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spud-x-pilby · 10 months ago

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guys i highly recommend to not accidentally think of a ship and not find any content on it i am devastated /silly

#regretevator #regretevator spud #regretevator pilby #what would their ship name be #spudby?? pilspud??#idk man #ill just tag both of them and hope one of them catches on #spudby regretevator #pilspud regretevator #spud x pilby regretevator #pilby x spud regretevator #its 1 am i should go to sleep #im gonna stop yapping now

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xxplastic-cubexx · 1 month ago

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you open my Super Important Documents and its just pictures of charles xavier

#xmen #mcu #xmen movies #xmen first class #charles xavier #professor x #snap sketches #todays schedule has been ruined by my ever occurring need to practice drawing movie charles its horrendous #i started this sheet last night but then i kept adding to it and i keep wanting to add to it but i MUST stop myself #in an ideal world i get paid to draw charles xavier and erik lehnsherr but no i live in this baka society #sleepless charles WAS inspired by me starting this at 1AM and forcing myself to sleep at 4AM #and then here i am picking i up still later .... i need professional help i fear but i aint got time for that #NEVERTHELESS I THINK IT GOT IT NOW. I THINK IM OK. i think i know how i wanna go bout drawing him now ...#chat can i confess that like. .5% of the reason i barely draw FC charles i because of his hair #for some reason some demonic entity prevents me from drawing it easily i am in STRUGGLE CITY #the only thing that gets me is that whenever i draw him i can only think of the likes of a disney prince but man thems the strokes ig #i also drew a quick dark phoenix charles but i figured id just keep this first class oriented #anything else i want to say ? uh. hm. its funny i never do any of these sheets for erik #genuinely On My Life made One (1) sheet and was like 'no yeah i got it. i got it down'#literally not my fault his head is So Shaped and defined but anyways. this aint about him.#i mean it could be. i still wanna do a doodle page concentrated on drawing how his powers show #more specifically how do i wanna draw the glow cause i cant decide on it ... also i wanna draw the 'levels' ...#but thats for another time. for right now i should probably eat i havent eaten all day #bye bye !!!!!! here's to hoping i draw something thats not a doodle sheet one of these days

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wish-upon-the-universe · 4 months ago

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Catch me gripping the universe with my bare hands. What do u mean u listen to intent and follow the spirit of the request to the best of your ability and don't monkey's paw the wording. What are you, kind??

#THIS IS JOKING #THIS IS LIGHT HEARTED #listen. i am used to divinity and adjacent entities taking things word for word #im used to loopholes in wording and poking holes in contracts #im used to fine print and conditions and all that gab #so sif going “oh i just wanna be there when bon reunites with their sis” or whatever #GETTING HIM STUCK IN A TIME LOOP BECAUSE THE DESIRE WAS TO STAY WITH EVERYONE ELSE #isat spoilers #before i forget #HAS ME SJBEKFJEBRKXUBENSHSVDBJFYDHSN #LIKE. UNIVERSE TOOK THE WORDS AND READ BETWEEN THE LINES #WHO DOES THAG #SOMEONE THAT CARES???#someone that wants to do right by someone even if theyll never know?#and loop-- dont get me started on that bitch #loop just wanted someone they could relate to #someone to understand them #and the universe really said “what if it was you but before you became you”#fucked up #i cant get the universe's angle #its clumsy and vauge #it tries to be precise i think #but things smear and blur together #theres nuance it must navigate #i dont know how it does #oh fuck this is long #uh #wish.txt #in stars and time #its 1 am i should sleep

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kiddokori · 7 months ago

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fuck timezones do you know how hard it is to talk to my friends when they have a different sleep schedule than me. i go to bed at 9pm and wake up at 6 to see notifications from my buddy from literally 5 in the morning. thats a one hour overlap of us both sleeping. there is not a time difference between us theres no reason for this shes just sick in the head and im a 75 year old man with a bedtime

#my other friend will be like hey if we’re hanging out tomorrow just call me when youre leaving so i get up #and itll be like. 2 in the afternoon. he’s literally nocturnal #i get a message while im getting all cozy in bed like hey man whats up because i go to bed as hes waking up because its a sick freak.#all my friends are vampires and im an old old man in my nightgown and sleeping cap with my little fuckin candelabra shuffling off to retire #for the evening #we hangout for one (1) hour and i go guys i am so sleepy i cannot do this #and they go nooo olease dont go to bed we miss you stay in the call one more episode pleeease and im already alseep #staying up past midnight is like medieval torture to me. its not ethical its not humane no human being should be forced to face such terrors

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corethetrueidiot · 9 months ago

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GRAHHHHH I LOVE LYRA SMM. BABY. 🥹🥹

I decided to give her heterochromia because its BEAUUTIFUL and shes related to Kris in my headcanon book (its a very big book) (its not for sale)

Bonus doodles (marill is colored weirdly bcs i wasnt using reference lmao, also i have a new phone so my artstyle is funky)

#JOHTO HAS ME IN A CHOKEHOLD PLEASE HELP #i just. love these damn kids sm. theyre so sillies and scrunkles 🥺#still trying to figure them out tho. im getting there #its fucking 12 am and its almost 1 im going tl SLEEP.#pokemon #pkmn #pokemon hgss #trainer lyra #trainer kris #pokemon lyra #pokemon kris #celebi #marill #should i even tag gengar?? you know what fuck it #gengar #pokemon gsc #the core art tag

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jonathanssweatercollection · 1 year ago

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you still resent nancy and jonathan for getting together???? for “hurting steve’s feelings”??? despite the fact that he verbally supported their relationship like 2 hours after seeing them together. this from a season that released 6 fucking years ago. a season prior to him saying that he was NOT in love with nancy anymore. do you want me to call shawn levy and tell him of your dilemma. bestie do you need to rewatch the source material

#ppl will use ANY excuse to hate nancy and jonathan to prop steve* up #their flanderised ‘pwecious little babygirl’ steve who is a delicate little flower who’s still butthurt over his high school breakup #albeit s4 did completely surrender to this bs characterisation bc the duffers don’t know how to write a storyline for steve that doesn’t #involve him being a lovestruck loser nowadays. SAD #get me in that writers room i could give him something good thats not egregiously repetitive #funny that the post that sparked this was an ANTI MURRAY FANFIC?????? in 2023. bc him suggesting jon+nancy should be together was unfair to #fuckin STEVE??????#1) murray is literally a jokey funnyguy character. he’s a little guy it’s his birthday he makes risotto studies martial arts is a conspiracy #theorist who daydrinks and snores on airplanes. he’s SO unserious #if u want to hate on him thats fine good for u whatever but do it for. normal reasons. like encouraging teenagers to drink and have sex in #his bunker. like he was not normal for that i get it i used to kinda dislike him for that too but like. its literally not meant 2 be #that big of a deal. nothing matters there’s no point the show hasn’t been genuinely good for six years nothing matters go outside go to bed #anyways. happy 3 AM everyone im going to sleep love and what have you on planet earth #stranger things #nancy wheeler #steve harrington #jonathan byers #mine

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months ago

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#oh lads. its not looking good for my genomics exam on Thursday. its all fucked #i dunno. its just been a weird day. bc one of my lab mates is getting ready to go to the astr0biology science conference #and its just so wild how i got here. into the perfect position. i have a great advisor. a great phd project. a committee member who is super #integrated with n4sa astr0biology projects. and so many of the instructors are amazing. my genomics prof is terrifyingly smart #so is my advisor and his wife. and the program is great. ecology and Evolution. its perfect. its all perfect #and yet. and yet. it just feels like its all falling apart. ive lost that compulsive thing thats always set in my chest #and now all i want to do is lay on the floor and cry and sleep and not do anything. why am i so tired?#its just so frustrating. and im sure ive got the most wretched vibes bc im constantly like 1 comment away from bursting into tears #like 2 weeks and its done. then im off to find a summer job. and find a long term job. and consider throwing away everything ive ever worked #toward. just let it all burn. im so tired. and i dont get to see my therapist until Monday. thats gonna b fun #hi. hello. since last i saw you my life has crumbled into pieces. ugh. i just dont wanna fail this genomics exam but it looks like that's #where we're headed. maybe i should have just dipped out of these last 3 weeks. but no. i didnt want to leave the lady i ta for 100 lab #reports to unexpectedly have to grade 4 days before grades are due. ugh. itll b fine. i mean it wont but whatever #unrelated

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mchiti · 10 months ago

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guys I'm very sorry if I'm so slow at answering asks, replying to messages, notifications etc

to be honest I'm overworked but more than anything my mental health is bottom low for real. I'm writing this so I can pin it. I come on here when I have 5 minutes but my social energy is generally very low. idk i forgot how to study and these last exams ever are being unbearable and my anxiety has become chronic since last year I guess. I'm very sorry if u see me on here and maybe I don't reply, I just suck at everything lately kfjhds I'll be back full force sorry again ��✨

#it's 1 am I have to work tomorrow I CANT SLEEP look im genuinely miserable I think I should go back to some therapy after I finish this #if I ever idk #so sorry we can't enjoy afcon as I wished. also #sorry I haven't replied to asks about this or hakim etc it's just. its easier to watch some league games but to follow the whole of afcon #I guess I'm not able to at this time like sorry. If I spent less time crying over studying and actually getting work done I guess.#just exhausted I literally work full time

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pipthehuman · 1 year ago

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i cant sleep

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minhmynchi · 2 months ago

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(venting in the tags ignore this lol)

#minhmy.rambles #(i just need to shout this somewhere where my friends don't see so they don't worry too much about me)#but oh my god work just got worse for this week im already working every day but tomorrow (aka in six and a half hours)#i will start at 5am and end at 9pm aka a double shift bc my coworker tested positive and there's no one else that can work #just for tomorrow but the rest of the week ill be working 1-9 #which i hate even though im used to it night shifts are just boringgggg and takes up a lot of my time #which i already have so little of #my mom said i should clean my closet and i was going to tomorrow bc i wanted to play grandfest today but now i cant do that #bc ill literally be at work all day lol #and god its just so hard its so so hard but it could be worse. it literally could be worse #i cant be here as much anymore bc im so busy and tired i just draw when i can and drop them all here and leave #and i miss writing a lot but i have even less time and even less motivation and the more i work the more awful i feel #and i don't want to worry anyone like . i just don't #but its so difficult for me it really is #theres so many things i want to do but i cant do any of it and im so tired im literally so tired #like im not gonna end my life kinda tired i have a lot to look forward to. but work just really sucks and i am Tired #and i Like my job its literally the easiest and ill never have something like this again #but urghghghh. urggfhhghgh. death pain and suffering #if i draw more sif and loop suffering lol. this is why. i need to get the emotions out somehow and i don't want to cry over it #i cant cry bc i need to work i just have to keep my head up i just have to keep at it i just have to be strong and not break #i can do it i can.. i know i can i've been through worse #its just. augh.#ok done. sorry i rly rly should sleep soon bc of my 16 hour shift tmrw lol its past 10:30pm already

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stormbreaker-290 · 4 months ago

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Oghhhhhhh I need to sleep,,,,, but my brain is so full of things,,,,,,,,,,, ouhhhhh I wanna draw,,,,,,,,,,, but I am wayyyy too damn eepy to draw,,,,,,,,,hudhshusjshdsj

#i rlly thought i could sleep w/o a melatonin gummy smh😔#ouhhssjdjdndn this is the worstdhskcnjs #storm rambles #midnight ramblings #<even thiugh its already 1 am-#man should i pull an all nighter?#i feel like i should to fix my sleep shedule #buttttttt its not *that* bad #but also i feel like shit when it *does* get that bad #so maybe i should pull an all nighter before it gets bad......#but also im sooo fucin eepy-#but also i cant sleeeeppppppo #and if i take a melatonin *now* id still wake up late regardless #but if i stay up and accidentally fall asleep in the middle of the day my sleep would get even *more* fucked up #but if i *didnt* and it actually worked id get to go to sleep early and wake up!! early!!!!#oghhh but i dont want to #ghhhhhh but no i kinda do #oughhh the choice between melatonin or caffeine #man im too tired for this sjit goodnight

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maahtigor · 4 months ago

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There is NOTHING more upsetting as an artist than being halfway through a drawing and realizing that the pose is unintentionally suggestive. The girl is CRGYING HER ASS OFF, shes SOBBING, WEEPING IN AGONY AND DISDAIN, but becuase of the fucjass angle of the pose it looks like something completely different OHHHHHHH MY GODDDDDDDD FUCK MY LIFE i'm going to cry

#im going to have to redo everything from the start ......#WGY DIDNT I REALIZE THIS EARLIER OH MY FOD #its 1 in the morning im having abbreakdown becauze of this #this is sO FUCKING STUPID #what am i even doing #my ancestors were hunting in the depths of the jungle to feed their families at my age #fuck my stupid baka life #if this was digital it would take 3 seconds to fix it. but my DUMB ASS DECIDED TO BECOME A TRADITIONAL ARTIST INSTEAD #IN THE ERA OF TEXHNOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!! WGY DID I DO THAT #i should go sleep instead of screaming my ass over this on tumblr #thank you for everyone who read until here 🥳 you're a real one #maah's yapping sessions

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obnoxiousarcade · 5 months ago

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im thinking again

#ive been dealt the bad hand; the worse hand; the hand from the arm from the body #im just.....okay #Well aaaa its weird #nothing anyone says to me is to *me*#which is fair-- no one knows me. but i do wish i got it. i dont know #the passing of time is still my worst enemy #i love everyone so much. itssssssweird.#if youre following these posts and saw the last one: i think i am still gonna die soon. awwh man. i dunno #but i have no reason to go on truthfully and i dont feel like finding one #im tired and sad OK?#i do want an acknowledgement again #and if you're following these posts im going to do the same thing i did last time and talk to the three tumblr blogs:#1. hi. i really like you. i admit it. j think youre really cool and all. uh okay im supposed to ask a question so here; how are you? well i #hope. k dont know. i havent been reading up like i should be and as for the second blog im talking to here i also havent been reading up lik #e i should im very sorry. i will make that journal again though.#and third blog: hi!! i still have no clue how to do that one thing but youve really gotten me into the hypothetical idea of differences base #f off of like ...area. the thing you said about that one thing.! i javwnt been doing much about it but thinkin but you know thinkin is fun.#i do want to do reading on it but ive been very sad lately and i cannot be bothered #this is really fun talking to people like this. um #youre very cool blog one ive been becoming a big fan of you again #blog two.if you see this: i want you-- I'm sayin that to specify that I'm talking to you. but i dont. anyway: uh. oh no i forgot what i was #gonna say #okay here's to not talking to anyone particular:#i want to do drugs. its the only way ill be able to handle all this.but i... oh hey i have melatonin!!#hmmmmmm #idk #it just puts me to sleep and i hate sleeping cause im always having bad dreams-- both nightmares and just dreams that Suck-- but...... im #desperate.#okay im gonna take a normal dose and just keep it together i hope #I hate sleeping

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milkweedman · 1 year ago

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eating my dinner of one squashed heirloom tomato which i dropped shortly after picking it, sliced with salt and pepper on it, with chopsticks and while standing in the middle of my room

#was very good to be fair #i love tomatoes......#i am hoping my stomach doesnt reject it but anytime i eat anything it dedicates the next several days #to trying to kill me for fun #and now to get crossfaded perhaps. i got discount edibles but they dont have cbd which is perhaps what lets me sleep thru the night #rather then sleep for approximately 1 hour n then wake up in extreme pain and lay there until its time to go to work. still in extreme pain #least favorite part of my life right now for sure #was not worth the heavy discount #man that was a good tomato.....#im so fucking hungry rn bc i have not been able to eat for a While but also very aware that Eating Hurts #sighhhh. its fine. i am over it.#my sole pair of jeans is currently too loose to stay up. luckily my shorts have a drawstring #i should honestly just put drawstring closures on all my pants... so much more comfy

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streetdumpster · 2 years ago

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I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.

#uhm well anyway I hope everyone finds people and a place where they feel safe and loved #I'm feeling really emotional sorryy #basically. tldr; found the problem! trying to get better now through loving myself instead of hating myself #its been really hard. its going to be really hard. I feel like ive barely made any progress #I wish I had a therapist to talk about this stuff with. but I dont.#btw the uh root problem: finding out my mother was actually hugely abusive & I already knew my dad was #so basically ive been having to confront the fact that Ive been living a lie and my mother is actually deeply terrible as much as my dad #and my parents should have never had children & ive never had one single decent adult in my life #so basically uhm yea lol. I was born into dysfunction. I was never going to turn oit normal or okay.#so its been hard to like. figure all that out alone. learning I have ptsd and extreme ocd + dissociation because of them hasnt been easy #its made me so deeply miserable because I guess I assumed what my mom was doing to us was normal this whole time?#because I thought no. surely not. surely i cant have TWO terrible parents. I need at least 1 good one right?#but yea no actually every adult has hurt me in some way. and I was never going to turn out alright because #I am the king of obsessing and cycling over everything in my life #Im like. not okay right now but not being im in danger just because I wish I had someone to talk to about all this.#I just need to learn to drive so I can get out of here. I need to get out like #all these realizations have been really really heavy on me and ive been having trouble sleeping #Its been hard to process and I dont really know where to go from here. I guess I cant properly heal and grow until I move out?#idk this has been really long im so sorry.#vent #tw vent #tws ->#abuse ment #parents ment #<- in tags

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end-orfino · 1 year ago

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man it would be cool to have a long-term creating capability wouldn't it. wouldn't it.

#slight vent/rant below idk youve been warned #unsure of where i'm going with this because i know that im standing at the border of a deep hole #this hole being an issue i keep struggling wiht but i'm trying not to fall into this hole today at 1:30am as ill try to sleep soon #but man ough. does it feel like i should be working on something.#i always had that but i guess the fact that my partner is succeeding so fast strengthens that?#i know i shouldn't be and its something i'm fighting against with an okay success comparing to how it was in the past but i will admit i am #kind of jealous. i mean who wouldnt be?? its a normal emotion to have and yet it feels so bad. at least im managing it better now #i have to keep reminding myself that he's rushing at a pace way faster than normal. and just bcs i'm more in a normal pace of things doesnt #mean im falling behind #ehhhh

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