#it was believed to be a failure.
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Death was meant to be permanent.
It held tightly to those to fall to it, waited patiently for those who didn't seem able to die to finally join its embrace. It would wait a day, a thousands years, longer - for it knew everyone would approach its door. Eventually. It could wait.
It was through the Force - through alchemy, through rituals - that one could make death unlatch its gnarled teeth from its possessive hold. (They always came back in the end. It could wait a little longer.)
It was through the Force, that the body could preserve itself as a silent clock began to tick-tick-tick.
It was through the Force that the runes carved into flesh would begin to burn, and the hole in a heart would heal over. That breaths would return to the lungs and - like a forgotten machine being powered on for the first time in centuries - the body would begin to respond.
Tick-tick - the first beating of a lifeless heart would begin again.
Tick-tick - the chest would spasm for air, the lungs would ache for it.
Tick-tick - thoughts would come back. Slowly, oh so slowly. Hazy memories; of pain, of loss, of the lightsaber driven through a chest.
Tick-tick - the countdown would end, with twitching fingers and eyes flying open to be met by darkness. End, with panicked breathing as he realized he was trapped, that there was a hole in his chest to tell him his brother was gone. End, as he shoved at the confines of his newfound prison through the Force.
The top of a stone coffin would crack in two as both halves flew off.
There would be tears on his face even as the rest of his body would be slow to come to.
His...his brother was dead. Varkhal was gone. Couldn't feel him anymore.
Or, so their master would want him to believe.
#swtor#sith warrior#oc: soren haysh#uhhhhh oops.#kinda. experimental.#i'm not 100% on whether or not soren will get to live#but dammit if it's not tempting and this could be FUN#(idea behind this being: the twins' master did an experimental ritual on soren#it was believed to be a failure.#...and then soren died and the runes triggered to show that. wow. /it worked!!/#what if. /what if/. nothing short of beheading or cutting him in half (MAYBE we see how maul survived That One) would Keep Him Dead)#he and var thinking the other died bc like. soren Did Actually Die. their force bond was severed. he just. got back up later. oops.
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William is the most divorced man in the FNAF universe
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf movie#michael afton#william afton#ballora#fnaf sister location#fnaf 4#been a bit since I’ve done an unserious comic#I actually just really wanted to draw Ballora again ngl#William Afton is the most divorced man in that fnaf universe#not saying it actually went like this or anything#BUT THE IDEA William out of him missing his wife#makes ballora to basically belittle him for his failures#IS so funny and plankton coded that I just wanna believe it’s true#and the idea on top of all that Michael is there#like Michael is the one who stays with William the longest#I can only imagine the horrors he has witnessed#of his dad just missing his wife and Henry etc#men will make robot wife before going to therapy
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You have to stop ruining things for yourself preemptively because you believe they’ll fail anyway. Give yourself a chance to succeed.
#forcing failure now will not prevent the pain of it#give yourself a chance to see a better outcome#suggestions#recovery#positivity#self love#mental health#self care#ed recovery#love#goals#life goals#daily life#hope#hopcore#believe in yourself#healing#study motivation#studyblr
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don't stress about that opportunity that fell through or that friend you lost or that thing you really want to happen but isn't. as long as you keep your chin up and try try try again, better things will replace your losses. i'm looking at my life rn and actually marveling at how every single thing i stressed about, whether it be an opportunity or a person, got supplanted w another thing that is so much better. it really is true that loss makes space for better things. these days i don't get sad when something doesn't work out. i get excited that i'm now open to so many other possibilities out there, so long as i actively seek them. you never lack. you just transition.
#operating from an abundance mindset is changing my life truly#i used to fight to convince myself of it but now that i see it happening in real time? it's so true and i'm soothed by it#this isn't even coming from a manifestation or religious angle bc i'm neither of those things#i just believe that a good attitude and strong work ethic can get you places if you don't let failure stop you#and don't allow the noise (other people's opinions) to weigh you down#text
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his swagless looks and absolutely rizzless personality captivates me
and then for art reasons i designed the auto axe. i'm happy w it :]
if you ship scc together go away Please and thank you 👍
#the art gallery#deltarune#scc#none of this is ship art btw. his romantic failures is just funny to me#he’s made comments abt susie noelle and queen In Game and i firmly believ they will never go anywhere HDHDHSJS#for one queen is an adult. and then noelle is into susie. and susie Doesn’t Like any of scc even platonically I’m pretty sure
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coming in hot with my first take on antisemitism in a while after trying to limit my time on this cesspit of jew hatred: being an ally is not something you can identify as, it is something that you become through actions and are deemed so by the minority you are allying with. 99% of you who identify as an ally of the jewish people are actually raging antisemites. if we are scared of you (we are) you are not an ally, not matter how much you identify as one.
#one of the biggest failures we are witnessing among this rise of antisemitism#is people identify as not being antisemitic#so they believe they can't be antisemitic#which isn't true#you can't decide you aren't antisemitic and if a jew calls you antisemitic#and you ignore it#because 'i'm an ally i can't be antisemitic'#guess what you aren't an ally#jewish#jumblr#antisemitism
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Luffy is so crazy for this, man.
Judge is spouting out all the things that make Sanji a failure in his eyes.
And then Luffy just says that it's all the good things about Sanji.
That does shit to a motherfucker Luffy, calm down.
#i cannot believe more ppl dont ship them tbh#like woah there luffy loving sanji for all the things he feels like a failure for#its the perfect match#one piece#monkey d luffy#black leg sanji#judge vinsmoke#lusan#sanlu#whole cake island
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What's the worst lie the popular batfam fanon has made you believe?
I'll start:
'Worst' might be an exaggeration, but the fanon that says Jason is Bruce's favorite son.
#the poor guy is called batman's biggest failure for a reason#“I'm not your responsibility anymore” “no jason you're my fault”#look I'm not saying he doesn't love jason but most of his feelings in the present are based on guilt#when I first started talking interest in the dc fandom I saw this fanon everywhere#i really believed it was canon for a bit#jason todd#red hood#bruce wayne#batman#dc#dc comics
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My name is Lew Wentz.
I am a 69 year old gay criminal defense lawyer. I have been keeping journals for 47 years as of September 14, 2024.. I am writing a book based on the journals.
I came out as a gay man in 1984. I was married to a woman then. I left the marriage after telling her I was gay.
My younger sister, Zoe, who I was very close to, died rather suddenly of pancreatic cancer in May of 2023. She gave me permission to blog the last two weeks of her life. Those blogs run from May 1 to May 14, 2023.
I journaled my journey through the turbulent 1980's and 1990's. During that time, I was pretty vocal about being gay. I volunteered to help people with aids through their illness and death. And, I believe because of this, I was fired from my job as a deputy Public Defender in Modesto California. I also documented the 12 year relationship I had with my partner, Jim, who died in 2009.
I wrote pretty much daily about these events and many others. I never intended for the entries to be made public. But, I now think they should be, as they weave what I believe to be our common story of what it's been like to be out, human and gay in the past four decades.
And, as I journaled, I developed ideas and ways to journal and wrote about them in the journals. I discuss the impact journaling has had on me. And, the amazing revelation reviewing journal entries for the blog and book of just how incredible our lives have been. Memory fades. The journal details do not.
My hope is that , after reading the blogs, and maybe some day the book, you too will become addicted to journaling. Your life on paper will amaze you down the line.
My blog became one and one half years old on August 5, 2024.
#journaling#gay man#criminal defense attorney#gay history#journaling techniques#writing#radical gay elder#aids#volunteer support for people with aids through illness and death in the 80's and 90's.#gym and diet enthusiast#being fired from a job I believe because I was out as a gay man#gay and vocal#Being disinherited in part because I was out and gay.#death of a sister#working through grief and mourning#The amazing experience of reliving and learning about my life through journal review#12 year relationship with my partner Jim Wentzel who died of liver failure in 2009#open water swimming (ocean)
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It’s hard to believe I deserve anything good when I’ve been subjected to so much cruelty.
#ryan.txt#cptsd#ptsd#trauma#traumatized#like I know I have to believe I’m good enough#but I truly don’t feel like I am#I feel inadequate#I feel worthless#I feel like a failure#it feels like all I deserve is abuse
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Honestly, the biggest downfall in the writing of Hotd is that the writers seem barely aware of the actual politics behind the Dance other than the misogyny.
And even that they only touch on in the most surface level way completely divorced from the context of the actual feudal system it exists in.
#like why is Alicent a WOMAN presented as the biggest opposition to Rhaenyra#why is her failure as a parent the focus over Viserys?#why is class a nonissue on the show??!#why are Rhaenyra's political choices utterly incomprehensible??!#if I'm meant to believe she would be a more stable ruler than Aegon than why do I literally know nothing about her ruling style#she has been running Dragonstone for almost 10 years at this point but why do we know NOTHING about it???!#she might be less erratic and vile as an individual but she has shone zero qualities that exemplifie her as a ruler#so why are so many showcharacters so convinced she would be a great queen#Alicent Rhaenys Corlys Erryk (I think?) all talk about how great and just of a ruler she will be#it would be great if the show would stop telling me that and actually show it#hotd#house of the dragon#anti ryan condal#hotd critical
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me since i was 13
#sadgirl#female rage#female hysteria#girlrotting#girl failure#coquette#coquette aesthetic#coquettecore#dollette#dollcore#lana del rey#lana del rey aesthetic#tumblr 2014#lizzy grant#sofia coppola#lux lisbon#the virgin suicides#girl interrupted#black swan#palo alto#i believe in unicorns#i tonya#buffalo 66#daisy randone#britney murphy#natalia dyer#natalie portman#ultraviolence#born to die
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"Oh so when James Kirk refuses to believe in no-win scenarios it's 'changing the conditions of the test' and 'commendable original thinking,' but when I, Bradward Boimler, can't accept the possibility of failure and retake the Kobiyashi Maru sixteen times–"
#lower decks#star trek lower decks#brad boimler#in my headcanon his first performance wasn't *great* but he did technically pass#but by refusing to accept that he hadn't beat the test and insisting on retaking it he turned his pass into a fail#and he *kept* retaking it until the instructor point-blank told him that there was no way to beat the program#And that the whole point was to experience personal failure#And *even then* Boims was like “so you mean by failing I actually HAVEN'T failed at all!”#“No that's not– ugh you know what sure. Gold star kid. Just get out of my office." ”Did I get an A+?“ ”OUT!“#Completely missed the point of the exam and they basically pity-passed him after the seventeenth try#Mariner on the other hand already knew what the point of the test was ahead of time#(She didn't cheat she was still a goody-two-shoes at this point) (An older classmate or friend happened to mention it around her)#But she *did* think it was a bullshit test and just pretended to be humbled and accept defeat in order to get a good grade#She doesn't believe in no-win scenarios either#It's part of what makes them a good team
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Trans women. I'm grabbing you by the shoulders and yelling. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BE SKINNY TO BE FEMININE AND PRETTY AND CUTE. PLEASE STOP MAKING DIETS PART OF YOUR TRANSITION GOALS. WEIGHT LOSS IS A SCAM. I LOVE YOU. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL.
#I see so many transfems say they want to have “flat stomachs” or do diet and exercise regimes to try and get an “hourglass figure”#and it really worries me. girls you do not have to destroy yourselves to fit into unachievable beauty standards#the vast majority of cis women don't even fit those standards#and the same goes for you transmascs! I see you! I see you trying to get smaller chests and hurting yourselves with weight loss routines#and excessive workouts. it's not worth it. weight loss has OVER a 90% long-term failure rate and there's a reason for that#I assure you whatever diet you think you've found that “works for you” won't be working so well 5 years from now#and you're going to blame yourself for “slacking off”. but it's not you. it was never you. it was designed to fail.#these standards are made to hurt people and then sell them a false solution at the price of your health#I encourage you to transition if you'd like and live your best life I really do. but please please please do so SAFELY.#if weight loss is part of your transition goals please reevaluate WHY you believe thinness is necessary for achieving femininity#(or masculinity or androgyny but this stuff particularly affects women in the way it's marketed)#do research on fatphobia and the roots of weight loss culture. Learn where these ideas come from and why they're so prevalent.#It's extremely important#take care. stay safe. love you very much#trans#fat liberation#transgender#lgbt#trans rights#fat positivity#diet culture#fatphobia#transfem#trans positivity#transgirl#trans women#trans woman
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This specific dialogue interests me because it feels like the closest thing we get to a direct correlation between the True Ending and Loop giving up. I mean yea obviously the True Ending is literally the "TRUE ENDING" of SASASAP there was even a whole dialogue change to twohats in the latest update to super canonize it for the people who didn't get it. But the way this is phrased (as the direct progression of "something terrible" into "i'm here") makes me think that Loop waking up in that meadow again directly led into them making their second wish.
#isat spoilers#post made mostly bc this interaction is why i don't personally believe loop kept looping after true ending#i think if loop went through their 'nothing left to do in a video game' trying to do random shit until something gives phase#they did it before locking themself to the third floor#we know loop pulled some shit that siffrin never did and probably would never have ended up doing. see: mention of unfreezing claude.#leaving isabeau behind because he touched a tear one loop.#that clock dialogue that pretty much confirms loop skipped the house at least once. realistically multiple times given how muchthey remembe#abt what's happening in dormont at the time the clock displays#this is my way of saying i think the most interesting sasasap speculation comes from sasasap's precanon#rather than its postcanon#obv this is just my interpretation. but the progression i imagine in loop's loops is#normal looping. -> desperation for an out leads to wild experimentation. -> continuous failure leads to burnout#-> burnout leads to combination bullheaded inflexibility and apathy#-> leads into loop Doing Awful leads into true ending leads into despair taking over
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"or whatever"
#silly#FIRST TIME SUCCESSFULLY DRAWING JD#YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE THE AMNT OF FAILURES IVE BEEN THRU TO GET HERE#actually you would#it's 3 max#STILL .#soo la voo#john dory#trolls#trolls band together#sketch#fanart#art#JD#gnna start tagging my silly posts with if i remember .....#would add a link to the tiktok im quoting but this phone WONT LET ME!!! IT IS SO OLD
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