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Omg?! Thank you for 2.1k?! AA! I really don’t have anything prepared so take these billford magma doodles I did today! XD
#gravity falls#billford#fiddlestan#bill cipher#standford pines#stanley pines#fiddleford mcgucket#the book of bill#gravity falls fanart#fanart#silly magma drawings with the awesome sauce of a crew today waa#honestly thank u all i really don’t know how to react im just so overwhelmed aaa (positive)
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ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.
when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!
that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.
but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!
joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.
and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.
tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.
#aromantic#aro positivity#aspec#aroace#aro#aromantic joy#arospec#when i saw its important to 'love' yourself - pls understand i am in no way trying to exclude loveless aros from this#that was just the easiest way to express what i meant! when i say 'love' i mean positivity/respect/happiness. etc. i just used that word bc#it works for ME which is why i said it. but feel free to replace it with whatever works for you! <2#also sorry if not everything im saying makes total sense i tried my best#this is something ive been thinking about for a while and have been struggling to articulate#i maybe should have read some theory for this abt community building but im too tired + overwhelmed w school reading right now so sorry.#if anyone has additions on that front though please do add them#also ngl im kinda scared to post this. i hope i explained what i mean well enough. like i get wanting to vent and express self hate BUT.#there is nuance to this and it is not unilaterally healthy i think. also i dont see any other online community fostering the normalisation#of selfhate the way the aspec one does! which makes me feel weird abt it especially.#anyway. this is basically my personal philosophy towards aromanticism#mossy posts#⚙️
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saying this as respectfully as possible but. Do not put fandom content creators on a pedestal. We are also just fans contributing to a community just as you are. We have boundary on our own work and that’s it. What I say is not and should not be considered sth the whole fandom should listen to. I’m just a normal ass person ranting about things on my blog. If it does not have a fandom tag for others to engage in, do not make it out to be me trying to start fights or addressing the whole community. Because it’s not.
I’ve said it before and I will say it again, my art, my lore talk, is biased. I’ve never tried to hide that I view Marika a certain way and will always develop my theory following that base assumption.
Aside from translation stuffs and pointing out in-game items, everything else I say you can look at it, agree or disagree, and move on to form your own opinions. Just because I draw stuffs doesn’t mean you get to saddle me with responsibilities about managing fandom expectations. What the hell? I’m a fan artist, I’m the last person who you should look at for “leaderism” (?) WHAT?
I can and will be a hater in my own space, like I know sometimes other artists will just post their stuffs and not engage too heavily with fandom, and for a while I did try to do that here (because I’m already a dramatic ass on twitter), that’s just not me though.
You will get art and you will get my opinions as well.
#asking ppl to [celebrate different takes] is... WHAT?#different takes as in well I think she likes apples and you think she likes grapes. yeah that’s some fun discussion to be have#but different takes as in the fundamental of a character’s drive and personality??? NO#let’s put that down very clear here#I can still read fics where Marika is cold and calculate and manipulative as long as I can see there’re layers to it and the author#set it up in a way that I can see they got her backstory and build those layers based on that#and then there are ppl who literally only portray her as omg evil girlboss 101 let’s blame everything on this cardboard character#then I click back.#and there r ppl who might not vibe with how i portray her and they can ignore me. THAT'S OK TOO. we r in our own space.#it’s as simple as that!#ever since the dlc is out i literally could see the amount of ppl blocking me go up and im just “ok” because i do go around muting ppl too.#that's normal fandom space managing experience. pls do that#lore discussion is for ppl to engage in so u say ur piece i say mine and we can continue or not depending on situation#but FANWORK? leave each other alone or be a hater in ur own space ok?#personal#also where are these ppl who have been defending Marika at... because if u exclude me#and some others i can count on one hand. where are these ppl?#ppl saying headass stuffs about the HS aren't even Marika fans or engage too much in fandom to begin with#meanwhile u can't even find one youtube lore essay that says anything good about her#ppl are even trying to give Messmer's mother position to GEQ for no goddamn reason#like where is this overwhelming support for Marika at cuz as the active Marika stan around im not seeing it
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Decided to go through with this after all! Post proof of donation of at minimum 10$USD and a simple request and you can get a colored sketch! (Honey kindly modeled for the example like a good filly!)
#ngl if anyone requests AU stuff of mine I will explode /positive#oh and to the person who donated 5 dollars because you love my AU thank you if you want one you only have to donate five#but dm me here if you decide to it might get buried#you can request any kind of character but i will say right now#if you ask for humans it prob wont be full body#just cause if i get more than a few of these i will be quickly overwhelmed#but if i dont get that many who knows what you’ll end up with!#my art#my little pony#mlp#eqg#equestria girls#honeycrisp blossom
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Thinking about Minute’s insane morals and how he doesn’t have a single genuinely bad bone in his body. He gets confused when he’s betrayed, he begs for explanations when people are cruel. He would rather make amends than hold onto grudges. He forgives and forgets. He teams with the same guy (Wemmbu) that’s betrayed him countless of times, and still trusts him anyways. Even if a bit reluctant at first. Even if he knows he’ll still end up betrayed.
Like this guy has PROBLEMS. He so morally… Good. He can stoop down to other people’s level, he can play dirty, he can be intimidating. He doesn’t really let himself get walked all over. But he’d MUCH rather just hang out and have peace. He gets upset when people are negative because he’s just SO optimistic. He always has to see the Good side of things, even when it’s a horrendous situation.
Even when he has reasons to be angry and upset and spiteful, he still chooses to hold his head high and STICK to his morals. He’s Stubborn. He tries so hard to see Why people are evil and hurtful, but he can’t personally understand. He needs to be the hero. He needs to save others. Because who else is going to do it? Who else has the resources, the strength, the backbone, the reputation? He gives items out to people with no expectation for reimbursement. He’s always saving other server members, even his enemies, from tricky situations.
He tries hard to remain all mysterious and brooding. He tries to seem calm and collected. But he wears his heart on his sleeve. You can hear every emotion in his voice, in the glint in his eyes. The way his smile upturns when he finds something amusing, or how his eyebrows furrow when he’s trying to piece something together. He’s an incredibly emotional guy, and he’s not good at hiding it. He’s notoriously a bad liar. He gives himself away every time he opens his mouth. It’s WHY he’s so genuine, so easy to trust.
It’s easy to get under his skin, but he still holds his ground. Because he has to. Because the world is cruel and brutal, and everyone is out to get him. Killing is second nature on most SMPs, especially on Lifesteal. But he can defend himself. Most other people can’t. He’s paranoid, and watches events from the sidelines (even if it annoys other players.) He always has extra food and fireworks to give out. Despite covering himself in dark colors, and hiding from large groups, he’s still looking out for others. He’s still the beacon of hope people need. He’s so annoyingly optimistic and cheerful that it’s sickening to most. He refuses to let himself become bitter and pessimistic.
Anyways bro thinks he’s Batman.
#I do NOT want to see a minutetech villain arc I want him to suffer through always playing the Hero#minutetech#PLEASE CAN ANYONE HEAR ME#DOES THIS MAKE SENSE#His hero complex is so fascinating to me#he isn’t doing any of this out of personal gain either#he’s just Genuinely trying to be a good guy#dare I say#In Over My Head by Grandson#I associate that song with him a Lot#he gets overwhelmed with this position he’s put himself into but he can HANDLE it#he HAS to#he has to endure it because nobody else is insane enough to be so stupidly Good and Optimistic#this is inspired mainly by the aftermath of the election results stream#and also the recent Nations event he was in#because wow he really can’t comprehend people Genuinely being evil JUST to be evil#basically Minute has to help people out all of the time or he dies#lifesteal#lifesteal smp
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One of my biggest pet peeves is the assumption that something has to be sad for it to be tragic.
I've always been a big believer of the 'Apollo has an awful love life'/'Apollo is plain unlucky with love' line of thinking but it does bother me that the general reasoning for that statement is given to the concept of 'Apollo is somehow undesireable and thus rejected' (Cassandra/Daphne/Marpessa) or 'his lovers die young and thus their love is unfulfilled' (Cyparissus/Hyacinthus/Coronis). I personally think that's a very unfortunate way of looking at things - not only because it neglects the many perfectly cordial entanglements and affairs Apollo has had, both mortal and divine - but because it presents a very shallow interpretation of the concepts of love and loss and how loss affects people.
Apollo can still grieve lovers that have a long, healthy life. The inherent tragedy of an immortal who knows his lovers and children will die and cannot stop it does not stop being tragic simply because those lovers and children live long, fulfilled lives. The inherent tragedy of loss does not stop being tragic simply because someone knows better than to mourn something that was always going to end.
What is tragic is not that Apollo loves and loses but that loss itself follows him. Apollo does not love with the distance of an immortal, he does not have affairs and then leaves never to listen to their prayers again. He does not have offspring and then abandon them to their trials only to appear when it is time to lead them to their destinies. He raises his young, he protects the mothers of his children, he blesses the households that have his favour and multiplies their flocks that they may never go hungry. He educates his sons, he adorns his daughters and even in wrath he is quick to come to his senses and regret the punishments he doles out.
Apollo loves. And like mortals, there will always be some part of him that wishes to protect the objects of his affections. Apollo, however, is also an emissary of Fate. He knows that the fate of all mortal things is death. He knows that to love a mortal is to accept that eventually he will have to bury them. There is no illusion of forever, there is no fantasy where he fights against the nature of living things and shields his beloveds from death. Apollo loves and because of that love, he also accepts.
And that, while beautiful, is also tragic.
#ginger rambles#ginger chats about greek myths#greek mythology#apollo#Listen man#I think there's something extremely beautiful about Apollo's affairs#Yes I know that Ares also loves and cares for his daughters but this isn't about him#There's just something about the way that Apollo put his all into it every single time#To the point that even when he does know better he still fights because of the strength of his love#The Iliad to me will always be a love story#Yes Achilles' wrath is said to come from his overwhelming feelings towards Patroclus#but what Achilles does has nothing to do with grief or love#By the end of everything Achilles forsook that love which ought to have defined his actions based on what he was saying#and warped it into a weapon meant to satisfy the void left by his loss#Apollo though - I am always taken aback by the sheer weight of his love#towards not only Hektor but towards all of Troy in the Iliad#And how he is very careful to balance that love and all the ways he wishes he could fight against their inevitably end#with his duties as one who is both aware of the impending end and whose position in the war#has put him in opposition with his elders#That delicate balance between a love so powerful that he is willing to take on the full weight of Athena and Hera's wrath#and an understanding that the battle he fights is not for victory but simply because for love's sake#How could you not think of that as beautiful and awesome and so achingly tragic#I feel the same about both Asclepius' and Actaeon's deaths#Apollo loved BOTH of his sons - Asclepius and Aristaeus - so so SO much#He was so incredibly proud of them both and delighted immensely in the both of their victories and talents#And so when Asclepius dies and it is by his own father's hand - I have always found his act of wrath so fascinating#Honestly this could be its own separate post - but the fact that Apollo does not beg Zeus to reconsider or to bring Asclepius back#when Apollo has made cases for lenience on things like that before speaks of a level of understanding from Apollo that Asclepius was always#going to die because of his pushing of the boundary between life and death#so he doesn't bother trying to reason with Zeus or plea his grief - instead going directly to destroying something important to Zeus
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#on a date#im just always like#:) what if they had fun#harry potter#draco malfoy#drarry#draco x harry#harry x draco#hp fanart#hpdm#I was talking the other day abt teenlarp#that’s when you get to do fun shithead teen activities bc you missed out on emotionally and developmentally important adolescent experiences#for xyz reason#like idk a war#and I just think they should be allowed to ditch class#and have fun in at the park#and kiss each other#I also just think it’s true that Draco would b affectionate in a cat way of like oh#I see you’re occupying this tile#what if we shared it?#I’m always drawing him lap crawling lol#butts his head into Harry’s stomach pet my hair#and harry would b the sort to like#not let him up#like squeezes harder when he wriggles#I think they’d both b actually super overwhelmed by positive feeling generally#and it manifests as cuteness aggression and annoying pda
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it's so painful that i can't romance vivienne with an inquisitor who is genuinely head over heels, absolutely heartstruck by her. because now all i can do is imagine mescha sitting on her balcony late at night as she spins the ring vivienne gave to her around her finger again and again and again as she stares at the stars and wonders if it any of it means anything at all. if any of the 'darling's and 'my dear's and 'sweet thing's vivienne has so casually sent her way meant anything more than just passive endearment.
#dai#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#vivienne#vivienne de fer#mescha cadash#cadash#inquisitor cadash#mescha's feelings on vivienne are sooo complex. comphet is so strong with mescha. she was a noble hunter and had kids with a noble man.#she then left and joined the carta where she got into a relationship with the dasher because she felt like it was expected of her and#it was how she was raised to gather favor. and then she joins the inquisiton and she doesnt have to be around the dasher anymore#and she has her daughters safe with the inquisiton. and suddenly she has room to breathe#suddenly she has room to think. to fantasize. to get tangled up in her own feelings of affection and attraction and#the dreading overwhelming fear that she is just like bastien. just like the dasher. just like the father of her first two children. because#she is in a position of power over vivienne and is petrified of that sort of power. she doesnt want to be like them. she lives in fear of#being like them.#projection is so so strong with mescha please girl take a nap. take a break. let yourself love
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One of my 666 extras ideas evolved into something that's almost certainly going to turn big enough to be a whole separate installment, I think!
#personal#hazbin hotel#radiostatic#my writing#vox#alastor#feeling a little weird about posting this after how BIG the original reaction was to the series not having more planned at the time#idk 666 just got so big that sometimes the responses were a little overwhelming#it culminated unfortunately with the last installment because it was a combination of people being sad that the series#didn't have more explicitly planned for it#and because a number of people got weird about the CNC (particularly a number of people who hadn't read the rest of the series)#in a way that at least at the time felt like it overshadowed people actually enjoying the series#so it left me with some weird feelings about the whole thing#and now I'm a little apprehensive to post more#I'll get over it a lot of the overshadowing was just because negativity feels louder than positivity and I'm just venting a little!#writing snippets#staticradio
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hey cool fun fact for other selfshippers obsessed w organizing things: you can organize your f/o list in whatever way feels best for you.
if you wanna list every character you consider an f/o, even if you dont really talk abt them, thats wonderful! big f/o lists aren't a bad thing.
if you have a list of f/os that isn't public just so you can remember them all, thats perfectly fine! if you have a lot of f/os and struggle with memory issues, do what makes you comfortable.
if you just wanna list the ones youre most focused on, thats great! just because some are unlisted doesnt mean you love them any less.
if you only have one f/o but you still wanna dedicate a whole info page about them, thats amazing! you love that character so much, you deserve to show your love in whatever way you want!
there is no rules for your f/o list. you can do whatever you want forever!!!!!!
(ok to rb, pr0ship/c0mship dni)
#IDK IF THIS IS RELATABLE FOR ANYONE. i just have ocd and struggle eith things feeling too overwhelming if they dont look perfect#self ship#self ship community#self ship positivity#oc x canon#f/o community#safeship#safeship positivity#꒰ sunshowers.exe ꒱ 🪷
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calling harry a “can opener” was SUCH a good play for so many reasons i think about it every day.
in the context of his work, it makes him a tool. as many people have pointed out, including martin luiga, part of the hdb tragedy is that he simply cannot leave the force, and his superiors know that and are using it to their advantage. no matter what happens, even if harry hated every nanosecond of every bit of the work and wanted to leave, he can’t and won’t leave. they can leverage anything they want against him and then reel him back in with a facade of kindness when they “allow” him to keep his job, as long as he does what they want him to. the 41st knows he has this inexplicable talent with people and they use him for it. he’s a cop: that talent can be used in so many awful ways, to push so many different agendas. and they won’t even be his own. a can opener has no particular desire to open a can, aside from maybe the satisfaction of fulfilling a purpose. a can opener has no agency, it’s just a tool for someone else to use to get what they want. and he’s learned to be okay with being used as long as it means he gets to stay. his complacency with this system makes him guilty even if he’s also being harmed by it.
but in the context of his personal life you kind of... flip it. the people around him are going to be opened up whether they want to be or not, and it’s terrible for his relationships. it’s shown that the questions, the prying- the can-opening- it’s become inextricable from who he is as a person. it’s like he doesn’t know how else to communicate, except it’s hardly communication when you’re just ripping people open. he’s invasive as all hell, although whether he means to be is debatable. he’s the kind of person that wants to take things apart to see what makes them tick. he dissects people, but really that’s too delicate of a word for what he does; if he doesn’t get what he wants right up front, he’ll abandon all subtlety and go for brute force. if he can’t get your screws loose he’ll just smash you on the ground and pick through your pieces until he’s satisfied, and if what he did to you isn’t fixable? oh well, there are other cans to open.
and he’ll use it for personal gain: we already know he is (was?) manipulative. once he knows how you operate, he knows how to make you keep him. he can yell or he can cry; he can threaten you or he can threaten himself; he can be completely suffocating or he can withdraw completely; he can be an incorrigible liar or brutally honest; he can present himself as a threat or a joke or a talent. he’s a chimera- that’s why he’s got this inexplicable magnetism, even when people know they shouldn’t like or trust him. fidelity of character means nothing to him. he’ll be whatever he needs to be as long as it gets him what he wants. the can-opening is just his way in.
#disco elysium#harry du bois#and it works on us the audience as well!#look at how many different versions of harry there are out there. each tailored to our individual preferences#we exaggerate and minimize his traits according to what we want to see. he's can-opening us too!#it's just like. of course his job will frame the can opening as a positive thing#but it's honestly one of his worst traits. or at least it is when he doesn't keep it in check#there's nothing wrong with wanting to understand people but the way he goes about it is harmful to everyone including himself#he's doing it because he has ulterior motives like 99.999998% of the time#this is mostly about pre-martinaise harry but i have no doubts that post-martinaise harry can go right back to this btw#a lot of us prefer to think of harry as drastically improving after martinaise which is great and i'd like to hope he does but.#it's also good to consider the overwhelming possibility that he will go right back to being a total shithead#and that may be completely unintentionally! which almost makes it worse!#ALSO. this is part of why kim makes a very good foil#for the most part kim will stonewall anything he doesn't feel like sharing#harry needs to respect boundaries and by god does kim have a lot of those (affectionate)#HOWEVER kim is definitely susceptible to the can opening as well#wait okay i have another post idea.#anyway thanks for reading. as always feel free to add and share thoughts!#kiwipost#hdb meta
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#lowkey posting this so i can vent in the tags#at the lowest ive been in years if not ever#I feel so alone Im at my limit and just cant fucking handle this anymore#thanks bg3 for improving my life for 5 months it might not be enough to carry me through the rest of this#Thank you for all the love on my art Ive been so thankful since rejoining fandom a year ago I still cant believe how positive its been#Im just so tired and overwhelmed#heres hoping it passes#bg3#astarion fanart#baldur's gate 3#astarion ancunin#astarion bg3#art tag
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you don't need so many blogs. it's really overwhelming to try and follow them all.
I am sorry it's overwhelming to you, anon. And I mean this in the nicest way possible but I do not expect anyone to follow all my blogs. My best friend doesn't even follow all my blogs! And she's my biggest cheerleader. I don't think anyone does and that's okay. Part of the reason I make separate blogs is so people can decide which content they want to see. A lot of people following this blog don't follow my BPD blog, or vice versa because the content doesn't feel relevant to them. A lot of people follow my disability reminders blog, but don't follow any others. And it's totally valid and it's why I make them separate.
If I don't have blogs to organize my posts appropriately, I feel panicked and overwhelmed. The separation allows me to be able to continue blogging.
I created the new writing blog because I want to upload all my writing but I don't want to spam it onto this blog, and felt like it would be easier organized and found on its own blog.
I don't have any expectation of anyone following all my blogs or even knowing which blogs are mine. That isn't a reasonable expectation. And I think you're putting an unreasonable expectation on yourself if you keep trying to force yourself to do it.
#april answers#negative ask#i don't mean that in a bad way anon#i know you're overwhelmed#i've just been askedb y followers to tag anything#that isn't positive about my blog so they can filter
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ACROSS THE SPIDERVERSE SPOILERS
I cannot get over how Miles is Gwen’s safe person.
Miles is so her safe person that she CANNOT SENSE HIM. Her body physically cannot register him as a threat. Her spider sense does not tell her he’s there when invisible because HER BODY CANNOT BE ON GUARD WITH HIM. GRRRRR.
She can sense him across universes when he’s in danger but she can’t sense him when he’s five feet away because his intentions are so…not malicious. And she feels so safe with him. And trusts him so completely. That she literally can’t sense him.
#whether you ship it romantically or just like the friendship Gwen and Miles are everything to me#she makes so many mistakes over and over and it all just comes from this overwhelming position of being a kid and NOT KNOWING BETTER#Gwen Stacy lost her Peter and wasn’t ready to lose her Miles#and she hasn’t he’s right there#and she CAN’T SENSE HIM#she thinks she is all alone in the world and she’s NOT she ISN’T#her best friend is RIGHT THERE#she just loves him too much to feel him#gwen stacy#miles morales#spider gwen#spiderman#into the spider verse#across the Spiderverse#spoilers#miles and gwen
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UUGHH I JUST HAD THE WORST DAY IM SO ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED GRRRR !!!!! goes to draw my best friend @jumjum-crafts 's guy to blow off steam
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★ song : "STATIC ELECTRICITY HUMAN – Computer Flavor" – kairikibear
#before you ask . dear jummy – yes . this was what the ask i sent you the other day was alluding to#i have a very complicated relationship with your colin . but you should be aware of the fact that seeing him invokes intense primitive –#– feelings within me . and one cannot decipher whether they are positive or negative#in any case#JDHDHDJRJRHT I HATE MY LIFE#I HATE THIS SHIT#I WANT TO BE DEAD#there's so much stuff happening every day and im constantly overwhelmed and tired and it's so hard to get out of bed and i don't even want –#– to wake up in the morning . every day just gets worse than the last#everyone around me is doing so much . living their life to the fullest . making huge future and career decisions and planning way ahead#and what am i doing ?#im laying in bed . crying because today was just too much to bear . trying to gain an ounce of happiness by ripping out another piece of –#– my soul to hand out to someone i admire#is this what it's going to be like forever ? bleak nothingness ? constant desolation ?#...#im gonna go to bed#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis colin#colin the computer#fanart#fanart for a friend#vocaloid#vocaloid inspired#i actually had a lot of fun with this . even if the background was the biggest pain i ever had the pleasure of drawing#this entire song makes me feel comfortable#i might make something for someone else#and im debating if im actually gonna be doing a halloween drawing in the first place . at least one that will be on time with the holiday#whatever#please ignore me
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