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im like. im doin alright!! 馃憤 i am however the loneliest ive ever been
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Doing master studies the only way I know how: Stealing them and making them my guys.
(Barberini Faun)
(The Fallen Angel - Alexandre Cabanel)
(Covent Garden - William Bruce Ellis Rankin)
#obviously. not actually theft...#i was gonna say these are public domain but covent garden actually isnt yet#it will be. in two years.#thats the most different one though like i added a whole new guy..#maybe not the most different. barberini faun is pretty different i just took the post#pose#its barely even a study. thats not true#but. what was i saying.#oh its not theft it's study... the purpose is to learn!!! but also. if im gonna spend like 2 days on something...#its GONNA be my guys#otherwise. idk. i only want to spend 30 or so minutes per study#just to get the notes down and the practice for the skill im working on#i dont get all that much more out of completely rendering a master study. PERSONALLY.#at least definitely not enough to be worth taking 100x longer#but making them my characters makes it worth going all the way!!!#plus it's good practice w like. not just going 1:1 but actually genuinely interpreting whats there so i can manipulate it...#again. personally. this is just how i worm#WORK#youd better worm bitch#uhm... anyways yeah. ive done lots of study but why TF share it LMAO i dont even save it#its just to learn. ive got 1 million other drawings to save and look at later.#once the learning is done it's done its job and i have no need anymore#this is why the only studies i have are from school. i had to save and upload them#well. ok also i dont study as much now BUT in my defense im a full time artist#an hour or so a week is different ok im learning while working too.. i learned how to learn and i do it all the time now#master studies#digital art#my art#illustration#my ocs
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polymer broadcast signal hijack
#pikmin#captain olimar#ft. louie captain shepherd and collin#as well as#moss (pikmin)#watched a stream series of pikmin 4 (its frankenbugs' series) thats what this is about really#but mostly. I just love olimar. I just really enjoy that man#also this really got me flexing those bande dessin茅e muscles from back thens lol#Ive missed drawin with this kinda proportions... I should do it more#Im gonna draw an olimar to put in my wallet. I need to make my life harder to explain to strangers#I also wanna. add more details to his space suit. make it look more like real life space suit for fun & entertainment#man I enjoy the animals in pikmin so much. they really are just like. animals. theyre animals#its great I love how genuinely bug-lookin the bugs are even with the stylization. pikmin and pokemon are really good at that#would like to learn how to do that... sometimes in the future#oh yeah fun fact. my effort at cleaning up my undercut a few days ago went badly. right before I went to a family reunion thing for 2 days#so I was goin out of my mind at that event postin abt olimar bc I love him#and then. when I got home. I decided to shave my head instead of trying to fix the haircut again#and so the sequence of events becomes I post about olimar -> I enter my bald arc#I am okay with this. have a good night lads. binding books is actually really fun u should try it
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I hate the insistence in pushing Jason into the batfamily.
If he doesn't wanna go to dinner, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't wanna hang out with them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't want to see them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't even want to contact them, he doesn't have to.
It's so annoying to read fic and always see it presented as his Family Knows Better. Jason is just being silly by not realizing how much they love him and he just needs to let them break into his home and comms and life because they want him there.
#my dc posting#jason todd#red hood#batfamily#like genuinely how do yall write this shit n not realize how fucked it is#i hear jason say he doesnt wanna do something w his family and im like HELL YEAH ASSERT UR BOUNDARIES#him being strongarmed into dinner despite knowing its gonna be a shitshow n judged heavily if he doesnt show is like. a fucking staple#of fic and im SOOO done w it#do none of you think? really do you even think??#ig its the difference in perspective between viewing the batfamily as the Ultimate Good thing. the place they all should strive to be#instead of the mess of toxicity and stalking n abusiveness it is#and even in content where the batfamily is actually as healthy as they can be jason still doesnt have to do anything w em!!!#hes completely justified to not contact them. thats his fucking choice and boundary n writing his family prancing right past all that#does Not endear me to them sorryy!!#i once saw someone explain jason as low-contact and i was like. yeah. i love that. let me have that please#its not that i hate seeing him in the batfam. i just think it should be HIS choice
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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^ i care about this scribble deeply . He he ehehe hehe
#bloodborne#decadentart#man idk what to even tag this as beyond just Bloodborne. just a bunch of yharnamites & the good hunter#I love you people of yharnam. Very dear to me#kind of an exploration of Ideas . Not reallt anything comprehensive . thats how u should do it tbh#if im drawing shit every day. its gonna get messy. Orkay#drivel as in nonsense#but also? drool. Hrmg#yes i gave that man a tail. and?#i#i should draw some yharnamites again sometime genuinely fun drawing unwashed hairy lads idk#u kinda havw to get me#also yeah the weird lips are intentional#its like the lips on dogs and wolves#look ive been listrning to the voice files of the yharnamites and it make me giggle hehehehhehe#okay! get out of my house *slams door*#also gonna try doing it only 3 colors each day. Smillee
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green beetle black beetle
#star wars#the original trilogy#boba fett#darth vader#hi. sorry for star war jumpscare. genuinely#i feel like ive kinda been on an art hiatus lately due to health stuff#i got diagnosed with a parathyroid disease recently (wahoo) so now i know why i have been feeling so bad! need more tests though#anyway. in the mean time most of the entertainment my brain can handle has been like. youtube clip compilations of shows and movies#not even the actual shows or movies. literally just sections of them on youtube#i wish i was joking#the only reason i know what happens in succession is because i have watched it in disjointed order in youtube compilations. not joking#anyway so ive learned a lot more about star wars than i ever. thought i would#mostly just the original trilogy and prequels. some of the old comics & books are interesting too#(sick to my stomach) i like darth vader he has like the same personality as ganondorf except he had no good reason for doing anything#when vader/anakin does literally anything weird or unacceptable it like. makes me laugh so hard its like jerma when he sees a car accident#boba fett鈥檚 costume design has been rotating in my head a lot too it鈥檚 very good#he鈥檚 very colorful and like. matte/unpolished compared to vader and it makes them a cool duo visually#those 2 are my favorites. vader why is the space cowboy the only person aside from sidious or tarkin who is allowed to get mad at you#sidious is my 3rd favorite. he sucks so bad as like a person that you just. you have no expectations of him except just being evil#so its just really funny like everything he does is horrible and he鈥檚 so happy all the time like good for him#i鈥檓 making it sound like ive never seen star wars before. i have i just never really cared about it until i got an endocrine disorder lmao#but yeah idk art may continue to be slow while im figuring out treatment stuff#if anyone reading this also has or has had hyperparathyroidism im wishing the strength & radiance of 1000 beautiful horses upon you
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the charm of the first two class of 09 games were the balance of satire and realism (which are enhanced by the voice acting) that redeem the 'anti-visual novel' intention too well. class of 09 was fun because we get moments that feel real. there's nicole's arguements with her mom and the conversations between any of the teenagers are time-period accurate despite the cartoonishness
the comedy works because the dialogue flows well. the dark humor and shock value are carefully executed. the edginess works because of the writing knowing its limits
it knows when to be funny (mr lorre meeting up with nicole) and when to take itself seriously (nicole talking about her experience as a myspace escort)
i really think that nicole being a bad person without bigotry (most of the time) is what makes its comedy work.
flipside fails miserably and feels like a disconnection from the other two games. when jecka suffers it's just for the sake of suffering. it isnt like in the other two games where nicole suffers as consequence. honestly, flipside just looks like what class of 09 would be without the proper care it was given. it focused too much on trying to be edgy and funny that it doesnt execute the realism. nicole's mom was written in a way that feels real. her multiple divorces are comedically cartoonish but when she's on screen and voice acted she actually behaves like a real life mother. jecka's dad has none of that. he just says things and yells when he wants to.
#class of 09#class of 09 flipside#im not wording this right sorry#seriously the comedy was really good#jecka and nicole making karen relapse was funny because it was non-stop over the top and clever#mr katz nearly buying crack from nicole was funny because of the stakes (same with mr lorre)#(tgough mr lorre getting caught was funny because of him introducing himself as high-profile and because of his panic)#can you tell i love the re-up#genuinely the re-up is the best game because of its deviation from the rejection sim intentions#but anyway yeah the nicole-centric games really felt like a comedy about a teenage girl from the late 2000s living her life#which flipside LACKED#things just happen to jecka and thats it
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really love characters who have varied panic responses. kirk stating himself that he does not panic outright, externally, not in high-stress dangerous situations, but instead becomes tense and level like a wound string, on-guard: mostly because his role as captain necessitates that he maintain level rationality even when facing potential death as his training as 'the guy who tells you what to do when shit hits the fan' requires, but also because his childhood experiences taught him early that drowning in the desperate haziness of panic won't help you survive. especially as kirk already follows his intuition so deeply. he learned to grasp and contort the feeling. spock is the main person who represses his emotions, of course, but kirk does it to those deep-set, personal ones (this includes how he doesn't reveal anything truly personal about himself willingly 90% of the time, only what others already know/shallow anecdotes) in a much more subtle way that's really interesting to me. certified expert at avoiding the subject as long as he isnt caught out on the lie. professional bluffer.
in terms of past or parents we dont know much!!! hes known as the heart-on-his-sleeve guy!!! like yes he yells, he gets irritated, excited, hes a whirlwind of quick-thinking and plans and intuition, he goes out of his way to connect with his crew and shows it, when he puts on a little act or bluff he puts his heart into it and clearly enjoys the dramatics so much, at times he wears his heart on his sleeve, he laughs openly and is honest to spock about what he means to him, he's very sun-coded to me in a burning, passionate way, always intertwined with the stars and seeking them out, but when it comes to genuine deep-set turmoil? we dont actually know all that much about him??? hes so full of emotion and character (i love fics where spock characterises jim's mind/bond as a whirl of colour and sensations, hes a quick thinker!!! intuitive!! lively!!!) and yet its still so outwardly surface level. tarsus iv gets mentioned like twice? so especially here where kirk gets briefly jumpscared by the creature, because like:
its subtle but his eyes. his eyesss!!!!! kirk commands with his emotions but there's always some sort of level of control to it, or he transforms them into something that spurs on others or uses them to ascertain a goal: seeing unguarded fear/distress in his eyes even if its faint and brief (in this instance) makes me go insane every single time. like!!! its such a small moment!!! he isnt even panicking!!! really, he just got jumpscared!!! its insignificant!!!!!!! but seeing a two-second flash of actual, naked apprehension is just...oughhh,,,,,,,,,
oh god, and dont even get me started on the galileo seven episode where he assumes a tense level-headedness throughout the whole thing, irritated and apprehensive but not panicking, making sure he maintains intelligent rationality, even when he has to leave them behind, but when spock and the crew are confirmed safe and the bridge is occupied the camera pans to him and his eyes look like they're fucking watering and he's so achingly relieved. don't even talk to me. im. fuck.
he shows so so much but at the same time reveals so little.
#just had to write something about this because i loveeee seeing cool characters in distress. sorry but i need to see that boy PANICKING#im only on season 1 still so i dont know if there is a point where kirk openly seriously panics in the typical way#in high stress situations hes guarded but controlled#seeing him genuinely lose his nerve and start panicking would make me ouuughghgughg#like if he starts actually hyperventilating for kirk you know somethings so wronggg#but no yeah even if spock is injured or kirk is concerned about him he still shows that in the tense guarded high strung demeanor#same with spock really - his tone becomes tense and he uses jims name and its subtle but AAACKKK#i love the note of desperation being logical. that one episode is such a good exploration of spocks characer#i just think its interesting. to me it reads not only of kirks headstrong nature but also of his experience on taurus iv#not equipped for rambling#star trek tos#star trek#james kirk#jim kirk#captain kirk#kirk tos#hope this is right because im only just coming to the end of season 1 so#i love kirk so much though i cant even#hoping so so much ive interpreted him well#and that this makes sense. this is a ramble to the max.#he draws people into his orbit hes lively hes intelligent hes a burning whirl of passion and arhrthhhh
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Hello, someone call 911 because we got ROBBED
#my posts#ramblings#jojos bizarre adventure#jotaro kujo#jojo part 3#im genuinely so pissed off that this wasnt animated#like okay fine there will be some deviation from the source material#but like this one in particular was so important and integral to Jotaro's character#YOU COULD AT THE VERY LEAST KEEP THE FACT HE WAS CONCERNED ABOUT HIS FRIEND#can i literally just make an essay on why Jotaro is so misunderstood#especially when with the context of the manga#im honestly so pissed#jojo sdc#stardust crusaders#is like really good sometimes#its flawed yeah but I love it#especially the manga
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like the thing is the last time i was a massive fall out boy fan i was 14 and i was still trying to figure out what Good Music was and truth be told most of what i considered Good Music at age 14 is absolute dogshit. so imagine my surprise when i returned to from under the cork tree 8 years later and it wasn't just Not Dogshit, it was from under the cork tree
#a lot of this does have to do w the fact that i'm a lyric girlie i LOOOOVE good lyrics#and pete wentz is. well. he's pete wentz#genuinely a little blown away by just how good his songwriting is. i did NOT! have the english fluency to understand most of this in 2016#so ive just been having a field day fully appreciating it all this year. field..year?#and you know the thing about me is that i literally look like i am supposed to wear black and eyeliner. i always look best dressed like tht#it's no longer my fashion sense but anytime i get dressed up to go to one of my emo concerts im like yeah no this is what im supposed to be#so me being really into fob in the year of our lord 2024 is kind of like an animal being released back into its natural habitat#this is exactly where i am supposed to be. i was born for this#personal
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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!
Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!
Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.
I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!
#im so frustrated that banner has been gone#and people think the comic is over because of that#which is reasonable to think#but it... idk#its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long#let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated#every day there is something new with them its so exhausting#this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration#i feel like they're not just being unhelpful#at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books#i can't make my links too big so no one can find me#people dont even know i have a patreon#i can't make any announcements on the comic#and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized#and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest#and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job#and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done#cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them#I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj#i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out#text post#update
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siren
#bakuspecial#cw: nudity#cw: body horror#monster#siren! I think. they're bird to me#I think this has been brewing since that stream mim did of drawing dnd monsters only from official text description#and when the official art for the sirens were shown I was like. oh thats just a woman with wings#lmao like. granted. its an official dnd book available for all audience. you cant make it too Bad To Look At#(I do not agree with this but it wasnt about me. if its about me its gonna be about very few people lmao)#but yeah. after that I got slightly too into the idea of putting more bird into birdwoman#but I also do genuinely love monsters that are Rearranged Human Parts so. I couldnt commit too much to the bird scales Im so sorry#I wanted the fleshiness. the feel. textural experience of holding her hands and being like oh that's a human#even when ur eyes tell u otherwise. mmm#...I looked to my right as I was typing these tags and saw. the fucked up pikmin I tried to sculpt the other day along with the pin#and got startled#its so. its so fucked up. gods. dusty white naked grainy parsnip#I used to have that one doll I butchered wanting to customize in a box next to me and thats way less upsetting than this. man#its perfect actually I will never throw this thing away. anyways#now. now I go to bed. its sleep time for the baku#have a good night lads! you CAN have it both way easily you just need a big bat
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really cool of the show to throw a toddler in there whos job is to Be Cute And Sassy and resurrect vander as a stupid ass werewolf frankenstien just so they can have another thing to violently rip away from jinx and make her more unstable without actually having to sacrifice any real characters
#arcane#arcane spoilers#name one like. actual unique trait about the baby#just one#oh shes a spunky kid? she Sticks it to the man?#where have i seen that before#godh i hope nothing bad happens to her#i hope da widdle baby isnt fodder for jinx to angst about another person shes gotten killed via proximity#uh so yeah my feelings on htis show#have probably gotten worse?#the pacing is in the shitter like genuinely every single plotline needs room to breathe#the characters dont reconcile they like. share a look and are immediately on the same page again#also really cool that it seems the civil war plotline is being pivoted so the Real baddies are the foreign warmonger city#all that nuance poeple love praising she show for is just. gone its good guys and bad guys#yeah the last time vi saw cait she punched her with ehr gun and implied she was lesser than for being related to jinx for being from zaun#but GUYS she called her CUPCAKE true love really can fix anything#im like. pacing what is this. what is going on what is happening#THIS is the best animated show airing currently. this is it
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so datv retconned a lot of lore which is. a whole separate issue. but there are two things in the lore that's been established in this game that don't make a lot of sense to me
obviously big spoilers below
firstly, the archdemons are apparently the 'weapons' of the evanuris, rather than the evanuris themselves. they were high dragons that the evanuris bound their life force to, essentially making them immortal. a big part of the plot is that we have to kill the gods' archdemons to make them mortal, and then kill them.
all the other evanuris are dead. but if the archdemons were their weapons/anchor of immortality, why/how are they dead? according to what this game is telling us, when the archdemons were killed to end the blights, that would have made the god it was bound to mortal, but it wouldn't have actually killed them. these gods were still extremely powerful and capable of living for a long time even without their archdemons, so i don't think it was the passage of time. that doesn't make sense either when we look at solas, who like them was 'sleeping', and who was never bound to a dragon to keep him alive.
secondly, apparently the full horror of the blight is contained within the veil. when the magisters pierced the veil, they released part of it into the world, which became the blight. ghilan'nain and elgar'nan want to pierce/destroy the veil to flood the world with the blight.
solas wants to stop them flooding the world with the blight. but he's also planning on destroying the veil to make the world what it used to be. but if the veil is all thats containing the blight, how was his plan any different to what ghilan'nain and elgar'nan are doing? he says he was planning to move them to a different prison, but he says nothing about how he was going to deal with the blight. and even though at a certain stage in the game, where rook knows about the veil being the only thing holding the blight back, we can ask him how his plan is different, it's all in the context of how he's going to unleash demons on the world. nothing about the blight.
like sure we could say its because he's a hypocrite but its a fundamental part of the plot that does not make sense to me
#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#datv spoilers#datv critical#dragon age critical#like i genuinely can't tell if im missing something or if they've messed with the lore so much its just not making sense#even in the context of the lore theyve put in this game !!#ive finished the game and im still processing a lot of it and i have a Lot of thoughts#mostly about the retconning#its not all negative its just#whoever said this is a good game that doesn't feel like a dragon age game... yeah
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finally finished my project of collecting voiceclaims that are as close as i can find for my hcs of the main HoO cast - just for funsies so it's not as perfect as I'd like but whatever, it was a neat exploration and exercise of me trying to think of literally any franchise for voice actors.
Leo got two cause I had trouble of finding good clips for the voiceclaim that's closers to my hcs for him (the second half of his section). Also got to play the fun game of digging through my art for decent doodles of each character.
Also fun fact, I am almost completely unfamiliar with 3 franchises in this video and was just digging for voice clips on youtube. Try to guess which ones.
#pjo#percy jackson#riordanverse#video#headcanon#headcanons#my art#jason also gets two but theyre the same so it doesnt count. and its mostly just cause silly. i had to.#and before anyone asks - ''is that Scaramouche's VA with Leo-?'' yes but i have zero genshin knowledge#and the voice he does for Scaramouche isnt quite what i have in mind for Leo#also 2nd fun fact i briefly considered Vash for Jason but then i realized. same VA as Lio#as hilarious as it would be to have Jason and Nico share a VA voiceclaim i will refrain#Piper's is a bit higher than i'd like but Michiru definitely has the right energy for what i imagine for her#when her voice dips lower that's a lot closer to what i imagine. the energy is close enough though that im fine with the pitch difference#Percy's is very amusing to me. like yeah no Percy has Haru energy. that works out great#normal Haru or abridged Haru? you decide#that is genuinely SUPER close to how i picture his voice though. everyone forgets Percy is a lil monotone and intimidating sometimes#let him be quiet and brooding but his internal monologue is just ''LIFE IS LIKE A HURRICANE~ HERE IN~ DUCKBURG~''#the voicelines in general are also just. so Percy. its so perfect im so pleased with that one#anyways. throws this into the ether#i might remake this if i can find closer voices - feel free to throw suggestions at me#also might try to make one for other characters if i can find good voiceclaims for them
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