#its 1 am i should go to sleep
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-The Immortal Protector-
I finally finish thissss. My first fanart for this fandom and it has to be for the most complex armor in the game. still my favorite tho
(for some reason I cannot reply to any comment, so let’s me say it here that every comments are appreciated! I’m glad you like my art💕)
#emmrich volkarin#dragon age emmrich#dragon age spoilers#lich emmrich#emmlich#first art of the year and it’s a skeleton#emmlich is like everything i ever want#its already hard to find undead character#who have more story than just being bad yk#im not normal about him#i want to touch all of his bones#tags are getting unhinge#its 1 am i should go to sleep
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guys i highly recommend to not accidentally think of a ship and not find any content on it i am devastated /silly
#regretevator#regretevator spud#regretevator pilby#what would their ship name be#spudby?? pilspud??#idk man#ill just tag both of them and hope one of them catches on#spudby regretevator#pilspud regretevator#spud x pilby regretevator#pilby x spud regretevator#its 1 am i should go to sleep#im gonna stop yapping now
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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier
#xmen#mcu#xmen movies#xmen first class#charles xavier#professor x#snap sketches#todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous#i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself#in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society#sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM#and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that#NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair#for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY#the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig#i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented#anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik#genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show#more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day#bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days
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Catch me gripping the universe with my bare hands. What do u mean u listen to intent and follow the spirit of the request to the best of your ability and don't monkey's paw the wording. What are you, kind??
#THIS IS JOKING#THIS IS LIGHT HEARTED#listen. i am used to divinity and adjacent entities taking things word for word#im used to loopholes in wording and poking holes in contracts#im used to fine print and conditions and all that gab#so sif going “oh i just wanna be there when bon reunites with their sis” or whatever#GETTING HIM STUCK IN A TIME LOOP BECAUSE THE DESIRE WAS TO STAY WITH EVERYONE ELSE#isat spoilers#before i forget#HAS ME SJBEKFJEBRKXUBENSHSVDBJFYDHSN#LIKE. UNIVERSE TOOK THE WORDS AND READ BETWEEN THE LINES#WHO DOES THAG#SOMEONE THAT CARES???#someone that wants to do right by someone even if theyll never know?#and loop-- dont get me started on that bitch#loop just wanted someone they could relate to#someone to understand them#and the universe really said “what if it was you but before you became you”#fucked up#i cant get the universe's angle#its clumsy and vauge#it tries to be precise i think#but things smear and blur together#theres nuance it must navigate#i dont know how it does#oh fuck this is long#uh#wish.txt#in stars and time#its 1 am i should sleep
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fuck timezones do you know how hard it is to talk to my friends when they have a different sleep schedule than me. i go to bed at 9pm and wake up at 6 to see notifications from my buddy from literally 5 in the morning. thats a one hour overlap of us both sleeping. there is not a time difference between us theres no reason for this shes just sick in the head and im a 75 year old man with a bedtime
#my other friend will be like hey if we’re hanging out tomorrow just call me when youre leaving so i get up#and itll be like. 2 in the afternoon. he’s literally nocturnal#i get a message while im getting all cozy in bed like hey man whats up because i go to bed as hes waking up because its a sick freak.#all my friends are vampires and im an old old man in my nightgown and sleeping cap with my little fuckin candelabra shuffling off to retire#for the evening#we hangout for one (1) hour and i go guys i am so sleepy i cannot do this#and they go nooo olease dont go to bed we miss you stay in the call one more episode pleeease and im already alseep#staying up past midnight is like medieval torture to me. its not ethical its not humane no human being should be forced to face such terrors
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GRAHHHHH I LOVE LYRA SMM. BABY. 🥹🥹
I decided to give her heterochromia because its BEAUUTIFUL and shes related to Kris in my headcanon book (its a very big book) (its not for sale)
Bonus doodles (marill is colored weirdly bcs i wasnt using reference lmao, also i have a new phone so my artstyle is funky)
#JOHTO HAS ME IN A CHOKEHOLD PLEASE HELP#i just. love these damn kids sm. theyre so sillies and scrunkles 🥺#still trying to figure them out tho. im getting there#its fucking 12 am and its almost 1 im going tl SLEEP.#pokemon#pkmn#pokemon hgss#trainer lyra#trainer kris#pokemon lyra#pokemon kris#celebi#marill#should i even tag gengar?? you know what fuck it#gengar#pokemon gsc#the core art tag
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Neath! quartet as roblox memes (i am not sure about some of these)
good night gays/j
#the stupendium#neath!#robert rackett#byron brimstone#cassie haversham#harry teller#tellerstone mentioned (neath!)#some of these are based off headcanons btw#so#you might not 100% agree with them#but#i will say that#images 1 4 and 5 are based off headcanons#and are the ones i am specifically not sure about#also#yes#tellerstone is indeed in the last image#he hates him cause he loves him okay#anyways#i should go to sleep#its 12am#and i have school#good night
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just quit one of my jobs and feel so guilty about it that I'm nauseous
#i should be able to handle this job because its only 8 hours a week but having to wake up at 7am 2 days a week like destroys my schedule#its just too early for me like by brain physically will not allow me to go to sleep and wake up early it makes me actually sick#and it makes it hard for me to be able to do anything the night before which sucks because i work til 7:30 or 8#then i have to get home eat do homework and rest before like 10 or 11 which i never am able to do so i end up sleeping at like 12 or 1#and i just cant handle it its too stressful#but i feel bad and like a failure for not being able to handle waking up early twice a week
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i ❤️ being up at the same time as you bc then i can be like nooooo barrys up (bc as long as one mutual is awake in massachusetts im still not awake too late 😌 )
dw barrys up its literally fine ❤️
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you still resent nancy and jonathan for getting together???? for “hurting steve’s feelings”??? despite the fact that he verbally supported their relationship like 2 hours after seeing them together. this from a season that released 6 fucking years ago. a season prior to him saying that he was NOT in love with nancy anymore. do you want me to call shawn levy and tell him of your dilemma. bestie do you need to rewatch the source material
#ppl will use ANY excuse to hate nancy and jonathan to prop steve* up#their flanderised ‘pwecious little babygirl’ steve who is a delicate little flower who’s still butthurt over his high school breakup#albeit s4 did completely surrender to this bs characterisation bc the duffers don’t know how to write a storyline for steve that doesn’t#involve him being a lovestruck loser nowadays. SAD#get me in that writers room i could give him something good thats not egregiously repetitive#funny that the post that sparked this was an ANTI MURRAY FANFIC?????? in 2023. bc him suggesting jon+nancy should be together was unfair to#fuckin STEVE??????#1) murray is literally a jokey funnyguy character. he’s a little guy it’s his birthday he makes risotto studies martial arts is a conspiracy#theorist who daydrinks and snores on airplanes. he’s SO unserious#if u want to hate on him thats fine good for u whatever but do it for. normal reasons. like encouraging teenagers to drink and have sex in#his bunker. like he was not normal for that i get it i used to kinda dislike him for that too but like. its literally not meant 2 be#that big of a deal. nothing matters there’s no point the show hasn’t been genuinely good for six years nothing matters go outside go to bed#anyways. happy 3 AM everyone im going to sleep love and what have you on planet earth#stranger things#nancy wheeler#steve harrington#jonathan byers#mine
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anyone who has ocd can you tell me what meds you have taken that have helped cuz like. i need to get back on meds but none have helped much
#personal#i feel crazy ocd rumination at nearly 1 am that wont let me sleep. even tho im exhausted#and i overthink everything and am paranoid of everyone and every interaction i have. and the compulsions paralyzing me#idk if i should see about re-trying the meds that didnt help in the past. idk if it would make any difference#butgod i cant live like this. no one really seems to get it and i often joke about my ocd downplay it but its suffocating#im going to try to sleep for thetime being. too tired
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I know you don't mean the American girl post literally probably but I just wanted to share my thoughts because they make me feel nice so maybe they can make you feel nice too :D I often like to find comfort in little details of places around me. So this just like a general rambling about nothing in particular sorry for traping you in my Ted talk
I used to think about being an American girl a lot too. The big bedrooms with so many things in them and a double bed and their own bathroom. Having your own backyard. School being easier. Your parents being rich even if by American standard they're not considered rich. Having a car. Going to one of the American colleges. That kind of thing.
But then I think this American girl has probably never seen a building older than 200 years. She dreams every day of walking just once down the street of the European citiy I've seen a thousand times. She doesn't know how it feels to sit down at a real Christmas table where there is no space left for a single more dish. Where the room is warm and smells so good and it's a bit loud with too many relatives around the table and you can't wait to open your gift that's waiting under the tree until you're finished eating.
Maybe she doesn't even know the gentle fall of the tree leafs over the cobblestone streets. She doesn't know the hum and rocking of an old train cart, watching the forest passing by in a blur. Maybe she doesn't know the pine forest smell and the sound of crashing waves and wind. She never went on a school trip to the mountains, climbing to the very top with your small feet and remembering the view forever. Maybe she didn't even see snow shining gently in the night like it's made of tiny stars.
Idk. Ok, thanks for listening. bye. I should probably go to sleep
speck that's so cute 🥺
tbf I don't want to be American these days, probably since I learnt that American Dream is not true. but also I don't want to be stuck in that type of thinking that they don't have mountains, school trips, families, and leaves falling in the USA 😅 just saying, cos those are very nice things that are not only European.
by my post I think I meant more of those ugly parts? I don't necessarily think that teen drivers are a good thing (I don't have a license still) and sorry, but I can't fully believe that chain itallian place actually has good bread. I just kinda wished in that moment to relate to those whose experience is considered "universal" by mainstream media. and to relate better to my mutuals? idk, it's a weird feeling not really rooted in thinking they have it better there, just that it's a whole world I'll never fully get...
#somone stole my wifi idk what's going on#but its 1 Am and i should sleep#speck <3#thank you for sharing your thoughts i really appreciate#doggie answers
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Recent misc pictures
#image 1 - sky of course.. beautiful clouds time. Image 2 - steak and scrambled eggs with a mushroom spinach sautee sort of thing#and an apple fritter (all cooked at home of course except for the apple fritter... still wishing I could ever get food out or have it made#for me so I don't have to do the effort of making it all myself.. it just tastes better sometimes when you're in a relaxed state eating#it rather than a 'just stood in the kitchen for 1hr' state lol). Image 3 - nice gray clouds with the sun through them.#Image 4 - 4 tiny gyoza type things with a tiny Diet Restriction Friendly size portion of iced coffee and a starshaped ice cube#Images 5 - 7 - these interesting flowers I came across whilst walking on a trail. I think the way they grow is cool. And that the buds of#them are so fluffy and such. Image 8 - 9 -- more stinky word counts... aughhh...... Trying to plan a full timeline of when#I might actually finish the game and I'm estimating currently like July 2025 as an insanely optimistic ideal and October 2025 as my very#late one. So likely somewhere in between. Or even later if something happens as things tend to do (computer explodes. etc)#Both are HOT months for oregon so I guess that's what started me off thinking and dwelling on the passage of time and the weather.. grrr#I wish I could be done with it tomorrow or something and then just relax and play sims all winter knowing my work is done lol#But I feel like the impending summer (as well as many other impending societally threatening things) give me too much urgency to be like#WAUGh i need to get this done NOWWW.. But I still wish I could relax and enjoy the winter a litttle. eugh... ANYWAY. I did finish the#discord for the game but I still don't know if I'll use that. I need to work more on the game itself and the itch.io page. But then also#I should probably talk about it or try to cultivate a small base of people (like a discord) who actually care about it and could become#future playtesters so I have that all ready well before the game actually is done so I needn't scramble at the last minute.. If I were#smart. and had social skills. and had energy (< has none of these things). So inevitably who knows if shall be able to muster any such feat#At least I'm getting like.. some words done.. some days. I am making progress. It's just never good enough considering the circumstances#(< looming instability and time passing in what feels like a very fast manner). ANYWAY.. lol... Image 10 - recent game of Price#Is Right Plinko Pegs my beloved game which I return to to play like maybe 2 rounds of once every 5 months... one day I shall win... Though#I'm incresingly uncertain if there even IS a last level. Or if its designed to go on forever/make you fail at a point to keep you playing..#Last two images - CLOUDS again. A very cloud heavy photo diary this time it seems lol#Also trying to: - post a few more costumes from drafts. - make new friend survey thing. - edit videos - make a sculpture. - set up#things to actually sell sculptures. - doctors appointments. - pack up things to possibly move before the summer to an apartment which#will still not have central AC but maybe at least is not west facing (so gets direct sun hottest part of the day and is a greenhouse)#Life is a constant revolving to do list with occasional sleep & looking at clouds in between.. (sigh)(pauses)(slightly more whimsical sigh)#photo diary
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#oh lads. its not looking good for my genomics exam on Thursday. its all fucked#i dunno. its just been a weird day. bc one of my lab mates is getting ready to go to the astr0biology science conference#and its just so wild how i got here. into the perfect position. i have a great advisor. a great phd project. a committee member who is super#integrated with n4sa astr0biology projects. and so many of the instructors are amazing. my genomics prof is terrifyingly smart#so is my advisor and his wife. and the program is great. ecology and Evolution. its perfect. its all perfect#and yet. and yet. it just feels like its all falling apart. ive lost that compulsive thing thats always set in my chest#and now all i want to do is lay on the floor and cry and sleep and not do anything. why am i so tired?#its just so frustrating. and im sure ive got the most wretched vibes bc im constantly like 1 comment away from bursting into tears#like 2 weeks and its done. then im off to find a summer job. and find a long term job. and consider throwing away everything ive ever worked#toward. just let it all burn. im so tired. and i dont get to see my therapist until Monday. thats gonna b fun#hi. hello. since last i saw you my life has crumbled into pieces. ugh. i just dont wanna fail this genomics exam but it looks like that's#where we're headed. maybe i should have just dipped out of these last 3 weeks. but no. i didnt want to leave the lady i ta for 100 lab#reports to unexpectedly have to grade 4 days before grades are due. ugh. itll b fine. i mean it wont but whatever#unrelated
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ouuughg I have G-Man drawing ideas but not the necessary art skill to actually do them. literal skill issue 😔
#artemis rambles#delete later#i have a whole ass sketchbook page full of written drawing ideas and my body is just like 'no. me tired'... fuck you too man#not to leak all my ideas but i rewatched arcane and guess what. im starting go crush on silco bc he reminds me of gman lmao#been thinking to draw gman in that arcane artstyle. problem is i cant . draw. in that artstyle#uhghhhhhh#i should probably sleep. its 1 am lol
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guys I'm very sorry if I'm so slow at answering asks, replying to messages, notifications etc
to be honest I'm overworked but more than anything my mental health is bottom low for real. I'm writing this so I can pin it. I come on here when I have 5 minutes but my social energy is generally very low. idk i forgot how to study and these last exams ever are being unbearable and my anxiety has become chronic since last year I guess. I'm very sorry if u see me on here and maybe I don't reply, I just suck at everything lately kfjhds I'll be back full force sorry again 💗✨
#it's 1 am I have to work tomorrow I CANT SLEEP look im genuinely miserable I think I should go back to some therapy after I finish this#if I ever idk#so sorry we can't enjoy afcon as I wished. also#sorry I haven't replied to asks about this or hakim etc it's just. its easier to watch some league games but to follow the whole of afcon#I guess I'm not able to at this time like sorry. If I spent less time crying over studying and actually getting work done I guess.#just exhausted I literally work full time
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