#just a time to beg for Luck
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You’re incredibly cool and nice and funny. I love your sticker-book and whenever you post about it!
AHHHHHH. tysm!!! im glad you enjoyed the sticker times <3 honestly a love of mines n so im so glad u love it too! means the world for these nice words 🥹🥹 💖💖
#so nice.#my card collecting shit is fun time <3 so glad others enjoy(ed) it as much i did#just a time to beg for Luck#last pack openings were Shit... Sooo many dupes n none of them different bordered#but at least we had fun (i was frustrated for hours!)#anyways. my bad. tysm for the words. cherishing them#i hope everyone knows all the nice words theyve sent are inside my 'brings joy' folder 😭💖 i will look at these when im down#anon asks#ask games#💖💖
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i want the vanrouges to go on a trip TOGETHER
#i posted this like a week ago to twt and forgot to post it anywhere else. ive been moving this weekend ive been busy sry </3#i am living in an airbnb all by myself for the first time in my LIFE and i have to go apartment hunting. starting a new job tmrw#pls wish me luck ive never EVER had impostor syndrome like this. im so grateful but i feel so unprepared#im getting a 28k raise tho so like i HAVE to. u see how i have to#AND MY HOUSE SOOOOLD NO LONGER MY PROBLEM!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! the buyer owns a restaurant i liked too!!#but yea this isnt a disney-fied location i literally just drew them in peru. i want them to see the world. as a FAMILY#twstファンアート#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#lilia vanrouge#LET SILVER SEE DA WORLD!!!!!! TAKE HIM WITH U!!!!!!#im gonna go be sick with anxiety i am BEGGING u guys to pray for me. sososososo scared scared scared#suntails
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So it occurs to me that I posted most of their lore on my OC blog (though a few posts on here have the story info) and honestly I think it's very important to note that the entire reason a guy from Florida is recruited to help defeat the demon lord isn't him as the hero. His younger brother (by about ten years younger) is the Chosen Hero and... not very good at it. So the goddess (Solei) who had selected the hero has to begrudgingly go back to earth and convince his older brother to help save her world.
(Also Reynold admits to Solei that "Sascha could never be a bad influence. He's the best impulse control I've ever had" and she really doesn't like to hear it. That's terrifying.)
#my characters#sascha is The demon lord and there is truly only one at a time#solei however is simply a goddess - not the only one of divinity#i dont actually know if thats been mentioned on either art blog lmao#also its not pictured here but reynold is recruited and only asks for one favor when in the other world (from solei)#he wants to be a woman while he helps his brother#she thinks its a weird flex but ok whatever buddy you can be a woman#and the logic is not him actually wanting to be one its just you see his younger brother finds it weird#to have a guy cling to him and dote on him like reynold does and said One Time WHY COULDNT YOU BE A SISTER THIS IS WEIRD#and so reynold is briefly rey for about a month before being held hostage by sascha and hes like... super polite#and asks her if she was cursed and so shes like uhhh what and he mentions looking at her gives him a headache#because the core and the outer appearance arent the same and he can revert her back to her original form if she wants#and she does so rey goes back to reynold which is very nice and reynold appreciates it#because honestly looking at rey in a mirror gives HIM a headache cause solei designed his appearance#and it was so bright thank you demon lord for giving the florida man his natural boring look back#also reynold will always carry sunglasses because solei can just appear and she is way too bright to deal with without eye protection#solei is not amused and thinks its basically slander against her godly appearance and reynold just smiles at her and tells her tough luck#he wants his vision for his new hot husband she can deal with a little insubordination#florida man begs for torture bc he can handle that and he knows it#is instead handed courtesy and manners and doesnt know what to do with it - quickly developing what he claims is NOT stockholm syndrome#solei and sascha quietly muttering about what that could possibly mean cause they dont know what this guy is talking about
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if, somehow, we claw our way back out of this hellfire relatively quickly, likely on the backs of millions of federal workers and civilian volunteers who held the line at great personal cost, and hopefully with very minimal loss of life, I do not look forward to the inevitably smug 'see? There was nothing to worry about, checks and balances 🤗' posts
#us politics#rambleramble bullshit time#cheers m8s&str8s#the failsafes have failed#harass your reps and find local ways to help. and good luck to us all#holy mother of god the federal workers are DOIN THE WORK. and they are SO TIRED#PLEASE just. see them. and their efforts. and dont take it for granted. please please please im begging for a crumb of class solidarity
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please hockey gods or god or idk dionysus, just someone:
LET PETEY BEJEWELED NEXT GAME!!!!
#elias pettersson#vancouver canucks#canucks#hockey#i swear it’s like everything is going wrong all at once for him#every time he makes a good play that should get him an assist like 99% of the time#the guy he passed to just ? forgets how to hockey properly#every time he’s on a breakaway with someone they just ? hold onto the puck too long until they don’t have a good passing lane to him#OR they panic and give him the puck before he’s properly open#OR they decide to just dump it behind the net#every time he has a prime scoring opportunity suddenly the goalie decides it’s time to be a brick wall??#or his opponents decide no i WON’T play this legally#and i swear even every time he wins a faceoff now it goes wrong:#either an opposing winger somehow ends up behind him and gets the puck before our players#or the linesman decides to redo it 😐#can he just get the TINIEST bit of puck luck for a few games im begging
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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Me: writes an intro blurb for the dnd campaign I'm going to be running and sends it to my players
Them: respond with a series of excited emojis
Me: they hate it. they think it's badly written and the intro isn't interesting enough. i am the worst dm in history and i haven't even started yet
#just me?#okay#i love anxiety lol#dungeon master woes#< my new tag for freaking out about this#there is 1 (one) person on tumblr who knows me irl and knows someone in the campaign so i'm going to beg you not to share anything I mentio#with them because spoilers and also anxiety#anyway all of them are new players and then one of them has been playing for a Long Time and is a DM#so if I embarrass myself at least only one person will really Know but i'll still die of shame#wish me luck yall lol#dungeons and dragons#dnd campaign#dnd#dnd5e#doesn't help i decided to homebrew first try lol#i had a Story and i wanted to Tell It and now I'm starting to regret it because of the sheer amount of work I've made for myself#but i'm also very excited!#now i just need to balance this with school and not hyperfixate (challenge level: impossible)
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I aspire to be a lover not a hater. but
#long heavy exasperated siiiiiggghhh#I love seeing ongoing discussions around my blorbos#except for the fact that people canNOT stop being little haters#people talk about your favorite stan twin without bashing the other one challenge (failed. SO many times failed)#I get it people have favorites#but I think everybody should just stop. stop trying to compare the shit they've been through and arguing who had it worse#please I beg of you#first of all we don't have the full story for either of them and we never will#second of all. while their external experiences are very much important and some were very damaging#it's ultimately INTERNAL conflict that drives them both#and guess what sometimes internally you can be doing shitty even if everything seems fine on the outside#hell brain chemicals can go haywire literally because of bad luck and no other fucking reason#'oh Ford got everything he wanted out of college despite going to BMU he has no right to complain'#'oh Stan had somewhere to live for those thirty years and people who liked him for some of them'#okay maybe those periods of their lives were more stable than their respective drifter years#doesn't mean everything was automatically peachy#hell we don't know that Stan didn't occasionally secure a better job/place to stay at some point between pines pawns and gravity falls#we don't know if some of the dimensions Ford visited were more peaceful and hospitable#I'm not necessarily saying either of these things are true I'm saying WE DON'T KNOW#ugh I was going somewhere with this and then I got lost in a rant#ultimately neither of them would have settled if given a chance because they were after something more#I do think there's potential in exploring the moments of good that happened in the bad times and the moments of bad that happened in the#good times and I think that's actually way more compelling than 'everything sucked all the time for X twin for Y years'#nope still haven't quite gotten back to my original point#which is STOP IT WITH THE OPPRESSION OLYMPICS. STOP STOP STOP STOP#okay rant over
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I am once again BEGGING ao3 to add filters to the subscriptions tab
#I cry every time I want to check in on a fic I know I’m subbed to but can’t remember the title or author#my subscriptions tab is so messy#AND MARKED FOR LATER TOO#THEY BOTH NEED FILTERS#LIKE PLEASE IM SO DESPERATE ILL DO ANYTHING IM BEGGING YOU#JUST LET ME FILTER BY FANDOM AND LENGTH AND SHIP AAAAAAA#like at least with marked for later you can see tags and the summary#but subscriptions? good fucking luck with that#all you get is title and author#ITS MEANINGLESS#Like; best I can do is recognise an authors name and know they write for a certain fandom#but that doesn’t always help#randum thots
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oh my gooddddd imagine anna's darling trying to escape from her and accidentally bumping into johann for the first time.......
#c.anna liebert#c.johann fortner#johann asking darling what's wrong and asking if she's okay and if in need of any help#darling absolutely fucking frightened of anna cant even speak to whoever this guy is but the second she hears annas voice calling for her#she just begs johan for help and hides behind him shaking.#anna's patient. she loves the little chase her darling gives her from time to time. considers it a fun activity. but she's a bit tired toda#she follows the trail until she sees her darling and. and goes fucking RED. him. her darling is with *him.* just her fucking luck huh?#“well well well darling. and who's this new friend you made here? hm?”
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The absolute indignity of begging uni administration for extensions and redos. The needle to thread between "I am doing so poorly please just give me this I'm at the fucking end of my rope" and "promise it's just right now though I'm going to get soo much better and be so normal for next time it's just this once". The way I'm sent into horrendous spirals about my self-worth and future every time I have a deadline.
#genuinely getting an epidermic reaction to assignments#i hate hate hate begging them to be nice to me#like guys. i know 'it's the bare minimum though'.#i'm in a foreign country living on my own for the first time#i've been struggling with undiagnosed/untreated adhd for like four years now at least#i've been crying over homework and assignments for fours years at least!!#this isn't even the end of my rope#the rope has been over for a while now#it's not the the last dregs of my motivation. i've been trying to make more motivation from those dregs for years#i'm so far past the end it's not funny#and masters applications....#i want to live so so bad but every time i start thinking. what if i wasn't alive to be living through this though#like if say. i wasn't conscious for a few months. it'd all be over by then#fucking hell#and then if they don't grant me the redos i'm going to fail my year :)#and have to redo it next year at home#argh#the more i think about it the more i get less. viscerally disgusted by the concept#it's just... man i don't want my luck to be coming to an end#i guess in some ways it's admirable i've been pushing my limits this far and i'm doing so well outside of schoolwork#but nobody else except me my family and my friends see it like that#anyway. off to submit special cons again for another assignment. i hate this#wow i have a ramble tag now
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So excited by the Octopath 2 update and the new battles with the og gang. I immediately started tearing up as they helped each other to eviscerate me.
The only thing I wish they would have added to these battles was a way to select your battle music. And now that I think about it, I’m sad they didn’t because that would make the experience even better.
#Listen I love the battle themes but I really want to hear some of the other boss music lol#the last thing this game is missing is a mode where I can choose the music for a battle#begging square enix to add one more update lol#Octopath Traveler 2#wish me luck trying to even remember how I used to play my teams#But I’m gonna cry every time the old gang helps each other out#It’s beautiful and terrifying#Octopath traveler 2 spoilers#just in case
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star rail update drops in about 2 hours... please shaoji... please...
#literally on my hands and knees here#something please#i don't even need her to be around for a long time#just a bit more time#please aeons i beg of you#just please i only ask for this#don't give me luck on my pulls or anything#don't give me anniversary reward or whatever#i just need her back#please star rail#i need her in my life#star rail#honkai star rail#hsr#firefly
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Starting a new job! At my current job. But hopefully this'll make it so I can afford to only need this job.
#so i work at an axe throwing bar#im the concierge. i take groups and assign them to axe pros and provide info to any curious people walking in and etc#its a good time#but its only 18-30 hours a week#not super consistent and not super maintainable if i want to pay my rent#i like being able to pay my rent#an axe pro just peft and we're looking for a new one#i asked my manager if i could do it and she said yeah#my understanding is that ill be concierge and axe pro#and hopefully thatll result in more hours!!#indeed is hell. if i never go on that site again itll be too soon#i hate job hunting#its so degrading#'beg to work at our company. you didnt beg well enough. youll never hear from us again'#so hopefully this works out! i have a coffee addiction that i need to feed#and a puppy and two rats to provide for#and rent. fuck rent and fuck my landlord#wish me luck with this paycheck shit!
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i wanna vent about orens which means i’m angry about hh so like to start off you have to understand that helix waltz is a refurbished and genre transported helix horizon which was a money grubbing jrpg themed fantasy gatcha cn rpg that happened to be headed by this one guy (Mingjing Yoshikawa) who thought having an actual story would make everything better, and he was right! to an extent! helix horizon did do well enough to get a sequel game, but god was the world building and premise covered up by so much horny fanservice that it was hard to take anything seriously
but how does that relate to orens? i’m so glad you asked! you see, orens were created in the world of helix horizon mostly to check off a bunch of older-than-they-look catgirl boxes to fill more niche kinks for the gatcha pool, and you can see this in other characters in HW too (florna hitting the weirdly prevalent busty blonde nun with glasses and anxiety template), which is why orens are largely stupid, child-like, cutesy characters with cutesy names and manner of speech that all have one defining characteristic, because that is the result of churning out gatcha characters, and while HW did a pretty good job patching over HH to make a functional character driven visual novel/dress up game, they never really took orens seriously enough to make them people
i know that orens do get their own political faction in s2 and there’s moves to give them full citizenship, but it is very much an “in spite of everything” kind of move, like the writers for the game are giving orens rights because it is bad to not take the side of characters they wrote as oppressed minorities, instead of because they’ve shown that orens are people that deserve rights
let me explain, in-game orens are described as humanoid orcs, so we can infer that orens are closer to a type of fantasy monster (not people) than fantasy race (people), but they look and act humanoid enough to coexist with other humanoid races like elves and demons, this means we should expect a lowered intelligence and animal-like instincts/characteristics (ie cat orens napping a lot and fox orens being crafty), but on top of that, orens are also glaringly child-like, which i assume is a holdover from the older-than-they-look-loli trope, the most egregious example of which is motiti
i want to like motiti, i really do, but she is literally the poster child for every negative oren stereotype and the story practically bends around her to allow her to exist in-universe, which is insane because she was created just for helix waltz, every other oren that we’ve met has been a fully grown adult regardless of their cutesy appearance, all of them have adult jobs and responsibilities and get mad about being infantilized by others, so we can assume motiti is an adult, she is never treated like a child by the other orens (not even brala - who immediately tried to take care of nyx (16ish teen) - treats motiti like a child), it’s just magda who does this (magda is canonically bigoted in that she treats all oren like they’re children even after helena called her out on making light of brala’s blatantly romantic/sexual crush on her because she never saw him as an adult), and we have no in-universe explanation for why she’s so fucking stupid, her one goal in life is to wear cute maid dresses. she doesn’t... she doesn’t even want to be a maid... I... she’s not even interested in maid dresses in general, just- she just wears them without knowing anything about fashion or quality or modeling or makeup just-
another great example of infantalizing orens is bacon day, bacon day is an oren holiday where pieces of bacon are tied to trees and roofs with long pieces of string so that they dangle around, enticing orens to pounce on them, in-game giulolo was the only oren that had a problem with this because she thought it was undignified, we later find out that she thought it was undignified for a very childish reason and participates in bacon day happily after replacing bacon on strings with books on strings, i think it really just pisses me off so much because they could have actually taken a stance on how orens perceive themselves and deal with the prejudice they face and how giulolo, who meets a lot of rich merchants and nobles through her job, might have taken issue with an oren tradition that feeds into the perception of orens being no better than dumb animals, it’s just this kind of pervasive attitude of the writers never allowing oren characters to actually be sapient enough to comment on their own circumstance that undermines the entire narrative of orens being oppressed peoples and not just animals who can talk, none of them have the capacity to talk about all the horrific murders committed in broad daylight by humans because orens have no protection under the law, this also happens to elves as well, none of the elf characters will give a solid answer on why they’re so ok with being enslaved to humans despite being intellectually, physically, and magically more developed, the two times an elf suggests that they’re unhappy with their situation get quickly resolved without actually changing anything, and i will forever be mad that nala wasn’t chosen when HH was turned into HW (nala was a bavlenka elf that raged against the prejudice she experienced by physically beating the shit out of anybody that said anything racist about elves in her vicinity, she is blatantly unhappy with the way things are and says so)
bUt It’S a DrEsS uP gAmE, why are you expecting nuanced social criticism from an app where you pay 25 dollars to get a pretty jpg that makes the plot progress, shhhhhhhh, i’m just in love with what could have been
#rant#i understand that motiti is the useless cute mascot character but bru did they have to do her so dirty#like look i can characterize her better#she's a teenage oren who moved to the big human city because she fell in love with the concept of maids#so by sheer fucking luck she got a job as a maid but she fucking sucks at it because she's still growing and has severe dyslexia#severe dyslexia can make you mix up directions and mess with your sense of balance making you very clumsy#which also keeps her illiterate and severely limits her ability to adapt to life in finsel#despite this and how nobody actually tries to help her because most of the staff and everybody in charge of her are all racist and actively#sabatoging her so that she'll get fired and they won't have to deal with her anymore#her goal is to become the best maid ever#not just wear the fucking dress#which means learning all the intricacies of unspoken human social rules and how to tell quality from expensive trash#she idolizes lucilia as the most competent maid in finsel#and chases her around trying to learn from the master and begging lucilia to take her on as an apprentice#which does double work in giving lucilia more screen time outside of her relationship with florna#there was that so fucking hard
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love to be poor and unable to afford the medicine that I hate but still somehow desperately need to avoid having an autistic meltdown at 3am
#when I say almost every sense is being assaulted right now… I mean it#meds make me hot and the fan won’t work#air purifier filter is dirty so I can’t do anything about the weird sewage smell i keep smelling that nobody else does anything about#throat hurts from working around dust all the time despite begging to go anywhere else#dad is back from out of town so I have to listen to war movies at full volume constantly#cats will not stop staring at me and climbing on me and making messes that only I care enough to clean properly#and now I don’t have insurance so good luck getting any med refills this week#and good luck getting kitty litter before I get paid pennies this Friday#hello I hate everything#I’m tired of everything#I want to just be done
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