#it was simultaneously not my
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Remembering my senior year, during tech week for Guys and Dolls, I was not only exhausted but also having a really bad flare. I was talking with my friend (who was one of the leads of the musical) and I was talking about how being so tired was causing a flare and making my life even harder. Like I kept dropping things, could barely walk, and most notably my speech was terrible. And I was known for speaking so fast that my words and sounds got jumbled (read: I have ADHD). He admitted he noticed and was very concerned and confused as to how my having a flare, which had to do with my feet since I was dancing and such, was causing my to speak as if I was drunk.
I tried to explain that as someone who suffered from chronic pain (was first diagnosed with AMPS at 11 and a few month after this would get diagnosed with fibromyalgia) the more pain I’m in the harder things, even basic things like motor skills and speech, went out the window.
However due to my speech having stopped for dulce de leche at El Cafe Cubana in Havana (HaVaNa?!?!??) what came out was:
“Words get hard the more ow.”
My friend clearly amused repeated “words get hard the more ow?” To which I tiredly lowered my head and let out a sigh in defeat.
Keep in mind: I’m the funny friend with ADHD. I will bare the most embarrassing parts of myself for the bit, to the point I have trouble getting people to take me seriously. I’m not above self mockery if it means people find me funny. And yet, this time I did not lay myself out like A Fool™️ on purpose. This was solely my barely functioning last brain cells trying to make a point, but not having enough brain power to do so properly.
Never in my life could I have accurately described the essence of being in so much pain that you can barely speak properly yet continue to go about your day, so perfectly, despite being in so much pain that you can barely speak properly. And by accident.
#it was simultaneously not my#but also my proudest moment#chronic pain#chronic disability#chronic illness#flare up#chronic pain flare#fibromyalgia#amplified musculoskeletal pain syndrome#adhd#tech week#theatre kid#high school theatre#guys and dolls#did you catch my reference?
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something something taking on the mannerisms of your loved ones
#i also think at some point yor and anya sneeze simultaneously in the exact same manner and loid melts#also i forgor bond 😞😞 i am sorry bond#spy x family#my art#loid forger#yor forger#sxf#anya forger#sxf yor#sxf loid#sxf anya
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How did you get so cool Kim??
+shitposts
#disco elysium#disco elysium fanart#kim kitsuragi#trans#harry du bois#harrykim#kimharry#save me ki.m...#man i love middle aged men#digital art#my art#is it weird to simultaneously want to be kim and look like him and be in love with him at the same time#is that normal
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i'll strangle you or i'll kiss you on the mouth
#laius thorden#laios touden#kabru#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#my art#Linktoo art#labru#narrative foil yaoi my weakness.... anyway#the way he grabs that guy and begs him to stay and begs like please LISTEN to me#its so funny how kabru‚ someone who prides himself with understanding people and their motivations#just can't handle having some random guy like laius with a big prophecy on his head remain a mystery to him#the way laius just entirely evades him it drives him crazy. kabru puts motivations and assumptions in his mouth in any attempt to Know him#hes so scared of this man yet simultaneously drawn by being unable to discern his thought process#meanwhile#laius is just autistic
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DPxDC Idea
Danny working at Wayne Enterprises as some sort of engineer, uses the in-house app for all his blueprints and stuff
He starts getting notes from a coworker in-app, and assumes its this annoying older guy in his department who constantly undermines him because of his age, despite his education and past achievements (i feel like in this AU the Fentons react well to the reveal and they work together on a number of non-lethal ecto inventions that have Danny's name attached to them)
Except one day his coworker mentions never using the app, and Danny suddenly realizes there's only one other TD he could've been arguing with in the notes of the app
#dp x dc prompt#dpxdc#danny phantom#danny fenton#batman#tim drake#red robin#i have no ideas what happens beyond danny realizing it's been tim the whole time#and having a 'fuck ive been arguing with the big boss' moment#cause of course when he thinks its some asshole from his own department hes snarky as hell#but the ceo??#should he stop with the sarcastic explanations behind his designs?#or will tim think its weird if his tone changes#in my head this does end up being dead tired somehow#just because i love the idea of these two bonding over snarkiness and engineering#and i feel like tim would simultaneously love and hate danny's notes#but also is that actually in character? cause the only batman thing i've read is rhe webtoon#and i know some vague things about canon#but thats it
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need to exist in your warmth (id in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#blood tw#ruporas art#love u when i get to cuddle u and love u when i get to feel ur blood soak into my hands#being this close to one another means the eternal suffering of trying to separate love and mission. love for one and love for humanity#i like to think of pre-vol8 vash as someone who struggles with his feelings for ww bc as equal and as trusted he is -#vash knows his responsibilities and he knows/expects ww wouldn't let him stray from it either. for that he can't take to any romantic incli#and i think itd make him view ww in a stricter non-personal way... If that makes ANY sense.#for ww - take someone who youv gotten close to and ended up liking more than you expected#someone who has a belief and follows it stubbornly - someone who'll get into more fights and trouble more than youv had your entire life#ww thinks of him as a monster but he knows theres a limit he himself can take - i feel like hes considered what might be the limit for vash#for Safety measures. just in case. yknow. whenever he himself might have to load the bullet < him hyping himself up as if he could do it#my point being that the thought of vash being dead crosses his mind more than he'd like. i think its a simultaneous dread drop in his stoma#for failure of the mission - but also an Ok? They can be killed? and also a disastrous gunning of his own heart. considering how much they#both live in their own heads some days are Just the worst ever for them in each others company. but also they lov each other :[ sooo much
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I'm asking your Hermes out
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#ochi asked#he is simultaneously really fun and actual hell to draw#epic the musical#hermes#greek gods#greek mythology#my artwork
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Hugh Jackman casually admitting he’s a slut. Dare I add… a preening one? (pt. 1 and pt. 3)
#gif is below if you want it :)#if you know you know#huge ackman does it again#he keeps doing this thing where ughhhh….We love a self aware king!#googles… how can one be a wh0re and a slvt simultaneously?#hugh jackman#ryan reynolds#Deadpool and Wolverine#poolverine#and by default logan is one as well#Deadpool 3#deadpool x wolverine#logan howlett#wade Wilson#and wade Wilson was right about you sir#my gifs#deadpool 3#deadpool movie#wolverine and deadpool#deadpool wolverine#deadclaws
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Devastating homoerotic Situantioship ends in catastrophic divorce
Thousands dead, countless injured
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#billford#gravity falls#bill cipher#the book of bill#stanford pines#ford TO ME is simultaneously the most aroace (leaning towards the homoromantic spectrum) character ever#and#the one most likely to absolutely have had a romantic psychosexual relationship with an evil triangle#the book of bill really is just 100 pages of bill being like “well shit I think i actually loved and still love this guy”#meanwhile for Ford is on SIGHT if he ever sees Bill again#bill wants to fuck that old man so badly it makes him stupid#my art#my fanart
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Low effort Mr. Tang thoughts💛✨
#lmk xiaotian#lmk mk#lmk tang#baba tang#lmk#lego monkie kid#he’s my muse rn idk why but I love him#it would be simultaneously so freaking cool and also silly goofy if he got golden cicada powers
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Hilson should have had ONE. (1) honest to god fistfight. Not talking about no pansy ass scuffle either i need a FIGHT. Im talking bloodied noses nd bruised cheeks. I need them to exchange words that will alter the course of their relationship forever. MOST OF ALL. They need to make out nastystyle afterwards
#Drawing this was so fuckingfunny because house is so absolutely into this HHEKELALLAOAPPPAOSJHHAGHEHU#Yes i tried to draw this homoerotic as possible but simultaneously house by nature would be SO into this i dont even get a say in it#LOOK AT HIS FACE#Wilson would get MAD mad and house would be like “😳😳😏😏” Hes such a little freak. What fucking ever#House needed to get jumped soooo bad chase swinging on his ass is still to date the best thing hes ever done in-show#Im not even sayingthis becayse i hate house i fucking love house actually one of my charactersof all time#But the shit this man pulls sometimes. Bro#like u need to get jumped. FOR YOUR OWN GOOD#johan being crazy about yaoi md#johan's scrapbook#house md#house md fanart#hilson#hilson fanart#james wilson#gregory house
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on call
#cod#call of duty#mw2#kyle gaz garrick#my art#i'm really fond of this one actually~#if you're wondering why I'm churning out pieces like a madman#I've been working on all these simultaneously for the past few weeks#and I'm just gonna keep riding this art high 🙏
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tim "faking" a bicycle accident to get his neighbor to come help him, based on @upswings's post, which gripped me by the throat the moment i read it
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#sart#tim drake#dick grayson#dick & tim#dc#long post#ITS FINALLY DOOOOOOOOOOOONE#i've been chipping away at this for so long#im never gonna draw a full comic again#<- will absolutely draw a full comic again#only for these two#anyway tim probably gets grounded but somehow finagles dick as his “responsibly neighbor who saved him” to babysit him#while dick is simultaneously angling for that exact position to keep an eye on his suspicious kid neighbor#the payoff of the last page was the only thing keeping me going (and my friend <3)
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forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.
#or just the moral dilemmas#rewatching amc interview is kind of making me insane#that moment in episode two when louis is looking for a sort of assurance in the fact that lestat may actually have some good in him#look at how he cares about music look at the simple wondrous things that can bring him joy#and then the immediate dread when the opera performance turns out to be imperfect because he knows how lestat will react to *that*#I think there’s also something really interesting in the highlighting of lestat upbraids the less skilled singer before killing him#(slowly)#but also I will wait to watch more before I articulate my thoughts#vampires#interview with the vampire#amc interview with the vampire#i ramble sometimes#I do still find the lestat and claudia film and novel dynamic by far the most compelling for how she tries to usurp him but almost to be him#but I’m enjoying this#I’m very curious if I will like show claudia more on rewatch#the movie always resonated most with me (sue me lol) because there seemed to be more simultaneous fondness and attachment even at the end
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behind every sandy man is a woman rooting for his downfall
#do ants have integrity#sir crocodile#nico robin#one piece#I fucking LOVED the alabasta arc#crocodile simultaneously one of the stupidest and smartest villains#dude managed to successfully create a coup in a country that couldn’t be successfully avoided#but also he falls for telephone scams#I want to kiss him on the mouth#also NICO ROBIN MY BELOVED#SHES SO BADASS#wife for sure#she’s so dramatic#that entrance on the stairs?#SERVE
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Alpine ‘menace’ Rogers-Barnes
#she is simultaneously a sweet little spoilt princess and a little menace#alpine the cat#bucky barnes#steve rogers#stevebucky#marvel fanart#marvel#cats#my art
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