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I just want to say something about Kakashi and the fact that he never lashes out against the system or tried to fix it himself.
Something i’ve seen him compared to is Gojo who states he ‘could kill all the higher ups’ but i think a lot of people forget that he also says ‘nothing would change’ (which is funny to me because i saw the manga shot once and remembered it and i don’t watch JJK)
There’s a few reason’s this doesn’t work for Kakashi
1) OG Kakashi couldn’t do that.
Kakashi in OG Naruto wasn’t on par with Hiruzen. He’d lose that fight. Yes he’s an assassine but Hiruzen is a Hokage level shinobi.
He’s not going to be snuck up on that easy and in a 1 vs 1 battle Og Kakashi is not winning. War arc or Hokage Kakashi might win, but not OG Kakashi. He still has a lot of growing to do in his skills.
2) as Gojo said, nothing would change
If Kakashi could and did kill Hiruzen, then what? Tsunade maybe gets convonced to take the job or Danzo gets it. Kakashi ends up a Rogue Ninja away from all his friends, painted as the bad guy for trying to in-force his beliefs over everyone?
Gai is on par with Kakashi. Maybe he could take the rest of Konoha but Gai, Jiraiya (if he’s there), Tsunade (if she’s there)
Like, they’d all probably turn on him and try to kill him. He wouldn’t be there hero. No one would be throwing him parties.
He’d be the bad guy in everyone’s eyes.
This man has lost so much that i think that would shatter him. He wouldn’t have any more will to fight ir change shit. His will to fight the system is already so broken even when we see him go against orders.
3) it doesn’t match Kakashi’s established ‘style’
Kakashi isn’t someone who does things alone. His main motto is teamwork.
If Kakashi were to go against the system and try to change it, he’d do it with his friends. He’d convince them that the system is broken (or maybe they realize themselves like Gai) and that they need to change it.
He’d probably avoid killing.
Kakashi was an assassine but as soon as he gained power he changed the law so instead of killing enemies shinobi were to capture them.
If Kakashi can think of a way to do things without killing, he will. Everyone has a different answer to changing things (Sasuke=kill everyone, Obito & madara= eternal dream, Nagato = making everyone else suffer). Kakashi’s answer is peaceful solution where there can be one.
4) that’s not the point of this story
Naruto wants to be Hokage. Do i think he should have changed and recognized the system? Yes. But that’s not how Kishi wrote it.
In Kishi’s story as we read it, anyone directly against the system is bad no matter what their solution. Zabuza is bad until he ‘changes his mind before death’, Obito is bad until he switches side, Sasuke is bad until Naruto ‘convinces him’)
Kishi would only write Kakashi lashing out directly against the system if he wanted to make Kakashi into a bad guy in his story. Since Kakashi is one of his good guys, he had him silently and slowly changing the system with his own actions and teachings.
Kishi simply didn’t write Kakashi being against the syatem in the same way the JJK author wrote Gojo being against the system because his world is very black and white. Good and bad. (Even though Gojo’s solution is the exact same as Kakashi’s).
Kakashi is a character i believe should have been more against the current system, demanding change because he has lost so much to that system. But that’s simply not the character Kishi wrote.
Edit: may I add this man would absolutely go to bat for his students. He defied Hiruzen to save Tenzo from Danzo. He tell’s his student’s to always put their teammates before their mission and that extebds to putting his precious people over the village if he has to.
#Hatake Kakashi#i’m high so feel free to ignore me#but i wanted to talk about ky fav dork man#and a very interesting topic#i personally like his complexity because he clearly recognizes how broken the system is#but he sort of accepts that he personally can’t change it so he has to guide the future generation to be better#and make changes that he believes he doesn’t have the power to make#a very important thing about Kakashi’s character is he is broken#just like other’s are broken#naruto is broken and he responds by being overly cheerful and forgiving#sasuke is broken and responds by being angry and vengeful#kakashi is broken#he feels lost and weak#he recognizes his skills as a shinobi and nothing else#his spirit was shattered a little more with each person he lost#he doesn’t have the energy to be angry or happy#he only has the energy to exist abd try and help the future to be better#Gojo is all powerful and cocky from what i’ve sene#i know they both have silver hair but their personalities seem vastly diffrent
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I always double check the golden claw. you know, just in case it's changed in the last 13 years.
#bear moth owl#literally it is never not bear moth owl#and yet i check anyways yk. just in case todd wants to be funny#skyrim#im doing yet another iron man challenge bc i accidentally deleted my other one :( while mass deleting#(i save individual files bc they corrupt so often/easy)#(but this means i have to manually delete stuff so i can FIND ANYTHING)#(rip sithia the bosmer. your entire save was broken but rip anyways)#anyways rn im a khajiit named rozita#not the dragonborn and not even in any specific timeline. just kind of an adventuring kitty#i tired to make her look like a white tiger but the khajiit fur only managed to be like. very light grey :(
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There’s been a distinct shift in how leftist Jew haters are starting to express their Jew hatred and it’s… very back to the old days, to put it lightly. It’s two specific things that I’ve seen. The more moderate stance of ‘it’s so terrible that the bad Jews are playing into Jew hating canards, how dare they!!’ which, just… ugh. And then you have the extremes, the ones who say ‘yeah, I hate Jews, but it’s their fault because of them being the scum of humanity’, it’s the ‘Hitler hated Jews for shit they didn’t do but I hate Jews for shit they did do!’ (a direct quote taken from someone who I can only describe as completely deranged)
And, honestly, seeing this shift has kind of broken me
At this point, there is no denial left. There is no going back. The pretences are starting to be dropped, people are becoming more and more comfortable with their Jew hatred being about Jews, and they’ve realised that it’s acceptable to say that out loud. All they need to do is say it’s our fault, and they get a free pass. We are fully back in the nineteenth century, all we’re missing is the ‘no dogs, no Jews’ signs (oh wait— what’s that about a bar in America banning all (((Zionists)))?) and the pogroms that go with it (oh no, what’s that about Russia, Dagestan, an airport, and a hotel?). We’re back in mid twentieth century Iran, where Jews are stuck between a country not yet legally aggressive to us, and all of the people in said country who want us dead
I don’t think things in the west are at the level of nineteenth century Europe yet, just in the style. But I’m also smart, I’m also connected to my history. My safta left Iran in 1951, at the age of ten, because her family saw what was happening. Ninety thousand other Jews in Iran saw it too. They caught on and they left. And then two decades later the revolution happened, and now our family can’t even visit without being executed. Many Jews have convinced themselves that we’ve assimilated, that were just like everyone else, that were safe. But we’re not safe. We are a people who have been persecuted and expelled and massacred for over two thousand years, it’s not going to suddenly stop now. And now that the people who are supposed to be fighting to keep us safe have started killing us, we have nobody but each other
I don’t think everyone should pack up and leave their countries right now. But I do think you should have a suitcase ready
#I feel like something has fundamentally broken in me#and seeing the progression of the emotional states of the other Jews on this site over the past few months shows me I’m not unique for that#Jewish stuff#antisemitism#leftist antisemitism#jew hatred#jumblr#I feel kind of bad tagging jumblr because it’s supposed to be a happy place#but I just need a community right now
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last night i had a dream i had to go to school to take an exam in my young justice (1998) class. and i was bewildered as to what could possibly be on an exam in a yj98 class but i showed up and sat down and got my exam paper. the first question was "which of these medical conditions do you have but have never disclosed?" and it was multiple choice and i don't remember all the options but one of them was "asplenia", and i looked up and in one of the other seats in the classroom, tim drake was sitting there and just Frowning at this exam paper.
#rimi talks#woke up and immediately started laughing#i think one of the other questions was ''have you ever broken a bone on purpose?'' and there was a note like#Do Not snap your finger right now just so you can answer yes to this question. if you just did... go see the nurse... you fool...#what was this dream even 😭😭😭
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I get the criticism of the Hunters of Artemis from a narrative perspective—it sucks that it essentially boots interesting female characters out of the story—but it always baffles me when people viciously hate Artemis for *checks notes* doing damage control.
Like. Thalia explicitly goes with Artemis to avoid the prophecy, and I definitely think that’s the reason Artemis tried so hard to get her to join—hell, you can view the hunters trying to recruit Annabeth as a way to get Thalia to join. And Bianca? You can’t convince me that Artemis didn’t guess there was something up there and react accordingly.
If Percy or Nico were even a little bit girl-adjacent you bet your ass she would be all over them to join. No one actually wants to risk the Great Prophecy happening, and Artemis is doing a hell of a lot more to stop it than anyone else.
#riordanverse#pjo#percy jackson#Artemis pjo#hunters of artemis#crack fic idea: Poseidon and Zeus have broken the oath several times before Thalia Jason and Percy. Artemis has just been hauling ass across#the country each time it happens. they have been so fucking lucky that their kids have been girl or girl-adjacent so far.#Artemis gets her info from Apollo (who gets pinged whenever a new potential prophecy child is born)#the hunters weren’t at westover to hunt thorn or even recruit Thalia. they were ACTUALLY there because Artemis got a text from her brother#like ‘lol the di angelo kids are out of the lotus hotel’#and Artemis is like gods FUCKING damnit hades I thought we had an understanding#OTHER fic idea: Bianca joins the hunters in the 30s and Nico goes to the casino alone#OTHER OTHER fic idea: Artemis can tell people’s gender sometimes before they can and now she has to crack trans Percy’s egg before she turns#sixteen so she’ll agree to join the hunters and put the prophecy off once again.#anyway. this has been my defense of Artemis.#eli rambles#eli writes
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Stolitz, and their fear of rejection and sense of worthlessness turning into a self-fulfilled prophecy.
Blitz—
Does anybody love you, Blitzo? / No.
Eventually everyone goes...
Stolas only cares about having a rugged peasant raw-dog him into his mattress. It's nothing... You know. It's nothing else.
I'm going to die alone, aren't I? Just a wrinkly, old, withered waste.
Royal demons don't give a shit about guys like us. They're all the fucking same.
Stolas, don't act like what we have is anything but you wanting me to fuck you. You make that really clear all the time.
But you don't want to do things alone, Blitzo.
I mean, Stolas is just a loud, thirsty bitch who loves feeling the thrill of being dicked by the lower class. It's a novelty to him.
And then he'll call me and try to see how my day was, and he'll pretend to care about me, and comment on my photos, and laugh at my jokes... /Oh well that's definitely your clue right there that it's all bullshit / I know, right?!
It's all my fault. I'd hate me too. I mean, I do hate—
You're going to die alone. You're gonna die alone, Blitzo.
[My worst fear has come true. He couldn't possibly want me. This has to be a joke. He's selfish and an asshole, just like the rest of them. He's trying to get rid of me; that's the only explanation. I'm just a broken toy he's finally gotten bored of, just like I knew would happen. He won't even fight for me, and why would he? I could never be good enough for him. It's happening again. I'm being abandoned by someone I care about. I really am going to die alone.]
Stolas—
Would he want me if he was free? And if he's only here as a prisoner, what kind of monster does that make me?
I mite b bsuy / I wouldn't want to bother you!
You see... I seem to have found myself with, um. Feelings for him. And I'm not sure if it's a mutual thing.
Dearest, I know better now, I must give you this choice.
I'll save us both before we grow cold.
What's between you and I? Just a comfortable lie.
I'm sorry it's a bad time yet again, Blitzy...
He deserves the choice to stay or go.
So I'll grant you this mercy, this bind on our souls needs to end...
Next time you come over, maybe we can talk about what happened at Ozzie's? / Y? / I'm sorry! Nevermind, it's not a big deal.
What's left for me and my broken heart if I cannot have you? Unless it's me, and no matter what in this world I could give, it's not enough to get through the walls you've conjured up to live...
I'll believe him, and not the voice that says I'm not enough.
I'll fucking die alone if this goes bad!
[My worst fear has come true. I truly am not worthy of being loved. He's rejecting me— no, mocking me for even thinking he could ever want to be with me if he didn't need my book. I've been taking advantage of him all this time, all the while believing we had something real and being naive enough to think he could love me back. I am a monster. And now that he can, he has chosen to leave me. So now the least I can do is quietly let him—the only person I have ever wanted and felt alive with—go. I really am going to die alone.]
#helluva boss#helluva boss spoilers#helluva boss the full moon#stolitz#blitz helluva boss#helluva boss blitz#stolas helluva boss#helluva boss stolas#helluva boss full moon#helluva boss meta#More or less?#image description in alt#I am sorry for inflicting pain but I simply cannot suffer alone#They both think they're being rejected when truly they're both desperate to be enough for the other#But as soon as they give the other a chance to say 'I want you too'#(Stolas with his heartfelt confession; Blitz with his 'hold on Stolas' and his 'LET'S GO!')#The other immediately goes 'oh so I was right. He really actually does not want me around. Just like I feared#And acts accordingly. Which just cements the other's belief that what's happening is just a very cruel and mocking rejection#HE'S NOT REJECTING YOU HE'S REACHING OUT SAYING 'WILL YOU LOVE ME ENOUGH TO TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL' YOU IDIOT#<- me at BOTH of them#Their trauma is so well written I am in awe always and forever. Every step of the way. Their brokenness heals me.#It's going to be so cathartic when they grow to understand one another's perspective
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LOVE IS SO MANY THINGS. I AM SICK OF PLATONIC LOVE BEING ERASED WHEN IT IS ONE OF THE MOST STRONGEST AND IMPORTANT LOVES EVER. IM SORRY. IM SAYING IT. When you get broken up with?! Your friends are there. When someone hurts you and you need to vent or even just share STUPID GOSSIP?!?! Your friends are there !!!! People like me who don't have biological family to rely on. Hell my closest friends are basically siblings to me. I literally call them siblings. Platonic love is so strong and important and it means so much. Yes romantic love is awesome. Yes familial love is awesome but the love that has the most impact on you? Platonic. Sorry. You'll fall in love platonically more than any other love.
Also. Hey. The only rules are the ones YOU set. I'm sick and tired of people saying you cant do "romantic" things with platonic relationships. Yeah sorry. I'm taking my friends on "dates". Yes we can hold hands. You want to kiss your friend on the cheek?! Go for it dude. The world is literally your oyster and as long as you both consent. WHATEVER !!!!!!!!
#im so sorry but. platonic love is so important to me#i love my friends i adore them#my friends have helped me through so so so much#and im not saying youll have friends forever. I know those feelings pass too#but youll always remember them.#platonic love is just like any other love.#theres good and bad. so if youve gotten your heart broken by friends. sorry. I am#but can we PLEASE stop acting like romantic love is the only interesting type of love?!#and yknow what on that note.#maybe yall dont DESERVE romantic live bcus whenever romance is involved you guys always dumb down characters to being in love. so ANNOYING.
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Feyre: Rhysand is my mate and I'm telling you this to your face.
Also Feyre: If you try and break my mating bond, I'm going to ruin your life.
Also Feyre: If you drag me back to Spring against my will, I'll destroy everything you love.
Tamlin: Break her mating bond so I can drag her back to Spring and we can start over.
Also Tamlin: I can't believe you destroyed everything I love and ruined my life!
#like idk pals i feel like feyre was REALLY upfront about what would happen at the end of acomaf#but i don't expect reading comprehension from the i love misogyny fandom#like if you ally with someone to get your girlfriend back and then her sisters are murdered in the process#and she tells you this other guy is her mate and you demand the bond be broken#and then drag her back home when shes saying to your face she doesnt want to go#and she promises to ruin your life like...can you actually be angry when she does it??#its always blah blah blah consent is so important until its tamlin violating consent#and then its well feyre is too stupid to know whats good for her anyway and she needs to just listen#rhys made her dance what a monster but uwu tamlin was just stressed when he nearly killed her with his magical outburst#anti tamlin#pro feyre#youll never catch me stanning a man over a woman in these streets
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playing slay the princess as intended (watching your friend stream it and then roleplaying as improvised ocs for each of ur runs)
#anethia collectibles#slay the princess#so ...#run 1 is i think the witch/thorns where we chose to be very stoic and silent throughout#run 2 is the paranoid/nightmare route (fav) bcus i wanted to get to ask more qns that round and somehow that ended up leading to my poor#little curious guy getting so broken and fractured :3#run 3 is the hero/deconstructed damsel route ....#run 4 is the tower! and being a little shit who is by hell and highwater NOT kneeling down#run 5 is the spectre ... roleplayed as guy who is for reasons he doesnt understand just wants it to be over#and MEOW anyway#nobody told me this game was an rpg .....#but its cool ! i love romances :]#i think its awesome ... the way the hero and the princess are . changing over time . over with each reset#the way they find each other in the long quiet ...... its something so#i love it ...#the hero is so guilty for hurting the princess that he loves and he is scared of hurtign and he wants peace and he doesnt want the eternity#of it .... he loves the . shifting mound (?) is it (?) as much as he hates the work she makes her do as much as he loves todo the workforher#like a blank slate knowing nothing . except that broken wounds can be healed . and then he meets her. and then he meets her over and over#its a million meet cutes for the hero and the princess snd a sweeping tale of love and devotion and salvation in the long wuiet#how many more vessels do you need .....#and its fun to. at least how i played it . the things the hero picks up on#knowingly or unlnowingly with each run#its soooo#every 'remain silent' feels like a callback to the first libe#telling the voices 'itll be okay' after the brightness of the damsel snd that 'ill be okay' after the selfishness n suffering of apotheosis#or after the deconstructed damsel route . and then to the last run. becoming the damsel. seeing it throughcher eyes#and its so . this culminating ammassing of allcthese voices .... and it comes to it all being reflected at eachcother#spectre posseses hero and shifting mound and player becomign whole#anyway i like this love story i find it very tender and swet#... anyway ! this is . none of this is analysis these are just my ocs and the story i made up whilst playing
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Zombnaan from the season 6 trailer today
#the dragon prince#runaan#TO BE CLEAR I think it’s just some nightmare vision Rayla is going through#cause his horn isn’t broken and also it looks like Rayla is in water#his bangs are wild tho like was he just slicking them back this whole time#not the timeskip Runaan design i asked for ok#I’ve seen other peoples theories but guess we’ll see in two weeeeekssss#tdp#tdp art#dianadraws
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Silliness aside, while i was gathering images from Moonlight Mansion for that last post, I uh... realized something kinda BIG...
That towering manor, with the big "M" doorway? A symbol like that kinda reminds you of a certain airship.... ...But no! Surely that decorated "M" stands for "Moonlight!"
Oh, wait.... Oh no...
On the gate...is that......? IT IS!
IT'S DARK META KNIGHT! And all the BAT imagery everywhere too...! Ahhh! I can't believe I'm just now seeing this!?!
:cue "Damn, bitch, you live like this?":
But I will be taking those stained glass windows of the Guardians of the Mirror World as more evidence for my "Dark Meta Knight was a mole who truly cared about the Mirror World" theory though!
(And maybe the grave stone is for the Mirror Meta Knights, like when I theorized they'd all died and that's why DMK's such a loner...)
#Kirby#Kirby series#Dark Meta Knight#cw: language#How did I never see this before??#Did everyone else know about this already?!#Moonlight Mansion is DMK's goddamn HOUSE#And of course you find Shadow Kirby right outside the gates!!#DMK why are you so...!! :cries in misunderstood character:#The fact that he chooses to fight you in Radish Ruins. He loves old ruins. Just like Meta Knight does...!!#All those books too... tossed aside... broken mirrors...#Yeah this does absolutely nothing to de-convince me that something baaaaad happened to DMK and the others...#DMK Defense Force
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shadow bandee design i made awhile ago :D (jan 17th, 24)
i feel like mirror bandee would be very skilled without putting the effort in, getting where they are by power, instead of earning it through putting the work in. this would lead to them becoming over-confident and become the cause their biggest weakness. a friend pointed out this would mirror dedede in the beginning of the series too!
#not the usual type of thing i post.. but i like seeing peoples headcanons. why not post mine#kirby#bandana dee#mirror world#im not sure how i feel about the mirror design..? it takes aspects of dmk skirby and shadow ddd#like with the over abundances of greys and reds. and dmks yellow eyes. it eases the usage of the first two colors#and the different bandana.. i didnt want the same thing as his counterpart. it doesnt tell characterization#just like how dmks mask is broken. and the red bandana can add to shadow ddds red in his design. to show hes apart of the kingdom#ahh ahh the different weapon too.. they all have different weapons dont they? its just something simple to show characterization.#a weapon doesnt need to be overcomplicated.. this just shows enough to tell where he is at this point#the eyes probably look edgy.. looking at the other mirror counterparts eyes theres usually something different about them#sorry for the design analysis i love rambling. kind of crazy how i hate talking in a public area though LOL#gamezz.txt#fanart
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”if max and chloe arent together in double exposure that means something really bad must have happened to make them break u—“ pricefield isnt canon. you realize that right. pricefield is not canon.
edit because i only expected my mutuals to see this (my mistake i know): in the words of someone much more articulate than me, Pricefield isn’t any more canon than Amberprice. thats what this post means. thats literally it. Pricefield is on the same level of canon as Amberprice.
#like. first of all. your statement isnt even true regardless of if they were girlfriends#theres a million reasons they couldve broken up IF they were dating#but second of all#you. you guys do know pricefield isnt canon?.. right?#literally not canon.#if you guys can prove otherwise than go right ahead*#lis#life is strange#lis de#lis double exposure#life is strange double exposure#life is strange de#speaking. strictly in the game timeline btw#like there r a billion timelines in this universe where it is canon— but not the one in the game#theyre not canonically dating#anything could have happened after the storm#* as in. someone saying theyre canonically dating. not just a bunch of reasons why they love each other
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Forever feeling soft about the fact that Molly found love and joy after feeling so broken and empty. The way he can't help but reach out to other lost, lonely souls. Caleb's quiet, despondent, "I broke a bit." Molly telling Lucien,"We love broken things the most." The way Caleb feels like, "softness and light" to him.
Just...Caleb spending so long isolated and abandoned, believing he was only ever broken. And Molly, who awoke in a world that made him feel lifeless, and Empty, and broken--showing other shattered souls the love and compassion that saved him--
#widomauk#mollymauk#caleb widogast#calebs 'i broke a bit' and mollys 'we love broken things the most' as someone who refuses to abandon other lost souls--#soulmates--#sorry ill go to sleep and stop rambling about the now but#they both felt the same kind of pain and loss and grief and fears--#even if they never knew--#i think. maybe caleb suspected it though. he acknowledged all of molly's scars--so I think maybe a part of him knew#just like how molly loved caleb so much because he saw someone else who felt as lost and broken as he did--
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"strongest sky"
#star's shinies#khr#luce khr#skies are so broken in khr and the fact that we only hear that the GN skies are strongest is so freakin sad#like their future vision isn't really touched on and is put on a similar level to like hyper intuition#and the fact that they can resurrect the Arcobaleno isn't portrayed as a feat of insane strength but instead a wishy washy#“the pacifiers let them do it” (read: its not really their power) and isn't it so sad that they sacrifice themselves like this?#like#if they were just non combatant but still the strongest that would be one thing- that would be cool#but they don't get to demonstrate their strength as being anything but similar or weaker then other skies like Tsuna or Byakuran or Xanxus#who are absolutely powerful skies#but I want to see the same power scale that we do with the others#there is no sun comparable to Reborn#no mist comparable to Mammon (discounting the cheating that takes place)#there should be no sky comparable to Luce Aria Yuni except each other#Luce bound the Arcobaleno! that's gotta be a feat of insane strength#maybe that takes most of their power and energy? ofc that's not the in story reason but I can headcanon#katekyo hitman reborn
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#fucks me up that there are two whole new animals in the house that i barely know#who depend on me for everything#barely recognize me as a friend or helper#and are so incredibly incredibly fragile#i got worried for junie today because her spay incision had some swelling#and it's normal to have some and i have seen it before#but after what we just wemt through i got upset and rushed her to the vet#who said it was fine and thankfully we have free office visits#but i was so upset even though i knew it was probably normal#i look at them and i see adorable cuddly sweet TEMPORARY things and i feel like something inside me got broken somehow#and i was right all along that after it was all over i would come back but not quite as myself#i just hadn't fully understood the extent#we are keeping them and it sort of had to happen when it did but i think it was too early for me#they are so cute and when they do cuddle it's so sweet and obviously i would fight for them as hard as i would for Fancy#because that's just how the deal works and it isn't about you at all it's about how they each carry a little world inside them just as we d#and that deserves equal respect and care regardless of my personal affections#but i look at them and i see little creatures that don't belong here and are foreign in some fundamental way#and that they will be gone in just a little while and things will go back to how they were#which is impossible#we will settle in and i doubt anything i am feeling is abnormal but I'm really struggling and i feel so bad about that#i don't know#it's just a lot to deal with#and i feel very lonely and sad about it#and under it all the sick feeling of having JUST held all three lads as they passed and the VISCERAL reality of it#and knowing one day if everything goes just right i will be holding them too#dear god life is so fragile and every living thing is just as mortal as any other
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