#just something that occured to me today

[wtchgrrl]

one thing i’ll never get is that some people just flat out refuse to respect intersex people

“it’s a literal mutation! by definition, they’re deformed!” ok, even if you were right (which you’re not, don’t call people deformed you weirdo), so what? is it so wrong to not call someone something they don’t like?

why does an intersex person saying “don’t call me deformed or disordered, my body looks and functions perfectly fine” get you so upset?

“but there are so many health problems associated with having a DSD!” so? how do you know that this person has health issues? even then, does that give you the right to disrespect their boundaries?

respecting someone’s preferences and boundaries is the literal bare minimum. if you don’t offer it to someone because of something they have literally no control or choice over, you’re an incredibly rude individual, and i hope you grow out of it

[xxplastic-cubexx]

you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier

[doctorsiren]

Summertime Rainstorm

[xvxblahhhxvx]

I think Dazai's backstory is really cool in how, despite having more information about it than most other characters, majority of his life is just one giant noodle incident.

Yep, that's the line I'm going with as an introduction to this analysis. Just bear with me.

To start off, for those who don't know, the term "noodle incident" originates from the (amazing) comic Calvin and Hobbes. In it, the whole idea is that Calvin did this unspecified thing in school that involved noodles, but it's never confirmed what exactly happened. It's only referenced in passing, and it is clear that it was not good. Applied to general fiction, the term Noodle Incident refers to an event that is often referenced, but never clearly explained, and what is important is the characters' reactions and feelings towards it. The principle idea behind it is that imagining what said incident could be is way more significant and impactful than anything it would actually be if it was said. It's not the event that's important, but the effects and responses to it are. *for more info, I recommend Overly Sarcastic Productions trope talk video about it*

Now, how this plays into Dazai's life is that, while it is extremely evident that he likely has a horrible, tragic backstory, we never really get to see much of it. The earliest we are introduced to him, he is already suicidal, and he has lost most in hope in existence. These feelings are tempered a bit when he first joins the Port Mafia, but they come back all too quickly. And while you could argue that him being in the Mafia is a large contributor to his depression,the main reasons why he seeks escape clearly transpired before he ever met Mori.

Dazai was already trying to commit suicide at fourteen, which is how he met Mori. Something happened earlier in his life, but we don't know what. Asagiri himself says that he left Dazai's core, the reason he wants to die, vague on purpose. We aren't given many details, and honestly, we aren't given much backstory to it either. The two biggest hints that we get is when he is speaking to Odasaku. First in The Day I Picked Up Dazai, and the second from Dazai and the Dark Era.

We have no idea who or what Dazai is referring to. From all that we have seen, all the backstories and light novels we are given, the only people that we know of whom Dazai actually lost were Ango and Odasaku-for Ango, it was that special friendship, and Odasaku, it was his life. And even so, it isn't much of an explanation, because he was obviously suicidal before he met them, as evident from how he speaks to Odasaku, and losing them wasn't a catalyst for Dazai's depression. (As a matter of fact, it was actually the first step towards improvement, but that's a different analysis).

Yet for how much we don't know about Dazai's life, I think it's done in such a way that it doesn't really matter. It's a noodle incident, in that sense. Because it's not about the events that actually transpired, it's about how that affects Dazai and the way we see him. Don't get me wrong, I would love a full, confirmed backstory, but Asagiri doesn't seem to intend to write it, and that makes Dazai's character so beautiful. It's also one of the reasons why the dark era, especially the light novel, is so tragic. Because yes, you can argue that as far as tragic backstories go, losing two friends isn't near the most awful, especially not in this universe (I'm not trying to play the "which character has more trauma" game, but compared to, for example, growing up in an abusive orphanage, it's relatively not as inherently tragic. That doesn't make it any less horrible though). But the point of the backstory isn't just to explain the reasoning why things ended up the way they did, why Dazai left the Mafia, boo hoo his friend died, but Odasaku and Ango represent everything in Dazai's life, everyone from his past we never got to meet and I'm not sure if we're ever going to. They symbolize all the things in his life that mattered to him, everything he never wanted to lose but did. The last scene in the bar, where the three of them meet up for the last time, Ango leaves, the picture with the three of them laughing and smiling, the whole thing is meant to serve as a microcosm for Dazai's life as a whole. That he feels he's always going to lose everything, and that's why he wants to die. We don't get details, we don't know the specific events, but we're left with the emotions that gives us an important glimpse into this character's mind, more than his life, and that's what makes him such an interesting character that's left open to interpretation and analysis. We aren't privy to the tragedy, but the aftereffects of it. And, almost as if to prove the point, Odasaku dies the next day. Right after Dazai says he always loses everyone, further cementing the idea that there's almost a curse surrounding him, a void of loneliness that may never be fulfilled, which is as much as Odasaku tells him when he dies.

Whatever happened in Dazai's life before fourteen was probably something horrible and tragic. Maybe he had a family. Maybe he had other good friends. Perhaps he even believed in the goodness of life and humanity. But what's really cool about the way he's written is that the exact events are not important nor necessary to understanding his character. His life is one big noodle incident, yet because of that, we're able to glean an almost deeper understanding about him, by leaving the details in the dark and exposing only the raw, humane emotions left behind. The most important part about any backstory in fiction isn't about what actually happened, it's about how does this affect the character now? What lasting impact did it leave on them, and how is it evident in the way they interact with the story in the present? This is something that Asagiri nails on the head when it comes to his backstories. And I think the lack of clear information about Dazai's backstory, yet all the information we do end up getting about him, is one of the reasons why Dazai is such an interesting and intriguing character in the series.

Thank you all for you time. You may now return to your procrastination.

[bogkeep]

so so sick of every courier service that's not just Regular Local Mail. why do they make everything so difficult and complicated all the time auuggghhggg

[scottishaccentsareawesome]

thinking about the parallels between 7x02, when Athena is trying to open the hatch on the door in the cruise ship but it won't open, and she is struggling and losing hope - and then all of a sudden Bobby is there, placing his hand over hers and helping her trying to push it open

...And 4x05, when Buck is trying to save the man trapped under the large piece of machinery in the factory fire, and he is pulling and pulling to try and lift it off of him, but he is just not strong enough, and he is clearly losing hope - and then Eddie is there (with the rest of the squad, but you see Eddie first), grabbing the tether from him and helping him, along with the rest of the squad, to lift the machine off the factory worker

[thevioletcaptain]

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[iobartach]

[imminent-danger-came]

About the random chest that flashes over MK in the memory scroll:

I‘m pretty sure it‘s Azure. You can see the tips of his two… loose ponytails? (The hair that frames his face anyway) hanging down from his shoulders. Later, in his emperor form, we can also see he has the defined musculature.

And since Wukong was reliving all of his regrets in the scroll, the biggest ones flashing on the screen in that scene, one after another, it would make sense for Azure to appear.

Both because Wukong betrayed the brotherhood and lost his friends, and also because- well, Azure was the main antagonist of the season. It would make sense for him to be of importance for Wukong in this scenario especially.

I can‘t believe you failed to identify one of your favorite characters by chest alone. Smh. Fake fan, I think I have to unfollow 😔

(/j)

So. I had typed out this whole answer pointing out how absolutely shredded the silhouette was compared to every character in the show, and then I had this really good point, like (quoting my og post):

"And it's not that you're wrong, it would make complete sense for Azure to appear as part of the memory flashes—but then why not show his face? Why not make it obvious that it's Azure? Why be this weird about it, and have it framed so that when it fades it reveals MK? You gotta think why the writers and storyboarders would make those kinda decisions."

But then. But then I realized anon.

There's a line. Like Azure's fur color line

BUT HERE'S THE OTHER THING ANON. AZURE'S PAST OUTFIT (Presumably what he would have been wearing when this memory took place) IS ALSO DIFFERENT:

So I legitimately don't know. At the end of my og post, I had written a pretty funny joke: "Anon don't challenge my ability to identify my lego characters by chest alone ever again", but you were right to. I have no clue who this silhouette's identity is. I can't identify them off of pecs alone. Is it Azure? Maybe! Is it MK? Maybe! (Like, the fact that we get the pecs flash, and then later MK is revealed to have a war form that he has had NO prior training in makes me question some things. Like most of his abilities MK's learned to use, he just does it, and it's all weird.) Like:

BUT I DON'T KNOW.

[cat-with-a-keyboard]

rip mandrake, the canterbury scene would have loved you

[thethingything]

we have an especially bad migraine where I noticed us getting aura (mostly being pissed off and upset in a specific way) for several hours before it started and we've taken pain meds but I'm not sure they've actually helped. they have definitely given us side effects though and I feel very spaced out and nauseous and generally shit.

we've also had way worse ADHD symptoms for the last few days to the point of being pretty much unable to focus on anything besides like 2 things we've hyperfixated on. we've had so much trouble starting tasks and keep struggling to hold a train of thought or focus long enough to even figure out what we need to do each day despite having all our Habitica dailies to tell us.

our brain is all over the place and I'm not really sure what to do with it or what would help but it's just occurred to me that sometimes our ADHD gets really bad in the buildup to some of our worst migraines and now I'm just hoping that both the migraine and other shit ease off soon because I'd like to be able to function

[swnamii]

thinking about the pleasant green universe (again), and honestly something i really love about it is how much noticeable care and effort goes into its depictions of east anglia? as someone from the region, it's rare enough that any vaguely mainstream media chooses to set stories here, and even rarer that these depictions actually go to the effort of getting it right. but with the pgu, not only is east anglia put right at the heart of the action, it's all written in a way that makes it feel so authentic. like i listen to these audios and can think "yeah, they've got that right. that's just what that place is like". the vibes are just... accurate? in a way that i've almost never seen from anything else. and it just means a lot to me that a fictional universe i love would go to the effort to create a faithful representation of the feel and geography of my home in that way

[tscritical]

TL;DR: im going on hiatus to focus on my mental health, because running this blog is taking a lot out of me

i had a sort of. epiphany at the gym

im not emotionally/mentally equipped to run this blog

like,,,,, focusing my energy on the way thomas does things, and picking everything apart, and trying to both properly comprehend and eloquently answer asks about what he’s up to and other peoples thoughts and whatnot, it’s very quickly becoming taxing and idk why? but i think my mental health is just, in general, very shit lmao. it probably doesn’t help that this blog has gotten a pretty sizeable audience rather quickly, and im not used to getting so many asks

like i made it on impulse. it didn’t occur to me that something i made could become something that a ton of people see themselves in. this blog went from something to let out frustrations on to basically a home for lost fanders, both ex and current. maybe that’s a dramatic ass way of saying it but still lmao

and i love it! i love that people feel like they have a safe place here! im honored! it’s just that idk if im like… in the right headspace to subject myself to the kind of content this blog was made for. i don’t wanna say negativity, cos criticism isn’t inherently negative, but there’s a specific emotion that fills my brain when i come to this blog. idk what it is, but i don’t think it’s good?

i feel a little silly being like “this blog is emotionally exhausting to run” because a) ive only been running it for what? two weeks? three? and b) what’s so emotionally exhausting about pointing out the stupid shit thomas does, but idk my brain just isn’t having it for reasons i cant pinpoint

i feel bad about this since i started this blog so recently, but i think i need to go on hiatus. not indefinitely, but… just until i get my shit together. but i don’t wanna just. stop posting? so idk how to balance that lmao

i might reblog things on occasion? but i won’t be making my own posts or answering asks. even though i feel bad about it. but like. i need to focus on me more than some Guy on the internet

im not gonna step away from the internet completely, maybe i should, but for now it’s just this blog. and i might turn off asks until i come back but im not sure yet (i already have a ton of asks in my inbox, idk how many would be there in the time it takes for me to improve my mental health lmao)

basically, it’s self care time. hopefully it won’t take three years

thank you all for reading!! <3

i feel like there’s an irony in here somewhere i just don’t have what it takes to. decipher it lmao

[oculusxcaro]

Khare doesn't laugh like a normal person. On very rare occasions when something humorous has happened, she may lose control and let slip a very quick, quiet 'Hah!' but it's so quick and quiet you may not actually hear it or mistake it for a completely different sound. The reason for this is because Khare was told she had an obnoxious laugh as a child and subsequently decided she would never laugh again.

[saviourkingslut]

whoever advertised scrivener to me i am bowing like a peasant in front of his liege lord this shit is life-changing bro i am saying once again this will save my dissertation writing process i just know it. fairly certain it was @sevarix-blogs king you saved a guy's life for real

[sillywebz]

imagine society if there was a meet the robinsons world in kh bbs