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kuiinncedes · 3 months ago

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eventually i will be able to do this shit digitally :|

#mot that there’s anything wrong w doing it on paper #it’s just annoying when i want to move the ‘one tough act’ up to like the middle of the page #but i don’t want to erase and redo it LMFAO #it’s rly just me being lazy #it actually looks ok tho better than i thought in the picture #i think i��m just gonna say fuck it and trace lol #even tho i am a little annoyed by the placement but it’s fine #jeanne talks #jk i’m gonna say fuck it and add SERIFS #and then trace LOL

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idontmindifuforgetme · 10 months ago

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my gma told me that my mom used to wake up, eat breakfast, then study for 12 hours straight. every fuckin day. and my gpa would bring her food and tell her to take breaks bc of how immersed she was. she’s literally my role model forever

#I want to be on that level of sheer focus/passion w everything I do #this is what I remind myself of whenever I’m lazy or I don’t feel like putting in the hours. like my mon did THAT every day #I rly am intrinsically motivated bc of her and she also showed me that you truly can love science even in a broken education system #ofc being raised in her image did predispose me to science but I’m also so grateful it’s an organic love #and that I’m not doing it for something as dumb as prestige or money. like I genuinely adore it #and I was never raised in a gIrL MaTh household like my mom made it clear math was very fun to me since I was like 2 #and I think that influenced my confidence in pursuing stem/medicine bc I grew up watching my mom solve differential equations for fun #I also love how suffused she was in her studies. that must’ve felt so rewarding. I strive to be that way too #she also taught me it’s possible to be smart AND pretty and that has been the motto my whole life #I luv my mom post no. 8272662 I just had to say it #p

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skunkes · 5 months ago

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#very very excited about surgery like i know in a year it wont even be an issue and ill be extra happy i did it #I've kinda gotten past the anesthesia fear and i lived thru the MRI needle in my awrm so #the IV wont be too horrendous.#so right now my biggest worry is the After....#ive seen ppl say they were mostly resting in bed for like 2 or 3 days #and after that they just had to take it easy to get around but idk. im so nervous about That Part.#+ i cant. fall asleep on my back. lol. im terrified #i rly hope im so exhausted on that first day that i jst knock out upon getting home ykwim #being too aware of pain in the body makes me feel cornered in it sometimes ykwim. like i want to jump out of it ! nervous #i rly hope it doesnt hurt too bad!!!!!!! i know ppl say it feels like sore abs after workout but idk. idk nervous #talkys #especially since i have work to do! i hate feeling lazy. i dont even take naps bc i feel like its laziness i cant be out of commission for #a couple of days. WAH.#my friend had an adjacent surgery and said she woke up in a lot of pain! they obvs administered pain management #immediately but oh god. ykwim. im scared of waking up in a lot of pain being in a lot of pain

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arolesbianism · 4 months ago

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Time for more eternal gales isat au, this time featuring Sier as Isabeau, creating a sprite I can never use next to Aris’ because despite my best efforts it would make them look tall

#keese draws #eternal gales #oc #oc art #isat #in stars and time #this one didn’t take nearly as long as the aris one but I think I suffered for it more from the clothes alone #siffrin made me forget I suck at drawing clothes rip #this was also harder because of how much trickier it was to try and adapt siers design to feel fitting enough for my standards #they have a very stylized design compared to most of the others #I kind of took the lazy route out by keeping most of their original shapes in tact but it’s fine #sier in this au would serve the needed role of emotionally intelligent bestie who is also too scared to cross boundaries to do much #but despite this I do think they’d actually get the suspicion quest in this au #mostly because mase is a furry artist not a nerd and sier would be more likely to look at aris and go bro. are you in a fucking timeloop.#it also differs in that aris doesn’t yell at sier abt it instead looping before they can finish because she can’t handle hearing them be #right on the money about this thing that she thought she was handling perfectly #she doesn’t want to fail them she doesn’t want them to realize she’s failed them she doesn’t want to be a burden she doesn’t want them to #‘realize’ they’re better off without her #aris is Incredibly resistant to accepting help on most serious issues because shes convinced that it’s her responsibility to deal with it #by herself and that if she can’t then she’s a failure and worse than useless #I mean in canon eternal gales she literally loses her eye and arm because of that #in this au she just lost them how sif lost his eye but she still has. complexes abt all that.#but yeah sier also differs wildly from isa in many Many other ways as does the rest of the cast from their assigned characters #for sier they rly aren’t the jock of the group at all instead being more of the guy who keeps the mood lighthearted at all times lest they #die of stress because the others haven’t said anything in a whole 30 seconds #aka they’re the self assigned peacekeeper who doesn’t actually need to constantly keep the peace because no one’s fighting but they still #feel like they need to so they dance and dance and dance for their friends until they collapse from exhaustion #metaphorically ofc #this is why they’re both terrified to confront aris when she starts acting a bit fucked up but also why they still do sometimes anyways #they talk abt this a lil bit in their friend quest as they talk abt how they want to change but are scared to

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the-pea-and-the-sun · 1 month ago

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okay having pcos isnt fun anymore

#i used to get periods like once every four months but lately its been like. twice a month #i cant even stand getting them once a month i dont know how people do it so like. TWICE a month???? i literally actually cant like holy shi #doc wants to put me on birth control but i rly dont wanna b on birth control. what i WANT is a hysterectomy #but my insurance wont pay for it unless im old enough for the cysts to b at risk of being cancerous or unless ive been on t for 12 months #maybe i could just lie an say i been on t for 12 months i already look like it. like are they gonna check #im missing a lot of medical records anyway #FUCK AUGHH maybe i should jus go on t it wouldnt b that different anyway #im honestly just lazy an scared of needles. an gel wouldnt b viable for me #charlie words #vent

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itsalwaysdark · 4 months ago

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anyways sry its not srs eventually ill get it together . and be a person again. one day

#its just like atm everything that i need is like . not possible. which is oartially my brain being like We have to do this before we this #which sometimes isnt true but sometimes is #like i cant get medicated again or back seeing a psych or back on t until i get a job again #but i cant get a job again utnil i get my ged <- partially untrue but ged would make it a lot easier #but i cant get my ged until i have a job bc it costs money <- if i asked my parents they would probably help me If they had money 2 spare #since like. yk. they want ne to be able to work again so i have money again and ill be another source of income and they care abt me also .#affirmations . ppl donot just see me as a piggy bank they do see me as a person im not judt someone to squeeze money out of thats not how #ppl view me and its fine its fine its fine its fine . it feels so stupid being scared abt that i feel like a rich person whos like She only #likes me for my money 😭 like stfuuu annoying ass. i just ummmm. have a massive fear of debt and like. ppl demanding money from me #unexpectedly or expecting i am going to give them money. not in like a Ohhh fucking ppl want me to donate not it at all im happy to donate #but in like. god this is dumb. eveeytime i got birthday or christmas money as a kid i had to give it to my parents so they could buy food or #gas or whatever. and it never got paid bsck and it felt like shit. but i couldnt ever say no bc then itd be My fault we didnt have food that #week . yk. my first paycheck i had to give it all to my mom for groceries and we got in a fight in the store bc she was like Ok im gonna go #buy pop and my dumbass got upset abt it bc like. my mom told me itd be Necessities nd like. yk. wtvr. it was fucking stupid my entire family #r caffeine addicts so pop is a necessity i was just. rly upset and it felt like my parents saw my money as just. theirs but they had to ask #abt it so i wouldnt get pissy. yk. and they ask me for money a lot usually for food and i dont mind but it like. idk im rly paranoid abt #being a provider and ive got a Lot of guilt abt like. anytime we dont have enough food it feels like my fault bc it was my fault when i wasa #kid if i didnt give up my christmas money for pizza. or whatever. idk its so dramatic like i didnt need the money i was 8 it was selfish of #me to wanna buy fucking. toys or whatever that wasnt more important than My parents being able to get to work or my siblings being able to #fucking. literally eat. or paying bills. like its selfish that im like wahhh wahhh but i wanted to buy vibeo game wif my bday money i #shouldve judt been fucking grateful i was able to help my family. wtvr. I hate connor. wtvr #n then the shit with ugh last year like. yk. and stuff. and then the them stealing 1000 from me not getting into it b4 i get mad. idk.#and im just lazy now i need to get a job again but all the shit like. as i was saying earlier b4 i started whining. idk. i should be happy #that i get to help w bills and stuff that was my dream as a kid #like ever since i was 5 when i was fantasizing abt my future i was like Im gonna marry a prince and then ill be able to afford to pay all of #my families bills and my parents and siblings will be able to go to college and be happy and maybe never have to work bc ill be able to #handle it and ive always like. yk. when i was a dumbass kid i was like Ill go to college so i can get a good job and be useful. of course i #cant ever go to college bc im fucking. useless. and itd just be another burden on my family if i was in debt bc i couldnt help them as much #if i had debt and itd be selfish. and it doesnt matter bc im too stupid to go to college anyway. idk. i wish i could just fix everything #it just feels awful rn im literally just a drain and my family doesnt say it to me yk like. ik theyre happy imback i think they are

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fuwaprince · 1 year ago

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White people when they didn't shower their kids in 2020: I am virtuous all natural savior 🙏 going green ♻️💚 saving water ✨so pure and clean✨ you're welcome "bae" 🕊️

White people when brown kids don't shower: *gags while kicking us out of school* *bullies* *shames* *guilts* *doesn't care whether or not we even a place with running water* *spreads the lie that it's because we're just dirty*

#had a professional and productive discussion today about this #i had to do my best not to cry because yeah. my housemates shaming me for not showering after my summertime homeless #rly hurt because they'd still be praising themselves for not #even tho let's be real they were probably just being lazy which is fine #the point is when i shower i waste THEIR WATER but when they take a nightly bath it's “self care”#she says it's because she got cancer but i didn't realize tragedy meant you got to live lavishly from that point on #must be nice having the power to decide that and then having the fucking nerve to say my usage is fucking waste #WHILE COMPLAINING THAT I SMELLED BTW LIKE WTF #it's literally racism

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agayconcept · 10 months ago

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#wow ok so the new nurse practitioner im connected with is uh. The Worst Person #extremely discriminatory #doesnt give a fuck about her patients well being or health #wont do her job properly even when its fucking over said patients #is lazy as shit and tries to get out of doing any work whatsoever even just checking a fax #and has now screwed my healthcare over bc she's going on vacation for 2 weeks and DIDNT INFORM ME even tho i have tests scheduled #and am supposed to start meds that r extremely time sensitive #but now i just. Cannot access them bc she wont prescribe them before she leaves #so uh. ok. we're fuckin Done w this #gonna talk to my support worker tomorrow and explain and ask for a referral outside the program #which suuuucks bc that means said NP would have to do it and im sure she'll put up a fight but uh #ya no sweetie we r done w this #u hate disabled ppl and think my life and health is a joke #u have spent 3 weeks sabotaging any attempts i have made at getting adequate care and access to resources #genuinely and actually Fuck Off And Die #this is. truly infuriating i rly dont have words #like hooo boy if i had to quote some of the shit she's said and done y'all would be shocked #which is rly saying something considering the abysmal state of healthcare in most countries rn #aiyaiyai #Fuck This #i am. so so so done

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0uterspacew0rm · 1 year ago

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im such a dispassionate person. like im incapable of pursuing anything to completion or maintaining hobbies or delving deep into anything

#like yes i get brainrot for anime and shows n shit. i have a few interests. i do a bit of art a bit of writing #theres so much i wanna learn (like 3 languages linguistics old technology stuff eg dif methods of photography recording web stuff kickboxing #digital art video games birdwatching weightlifting woodwork medieval history coding metalwork poetry. to name a few things)#but i just lose interest and motivation so quickly im so lazy #i never do finished art pieces i have a billion unfinished animatics and plans and ideas i have like 20 unfinished fanfics #like ik i should be happy ive made anything at all but i just wanna be able to rly love something!#but its like. i hate watching ads i despise ads w every fibre of my being. but i cba to figure out how to make adblock work again on yt #so ive just been putting up w it. if i cant even do a simple task thst woudl take me 2 mins how am i going to do anything w my life ever.#not to mention even the easy stuff im bad at. the amount of half finished series unread books unwatched films...#its like what do i even do w my time. what do i have to share w the world what do i have to talk abt what do i have to contribute. nothing

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zebrafiz · 2 years ago

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actually had quite a lot of fun playing the sims today… a very rare occurrence

#it’s 4am BROOOOO I’m done😭#it’s 90% in part to mods but growing together is actually helping a lot #like it’s rly fun #the new pie menu is so annoying tho 😒#and I need to know if there’s any ways u can argue w ppl who are staying w u when they’re being lazy #BECAUSEEEEEEEEEEEE brooklyns uncle came to stay and brought all four of his Fawking cats #and isn’t cleaning up after himself at ALL #and it might be an ai problem but I’m taking as a Brooklyns Uncle Problem #he’s a BUM. and it’s pissing me off #and they keep getting into spats #and she’s pregnant and miserable #and also in finals week at university 😭😭😭😭 and her bf works full timmeeeeeeee #and their daughter is just minding her business bless her heart…. not a thought in that head of hers #*personal

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equalseleventhirds · 2 years ago

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oh............. tragedy of picking up random hair product at the discount store

and then it's good on my hair

and then. it is. discontinued......

#to be expected ngl half the things at the discount store r there bcos they're being discontinued #just the remaining overstock is there #but i had hoped....... ah well.#mostly my hair is rly thick and simultaneously very fluffy and very oily. so balance is key.#picked up a tube of undone style cream for like $2 and it was a just right balance #but alas....... i'm not spending $16 for the same thing. that's 8 times the price. nop.#and it is a small tube. alas alas.#oh well there's enough left for me to try out other products #mostly i just cycle through whatever random stuff i find. i am v bad at consistency in hair or skin care #maybe if i put in effort we wouldn't be here trying a different product every couple of months. and yet. lazy me.

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anzfaulkner · 2 years ago

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I hate that it genuinely seems more feasible and realistic for me to just live in daydreams for the rest of my life, all I rly need is basic food and the most basic place to live and then I just spend the rest of my days daydreaming about the life I wish I could be living

I daydream vividly enough and the life I want isn’t obtainable so in that sense it kinda feels like just a more accessible way of living, it just sounds so sad and feels sad when I rly think about it

#personal #idk I’ve been becoming more aware lately of the fact that I rly am just trapped #I’m not lazy. I’m not making excuses. I got bound to something I couldn’t consent to at the time and now I’m stuck like this #not elaborating fully but tldr medical issues+being on disability+my moms sole occupation being taking care of me #so yeah. at this point I may as well embrace the daydreams where I can do whatever I want yknow

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illiousferret · 2 months ago

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it's frustrating because you'll frequently have people who act like they're trying to help you but don't help at all aside from telling you to get better, to do more, that you CAN do more if you just tried. this is all without thinking about the fact that sometimes the person who isn't doing anything IS trying- and trying their absolute fucking HARDEST. sometimes people need help doing things other people can't; if you have any type of disability that isn't especially visible, those same people will look at you and refuse help because you should...y'know...just be able to do that. apparently.

even medicated i still have trouble, honestly. like yeah, oh boy i sure can maybe do some normal things for a few hrs a day! then it's slump and do nothing time!!

executive dysfunction is legitimately physically uncomfortable. i’ll be trapped between two things, weirdly caught on how-much-time-it-might-take-me. i take hours worried im going to take hours doing things. i’ll sit on the floor for the entire day, caught up in the middle of not-doing the chores i actually do want to be doing.

& the amount of mental energy that goes into it. & the legitimate amount of anger and discomfort and self-hate. is not “being lazy”. it’d be a lot less work if i didn’t have to fight myself to just get up and do it.

i just need you to understand it’s not effortless. it’s never effortless. it’s not “okay let me just get up and finally start doing this.” it’s more like. i am slamming my foot on the pedal but the car is in neutral and nothing is moving. it’s more like shouting instructions into a dying telephone. it’s more like being trapped in a small electric box, and someone who hates me is administering shocks.

im trying. im trying. please help me get up.

#i say a few hrs but it's probably a fair bit of the day when i remember to take them #but it's pretty hard for me to take my meds consistently lol #anyways yeah seriously i've heard “stop being lazy and just do _” so many times said to myself and others i care for #like just say you don't wanna help lol #i also mention disabilities that aren't visible and i'm moooostly talking abt adhd here but anything counts rly #audhd #adhd #autism

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phagodyke · 5 months ago

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someone at climbing came up to me specifically to compliment my determination I will be riding this high for weeks 🤭😚

#determination? that thing from undertale????#they said they admired how i always put my all in n wished they had that... well let me introduce u to a little smth called roguelik-#im being silly but. :-) one of the nicest things anyones said to me in a while :-))))#ppl telling me they think im lazy is one of the meanest insults u can pull on me bc of my adhd..... im sensitive abt it #but this is like the diametric opposite. yeah im a tryhard ty for noticing i love u #anyway it was cuz i spent like half an hour on this v4 trying to nail a rly ugly heel hook.. well the hook itself was fine #but the push up n over = nasty. ive got that part of the route down tho i just couldnt for the life of me figure foot placings beyond that #but ill work some more on it next week.. nice to have a couple pet projects #also sad they took my fave yellow v4 down but they replaced it w a green v4 i figured out by myself n was rly proud of hehheehe #couple other v3/4 routes on my gym bucket list that i need to commit to next week too.. but yeaaa fun today even if i wasnt at my best #i need to shower and immediately sleep im so tireeeeddd wah #.diaries

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arolesbianism · 3 months ago

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I wanna take a crack at making some fake screenshot graphics for my Sif Odile duo loopers au but I do not feel confident enough in my ability to mimic isat's art style and I also have a crippling fear of drawing backgrounds

#rat rambles #stars posting #I wanna make a thing for odile's parallel scene to the bathroom scene were sif forgets odile's name #but it takes place in the traps room by the wood carving tools which isn't the worst room to have to draw ig but I still dont want to #I could just take the lazy route and just sketch the scene so I can get it out of my head and I probably will #but at the same time I also should draw more stuff with backgrounds even if it makes me want to throw up and cry #but yeah the scene is basically just odile having a derealization moment while thinking abt the wooden odile carving sif made for her #just her looking at it and feeling nothing and trying to look ahead at siffrin expecting to be reminded of what it's supposed to make her #feel and just being met with the same emptyness in her chest as she can barely even recognize the person in front of her until they look #back at her and their expression shifts into a extremely concerned one #does that make sense? idk if Im explaining it well but I hope it makes sense #but yeah smth smth them becoming less real to eachother overtime much to the horror of both #also unrelated but I need to start rotating loop in this au in my head more theres so much to work with here #I have some vague ideas and thoughts but I have been too odile brained to properly elaborate on those in my head #Im honestly just glad Ive finally made an au that I can actually get invested in fleshing out #I havent rly found a good headspace to rly play around with the main cast but this is actually giving me smth to chew on #usually most thoughts I have abt isat just lead to me thinking abt my ocs lol #regardless Im having fun with this au and I hope that I can bring myself to commit to it #also Ive been trying to think of a decent name for this au and Im half tempted to call it from the top or smth but I feel like Im tempted #to call like every story I make that so Im on the fense abt it #especially since thats what Ive been planning on calling the prologue for spiraling upwards #not that I cant just do both but I wanna see if I can think of any alternatives

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binders-and-beanies · 9 months ago

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Going off my rant from earlier I think part of the difference between me n other people regarding being busy is that when the average person says “I have so much to do” they may indeed have a fuckton to do but they simply Don’t do it. Whereas with me I don’t get a Chance to do everything bc the list grows faster than I can do everything + my time is constantly occupied by things beyond my control. And people say they relate to that but then when they have enough time to do something they don’t and I’m like god if I had half the time yall spend doing nothing I would be unstoppable

#like. I rly don’t want to be a suffering contest person it’s just that people insist upon it being a competition and this is how I rly feel #and I know everyone has things that make tasks challenging I don’t mean to dismiss that #even if the challenge is just that the task is stupid and cringe. that also sucks!!#but I don’t get to not do smth bc I don’t want to #I don’t get to take a nap or pace or stare at the wall or binge a show like everyone talks abt like it’s a universal experience #I don’t even get time with which to procrastinate if I wanted to #it just. gets rly overwhelming and frustrating bc it feels like I can’t relate to ppl and they can’t relate to me and I’m like But U Should #you should know what I’m talking abt. I know I’m not the only one and I know everyone around me isn’t just lazy or has nothing going on #so whyyy do people not understand this experience no matter what words I use to describe it #how are people able to be like ��yeah I feel you’ and then describe a lifestyle I cannot IMAGINE #I’m not even trying to be mean but also other people get to be mean abt it #I’m just. spiraling rn bc I’ve been burnt out for years #it’s not even a superiority complex it’s Distress I hate living like this and I hate feeling alone in it!!#like I shouldn’t have to explain this bc why would anyone in good faith see me crying for help and think I’m bragging #I don’t WANT this!! I would like myself better if I were rested and had the freedom to maintain relationships and interests!!#that would be worth bragging over!!#mine #txt #personal #vent post

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