#just New York things

[thereadersideofvee]

Today morning, in the 7 train. On my way to Manhattan from Long Island, I was getting butterflies because of the anticipation of returning to the chaos after 12 long weeks. I know it sounds ridiculous and I need to stop being so overdramatic about this but the thing is, and I’ve come to realize it now, that I’m wayyyy too scared of letting people in. Into my life, into my friend list, and into my past. I am scared to get attached to people because everyone I’ve ever been attached to before closing off has left me for some reason or another. And ever since then, I’ve been trying to find someone who wants to break these walls and come in. No one’s tried yet. No one’s willing yet. Some, I’ve hoped would want to but me wanting won’t make them want it too right? So since I can’t find people to get attached to, I instead get attached to places. Places that make me feel welcome. Places where I don’t have to pretend to fit in. Places where I can just be. And the only place that I’ve found so far that checks these boxes is New York City. I’m sitting in Central Park alone for the better part of an hour and I feel like I’m home. I feel content and I feel calm and I feel happy even. I wanted to make the most of today because I’ve been away for three months and I’m going away for one more. And as much as I am elated to go back to my actual home, somehow leaving this place isn’t sitting right with me. On my way back those butterflies are gonna be replaced with a sinking feeling. And I can’t do anything about it. I know this is not gonna last forever. This being me living in New York. But sometimes I wish that it could. I just had to blurt this out to make room for a dollar slice that I’m gonna devour on my way to Penn. bye for now.

- 08.13.2024

[calatia]

heath ledger

[xxxbambi]

wellness girl

[werepuppy-steve]

eddie rubs his hands together as their waitress, cindy, sets his breakfast sampler and strawberries and cream crepes in front of him. he's already reaching for the ketchup and maple syrup to drown his food in.

steve thinks it's too early for him look that gleeful in the middle of an ihop. it's barely nine in the morning.

"give me a shout if you boys need anything else," cindy says as she sets down steve's smokehouse combo and new york cheesecake pancakes. "i'll be over to top your coffee off in a minute."

"thank you, cindy," they call as she walks away.

steve takes a sip of his coffee and watches eddie pop open the ketchup to smother his eggs and hashbrows with, the tip of his tongue poking out of the corner of his lips.

he resists the urge to lean across the table and kiss him, only because they're in public and steve also doesn't want to risk getting food all over the front of his shirt.

but when eddie squeezes the bottle, it makes a farting noise and all the comes out is a watery splash of red.

"aw no." eddie's face falls into an adorable pout. "not the ketchup pre-cum."

steve sputters and almost sucks his coffee back up his nose. he catches his breath and gives eddie a bewildered stare, but the other boy is focused on smacking the lid of the bottle against his palm.

"i'm sorry—the what?"

eddie finally looks up at him with round eyes, completely clear of any of the confusion that is definitely showing on steve's face currently.

"the ketchup pre-cum," he says, like steve should know what that is. "you know, the watery bits that squirt out if you don't shake the bottle good enough? kind of looks like pre-cu-"

"i know what pre-cum is," steve cuts him off with a sigh, casting glances around to the other tables to see if anyone else overheard him. "but do you have to call ketchup that?"

eddie only snickers at him. when he's satisfied that it's been shaken to his standards, he snaps open the cap and tries again–

–and lets out a high pitched moan when ketchup comes dribbling out of the bottle.

steve chokes on his spit. they're definitely getting stares from other tables now, and he hides his burning face in his hands while eddie just laughs harder, like the teasing little asshole he is.

"jesus christ," steve murmurs under his breath, dragging his fingers down his face. "can't fucking take you anywhere, i swear."

eddie just gives him a little hum and nudges his foot under the table, looking every bit pleased as goddamn punch.

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[dreamysnowangel444]

I'm in love with these tumblr girls🎀

[fallnfaery]

cassie howard they can never make me hate you

[dear-ao3]

thinking about this one authors note that i read on a fanfic awhile ago that was like "hey guys pls leave feedback i hate when people write stuff like 'the older man' or 'the englishman' or stuff like that to refer to people but idk how to not do that" like. just write their names. they're their names. no rules against using them a million times.

[rempesluck]

Someone’s weather confused. Via Tik-Tok @/alleyrempe.

[kan-be]

everyday is a fruk day here but today is especially so 🥳

[barbietrice]

Blair Waldorf 💄🥂

[thereadersideofvee]

I did the thing. i had a coffee and donut on the go yesterday and i had a coffee and bagel on the go today and i did it just because it was convenient. i did THE nyc thing. cries

[calatia]

[xxxbambi]

vanilla girls 🍦🥥🤍

[korixae]

also also the way yeah simon and wille got to be together yeah 1000% but sara and felice!! god it’s so rare for any media to portray friendship and platonic relationships as just as important if not more important than romantic. but!!!!! they were also in that car!! they were endgame too!! it just brings me such joy that this silly angsty little romance can also put such value in friendship too <3 oh young royals writers just kill me

[ohmanareyoucereal69]

[latinaluxlisbon]

jazz club in nyc