because it provides a really good and explicit example of the way society just sort of... asserts the centrality of romantic attraction and entirely forgets aromantic people exist.
I do want to first say that I actually agree with the initial point this post is making. Romance as a genre is unfairly derided as some kind of âlesserâ form of art, and this derision very frequently comes with generous helpings of misogyny. I totally agree that romance is not at all an unintellectual or superficial thing to write about, and it's bad that it gets treated that way and that readers and writers of romance get so often mocked and condemned. Romance is a totally valid genre and enjoying it doesn't make you vain or stupid or superficial.
HOWEVER. As an aromantic person I find the rest of the post just... I don't know, it's just so perfect as a probably unwitting expression of baked-in cultural amatonormativity. It's brilliant. It's so funny to me. I can almost do a line-by-line breakdown of the way it so completely forgets the existence of aromantic people. In fact, let's do that.
It is so fundamental to us. The issue here should be pretty obvious. The assumption that romance is some integral part of The Human Experience and that it's fundamental to All People is pretty much amatonormativity 101. It reinforces the idea that people who don't experience romantic attraction are âlackingâ, forever sitting apart from The Human Experience, and possibly in some way not quite fully human, since we don't experience the thing that is apparently so fundamental to humans.
To want to love and be loved. The post seems to be incorrectly equating âromanceâ with âloving and being lovedâ, when in fact there are many people who don't experience romantic attraction yet absolutely love and want to be loved. (And of course loveless aros, aplatonic people, various folks who don't âwant to love and be lovedâ also exist, and it's important to emphasise that this desire, just like romantic attraction, is also not necessarily integral to all people.) âLoveâ is not automatically âromantic loveâ, but this post seems to imply that romance is the only, or default, form in which love can exist.
If you don't think every great work of literature. philosophy. metaphysics. was ultimately about romance. I don't think you were paying enough attention. OK this is the line that elevated this post from âsigh, more casual amatonormativity to scroll pastâ to âI just have to respond to thisâ. Where to even begin with this assertion. This is a level of âassuming romance is central to everything humans ever do and ever createâ that I've almost never encountered before. It feels like a manifestation of the tendency for alloromantic people to declare that, because romance is very central for them, it is thus central to Everything. And I'm homing in on âromanceâ because the post doesn't say âultimately about loveâ - which would still be a reach, but less of a reach - it specifically says âultimately about romanceâ. As an aromantic person who is an academic at heart and highly educated in the humanities and social sciences, the idea that my ability to understand literature and philosophy and metaphysics is somehow greatly hampered by the fact that I don't experience or relate to romantic attraction is just... what??? This idea is really very funny to me but also genuinely pretty insulting, even though I'm sure it wasn't meant that way. Not only does it feel like the summation of every patronising âoh, you couldn't possibly understandâ directed to aromantic adults who are, in fact, entirely capable of understanding, but it also flattens the incredible breadth of human intellectual experience into âbeing about romanceâ. I sometimes find myself wishing that alloromantic people would peak outside the bubble of amatonormativity and realise that actually, there is an enormous swathe of human experience and intellect and creativity and expression that has nothing at all to do with romantic attraction and romantic relationships. And no, stating that, I don't know, the Book of Job is not actually about romance has nothing to do with our society's misogynistic denigration of romance as a genre; it has everything to do with the fact that the Book of Job is not actually about romance. (And if you aren't familiar with Job or for some reason don't consider it a âgreat work of literatureâ, replace with whatever other example you can think of; there are many.) It's insulting to imply that aro-spec and/or ace-spec people are somehow less able to participate in art and literature and philosophy etc because we might bring a perspective that doesn't include romance or sex at all and we're just not capable of understanding that Actually Romance And/Or Sex Is Central To Everything. It's genuinely absurd to argue that all the pinnacles of human intellectual achievement really, at their core, come back to romance, and it speaks to our very blinkered society's tendency to declare things like âeverything is really about sexâ or âeverything is really about romanceâ or âeverything is really about breakupsâ or whatever and then look at aro-spec and ace-spec people like we're aliens and go âbut like... how do you even live?â Newsflash, there is so much more to life than romance and love and sex. You can live an entire, very fulfilling, very meaningful, very thoughtful life without these things being at all relevant to you. That's not to dismiss those things as minor or unimportant - they are indeed very central to a lot of people's lives, and they're not âdumbâ or âshallowâ or whatever - but they're not central to everyone's lives, and they're hardly The Only Things In The World.
And if your response is something along the lines of âwell OK there's a tiny minority of people who don't engage with romance and/or sex, or relate to it in the same way most people do, but that doesn't mean that romance isn't still at the core of humanity, or that all the most important things don't still have romance at their heartâ, imagine telling a woman that âwell, you can focus on a career if you want, but what's really fundamental to being a woman is being a wife and mother - in fact, motherhood is the most important thing in the world, it's fundamental to women, it's what all women's literature is aboutâ. Or, hell, telling a person of any gender that âparenthoodâ is the central pillar of all of humanity and that every great work of art ever produced is ultimately about parenthood and obviously parenthood is fundamental to everyone's being - forgetting that actually some people will never be parents, and implying that their childlessness makes them less able to understand The Human Experience. That might give you some small idea of what it's like to be an aspec person and be repeatedly told that feelings you don't experience and relationships you don't have and attractions you don't relate to and acts you don't engage in are somehow Fundamental To Humanity and are what lie at The Core Of Everything: how excluding that is, how alienating that is, how oppressively stifling that is.
Feeling that love and/or romance and/or sex are very important to your own life is totally valid, but I wish alloromantics and allosexuals could be more capable of opening their minds and imagining and empathising with an existence for which these things aren't central. Our lives aren't lesser, or emptier, or sadder, or shallower for lack of romance or sex. Our experiences are part of The Human Experience. Our perspectives on art and life and relationships and philosophy and humanity and everything else are just as valid. We are just as capable of profundity, of creativity, of insight - because romance and sex aren't âat the coreâ of any of these things. We are here, and we're tired of being forgotten, ignored, sidelined, dismissed, erased, talked over, talked past. It would be great if society at large actually remembered we exist once in a while, and that our lives are just as beautiful and important as anyone else's.
#aromantic#aro#aromanticism#arospec#asexual#ace#asexuality#acespec#aspec#lgbt#lgbtqia#queer#allonormativity#amatonormativity#arophobia#aroace#aroallo#aro pride#aro awareness#my posts
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759 words. mature, no explicit content. gn!reader. allusions to having sex for the first time, reader identifying as aspec.
Gods, this was embarrassing.
You always berated yourself for feeling different from others, not seeing or understanding the pull of attraction that your friends ogled about. More often, that grimacing discomfort came up amid the overwhelming desires the public had over celebrities. Deep down, the detachment wasnât from a place of malice or pure hatred.
You just⊠never had the explicit feel, so to speak.
Even in high school, through college, you thought of crushes as an obligatory part of your generational experiences. (For a brief moment, your mind flashes back to when you were gifted the latest album of your favorite boy band by some guy who was infatuated with you. It ended quick, lasting only for two weeks before you cut things off through text.)
Considering everything youâve dealt with, you like to say you have refined tastes. It holds up in truth, for you were currently laying in Sylusâ lavish bed, clad in only his burgundy robe he often wore after showers. It was early morning in the N109 Zone, as much as a morning could show itself, and he had gotten up first. You couldnât help but to let your gaze linger on his slightly sluggish form.
Sylus was everything youâd dreamt of and more, that sometimes he didnât feel real. He knew the kind of man he was, confident of his status and power. Certainly, that played a part in how you two got off on the wrong foot when it came to your first meeting.
But now, he means everything to you. He means the world. Your heart was sated knowing the feeling was mutual.
He stretches his right arm across his chest, craning his head from side to side to even out the tensions in his shoulders. Your observation is a bit intense, but you canât even blame yourself.
Sylus was already tall in his stature, maintaining a build that was the result of hard work and priority of physicality. The foundation of broad shoulders, followed by delicately contoured lines surrounding the center line of his back. A slim waist with slightly wider hips and defined, thick glutes. Though his back was facing you, your breath hitches knowing of the frontal plane of his abs and hardened, cushioned pecs.
He was captivating, and though his figure appeared godlike, blessed to even spare a glance, youâve seen it in action countless times. The very same figure that protects you like a natural reflex, that trains with you to heighten your own senses and defense.
âI can feel your stare, sweetie,â his deep voice rumbles, a low, amused chuckle filling the room. âEnjoying the sight, are you?â
Quickly, you avert your gaze, curling in on yourself and now focusing on the tousled sheets of midnight silk. You clear your throat, speechless and overwhelmed that it is Sylus who dedicates himself to you. The heat that pools in your stomach makes itself evident when your cheeks warm up â then you feel a dip in the bed.
Your eyes flicker up, now face to face with those sharp, red eyes.
Sylus grins, tracing his finger over your jaw, âDonât get shy on me, now. Itâs quite alrightâI like that youïżœïżœre enjoying yourself.â
Damn it. Say something, you coward.
Cautiously, you lift your hand to cup his. The slow motion is familiar and tantalizing, practicing it the same way Sylusâ touch would linger on your skin. Youâre perceptive to the way he inhales just slightly, anticipating your next move. The mystery of your initiation.
âIâŠâ You begin to say, your voice nearing a whisper, âI think⊠I wanna try.â
He raises a brow, subtly smirking: âTryâŠ?â
âSylus, please. You know what Iâmâit feels embarrassing to say.â
âWeâre both adults, capable of voicing our thoughts and consent,â he surmises, shifting his hand away to lean into your palm. He lets his cheek rest for a second, before turning to press a soft kiss. âI told you before, I wonât make a move until you gain that confidence to tell me what you want. I want you to be honest with me, and only honest.â
Your expression softens, nodding slowly in understanding. You lean forward a bit more, now cupping his face with both hands. Your thumbs brush over the areas beneath his eyes, admiring him.
â...I want⊠you. To make me feel good.â You tell him, your voice firmer this time, contrary to moments ago, âI trust you. I want this, and I want you.â
He lets out a relaxed sigh, chuckling again. He nods, âOkay.â
#â¶â¶â¶ âđčđđ»đ°đđœđČđ°đżđČ.#â¶â¶â¶ âđčđđ»đź đ° đđđčđïżœïżœ.#sylus#sylus x reader#sylus x you#sylus x y/n#love and deepspace#love & deepspace#lads#lnds#l&ds#sylus love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#lnds sylus#l&ds sylus#lads sylus#love and deepspace x reader#lads x reader#lads x you#love and deepspace x you#lads smut#love and deepspace smut#sylus smut#lnds smut
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AITA for asking people in my GSA to cool it with the PDA?
so i (17f) am aroace and sex repulsed. i'm the only aspec person in my school's GSA. at meetings couples will hold hands, kiss, sit on each other's laps, make out, etc. it grosses me out and makes me really uncomfortable to see PDA, especially with people i'm not close to. i had been trying to ignore/look away when people would get all lovey dovey bc i know it's the one safe space for gay kids to be themselves since it's a rural area in a famously homophobic state, but it still makes me really uncomfortable. the problem happened when we were all sitting in a circle talking about fundraising ideas and a girl (i'll call her jen) started talking, so i looked at her, and she finished by saying "it was actually abby's (her gf) idea!" and kissed her cheek. i reflexively made a face and looked away but jen saw and got offended and said "what? i can't kiss my girlfriend? are you a puritan or something?" other kids started saying stuff like "yeah she got all weird when she saw me and my bf holding hands". they all KNOW i'm aroace and sex repulsed so it's not like it was a surprise. i said "well PDA makes me really uncomfortable and honestly you guys can be kind of gross sometimes" to which abby said "oh my god it's not like we were having sex in front of you! get over it!" at this point the teacher overseeing everything told us to "stop bickering" and finish the agenda for the day. at the end of every meeting we have a wrap-up where we talk about plans for the next meeting and stuff so i asked if everyone could lay off the PDA, at least during the actual meeting (not counting before/after/breaks since i can just go in the hall). everyone got really pissy and started calling me a puritan and prude and i started crying. after the meeting when i was waiting for my mom to pick me up the teacher pulled me aside and said that i shouldn't ask the other kids to "hide their affection" just bc i didn't like it especially since it's the only safe place for them to do it. i started crying again and asked wasn't this supposed to be a safe place for me too? she said she sympathized with me but i was asking a lot of the other kids. some of my ace mutuals i talked to said the other kids and teacher were being rude and i'm just as queer as they are, so they should respect my boundaries too. but i'm second guessing myself after the teacher told me i was asking them to hide their affection. i really don't want to leave the GSA bc i do love it and except for the last meeting i've gotten along really well with everyone there. AITA?
What are these acronyms?
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I just randomly got bored and wanted to see the percentages. Additionally is there another way to say the gender spectrum? It would be hilarious if that was actually it but that doesnât sound right so who knows? đ€·
Side note:Iâm so sorry if I messed up and you were not represented in this pole. Overall itâs a mix of the limit in the number of options I could put and also kind of incompetence on my side. Again Iâm super sorry and everyone is completely valid and deserves just as much recognition. Stay safe out theređđđ
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Gay's Still the Word
Written for @dc-aspec-week 2024
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Jason couldnât quite stop the hitch in his breath as Dick buried a hand in his hair and used the grip to tip his head back so he could deepen the kiss. Jason reacted in kind and slipped the hand that had been on the back of Dickâs neck up into his hair as he tightened the arm he had around the other manâs back. Dick shifted some of his weight onto his other forearm, so he wasnât completely crushing Jason into the bed, without breaking the kiss.Â
But Jason couldnât help but tense up as Dick ground his hips against Jasonâs thigh.Â
Dick pulled back, breathing slightly faster than normal through his swollen lips. âNot tonight?â
âNot tonight.â Jason echoed. âSorry.â
Dick just smiled softly as he readjusted how he was lying over Jason so his hips werenât touching him anymore. âI thought Iâd already told you to stop apologising, Jay.â
Jason shrugged as Dick gently nuzzled their heads together.Â
âIâm happy just doing this, or cuddling up and watching a movie or reading, little wing.â Dick said before pressing a kiss to the side of Jasonâs mouth.Â
Jason lent into him. âI know, itâs justâŠâ
âI know.â Dick said quietly.Â
Theyâd had a lot of conversations over the past eight months about sex and what it meant to them both. It took a while, but Jason was eventually in a position that he could and wanted to try. Dick was exactly as Jason thought he would be; sweet and gentle and more than willing to take charge. Jason enjoyed it, and theyâd started having sex on a semi-frequent basis. But Jason had to be in the right headspace for it and he was well aware that their sexlife wasâŠÂ lacking compared to most normal couples. Though, as Dick kept reminding him whenever he used that word, there was really no such thing as normal .Â
âHey.â Dick said, carding a careful hand through his curls to pull his attention back to him. âI can practically hear you thinking, care to share with the class?â
âI think you already know what Iâm thinking about.â Jason said with a lopsided smile as he bumped his nose against Dickâs.Â
Dick hummed. âYou need another reminder about how perfectly happy I am with our relationship?â
Jason shook his head. âNo, I know. Itâs justâŠâ
âBrains are weird.â Dick smiled.Â
âBrains are weird.â Jason agreed, matching his smile.Â
âSoooo, have you decided on which of the options you want to choose for the rest of the night?â Dick asked, still smiling.Â
âWhat were the options again?â
âWe can carry on making out, or we can have a cuddle night with books or a movie?â
Jason debated each one before answering. â Or , we could watch a boring movie that inevitably ends up with us making out anyway.â
Dick laughed. âThatâs definitely something Iâm onboard with.â
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Fish Flag
Original Flag, Inspiration, and Palette by @estrogenism (Thank you for the permission to edit this flag!)
What does Fish mean?
Fish is a black exclusive term for a femme lesbian. This label was first recorded as a counterpart the label 'Stud' in a Masters of Arts thesis titled, 'A Study of a Public Lesbian Community' by Ethel Sawyer. Black masculinity is to Stud as Black femininity is to Fish.
The Flag: Symbols and Colors
School of Black Fish: In the original flag I found on my dash, estrogenism uses an image of a tropical fish to represent the body diversity among black femmes. I decided to go with a school of fish to represent the community among black femmes. Initially, I wanted the school to look like a crescent moon to represent femininity further, but I wasn't fuckin' with it.
Colors:
The darkest purple: Womanism (a feminist school of thought centered around the black experience)
2nd darkest purple: Black sapphicism
2nd lightest purple: Black sapphic history
Lightest purple: Unity between all fish (trans, cis, intersex, aspec, arospec etc)
Lightest pink: Subversion of femininity
2nd Lightest Pink: Vulnerability (????)
Orangey-Pink: Persistence
Red: Love
Recommended Reading
Femme: Feminists, Lesbians, and Bad Girls (Edited by Laura Harris and Elizabeth Crocker) [There are two relevant segments. Fish Tales and Fish Pond]
A Public Study of a Lesbian Community by Ethel Sawyer (This study was done by a heterosexual woman. Due to the time it is from, harmful stereotypes of both studs and fish are portrayed in this thesis. These misconceptions are incredibly dated.)
Note: Based on the reading that I have done (Including the original thesis itself), some bisexual women were involved in the lesbian bar culture and identified with the label Fish. Out of the 7 fish interviewed by Sawyer, 2 out of 7 (28%) enjoyed sex with men. That being said I donât mind or care if black bisexual femmes use this flag. But please understand the difference between presenting femininely and femme culture within the sapphic context (specifically butchfemme/studfemme/stud-fish community) before using this label.
THIS IS THE FIRST FLAG I MADE SO PLEASEEEE BE KIND
Software/Website used: Canva (Design and Assets) and Coolors (palette picking)
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Even though I post shitty/funny billford memes, this explains perfectly what I think their relationship was like pre betrayal
As someone who is aspec myself, I love the idea of aroacespec Ford within the context of billford. *Especially* Ford grappling with a lifetime of bafflement about romantic and sexual attraction, and then feeling *some* kind of powerful emotion about Bill and getting excited about it like âthis is it! This is the attraction thing that everyone always talks about! Iâm finally experiencing it for someone, Iâm doing âhumaningâ correctly!!!â and maybe heâs correctly identified it, or maybe its something else, such as queerplatonic attraction, or scientific fascination, but either way, feeling something like this for someone for the first time that feels more genuine than any of his attempts to feel heteronormative love in the past for an *eldritch god* is a whole other thing for him to grapple with, like, the internal confusion of âWhy am I feeling this for the first time for a non-human entity? Does that cancel out the increased normalcy of me feeling This Kind of Love? Does it outweigh feeling Love and make me even weirder??â
And maybe, with any luck, this could end with Ford realizing that it *doesnât matter* what kind of love and/or affection and interest he and Bill have towards eachother, and it doesnât matter how much he conforms to societyâs ideals for what a human being âshould be like.â It doesnât *have* to be romantic for them to want to be together from now til the end of time. And even if sometimes their relationship might seem like it crosses into romantic and/or sexual territory, *theyâre* the ones who get to define it, and the multiverse is the limit. They donât *need* to confine the way they see their love for eachother to the human definitions and expectations for how people should feel and act within a long term relationship. And if humanity thinks that makes Ford less human, well, he doesnât fucking care, because what has the seemingly-always-just-out-of-reach ideal of âbeing humanâ that society has pushed upon him ever done for him except make him feel intensely isolated and unworthy? It doesnât matter if society hands him the title of âhumanâ that theyâve cruelly dangled over his head his whole life or not. He is living the life he wants to lead, in the company of the person he cares for most, and that is all that truly matters.
#aroace billford#not gonna say anything either way on bill's sexuality because im very hesitant to call the nonhuman evil guy aro and/or ace.#and bills sexuality doesnt matter here. you dont need to define it in order to say 'bill enjoys spending time with ford'#ford really truly Does Not Care if bill is 'capable of love' or whatever amatonormative society is so obsessed with#Why Does It Matter if Bill is 'capable of love.' Why Does It Feel Like That's Sometimes Brought Up As Proof That He Is 'More Evil'#the fucked up things that bill Does are what make him evil in canon. not whatever people think he can or cant feel.#it feels like throwing ford under the bus when people say 'bill isnt capable of love' tbh#because wondering if oneself is 'capable of love' in the amatonormative sense is Such an Aspec experience#and tbh? having an intimate relationship with a being that isnt sure if he's capable of love sounds great!#ford can be with bill without worrying if he's loving bill 'the right way' or 'enough for bill to be happy' or whatever#he can just Be. and he can trust that bill is perfectly okay with literally any reasons ford has for wanting to be wifh him#he doesnt have to try and pinpoint what kind of feelings he has for bill because it doesnt matter to bill#and that is Such a Relief for ford#of course all of this is ignoring the fact that bill was only ever using ford as a tool to get what he wants#but im talking about prebetrayal fords perspective! these are his thoughts based on the info he had at the time!#its still very meaningful for ford! bill betrayed him but that doesnt erase the way ford felt prebetrayal#someone turning out to be a liar doesnt completely undo the things they made you realize about yourself while you were together#which also REALLY complicates fords feelings post betrayal. he cant COMPLETELY dismiss everything.#otherwise he would be dismissing the good realizations he had about himself too.#so much right with this post
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On one hand I get why Mammon might be problematic aroace rep but on the other. I genuinely cannot imagine him going out of his way to form ANY kind of relationship that isn't inherently exploitative of his partner. It's just not in his nature. Like the word 'mammon' literally means money/wealth/profit đ there is no room for someone else with a person like that
okay anon I know you mean no ill-will with this but like⊠the reasons you listed is precisely why mammon as aroace rep is kindaaaa problematic (although again granted we don't know for sure AROace is the intention, but if the ace of spades asexual symbolism was intentional it seems that way)
exploiting every relationship you're in is completely independent of attraction. anyone can do that regardless of whether they are attracted to the person they are exploiting.
a character shouldn't be aro simply for the reason that they're too compassionless to have or want a partner, because that's just feeding into harmful aro stereotypes. that's kind of exactly what the "no love for the wicked" trope is.
and okay some may wonder "oh but what about alastor", admittedly even with alastor I was kind of skeptical going into hazbin since I was under the impression he was a full-on villain, but going through all of it, despite his immorality he still shows the capacity to care for others with mimzy, rosie, niffty and some extent the hotel. so he doesn't fully fall into "oh he's too evil to care of course he wouldn't feel romantic love" because he does care in certain cases, but I worry mammon falls into that category because we haven't seen any instance of him caring about anyone but himself yet
it's okay for an evil character to be aroace but they shouldn't be aroace because they're evil
also I do wonder if octavia is intended to only be ace or specifically aroace too, because unlike mammon she doesn't have the ace of spades imagery, it would be cool if she was though, she would at least balance out as being the only non-evil aroace in the hellaverse LMAO. but I also wish vivzie played around more with different type of aspecs and didn't have every ace be aro (or even GASP. include an aroallo character), honestly if it were between mammon and octavia I'd prefer for octavia to be aro over mammon, but obviously if mammon is intended to be aro I wouldn't deny him of it I'd just be⊠silently judging but accept it because we have so little aspec rep as it is I'll accept anything.
#ask#osrs.txt#osrs.helluva#again I know anon means no harm#it's just that âhaving no room for someone else with a person like thatâ shouldn't be a reason for a character being aro
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What's the relationship between Aluhé and Narinder as well as Jahel and Shamura? Why was Jahel chosen over Aluhé, with Aluhé going to Nari?
Aluhé and Narinder's dynamic was mutually toxic. Toxic to the point that if you tried to intervene to help them you'd end up messing up their entire arrangement and realize they were healthy for each other just not by normal standards.
Narinder, as an older god and eldritch being who did not understand the capability of mortal connections, was lonely; Aluhé, who's bloodlust for the gods and their unjust culling of their kind left them unable to put their guard down again, was willing to provide him with company if they got something in return. It worked out!
They are both very attached to each other but they don't necessarily fit the "can't live without you" trope. it'd break them to the point where they'd get worse if either of them died but they can also just... stop.. being around each other and be emotionally stable. Currently as Aluhé tries to become a god (or something akin to it), Narinder's very much both chasing after Aluhé and letting them come to him and vice versa. They both have a strong effect on each other and abuse that very often. Match each other's freak if you will. To a dangerous level.
Jahel and Shamura are "devoted follower who wants to be god's favorite chewtoy" and "tired god who wants nothing to do with a mortal being". Jahel is a violent but strategic person. They grew up studying Shamura and all their history, indulging themselves into knowing most everything about them and wondered how it'd be to become theirs; Shamura chose Jahel because he was a willing sacrifice and because they needed a weapon to control if the time came to it (it did! and Jahel was defeated! and Shamura didn't want him to die! Strange!). Shamura's someone who is very much willing to sacrifice a few pawns to protect the king and Jahel is aware of this.
They still want to be Shamura's favorite, however, and go to great lengths to accomplish that. Shamura's both put off by it and very much indulging in the attention it gives them. Jahel's bond to Shamura was broken when Shamura died to Aluhé in Silk Cradle and he went to dig up their corpse and bring them back to life.
Mystic Seller: are you guys ok Aluhé and Jahel: [most mentally ill gay aspecs to have crossed these lands] No
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Murderbot Holding Hands
(Minor spoilers alert for Artificial Condition, Rogue Protocol, Exit Strategy pls check the tags)
First real post because Iâm shy. Donât know why itâs going to be a hyper-specific murderbot meta but here we go:
Iâve been rereading all the books after finishing System Collapse <3 and I want to talk about a small moment in Artificial Condition that Iâd never noticed before. Itâs near the end of the book when Tapan is in ARTâs medsystem after nearly dying, and SecUnit says that when Tapan wakes up itâs holding her hand.
When Tapan woke, I was sitting on the MedSystemâs platform holding her hand. (Artificial Condition, p. 155 in my ebook)
I thought it was a really sweet moment, but it also kind of puzzled me because of SecUnitâs aversion to touch. Later when I was reading Exit Strategy, I noticed a similar moment when SecUnit holds hands with Mensah to help disguise them as theyâre trying to escape TranRollinHyfa.
[Mensah] took a deep breath and looked up at me. âWe can look calm. Weâre good at that.â Yeah, we were. I did a quick review to make sure I was running all my not-a-SecUnit code, then I thought of one more thing I could do. As we stepped out of the pod, I took Mensahâs hand. (Exit Strategy, p. 87)
Reading these scenes felt different in a couple ways. In my opinion, SecUnit taking Mensahâs hand in Exit Strategy seemed like more of a big deal because it was a part of SecUnitâs reunion with Mensah, and we see its thoughts and emotions leading up to it. And it tracks that SecUnit might feel ok holding Mensahâs hand in that situation because of their close friendship. But the moment in Artificial Condition is more mysterious. We donât get any of SecUnitâs internal monologue at the beginning because the scene opens when Tapan wakes up. And even though itâs clear in the book that SecUnit likes Tapan along with Rami and Maro, I wouldnât say their relationship is anywhere near as close as its bond with Mensah. So why did it hold her hand?
I think itâs a neat moment thatâs fun to ponder! And I have some vague ideas Iâd like to share about it. (Some of this is based on the books and some is my speculation as an ace/aspec person dealing with touch aversion.) (Also none of these thoughts are mutually exclusive!)
Maybe SecUnit saw holding Tapanâs hand as a form of first aid after her traumatic experience and didnât want her to panic waking up in a strange shipâs medsystem. This fits with SecUnit bracing itself to hug Mensah in Exit Strategy. (The memes of this moment are perfect lol)
But I was the only one here, so I braced myself and made the ultimate sacrifice. âUh, you can hug me if you need to.â She started to laugh, then her face did something complicated and she hugged me. I upped the temperature in my chest and told myself it was like first aid. (Exit Strategy, pp. 82-3)
But I feel like SecUnit might not care as much about comforting Tapan in a similar way if it hadnât already built up some kind of trust with her? Which brings me to Thought 2:
I think SecUnit might have felt safe holding Tapanâs hand because of the moment in Artificial Condition in the second transient hostel when Tapan laid down next to it. (Ofc I think rescuing Tapan from Tlaceyâs ship was also a factor, trauma-bonding and all. But to me this moment in the hostel is more important.)
Thirty-two minutes later, I heard movement. I thought Tapan was getting up to go to the restroom facility, but then she settled on the pad behind me, not quite touching my back⊠I had never had a human touch me, or almost touch me, like this before and it was deeply, deeply weird. (Artificial Condition, pp. 136-7)
This is one of my favorite sequences in Artificial Condition (which is also my favorite book in the series because of ART! And because I find it quiet, reflective, and weirdly cozy even though objectively few cozy things happen now that I think about it). The scene is pretty mundane with a lot of fun bits like SecUnit pretending to need to use the restroom, be on a diet, etc. And we usually donât get to see SecUnit hanging out with only one person. So it gives room for some small, but important feelings that I donât think SecUnit has time to explore when itâs busy saving the day. Like how it feels about physical contact with humans.
(idk it reminds me of how like in ghibli films thereâs usually at least one scene with the characters eating a meal or something because it sort of grounds everything else. I just like it!)
Tapan being close to SecUnit seems to throw if off-guard, but the context of the scene feels non-threatening and pretty mellow. So I think this gives SecUnit the opportunity to check-in with itself about this new experience. It still feels weird about it, but not in a scary or upsetting way. I think itâs almost this mutual vulnerability (Tapan feeling vulnerable and seeking comfort and SecUnit feeling vulnerable about her closeness and its own boundaries) that creates a bond between them, and thatâs why SecUnit reaches out to Tapan to comfort her when she wakes up onboard ART.
That scene has become really special to me. And I would argue that itâs an important moment to SecUnit too because it brings it up again in Exit Strategy, along with a later moment in Rogue Protocol, thinking about times when itâs experienced physical contact with humans in a non-traumatizing way.
Except it wasnât entirely awful. It was like when Tapan had slept next to me at the hostel, or when Abene had leaned on me after I saved her; strange, but not as horrific as I would have thought. (Exit Strategy, p. 83)
These moments seem to lead up to SecUnit offering to comfort Mensah later on because itâs reached a point where it feels willing to do so for her sake, even if it doesnât want to seek out that kind of comfort for itself. And itâs really cool to see SecUnit navigate this throughout the books.
SecUnit starts the series with a strong innate sense that it doesnât want to be touched by humans, but itâs allowed to refine those feelings in light of its new experiences. Itâs boundaries are situational and personal, and even well-meaning humans sometimes struggle to understand them at first. Other times, SecUnit finds it difficult to understand itâs own feelings regarding touch and even changes its mind. But, importantly, the narrative always presents this as valid and worthy of respect.
This is a much more nuanced and realistic portrayal of defining boundaries than Iâve seen in a lot of media- one where itâs a constant and sometimes confusing process of self-discovery.
And these might seem like obvious concepts to some people, but they werenât for me growing up. I really wish Iâd read these books when I was younger, and maybe I wouldâve given myself more grace to define my comfort level, grow, and change. But Iâm glad that Iâm in a place now where I can see and appreciate these things in whatâs become one of my favorite series.
Anyway, I donât want to say "thanks for coming to my TedTalkâ lol. But very grateful to anyone who reads this and hope it was thought-provoking. Would be interested to hear other peopleâs thoughts on these scenes!
#murderbot diaries#murderbot meta#murderbot#secunit#artificial condition#rogue protocol#exit strategy#murderbot spoilers#too many feelings
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I love voidpunk but Iâm also curious about if there are any guidelines or rules, like what things are allowed and what things arenât? /genq sorry if youâve answered this before or answered something similar and I missed it Iâm not super pro at finding stuff đ also double sorry if itâs an offensive question to ask. Iâm genuinely not trying to offend you Iâm just trying to learn more and since Iâm kind of a baby queer I want to make sure the words I use fit me.
You can check the voidpunk tag on my blog, since I have talked about it before, but I'll go over some quick points:
There is no "requirement" for participating in voidpunk. Anyone who tells you "oh, only such-and-such group can be voidpunk" or anything along those lines is lying. HOWEVER:
The "punk" part of voidpunk is not there for no reason. It is tied to the punk subculture and it's best to have a general understanding of this subculture before participating in voidpunk. Also, voidpunk is specifically a reaction to dehumanization, and it's important to understand that certain people experience this more than others. People of color get dehumanized. Disabled people get dehumanized. People with personality disorders get dehumanized. Trans people get dehumanized. Aspecs get dehumanized. etc. etc. We are here to call attention to and take power away from this, not to be niceys about it. I left the voidpunk subreddit and its associated Discord server because it was full of entitled white cunts who acted like they couldn't possibly be racist because they were autistic or some shit and I was being sooooo mean and disruptive for asking them not to be blatantly racist, and I just want to make it clear that if this had been a real life social group and not an online space, I would have knocked their teeth out. Understand? That said, you don't have to be every oppressed minority ever to participate in voidpunk- you just have to be respectful and willing to listen.
One misconception I see very often is that voidpunk is some sort of personal identity along the lines of otherkin, etc. This is not true. Voidpunk is an aesthetic and philosophy, NOT about genuinely believing yourself to be inhuman. There certainly may be people who identify as both voidpunk and otherkin, or what have you, and that's fine! That's cool! I love those people. But they're not synonymous and should not be treated as such. You don't assume I'm really a vampire because I'm goth, right?
Also, the "void" part of voidpunk doesn't really mean anything. Genuinely, it was chosen because it sounds cool. I think another misconception I see sometimes is that voidpunk specifically is about like, literal voids or shadows or black holes or space or something, which is not true. It's kinda whatever. There are as many flavors of voidpunk as there are blue guys in the X-Men.
Have fun!
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