#it's not tourettes it's fucking something idk I just have tics

[metalsylvester]

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[glibble-glonker]

i also saw first now that you liked the 3rd hc list so i won’t include that

also i angstyfy it because im listening to billie elish rn she slaps

so here are proper Izzy hcs feat. my dyslexia and self projection

- Shs has a hat that says “this hat hides my lobotomy scars”

- Definitely wants to be like her sister to some level (whom i have said multiple times is scarlet)

- she’s a MASTER at hair styles, she just doesn’t always feel like doing them. But eats it up whenever someone asks her to do their hair.

- her favourite food is mejillones a la marinera y pan and her favourite drink is aloe vera water

- heterochromia

- can hold her breath for a crazy long time and definitely played mermaids in the pool when she was younger

- always a little late when it comes to typical teenage things like “hey you should start using oil on your skin to get rid of those stretch marks y’know” “no why the fuck would i do that it looks like i was struck by lightning that shits epic”

- i said this in another post but i think her and Heather used to be very good friends until Heather got a taste of popularity and then ditched Izzy. But yeah i think she was one of those friends that weren’t really smart but also very smart. “my mom said i had to watch my weight, so yeah i can’t have that.” “tell your mom to stop lecturing you about your weight, and tell her to lecture your dad cause i saw him on my moms couch this morning.”

- also her short hair slayed i just had to say that

- has some form of tics (tics not tourettes, i can make a whole essay on the difference)

- i had a dream once that her and ezekiel were neighbours by farm and used to go to a crunch together so im gonna add that too (idk man dreams are weird)

- VERY messy room

- distances herself from people that she’s close with (friends specifically) so that she doesn’t have some form of breakdown in front of them, and they end up thinking she’s insane and leave her.

- ^ i think that ship sailed but she’s a little slow 👍

- begs her friends to teach her how to cook. they mostly just reject it cause they know she’s gonna fuck up, but it’s mostly cause her parents had a tendency to yell when she made a mess or fucked something up. so she’d rather learn it from someone like Noah or Cody

- ^ i’m not a noco shipper i just think Izzy and Cody would be good friends.

- also her and duncan first met at a pistol safety course

- her friends definitely have to look twice whenever she falls asleep somewhere because idk she’s just not the kinda person you’d expect to fall asleep ykwim

- ^ like they know she’s a fucking human but they get thrown off when she suddenly gets tired like damn girl you sleep?

- she’s a floptok icon she just doesn’t know it

- duncan and izzy are younger sister older brother type shit

- ^ they both probably got arrested by duncan’s parents themselves

ALSO, i’ve done crazy research on psychosis for an english essay, and the things i say about psychosis are backed up by research from the international mental health institute

- ^ she’s not one to get scared and/or paranoid, but when she does it’s BAD, like she’s checking every cabinet, locking every door three times, closing all blinds. and sometimes her friends (i say friends cause what are the chances her siblings don’t already know about this) get scared too cause like damn who doesn’t get scared when their friends start checking behind every door while saying that someone is outside.

- “there are bugs under your skin” and she’s throwing herself off a boat she’s gone

Oh my god that’s a lot i think i’m gonna stop there

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OMG OMG AHHHHHHHHHHH HETROCROMIA IZZY AHH

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Been a while since I talked about my Tourette's gremlin but some new occurrences! I'm in a waxing period of tics ig bc I've just been GOING with them. Kinda really sucks so trying to look on the bright side and wanted to share some recent occurrences.

1. Mom and I found a new tic loop. (My mom is not diagnosed with any tic disorders but does have verbal tics, usually echolalia or like a call/response thing idk what to call it). I was playing with the puppy and was saying like "did you get got? You got got?" At that same time my mom (who was playing a game) says "Oh, I got mail". IMMEDIATELY Tourette's Gremlin goes "You've got mail" in the old AoL voice. Mom's call/response is set of and she does the little like notification jingle. Jingle set off mine again, which set off hers. We went back and forth for almost 5min before she was able to suppress hers and break the loop. Now though I'm getting the urge to tic "you've got mail" at random.

2. I swear my Tourette's gremlin is actively trolling me. So obviously I refer to him as a separate entity, and I often speak out loud to him (like telling him "we aren't doing that" "don't you fucking dare [throw food]" "are you pleased with yourself now?") The other day I was getting a bout of tongue clicks, which I usually only get 1-3 at a time but this was going on way longer. It wasn't painful or anything, just annoying so I say out loud "is this really necessary?" They stop for about 5 minutes, and then I get one more. This led to me saying "Alright then, sassy" which caused my mom to think I named the gremlin Sassy (we had a dog named Sassy). I told her "nope, its name is just gremlin." And the bout of tics came back... Maybe he does want a name lol.

3. I've talked about my older cat before in a Tourette's post, she's the one that trained herself to help my tic attacks. However my younger cat usually just ignores them. During the incident in 2, I was whistling as well. It's a semi-distinct two-tone whistle, think like the opposite of a wolf whistle (tbh, I think it's from Facebook messenger but I'm not sure). Anyway, I was doing the whistle and my younger cat came up to me, put a paw on my knee, and did a two-tone meow in the same cadence. She's mimicked before, learning how to almost say "hello", "yeah", and "no", but she'd never mimicked a tic before. I was so surprised it actually got them to stop for a bit.

4. We're getting some house repairs done and my grandfather was over talking to my mom. He said something about the ducT work, but my brain heard ducK work, and set off a "duck-duck". It confused him so much he forgot what he was talking about by the time we explained what happened, and he just kind of left. Later I was with my grandparents and my grandma was worried about a decorative duck she has up blowing away. Of course I "duck-duck"ed and grandpa goes "don't you know you're not supposed to say that? It'll trigger her." "Say what? Duck? Why not?" "I was talking about something and she heard that bird's name and set off." "Fine then, can I say water fowl? Make sure the water fowl doesn't blow away!" This is all in good fun of course, they like to tease each other and know I'm alright with my tics being used in it.

5. I think I mentioned before one of my weird triggers is fancy candy apples. Specifically the ones that are like caramel and chocolate with a bunch of toppings to make flavors (like rocky road, cookies and cream, ect). We went to a little craft show type thing and one of the vendors right up front had a big display of them. When this happens we always get me at least one (usually two), but we have to get it at the end or I'll be too excited and be ticcing the whole time. We got two before we left and, as expected, I ticced the whole way home. It was a lot of tongue roll tics (like rolling your Rs, if that makes sense). From my tongue hitting my teeth so much I ended up hurting it a bit and had to wait like 2 days until it was comfortable enough to eat even if I started ticcing again. It had to be kept in an opaque bag in the fridge so I didn't set off everytime I saw it 🤣

6. I'm currently in what I'm calling "jukebox mode" because I cannot keep the songs in my head IN my head. As soon as something reminds me of a song lyric, I HAVE to sing it a little. Some from today were "Oh the lights went out" 🎶when the lights go out in the city🎶, "that was a long fall" 🎶it's a long way down🎶, and "I've got mouths to feed" 🎶I got bills to pay and mouths to feed, ain't nothing in the world for free🎶. Also been singing Skip to my Lou, and I'm blaming airhead commercials.

7. I got reminded of a post I saw here, and almost developed a tic they have without ever meeting them or having heard it. (I don't want to say exactly what it is bc I think they read these and I don't want to accidentally get them started or anything)

8. Was playing Skyrim again, saw a skeleton, and immediately ticced "hello moto!" No idea why. I can usually find SOME connection but not this time. I've gotten that as a tic before but usually due to the commercials.

9. I've started ticcing "duck-duck" at jeeps with anything colorful visible on their dashboard. Who knows if they are actually duck-ducks everytime or what, but the gremlin says they count.

Thank you if you read this far! I can't really tell if these are actually entertaining or if I'm just looking for ANY light spots. It's been a tough few weeks, but fingers crossed it starts to lighten up soon. For anyone curious the songs were "when the lights go out" from Family Crest, "it's a long way down (to the bottom of the sea)" from I think the Longest Johns, and "no rest for the wicked" from Cage the Elephant.

I think the gremlin wants a name now though, so if you have any suggestions let me know lol.

[aslongasimhereyoureinvincible]

what are your neurodivergent headcanons for hq characters?

asdfjhgfds sorry this has been in my askbox for a few days ive been busy w/ Life Stuff TM but anyways ND haikyuu headcanons lets gooo

hinata:

ik bc hes Sunshiney and Loud lots of ppl read hinata as adhd, which i can deffo see, but personally i read him as autistic

hes extroverted and good at adopting introverts (kageyama, kenma, yachi, tsukki) but when u stop to think abt it hes also actually kinda bad at social ques and 'normal' behaviour?? i think ppl dont notice bc hes also rlly nice but hinata is actually pretty blunt lmao

his special interest is literally volleyball cmon now

its canon that he dislikes being in classes too long or doing homework bc he finds sitting still for too long difficult, both me and my autistic older brother used to get up and pace around our classrooms when we were younger

even though hes rlly athletic and has insane reflexes obviously, hes also pretty clusmy and especially bad at judging distances which to me looks like dyspraxia which is really commonly comorbid w/ autism

ive also read a few fics where he has tourettes syndrome w/ body tic and i can deffo see why ppl would hc that

idk hes just reads as autistic so well in my mind like idk why its not a more common take

kageyama:

this one is less of a headcanon and moreso just interpreting the text correctly; hes definitely autistic

like its my belief that furudate either knowingly wrote kageyama as autistic or like based his personality off of an irl autistic person they knew or SOMETHING bc its actually insane how well he reads as autistic

the lack of social skills? the anger issues? the deep special interest in volleyball? the just wanting to express your feelings/opinions but coming off as rude but not knowing how to fix that? middle school being a living hell? having that one family member who Got you? the high level of skill in one particular area? hes literally the texboox definition of autism

even the little things like how he files his nails and jokes go over his head and he accidentally insults ppl bc hes calling it how he sees it and how he basically had no friends growing up bc he was too focused on volleyball and how he struggles to smile on command like!!! thats autism babe!!!!!!

oh also hes dyslexic bc im dyslexic and i say so

ushijima:

same as kageyama i bet he was either knowing written as autistic or based off of an irl person who is

blunt as all hell, monotone voice and facial expressions, volleyball as a special interest, bad at social interaction, accidentally rude, the list goes on and on

like his whole thing about how his left handedness makes him different but is also a gift that benefits him in some ways? thats a metaphor for neurodivergency dont @ me

oikawa:

i hc him as having narcisstic personality disorder, not in the ableist reddit-user 'all ppl w/ npd are evil manipulative abusers' way but in the ' i have npd and know what it actually looks like' way

hiding massive insecurities by acting like youre amazing?? that fuckin marina lyric thats like 'i feel like im the worst so i always act like im the best'?? that was abt oikawa tooru and npd

feeling threatened the second someone as good or better than you shows up? fixating on one specific thing that you have to be the best at? those are npd as fuck traits

the way he can basically get along with anyone and adjust his play style to suit them but only has a few close friendships where he can let his true personality rlly shine through

hes literally so npd coded augh <3

bokuto:

i read him as adhd and having cyclothymia

i think he was unmedicated in high school and unknowingly had depressive and hypomanic episodes which affected his play

he also very much reads as having rejection sensitive dysphoria if u ask me

and the way he talks and bounces around and has All That Damn Energy gives me adhd vibes, esp pared w/ his poor volume control ad the way he ignores social cues lol

okay quickfire round bc im getting tired of typing

atsumu is autistic, so is osamu for that matter, theyre just at very different points on the spectrum and rub each other up the wrong way a lot of the time bc of it

kita is also autistic bc no neurodivergent person is that particular about doing things the 'right' way

hoshiumi is autistic and adhd

asahi and yamaguchi read like they struggled w/ anxiety and depression

sakusa has ocpd and ocd (contamination ocd specifically) and mysophobia

kyoutani has aspd, again not in a 'aspd = violent agressive psychopaths' way but in a 'i actually have a cluster b personality disorder' way, and adhd also

kenma is autistic and has social anxiety

yachi has social anxiety too bc cmon now

tsukki reads to me as having chronic depression, i think i could also make a case for him being autistic too ngl

tendou is some flavour of neurodivergent, probally audhd, probably some other stuff, idk but hes definitely not neurotypical

like hinata, lev reads as autistic to me even tho hes got that goodball energy thatd make lots of ppl read him as adhd bc like,, he just fuckin sucks at social interaction like he is accidentally rude all the damn time lmaoo

fukunaga and aone are both autistic w/ selective mutism and/or partial to moderate non-verbalness

obviously its none of my business and i think having headcanons abt irl ppl is Fucking Weird but i wouldnt be surprised if furudate themself was autistic bc truly so many characters in haikyuu can be read that way if u ask me, although maybe im just projecting lol

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Hello!!! I absolutely loved the fanfic you wrote.l for me. And I hope I commented that somewhere. If I didn’t do tell me and I will!

Anyway, if your not busy, I had another request idea for Toradeen?

I was actually inspired by your Tourette’s headcanon for them!

Basically, my idea is like. This is when before they were friends. And like. One of their loud arguments causes them to get detention or something.

the detention teacher or whatever steps out for a while to let them study or something. And Clawdeens trying to do her work but every so often she’ll hear like tapping or some noise from Toralei. She asks her to stop and it’s silent for a while. Then they slowly start up again. Clawdeen, who doesn’t know she has Tourette’s, thinks Toraleis mocking her or something. Or like trying to purposely be annoying.

she eventually snaps and yells at her to be quiet and Toraleis all like ‘I’ve got bloody Tourette’s!’ And Clawdeen just is like 😲.

anyway, yelling at her caused Toraleis tics to increase (cause as someone who personally gets tics from BPD/OCD anxiety can cause a lot of mine) and so her tics start to increase a lot. But she’s clearly struggling cause she’s embarrassed to tic really in front of Clawdeen. So it’s like this painful thing where she’s trying to repress them but they keep bleeding through and Clawdeen quickly has to give her a hug (cause some of her more harmful tics are coming out) and she like. Tells her to not hold them back and all?

Idk. Something like that. I don’t have Tourette’s myself so if any of that seems off do fix it to be more accurate. I just got my stims and tics from Adhd/BPD/OCD. So it’s not exactly the same!

Any way ! Have a great day!!!!: and thank you sm!!

Please do not repost on other platforms. This will be posted on AO3 and TTBC under the same username.

Great. Not only had Clawdeen and Toralei had to endure the embarrassment that naturally came after having a rough, public argument, but now they were stuck in detention together for causing a scene.

Once Bloodgood had told them the base guidelines for detention, she walked out, trusting them to not kill each other. For as annoyed as she was with both of them, she also knew they were both, at the end of the day, responsible enough to not need supervision the whole time.

Unsure of what else to do, Clawdeen pulled out a book she'd been reading and began trying to lose herself in that, hoping it would help her pass the time, but she soon found herself getting distracted by this clicking noise that Toralei kept making.

"Toralei, I get you're bored, but can you please try to be a bit more quiet?" Clawdeen asked. To her surprise, Toralei actually looked a bit sad, but silence followed, so she supposed it was worth asking.

Toralei felt like her entire body was on fire. She was used to suppressing tics, but it was always harder when everything was so quiet because then every little tic was noticeable, so she couldn't let anything out.

She felt a few bubbling up and felt the urge growing stronger and stronger and she just knew that she wouldn't be able to hold them in forever.

"Haha!" she ticced relatively loudly, followed by a string of clicks. Clawdeen looked up at her with a deeply annoyed expression and she just knew she was in for a ride now.

"Oh my god, Toralei, shut up!" Clawdeen snapped. "I don't know if you're trying to mock me or just purposely trying to get under my skin, but it's honestly really immature"

"Fuck off!" Toralei replied venomously. "I've got bloody Tourette's, okay? You don't gotta- Woo! Haha!- Yell at me"

Clawdeen went still, suddenly feeling horrible. The last thing she ever wanted to do was to snap at someone for something they couldn't even control. Hell, one of her best friends was Autistic. She really should've known better...

Toralei pulled out her phone to try to distract herself, but the stress from getting yelled at was making her tics worse. Worse, she was embarrassed, which had always been one of her worst triggers.

She tried to continue suppressing them, but they kept escaping her, driving her further into discomfort and embarrassment. Her campaign opponent was watching her tic and twitch without control and it was honestly the worst feeling in the world.

It wasn't long before this stress compounded in the form of a harmful tic, forcing Toralei to repeatedly punch herself in the collarbone well after she could feel it start to bruise.

Clawdeen just watched her struggle, feeling awful about making it worse. However, once she realized the girl was actually hurting herself, she sprung into action.

Clawdeen got out of her seat and walked behind Toralei, who would've asked what she was doing if she could focus on her surroundings. Suddenly, the werecat felt a pair of arms wrapping around her, and a hand specifically came over her collarbone to protect her from the repeated hits.

"What are- Haha!- What are you doing?"

"It looked like you were hurting yourself" Clawdeen replied simply. "I don't like you, but I still don't want you to get hurt, especially cause I'm pretty sure this is my fault" she sighed. "Look, I'm sorry for yelling at you, okay? I didn't know about this, I just thought you were trying to annoy me"

"Okay"

"You don't have to suppress this, at least not around me, okay? I know better now"

"You're sure?" Toralei asked, and Clawdeen was caught a bit off guard. The girl looked so embarrassed, it was weird. She always just seemed like a beacon of confidence.

"Yes, I'm sure"

A moment passed before a low grunt erupted from Toralei's throat. Neither girl said anything about it. Her collarbone tic was thankfully beginning to calm down, and Clawdeen let go of her once she was sure she wasn't at risk of hurting herself anymore.

She went back to her seat and continued reading her book, just tuning out the occasional grunt or click or random phrase, which Toralei couldn't be more relieved about.

Once Bloodgood returned, Clawdeen noticed the other girl immediately start suppressing again.

Huh, she thought, eyeing the other girl curiously. Wait, does she trust me?

[hidingoutbackstage]

I hate being an undiagnosed adult I hate it so much because literally every source I try to research from is like “Okay so is your two-year old son exhibiting symptoms?” and everything info about adults is stuff from random people on the internet that I can’t fact check

[rosrets]

what are these shadow ideas you speak of 👀

you have no idea what you've just wrought. sorry in advance but no i’m not

SHADOW TIMELINE. i catalogue this in my mind when i draw him because i’m fucking crazy but i decided to draw it out because the doctors needed more reasons to lock me the hell up. this is essentially going to be me rambling about all my design notes for whenever i draw him + whatever else the fuck because i like to think about him existing a lot and pray for the day we get an actually good shadow spin-off (this will never happen)

baby shadow - was let out of his tube when he was about 10-12 years developed - lived on the ark for 5-3 years with gerald and maria and whatever other scientists were around. - he was totally nonverbal for a while and took classes to learn how to speak, this was great for the scientists though because the biolizard shockingly failed this . shadow was just autistic - really nervous and did not have a lot of confidence for the first like. year of being alive he hated being alone and always clinged onto whoever was closest to him

ark shadow - much more confident after getting closer with maria still quiet and fairly reserved but was not above playing some pranksandjokes. a bit of a trickster - chest fur, claws and quills maintained by maria. she liked cutting his chest fluff into a heart - rarely wore his air shoes on the arc because the sensation of  metal + metal sucks and he wasn’t supposed to skate in the hallways. sometimes wore socks when his paws got cold (often) sa2 shadow - garbage memory. turns out being frozen for 50 years does wonders for brain function - fur is more unkempt, has stopped maintaining himself - extremely bitter and cynical, not an outright asshole though and is not above friendly rivalry even if he’s trying to kill the guy he’s racing. he is also incredibly trusting and loyal, struggling to see when he’s being used (ref. eggman, rouge to an extent) - considerably more smug, all he really remembers is maria dying and the fact that he’s the ultimate lifeform but he doesn’t brag and still keeps to himself. - development of the autism scowl begins - once he remembers everything he very quickly regains his senses, developing immense respect for sonic as an equal, as well as a strong sense of selflessness. promptly fucking dies. heroes - shth05 shadow - doesn’t remember fucking anything and is almost constantly on the verge of like 4 different identity crisises - quills got burnt off falling from earth, as well as an ear shredded when he fell into a tree or something idk. he was put in stasis before it could heal which permently fucked it up - still not maintaining himself - eyes wide and full of wonder. still extremely gullible and easy to manipulate, very trusting. (ref. eggman, black doom) - hardly speaks (more talkative in shth05 though) 06 - onward shadow - remembers everything and its extremely overwhelming but he’s dealing with it - most reserved he’s ever been, very distrusting, rarely lets himself gets close to others and the only people he allows himself to drop his guard down around and be a bit more playful are rouge and omega. rarely sonic but this is only ever heat of the moment and never intentional - hates physical contact, easy to overwhelm if he isn’t focused, autism scowl in full force - very hygienic but still a bit overgrown - newfound fear of attatchment and loss, tends to avoid it at all costs, tending to push people away. still fiercly loyal to those who do gain his trust even if he’s garbage at showing it and prone to focusing on the wrong things extra - brown eyes. they look red or orange under some light. blame sonic prime - he still has tourettes i wasn’t bluffing on that but i don’t think anyone thought i was. his tics are usually pretty subtle and only team dark knows about it - prefers fingerless because he likes to be able to feel the earth directly when he touches the ground. something about chaos power + sensory issues - paw pads glow green any time he’s using chaos power (chaos control, super shadow, etc) - he motified his shoes a few times just to fit slightly better. this is only a note because i keep changing the way i draw them - almost always some kind of tired but insists he does not need to sleep that often because of how his chaos energy works. thjis is NOT true he’s just stupid and has nightmares that he doesn't like to deal with - lives at the casino rouge had in sonic battle - still has a really bad memory from being repeatedly frozen - really fond of snack foods. will rawdog an entire pack of saltines in under a minute if you don’t stop him - prefers skating even despite the speed because the shock from running is overstimulating - hates loud noises but still thinks guns and motorcycles are really cool. he can handle it if he’s the one making the noise - semiverbal . does not like to talk . there are several reasons for this - have i made it clear enough that he’s autistic?  he’s autistic BONUS - super shadow

- stripes flare out to look more like stars (this applies when he takes off his inhibitor rings as well) - red gets much brighter, eyes glow red + yellow - unstable in this form, it does not come very naturally to him and exhausts him quickly. not able to  maintain it as long as sonic

[losersclublol]

today’s thought is stan with tics/tourette’s bc i have them too and my favorite hobby is projecting

(also i’m making this fem losers bc fuck you)

has bird call tics 200%

no bc they’d be spot on, they’d come out whenever she sees the bird the call belongs to

losers: “hey stan what bird is that one?” stan: “*aggressive whistling* nightingale”

i feel like she’d have coprolalia and it would pop out at the worst times

“miss uris, billie can do her own work but thank you for offering to help” “fuck off bitch, she’s stupid, sorry”

she’s get really frustrated bc of them, sometimes they mess up her work or knock something over a lot or make her hit herself. shits really annoying

losers would be great at comforting, they’d help clean up whatever fell over, get her ice packs and plasters(bandaids) y’know good friend stuff

h u g s

every time she hugs someone her tics hold on for dear life, the losers love it and always treasure it cause she’s not normally a hugger

they try and get to play games like uno as much as possible cause she always tics what cards she has or is going to put down

beep beep tic

richie hates it

i want her to have a hand chop tic from eddie, so she does

eddie will be ranting about richie or something dumb idk and she’ll do the wee hand chop

causing stan do also do it

“no because that was stupid and dangerous !*hand choppy* do you know how hurt you could’ve- stan stop mocking me”

“i’m not trying to dickwad *hits hand too hard* ow, that’s your fault”

“how is it my fault??”

richie unintentionally gives her soooo many tics. like they’ll be having lunch or something,

bill: “what have you got today, stan”

stan: “eddies mom *aggressive wink*. a sandwich”

when she has tic attacks richie knows how to get her calm the best

(shit is exhausting honestly they suck)

“you fucking bastard man *flips richie off*. sorry” “no it’s cool, there’s nothing to apologize for. you’re right”

every single time she has a drink that’s open at the top/not got a lid she spills it

the losers have to either hold her drinks for her or she needs a water bottle to put her drink into

they got her a sippy cup as a joke but it’s genuinely helpful jsjsjs

mike is on ‘she might fall so catch her lol’ and ‘she’s gonna hit bill in the legs again, god bills gonna eat shit, miiiiike help’ duty at all times

biting tic

not a full bite that will hurt but it’s a big enough bite to scare eddie

“SHE FUCKING BIT ME” “1. I OBVIOUSLY DIDNT MEAN TO AND 2. YOU WELL FUCKING DESERVED IT”

she has a wee kissing tic too, like a wee smooch, to the air mostly. but one time she kissed mike by accident, they both kinda stoped and malfunctioned for a while, then just went back to what they were originally doing

(the both of them were gay panicking for days on end tho bc stanlon rights)

has punched richie on multiple occasions

actually it’s every time they see each other

it never ends fjjdjdjd

but this post does !

[zodiyack]

Michael Langdon + Brahms Heelshire with a S/O with tourettes would include....

Requested by anon: Hii, could I request how Michael langdon and Brahms heelshire would handle a s/o with tourettes please?

Pairing: Michael Langdon x reader, Brahms Heelshire x reader

Warnings: Swearing, me not knowing much about tourettes, fluff?, me not proofreading

Note: Like I said in the warnings, I don’t know a whole lot about tourettes, and also I apologize for not posting for a bit, I got a little busy and had some struggle with writer’s block but I’m back!

Taglist: @matth1w​, @redspaceace​

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Michael Langdon

It depends on how comfortable the two of you are with each other, aka, how much he likes you, ...you get it-

Now, introducing, the protective bebe.

it’s cannon, okay?

Michael despises when others are mean to people he loves, and you are no exception when it comes to this man’s heart

this is cannon too, but still

Someone making fun of you?

They can face the wrath of Michael fucking Langdon thank you very much

Young/Grunge Michael would definitely make sure you’re okay if any tics cause him to think otherwise

he doesn’t know much about tourettes

so basically, he’s just really confused

Outpost Michael would see if you’re okay but for a different reason

He knows, he’s known, y’all are just in a new environment with far judgier people

not that they’ll live to tell the tale if they so much as make a peep about it, especially if they’ve been warned beforehand

F&R Michael would take you to meetings, right? But if you said you were too uncomfortable with doing so, there’s two options

One, he takes you anyways and comforts you, telling you it’ll be alright

Two, you do indeed stay

But if he does take you, he keeps up with his promise.

One of your tics show and someone looks at you funny/whispers about you?

Just as I’ve said before, they aren’t going to have the best time

Michael probably calls them out in front of everyone eijroge

our two favorite crackheads are no exception to that either

When you two are alone, ya know- when Michael is the softest, he likes to show you how much he loves you, how your tourettes doesn’t bother him

You can take that any way you’d like-

If you’re nervous because of your tics, he’ll hold your hand and smile at you reassuringly before putting up his stone faced barrier

If you ever start crying because of your tourettes, he’ll be on that right away

hugs, whispers, hand holding, whatever you need that he can do

he won’t care if he does it publicly?? (idek)

to word it correctly- the judgy people can kindly fuck off if they’d like their heart to continue beating in their chest

He’s patient about it

if a tic happens while he’s talking or something, he’ll wait and then continue

or if you don’t like it when he waits, he’ll just continue what he was doing

makes sure he knows/asks what makes you comfortable and what doesn’t

decides to study tourettes after you two begin dating

tries to use his newly-gained knowledge to his advantage

will ask you if he’s not sure

but he tries his best not to ask because he doesn’t wanna bother you about it

You’re his queen/king; if you get made fun of, like I said at the beginning, he takes it as a personal-offence

Kind of like... you get hurt, he gets hurt, that kinda stuff

cute tics (I know some people have cute tics, but yeah idk)? he adores them

loads of cussing from tics? grunge Michael finds it hilarious, other Michael stages may find it amusing just don’t show it

facial tics? Michael will be confused until he learns more about it or until he’s spent more time with you

other tics? pretty much the same reactions

he either adores them, finds them amusing, or is confused until he has more context

no matter the tic, one of his main rules is that no one, and I mean no one, can make fun of your tourettes

or you in general cause more canon shit

Brahms Heelshire

Because he doesn’t like you leaving, he gets to experience it all for himself

Finds it interesting with the, as previously said in other headcannons, child-like energy

If he does mimic your tics, it’s cause he finds them amusing, however, if you tell him to stop, AND IF HE LIKES YOU ENOUGH, he’ll quit

He wants to see/hear all of your tics

like, all

You repeat words? He may or may not take advantage of that

unlike some slashers who definitely would get you to repeat words

naughty Billy is def one

ok i’m done lol

...but it’s true

if you do somehow have people over and they make fun of you, he, just like Michael, will make sure they never do it again.

Of course, Michael might be a bit merciful than Brahms, but whatever

before you discover him, he might make a habit of watching you, if you have any physical tics, from the walls

okay so maybe “might” is a bit of an understatement, like he’s gonna watch you either way, but the point is that he finds amusement in watching any tics 

watches you with fascination

“child-like” fascination if we’re being specific

just like Michael, will take any insults, directed towards you, personally

that delivery boy who laughed and made you nervously ask him to leave while nodding with an uncomfortable fake laugh?

hope you don’t mind getting a new guy for your groceries, the last one is a bit... held up

basically, he loves it, no- no- adores your tourettes, but you’re have to make it VERY clear what’s okay and what’s not okay

hint hint: you’re gonna have to repeat yourself about 100 hundred times if you don’t nail that parent-like-authority voice

I don’t know much about tourettes, but yeah- I tried... hope you liked it!

[megagrind]

Well, today’s the fucking day…

[wern]

i always have a certain small tic that i perform, and it stays for like weeks or months and then eventually changes to a different tic. i've had a blinking tic, a throat clearing tic, short phrases etc.

for the past couple months my tic has been saying the words "im going to fucking kill you". i just need to say it every so often when something triggers it. obviously this is a lot more inappropriate to perform in public than other tics, so ive been pretty effectively suppressing it whenever im not alone in my house (idk how my upstairs landlord feels about this but it's probably like what strangers feel when they hear my dad's severe tourettes with coprolalia)

anyway im genuinely so done with this tic, and today a couple times when i would have normally had to suppress saying those words i had a small head-shaking tic instead. idk if it has anything to do with all the mental effort ive been exerting trying to get this tic to fucking shift already.. i think the fact that im uncomfortable with it may have actually made it hang around longer. here's hoping im not jinxing it by saying this lol

[tic-loud-tic-proud]

I'm super sorry to bother you, but I don't know where else to ask. In the past week I just started to twitch, jerking my shoulders, legs, arms, neck, head and especially my hands. Sometimes I clap them, or wave it. All out of nowhere. I did had some of these very mildly on and off when I was between 13-17. Even a few vocal things. I don't know why I have it again, or why it's so bad now. Before it was very ignorable. Weird for me and others still. (1)

(2/3) But now, idk. (I’m 19 btw, so pretty old for all this. My mum is getting angry at me, saying it’s just for attention. I’ve tried to hard not to twitch, but it only works so long,, and it’s uncomfortable and weird and I just kinda blow up with twitches after a while. I haven’t had to go to school so far, luckily I have holidays, but I gotta go next week. I don’t know what to do. Things were starting to get better. Should I go to a doctor? Or try to wait this out?

(3/3) I even started to clap and slap myself sometimes, like on the hip and legs…. I’m so confused. What if I am faking it and I don’t know it or something. I feel so bad. I’m scared it’ll get worse and I even do some vocal things. I have shouted/hissed fuck a couple times, without me knowing/intending to, I don’t what that to be a thing. I don’t know what to do, I am so sorry for bothering you. But I feel so lost right now.

Hello, really sorry that you’re going through this right now. some things I would like to say to you-

You are not faking. Fakers know that they are faking and are doing it actively, (and Tourette syndrome is near impossible to fake.)

You are not an attention seeker. Most people feel this way because of internalized ableism.

This is not your fault. Tourette syndrome is a neurological disorder, it’s in your brain and neurons.

About self-injurious tics- I’ve had a lot. If you can, try not to hit a tendon and hit with your palm instead of fist.

Therapy- cognitive behavioral therapy (cbt) or comprehensive behavioral intervention for tourette (cbit) are the most commonly used. It’s expensive, but if you can afford it then it is very useful. I don’t have coprolalia, but I’ve heard of people learning to tic something like “truck” instead of “f***”, which is a small difference but helpful.

Doctors- Based on the messages it looks like either your parents are refusing to take you to a doctor, you can’t afford one, you want to try medication, or you need to get a diagnosis. For medication, most are expensive, and for me I’ve tried like 5 and none work. And getting a diagnosis takes a long time, but it’s such a relief!

Tic suppression- Suppressing tics is super hard and causes even more tics later. In my opinion, you should only suppress tics if absolutely necessary- like if you’re cutting an apple and have wrist tics.

Dealing with parents (and ableists)- I have articles linked here,* here, and here. that explain this better than I can. (*I do not support Winter Tashlin’s blog, especially his NSFW content.)

I really hope that your family learns to accept you and that you can learn to accept yourself. Best of luck to you!

[angryturtledragon]

My mom talked to me earlier about how apparently girls are developing tics from watching tik toks of other people with Tourette’s. Have we considered maybe - just MAYBE - that people are showing more signs of tics and other mental health disorders etc bc of the fucked up year and a half we’ve had? Like this entire time has been spent 1. Inside. 2. Online. 3. Alone. And idk how to explain to my mom it’s not necessarily that my generation is obsessed(!) With media. It’s that that is all we’ve had in terms of connection for the past year and a half. Not to mention a large portion of time was forced online school. Like you can’t claim we’re obsessed with something when we are quite literally dependent on it by the system. If I had to choose how to spend a years worth of schooling and friendships I would never NEVER ever choose online over in person. And I’m pretty introverted but I still need interaction and what’s worse is I forget people exist (!!!!) when I don’t see them often enough

[bvtterflysystem]

Hey so yeah I have head/neck twitches so bad I give myself concussions while sitting in my bed so i feel you. What helped me was, no joke, magnesium glycenate. It's an otc vitamin, you can get it almost anywhere with a vitamin/health section. I take 400mg every night. Would also suggest talking to your doc about a med like clonazepam or risperidone or guanfacine something similar. I've heard pimozide brings people from 1000+ tics a say to just a couple if any, but also heard it makes you hella depressed.

One other thing that worked for me too is to mentally or verbally tell your tics to "fuck off! Stop! Stop it stop fuck off!!" etc. i mean it, seriously. It's a satisfying word to say and linguistically is great for releasing anger/pain bc of the pounts it hits in your mouth and idk why but it really does help in a weird way i can't explain. Like brings it to a full stop for me like I'm scaring them away. I have severe tourettes (see: frequent concussions) and ocd and adhd and DID, quite a combo, so i feel you and I'm sorry this is happening. It hurts and it sucks. I truly hope you find something that works. 💫

So we have a new problem

And I feel okay with kinda vaguely asking advice because it’s not entirely mental and even if it is I don’t know enough about it and am happy to be corrected

We have always had little facial tics all our life as far as I know

But recently, they’ve been getting a lot worse, and more complicated?

I’m now making popping noises, brr noises and hitting my chest or snapping my fingers, all out of my control and no other alter does these things as far as I know

So basically help? We know it’s tics because it’s completely involuntary, and can be surpressed by good concentration for a while, but kind of “explode” after.

Open to any info regarding tics like, at all.

It’s really annoying and I’d like to be rid of them if there is a way.

[lordscab]

What do you do when you feel like you’re back at square one again. Having break downs every night. Stressed out of my mind. Not being able to sleep at night. Tics and compulsion episodes creeping back in.

Something I struggle a lot with when it comes to my boyfriend and I is how we don’t talk. He doesn’t talk about his feelings. He’s the kind of listener that doesn’t know what to say or how to relate. It’s very hard because sometimes when I tell him about my break downs, he laughs it off and asks if I’m ok. And that’s it. That’s the whole discussion. Nobody let’s me talk. Only one person does and it’s great but I don’t want to over load her with anything either. I try to go to other people. An old friend from Texas that comes to me with problems all the time, and gets mad when I don’t help him. I say one this about me and he goes “sorry bro”. Then another old friend. She doesn’t even bother texting me back. My boyfriend is bad. I don’t feel safe with any therapist I’ve gone to.

I’m fucking struggling right now and I feel like I’m expected to work 40 hours a week, to get my license asap, to do all these things for everyone. Why can’t I just be me and work on myself and do things I want to do. I want my license, but bitch I’m so anxious. Then I’m still wrapped up in a court case I don’t even want to fucking be a part of anymore. I’m expected to keep working on my art even though all I do is work and sleep. And then I’m putting all my money away for top surgery, and although everyone is supportive, I can’t help but feel like people are also peeved that I’m so broke all the time. And on top of all that I’m also **trying** to go to the gym.

No fucking wonder I went back to cigarettes.

I’m so sick of everything. I tried to be okay with not being diagnosed. I fucking tried. It hurts because I feel even more alone. I do’t know what to believe. I bring up that I think I’m autistic or have adhd or something along those lines and EVERYONE shuts me down. Including therapists and psychs. Idk??? Nobody even acknowledges that I’m anxious and depressed either?? My whole fucking 4 years of therapy and medication nobody has diagnosed me. That fucked. I’ve been medicated and nobody would diagnose me. I HAD SEVERE TOURETTE LIKE SYMPTOMS FOR 2 YEARS. IVE BEEN HOSPITALIZED TWICE FOR IT. and ALL The professionals IGNORED it. I had take MYSELF of my meds to see if my meds were what was doing it. And nobody supported me for a while there. I got off the meds and fucking LOW AND BEHOLD. TARDIVE DYSKINESIA. MEDICATION INDUCED TOURETTE LIKE SYMPTOMS. only 5 recorded cases from like 2001. To be fucking honest I’m fucking traumatized from that part of my life. To know that it could have been stopped the moment it started. 2 years of pain and suffering and humiliation and bullshit. And I was the only person smart enough to realize I was being sedated, everyone thought that was the best life for me. Sedation. What the fuck. What am I suppose to do. I’m not looking to latch onto and label to have a pity party. I’m looking to find out why I am the way I am. My paranoia is getting so bad. My ability to act like a regular human being is cracking. Conversations are hard. Every time I get to work I’m SHAKING and I’m anxious and I’m stuttering all day. It’s getting to a point where I get home from work and I have to stay in my car for at least an hour because I’m so anxious and exhausted. I’m so fucking fatigued. Working out isn’t helping me.

I was riding this high for so long, and now I’m crashing. I emotionally, mentally cannot handle 40 hours a week. I am caving into myself. Everyone else seems fucking sunshine and sprinkles. Nobody goes to work and dissociates for the whole ass shift, getting home and not being able to remember what happened at work. What the fuck! That’s so cruel. I’m so angry. So sad. I feel so helpless. And because I feel helpless I feel worthless. Shouldn’t I be able to control all of this by now? Is it my fault I am the way I am? Why was I so okay for so long and suddenly now I feel like giving up.