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bigtiddygandalf · 6 months ago

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i just had to take this ai personality test to submit a job application (to be a bartender).

#the end of our society is upon us yall #i think it’s so funny that so much of imaging our future with technology (sci-fi) branches off into two subsection #A. technology gets so advanced that it becomes the governing (tyrannical) power #or B. technology aids humanity in developing a star trek esque utopia of convenience and luxury #but i don’t think anyone predicted this #this weird dependency on technology (especially AI and other ‘smart’ tech) thats actually just shit #like yeah tech is replacing human jobs and doing it worse and less convenient #it wasn’t that long ago when you could call up any store and a real human being would answer #like… 5-10 years ago??#do you remember when you could walk into a store and get a job application and fill it out by hand #in order to get to this ‘personality test’ stage i had to chat with an AI virtual assistant #and then make an account and (after verifying my email of course) filled out my online application (again…)#and then i had to take this personality test #all so i can continue serving ppl highballs and beer??#its sad to see how normalized this is now #anyway as frustrated as i am by the state of the world #i’m choosing to laugh at how fkn dumb this ai test is #i’m gonna post more pics in a sec

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pansyfemme · 4 months ago

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i have been a ball of depression lately as well as my physical health worsening pretty severly this past week due to stress and so my friends have been. trying so hard to get me to get out and do things and its very sweet but i feel bad because the whole time i’m just a total mess

#they say they dont mind but i need to really. stop #im stuck.#and i know it’s hard on my friends to see me like this since i’ve been doing a lot better and now am back to my old habits #but i felt bad because they took me out shopping and to dinner tonight and i just had a headache and was limping and couldnt stop talking #about the recent death in my family and all the stress from classes and socially and how lost i feel #and i just wanted so bad to just. enjoy myself but i couldnt #but my friends know about how severe my depression is and are all very used to it #its in fact more normal than not. but i was really. feeling at my best for several months so the crash back down to not eating and sleeping #and being unable to fully tidy my room and all that stuff has been. difficult for me as well as those around me #it’s been normal for me for so long to live terribly that taking care of myself for a while and then losing the drive to has been. hard #im trying to get better but i slide back down #i need to work on my constant self loathing but i keep walking around just. conviced im such a burden and being sad makes it even worse #i just. am always overcompensating for my lack of #ability to love myself with just. constantly showering everyone around me with love and its. hard for me when i dont have the energy to do #even that anymore. its hard to let people take care of me when i just want to take care of them all the time

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greyedian · 3 months ago

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MAN I'm seriously so sad about season 2. Bc I wish act 2 had the same emotional impact on me as it appears to have on so many others. But rn I'm just somewhere between unable to care and actively annoyed by some of those writing decisions. Seriously the more I think about it the less I like it.

#act 3 come through please 🙏#I don't think it can salvage some of the things I have contentions with but still... please...#don't ask me about the silco vander flashback with jinxs + vis mom #or the bizzare choice to do so much of the storytelling through this weird music video format they've got going on #completely stripping it of the weight these plot beats could've had if they were... normal scenes #and also missing the point of how the music was used in season 1 and what made it so effective #bc it was complementary to instead of replacing the storytelling #seriously don't ask me about these things I will spontaneously implode on the spot #whyyyyy would they recontextualize season 1 like this with that flashback #to me it kind of ruins the character dynamics and themes in s1. it just makes me so sad you have no idea #also what even are they doing with Jinx rn for real #aaarghhhh just... so many things that are making me scratch my head #also I'm so terribly sorry but I could not care less about Isha sorry lol #like i get that its sad conceptually but she was such a non-character that i struggle to feel impacted at all #same with sky tbh. i thought her role in s1 was alright but there is so much emotional weight put on her now #in terms of her relationship to Viktor but that was barely established so it's weird to have her around #and clearly you're supposed to care but they haven't given me much reason to #isha and sky were non-characters just there to die to further the development of other characters #they didn't really have anything going on on their own and that's just a type of character and plot device that does nothing for me #also i thought the war between zaun and piltover + internal struggles in zaun bc silcos gone would be the main focus #but that stuff seems so sidetracked rn #also sorry i dont like what they did with vander and warwick either. that man should've stayed dead lol #it honestly just makes his death feel less impactful and i dont know what this is supposed to do for the story or the themes???#that just feels like a pointless plotline that is taking up time that could've been spent on other things #i just... i could go on like this for a while like there are so many things that just puzzle me #it's so weird considering how tight and thematically consistent season 1 was #let's see where act 3 goes but... i kinda have a bad feeling about it ngl #obv im glad others are enjoying it and this is just my opinion! also a lot of this are probs just my personal tastes anyway #arcane spoilers

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puhpandas · 4 months ago

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getting into ben 10 is so sad bc I binge the entire OS and am like wow cant wait for more and then every other series doesnt have the things I liked about OS and even casual fans online say that 10yo Ben's character in OS is more compelling than all the others but theres barely any of him after OS

#how did that episode in ultimate alien when it brought back 10yo ben make him 10 times more compelling #but only his 10yo self and not his current self in the show #but fr it was so sad learning that they immediately jumped straight to a 5 year timeskip after OS #plus artstule change plus recast plus major personality shift plus redesign #like looking at alien force ben next to OS ben idk who the hell that is bc thats not ben #its fine like im chill with just being neutral/uninterested in the later series and just sticking with OS #thats the power of fandom #i dislike his omniverse characterization but that doesnt mean i dont love rook #and i wont stick him into OS as a self indulgent au #theres also multiple things i like about the later series for sure tho like #1 rook like i just said but also #ben and gwens relationship. i love that they didnt play around with them in AF #and doom dimension likeee #i dont like how theyre written in AF and UA but that stuff is bomb #i think it all boils down to me wishing the show didnt feel split up in eras with different versions of the characters #and it was more linear #like instead of instant 5 year timeskip it was like. now ben and gwen are 11 or 12. maybe even 13 #it shows more development that isnt just a huge jump from 0 to 100 #ben getting more mature is the natural progression of his character but also #its the fact that they gave him major development in OS then changed everybody so jarringly they didnt even feel like the same characters #like theres a reason OS ben is the most compelling #it should have been more linear close together and less broken up in my opinion #pandas.txt #they just made ben look so normal and boring in most of the clips ive seen in the later series #plus not even feeling like the same guy #maybe ill try and watch the reboot #it rlly is chill tho bc im fine with just liking OS its a great show #anything i wanted to see i can just think of in my head myself and now i have a bunch of stuff to play around with #once i get more into it #bc this show is so fun and great and i love it i rlly do wanna stick with it

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electricpurrs · 4 months ago

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i dont want to be an adult. i dont. but being a teen and a child was miserable for me too so im not sure what i actually want. maybe i just dont like my life in general under the circumstances it's in. who would've thought. whatever i can't form a single original thought

#got sad because i don't want to accept that its normal that you'll spend less time eith your friends as you grow up.#it makes sense. and i understand. but it makes me deeply sad #i dont want to spend all my entire days working and spend months not seeing people i love. i feel horrible like this already #my mom was also talking about me applying to college earlier today. and im so tired and so scared #fuckkkkk i dont want things to change. i want things to change cause i hate how they are now. but im scared of change #and so so scared things might change for the worse. cause that's happened so much in my life before #so who knows. who knows. dies

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savage-rhi · 3 months ago

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Magenta 😟

#I've had cognitive impairment from covid before but not to where i feel intellectually dumb when i write #my college papers and my writing projects dont sound like “me” as of late #its very bare bones and doesn't have the descriptiveness or humanity i normally give #like i see the scenes or what i want to say in my head #but what i type aint matching up #and yeah i naturally get into slumps like that but this is like that slump x 9000 #I'm kinda scared this round might've given me brain damage #havent been feeling all the way like myself #but i also know too that covid takes a while to heal from and of course theres long covid shit which ive dealt with before #im just frustrated guys #i feel like within the last 3 to 4 months i finally healed from my last bout of rona #and i get it again and im back to square one #i just want to write and feel okay with it and not feel so stuck just trying to come up with a basic sentence #seriously even writing basic shit is hard right now #it took me a week to get 5 pages on duality #and im used to churning out at least 10 pages on my projects at minimum every couple days to a week #man give me chronic pain anyday but don't take away my mind and the freedom that comes with that #sorry guys im feeling sad #i know i gotta give myself time but im impatient #i hate how right before i caught covid again i was gonna get my flu shot and an updated covid vax #wish i could've avoided this crud #having weird chest shit too #was a heart thing now its gerd now its potentially back to a heart thing #im tired #i need a hug #i love you 🫂💙#magenta is my vent word

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srldesigns6277 · 9 months ago

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#personal #sometimes i wish i knew what it was like to be someone people want to talk to #or at least had students who could listen to what i say for just five minutes #god i hate yelling then they say thats all i do when if i talked normally no one fucking listens #then i take it way too hard when they say they dont like me when at least i stepped up to take their class #a class that had already ran off one teacher #but no im too useless because i actually make them do work and tried to have rules #last year was hard but at least i felt fulfilled by the end of the year with all my classes #i have never craved the end of the year so much or as much as i have this year #its not even both classes either its just this one that makes me dread working with them as much as they apparently hate me #sadly i can understand why their teacher left #and i know im not the best replacement since im learning how to teach them as they learn from me #but im just tired #its only a month left but i am so ready to never see any of them again #but depression does as it does and makes me question if im even good enough to get another job #one actually teaching my correct subject that i love #i hope like hell that i get a job and one i really want because i dont want to have to come back to this school #*it has the most substitute jobs #i dont like being loud even if no one believes me i dont like being mean though i know when i have too i just dont feel good enough #if i was i think i would have a job by now i mean im 28 and its been 5 schools in 5 years #sorry being sad on main #if you read this #thanks

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voxxian · 2 months ago

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i literally only come here when i have a meltdown occasionally lol i miss when i was a happy kid on this account but that will stay where it was made like 3000 pages ago

#i think i have a few thousand pages but im too lazy to check i can only make an educated guess lololol #i remember being so enthusiastic in my posts #now i am DEPRESSED and a total downer LOL #like i had 3 arguments today i totally cried for each one of them too #same person #definitely in prooobably the lowest part of my life. maybe second lowest? im not living out of my car anymore so yea second lowest ig #plus im not actively being cheated on so yea second lowest #still lower in some aspects tho life is shit #ik its morbid to mention but #another #suicide mention #is like i routinely think abt how im going out and its like everyone thinks its so sad and depressing but its such a relief and joyous tho?#i guess the happiness i tie to dying is just depressing to normal people or people who care a little bit about me or just care abt stranger #cuz i get sad when i see strangers tlk about dying by their hand but its also like... i want u to feel relief and happiness n the only way #is dying??? lol #for some of us not all but im like #the type that is so sick of EVERY aspect of life and nothing is worth it. at all lol living and waking up is so mf difficult #breathing is a chore blinking is a chore washing and moving and ugh #then there's jobs and trying to survive and stability and taxes and people who will get you jailed and cause trouble #yea too many layers to life i would rather not #it's not a sad thing tho its just a relief i cannot waaaaait to breathe my last breatg #breath #i hear all these great things about people with NDEs who feel relief and happiness during dying like bruh let me have that

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hballegro · 2 months ago

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[full of turkey and deviled eggs, half asleep] I don't think this story is sad enough actually I think I have to make it worse

#my mom complained abt the ql ending again so i went off on a tangent on how good a reunion hug between al and sam would be #so now im “hm i touched on it a little in chapter 2 that his presence was comforting even if he couldnt touch but. make it Worse #just keep making these boys upset actually“#cause when ur brain is filled with mourning for someone you want to hug your bestie but. what if the one person you most want to hug #cant. they can be there #they can be there and talk to you and hold your gaze and tell you a joke but they cant touch you #not even long distance the normal way. long distance in a way that a plane ticket cant fix #of course there are the homosexual undertones yes yes but the core denial of closeness is what im getting at #imo from how we see boy interact #sam is a physical person. he likes just gently touching his friends #he may not be like a giant hugger specifically but in the gentle baps on the head to just shoulder brushes and close talking #hes a physical person so the denial of that with his closest bud must be agony over time #anyway yeah im gonna make it sadder!!! its my mental illness i get to pick the sadness!!! whos gonna stop me!!!#and i will be writing him happy at the 4077th. as recompense.#and writing big bj and hawk and trapper and co holiday family happy time. it is good.#.yappin

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kil9 · 3 months ago

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probably my biggest killjoy moment is that i think 9/11 jokes can go way too far. i think people like to dunk on "america" as a vague concept, but i dont think a government being bad means that 2 buildings and 4 commercial flights of regular people deserved to die...

#99.txt #i also dont think that the fact that other ppl also suffered suddenly makes it ok....#idk i have some crazy mental illness that makes it so i think anyone dying is bad #i dont wanna like. diminish how badly the us govt fucked up the middle east. but i dont think any rando in america ''deserved it''#i think like...................... its both bad.#i also think that the us military using the deaths of normal ppl to justify even more violence is cruel and disrespectful #just like. joking TOO much about it is. also disrespectful....#idk my neighbor as a kid was on one of those flights. just like. trying to get somewhere. its still tragic #a pretty small percentage of the victims were even military or anything like it was mostly just random people...#im talking in circles but just like... idk !! war is bad ! violence is bad !!!#i know other places have had it way worse but i dont think that makes it ok to be like ''it should happen to YOU now !!!'' ??#i think thats kinda stupid and weird. to crave random violence like that as long as the people were born in the Bad Country #''its ok for something bad to happen to you because something WORSE has happened to someone else'' <- a weird mentality i see too much #in general #idk ppl might be stupid about this and think im saying like ''i love murica'' or whatever.#or that i think this is like. MORE important than other problems. i dont #its relevant to me because i have personal experience with it. and i think its sad and ppl can be distasteful. thats all it is

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rebelelegance · 4 months ago

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Long distance relationships suck. I just read the most jaw dropping scene ever and I wanna YAP TO MY MAN ABOUT IT. BUT HE'S BUSY.

klbjdkfhbrjkbgerh

#ananya talks #its so sad fr #i also js love how he's used to me fangirling now #like it's js normal to see me go feral over a fiction man

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krispyykrab · 1 year ago

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there is really something cruel and strange and fucked up about switching between thinking youre the center of the universe and thinking youre completely invisible 50 fuckin times a day. like do you have a god complex or an inferiority complex make up your mind

#the mental illness strikes again #yeah its that and like this crippling lonliness that has had me in a chokehold #pov you open the same 3 apps over and over again on repeat all day trying to see if anyone has messaged you or interacted with you at all #then you realize oh wait yeah. they all have lives and you dont. yeah that explains it #then you self loathe and pity for a bit and repeat the cycle #mad pathetic #and on top of that youre too fuckin sensitive so you take it all personal #even stupid jokes. yeah that stupid joke it hurt my feelings and for no reason at all #im not even really sad right now its just. so painfully frustrating that this has to be the normal for me #no matter how many times i seek help for it i get blown off #not to mention im *still* fucked up over not being able to go to the one person i relied on to help me when i was mentally unwell #though ive tried #but bringing up being mentally unwell gets me a sad face emoticon at best #and bringing up being physically unwell and that ive had to go to multiple doctors over the past few months is just. completely ignored #oh well #i am completely over that person but that doesnt mean getting ignored doesnt fucking hurt #anyways

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#i was looking through old photos today. they where from wjen i was like 1 and it made me so sad #bc my mum would have been like only a year or 2 older then i am now and she looked so young #and now she has an abdomen full of tumors and blistered hands and feet. theyre prob gonna hsve to remove her bladder #but shes still very pragmatic abt it. but she grew up in a house where no one really cared about her feelings so she made them small #and now her mother calls and doesn't ask how her grandkids are doing and doesn't ask how her daughter is doing. im cursed with terrible #grandparents on both sides but i resent my mothers mother worse. though my dad said i probably wouldnt have survived his upbringing #and hes right. my nana has like zero empathy and cant cook for shit. idk how my parents r so normal but the fact i had a good upbringing is #probably the only reason im still here. and thats the other thing that made me sad abt the old pics. just looking at this little baby with a #fucked up head and thinking: in 25 years that kid is gonna b so broken down their not gonns kno what to do or how to fix it. idk whats wrong #with me. ive always been some stage of miserable but i used to b able to get things done. and now i cant seem to force functionality #and it sucks. bc im home now and i still feel like im cringing around this open wound in my chest. but whatever #as of today ive started taking ab1lify. hopefully it helps in the long term but in the short term it triggers my 0cd. which is not fun #its so frustrating. whatever. i also found out my eyes used to not work together. not enough to have a lazy eye but it was hard for me to #read and apparently my eyes were tracking at like double the speed of a normal person. wtf is wrong with my brain? also also my mum was like #yea i never would have guessed bip0lar but we thought it was something. autism i could see 100% but yea didnt see that coming. ao i guess #i brehave like a bit of an oddball. ans my nana would bother my dad to try to make me participate in church and my dad was like no. she #clearly don't wanna b here lol. ay. they did the best they could which i appreciate #unrelated

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im-smart-i-swear · 1 year ago

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eeneks sister having a fuck ton of scars, but later most of them being revealed as just from her childhood/from mundane accidents is so fucking funny to me for some reason.........

#like of course a lot of her scars ARE blade of marmora -related #but a significant part of em are just. eens scratches n bites & the results of mundane fuck ups #god. i hate calling her 'eeneks sister' all the time. i NEED to find a good name for her asap!!!!!!#constantly calling one of your only female characters '[someone]s sister/daughter/etc' feels wrong and this woman deserves better than that #also. ignore the scar placement. it WILL change #i am incapable of drawing scars consistently #and im still figuring out her design #my funky guys #my art #im a little bit obsessed with her. shes like a sad wet cat to me #shes so cool and cringe at the same time<333 #20 something who spent her entire adult life as a marmora solider and is now trying very hard to learn how to be Normal(its not going well)#girl has issues #love that for her<3 #ive been on an eenek kick lately. thinking about this fucked up family 24/7. i love them #theyre all so funny to me. this family of three has so much drama its like a fuckin soap opera in here. its ridicoulus #also #taks thinks this woman is soooo cool and badass. i mean she is but shes also a wreck.#taks takes after eenek and idolises their sister. paralells ig???#this girl sees a purple alien and asks 'is anyone gonna use this guy as their role model for the next couple of years??'#and doesnt wait for an answer

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cloudellesims · 7 months ago

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i am currently week 7 into playing ruth's save (i have only posted up to week 2 i think??) and she has not got even 1 romantic candidate so far since her previous 2 tragedies

#cloudychats #normally i have my sim married w 2 kids by this point and tbh #im actually shocked at how little i care😭#im enjoying her single life!!!!!!#i like that i have nearly mastered her career & have her learning like as many skills as i can #its enjoyable the way im playing rn #ALSO side note i have changed my lighting mod from the uransia something to #borningbones ts3beta lighting and omg...#it's exactly what i wanted😭#my ss look so much nicer now!#im sad you wont be able to see for a few more posts☹#speaking of i think ones abt to go live soon

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lapdogchase · 2 years ago

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one thing i just do not fucking get is the difference between "regulating emotions" and "suppressing emotions" i cannot get my head around how those are different. like if im sad and then i go "well im not going to be sad anymore" that's "dissociating" and "suppressing healthy emotions" but if im sad and im like "well im going to cry until i actually pass out" that's "not healthy" and it's BAD to suppress emotions but it's ALSO BAD to get super upset so WHAT IS THE SECRET THIRD THING cuz i do not fucking get it. "feel your feelings But not that way that's not healthy feel your feelings but less than that" ???????

#text #IT'S DRIVING ME UP A WALL IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT FOR MOTNHS #LIKE????? is it like. like is this a me problem is this just me having feelings that are too big #like do other people just.. like for other people does 'feel your feelings' just mean like. feel sad for a while and then stop. cuz i cant #do that i dont get normal sad i get chest pain and think about killing my self for hours on end .is that the problem #like okay if i trip down the stairs and break my leg. im going to cry and go to the hospital. suppressing that would be just using my #broken leg anyway and ignoring it. would regulating it not also be Crying and going to the hospital. would regulating it be like.. putting #a bandaid on it or something is it like.. a middle ground . i do not fucking get it #like okay if i trip down the stairs and i scrape my knee and then i call an ambulance i see how thats not the right response . and i guess #regulating there would be like. calming down thinking things thru and choosing a less drastic solution like a bandaid. i get it #in that situation. but if ive ACTUALLY BROKEN MY LEG. then that would just be the first thing again essentially #but when i put that back into. real world not metaphor world. like. i dont get it again #because if theres not like. an obvious reason for however i feel how am i supposed to judge if im calling an ambulance for a scraped knee #ALSO I THOUGHT THERE 'ARENT ANY WRONG EMOTIONS' WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THAT -_-#okay no okay it's like. if i trip down the stairs and i skin my knee i dont have to call an ambulance. but if several times a day i fall d #down the stairs and skin my knee in that exact spot and now i can see bone. SHOULD I NOT CALL AN AMBULANCE?#cuz its not just one thing thats upsetting me most of the time it's a combination of a bunch of things and then like one extra upsetting #thing added on top of that. which would necessitate an ambulance. does this make sense #THIS IS GETTING ME NOWHERE IM STILL JUST AS CONFUSED AS I WAS BEFORE I STARTED TYPING. i need 2 remember 2 ask my therapist #what the fuck ''feel your feelings'' means and how it can coexist with ''regulating feelings'' or whatever cuz i feel like im missing smth #NIK OUT ! PEACE ! ✌️

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