#school things

[transparent-peach]

bad days

School started like three weeks ago and i got into a flap. I have lot to do but i overly enjoy writing (it’s a safe place for me) so there is some comforting stuff to all my anxious and a bit lost human beings. Lots of love to you all. Hope ypu are doing well!

It’s a bit messed up i know. It is past midnight and i have to wake up at 5 a.m. Yeah, school sucks. :D

I'm here for y'all!🩷

First-person singular

James McAvoy x Reader

speak no evil era

words: 1066

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I have a lot to do. If my head wasn't attached to my body i would lost it too in the mess of life i am having lately.

James is out there, pretending he's alright and smiling like there is no problem in this world. At least he is okay with his own life, his new movie just came out and he's happy he is busy again with these things. He loves the vibrant type of life and he enjoys every moment of the spotlight.

It's been like a month since we last acted like a couple because of the movie. The interviews, the talk shows. I had enough of them, and i was beyond proud of him, i was more excited than ever but i missed him. I missed our late night talking and our secret dates out there and the bunch of other things that a normal loving couple would do.

He came home late at night. It was a messy tuesday night and i had enough. I was exhausted and i felt like i could cry for eighteen hours straight. Everything was messed up, i had to face the fact that nothing is working out like the way i would want to.

– Love, i'm home! – I heard his voice downstairs as he put down his keys.

– Hey! – I swallowed my tears. He came up to me. His eyes were bloody red from the tiredness. He was quite weak and all he did was sit on the bed next to me. I sighed as i put my head onto his shoulder and i felt the rush of happiness mixed with dreariness inside of my chest.

A few drops of tears came out of my eyes and i couldn't help but hugged his arm like a little girl. I was shaking from anxiety.

– What is wrong, love? – His voice filled with surprise, more like a caring tone.

– I... – My voice cracked like a broken glass and i gasped for air. My lungs were filled with air but i couldn't breathe. I was afraid to admit that i had been in such a bad situation.

– Fuck, darling. Why are you crying? What's wrong? What happened? – He scooped up my cheeks as he turned to me.

– I feel so alone. I feel like a failure and i... – He listened carefully. He looked deeply into my eyes and he was concerned about my feelings.

– Yes, i am here. Please, continue!

– I miss you and i know i can't make you stay here when you have a lot of things going on. More valuable things than anything that i do but i... I am nearly 30 and you are doing so fine at fourty-something and i am feeling miserable...

He almost chuckled at my last sentence. I didn't even know what was happening in my head. I was just piffle around. I had so many information in my head. They all wanted to come out all in one.

– Y/N, don't. You have a lot to do too, just because you are not in this industry it doesn't mean you are not as important as any other working person. As any other person. – He took a deep breath. He caressed my cheeks with his thumb and moved closer towards me. – You are a woman. You have been through hell and back. You are the most amazing, strong, hardworking, caring woman i've ever met. Don't underestimate yourself. You are more than enough.

– Okay, but...

– No, no, no. Not a single "but". Come here.

He opened his arms and hugged me.

– I love you. – I whispered into the nothingness. My heartbeat slowly dropped down to normal, and i felt the cosy warmth in my body.

– I love you too, darling. – He placed a kiss on my head. His hug tightened around me. I felt his presence. I was finally able to feel him again. I was more than relaxed and relieved. I was listening to his heartbeat as we laid down. We were still cuddling as he placed a blanket on our tired bodies.

– I would enjoy a nice breakfast tomorrow. At our favourite place. I hope you would like it too. – He put his hand on my back and he caressed my lower back. He said those things with a nice low tone.

– I'd love that. – I was trying to hide my excitement.

– Okay love. We should get a good sleep before that. – He whispered into my ears and gave me a long kiss before i could say anything.

The morning after i got up with such an enthusiastic smile. I tapped his side of the bed and i felt terrible again when i found out he was missing.

– Oh god... – I mumbled to myself.

I heard a big clashing noise coming from the kitchen downstairs. I felt some kind of relief and places my head back on the pillow.

He opened the door with his leg, and i noticed a cup of coffee in his hand.

– I know, we are heading out for breakfast but i also know you wouldn't leave the house without one. – He talked like he is a genius and handed me the mug.

– Thank you! – I smiled in joy as i smelled the double espresso.

– Your bad habit, ma'am. How could i forget. – He placed a cigarette inside my mouth and lighted for me. I couldn’t help but smile as he put the lighter into his pocket.

– What a gentleman. – I laughed at his words and i put the cigarette down in the ashtray as i sipped my coffee. His admiration was so strong that i could sense it from miles. His eyes were sparkling and he let out a kind chuckle. He sat down on the couch and watched me enjoying my first "meal" of the day.

– You know i will always be here for you, love.

His comforting presence gave me a wholesome feeling. His words were pure and genuine as he looked deeply into my eyes.

– I know. I will always be there for you too.

[cherieaura]

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ready to romanticize yet another school year

[xtreme-cringe-warning]

Me making a krathong in class!!

[heartsfortwotpot]

forgot my birthday is tomorrow. Early gift for myself

[imabookloverandafangirl]

But am I the only one who has a teacher who calls me Hermione and every time I answer a question correctly he says: "10 points to Gryffindor"?

If I'm really the only one I'm really lucky ( :

[rene-01]

When someone you’ve never spoke to has a crush on you

[idiot-mushroom]

i swear this is not photoshopped, my math teacher is just rlly into tmnt, he hasn’t even watched the tmntmm trailer, he just looks up on google images ‘tmnt’ and likes to just put them on slides and shit.

but yeah this is one of the highlights of today :))

[jeanetteirismiller]

“Recently, I’ve started getting headaches whenever I try to imagine anything. I find it a bit concerning.”

“It’s probably just the extra stress of school, but I miss being able to lose myself in a fantasy and hyperfixate.”

[runa-falls]

i love finishing an assignment that was due 3 days ago and feeling accomplished for about 10 seconds before realizing i’m too exhausted to do something that’s due today.

this vicious cycle of procrastination and burn out hits me every spring semester 😭

[adadiyebirisi]

[sen-sational]

Helped prep some mousse, which I got to eat some that was already made the day or so before, my hand was covered in chocolate so that was fun, I do want to make it on my own at some point at home though

[lostwords-found]

had to put together a research proposal for one of my classes. after combing through papers for hours trying to pinpoint what I wanted to do, found a review paper from 5 years ago going through all the existing research they could find on the topic and identifying the specific thing I wanted to design a project for as a major and glaring gap in the existing literature. anyway gods bless researchers who put their papers up for free online, where I can find them two hours before I have a thing due, right next door to the paywalled sites my university does not grant access to.

[fetchmearum420]

When I was in 7th grade, my history teacher had this giant paper hole puncher, and he called it John Hancock. I just remembered this today.

He was very funny. He’s still my favorite teacher to date. Whenever he would be silly, he would hit the hole puncher on his desk and yell something funny and I’m pretty sure one time he yelled “SIT DOWN JOHN!”

Coincidence? I think NOT.

I’m sure we also watched clips from 1776 but my memory is awful lmao so I don’t know for sure.

It’s just funny how he called it John Hancock.

[precure-screencaps]

"It's okay. I'm an excellent student"

hirogaru sky! precure - ep. 12

[im-a-heartstomper]

so im researching Chris Pratt controversy for my 2nd period, and holy shit apparently Ben Shapiro defended Chris Pratt during the whole "Don't Tread on Me" shirt situation. Bro if you're in trouble and BEN SHAPIRO (and/or Keemstar, but that is unrelated) is on YOUR SIDE?

uh oh

(this is one of the rare situations where Ben is actually right though)

[sgtant]

I'm surprised to say this but honestly I've been liking highschool so far. I'm halfway through my second week as a sophomore now, and it's been very chill. It's basically the same as freshman year, except I've been acquainted with the setting, and am actually familiar with many of the students (more likely that I'll have my friends in classes 😁) Still debating whether I should go into the IB program (basically some advanced course stream, way too many of my friends are in there lol) but I shouldn't stress about that right now

I've gotten in contact with some of my old friends from middle school that I haven't seen in years, and it's been a great experience. That's something I've been doing more lately: taking action and putting more initiative into things like this, and I'm proud of myself for it. Two years ago you could NOT get my secluded ass to do any of this reaching out and imitating conversations shit (so happy I'm not in 8th grade and in COVID anymore, that lockdown stuff really hindered my ability to talk to others)

Another thing I've observed that is fascinating is that I've felt and noticed that I grew up, which is crazy to me. I mean, obviously I will be different, but it's really cool seeing that I'm able to do stuff I couldn't two or three years ago, and that I'm (hopefully) smarter, and better at reflecting on stuff like this. You don't really feel in the moment that life or you could be any different, and yet here I am (it's especially apparent through my art journey, which has been documented since the beginning of the decade)