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i think stepparents should have more heart to hearts with their stepkids instead of making fun of them
#even if it’s in a lighthearted way#maybe it’s really overwhelming and stressful and i just want to relax and not be made fun of by you and my dad for once#and then when you tell them to stop they just make fun of you#and they make fun of you for being upset that youre not going to go to another country to see a dumb fucking jukebox musical that doesnt ev#n really matter and your dad does it too and everyone’s laughing and i hate it because they dont stop#please just stop#i really want to relax#i hate it here#i love my cats though#and i just. i dont like it here and i hate it at school and the best part of my days when i’m here are the bus rides to and from school#just. i need a second to breathe#and they make fun of you for asking not to be made fun of for a bit and everything like you cant say or do anything without being made fun#f in this household like ive tried and they just keep making fun of me and they get annoyed when i ask them to be quiet for a moment in a s#ng cause it’s one of my favourite moments and i’m so overwhelmed and stressed and i dont like it here#sorry for ranting#you can reblog btw. like if you agree that stepparents should have more heart to hearts with their stepkids and stop making fun of them#also so should parents#like just. all of them. stop please
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someone pulling the collar of their shirt over their face– just to completely stifle into it, rendering the act of covering purely for politeness' sake
#idk this post- like all the ones i make- has probably been made before#but i was just thinking (bc. that's all i can seem to do lately like help. me. oh my god.) and#the mental image of someone's face scrunching up- eyes drifting off into the distance- nose twitching- breath catching-#maybe they stop walking- or take a step back from the conversation- shaky hands pull up the collar#their breath a vocal “hieHhh-” and you think oh? oh you need to cover it with your shirt?#don't want to get it on your hands? dont want to catch it in an arm-#just to have the 'release' (if you can call it that) be a damn near silent “ngt-chhew!” and now you go oh. *oh*.#was it always going to be stifled? were you uncertain if you could manage to stifle it?#or did you know you could and just wanted a second wall between it and the world???#idk dude im frothing at the mouth over here so im gonna post it bc that's what i do#thank you for coming to another waterfallh*rnpost#waterfalltalks#waterfall snzarios#waterfallnevershutsthehellupohmygod#snz#snzkink#snzblr#snz kink#snz thoughts#snzario
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jon val jon or something
#jean valjean#les miserables#les mis#meme#no bc i just read the part where FIRST of all he's 'so happy his conscience began to bother him' and immediately goes 'can't have that'#and then he 'lived in the backyard like a dog' OF HIS OWN HOUSE WHILE COSETTE IS IN THE MAIN BUILDING#and jvj my beloved i am obsessed with you king but it is SO unhealthy to intentionally deprive yourself just so someone else can tell you..#'no no don't do that you need to take care of yourself' like bro i know you want to be nurtured and have someone prove their love for you#but it's really not great that the only way you keep your room at a liveable temperature and eat good food is when cosette is making you#i say this without judgement bc that was me once too but good GOD man your identity cannot be her!!!!#and stop with the preemptive self-inflicted harm!!! stop with the self-protective and yet -destructive distancing!!#you're only doing that because you want someone to tell you to stop!!!!!#alternate chapter title: in which an old man finds himself at home among the youth (2014 tumblr)#ANYways all this to say jvj is a projectable 10000% and i hate him because i love him because i hate that version of me bc i love me#or: SHUT UP AND BE LOVED YOU SILLY OLD MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#kay has a party in the tags#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#kay is a classical literature nerd#my meme
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Togame Jo’s greeting kisses to you are always way too long.
The kind of affection that’s usually savored in private, instead displayed wherever, whenever, and every single time you see each other—he always takes two to three minutes just to kiss you hello, abandoning the task at hand (dozing off, attending to Choji, managing the Shishitoren) to mosey your way and pull your lips to his in something just a little too sloppy to be sweet, but a little too sweet to be… too distasteful.
Everyone’s used to it by now, even Sakura, knowing that when you arrive, there’s always a going to be a pause in action just for the sappy display of Togame drooping over you and announcing you to the crowd physically.
(What’s not readily exposed, however, and especially not in a room full of men, is that it’s not just a kiss Togame’s giving you, not just a hello that he hides behind his long bangs and your cheeks between his warm hands, but the kindest stare and sweetest little whisper, “missed you, baby,” as he wraps you up in his arms.)
#togame#jo togame x reader#it’s not tongue but it’s def one of those really deep smooches#when he just needs to breath you in for like … 10 - 15 seconds lmfao#and then do that like 3 more times lmao#by the time it becomes a thing everyone is just like ‘Jesus curhrist’ and knows to turn away for it unless they wanna see pda#i don’t see togame as going overboard with pda but there’s definitely this#he’s got three things… no wait… four#greet kisses… holding hands… hugs… and he always wants to be the little spoon so u can scratch his back or his hair or play with him#while he’s doing something else#anyway I know you’re just the couple that’s always smiling at each other too#you get to the ori and wave and he’s just breaking out in a little grin and going right in to swoop you up#I’m gonna go bald I’m tearing my hair out#can’t believe I’m using a tag too jeez#caitie post#gen
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yeah i'm a triple threat. cute, bisexual, and incredibly depressed. what's sexier than that?
#this week has been so fucking busy and i have not had a second to breathe#i hate house hunting and getting rejected its fun!!!! someone needs to fucking lay on me and just crush me so i dont have to think for a sex#SEC**** A SECOND
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You've never done that when I got close to you before. Why? None of your business. Tell me, or you can't leave.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#uservid#userspring#userrain#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#every time i color this scene i get stronger. anyway there were so many expressions i just couldnt leave out. the deep breath ai di takes#steeling himself before admitting it. & the way chen yi absorbs it the way he blinks away & his mouth opens before focusing on ai di again#thinking about it. thinking about four years of attacks ai di had to withstand. understanding the way he is now but hating how its happened#and also the guilt hes gotta feel from that! & yet thats overcome in this moment by a need to not let ai di put a wall between them#which is what ai di keeps trying to do. he admits a vulnerable thing and then deflects FOUR TIMES in this scene. first when sleeping#& choking chen yi when woken(& avoiding when questioned abt it). second by dropping his guard & worrying when he finds chen yi injured#& twice more shown in this set. he has to shake it off he has to put his wall back up but his instincts are strongest & chen yi SEES them.#you can see the way ai di wants to relax into that hug. the way he just wants to BREATHE but instead uses those breaths to defend himself#he chooses to flirt hoping it'll make chen yi back off. hoping he'll stop asking him to be vulnerable. but chen yi knows his tricks now.#and hes not going to let ai di continue believing he doesnt CARE about him. its poetic the way he gives him a taste of his own medicine#like it's *strategic*. he watches and learns. he knows his own influence over ai di he knows that HE is ai di's weakness. it's..chef's kiss
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Dick accidentally letting an “I love you” slip out when talking to Babs


CACKLING they’re so cute your honor
From Nightwing #93
#batman#jason todd#batman wayne family adventures#red hood#batfam#tim drake#dick grayson#red robin#jason#bwfa#Nightwing#nightwing comics#barbara gordon#batgirl#oracle#please the look on their faces#dick looks like he messed up real bad#Babs looks like she needs him to say it a second time#and then Barbara teasing him afterwards#poor dick is so flustered#he’s so cute#I can HEAR these panels#like I can hear the breath dick lets put before he says ‘oh thank gos’#Hayley is just happy to be there#bitewing
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Arthur looking for flowers <3 (he just fell down a cliff and refused to get up off his hands and knees for a solid 5 minutes afterwards and I feel terrible about it)
#he just sat there like#breathing really loud#but he wouldn't stand up 😭#the mud on his hands and clothes and blood n shit that man is 2 seconds away from crying and I DONT blame him#I don't know why he just wouldn't move I couldn't do anything#maybe he just needed a min#poor guy#I forget that he is an old man (affectionate)#mick squeaks#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#arthur morgan#red dead redemption community#red dead redemption 2 photography#funnies#micks pics
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joining the war on george russell on the side of george russell
#this whole thing is still ridicioulus to me & they should just bang it out#but his side just makes more sense to me atm#(that & he is still my fav i won‘t lie)#max is close second but he needs to take a deep breath rn i feel like#f1#formula one#formula 1#george russell#max verstappen#gax#russtappen
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"We did it."
#kamen rider kabuto#kamen rider gatack#kamen rider#tendo soji#soji tendo#flashing lights#flashing lights tw#tendou souji#souji tendou#kagami arata#arata kagami#userdramas#umbrella.gifs#tokuedit#please do not repost#umbrella.edits#umbrella.posts#wow can't believe the kabuto and gatack zecters got married and ran off into the sunset together#i just really like this scene#it's like there's a bit of relief as they undo their transformations and send their zecters to the sky#they managed to do it and now they need a moment to take it in they need a second to breathe
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A Kaijou fic that I really liked got deleted and I AM SO UPSET
#It was so cool cause it had this world where dm creatures came alive and went rouge and underground dm rings needed to be dismantled#And Joseph was in and on again off again professional non-professional working relationship with Kaiba#Where Jou is under KC contract to be his enforcer more or less to hunt these rings down#And Joey got this custom REBD bracer from KC that integrated him with his dragon so he could breath fire and punch real good#And other dragon traits#And he was being such a little shit by antagonizing Kaiba by goading him into thinking that the great CEO of Kaiba Corp gave him a defect#And Kaiba has to disrupt his whole schedule to teach Jou a lesson and gets into a second fistfight with him THAT DAY#Except they both have special bracers that give them dragon traits so Jou doesn't die#But it doesn't mean Kaiba doesn't send him right through a glass table in the apartment that he literally just gave Joey hours before#And then they fuck nasty about it because of course they do#And Kaiba like already had a closet and wardrobe prepared just for Joey and gives him a motorcycle like okay spoil him why don't you#And Mokuba was the FUCKING FUNNIEST shitty teenager doing teenager things#IT WAS SO GOOD#AND I'M SO UPSET#I WANTED TO DRAW STUFF ABOUT IT AND NOW IT'S GONE#UGGGHHHWAAAGGHHHH
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So I'm well aware this is probably a case of "it isn't that deep" but I love looking at all the fiddly little accessories and bits and bobs of Hoyo designs and trying to justify them. Sampo's is particularly funny, because. What even is all that dkkxjdkd
His outfit has so many straps wrapped around him, like they're restraining or holding something in to keep it from bursting at the seams, and not all of them look like they're even connected to anything! But I'd like to think they are useful in certain situations, like if Sampo takes a hit out in the Fragmentum from one of the monsters.
He's hurt, his arm is bleeding, but he is ALMOST done, he just needs a couple more things to fulfill his quota to Natasha and he doesn't want to turn around and go back now. So Sampo frees a strap from his shirt, winds it around his arm above the cut, pulls it tight with his free hand and his teeth. He'll treat it properly in a minute, once he's done scavenging.
There's also the strange chains that resemble snake spines. Given how they're way longer in his splash art and the way they wind around-
I'd like to think they can extend somehow, and Sampo can use them to scale heights. Firefly clocks him as a covert fighter without even being within 20 feet of him, so it would make sense for Sampo to have ways to get around that don't involve usual/obvious methods, like stairs. Think assassin skill sets.
He's also the only one known to be able to get between the Underground and the overworld, and while he's pretty tight-lipped about his method, having some sort of device to help traverse vertical heights is probably insanely helpful there.
And the little metal ornaments across the backs of his wrists! You can see it a bit better in his reference sheet (everyone say thanks @/dragaliareferencearchive!) as opposed to his splash art-

they aren't flat, they stick up a bit off his arms. And so I wonder if Gepard has ever gone to arrest Sampo, and found that they interfere with his handcuffs haha
The ornaments don't match, the one on his right wrist is actually shorter and doesn't extend down to the back of his hand. Which probably doesn't make it nearly as annoying for handcuffs as the left one, but it would make sense for Sampo to have them like that, since he seems to be right-handed! I think a certain proficiency in being ambidextrous is necessary to dual wield daggers like he does, but. Sampo uses his right hand to
hold his blade in his splash art
throw his blade in his skill
play/show off with his dagger in his idle
lob smoke bombs in his technique
cross over his heart when he bows
and to flip his bangs during the cutscene where he saves the trailblazers from Bronya
So a shorter guard on his right hand would help him keep his wrist's flexibility to be able to do all that unimpeded (loving the thought now that Sampo is naturally right-handed and still better with it, but he practiced constantly with his left until he could do things passably ambidextrous).
I also love them because I wonder if they're in the perfect place to help block a hit, along with the chain wrapped around his left forearm.
Like I love the image of a hired killer soundlessly sneaking up behind Sampo in some shady dark alley, knife sloooooowly raising, and then all at once, they strike!
And instead of feeling the blade sink into his back, they get the unpleasant resonating of metal-on-metal shivering up their arm and rattling their bones, because Sampo has turned around at the last second and raised his crossed his arms to let the knife glance off the guards on his wrists.
And the mercenary is left to realize that oh, they are fucked.
#sampo koski#hsr sampo#hsr sampo koski#hsr#honkai star rail#now that I think about it is there literally ANYTHING in canon that says Gepard carries handcuffs or do we all just need to be bonked skzjm#things I lay awake thinking about at 3 AM ☆#I would actually love to see Sampo use those guards to block a blow from Gepard because hhhhhh#gepo fight scene! gepo fight scene!#Gepard trying to bring Sampo down only to get held off at the last second#adrenaline pumping breath quick faces close together eyes wild and bright breathing right in each other's space#ahem#anyway#but I can't see them like REALLY fighting because Sampo mostly just commits fraud and theft and I don't think Gepard would resort to-#-violence over that. Geppie is a good boy he probably wouldn't get violent with Sampo unless Sampo was putting other people in danger.#looking at his splash art this closely also gave me a really funny revelation which I'll maybe post tomorrow#Sampo is such a little shit I love him NSMKDNDMD
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I cannot emphasize enough how much everything In-ho did during his time in the games was in service of breaking down Gi-hun. Every glance, every story, every comment was incredibly and deliberately calculated.
His first interaction with Gi-hun immediately places the blame on Gi-hun for the games continuing: "I pressed the O because of you." He also explicitly asks for Gi-hun's help on behalf of the group. This sucks Gi-hun into being a mechanism of the games themselves (not just a player, but one telling others how to play) while robbing him of his agency to do so: whereas he was confident in helping during the first game, because it was his choice, In-ho's request forces him to share about the Dalgona prematurely, and he then has a nightmare about misleading the players. This also leads to many players becoming hostile when the game is not Dalgona, which--who could have guessed?--In-ho jumps in to stop. He orchestrated the situation so that Gi-hun would feel maximum pressure and guilt, before In-ho himself relieves it to build trust between them.
Then there are the introductions. In-ho uses Gi-hun's name before they are introduced, which may have been a genuine slip, but was very likely intentional given his response. In-ho's method throughout the games is to parallel and associate himself with Jung-bae, Gi-hun's only actual friend (he saves him during the merry-go-round games; he eavesdrops on Jung-bae's conversation with Gi-hun and directly uses the "get me a soju" line from that conversation to subconsciously build Gi-hun's trust in him during the firefight). So when he uses Gi-hun's name, he says he does so because he heard Jung-bae doing it, and Gi-hun allows him to continue--this creates the first of the links between them. But then, when they are properly introduced, In-ho laughs that "Seong" just means "last name;" in doing so, he implies to those who don't know him that Gi-hun may not be telling the truth, and in context of their conversation (focused on the significance of their names) highlights how Seong Gi-hun is "no one special." He's just an everyman.
Another reason that "slip" was almost certainly intentional is that In-ho is very deliberate about showing moments of weakness. His breakdown during the Six-Legged Race was designed to both further stress Gi-hun (and if Gi-hun had failed, they were in the very last groups present, so they could have been selectively spared as needed) and to strengthen their bond, as Gi-hun got to "encourage" In-ho; then In-ho helped Gi-hun and the team win by kicking with him the final time. Even cheering along with Gi-hun while the other teams went was in service of cementing their connection; and, any time a team failed, In-ho got to observe Gi-hun's reactions under the guise of empathy. In-ho may have felt some genuine emotions while cheering or comforting Gi-hun, but they aren't to be trusted.
That's particularly true because of his biggest "weak" moment: telling Gi-hun why he is in the games. The show confirms, when Jun-ho finds the winner file, that In-ho actually did join the games years before (from his family we know that it was because of his wife's illness), and that he won them himself. So he isn't lying about the details of his personal story--and he even gets emotional--but it is, once again, all in service of ensnaring Gi-hun and earning his trust. In-ho is not faking all of his emotions, but he is controlling and weaponizing them, which is why none of his apparent fondness for Gi-hun can be trusted. He uses his emotions as a tool, rather than being affected by them.
The ultimate result of this manipulation is that Gi-hun is made to feel that everything that happens is his choice (even the things he didn't choose). From the beginning, In-ho has ascribed his choices to Gi-hun. Throughout the games, there are several moments where In-ho explicitly has Gi-hun choose for him; other times, In-ho suggests an approach and Gi-hun shoots it down, and In-ho always coalesces. Gi-hun gets to have "his way." But "his way" doesn't seem to work, and he, like the rest of the players, is changed by the games. His final plan, as In-ho forces him to face, involves a sacrifice of some for the good of the many. Only after he admits this (through his silence) does In-ho agree to help. Then, during the firefight, when Gi-hun tries to give In-ho the ammunition he risked his life to get, In-ho asks, "Are you sure?" Gi-hun's choice to trust In-ho leads to him running out of ammunition earlier, forcing his surrender; meanwhile, In-ho still "dies," and Jung-bae is shot in front of Gi-hun's eyes. None of Gi-hun's choices made things better--they made it all his fault. He is left with the blame, as the Frontman (who is In-ho! And always has been!) tells him point blank.
But none of Gi-hun's choices have really been choices. They have all been based on lies, within a system that uses the information they have to actively orchestrate events against him. The same is true of the players in the game; their choices are not free, because their circumstances (largely caused by unfairness in the world) have trapped them. The baseness they resort to is not what they would do if they really had the choice, and some are even able to choose virtue within the hellscape, but over and over, the system facilitates the dominance of cruelty. And In-ho, the personification of that system, targets Seong Gi-hun, the "Everyman," to make him submit to it--to make him choose to believe that there is no other way.
#seong gi hun#hwang in ho#squid game#squid game 2#meta#my meta posts#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#this took me a while but i think it was worth it#and many people have already commented on how clearly this is an allegory for how society works in relation to us‚ the people in it#so i don't need to get into that but just to say it so that i have: we always have a choice.#and i hope against hope that gi-hun is somehow able to continue making that choice‚ the right choice‚ to believe in the good of humanity#to believe in a way out and a way forward if we just work together‚ if we just look into the face of a stranger and see a fellow man#because i believe in that. i *have* to believe in that. it is the only way to survive and the only way to have joy#and my fear is that the narrative is clearly leaning toward tragedy. toward turning him into the next frontman‚ or killing him#and that would be a sore loss indeed. people call him stupid and naïve but to me he reads as orpheus#not unaware of the way the world works‚ but refusing to accept it. desperate to show us 'how the world could be...'#'...in spite of the way that it is.' and in response i can only hope: 'maybe it will turn out this time‚ on the road to hell...'#'it's a sad song. but we're gonna sing it even so.'#kay has a party in the tags
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I love how whenever I see people discuss wyllstarion, in the context of "justifying" why one ships it, there's always that of why Astarion would love Wyll, extensively; bringing up that Astarion said he used to dream of marrying men like Wyll, or that Astarion said wants to feed off of Wyll, or that Astarion would want someone chivalrous and kind who would put his needs first and who would respect his boundaries and his past. Astarion is the fave white boy and so he's shipped with many different people, and this is how people who ship wyllstarion express why he'd choose Wyll. But I almost never see extensive explanation of why Wyll would love Astarion, because of course he would. Of course he'd love Astarion.
#THIS IS JUST AN OBSERVATION oh strangers on the internet NOT an ANALYSIS. I'm smarter than this.#Also check my reblog for more explanation bc I think ppl are misunderstanding lol#Sorry not to post about gay boys on main but I think about them a lot#Shadowzel are my faves I promise this was just on my mind#More in tags if you'd like to read them#Wyllstarion#wyll ravengard#astarion#Bg3#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#bg3 wyll#bg3 astarion#astarion x wyll#wyll x astarion#Something something Wyll loves as easy as breathing and Astarion doesn't need to breathe but he still does#The reasons why Astarion clings to what he does and wanting Wyll who would keep fighting to hold onto what he loves#And Wyll holds on like it's second nature. Like he thinks it's his only choice.#The duality of people needing to explain why Astarion would love Wyll#while also acknowledging that Astarion wouldn't accept that Wyll loves him back without enough reasons#In fics Astarion needing Wyll to spell it all out for him while people acknowledge in discussion that Wyll just loves him. Of course he doe#there's obviously more to the appeal of them than just this of course#Wyll being the monster hunter who fell for a monster#Astarion having been soulless under cazador's control and technically heartless because his doesn't beat#but Wyll's does so freely#like of course Wyll would love Astarion. kind gentle gracious too-forgiving-for-his-own-good respectful loving Wyll#but astarion needs convincing that he has anything worth loving#and wyll would do it#he'd want to do it#Wyll finding no fault in anyone but himself and Astarion snapping him out of it with his no-nonsense ways
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cant wait to absolutely go hard on a robron fanvid edit once reunion 3.0 inevitably happens to adam lambert whataya want from me
#just dont give up!! i am working it out!! please dont give in!! i wont let you down!!#he messed me up!! need a second to breathe!! just keep comin around!! whataya want from me!!!#it exists in my head. i just need the scenes i imagine to come to fruition#or honestly once that (at LEAST emotional) affair really gets going… i just need some yearning scenes#robron
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oh my goodness .
U want me? be fr
#nia games#ts#ts spoilers#touchstarved spoilers#LIKE PLEASE BE SO FOR REAL WITH EM FOR A SECOND DO U WANT ME?goebfOBFRfaehbjaehb#imdizyz. im lightheadhed.PFELpkapdoPDOAENFOinbf#NIA WIFEIY EXPEEIEMCES A SOFT TENDER MOMENT WITH A CHARACTERWHO LIKES TO TEASE AND BE AN ASSHOLE . HEADSHOT. SHOTT TOTHEHEAADD#imlkt3rally holding my breath. closingmyeyes. shaky trembling DO UWANT ME. PELASE.#Iactually need him so bad its crazh lkke its crazh ljke this is crazh i hold a carnal desireforoyl#im ontne floor im on my hands and knees PLEASE. WE COULD FIND HAPPJNESS TOGEHTTR. HLELEO#istarted nervous laughing. i actually just reread this and started nervously laughing like im flustered DOHWANTME PELAPXODWLRPWK
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