#artist vent

[dreamweave01]

Look. Normally, I would say that school's important and that good grades are important.

. . .But let's be honest, trigonometry is a bitch, and I was just glad to at least pass the damn thing this semester.

[thehawaiianqueen-art]

Your comfort character means a lot

I deeply miss drowning my sorrows with Aizawa art. I’ll be get back sooner it than later.

[heavenblanket]

My art from December of 2023 (I didn’t have artworks that come close to being full for a long time in 2024) and my art from January of 2025 with a bit of artist lore.

I’ve been struggling with mental health issues for a long time and that’s reflected through the inconsistency of my artworks throughout the years. I’m still struggling, I don’t know what’s ahead. I feel like I’m being put in similar situations over and over again but this isn’t a broken cycle, because I react to them differently each time.

I’ve gone past the many years of going through a cycle that was hurting me and those around me. Now, there is little anything but my passion for art (one might say an obsession or compulsion) and the support of my friends. Things aren’t looking bright right now, but I have to hope they will and hope I have.

Thanks for coming to my ted talk.

[cinnamoncatto]

People who ever called my art either "Disney" or "anime" style, just know i am coming for you and your days are numbered!!!!!

[jaimecelesteart]

Just about every time I draw something I have to fight with myself against the thoughts of "you can't do that, what will people think of that" and "people are going to judge and make fun of you for drawing that". Deep down I believe in making whatever fucking art I want but the the mask I've developed from being autistic is strong and I'm so tired of it...

[sweetdreamfallx]

My Vent (if you don't like vents, do not read) (it's personal and important)

So 1st of all, I feel sad that I need to explain myself for drawing two man who are co-workers. Like, guys. When I feel like romantic thing, it's rare (I'm ace). And when it is there, I wanna put this on paper.

Everyone saw that the designs are not really OG, since they have changes. Like Jeremy wearing a mask, Mike and Vincent being buffed, Scott being Japanese and so on. Everyone knows that every AU is diffrent than OG or even other AU people make.

Also this is fiction. I do not need to explain myself (since Patrice herself is supernatural Polish woman). If someone thinks that making a pair of two grown man is bad (because of OG story, which this is not, it's an AU), then they are the same person who thinks by playing Team Fortress 2, I will go full Scout on nearby mailbox (do not treat fiction as realism).

There are so many Mike x Vincent stories and arts that people make. Why? Because they love them. Or they have low romantic emotion like me. Or they just love them together, nothing more nothing less.

By me explaining my story, I said the plottwist of it that I planned. Which ruined the plottwist. That is not good.

I'm sorry, but for now I feel just sad about it. I don't feel like drawing/making story about them anymore or anything romantic. This just ruined it. I was thinking about it for few days. It just doesn't feel the same. (Maybe I'll start drawing it later, but we'll see).

All I need now is support. I feel drained, empty and sad. I don't really wanna draw romantic things anymore (or even continue my story), because I feel like people will want me to explain every couple I draw to them. The expectations are just too much for me. Also thank you to my friend who really loves my ship arts (the one who howled at it like a wolf). And thank you to other friend which understood my situation. Also thank you to my group of friends who told me to not explain myself to other people, because they don't like what I draw.

Thank you guys.

[skeksisloving]

I hate how venting about my experience as an artist makes me feel like people will view me as a whinny brat begging for attention.

I want an audience.

I want to get commissions.

I want to know that it's not just me who feels ignored.

And I hate how jealous I get of other artists who have an audience. They make it look so easy.

And maybe its because I dont draw enough. But I can't bring myself to do that.

I enjoy my art but I feel so unwanted online.

I just feel like curling up under a rock and staying there when I think about this stuff.

I promise I'm not begging for your attention. I just get so frustrated about this sometimes.

But I do appreciate the likes my art gets once and a while. It means alot. It feels great to know something I love made someone happy. I have alot of fun making my art and love seeing people love it like I do.

[mourningskvader]

Drawing? I love that! Gorgeous. Beautiful. I can draw for hours on end.

Rendering? My mortal enemy. My arch nemesis. The bane of my existence.

[caapsart]

every time I decide to become a socially active artist, I'm quickly reminded that I'm tired just by typing this. damn I hate that self-branding thing

[dreamweave01]

"SOMEDAY. . ."

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So I know I haven't been doing much lately, but I can explain :')

Last year I went through a uh. . . a thing. . . and I'm having like a kind of intense PTSD reaction or something. You know, like the thing where on the anniversary of the event the trauma resurfaces or whatever.

ANYWAYS!!!!

Here's a little diddle thing for yet another Undertale AU of mine, Enmitytale. (I have no idea if that name will stick, I'm still brainstorming ideas haha)

It's basically an apocalypse au that takes place on the surface during nuclear warfare.

(I think I'm noticing a dark trend in my aus •- •)

[grubcakes]

does anybody else have like artist impostor syndrome .or um

im working on comms right now and they're coming out really nice and pretty but i genuinely cant think that theyre mine . i dont think im the one doing it i cant believe it . i dont want to !! what is wrong with me

[blxxdless1z]

I miss when social media was social.

The sickening expectation that I have to keep all of my accounts portfolio ready in case business comes by hurts my poor human mind, starved of expression and the closeness that being my authentic self brought.

Even if it was messy and unprofessional

[lemmeurs]

this is how ive been feeling for like the past year

the biggest tragedy of my life is my tendency to getting obsessed with fictional men and wanting to draw them all the time while also sucking at male anatomy and losing my sanity over any sketch i make

[heavenblanket]

The pain of an artist knows no shores. The ocean is ruthless, when have they gone returned to their homes? They belong where they are, amidst the ever changing waves and that’s no home. A home has deep roots in the soil. If that’s how it be, take me where I belong, the waves. Take me where I long for. I am the ocean. The waves and the storms and the currents. Beneath, lies life and decay. Take me to my art. I don’t know where the waves take me, but I hope to learn to love the sea of stars. Take me where I belong, aid me to find my art. My essence is lost in the ocean.

[woelfin-sheeps-clothing]

When you finish a commission and they only tell you afterwards "oh hey can you adjust XYZ? Yeah I know that you've been sending me updates on it every day and I could have said something sooner."

[bunny-hoodlum]

Ughhhhhhh the art struggle is real. 😢 I adjusted the composition and added a door frame for foreground, but coloring this thing??????? On top of that, Naruto looks both good and way, way off to me and it's so annoying. I try to fix him and he looks worse. I go back to how he looks at the moment, and it's like 'yes, this *is* good except for this, this, this, this, this, that...' 🤦‍♀️ I'm both determined and losing interest in this piece, ugh.