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sinsofthemind · 2 years

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#doom patrol #doom patrol spoilers #larry trainor #mr. 104 #its how i cope with sad things

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xxplastic-cubexx · 20 days

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sequel to this ramble cause the way james talks bout the reduced cherik scenes throughout the xmen films in this video is making me want to kill people. 'we'll always have paris darling' what if we all blew up.

#xmen #xmen first class #xmen dofp #xmen apocalypse #xmen dark phoenix #cherik #snap chats #im gonna be sick ive rewatched this like five times #IM STILL PISSED AWF AND THEN HEARING HIS COMMENTARY ABOUT IT OUUUUGGHHHH #OOOH WHAT IF I THREW ROCKS #LIKE WHAT THE HELL WAS CUT. aside from that gorgeous 'where are you doing' scene in first class ofc BUT WHAT ELSE #im forced to believe there was a make-up and/or hate sex scene in dofp because wdym they were worried about censorship #LIKE WHAT. WHAT DID THEY CUT. CAUSE CENSORSHIP OVERSEAS IS ONLY FOR EXPLICITLY QUEER THINGS INNIT #maybe paris can be our always i hate it here NO I LOVE HOW THE PARIS BIT IS EVEN /THEIR/ COPE #LIKE PLEAAAAASSE im throwing up. maybe if i draw cherik ill feel better #on the real its genuinely so sad. like even outside of shipping this is still art being reduced #and what we have is still good but the thought that it coudlve been BETTER ...#again their connection is already good from what we have in the final but just ... the lost emphasis of it all if that makes sense #ESPECIALLY outside of first class and dofp- like their relationship really is so sparse in DP and apocalypse its so sad #i think what makes it esp sad is how upset james is about the cut material like its so nice that hes so invested in their relationship too #and its just gotta be so. Excuse Me What when youre told 'hey so your characters cant having a deeper relationship or we're fucked'#'even though the relationship between these two is one of the most fascinating aspects of this generation of xmen films'#is it so hard to want to see like .. even just an intimate 'friendship'. like would it be so bad to see them be so heartfelt #or even just bein a bit silly. or hell ill take them fighting again ANYTHING I BEG YOU the humanity between them is so important #LIKE PLEASE im gonna cope and seethe forever i fear #and when he said 'i thought 'its probably the last time we get to do this to each other'' :((((((((((((((((((((( shoot me #at least we'll always have paris ....

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jils-things · 6 months

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to love someone is to heal someone

#~ art #♥️ memoryshipping #ignore tags if youre just here for the art and not me going full diary mode #anyways ... this is a little personal to me #especially with how i treat her here. i think this is a direct projection of how i'm feeling right now #today has been a little harsh on me - maybe a little painful even #i'm okay now - because i resolved it. albeit harboring some bits of anger to it but its not worth fighting about anymore #its hard to say that i'm - very optimistic so to speak because it's only one pillar i just jumped over and there will be more later #and this is me coping with it and im lucky to have mustered some energy to at least express it through drawing #i havent been drawing much for myself and it makes me sad because its my source of happiness #my time for drawing is being repurposed for other stuff right now and it still is and i dont feel entirely happy doing it unfortunately #i still have many things i want to follow up on my drawing list especially in my recent interests peaking again #but i resorted for now to making something im already used to. stevaide lol fgsjsddsjjsdjkghsdjgdjkhskjghshsgsasjhjsjksdjfhsfasgs corny ass #rest assured im at a somewhat relaxed state right now. throwing boops here and there calmed me down because theres people around me #who ig thinks im cool eajdhajhd #ahh anyway

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rg11 · 4 months

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Do u think Karkat and Jade share some sense of loneliness? With both of them not really being able to connect with other people for the first 13 years of their lives because of outsides forces (Being a mutant in Alternia and living in an island alone)

yea

i like to imagine they connect like that, just a small detail. its nice and really depressing, they turned out very differently.

though yes jades isolation is a bit more important (plot wise-ish) than karkats, but its still a very interesting parallel

With both of them not really being able to connect with other people for the first 13 years of their lives

i mean for karkat it was probably a nightmare, not being able to connect with anybody physically for years and just having to deal with yourself and just... with self loathing a part of it? yeah probably really lonely. though karkats life pre-sgrub is a bit more vague than jades, its kind of obvious that he didnt have any physical interactions (other than crabdad) due to the fact that he needed to be protected by well, alternias whole.. everything system. i think about karkats life pre-sgrub a lot, actually

and jade? loneliest girl on earth. she didnt really have anybody (except for her grandpa but .. You know. Dead. taxidermized. or after she was a toddler. i say 2 years old) and she was left on prospit wondering and the only time she was with another person was with a sleeping john in the other tower. and all the prospitians. but that was her main physical interactions (were not using bec because .. Dog. woof bark woof bark)

because of outsides forces (Being a mutant in Alternia and living in an island alone)

and thats the saddest part, it really isnt either of their faults for any form of isolation.

anyways sorry if i got anything incorrect or just kind of got things straight up wrong. its 1:20 am (as im currently re-vising) and i am too tired to correct myself

now i know this is more of a fully canon analysis. but i do want to give my opinions on how it would effect them after the game

using the fact in the credits that they do live together (with d*ve. why am i even censoring his name? because its funny) i think they would prefer to be close to each other. for karkat its more of the fact that i think he still would feel a bit sorry (not in the sense that he didnt feel all that sorry during the game when he was harassing jade, but i mean that the feeling still lingers from time to time) and would try to just stay near her to make sure shes alright

and jade would be near karkat because of the fact of their relationship during the game. i feel like after she did forgive him during the game she did get more curious. like the reactions he had with the passwords. probably just wanting to have someone around that was talking to her for so long and was bothering her while she was still alone, just the concept of someone who was bullying you for maybe.. MONTHS (i.e "CG: HI AGAIN, IDIOT.") (emphasis on again) .. YEARS?? (or on her part) is just.. near you. physically. it brings an awkwardness between them. from how they were isolated and bothering each other and now just... together ??? physically?? it probably is so strange to them . strange to me mostly but it is a strange concept in itself

but i digress this part, i just started rambling about it

#rganswer #its 12am i cant really put my mind to things im sorry #though i do think about how karkat made a secret in the meteor (alterniabound)#but then everyone dumped their shit into his room.. haha loser #but.. maybe im reading too into it but it could be seen as a form of coping (i do not want to use that word but it feels the most correct)#to just remind him of his life pre-sgrub #with how he bootlicked alternia? yeah he probably was taking it all in that he was just being reminded of how he just was stuck in his->#->hive to not get killed for being a mutant #i mean the fact it was 'to cope' feels like a bit too much of a read-in. he probably got in there just to calm down for a minute and get->#->back out #but jade? yeah she does not want to be alone i think thats obvious #yes she self entertains herself pre-sburb with well.. everything #she lives in the perfect place to be isolated #in your own little world to yourself #and a isolated island? its just like some classic fairytale #but instead of there being a prince you just kind of stay there #only communicating with some people online you've never seen #the best connections with humans #sad #isnt it??

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murmurmurl · 10 hours

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a modern human au where nothing bad ever happenned to them and they got to grow up together. I am making myself cry with this chat

#north is sad and beige and would have a stupid phone case #also i did a watermark thingy because im such a cool ans serious artist look at me #BTW !!!!! first thing im posting thats drawn on my new tablet :3 #north has beige mom energy. idk how i feel about it. im just leettinf it happen #yall have no idea i am SHAKING im so normal about them #i need to get to work on. everything about this. bc i really wanna finally be able to coherebtly tell their story #im very insane about them and THE THEMES !!!!!!!#ARGHHHHH #anyways #murl draws #murls ocs #oc #my oc #oc art #art #my art #artists on tumblr #whatever other tags there are #just you wait. i will make this into something coherent #ughhhg i cant. i need to cope ok #and its smth i myself made up wtf !!!!!#imagine being separated from your sibling who is your whole world at a young age and spending the next several decades being told theyre a #a traitor and eventually hunting them down only to discover that while you werw kept in a bubble where everything stayed the same the rest #of thw world has changed so much including your sibling and you realize the only person you could rely on these past few decades has been l #lying to you and now youre completely unajusted to life and have to deal with the fact everything isnt what you thiugjt it was AND EVERYRHJ #G CHABGED IT CHANGED !!!! CHANGE IS INEVITABLE AND YOU HAVE TO FOR THE FIRST TIME VE FACED WITH LIVING FOR YOURSELF AND DISCIVERING WHO YOU #ARE AS A PERSON HHHHHHHHH I CANTTTT.#i dont event have all the names for characters yet GAHHHHH

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halloweendeity · 16 days

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#horrible awful no good very bad day #apparently last night the apartment below ours caught fire and we were out of town #and we didnt find out til several hours later from our neighbor who had to track me down on facebook- we didnt hear a thing #from the apartment in any official capacity until like? 10 hours after the fire?#anyway we rushed home supremely early from a friend trip that was like #meant to be very good and fun #anyway so we rush home because no one can tell us if our cats are okay #and they were but our whole apartment is supremely smoky and all of our possessions are extremely smoky #and we cant stay there or let the cats stay there because of the smoke and soot and particles it just doesnt feel safe #so now im in my partners familys house which is like #fine but its full of people and i dont feel fully comfortable and i cant fully relax and and and and and etc etc etc etc #and tomorrow i have to wake up early and go over there and find out what if anything the complex plans to do about it and how long its gonna #be until we can come back safely. or more likely get more noncommittal answers and be unsure #and i dont know how long i can stay here and be normal #AND to top it all off i paid like 60$ to go to an aquarium i didnt even get to go to . but yknow. all of my friends got to !#and like im happy for them but no one was excited as i was and now i get to ruminate on how everyone got to do the fun thing i love #while i was stuck doing 17 loads of laundry and bathing the soot out of my cats fur in someone elses house #certainly it could be worse and im glad my cats are fine and im glad its just smoke damage and not yknow. Burn damage #but im having a sad little pity party anyway because i was supposed to have an amazing beautiful day ending in a relaxing evening #in my own home #and now i have to cope with all of this instead. all i want to do is cry #and also like. im scared we will have to move #but im also scared we wont... because like #i think it was a gas issue. and knowing that that happened in my building? and also knowing how much landlords love to halfass #repairs and everything else #i just dont know how safe i will feel there #even if they tell me its fine #anyway sorry for the tag vent post again my old ways will never die #ghost posts

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toastsnaffler · 1 month

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sorry for googling "is shadow of the erdtree hard" do u still think im cool....

#jk if u know me u know difficulty doesnt faze me i hope its a rl fuckin challenge #but just realised i prolly shouldnt start my ng+/2+ runs for all ending achievements until after ive played sote..#bc otherwise my first sote run will be on a ramped up difficulty. when the base dlc is supposed to be harder than the main game already..#and i might wanna complete it across multiple new games anyway if there are duplicates of stuff i wanna get hmm.....#well. in my current elden ring save i literally only have 5 more altered armor pieces to farm before starting ng+#so ill finish that. and finish upgrading all weapons to +24/+9. and then take a tolerance break to play a few other games #and THEN ill buy myself sote and play that and do the ng+ stuff after #also one of the main things delaying me getting sote was bc i thought theyd add new achievements for it which would lower my completion%#but they haven't??? so thats fine then #anyway i need to sleep. at least playing er has been helping me cope w how pissed off ive been again. we <3 violence #yaaaawn. sad i couldnt go to the gym tho i hope i feel better in a couple days time #i did go to work in the end which was fine lol. glad i didnt take the day off tbh #but yeah 👍#.diaries #also not being able to get any sote stuff yet is annoying me bc im using a spreadsheet to keep track of all weapons/armour etc #and i have virtually everything except a couple armour alt variants n the remembrances i didnt get first time. but my total percentages #are capped around 75-80% bc the remaining 20-25% of items are sote exclusive.....#thats an insane amt tho damn. sote must be fucking HUGE

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vaugarde · 7 months

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im not having a certified Misophonia Moment im just feeling a bit lonely about it rn

#theres always this nagging insecurity in me thats like. oh maybe its not real and im just faking it to be a jackass #bc i see so few people ever talk about it or how to cope with it #what actually prompted this was an ad on instagram like advertising these ear things for ppl with misophonia #and it just hit me really quickly like. i think thats the first time ive seen someone try to advertise an aid for it?#or just use the term misophonia #idk its like. validating but its also got me kinda sad #i feel like part of it is like the intrusive thoughts? idk if its appropriate to apply that term here #but like misophonia is legitimately agonizing and puts the worst kinda of thoughts in my brain i feel horrified at later #abd i get really heated actually trying to talk about it #so theres a lot of anger and desperation around the topic and i worry abt getting dismissed at best or demonized at worst #and thats not me putting the blame on us i just wonder like. how much people decide we’re not worth acknowledging over that #echoed voice

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buntress · 3 months

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lmao we got hate for being pro endo while we were gone, i just like deleted it bc like ✨ ew ✨ but how tf you gonna send hate to a completely inactive blog???? wild

anyways our stance on endogenic systems has not changed <3 if you dislike this, cope away from me. My opinion is firm and will not be changed by a hate comment from someone probably half my age. I gotta make sure my family can eat yo, I do not have time for all that.

#🗡️ :: personal #cope #seethe perhaps #besides honestly hate comments are fun #toxic af but like #it gives me attention and my bpd/hpd ass loves it #especially when its somethin dumb #and obvs theres a HUGE difference between hate and criticism yknow?#but the hate comment was basically saying how im not a safe space for trauma victims and all that jazz #assuming i was endogenic which nope #i am fully 100% traumagenic #some headmates stem from things other than trauma but the system at large is traumagenic #so yknow #i aint sayin i dont care #i care in the sense of “oh boy attention fuck yeah”#i just think its a sad thing to do to an inactive blog lol

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#me @ my youngest sister at 6.30 this morning: yooooooo can u draw me a fishy so i can get it tattooed on me?#i drew her some flowers so i want a paralell tattoo with her initials bc she has my initials on her #but i literally have not spoken to her since like may bc i do not talk to my sisters unless we r in the same room. no hate we just dont hav #a lot in common. it makes me a lil sad tho bc im curious abt them. my youngest sister is at least nice to me 😭#ive been thinking abt asking her for ages and last night i was asked abt my sisters so i was like. the time is now #while im still a bit elevated #which has been to my advantage bc i was able to stay v chatty and energetic while talking to ppl. and i think i made some friends #we bonded over fic reading. so theyre a bit. ya kno. girls gays and theys of science #we make the world go round. but its so interesting to hear them talk abt coming to school here bc they both liked where they were and r #leaving their support systems. and im like bruh if i didn't leave the southwest i was gonna die. im so happy to b here #support system? whats that. i talk to my parents once a month and that's it lol. but im gonna try to establish one here #and try to actually make actual friends. this school is way better abt making grad students interact #my last school was not at all like that. but anyway i had fun #and i mean im only at the start of the semester. and im in a good mood. and i kno things will get stressful #but im just really happy i got accepted here #and the longer im here the more clearly i can see how much i was suffering #the funny thing is tho that i wrote this last night and only hours later i was squirming in frustration bc the fact that im back in therapy #means i feel a greater obligation to not b actively self destructive. evil coping mechanisms my beloved #this is y my mum wanted me back in therapy bc im a goodie 2 shoes and when my counselor is like: did u do X the next time i see her. ill b #honest and itll b annoying >:-[ ugh #its just hard for me to b around ppl a lot bc i get stuck in mental loops bc ocd. which is exhausting. and i want it to stop #and i want to do bad things to make it stop but i wont bc im trying to b better #its just funny to me that ill go from everythings awful to everythings great i shoukd talk to my sisters and make friends and do this and #this and this. to oh god i cant do this anymore in such short time frames with certainty that how im feeling is how ive always felt #ive also noticed that my peaks of high energy do come before stressful events. which does make me worry for future stressful events. like #defending. i mean ive never gone fully off the tracks but its a lil alarming when it feels like the train is going at a million miles an hr #unrelated #meanwhile my other sister is apparently in Colorado but when i saw the pics is was like: YOU BITCH #R U CLOSE TO ME RN??? but no. Colorado is far away

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hecksupremechips · 5 months

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Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’#which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16!#he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’#so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident!#so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

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tokyoteddywolf · 6 months

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22 isn't very much at all, I think.

#5am rambles #anyways ignore this as per usual im just thinking in a post that i'll delete soon. i just worry and writing it helps.#you ever wonder when you'll “grow up'? and then realize youre not even fully grown?#that theres still more to learn in life and that the mistakes you make are just that? mistakes?#that you are still so very very young in a world that is so very very old?#im almost 23. barely a quarter of my lifespan. im still a child in a way- my brain not fully formed.#you ever wonder how many mistakes you can make before you figure something out?#I dont know much of anything really. that's the sad part. and the adults who were supposed to help me learn... didnt.#i was failed. and now im a failure. at almost not quite 23 years old. Maybe i wont be a failure in another few years.#i still have a while to go before I die. I'm not going to waste time thinking about it. im just going to try my best.#I have time. I can learn. Grace and patience are not endless but damn if i dont try to figure things out #first step though is meds and therapy tho. we're done with the pity party. some things you just have to accept are okay #cuz my whole life i was taught that being emotional is a weakness. its pathetic and stupid to be upset or angry about anything.#any time i wanted to show i was upset or angry i was 'wrong'. i was 'selfish' and 'dramatic'#so i suppressed and pretended i was fine. that i wasnt weak and pathetic. that i was good and not an annoyance or burden.#i am not weak. i am not pathetic. i am fine i am fine i am fine you dont need to worry about the inconvenience at your door.#sometimes the shame is so much that i cant look at myself or even think i deserve help. that therapy is for people with real problems.#that i feel like ill just be told im like this for attention or dramatics. that im such a disappointment and selfish too.#ive been a “problem” my whole life to the point i dunno if i CAN be fixed. that anxiety eats me alive every day.#therapy is supposed to give you methods to cope #i dunno if it'll work though. I forget my appointments a lot. i struggle to talk sometimes. i may be autistic but its hard to get diagnosed.#emotions are so hard to figure out.

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scattered-winter · 1 year

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LIBBY PLEASE DON'T DO THIS TO ME

#HOW IS A GUY SUPPOSED TO COPE UNDER THESE CONDITIONS (CANT MAKE A LIBBY ACCOUNT)#incorrect password/cardnumberWHAT DO YOU MEAAAAANNNNNNN ITS RIGHT I KNOW IT IS IM DOING IT RIGHT #WHAT DO YOU MEEEAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN #sadly pressing my face to the glass a la sad guy fieri photo......my gay dragon books.............#this is litcherally the saddest thing that has ever happened to me. ill never recover #winter speaks

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diteach · 11 months

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I worked 50 hours on this sweater and it's impossible to wear

I tried casting on a new project but even that isn't going well

I think I won't knit for a while

#teach says #failing at my favorite thing devastates me honestly #i always get extremely sad and cant stop crying for days #i just care so much about knitting #also that wasnt 50 hours because ive been swapping patterns since march and had finally found a good one #why do i get so emotional and how do i make it stop #its a torture #its painful as hell #and i fail so much #i really need a better way of coping with failure because this cant be healthy

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ask-knowledgekeepers · 2 years

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The Zoroark squeezed his eyes shut for a moment before he once again began nervously shaking his hand, occasionally looking back to Cel. He couldn't quite tell if she was sad or mad at him. Either way, he didn't like his teammate being upset with him.

He took in a deep breath in, finally finding the courage to talk.

Cel didn't seem to hear him, but he kept his voice low, and soft. Mumbling in an attempt to not be seen as aggressive. He didn't want to scare or upset his teammate further.

That got her attention, Cel instantly forgave him. While giving him a smile she trotted closer. Klaus didn't look at her however, he didn't want to. He assumed she was probably still mad at him.

He didn't seem satisfied with that answer, he sighed watching the ground as they walked.

"You should be mad at me..." He grumbled out his words. Klaus was still upset, but it was likely more at himself than others now.

-> Asks are closed

#storyposts #klaus opus #celeste nocturne #sad klaus hours #he feels real bad for yelling #he just doing his anxiety thing at the start dont worry about that #its how he comforts himself #klaus coping stats really be: Shake shake hamd or pet pet fur #these next few posts are going to be a little bland so warning #gosh darn it i keep forgetting cels markings #I gotta fix that sometime

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naughtynoodle056 · 2 years

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I wish I felt like I belong somewhere.

#negative #delete later #sorry im sad at 3am #i just. i feel so alone #being black and pan and nonbinary is not an easy feat #especially not in a red state #i constantly feel like an outcast among my peers #because since ive been on this hellsite for so long i know whats Not So Cool #(aka racism transphobia homophobia sexism antisemitism)#so i know not to like. be any of those things #but no one else around me does #they gotta screw up somehow #it's so fucking painful being closeted and having to just cope with people being openly transphobic at work #and then no ally coming to your defense. youre just alone.#but you cant say anything because then youre gonna be the weird snowflake that's easily offended #when really its like 'hey maybe don't treat that fat/disabled/trans/otherwise marginalized group like theyre subhuman'#and then feeling like ppl are just thinking youre overreacting #it's draining.#having to cite my sources to ppl about how monsters like JK Rowling are donating their money to hate funds is draining #hearing about that stupid fucking harry potter game is draining #i just wanna fuck off and be around no one (barring a few exceptions)#i almost never feel seen unless i produce the content myself #because a disproportionate amount of trans ppl i see are white #other black folks have a horrible rep of being equally bigoted towards other minorties like that's gonna cancel out the hate #ppl are still having the bi vs pan argument #idk. I'm just tired and depressed.#tumblr is the only place that feels like home to me.

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