#just a reminder I am literally transgender

[fels-fantasy-hoard]

Uuuh I just checked my followers here and found a literal Nazi and some Terfs so just a not so friendly reminder

FUCK NAZIS

FUCK TERFS

I support all Jewish and trans people. They have my love and I’ll never stop fighting for their right to live freely and happily.

I have zero tolerance for bigotry of any kind and if that makes you uncomfortable then unfollow me and fuck you

If I accidentally reblog some homebrew that is offensive - please tell me. I always want to learn and grow and I want everyone (except bigots) to feel welcome here

To all my trans siblings, Jewish friends, and poc that follow me, I love you and I hope you have an amazing day <3

[angelicdonuts]

I hateeeee this fandom so bad there are like 10 people in this fandom total who I can interact with I hate this shit so fucking bad dude I hate being so on guard dude like what the hellllll what the heeeellllllllll oh my god

[cepheusgalaxy]

"don't care about what people think of you!" is not practical advice when you're trans btw

[icyg4l]

PAC: How has being openly queer changed your life for the better?

Hello beautiful people! Happy Friday and Happy Pride Month! As part of this month’s Pride Month series, I am going to continue on with the topic with this new PAC. I don’t want to waste too much time so please select your pile. 🙏🏽

Top Left-to-Bottom Right: (1-4)

pile one: i feel like you may be transgender or went through a massive glow up as you came into your identity. being openly queer has allowed you to acquire more knowledge through life. life’s experiences have beaten you down but you used those experiences to your advantage. you became older, wiser, more poised. your chart could be saturn ruled (capricorn/aquarius/heavily aspected by saturn). the scars of yesterday strengthen you. i feel like people compliment your physique a lot. it’s taken you a lot to feel comfortable with that. and lastly, being openly queer has welcomed you into some strange/taboo places where you feel open! you could go to anime conventions or underground clubs a lot because of this. you did not lose anything, pile one. you only gained more life experience.

cards used: king of swords, five of cups, six of wands, the moon, three of cups, three of swords, six of cups, king of pentacles.

pile two: i am channeling the energy of damon from pose. you could be a dancer or just have the energy that makes people feel loose. i don’t think you could ever turn your queerness off. people could always point that out in you. this made you a target but that never stopped you from being you. you make people feel inspired. you would be really good at being a mentor for the queer youth. you have this unshakable confidence that could make you do anything. you also have the gift of gab. i am channeling the energy of rolling ray lmaoooo. the things that you’ve gone through have made you take life so unserious. it’s the constant celebration of life that makes your queerness so unique.

cards used: judgment, six of wands, king of wands, seven of pentacles, page of cups, the hierophant, three of cups.

pile three: you exude this devil-may-care energy that is so addictive. it’s so sexy! you literally don’t care! this has made you take pride in your identity. it comes off as annoyingly rebellious to some folks but your people know that’s really you. everyone is not used to your energy. it’s blunt and it’s rich. it reminds me of rihanna and elektra evangelista. your queer identity is intimidating to some people. but you take ownership of it & carry it so well. this is why so many people have a crush on you. i feel like i’m talking to a lesbian but if not you could just present ultra-feminine. you know exactly how to spice up the family dinners and you give off a motherly energy. you use it wisely though because everyone can’t have access to you.

cards used: ace of pentacles, ace of swords, queen of cups, queen of pentacles, eight of cups, the devil, six of pentacles, nine of cups, the emperor.

pile four: you have this introspective nature that makes people think. you remind me of a james baldwin kind of person. your thoughts regarding queer theory and queer rights need to be shared with the world. being openly queer has quite literally taught you. you are living the practice out. it may have taken you some time to come into your current identity. but once you came out, you had this come to jesus moment as many others do. being openly queer has taught you about how to love yourself and others properly, the importance of compassion and leadership. you could be an active leader in your community. if not, you need to be! your voice deserves to be heard without a doubt. you could be the voice of reason, pile four.

cards used: two of cups, eight of cups, king of cups, the emperor, the sun, the magician, page of cups, the hierophant, wheel of fortune.

[ofmdrecaps]

11/13-14/2024 Daily OFMD Recap

TLDR; David Jenkins; Rhys Darby; Taika Waititi; Con O'Neill; Nathan Foad; Kristian Nairn; Anapela Polata'ivao; Vico Ortiz; Jes Tom; Zayre Ferrer; Petition Status; Articles; Transgender Awareness Week; Love Notes;

Hey crew! So I am trying VERY HARD to be better about alt text across all the platforms, and it's taking way longer for me to get things out because of it. If anyone has a good idea on how to do those more easily will you please let me know? I do want to try to be more accessible (and I know the Repo is absolutely not terribly accessible at the moment). Anyway-- thanks Crew! Happy Friday!

= David Jenkins =

Chaos Dad out partying!

Source: King Malisz's Instagram

Apparently (and I didn't know this, so thank you to the folks who explained to me wtf was going on) apparently CIS is considered a slur on twitter and will literally make your posts un-retweetable, and so Dad decided to go full hog and cause Cissmegeddon the other day. Props to our crewmates who helped him irritate the shit out of Elon.

Source: David Jenkins Twitter

= Rhys Darby =

Rhys is going to Australia in April! Apr 30, 2025 at the Princess Theatre in Brisbane you can see the legend in person! Are you in town then? Get tickets here!

Source: Adopt Our Crew's Twitter

He's also announced all his UK & Ireland Tour Dates for 2025! You can buy tickets here!

Source: Rhys' Instagram

Reminder about new Atlanta show at the Helium clubs Nov 29, 30, and Dec 1st! Get tickets here!

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Source: Rhys Instagram Stories

= Taika Waititi =

Interior Chinatown is almost here! Remember to check it out on November 19th on HULU! Taika was out doing lots of promos with the crew!

Source: Sthanlee's Instagram

Source: Variety Instagram

Source: Jerabraham

= Con O'Neill =

Con is going to be in a new sitcom SAS Rogue Heroes! Thank you to Irene Adler for finding this! Sun.co.uk Article.

Source: Irene Adler's Instagram

= Nathan Foad =

Nathan sent us a bathroom selfie-- and ALSO shared this awesome review of Voyage of the Damned (the book he narrated) by _brainbowie_ on instagram! OH AND JUST BY THE WAY-- IT WAS NOMINATED for Audible's "Best Audiobooks of the Year 2024 in both the SFF list AND the Top 20 overall!!"

ANNND if you have read it and would like to help Voyage of the Damned out -- please put a review up on Audible! Let the world know how much Nathan's voice should be cherished! In addition - if you haven't already, please help Nathan and the author out by voting for it on Goodreads for 2024's Goodreads Choice Awards!

Source: Goodreads

= Kristian Nairn =

Kristian was kind enough to share a playlist featuring his love of synthwave!

Source: Kristian Nairn's Instagram

= Anapela Polataivao =

Source: The Guerilla Connection Instagram

BTS of The Guerilla Connection!

Source: TheGuerillaConnection

= Vico Ortiz =

Vico had a great time at their first stand up comedy show! More random IG stories of it!

Source: Vico's Instagram Stories

= Jes Tom =

Jes Tom is out at Little Secrets Comedy tonight at the New York Comedy Festival if you're in town! November 15 @ 10:30 pm - 11:30 pm!

Source: Jes Tom's Instagram

= Zayre Ferrer =

Thank you so much to @adoptourcrew and Zadry Ferrer for highlighting this awesome Fellowship award awarded to our dear writer Zayre Ferrer! They were named one of the #inevitablefoundation's 2024 Visionary Fellows!

Source: Zadryg.bsky via @adoptourcrew

== Petition Status ==

Great news! Up to 90,150 signatures! To all our new OFMD fans out there, have you signed the petition yet? Thank you luci5459.bsky.social for sharing! (and @adoptourcrew for promoting!) https://www.change.org/p/save-our-flag-means-death

Source: Luci5429.bsky.social

== Articles ==

More articles featuring OFMD and Zayre Ferrer! Thanks @adoptourcrew!

Source: Adopt Our Crew Bsky

== Transgender Awareness Week ==

Happy Transgender Awareness week crew! Sending all my love out to our trans siblings out there <3 Especially know, please know how much we see and love you, and we have your backs no matter what comes, okay? Wanna learn more about Transgender Awareness Week and how you can help be a better ally? Visit GLAAD's website.

Source: Glaad Website

== Love Notes ==

Wow, now as you can tell, a lots gone on the last couple days! Especially with Rhys! Jeez! Everything seems to be ramping up, which is pretty great -- I don't know if you all are feeling the energy too, but it's nice to see some good things going on in these uncertain times. I know things are still rough right now, and some of you are itching to get out and make a difference. Please know that if you are feeling up for it now, it's totally okay to do that. Find things to do in your local community, find out how ot help online-- whatever you feel comfortable with. --and if you're not quite ready yet, that's okay too. I took two days off work this week despite having a huge project to finish, because I got sick, and my brain told me it needed a break, that there had been too much. I know not everyone has the luxery of doing that-- but if you do, please take some time if you need it. I've probably mentioned this before, but something that always bothers me about the phrase "You can't help anyone else if you don't help yourself!" is that that's not entirely true. YOU CAN. You can do all sorts of stuff without helping yourself, and by tiring yourself, and burning yourself out. But it's not sustainable, and you can't do it forever. You are so very strong, and I bet you could help so many people, and family and burn brightly until there was nothing left of you-- but that's not what any of us want. We want you to be okay on the other side of all this-- and sometimes that means taking a break even when things feel like they just can't wait. We care so much for you lovelies. Please care for yourselves too if you need it <3

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[suresuresureaursure]

just a reminder radqueers i love you 🫶 Just a reminder paras I love you 🫶 just a reminder transids i love you 🫶 just a reminder i do actually exist and support the radqueer community irl, around two years ago i watched a video about rcta and was in total support. just a reminder i am rq irl and have made several rq videos like https://youtu.be/Mu1Ga399pHo?si=ztxiDKpmBvxlcyy8 and https://youtu.be/3NNvRD7Hi-g?si=29BskJri-gIJkncZ (self promoting lol) just a reminder that paras are totally normal and that you arent strange or unusual, there is just so much misinformation around many paras and people in general are so judgemental. just a reminder i love you all. just a reminder i have actually made a pro-zoophile meme video (the thumbnail may seem hateful but its supposed to be poking fun at haters, haha) (also tw in does in some memes contain mention of animal abuse and rape) https://youtu.be/xROTDltUiXY?si=OlF_9yB9zPmNLonP just a reminder i AM transid and that transgender is a transid, just a reminder that i (as i said) supported the transrace community literally TWO YEARS AGO without engaging with it, reminder that transspecies and alterhuman communities are transids, YOU ARE NOT DIFFERENT YOU ARE AMAZING (unless you want to be different lol) reminder that I literally made a gacha video with transrace representation https://youtu.be/F1TCDGz9Vag?si=t7nGu7REdP1-7_nu

And reminder that you all are valid (whatever valid is supposed to mean, unvalid is just a word to well, invalidate and bully people.) YOU ARE HERE, I SEE YOU, AND I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU

❤️🫶🫶

[sophieinwonderland]

As someone who’s transplural, for me I started using the term because when I did start looking into plurality more, it just felt right. Kinda like when I released I was trans, it just made sense. But I’m not plural . I just really feel like I should be and I do get uncomfortable thinking about how I’m not, a similar feeling to my gender dysphoria. I am trying tulpamancy, but no luck so far :( I have questioned whether I’m already plural, but it’s hard to tell, and I think I’m just being optimistic.

I find transID discourse interesting, mainly because it’s really odd to deny how someone feels. How can you know if someone’s feeling dysphoria over their lack of plurality or autism, etc.

It’s odd. Especially the mockery/making transgender people look bad arguments. As a trans man, the only people outside of these niche communities who talk about transID negatively, were never going to be trans allies, they won’t be convinced to be allies if transIDs stopped existing :/ just reminds me of neo pronoun discourse all over again. Stop trying to please bigots who will literally never accept you, it doesn’t work out.

Sorry for typos it’s 2am and I’m on my phone lol

Thanks for sharing your experiences! I agree with a lot of what you said!

On the topic of already being plural, it has been something I've wondered in the past if some instances of "transplurality" could be a result of childhood plurality. Not saying this is definitely the case. Just that it would be fascinating to see studies done someday on transplurals, interviewing both them and their parents to see how many had "imaginary companions" as children that likely possessed autonomy and self-consciousness.

Anyway, I wish you luck on your tulpamancy journey!

[renthony]

I know some people need/want it, so this isn't to shit on them, but as an intersex nonbinary person, I fucking hate nonbinary positivity that focuses on assigned sex. I fucking hate it so goddamn much. It mostly just makes me feel like utter dogshit.

All you have done is remind me that even in transgender spaces I am going to be reduced to my incorrectly-assigned sex by literally everyone. And if they can't figure out what it is, they'll spend an inordinate time either trying to figure it out or harass me until I disclose it.

[animentality]

Thoughts on this post?:

https://www.tumblr.com/animentality/64152073250/abc-newsman-proves-danger-of-allowing-transgender?source=share

thanks for reminding me to delete that post I made in literally 2013 when I was 15 because it doesn't reflect who I am as a person anymore.

is this supposed to be a gotcha?

are people supposed to be born woke?

I am amazed you managed to even find this post with like 6 notes, where I legitimately asked people for their opinion on the subject because I was unsure about it and I had certain taught biases that I hadn't learned to abandon yet.

it might amaze you to know that I once told a guy he'd make a great wife when he mentioned he liked cooking.

this was in 2012.

how cisheteronormative of me, right?

but you were all so woke in 2012, weren't you?

you never said anything that was not PC as a teenager.

you never told edgy jokes or said stupid offensive things.

you were born perfect, I'm sure.

it's not like I'm proud of the dumb stuff I said.

but I didn't start identifying as nonbinary until I was 18, and I didn't start identifying as trans until I was 21.

I was raised by an older mother, not a gen x er or a millennial, but a baby boomer, whose inherent biases still sometimes surface in me when I least expect it.

I was raised Catholic.

I had JUST STARTED PUBLIC SCHOOL, after spending literally 6 years in a fucking Catholic school.

I DIDNT UNDERSTAND transgender issues, nor did most people in 20 fucking 13.

how the fuck could I

my mom to this day doesn't know what the fuck nonbinary or trans are, and I identify as both.

how was I supposed to know?

I'd never even met anyone in the LGBT community at that point, nor had I realized I belonged there either.

I literally didn't even know I was pan at that point, or that I was nb/trans myself, or how I felt about most political topics.

that's why I ASKED.

and I said the wrong things. yeah, I did.

but no one had taught me the right words.

and in that post, no one bothered to explain it to me either.

I had to learn that over time.

and guess what?

I'm still not perfect now. I'm still going to make mistakes because times change, as they always do.

and all we can do is try and forgive people who are trying and doing their best, and remaining open minded to things they don't understand right from fucking birth.

but by all means, do search my history to your hearts content.

honestly, I kinda wanna see what dirt you find because this was an interesting look at the kinds of things I thought in 2013.

I can look back at myself and see how far I've come.

this post was interesting to read for me because it was wildly off mark, it misgendered trans women, and it lacked political, historical, and social understanding...

and so?

yeah?

it's offensive. it's bad.

and I didn't know any better.

but lol.

people learn things. people change their opinions.

if you people spend all your time digging up dirt and trying to cancel people for who they were, rather than who they are, or who they're trying to be... I have news for you.

your existence is pointless and your efforts are meaningless.

but I am flattered you did such a deep dive, anon.

please do find more and send them to me.

I'd like to know what other gotchas you can yank out of my ass.

I used to be on Facebook in 2011 before I deleted it in like 2013.

see if you can find anything there.

I used to write cringy poetry. it might be funny to read now.

[sehtoast]

How are you able to like Homelander and not condone his actions at the same time, without feeling crappy? This sounds accusing but I’m asking bc I’m struggling with it. I know ppl who do the same with characters, but I’ve had an unwelcome fixation on him come out of nowhere and I feel sick and guilty bc I feel like everyone will think I’m some kind of freak or something. I’m very much anti-sa and other gross stuff esp as a victim but I still feel like I’m being hypocritical or something. I’m sorry for the weird message but I feel like I’m losing my mind

The short answer is that he’s fictional.  Think of… I dunno, an antagonist in media of a different form (let’s go with anime).  I was a naruto kid growing up, so let’s use Orochimaru for an example.  My guy was on some fuck shit through the entire show. Snatching bodies, murkin’ Hokages, wild experiments, all that shit with Sasuke, and so on.  People still liked him regardless because he was a cool character despite the bad things he’s done.  Some people may have even found him relatable in certain ways.  I feel like it’s the same concept here.

You don’t have to feel bad about enjoying fictional characters, no matter how awful they may be.  At the end of the day, they’re fictional and their actions have harmed nobody in real life.  Their actions may mirror that which does harm real people, but they themselves have not dealt real harm to real people.  Enjoying them does not mean you condone their actions.

I’m also extremely anti-SA, and am a victim of it myself, but I still find a lot of love and appreciation for Homelander’s character– but this isn’t hypocritical.  My love for him doesn’t come from the fact he has perpetrated that act, nor should it come from that.  I love him as a character with the bottom line that he is… extremely complex.  

I’ve said it for years now, but I think Homelander is a compelling tale of the dangers of commodifying the human soul.  He is an example of how awful someone can turn out if you deprive them of humanity with the goal of creating a product.  People are not products, we are not a means to an end, and we certainly should never be treated that way. He was, and this is how he turned out.  He’s a take on the cyclical nature of trauma in a lot of really interesting ways as well.

I find him relatable from a standpoint of my own traumas and being transgender.  Episode four of s4 revealed that I have a jarring amount of trauma that mirrors his own to some capacity.  I’ve always suspected these things, and I’ve had headcanons since the first season, and having them confirmed reminded me just how much I’ve latched onto this character because of it.  Homelander experienced some degree of sexual abuse in the labs– and I wager there may have been worse than simply being called ‘squirt.’ Homelander was subjected to physical torture and locked in a room where his mind slowly fractured, all while being conditioned to never seek escape otherwise he’d be too devastated from disappointing the scientists or losing their ‘love.’ 

I have experienced SA, I was locked in my room with nothing as punishment (my 'bad room'), had very little privacy and next to no access to boundaries as a kid, I was put through physical pain very often by a sibling (my furnace), I was reared and conditioned to have a fear of disappointing others so severe it made my blood pressure drop into the danger zone a couple times as a kid– and still has similar effects as an adult.  I’d literally pass out, have panic/anxiety attacks, vomit, etc.  I also know what it’s like, as a trans man, to have been raised and reared for a life that was designed for me, but was not me.  I was lucky enough to find my way to the person I needed to be; Homelander has not and likely will not ever be able to do so.  In all of the aforementioned, I have a lot of empathy and compassion for him that combines with my fascination with his complexity.  There were a lot of things in my life that should have pushed me down the road to be an awful person, much like the things in his life did. But I had a handful of people to guide me toward better things.  He didn’t.

But I see myself in there nonetheless. Homelander was the first time I ever saw so much of my own trauma on display in a single character.  I’d love to hug the man and tell him he’s enough, show him the humanity he was and continues to be denied, and so on.  When I realized that means that I would, in turn, do that for myself if I only viewed myself through a lens that wasn’t my own, my life changed.  This character changed my life.  I know I thirst-post about him a lot, but my love for Homie runs a lot deeper than just finding him attractive, you feel?

A fictional character doesn’t have to be one of moral high ground or superiority for it to be okay for you to enjoy them.  You can enjoy characters who commit horrible acts. This does not make you someone who condones horrible acts.  I was initially pretty embarrassed to admit I like Homelander as much as I do, but I slowly realized that it does not make me a bad person and it should never be used as a gauge to find out how ‘moral’ someone is or not.  People like Hannibal Lecter, people like Thomas Hewitt, Joffrey, Albert Wesker, Cletus Kasady– any number of fictional characters who have an ugly record or have done horrific things.  We do not assume someone is evil because they like Hannibal, nor should we do the same for people who like Homelander.

At the end of the day, do what makes you happy. If exploring Homie is something you would have fun with, do it! Engage in media, learn tales of caution and tragedy– stories make us human.  You are not inhuman for enjoying Homelander and his tale.  In fact, I would argue you are very human because of it.

[relatableblorbopoll]

Round 1 of preliminaries, group 8

The first two places get a place on the bracket

Little reminder: there will be 2 more rounds of preliminaries, the losing blorbos of this poll still have 2 chances of getting in the official bracket

Propaganda under the cut

Stanford Pines (Gravity Falls)

"there are so many things wrong with this man i feel a kinship with him. Also the neurodivergency"

Miles "Tails" Prower (Sonic The Hedgehog Franchise)

"he's a young child who is incredibly autistic (maybe a technology special interest, tail wagging could be interpreted as a stim, he is a fox and foxes have a gene variant linked to autism, etc) and incredibly humble and loyal to sonic. however he does feel like he may be a burden to him, as discussed in sonic frontiers. T: sonic, am i a burden to you? S: wow, and how did you come to this well thought out concern? T: whenever there's a crisis, i'm either running away or standing on the sidelines! you're always rescuing me, and all i do is follow you around! in the adventure era, there was some character development where he learned to grow into his own person (well. you know what i mean) kinda (he saved an entire city which isn't why he's relatable it's the growing into your own person thing) he was also bullied for having two tails before he met sonic. sonic saved him from his bullies which is how they met 👍 he is literally me"

Jonathan Sims (The Magnus Archives)

"- emotionally repressed - socially awkward - ace"

Ford Prefect (The Hitchhiker’s guide to the Galaxy)

"he’s very trans and autistic coded at least in my mind, and he has the fashion sense of a loser transmasc lesbian. he cracks stupid jokes all the time, changes the subject with absolutely no warning, he’s simultaneously the most likable and most annoying character in the book, he’s so me"

Shaun Murphy (The Good Doctor)

"My brother got me into The Good Doctor. The only difference between my personality and Shaun's personality is my crippling social anxiety. I'm completely serious, my behavior when prior to developing social anxiety was identical to Shaun's (by which I mean I once shouted "I'm sharpening my pencil" in second grade completely unprovoked because I had no concept of it being socially inappropriate). Genuinely if I didn't have social anxiety, I would constantly be in a state of "hes just like me fr" and it would make complete sense to anyone who knows me and also watches The Good Doctor. Also keeping notes on flirting and keeping track of when people are flirting with each other around your workplace, which is a hospital, is a massive mood. That whole thing is basically him going around to colleagues and saying "this colleague was flirting with you! :D" and refusing to elaborate, then leaving. I love it and if I wasn't terrified of judgement I'd do the same thing."

Sonic (Sonic The Hedgehog Franchise)

"Transgender. To me. Also very sarcastic. Idk how to explain, my brain is too smooth and he just me"

[subspaceember]

I've been in and out of therapy a lot over the past few years. due to depression and anxiety especially but also for a number of other reasons. There's a critical flaw with the whole thing that just, it feels so horrible and makes therapy feel utterly useless for someone like me. I was today reading up on cPTSD again, and reminded that I probably have it, probably not surprising, I am a transgender woman who is disabled and stuck living with unsupportive family in the rural US south. I was reading through the way to like, help cope with cPTSD, and it was all the usual stuff. Go outside and get exercise, eat better meals, surround yourself with good community, find groups and people you feel safe to talk about things with. Reading through all that it just feels so, utterly tone-deaf to the reality if you're faced with something like cPTSD, or depression, or literally anything related to mental health and I've heard therapists say the exact same thing. That going outside is the magic bullet that kills your depression, and that's just not been the case for me.

I don't doubt that those things would help but it all feels so surface level because you can say that to me all you like, but I am not able to do any of those things. There is no housing I will ever feel safe in, because it is dependent on my work and output, which I cannot rely on, or on others generosity which is almost worse. I can't have good food, because I cannot work hard enough to have it, it's a nightmare. I don't feel safe outside, I can't get anywhere and there is no community here to protect me. I just. There's no real point to this, I'm just upset about it. About the shameless telling people to do these things when there are no programs, no support, no nothing if you can't hold a job, and then it just becomes an inescapable cycle, in which I either wind up dead, in jail or a hospital (same difference), or on the street.

[oysterstrudel]

I Saw The TV Glow is one of the only good movies I have ever seen in my life. Most films I see I am only ever thinking about the acting, or cinematography, or the political messaging, or some such thing. I have to activly fight to emotionaly engage with anything, to forget my physical body sitting there looking at the screen and the vast gap between the problems I face and the problems characters on screen tend to face. But this film reached right through me. Noticing myself didn't ruin the immersion because there was no difference between me and the screen, I was Owen as Owen was Isabel. I started crying 30 minutes in and didn't stop until 15 minutes after it ended.

My whole childhood I never really cried except when angry. My mother tells me I never cried as an infant/toddler at all. But lately something will set me off and I'll start crying and crying. I'm more mentally healthy that I used to be in many ways but I am more than aware that this is because I have given up on one of my deepest childhood desires.

When I was 12 I wanted to run away and transition when I turned 18. I didn't know you could transition as a minor, I didn't know that most 18 year olds are still financially reliant on their parents, I didn't know my parents would still see me as a child, and I didnt know that I wouldn't have overcome my shame by then.

When I was 15, I discovered the online trans community and began identifying as "transgender." I learned that people my age could medically transition. I thought that I would transition right then, before my sixteenth birthday, become a "youngshit", even get bone changes from her, go back to school after the pandemic as a new person. Once again, I greatly underestimated my shame, greatly overestimated my courage, and how much my parents respected my intelligence.

And I've come up with a myriad of other unhinged plans plans including literally stealing hrt from random trans people, befriendind trans people and having them sell it to me, befriending steroid using gym bros and somehow getting it through them.

And now I'm 19 going on 20 and I have no plans left. The "deadline" for the previous 2 plans has passed. I've never spoken to anyone about being trans. I have "gotten used" to my body much more then previously and I have stopped myself from thinking about this topic. But every once in a while something reminds me of it and I just start crying.

Anyways, I have no idea what to do. No idea what to do that is easy and not terrifying that is.

And you may be thinking "19, that's not that old", but I KNOW time passes quickly and I KNOW nobody is coming to force me to do the things I want to do and I KNOW that easily, easily I could get to the point where "ohh I'll never pass I'm too old" stops being an ironic hyperboly and starts being a real factor in this decision, like the point where I will genuinely never pass to cis people after transitioning and will not get the same changes to my face, and I will have people in my life who know me as one gender who might abandon me, and will have buried the real me too far down to get it out, and I would rather not do that, I would rather transition while I'm still a friendless 19-year-old thank you very much. Anyways I know this was mostly about me and not about the contence of the movie, maby I will post about that later bc I am becoming less eloquent and forgeting how words are spelt the more I write.

[tittyinfinity]

I've really enjoy following you this past year and I wanted to ask for insight on something because I respect your viewpoints. I want to stay on anon because this is something that has caused me a lot of internal pain and i am not confident enough to go public about it. I started calling myself non-binary back when I was 22 (I'm 32 now) and due to autism + polycystic ovarian syndrome I've felt at odds with "cis womanhood." my inability to wholly conform to what is expected of me is something I have grappled with my entire life. I have regularly felt that I am not a "real woman," thus adopting the label. My genuine attraction to women as a bisexual person is perhaps the only thing that links me to womanhood. There are times where I have felt that I don't have a gender at all whatsoever and that trying to apply one to myself is only a cause for stress and anxiety. I have no desire to transition and there are individual aspects of estrogen I have enjoyed experiencing. Lately i have been feeling at odds with the nb label, and as I interact with more and more trans and transitioning non-binary people, I feel like I am a fraud taking up space. I sometimes wonder if I am in spaces that are not for me and I certainly don't want to claim any labels that are not mine to claim, especially as trans healthcare is constantly under attack in the US and that is something that does not directly affect my rights. I love and value the trans friends that I've made but I worry that I may have been calling myself a term that I don't have any right to use, as though I am a "tourist," or something along those lines, trivializing meaningful labels from an already heavily oppressed community. I don't want to cause any harm or pain to the trans people I care about by adopting a label that doesn't fit. Should I just go back to calling myself a cis woman who struggles with conforming to traditional patriarchal expectations of womanhood?

anon i love you. these are literally the same exact same thoughts i had before coming out as agender. I felt like the only thing that was connecting me to my "womanhood" was the oppression, sexism, and misogyny i faced as one. and that made it so much harder to give up the "woman" label because it felt like I was somehow abandoning and/or invalidating those experiences. it's ESPECIALLY harder when you're dealing with issues related to your reproductive system, like you and I both. what you're feeling is very valid and normal. but our bodies and our outside experiences are NOT what defines us.

i have to constantly remind myself "you only feel like you don't belong in trans spaces because your heavy experiences with misogyny still brand you as a woman against your will."

almost every single transgender person has had those thoughts of "I feel like my gender doesn't fit me, but I still experience things as This Gender so therefore I would be 'intruding' on trans spaces." please please do not feel like you're "invading" any space.

You are not hurting anyone else or taking resources away for just being yourself.

You can allow yourself the space to be something other than what society has labeled you, as a "woman."

And when you do allow yourself to have that space, it is SO FREEING. it feels AMAZING!

there is no problem whatsoever with throwing away a past label, because it's like throwing away any past label of yours – you're not the same person you were 10-15 years ago, so why keep identifying that way anyway?

I don't know who you are, but I'm already excited for you to begin your journey. Be who you want to be. BE YOU. I love you I love you I love you.

Go be YOU.

[mysticmourge]

꒰ SQUID GAME ROLEPLAY AD! ꒱

𐔌 ࣪ 𓈒𐙚 ⠀ྀི ㅤׂ ABOUT ME : Hello! You can call me Powder. I recently turned 25 years old, so, I ask that this considering me as their next potential long term writing partner please be 21 or older. This is a major rule and there will be no exceptions. Please do respect this.

I’m aware I heavily slacked last year with my replies due to personal matters, but that will be fixed since everything is back in place. I am not currently working so my replies will be quite often …. so long as I have the muse for it. Usually, my muse burns brightest when writing with someone who matches my energy. So if you might consider yourself dry, I will not be interested in development.

I’d say my writing style is literate with multiple paragraphs. I can also match length …. And word vomit because I love painting a picture for my writing partners.

I have never created / warped my oc into Squid Game before, so they still need to be fleshed out. However that doesn’t mean I won’t be trying to whip up her backstory and such asap. My muse is thriving with these SG edits. My original character is a female by the way.

𐔌 ࣪ 𓈒𐙚 ⠀ྀི ㅤׂ WHAT I OFFER : Quick replies as long as our energy is flowing. My timezone is est but my sleep schedule is atrocious so, catch me at every hour damn near.

Double ups. I am also willing to play any canon character you desire. Or I can even create one if you wanted ( for your side of the double up I mean, my oc is still going to be for my part. ) Pick your poison. Though warning, I’m currently not interested in cc x cc. Though that doesn’t mean you should hesitate to ask. I might, MIGHT, consider it. Yes the recruiter / salesman counts, I would love to write that fine piece of insane man.

I can write fxf, mxm, fxm or even if your character is nonbinary they are just as welcome! All members of our beloved alphabet soup are welcome! Please please note this absolutely includes transgender characters!!! Hand them over!! <3

I will gush over your characters and ships, we can create playlists, find sounds that remind us of whatever the fuck, create headcanons galore, spam edits of characters we adore, WHATEVER WE WANT. I’ll feed your delulu like it’s my life’s mission. Trust, the demons will be fed well.

𐔌 ࣪ 𓈒𐙚 ⠀ྀི ㅤׂ WHAT I AM SEEKING : Id like someone to be able to write … Hwang In-ho aka the front man. CAN YOU BLAME ME? Im down. Down bad. Down horrendous. The stories we can cook up are DIVINE. Plus the angst, the tension, the trauma, THE DRAMA. It can have it all. If you know, you know. If you don’t … I am not the one. Trust. Also since I’d like him there is an age gap, nothing insane. But my characters are normally my age or a bit older. Because I can portray the headspace more comfortably.

Someone who has watched both season one and two.

For us to actually write our characters playing the games. WOULDN’T THAT BE FUN??? The chaos, the fear. The drama. Some good food right there! also? Our characters can be in the games, TOGETHER, WITH WHOEVER THEY ARE SHIPPING WITH. CHAOS.

Someone who can match my freak. I’d love if we can actually be friends. Not just a transactional thing. But a friendship where we are actually comfortable, having fun, and enjoy speaking to each other if we vibe! Me doing this ad is literally to also find friends who like to roleplay AND enjoy SG.

Someone who is comfortable with writing darker themes. Which should be obvious considering what the fuck squid game is, violence, gore, smut ( but I do not want the entire thing focused on it. )

Giving both my character’s reply and yours equal effort. I don’t enjoy feeling used and my character tossed aside when I work hard to make sure my reply while please you. I’d literally just ghost as soon as I notice it happening. OH and I write on discord but the way.

Like what you see? Message me with what you down to do, your name + age, and let me know what’s up!! I’ll see you then. <3 You can also like this post and I MIGHT reach out, but probably not because that makes me nervous.

[classicintp]

i wish i could prove this without violating someone's privacy and getting in trouble for it but one of my co-workers who is very.. uhh. let's just call him ignorant for now, changed his last name legally from his birth dad's last name to his step dad's last name because of family drama that is none of your business. His first name is super common and is shared with 2 other people here so we call all 3 of them by their last names and over the last 6 months while everyone was continuing to call him his birth name (because, look, honestly, it really is difficult to adjust to changing someone's name you've all but carved into stone in your mind and memory) I have gone on a pissing-people-off-by-correcting-them crusade. It was hard for me too, but I changed the habit, and so everyone else can too.

he doesn't even really care if others adjust to it, it was a personal issue and if everyone else continued to call him by his birth surname he said it wouldn't affect him because legally it's different and that's what matters to him, but to me names matter so I correct people and had all of his work credentials painstakingly changed even amongst opposition from higher ups. And it's not even strictly on the principle of contemporary transgender issues, names have always been very very important to me before I was even aware transgender people existed (i live in the southern us, not my fault), but I'll be god-damned if I didn't risk my job and health to bitch and complain DIRECTLY in favor transgender issues because of it. After over 6 months of making whole rooms uncomfortable with loud interruptions, hands slamming on tables, and direct eye contact correcting people from referring to this long time coworker from name 1 to name 2 and this same motherfucker tells me today he doesn't get why a transgender person (not the term he used) thinks they can "force" others to call them by a girl's name just because they think they're a girl (same for trans men and boy names but that wasn't his specific rhetoric)

just imagine this.. imagine someone saying something that is ignorant, not specifically hateful just.. they don't get it, they don't get it in a way that has unfairly bred hate and they don't see it. they feel uncomfortable and due to that discomfort they say this stupid thing and

everyone at the table just kinda stares at him quietly, almost confused I think; though he didn't make anyone change to using his new name, he has expressed appreciation to everyone that they had changed, and expressed appreciate to me for putting in the work to get his work credentials updated. He'd been working there for a decade, in the past he has expressed he felt respected.

i am probably the only progressive at the table, i think literally everyone else is a trump supporter, fox news loving, tucker carlson mentee and they all have endured my relentless lectures reminding them over and over to respect this man and his decision to change his name. they all see my effort swept under the rug by this utterly stupid comment because they want to agree with him, they really do, they hate "THE TRANS AGENDA" and YET they know they can't say anything because they have been made well aware by me for six mother-fucking months how this deadnaming issue has affected a cishet, how trans issues aren't actually some bogeyman agenda and how they affect everyone. They rolled their eyes and ribbed me about it but they still have such a slight modicum of respect for me because of the experiences they've shared with me on the job site and my absurd work ethic that for 15 full seconds they see it now, they see what the FUCK I've been talking about. 15 seconds is so short but when 24 people suddenly go quiet and look at you, it becomes an eternity, and he felt that weight, and he said "oh" and everyone said "uh huh" or an uncomfortable "haha" or some other such murmurring sound while I just kinda shook my head a little bit in the utmost frustration and i hope it made just a little bit more fucking sense to everyone.