#it's hard to explain. i need ppl i like to like me but if someone i don't like doesn't like me i dont rlly give three fucks
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something something Mytho's entire character being, as @schafpudel so eloquently put it, associated with self destruction; something something the heartless princes inability to connect with the world and care; something something the raven!Mytho's hair trigger temper and capricioussness; something something Drosselemeyer's personality and what his life and interpersonal relationships must've looked like when he was still a mortal human man; something something Mytho's entire being as an expression of trauma, of loneliness, of psychological struggles of his author.
#princess tutu#mytho#drosselemeyer#analysis#like#Drosselmeyer was a difficult man for sure. so like#he MUST'VE had a hard time in his personal life#i know bcs im difficult and was even worse in childhood#and ok maybe i dont have the same level of bullshit going on as mr I-can-warp-reality(<-implied god complex)#but like#i can see it clear as day#my guy was in misery#and you know how ppl are when they percieve someone as bad enough to be deserving of certain things#rightful anger can quickly snowball into vengefulness#and a lot of ppl take a cerain sadistic glee in doleing out justice#i imagine even before he may or may not have become dangerous enough that he needed to be stopped#he incurred enough wrath in people for them to decide to hit back ten times as hard#and i imagine lines were crossed#we can argue all day and night how much if any sympathy certain ppl deserve#at the end of the day cruel treatment has a bad effect on everyone no matter how cruel they are themselves#idk im trying to explain this without woobyfying him#like. that shit dude is also a dude. like me. like us#the pain is real and the same in every person it occurs in#yanno???#fate.txt
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Birthday you say?! Hm..... by any chance do you have any particularly favorite oc? That you would want to see fanart of? Jk jk..... unless👀👀👀
Lol Shirley is usually my go to when ppl ask what character they should draw. I’ve had them longer than most and they are easier to get for some people than my other characters. Also you can just dress him in literally anything and it works so that’s a bonus lol
Some others I’m more biased towards are Felix and Rory, I think really hard about em lol. Honestly I’d enjoy anything someone makes with any of my ocs especially if it’s a character THEY like cus I enjoy seeing which of my ocs ppl fancy hahahagahaga
#ask#honestly if it’s someone I’ve drawn recently it’s a good oc to go with lol#hmmgg hm I just. honestly I’d like whatever if you (hypothetically) draw me smth#nothing makes me like a hyper fangirl more than getting drawings hsggagahsn like I don’t react that hard about anything#also I’m always down to make references if u need them or like colors or whatever#explaining certain details. cus I think A LOT about the details bahagag#but I’m honestly not a stickler about the small things when other ppl draw my characters. idk why I just don’t mind really#FUN FACT I’ve shown people irl my ‘art for me’ tag before because I fucking LOVE people and I gotta let everyone else know about it#I’m still kinda sick brain fried if you can’t tell by my rambling lol
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Like if I have to I can speak kind of normal but it’s really only when I’m spoken to and I need to.
#even when I do speak ‘kind of normal’ (lmao) I still stutter and a lot of the time ppl don’t understand me -.-#or I’m very quiet. LOL#but my defaukt is pretty much just. I only speak when spoken to. unless I’m very comfortable around the other person but it depends#I just don’t have anything to say I don’t have the need. hard to explain lel#so many of those bullet point fr LOLLL. one of the worst is saying things I don’t mean. why the hell do I do that#but also even if I am very comfortable around someone I’ll be silent. like this usually happens with friends. it dependssssss
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Me when I want to be wanted more than anything else
#I think I’d be more normal if I had more friends but every friend I lose makes me isolate more and more and now it’s like I can only trust#people I’ve interacted with for years already#and then every time I try to make friends I either don’t respond (anxiety. not feeling a vibe. whatever) or they stop responding when I#actually like them (someone who talked to me for like four days in an row and then randomly blocked me no explanation)#I think if I made more friends or even talked to more people I’d understand how to do it successfully but I don’t have enough experience and#no one wants to be friends with me (and it’s scary when they do!!!) wahhhhhhhhhh#I need to move somewhere new and talk to strangers I’m good at that#I made more friends a a concert age 14 than I have from me the ages of 16-19 and i think that’s ridiculous#how do I explain to everyone ever that nothing bad happened to me I’m just mentally ill bc my hormones are fucked and it’s let me to spiral#and ruin my own life and then slowly painfully build my life back up and then crush it all again over and over again for years and years#to the point where I’m afraid I’ll never amount to anything so the idea of ever truly having people who find any value for me in their lives#feels like it’s fake and then when I do finally trust people I end up loving too hard and fucking it up and then I isolate for even longer#it’s takes me twice as long to find a new friend and trust them again and then it happens all over again#it feels like I’m destined to be alone bc I can’t tell the difference between platonic shit and flirting so I have a wall between me and#everyone else bc I’m afraid to like someone too much and confuse my brain bc I don’t ever want to like someone who doesn’t like me even if#it’s as friends bc I’ve put more effort in than other ppl always but it’s bc I put too much effort in and expect too much and no one else#is as weirdly obsessive and clingy and dedicated as I am bc I’m not normal and that’s why no one likes me bc I try too hard or not at all#and it makes everyone in my life family friends crushes whatever hate me bc I’m all or nothing forever I can’t just be normal#I think a lifetime of living with my mother has permanently damaged the way I see myself#who are all these normal ideal people in my brain why did my mother put them there and why will I always be worse than a hypothetical person#designed to shame me for struggling which gets louder the more I struggle#spirals cycles etc etc etc#ugh. I want my brain to turn off I’m gonna go take a dab and maybe delete this later
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hey sorry if this is prying but im just curious, i noticed you had an anon awhile back that was like harrassing you about cnc and it made me wonder if you ever get anon hate or anything? and like what do ppl say? because i cant imagine anyone having a problem with sex ed. like its insane to me that someone would say something so shitty to you about cnc and im sorry they were an asshole :( your blog is great thanks for being so helpful about literally everything lmao
No apology needed, I think this is such a sweet question. <33
I get anon hate every couple days at least, ngl, I just don't post it.
Sometimes it's people angry I support porn/kink (I literally got two anons from a radfem telling me that meant I supported child slavery, along with several death threats), sometimes it's people angry I support trans women (that's more frequent), sometimes it's people really angry I'm a feminist (I get asks telling me I'm 'misandrist bitch' more frequently than you would believe).
I get hate messages because apparently telling people to go see a doctor or maybe look up XYZ medical condition they're having symptoms of is "advice only a doctor should give out!!!"
People sometimes get pissed about me talking to people about their experiences with sexual assault/rape/child abuse too (this is also apparently only something therapists should do and I 'have no business' explaining what falls under child abuse or sexual assault, ect).
I also get hate messages just based on things like me being Black, me being trans, me being autistic, which is less common now that I'm not being stalked so much lol but still unfortunately prevalent. (Got accused of race-faking and being a race traitor in the same ask a week ago, still can't quite figure out that one LMAO)
It is hard to imagine people having problems with sex education from so many standpoints but unfortunately, some people really DO have a problem with it and with people like me teaching it in particular. ;_;
Suffice to say, I don't post most of it because it just doesn't seem like that'd be worth anyone's time but I posted that one about CNC because in comparison to the type of asks I usually get, that was very tame and I thought there was a slim possibility it was just a misunderstanding.
I don't think it was because I got a very pissed anon afterwards over it but lol, sometimes you've gotta leave room for those misunderstandings even if they're not misunderstandings.
I got an ask from someone else afterwards, saying it was a very helpful response for them as someone who knew very little about CNC, so if for that alone, I count it as worth it!
Also, don't worry about that ask, it didn't bother me at all. I'm so glad you enjoy the blog, y'all enjoying it and learning from it very much makes it all worth it to me. <3
#sex education#asks#anon hate#\o/#your very sweet for asking anon#not sure if this is like.#a normal amount of hate anons or what#but yknow i roll with it lol
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⋆✴︎˚。⋆࣪ ִֶָ☾. eren bf headcanons
notes— i was rereading the 7 mins frat boy eren fanfic so YK i had to write some headcanons for my fav (i miss him like a mf every single day oh my shaylaaa). also the way ive never written for aot before is insane bc i love it sm
ft. eren yeager (jaeger?)
warnings: mild cursing idk, just wholesome fluff very sfw

first of all bro thinks he’s all nonchalant and mysterious or wtv but he’s such a softie (for u teehee)
like he’ll act like he doesn’t gaf but absolutely has ur coffee order memorized after one date
yk “just in case”
the kind of guy to be like “whatever” and then have a whole spotify playlist for u
doesn’t say “i love you” but def says shit like “don’t do anything dumb while i’m not here” and expects u to decipher it
and then gets pissed off when u don’t like tf
love language is PHYSICAL TOUCHHH
cannot stress this enough hb LOVES being physically close to u
bc he’s obv not that great at expressing his affection through words (emotionally immature dumbass)
constant back of the neck kisses when ur talking to other ppl
or hugs from behind
like “yeah this one’s mine”
always always casually has his hand somewhere on u
on ur thigh when ur sitting or ur lower back when ur walking through a crowd
also he sleeps like a cat on top of u omfg
like cuddling into the crook of ur neck and everything
and he refuses to get off bro does not care if u can’t breathe lmao
but if u somehow manage to detach him from ur body he makes sure his leg is touching urs at least
literally can’t fall asleep otherwise
he pretends he doesn’t get jealous but he’s actually just in denial
“i’m not jealous, i just think that dudes a clown”
def reposts and says random cryptic shit on instagram stories w a black screen
like “loyalty isn’t hard if u actually care”
thinks he eats it up every time too like he’s 100% thinking “oh yeah my girl gonna love this one” 💀
will pick u up from class with zero notice if he senses even a whisper of competition
can’t text for shit bc man just ISN’T the greatest communicator yk
u either get no reply for 17 hours and then a whole ass essay about his day
or a little “wya” at 2 am with no context and no punctuation (maybe a red heart too if he’s feeling cute)
screenshots every single meme he gets that he thinks u would like but doesn’t send them until like 2 weeks later when he’s feeling soft
like the way he’s normal one week and then a complete utter soft lover boy the next you’d think he’s ovulating
weirdly sentimental but pretends he’s just a chill guy
keeps ur hair tie on his wrist like it’s a war trophy
in fact he might have multiple just in case u ever need one
his lockscreen is fs gonna be some shitty ass picture of u that he refuses to change
like prob some blurry pic of u flipping him off or sum and he thinks it’s adorable
found an old hoodie of yours once and wore it for a week straight bc it smelled like u
and he pretended he didn’t notice
he’s SUCH a hothead it’s insane
will without a doubt square up for u in a parking lot if someone makes u even the slightest bit uncomfy
terrible at arguments bc he ends up getting flustered every time and says dumb shit like “well maybe i do care ok stfu!”
but softens immediately if u cry bc he doesn’t know how to handle it and feels guilty asf
“okok im sorry come here don’t cry ur gonna make me panic��
a fantastic hugger tho
he’s ur ride or die period
literally will go to the ends of the earth for u and u don’t even have to ask
would fight a god for u no hesitation
will eradicate 80% of humanity for u even
doesn’t trust easily but once ur in ur his person for life
says stuff like “ur all i’ve got so please don’t leave” when he’s feeling especially vulnerable
mostly during those deep 3 am talks or post breakdown cuddles
he loves u fully
struggles expressing it in words but the actions explain themselves
once ur his ur really HIS bros never leaving u alone

#anime#manga#attack on titan#aot#eren yeager#eren x reader#eren headcanons#7 minutes in heaven#shingeki no kyojin#eren aot#eren jaeger
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TOO GOOD TO BE FAKE: CHAPTER 2
SURPRISE!!! chapter 2 is here! ppl in my poll seemed interested and i'm sick of sitting on this in my drafts i just need to get it out lol. i hope you like ittt!! xoxo sunny ☀️🌻
1: This Is Going To Be a Problem HERE, please read before this one!
wc: 3169
2: That Wasn’t a No
— 1 —
Sirius watches James from his perch on the wall, arms crossed, a glint of approval in his eye.
“Well, well, well,” he scoffs, watching on like a proud father. “Told him it wasn’t hard.”
“She’s pretty,” Peter muses absentmindedly.
Remus raises an eyebrow, angling his neck to get a better look. All he can really see is a fraction of her face, but it’s enough. There’s a flush on her cheeks.
“As long as he stops yammering about Lily, I’ll be satisfied,” he pitches in with a reluctant sigh.
The girl leans in slightly, to hear James over the party sounds, perhaps. The flush hasn’t left her face.
Sirius narrows his eyes, putting on a look of deep consideration. “Huh,” he notes, “either he’s actually good at this, or she’s already halfway in love with him.”
Peter perks up, far too hopeful, “You think they’re really hitting it off?”
Sirius shakes his head, wearing a smug, knowing look. “The girl is doomed, doesn’t stand a chance.”
Remus hums in reluctant agreement. “A rebound.”
—2—
“What exactly are you saying?” I ask, throat suddenly dry, eyes widened slightly. If he’s saying what I think he’s saying…
“Well,” he explains, and I instinctively lean in closer so I can hear him over the music, “We both have something we need, right? You want Simon to remember what he’s missing, I want Lily to think I’ve moved on. Win-win.”
He shrugs, blissfully unaware of how close he’s holding a flamethrower to the already smoldering remains of my love life.
I’m looking at him now like he’s grown three extra heads. “You’re saying, we…”
“Date,” he finishes for me with ease. Then, after a beat, “Pretend to.” And for the first time tonight, James Potter actually looks a little awkward. He scratches the side of his neck, like he wishes that came out differently.
I bark out a laugh, more of a cackle, really.
“You’re insane!” I gasp between laughs.
James grins, and damn it, he actually looks entertained. I shake my head, half in disbelief, half finding him genuinely funny.
“Why would anyone believe that?” I blurt out, still chuckling, “We don’t even like each other, we would never, ever be together, Potter,” I go on decisively, sounding at once amused and disgusted by the prospect.
James is wearing a wide, brightened grin by this point, seemingly charmed by my outburst. “You’re overthinking it, darling,” he chuckles, voice soft.
And I catch another flicker of movement over James’s shoulder: Simon, glancing right at me. At us.
“See?” James smirks. “Already working.”
The smile has already begun to fade from my face, though the blush hasn’t left once. I want to smack him, I really really do. But damn it all…
He may or may not have a point.
He sees me considering it, flashes another overly-confident smile. “Think about it,” he says softly, leaning in then to whisper in my ear: “Let me know.”
And then he smoothly departs, leaving me standing there alone, my traitor friends still nowhere to be found.
I’ll kill them for this.
—3—
I find Alice and Jade near the drinks table, chatting away happily like they haven’t just abandoned me to the wolves.
Alice spots me first and beams. “Oh, hi! How’d it go?”
I grab her wrist. “We need to go. Now.”
Alice blinks, head tilting a few degrees. “Okaaay…”
Jade, sipping her drink, starts sprouting an enormous, radiant grin. “You’re blushing,” she points out, sounding too satisfied for my liking.
I scoff, shaking my head even though I can feel the heat still creeping up my neck. “I am not.”
Alice’s face lights up with the kind of wicked glee that suggests she’s about to make my life significantly worse—and enjoy every second of it. “That’s exactly what someone who’s blushing would say.”
My eyes dart around, scanning the crowd. I don’t even know what I’m looking for. James? Simon? A way out of this hellhole?
Alice notices. Her entire face lights up. “Wait— did something actually happen with James?”
I grit my teeth. “I will explain upstairs. We are leaving.” My tone leaves no room for argument. They exchange a look, Jade stifles a chuckle momentarily, and then I’m grabbing each of their wrists powerfully and dragging them with me.
I haul them alongside me without a word, winding up staircases and corridors on autopilot. My mood is palpable without the need for speech.
The second we step into our dorm, I throw myself onto my bed, face down, colliding haphazardly with my pillows.
Alice barely waits for the door to close. “Sooo…” she rocks back and forth on her heels with her hands clasped in front of her. “You and James Potter?”
Jade sits on the bed across from me, calmly sipping her tea. She levels me with a look. “Start from the beginning. I need details.” Her tone is pure interrogation—for a second, I half-expect a single, flickering lightbulb to swing overhead.
I groan into my pillow. “I despise you.”
Alice and Jade exchange a look.
Alice sighs dramatically, arms crossed. “Fine. If you won’t talk, we’ll just have to make our own conclusions.”
Jade deadpans, “You’re in love.”
Alice gasps, pointing excitedly to Jade, exclaiming “Enemies to lovers!”
I whip my head up with another loud groan. “Girls, no.”
Alice smirks. “Then explain.”
I sigh heavily, sitting up and running a hand through my hair. How do I even explain this to them? It’s a stupid idea, they wouldn’t understand, just like I don’t.
Another sigh, “It’s fake,” I mutter, barely intelligible.
Alice squeals. Jade literally spills her tea.
They simultaneously croak, “WHAT?!” Both of them are angled towards me now, leaned in like vultures pecking at a corpse. Yes, I’m equating myself to a corpse at this point in time.
I throw my hands up. “He told me we should pretend to date.”
Alice immediately surges forward to grab my shoulders. “Do you realize you’re living every girl’s dream?!”
Jade, trying to process: “So let me get this straight. You and James Potter…”
Alice finishes her thought, stating it plainly: “Fake dating.”
I nod miserably.
Alice flops onto my bed like she’s having the best night of her life. “Okay, so romantic! You’re living in a rom-com!”
Jade, the one sane person in this room, narrows her eyes at me. “Okay, but why?”
I rub my temples. “Simon. Well, and Lily. James thinks—”
Alice claps her hands. “So you want Simon jealous.”
I glare at her. “That is not—”
Jade cuts in. “So you this is going to work.”
I swivel around to jab a finger at her. “I do NOT—”
Alice is now pacing around the room, clasping her hands together, looking more akin to a supervillain than my friend. “This is brilliant,” she declares, each syllable carefully enunciated.
Jade sips her tea. “Strategically? This isn’t the worst plan. Social psychology supports it.”
Alice brings a hand to cover her lips. “You have to hold hands in the Great Hall.”
My head drops into my hands. “Please, shut up.”
Alice leans forward, eyes wide, whispering as if we’re suddenly caught in a horror movie (which, honestly, doesn’t seem too far off): “WAIT. What if he calls you darling in front of everyone?”
I try to hide my internal malfunction at the thought, blinking blankly.
Jade smirks, watching my reaction. “She’s thinking about it.”
Alice seems to revel in my misery. “Oh, she’s panicking.”
I launch a pillow at Alice, which she dodges, cackling.
Jade, ever the logical one, looks thoughtful. “So… when are you telling him yes?”
“I’m not, no way,” I answer quickly with a laugh. Imagining myself actually agreeing to such an idiotic, imbecilic proposition is the funniest thought I’ve had all night.
Alice just smirks knowingly; Jade sips her tea again.
“You’re gonna do it,” they affirm in unison.
I glare. “I hate you both so much right now.”
Alice, positively beaming, with a sing-songy tone, proclaims, “That wasn’t a no!”
—4—
James is having a fantastic morning.
Sunlight filters lazily through the red-and-gold curtains of Gryffindor Tower, and the air smells like fresh toast and melted butter drifting up from the Great Hall. He stretches luxuriously, arms over his head, feeling well-rested, smug, and entirely too pleased with himself.
Until—
“Rise and shine, loverboy!”
James barely has time to register Sirius’s voice before a hundred-and-sixty-pound idiot drops onto his bed, crushing him.
“Get off me, you absolute menace,” James groans, trying to shove him away.
Sirius throws himself back, arms behind his head, completely at ease. His grin spreads slow, lazy, full of trouble like always. “So.” He props himself up on one elbow, arching a brow like he already knows the answer. “How was your night with your… new fixation?”
James freezes for half a second.
And that’s all Sirius needs. He springs up from the bed with a clap— "Ah! Gotcha."
From the corner of the room, Remus hums into his tea. “I assume this is about the girl from the party?”
Peter, sitting cross-legged on his bed, looks way too excited. “Did you snog her?”
James snorts. “What—no.”
Sirius gasps dramatically, eyebrows shooting up to his hairline. “But you wanted to.”
James throws a pillow at his face. “Merlin, shut up.”
Sirius cackles, catching the pillow, but Remus is already narrowing his eyes, studying James like a specimen.
“You were laying it on thick last night.” He observes in a neutral tone.
Peter nods. “Yeah, she was leaning in, mate.”
“It was loud,” James mutters weakly, shifting under the covers.
Sirius leans back, arms crossed, his laughter finally subsided. "Look, if you’ve finally realized Evans isn’t happening, I support it. She’s hot."
James rolls his eyes, avoiding eye contact and chuckling awkwardly. "Glad I have your blessing, mate."
Peter nods along, thoughtful. "And you two looked pretty good together."
"Right?" Sirius adds. "I mean, you’re already calling her darling—”
"It’s fake," James interrupts with a cough. He’s never been good at keeping secrets; he knows they would’ve gotten it out of him eventually.
There’s only the haunting sound of wind beating against the windows for a moment. Remus pauses mid-sip of his tea. Sirius stops talking. Peter blinks.
"Wait," Peter sits up. "What do you mean fake?"
James, smug as ever, stretches his arms behind his head. "I told her we should fake it. It’s a mutually beneficial situation. Simple, really."
Another tense silence, the other three boys exchanging glances ranging from amused to skeptical to bewildered.
Peter looks genuinely crushed, face falling slowly as he absorbs the statement. “You mean you’re not actually together?”
Remus rubs his temples. “Oh, for Merlin’s sake.”
And Sirius loses his entire goddamn mind.
James watches, mildly amused, as his best friend throws himself backwards onto the bed, wheezing through suffocating laughter— “Oh, this is going to be incredible!”
Remus, biting back a smirk, shakes his head and turns to James, looking mildly concerned.
“And she said yes?” He and Peter echo simultaneously, incredulously.
“Not yet, anyway,” James replies with a cocky tone and a big, lopsided grin that nearly overtakes his whole face. “Told her to think about it. Let me know.”
The boys look completely unimpressed, dumbfounded even. Sirius cackles another howling laugh, echoing in a wheeze: “He told her to think about it!”
James’ smile falters, he clicks his teeth and shakes his head. “Sod off,” he grumbles, “I was only following Wormtail’s advice, anyway,” he adds, prodding Peter in the shoulder.
Peter beams, thrilled to be acknowledged. “See, I do have good ideas!”
Remus shoots him a look. “You suggested faking an entire relationship.”
Peter shrugs. “And?”
Sirius sits up, still catching his breath, still breathless with laughter, still grinning like a lunatic. "Oh, Prongs. You’ve really outdone yourself this time." He leans forward, elbows on his knees, eyes glinting with mirth. "Do you have any idea how much fun I’m going to have watching this disaster unfold?"
James makes a face. "It’s not going to be a disaster."
Sirius barks out another dramatic laugh, clutching his chest. "Oh, you sweet, delusional fool."
Remus shakes his head, standing up and grabbing his book. "Alright, well, I suppose I’ll be here for the aftermath." He sounds indifferent to the news— maybe if it wasn’t all a plot to get Lily’s attention, he’d be happier.
Peter nods along. "I call best man!"
James groans, sinking lower into his chair. "Some friends I have."
Sirius claps him on the back, beaming. "Now, let’s start taking bets—how long before you actually fall for her?"
James does not dignify that with a response.
—5—
I am not doing this.
Absolutely, unequivocally, not.
Fake dating James Potter? Absolutely not. The most reckless, thick-witted, doomed-to-fail plan in existence. I don’t care that it might be logical, I don’t care that it might be convenient, and I definitely don’t care that for the first time, Simon looked at me like he might regret letting me go.
I keep repeating that I don’t care.
Except my hands tighten against the cold stone railing of the Astronomy Tower’s balcony, pulse pounding in my ears as I stand completely still, staring out at the Black Lake like it holds all the answers I don’t have.
The late morning is crisp, sunlight bouncing off the water in flickering shards, and the castle grounds are empty except for a few early risers trudging across the grass, bundled in scarves against the autumn air. It's peaceful, quiet. I should be able to think clearly here.
Only I can’t stop replaying that conversation between us. All I can hear is James Potter’s voice, smug and certain: We both have something we need, right?
And my own, sharp and skeptical: You’re saying we…
His reply, so casual, like it was the simplest thing in the world. Date.
The way he hesitated, the way he scratched his neck like he wasn’t entirely sure what he was suggesting. Pretend to.
I laughed in his face. I thought that was the end of it.
And yet, here I am, standing outside in the cold, replaying it like a goddamn broken record.
Think about it, he’d said.
Like he already knew I would. And here I am, doing exactly that. Thinking about it.
I press my forehead to the railing and groan.
Because he wasn’t wrong.
Simon saw me last night. He actually saw me. And for the first time in months, I saw something flicker across his face that wasn’t just polite indifference. It wasn’t regret, not yet. But it was something. A little crease between his brows, a moment where he hesitated before looking away, like maybe he wasn’t quite so sure anymore. Maybe he was finally seeing what he lost. Maybe I hated that it still mattered.
And James saw it too.
That damn smirk. That ridiculous, all-knowing, too-confident smirk as he leaned in close, breath warm against my ear.
Think about it.
I shake my head, trying to clear it, but it doesn’t help. Because I’ve been thinking about it, I’ve thought about every way this could go. I could say yes, and suddenly Simon would remember what he lost. I could say yes, and Lily would start seeing James in a different light, and they’d get their happy ending. I could say yes, and everything would fall neatly into place.
Or I could say yes, and it could all fall apart spectacularly.
Or I could say no, and not risk anything.
I don’t trust James Potter. I don’t trust his ego, or his theatrics, or the way he gets people to believe whatever story he’s selling. And more than that, I don’t trust myself to pretend to date someone like him without getting caught in the fantasy. Because James—Merlin, James—he’s got this way of making everything seem like a game. Like it’s all just for fun. Like he’s some untouchable.
But I know better. I’m smarter than that.
I know how quickly feelings can get manipulated in situations like this one.
I straighten, exhaling slowly, my eyes fixed on the pearly, reflective surface of the lake. I’m going to find him, and I’m going to tell him no.
That he’s ridiculous for even suggesting it. That it’s the worst idea he’s ever had, and that’s saying something, considering this is James Potter we’re talking about. That I’m not going to play his little game, and that if Simon wants me back, it’s going to be because he actually wants me, not because I orchestrated some elaborate plot to make him jealous. That he should respect himself enough to want the same thing from Lily.
I turn to go inside, only I stop dead in my tracks. Air catches in my throat, the entire speech I had just planned in my mind has now completely evaporated.
Because James is already there.
He’s leaning against the stone archway leading back into the castle, hands tucked into the pockets of his robes, looking like he’s been expecting me. His hair is even messier than usual, his tie half-loosened, like he rolled out of bed without a single care in the world, and there’s something infuriatingly smug about the way he watches me now.
I cross my arms. “Don’t flatter yourself, Potter. I wasn’t looking for you.”
He tilts his head, giving me a fleeting look up and down. “Mm. And yet, here you are.”
I narrow my eyes. “I came out here to think.”
He tries (and fails) to hide his growing smirk. “And what did you think about?”
I huff, unimpressed. “Nothing that concerns you.”
James doesn’t even look offended. He just nods toward the Quidditch pitch below, where a few players are tossing around a Quaffle after breakfast. “Funny, though,” he muses, “how the best place to think just so happens to have a perfect view of the field.”
My gaze flickers— completely unintentionally— to the pitch.
James catches it immediately.
His grin etches deeper into the lines of his face. “Right.”
I want to yell at him, yell all the reasons why this would never work, why it’s not worth the risk. Everything my brain is telling me. But my mouth stays closed.
He looks at me for a moment, just observing, for I don’t know how long. He pushes off the wall and takes a lazy step closer. “So,” he says, voice light, easy, like he has conversations like this every day. “Are we doing this or what?”
I don’t move.
I’ll say no. I’ll turn around and walk away and pretend last night never happened. I’ll stop entertaining the idea that this could work, because James Potter is a reckless, arrogant, overconfident disaster, and nothing about this is a good idea.
I should say no.
I open my mouth.
“Okay,” comes out.
James doesn’t even look surprised.
He just smiles, slow and self-satisfied, and I can’t pinpoint why, but my pulse stumbles and stutters. I feel a warmth curling in my chest before I can stop it.
“Good choice.”
next, 3: Fake It 'Til You Make It:
series page linked HERE
#james potter fic#marauders fanfiction#james potter x reader#james potter fanfiction#james potter#marauders era#marauders#☀️🌻 tgtbf series
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Nicktoons unite main 4 in their respected styles ( minus jimmy neutron i'll explain more below)
i feel very mixed about these but it was still fun either way studying all of these cartoons respected styles. the final does make me happy, seeing all of them together ^__^ 💞
below i will explain my thought process working with each style so get ready for a wall of text:
first before anything you may be asking: why no jimmy neutron style!? it's because i tried and gave up! i was starting the rendering process for timmy and i hated it so i just didn't continue! no point of making myself miserable for something thats harmless fun style studies. but have these as a little treat:
Fairly Oddparents style: the easiest style to work on and research for, fop style is not that complex. i should also add i didn't draw each style in one sitting i drew each character together and then edited them all, so that might be the reason why some look better then others, i just got good. but i'm saying that because the character i started with was spongebob! specifically because i was tired of ppl thinking dp style and fop style are the same and how spongebob would look the same in both styles, just a flat square. which is wrong! fop style is very different! i would prob describe it as a flat paper style. has sharp and rounded thick lines. the main source of research i used for it was the designer for fop was Ernie Gilbert. he has designed a lot of iconic characters for the show and i highly would check out his work, this is his website
Danny phantom style: now this one was tricky, prob the hardest one to figure out and i honestly don't think i really DID figure it out. the possible reason is i am still trying to go through the show atm myself, but i'd doubt it. they all just look off to me, just a little. which no need for me to work myself in a circle trying to make it "perfect". im no professional character designer! especially not Stephen Silver.
Spongebob Squarepants style: this one was tricky but in the opposite way to dp style, where i didn't know what to reference! to start off the show is mainly nonhuman characters, so finding character refs were hard. the refs i did use were the mermaids and the superheros, so i used that for timmy. but in the middle of working on jimmys i was watching a video of someone ranking every single spongebob ep and TURNS OUT in the later seasons, i think season 13, there were human designs! (technically elfs but whatever).
and weirder thing is how they draw patchy but im not going to get into that. i am assuming that style is for characters that are supposed to be real life humans up on land in that universe (but why not just use real life humans? idk, maybe tom kenny is getting to old for the role). BUT ANYWAY, i used the elfs for a main source for jimmy and danny, they turned out a lot better then the timmy in my eyes. i wanted at least one of them to have the black eyes but they all have bright blue eyes and the show usually always colors blue eyes. i get ahead of myself cause there was a lot more factors i still had to figure out. like the line art. the show doesn't have a clear line style like dp or fop, its just relatively consistent medium lines. so i just went with more recent show stuff then older stuff since it's HD.
ok but thats basically it, i can prob go on more but i'd feel no one gaf. i made these for fun and it was fun making them! i love all of these shows a ton so it was nice looking up the designers and artist for these shows. support the artists!!! fuck bitch fartman!!!!!
#nicktoons unite#nicktoons#nickalodeon#spongebob#spongebob squarepants#danny phantom#danny fenton#jimmy neutron#jimmy neutron boy genius#timmy turner#fairly oddparents
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INVERTED!Poppy!!!
Finally made her up, I was just putting it off and putting off designing her but then I took my pen, my new laptop and drew it, now look at her!!!
Alright let's start shall we?
Design:
"OMG FANATICAL WHY DOES POPPY LOOKS LIKE A FRISK-" Shhhhh, you need to calm down, i'll explain everything;
Alright, bare with me: The original Poppy mentions in an animation, that she's talking to her therapist, that people usually thinks she's a Chara, but she's none! And I think, I theorize, I suppose that the reason why she looks like a Chara is bc an Frisk was drawing her (you know her lore?), so supposing that the whole concept of Invertedverse is that the original universe Underswap, that Frisk who drew her is an Chara, so if the Frisk drew a Chara in the original, here the Frisk that is now a Chara would draw a Frisk....... so, that's the logic here.;
Even though Poppy is still not a Frisk nor a Chara, but I don't think I translated that into her design, maybe I'll redo it sometime.
Her clothings are intriguing. It's her original teenage/adult clothings but with some green and a purple cloak or cape, whatever that is. This cloak represents her importance inside OmegaTimeline, that reminds me;
View from back Ω:
Made it with wind because it's cool, plus, her silhouette is cool too
Story:
Core was the "ruler" of Omega Timeline, everyone would look for them when there was a problem and needed help, everybody trusted them, but they put Poppy on their place... Core is a very mischievous character, no one really knows why they put Poppy in charge.
Omega citizens theorize that the reason is because Core was lazy, or that they didn't like the attention, or maybe they wanted to focus fully on recruting people, even thought after Poppy got in charge Core was rarely seen interacting with people and also the numbers of new survivors to get to the OT decreased.
Poppy tries her best to help remain peace within Omega Timeline, even if it requires all of her energies, thought she could really use some help, she thinks that the reason why her parent is more absent while she was in charge was because they knew she could everything alone, and that she should do it.
She doesn't have many friends, and the old ones got far away because she's too busy working signing papers, solving problems, financing projects, etc, etc.
Character:
She suffers. That's the truth, she just needs a vacation and a hug from her girlfriend.
She doesn't like parties... just thought it was important to mention.
Poppy doesn't like her parent, almost hates them even, they seem so irresponsible, imature and a coward, after just letting their daughter in charge of a (practically) country in surprise, it's expected for her to feel that way
Poppy has to be the clueless character in the whole Invertedverse, the reason is that she's so busy at work, or too busy being tired, and she usually gets information on what's going on from Core, but Core have been very silent lately, wonder why...
She has the hobby of playing board games, dancing and origamis!
She likes to cook more for others than herself
Sometimes she would visit the Madame T's orphanage, mainly to see Cadence and her friends, but also to donate and all of that things famous ppl do in orphanages idk.
Even thought she does a lot of hard work sometimes she'd take credit over someone elses work unintentionally, i mean, she's kind of the president.
She can't lie, like literally, maybe it's just her morals, or maybe it's a supernatural force idk.
She also keeps taping her fingers in hard surfaces all the time, I think it's anxiety.
Oh yeah, her full name is still Poppy Marusina, but she can also be called Iris Marusina, or maybe I'll change that to her original name, idk
Poppy (c) fmsdraws
#invertedverse#undertale au#utmv#utmv au#ut au#undertale alternative multiverse#OT:PS#omega timeline#OT#Omega Timeline au#OT au#ot poppy#Omega timeline poppy's story#Inverted!Poppy#core frisk#core!frisk#frisk au#frisk#au frisk#chara au#chara#au chara#frisk dreemurr#art#Bio#character bio#character design#Inverted!OT
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My thoughts about goodomensverse (I'm clinically insane) (my personal opinion) (long post)
Book Crowley:
- absolute disaster
- lonely boy
- grumpiest
- he's so in love with Aziraphale but didn't even realised yet
- a bit dumb sometimes ngl
- very tired
- he's trying so hard save earth and everything he knows but everytime he tries to explain why it's always AZIRAPHALE
- sometimes he's like... your old gay uncle, the old gay uncle of the family except it's a 6000 years old gender fluid demon
- HISS LIKE A SNAKE GANG
- got called dear once and them died (figuratively)
Radio Crowley:
- flirty
- "Humm have you ever seen me in a dress~~??"
- he's like flirting with Aziraphale 24/7
- 0 patience this man is a BOMB
- if Aziraphale ever EVER got slightly flirty with him back he will EXPLODE
- smartest of them all, he's very intelligent
- HISS LIKE A SSSSSNAKE GANG
- he's so in love with Aziraphale and it makes him SO FRUSTRATED
- his Aziraphale is the hardest one to reach, maybe this is why he's so deliberately obvious and direct with him (he's resilient, he will never give up)
- he's like a tsudere teenager collegial except he's a 6000 years old demon with serious issues
- not called dear yet poor soul </3
TV Crowley:
- SILLY
- he's the dumbest of them all, sorry ���
- red hair
- he's so in love with Aziraphale and everyone notice it's SO OBVIOUS
- he's the most affected by The Bookshop Burning ™ event
- the only one who got to kiss the angel, good for him ig, or sorry, idk
- anxiety bomb he literally (literally) EXPLODE
- strongest soldier bc his Aziraphale is IMPOSSIBLE
- got dumped 2 times more than the others someone pls help him
- the most brave tho
- doesn't hiss a lot :/ free him from this madness let him hiss
- he's like a puppy with giant yellow eyes except it's a 6000 years old snake demon that lies all the time
- protective as hell this man wouldn't let anyone near Aziraphale if possible
- got called dear but at what cost??????????????
Book Aziraphale:
- Anxious all the time, religious trauma except the god is your father and he left you and never talk to you again and the guard angels are your siblings and they want you do be dead
- He's so soft he wants so bad to comfort Crowley but he's really hard to reach
- his Crowley is the most difficult of all of them, he needs to circle him a lot to get in touch
- this man got called names so often I don't think he even cares anymore
- he's very nerdy
- he's the calmest of them all
- really chill
- everyone is so mean to him for no reason
- he has 1 braincell tbh and it's really bad bc his Crowley is not that brilliant too they're both stupid sometimes
- he really REALLY wants to be with Crowley and Crowley only, he sounds almost obligated to be with heaven
- he is really kind to others even when they don't deserve
- he called Crowley dear once and then implode
Radio Aziraphale:
- full of himself
- bastard
- the most closed and oblivious of them all
- he tries to play cool with Crowley all the time (he's slowly getting insane and someday he will jump on this man)
- he's the most self sufficient one he barely holds on Crowley to anything and they're pretty independent
- Crowley can say shit like "Miss me angel~~??" and he would keep a bored face and not react at all (he screamed with the walls 4 hours later)
- he's also a tsudere collegial but he at least try to look cool and composed in public
- he's the Aziraphale that most believes in heaven, he's sure they are good and selfless and the right side
- he's not so brilliant tbh but he got a lot of spirit
- the most active Aziraphale ?? He really put his hand in the dirt and do the things alone
- the most angry and bad tempered of them all, bro scream "WE ARE CLOSED LOOK AT THE DAMN SIGN" when ppl barely touch the bookshop door
- he has a lot of patience with Crowley, not deserved tbh bc he thinks it's his personal job to get in Aziraphale's nerves
- overall he is polite
- he's really proud of their "arrangement" there not only one chance he let go without saying that
- he likes to provoke Crowley sometimes too but not as much as the other way around
- if he ever call Crowley dear he will explode
TV Aziraphale:
- bitchiest
- this man need to be sedated what the fuck Aziraphale
- most nuts of then all he's CRAZY
- he's the most up to do shit with Crowley they're insane together
- he doesn't let Crowley rest he is flirting and being cute and hitting on Crowley all the time
- he's so obviously in love with Crowley its embarrassing
- he's the fruitiest he's the entire salad
- the most... indulgent, if I can say, of them all
- more like an employer of heaven, different of book Aziraphale
- he's the only one with almost white hair
- he got kissed but at what cost
- he's the most intelligent of all of them how can he be this dumb
- he loves little things about earth and humans and life and he seems to be the Aziraphale that most love EARTH itself, like, the life, the humans, the food, the little pleasures we have, the little time of happiness we have between all the shit that is happening... he really loves humans <3
- he's conflicted about heaven, he seems to know that there's something WRONG with how heaven works but still doesn't understand what exactly it is
- "oh but saving me makes him soooo happyyyy~~~"
- overall kind and sweet, in a excited way
#good omens#good omens 2#aziracrow#crowley#Aziraphale#radio omens#good omens radio#good omens book#thats my opinion#more like some thoughts i have been collecting since im hearing radio omens#not really accurate#does this count as character study????#lol I think not#maybe i have a preference for radio Aziraphale i wrote so much more about him and ended up erasing it all bc it made me look insane#shit its 2 am I'm so sleepy
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HIHIHAAIAIAHAIA ^^ yapping + important info for ppl who want to dm/are dming me :3
Kk Since a lot more people are finding my acc and dm/messaging me, I WANNA MAKE A FEW THINGS CLEAR SO I DONT ACCIDENTALLY COME OFF AS RUDE OR ANNOYING OR SMTH !!!
I usually yap alot whenever I get comfortable, or I js wanna yap. Sometimes I'll keep messaging if I think I need to explain something or I think I've done something wrong (which is often, but I try to keep it as little as I can) and sometimes I'll get so scared I've done something wrong, so I text very little (so people don't get mad at me >_<)
I don't like texting first. I used to always have to do it with every single person, so now it really fucks me up when I have to message first (after a while though, when I get more comfortable I won't mind :3 I'll text first a lot.) I don't never text first, it js makes me feel like I'm begging for attention when I do lmao😭😭
I don't know if I'll always reply to messages. I get extremely paranoid if someone I don't particularly know or like/dont like the look of their blog, messages me first. Most of the time I try to message first, but idk if your thinking of messaging first, js be mindful and I'll most likely come off as rude😭
If I'm in a shit mood or episode, I probably won't reply to dms, unless my devious ahh decides to get a hold of my messages, sorry if I'm extra chatty and annoying. Most of the time I js cling to one person I like to talk to. (Idk if i currently have one of those tho :/) if I am acting strange, it might be best to just leave me alone. (MAYBE DONT JS ABRUPTLY STOP TALKING, ILL PROBABLY GET PISSED AND ACCUSE U OF LEAVING ME)
Uhh sometimes I randomly talk abt suicide or self harm, MB ILL TRY TO KEEP IT TONED DOWN !!! Maybe dont fully ignore it, js tell me to stop or try to comfort ?? (It's not your job to comfort me tho, dw if you can't or don't want to ^^)
Yikes, I'm realising now I probably should have put this out sooner.
I try to act as normal as I can, but if it's not blaringly obvious I struggle sometimes. Like a lot, and it's hard, so I'm sorry, but I still love talking to you guys ^^
Also if it gets to many people and to overwhelming ill turn off dms :3
>_<
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I know this feels like the weirdest time to be doing this but I'm wondering if u have any advice for getting off anon and starting to interact w ppl u follow? I feel like lately the one-sided anon relationship is making me sad, and so many cool ppl have been leaving and I'm bummed I never got the chance to talk to them. But also I'm scared lol. Do I slide into ppls dm's? I'm realizing I'm just asking you how to make friends but dammit maybe that's what I need!
Hi anon! I don’t think this is a weird time, I think it’s always a good time to try and reach out or try something new! I love that you want to, this is lovely 🧡🧡🧡
I was a wallflower in various fandoms for a looooong time so I hear you. It is more fun (I think) to interact, though. And I get that it’s scary! New things always are. I think one thing to remember is it’s like anything else - when you’re learning a new thing you don’t hit a 100% success rate. You try stuff, see how it goes, see how it feels for you. I thought up some tips on the train today:
Try a couple different things — I think one nice thing about tumblr’s current silly UI is you do have multiple ways to interact. I feel like commenting under a post is pretty chill and low pressure, but maybe you don’t. So I’d say try a few things and see — comment under a post, reblog with your comments in the tags, reblog with actual comments in the post. I can honestly tell you that I ALWAYS read the comments people leave in tags and I love them so, so much. And yes, try sending DMs or non-anon asks! But check their profile first, they might have a note about DMs or asks there.
But what to say? I hear you. It doesn’t have to be long or intense. Try commenting on a fic or art or moodboard with something simple like LOVED IT or “this was great!” Same thing with the tags and reblog comments. You could send an ask that says the same thing or play along when someone is doing ask games. Even just leaving an emoji as a comment is great (I am an overuser of the eyes 👀 on wip Wednesday posts but I am LOOKING). I often stream of consciousness my fic replies and that works well for me, lol. Oh or just copy and paste a line you loved and then like emojis after or a scream, lol. Or a gif comment! On anything!
Don’t worry about over commenting on fic or art - I’ve seen this worry around tumblr, that people think they’re leaving spam comments? I don’t even know what that would mean, lol. I don’t care if 3 people in a row leave me a keyboard smash comment, I treasure every single one.
Interacting beyond fic and art comments - this is probably the next thing, right? It sounds like you want to have conversations with people! I think just sharing your thoughts is a great way to start. Like if someone shared a wip post, tell them how excited you are and what it makes you think about. Or if someone shares a new gifset or art tell them why you love it. Or for a poll, explain your vote! And for an ask game, ask about an answer or share when you would pick the same thing.
Don’t get discouraged if you don’t get a response every time — this is a hard one, I know. But people aren’t on tumblr all the time, and plenty of other reasons! That’s why I’m suggesting trying more than one thing, and also keep it up! It gets easier with practice and once you start you’ll find new ways to interact, too. But not everyone clicks and that’s just the truth. There are oodles of people in this fandom though, you know?
I totally get that interacting is daunting. But you don’t have to do everything at once. Just try things out and give yourself permission to have feelings about it. Remember you can choose how you respond, too! And putting a bit of info in your own blog header can make it easier to connect, for the people who want to reply to you. (what you’d like to be called, etc.)
I definitely made friends here by just becoming one of their steady commenters, or people who commented a lot on my posts. You get to know each other! Which is very fun.
I hope this gives you some courage! Be kind to yourself! And please feel free to send me more messages, any time. 🧡
Anyone else have any tips? 👀
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Time for unpopular opinion.
I support Entrati. Yes, you feel me - I made a great work and avoided all 'yesbroheisbad' choices in dialogues with Hex and etc. I can't support my friends when they tell me things like 'booo, Luvoid, he could do better, he ruined too much, he is baaad, boooooo'.
Hold on. Here are we, Destined Tenno, a Great Mystery Drifter, Cool irl Player, ok. Here is Entrati - a science person, who made The Worst Possible Mistake that Noone Could Ever predict, who faced The Worst Evil - for a long time alone, solo, face to face, and Entrati did his best to keep Origin safe from The Devil.
Later he had to erase his existence and say bye to his family, friends, his life. He could not trust nearly everyone even himself.
He created The Plan how to kick Indifference's butt outta here and he already expected US to show up one day but we were never promised so he could not count on us.
And then he left with keeping precious Loid as safe as possible and as guarantee that at least someone will be still here to continue, to tell truth, to lead the fight, if Entrati fail - the more ppl knows, the more would be in a literal danger, cuz Indifference react when you are attentive to it, you become a flaw, a door.
When we catch up with Entrati, he already made his decision to sacrifice 1999. He didn't know we will show up. We changed situation, we helped Entrati in the way he will never goal alone without us. He had to destroy one world to save eternity of others. He did a hella of hard work with all that cooking with infestation plus gaining trust of ppl plus calculating events. He needed that energy. Remember, one world in exchange for eternal pool of them. You can't eat a pie and still have it, yeah?
So, look, eternalism is amazing yet none of the worlds are magic golden key with the fairytail solution for winning against Indifference. Every world is real world and real world isn't sweet and rainbow and not even fair mostly as you expect it to be from your point of view.
You may still say that Entrati is bad. Ofc. I'm here to explain my opinion, not to change yours. But I say - my homie Albrecht doing his job and he's doing it so damn good. Origin still exist and Indifference didn't nullify everything. My praises for this lonely man.
And ofc he can do mistakes. Maybe erasing 1999 could be that mistake, maybe he already did 9999 of such a mistakes and only now he found out right sequence for actions that we ruined. Still - any better ideas? I doubt you could find any if you try his shoes. Help him, don't blame him. We already could lose him as we lost Rell and with this loss we could have no hope at all. That the only thing I know for real.
#warframe#playwarframe#warframe 1999#Warframe lore#Warframe opinion#albrecht entrati#eternalism#de could do at least some lines with support for homie
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hii!! Sorry in requesting so late !!(for me at least) But I was wondering if you could do the main four x reader who can't sleep without like sound like for example they have turn on the tv before they sleep or they have a hard time sleeping ? And they end up falling asleep at a party because hey find comfort if hearing some for of voice/ voices went they are tired
If u didn't know it's like some type of trauma response for them
Sorry if this makes u uncomfortable I know this stuff can make ppl uncomfortable so u don't need to to this!! 🫶🏾
main 4 with a reader who needs noise to sleep

gon
✰ he doesn’t really have the technology on whale island to play any noise
✰ but he’d order something for you as soon as you mentioned having a hard time sleeping without it
✰ while it’s being delivered, he’d fill the quiet with his voice
✰ i can see him humming or quietly talking you to sleep
✰ luckily, he already lives in a rural area, so it’s never completely silent
✰ i can see him throwing you a birthday party where you end up falling asleep before it’s over
✰ he’ll just carry you off to bed and wait for you wake up 🤷♀️
✰ when you do, he’s all like “what happened there?”
✰ after explaining it’s because you found the noise comforting, he’d probably leave it at that
killua
✰ he also likes to sleep with noise, turning on a show and the fan before bed
✰ and whenever you stay up, you’ll probably be having a conversation all night
✰ so you don’t need to worry most of the time
✰ if you guys went to a party and you were tired enough to fall asleep,
✰ he’d be pretty nonchalant
✰ when you wake up, he’ll tease you about it
✰ so he’s also someone that probably wouldn’t find out on his own
✰ it clicks when you tell him though
✰ and he feels pretty bad for joking, so he’d apologize (rare occurrence)
✰ and going forward, he’s a lot more observant
kurapika
✰ he’d prefer to sleep in silence, but if you want white noise, he’s fine with leaving the tv on
✰ since he lives in the city, i’m sure you might hear the sounds of cars and traffic too
✰ if you never told him about the quiet thing, he’d figure it out when he sees you awake and huddled next to him in the middle of the night
✰ he doesn’t get why silence is so uncomfortable for you, but he won’t immediately pry
✰ until you accompanied him to this party one night
✰ his hand was on your waist, pulling you close as you rested your head on his chest
“y/n, let’s go.”
…
“y/n?”
✰ before, he was under the assumption that you just had a hard time falling asleep in general
✰ he’d probably vet a bit to see if it’s something you even want to talk about
✰ when you do tell him, he’s super understanding as he can sort of empathize
✰ so he’ll always check that it’s not too quiet for you
leorio
✰ yeah he wouldn’t notice
✰ he’s already snoring the second he hits the pillow,
✰ so if you need any accommodations, you’re gonna have to get them yourself
✰ when he takes you to a party and you crash out halfway through, he assumes you haven’t been getting enough sleep
✰ naturally, you get a lecture
“you can’t just be falling asleep in the middle of a party! someone might kidnap you or something… have you not been getting sleep?”
✰ once you tell him that it’s because of how loud the party was, and about your trauma,
✰ he feels like a total jerk
✰ immediately, that soft side of him comes out as he apologizes
✰ in the future, he’d keep a closer eye on you in public
✰ and if you ever seem sleepy, he’ll let you rest on his shoulder and sleep
#hxh hcs#hxh headcanons#hxh imagines#hxh gon#hxh leorio#killua x reader#hxh x reader#i ran out of ideas for killuas sorry anon 😭😭#kurapika x reader#hxh killua#hxh kurapika#leorio x reader#gon x reader
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Let's talk about some stuff! SZN 3: SPOILERS I watched the season after I saw some spoilers on X and from friends lmao. I didn't sleep. Sorry for the typos n shit. I need to vent.
- First off, Syd and Cousin carried the whole fxcking SZN on their backs, while Carmy was too busy being a psycho. Ayo n Ebon deserves all the awards. JAW is a fantastic actor - 10/10 for all 3 of them. Everyone else did great too, Napkin was 😭😭😭 AYO DID THAT. Those 3 are legends in my eyes!!!! If Ayo leaves or if the writers do her dirtier in SZN 4 I'm DONE. I cried for her this SZN, n for Carm too.
- All of Sydcamry scenes for some reason gave me butterflies even though they drifted farther apart each eps. Syd getting Carmy's dish was top tier - incredible writing from the writers. I just need them to explain more - what is the purpose of having Syd n Carmy tied together - if Claire is so great why not tied her to Carmy? Why does she seem like someone who died, haunting Carmy like his toxic boss? She more unbearable this season n I think it's intentional.
- Some ppl were saying Claire had alittle more substance this SZN and I beg to differ. She's like a dead gf to me. Her scenes with Carmy are so cold, dead, and heavy - like a burden. She triggers my anxiety n I don't know y - n I don't want to be mean, but just how their scene are edited, it literally puts me at the edge of a panic attack. The writers had the audacity to call her PEACE. I did not experience peace watching her scene and I think Carmy feels the same way from the jump. So, Fxck no, she ain't PEACE, that's Syd and it's obvious.
- Claire being labeled as PEACE makes no sense - the writers are trying too hard n it's make me sick. If she's so great, let her n Carmy run/manage The Bear.
- Syd is the invisible string that's holding everyone together in this chaotic sh!thole, while babysitting Carmy and keeping him from combusting. Unc, Nat, Pete, COUSIN, Marcus, and everyone else are staying afloat because Syd is the fxcking life vest that's strapped to their chest.
- Syd is calm, organized, observant, caring, considerate etc. Yet, these fxcking writers said Claire was peace- that line had my blood boilingggggggg.
- Syd's relationship with her Dad is everything
- Sydcarmy is sooo far apart it physically hurts. They didn't even do ther sign thing over their chest this season.......I get this feeling (just a FEELING) that Syd might be in love or has a crush on CARMY 😭😭😭. The margin wider scene gave me that vibe. When you like someone, you notice every little thing they do. There were times I wanted her to hug him soooo bad, I just felt like if she did if would've grounded him. He really needed a hug this season.
- Something I think some of you might have missed. Remember SZN1 Ep1 when Syd said her dad ate at The Beef on Sundays. We got confirmation from Carm, in SZN 3 that The Beef/The Bear only closes on Sundays. 😂😂🤣😂 (this was in the scene with him n Claire in a dark room or whatever. It might have been a dream scene idk) So, Carm knew Syd lied. I need the writers to have Carm n Syd talk about it and the meal she had in NYC. These are only a few important stuff they hid in the storytelling and I need to know WHYYYYYYYY.
- Carmy had a panic attack during service. Syd's voice took him off the edge. And I must say, her voice could really calm me down too lmao.
These fxcking writers are lowkey abusing Syd at this point. She's being stretched thin, and again this is also why I think she's in love with Carmy. It hurts her, but she's so into him, connected to him physically n mentally. It's really hard for her to let him or The Bear. It reminds me of the time Donna said "I make things pretty for others, but no one makes things pretty for me" not being verbatim lol. Syd did sooo much heavy lifting this SZN and no one noticed it, they all subconsciously over look her and gave all praises to Claire and making her the peace and angel.
- We finally saw Syd broke tf down in ep 10. Baby girl couldn't be strong anymore. She doesn't want to leave Carmy or The Bear but after the round table talk with the workers from Ever. She realized that Carmy - the person she idolize or even love/crush on, might not be good for her. Carmy is trying but the communication is lacking so bad, and on top of that he's pushing her away.
At this point, the partnership agreement seems like a trap to keep her. If Unc cut his connection to The Bear that's going to be Syd last straw. And if she leaves, I kinda see Tina, Marcus, and maybe COUSIN going with her or they will stay and give Carmy HELLL for losing her. The tables would turn. Everyone is so hang up on Claire leaving, if Syd leaves, Claire would go straight through the window. That would be the moment of realization (for all of them. Especially Carmy) that the woman he really NEEDS is Syd and not Claire. But for some reason, they all think Syd ain't going nowhere which is so naive. She got a bigggg offer and I can't wait to see when she tells Carmy. Would he confess her importance to him to keep her? Would he beg her to stay? Would he listen more or communicate more to keep her? Would he ask her what would make her stay at The Bear? Or would he be a b!tch and tell her to go cauase it's a great opportunity? And then after confess that he's having a hard time letting her go. Very interesting stuff.
- Last thing - Unc talking to Syd. I was shock he was looking to Syd for answers as to what's going on with Carmy. This was also telling. Unc believes or senses that these too are CLOSE. And Syd being a good gf/partner kept her mouth closed. SYD is an angel sent from heaven, cause I would be so done with The Bear😭😭😭😭.
We saw that Carmy and Syd are having conversations that we are not seeing on screen. For example, he asked her about her new apartment. When did she tell him?? He then asked about her dad. Sir, what about her dad? Did she tell him about the annoying bathroom exchange? Are they sharing more about their personal life that we, the audience is not seeing? So many fxcking questions in SZN3.
This is just my thoughts. I saw the season once so this not an analysis.
#sydcarmy#the bear#carmy x sydney#carmy the bear#shows#syd x carmy#carmy berzatto#sydney adamu#cute#the bear fx#the bear season 3
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Something about this scene felt very personal the lines spoken. "But as the reader base grew, some groups of people started finding faults with it. Saying why this character did that why. It's just like when people ask why there are dragons in a fantasy world, illogical things can only happen in a fictional world."
Mame is an author obviously and so writing a character like tongrak who is an author I feel she's able to share her burdens and or reasonings for why he chose to take this path as an author and write her stories the way that she does. She constantly gets hate for her shows and gets questioned about why so many times. And I think she's trying to explain and/or express that with this show.
She writes as an escape to be lost from anything that is going on in her own life. And for some people to misinterpret that and say no, this is what she actually meant .This is the story that she wants to tell to her viewers it must be so hard and confusing. I feel that if ppl can relate to her stories or characters. Who are we to judge and question someone for that everyone's stories are not open to share. If you can't relate to her stories or her characters and you just feel the need to spread that negativity and hate around, that's so unnecessary. And trauma It's very complicated and it all depends on how you as a person respond to it. I don't think shes trying to Retramatize people. But if it is, then I think that's something that u an individual can just figure out on your own, but it's okay because that's something that will always take time.
It's literally like tongrak said Illogical things can only happen in a fictional world.
And also tongrak saying this No one’s ever complimented me” and mut saying “Then i’ll do it” 😭😭😭😭😭 and rak said "So have you” like a simple compliment can truly make someone feel appreciated in their work in their life it's so easy to do.
#love sea the series#love sea#fortpeat#fort thitipong#peat wasuthorn#tongrak#tongrak x mahasamut#mahasamut#me mind y#mame
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