#it reminds me of a girl from 10 yrs ago

[lesbianlenas]

not me looking up the instagram of my internet friend from when i was like 13 and on book instagram (my pre tumblr days….) and her profile pic being a WEDDING PHOTO 😭😭😭😭 i’m literally screaming crying and throwing up rn she was a yr older than me i think so 24 rn i’m…………on a more serious note though i can’t believe i didn’t get a wedding invitation………

[the-good-projxct]

June 5th, 2024

10:56 pm listening to Mr. Big be with you. This song brings on so many feels. Sooo many feels. 

Happy 5 year sober anniversary to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow, it has been 5 yrs. Mbombo, how do you feel? What an achievement. What a journey. One day at a time truly matters. When I started the thought of years was so daunting. Now here I am at half a decade. I am so proud of me. This song reminds me of when we moved to Canada 24 yrs ago. I was 11 and life seemed so big and daunting. I didn’t have the concept of one day at a time. I was in a foreign country and everything felt bigger, stronger, smarter, faster and scarier than I was. And here I was, a little girl that Loved playing, daydreaming, drawing, writing, reading and spice girls. Suddenly I was expected to adult as a kid in a foreign world in a foreign language(Quebec). So I dedicate this song to the little girl: I'm the one who wants to be with you, deep inside I hope you feel it too ...just to be the next to be with you. It sounds cliche eh, that I want to hold little girl me and show her my world. Show her the world from my arms where she is safe, wanted and Loved. So that’s the plan. To lead a life that is considerate of her well-being. That is the life I hope to lead. When I look back at the last five years, I did that. I really lived a wholesome, joyfull, and Love filled life. Now for the next five years, I need to be mindful of including well-being. I know I am going into a different stage of adulting, that doesn’t mean I abandon childish wonder. TBH, childish wonder kept me sober. The first year sober felt like I was experiencing rebirth. Everything felt new, wonderful, amazing. From sunsets, to seasons, to emotions, to flavors. I had been numb for so long, I forgot how Gøod it felt to Live. So I need to remember to Live with childish wonder that will amaze 11yr old me. Being amazed by and grateful for this little life has been the he(art) of my sobriety. Great Spirit, the gratitude I have for you and to you brings me to tears. I am forever a child of the Universe first and foremost. And no matter where life goes, may I always center Spirit, gratitude and Love. I pray the day I die, folx say what a plot twist my life was. I pray folx say I LIVED and I LOVED. I want a Life well Lived. I want a Life full of Love. It is my responsibility to curate that. To create that. I am Created and I am Creator. So yeah, happy 5 yrs and all that wonderful magikal jazz life has to offer. On another note, I went to the gym today. I haven’t done an intense workout in like a year. I miss Kinetic soo much. But also, they became a crossfit gym and stopped offering Hiit classes which is what I enjoyed. Anyway I went to a tabata/hiit class today and my Pippo, I almost passed out and puked. I literally couldn’t finish the workout. I was shooketh. Anyway, I know I need to build back up to that level. The first time I did 3rd degree training, I puked. The first time I did Kinetic, I puked. So it seems like a form of initiation. Or maybe it's the consequence for quitting. Oh well. I will go to a dance class tomorrow. Then back to Tabata next week Wed. Munene and I watched a video by an Asian American dr on the brain. She talked about fitness. And since I value my brain, I will work out which will also benefit my body. Win win, innit? I am happy that my first workout was on my anniversary. Life is Gøod. I am Gøod. God is Gøod. Ase.

[hohoz]

How RE Village (8) SOLVED almost every problem that I had with RE Series

Okay - a few weeks ago I made a post that was “The ones that suffer the most” where I showed and explained my main problems with Chris and Jill and the RE series in general 

RE 1 is my fav game of this series and probably one of my all time favs, I player every RE there is to be played except 4 (because I dislike Leon, sry) 

Recently, specially after 4, the franchise had a few problems, specially in writing/map design/lore 

Resident evil 5 for example (I love this game) but it has it flaws, Chris there is only driven by anger and action - Sheva is used as a tool for lore exposition and to be Chris’s new partner 

PLEASE: be aware that game at that generation didn’t have much lore - with some exceptions, like God of War 1 2 3 were a simply game with a simple lore, and the most recent GoW has evolved a little bit in the storytelling

Until we hit rock bottom in RE6 - I know a lot of people like this game, but this is only and action game, bad writing and generic stages. 

Chris there is so mistreated that makes me mad (if you want to read more about this go to my other post “the ones that suffer the most”)

Until RE7 appeared, Capcom had a new engine and they wanted to do a game that was more horror like - since RE is know for being a Survival horror game.

I liked 7 - some people complained about Ethan being without emotion and others complained about the mold, a few didn’t like the FEAR vibes from Eveline. 

I personally enjoyed the game, I thought RE series was going back on track, that game has it’s problems but it was really nice compared to what we had in 6.

After that game I had a conversation with my best friend and I said that I wanted a game that portrayed Umbrella’s fall since the only game that shows this is Umbrellas Chronicles (and that is most a resume of what happened)

And I said: “Bro, I wish that when they made that game, they could tie some mythological lore and human evolution before Umbrella - using Spencer, this would solve LOT OF STUFF and open new ways to handle this series”

and guess what - this happened in RE8 and kudos to the one writer that did that, i have my gratitude. 

RESIDENT EVIL 8 is probably one of the BEST RE games that we had IN YEARS

And I want to address all thing that I loved in this game and do some predictions to what will happen in the next games.

“WELL WELL IF IT ISN’T ETHAN WINTERS” (The Father of the year)

My father was not a great guy... really, so I want to be the best dad ever, I really want be like Ethan - a guy who is ready to sacrifice and fight every monster in the way to save my family. 

Ethan was a character that in RE7 was used to make us fell like that it was us in the Baker’s house, so that is why he didn’t had that much personality (in my opinion) but they changed that in RE8, here he has nice dialogues AND a diary 

He has one of the best story line in the whole REverse, a guy that did EVERYTHING in his power to save his daughter - and you saw that playing the game, every sentence line that he delivered, he tried to save others too and even tho Chris said to him stay put ... but he couldn’t, he had to go to the altar, he had to help Chris, he had to go forward and keep going, specially after having the tools to face Heisenberg. 

The plea from a father, that was his last wish, after he heard that Mia was alive he knew that someone had to stop that monster, he made a promise to his daughter “Daddy won’t let those weird fairy tale monsters get you” so he trusted Chris, to be the one that teaches his kid how to be brave and strong

I will not address Chris and Rose situation here because this is Ethans part and he deserves completely all the spotlight, his sacrifice was 100x times better than Steve (CV)/Piers(6)

My cheers to Ethan Winters - You have my respect !

Revelations -> RE8 

So leaks from earlier times said that RE8 sucked and Revelations 3 was amazing

Revelations FYI is know for using old tales in RE stories 

Revelations 1 - Dante’s Inferno 

Revelations 2 - Frans Kafka 

Revelations 3 - Dracula 

But since RE8 sucked, Capcom said to the REV3 team that they could make REV3 become RE8 and they accepted 

Revelations series is one of the best in the games, they handle Jill in a way that I love, Claire and even Barry - so they deserve all the spotlight for making this awesome game - you CLEARLY can see that they love this series and that they treat all the characters with the love that they deserve. 

Keeping that in mind, they are the same team that made Rev 2 and in REV 2 we have this file here 

So they had a plan for Jill and we can see that in RE8 - I will address that later but keep that in mind - this team cares for the old characters, they were the ones that brought Barry back to the games :V 

Chris Redfield 

This is a hard one, because he is my fav character and I usually have the most critics regard him, since I’ve expect a lot from Capcom 

In the latest games they made him kind dumb, only muscles type of guy and an alcoholic that let all the people in his surroundings die (RE5,RE6,Vendetta) 

RE6 treats him the WORST

But in RE8 he had an amazing part in the storyline, it was obvious that he wasn’t evil and they FIXED HIS EYE COLOR - FINALLY 

I still don’t like the model face that much but it’s way better than 7 - so I believe Capcom, I still feel that he need more jawline 

But let’s go to the most important thing - here he really feels like a squad leader and a veteran, he has his team but he is the one in the front line, he covers and ask for help when he needs, everything about his line delivery makes you feel like “Woah, this guy is a badass, he is not some stupid guy only driven by emotions”

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR FINALLY GETTING THIS RIGHT 

If you remember my post about the ones that suffer the most / Jill is also in that list and I will talk about her a little bit later but if my guess is right RE8 saved her character aswell

Another thing that I enjoyed here is the fact that he is kind of a mercenary / Neo Umbrella kind of guy, even tho he is one of the founders of the BSAA

So I will give you all my score to this game: 

9/10

I won’t give 10/10 because of some technical issues, the cursor lock didn’t work and mouse sensitivity was i dunno, not the best. 

RE8 and the future (PREDICTIONS)  - Jill Valentine, Chris Redfield, BSAA, Neo Umbrella, Ada Wong and Rosemary

First let’s look Rose

The first time I saw Rose all grown up - I thought to myself : She has the same problem as Eveline (age a lot faster than normal) 

But she also absorbed Miranda’s power since the metalicite (something like this) thought that she was a better host. - so maybe she will live longer or something because I doubt that they will do a 14 years time skip. 

This is not the same as Terra Save logo (Claire’s job) but it kind reminds me of it - her shoes appeared at least 3 times in this cut scene so maybe they are trying to show some hints with this 

She really reminds me of Jodie (Beyond two souls, a game where a girl has a lot of power and the gov uses her in missions and stuff, but she also is learning how to be her own person) 

Another thing here is that they don’t have a logo in this car, it really reminds me the car that Chris as using in RE8 

This supports the theory that Chris’s organization is dealing with her instead of the BSAA, the she is a hot headed girl and that she had a lot of powers. 

So here you can say that she is just a kid because she is a teenager, but what if she actually grows older really fast (like Eveline) maybe this is just 1 year later / 2 yrs later. (after RE8)

So this is the tricky part, this is Chris’s guard/soldier, someone that Chris trust to stand by her side, in my mind I do believe that Chris is kind of a father figure to her, so when this guys says this he is thinking about hot head Chris but she replies “Yeah” thinking about Ethan - (she has the mold memories, so she can actually remember Ethan’s memories) 

Now let’s look at this 

BSAA 

So in REV1 is hinted that BSAA is not the best organization in the world, but since our heroes work there we think that they are the good guys right ? 

In REV 2 (it’s important to remember that the team that created RE8 is the same from the REVELATIONS and they had this file here in REV2)

This email is from Jill and what does Jill have ? T-Virus 

Wesker is a different case since he was a project and she had the vaccine but this would make a lot of sense if they had this tests with Jill to get the T-Virus

If that is the case, they explained Jill’s absence in the main games, could even explain why Chris left BSAA and opened a new window to a lot of possibilities 

My Predictions: 

- Chris had trouble dealing with BSAA and Jill’s case, he wanted to get her out of there, maybe he removed her from there but that resulted in him being expelled from the force

-Jill may or may not know what they are doing with her blood, but she will have a huge part in the BOW used by BSAA 

-Chris is married to Jill (sorry- I had to place this here, in a perfect world he has two kids with her and they all love aunt Rose) 

-Chris will hopefully be a father figure to Rose and they will be in a game together since in the end they came to get her

-Rebecca is still involved in BSAA activities (leak from new REV3) if you consider Vendetta canon, she maybe the one that used Jill’s sample of blood to create the virus soldiers

-Barry maybe retired 

-I don’t think Leon will be in this game, but he will get his RE4 Rmk 

- I do believe RE9 will be release after Code veronica rmk and MAYBE they will do a game about Umbrella’s Fall (Chris and Jill in Europe against Red Queen and BOWs) 

But that is it, you can see a lot of elements from old RE games in RE8, they tried to do something really smart and the game felt amazing to play, that was something else and it’s been a while since a player a RE game that made me feel that way <3

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom 14-20 thoughts!! I finished up s1 :D these last few eps were actually really really good!!!

-did. did tucker really just say esperanto was a dead language only spoken as a secret code between geeks. google says around 100,000 people actively speak it. oh my god...it being an auxiliary language doesn't mean its 'just for geeks to speak in code' ...it helps bridge gaps between people who don't have a language in common...

-danny really isn't pulling punches when it comes to fighting the ghost-cop possessed people huh. like he SLAMMED KWAN INTO THE CONCRETE SO HARD. HE THREW PAULINA INTO A BILLBOARD. will that...I mean it WOULD carry over to their bodies non-possessed, right? like if the ghost piloting their bodies gets hurt?? itd be so upsetting to be possessed, lose time, then wake up covered in bruises (and possibly, broken bones??) real horror movie stuff im sure wont be addressed in any way

-tuckers parents seem nice! I like them :)

-WULF IS CUTE AND I FEEL BAD. im so glad the gang realized he was only causing trouble bc of the shock collar walker put on him and helped. also, him wearing that big hoodie with the hood on, and thinking its subtle. we can tell youre still a giant wolfie :) THEN GETTING SUCKED INTO THE PORTAL AAAAH :( anxiously waiting to see Him Again....

-DANNY BLASTING HIS PARENTS THINKING THEY WERE OVERSHADOWED LMFAO GET THEIR ASSES. maddie marking how many ghosts she gets with lipstick tallies on the side of her portal gun? kindaaa iconic tho. (ALSO, SHE WAS LIKE, 2 FT AWAY FROM HIM RIGHT AFTER SHE TRIED TO SHOOT HIM. HOW DO YOU NOT RECONINZE YOUR OWN SON??? like sure, he might have diff hair/eye colors. but like, if one of my family members dyed their hair, and was wearing contacts, its not like id be like 'wHO IS THIS STRANGER!!!' ...he still has all his facial features!! same everything!!! I hate it here)

-paulina being #1 girl realizing danny's a friendly ghost immediately. smart queen. lancer and kwan ran away right after he made this sweet baby face at them:

which is hilarious.

-ok. im not saying his bullying is JUSTIFIED, but. dash looked so pleased with the (cute!) poster he just painted, and danny comes thru the wall and spills paint on his nice letterman jacket. his anger is justified maybe 65% of the time so far...(not the way he handles it, but STILL.) at least lancer is stepping in!! and them making a silly little bet was...cute?? until dash pulled out his GROSS UNDERWEAR AND SAID DANNY WOULD HAVE TO EAT THEM???? WHAT THE FUCK MAN. TUCKER WAS SO RIGHT ITS FUCKING WEIRD TO CARRY THOSE AROUND EWWW. THIS KID IS UNWELL. lancer was right, his animatronic setup was SUPER IMPRESSIVE?? hes actually pretty creative. danny meanwhile is stealing the fright knight's design...I hope dash is taking art classes or smth with his sports

-fright knight is the most bestest ghost so far i LOVE THAT DESIGN. I am biased towards knights, and characters with swords, but he fucks so severely. and should sue danny for copyright infringement for stealing his design for his haunted house. if some 14 yr old broke into MY house and stole MY sword, id also be pissed. his evil winged unicorn rules too with its FANGS. and he just CAN SHOVE THE PORTAL OPEN WITH HIS HANDS??? is he the strongest ghost weve seen so far? idk but hes my fav. SOUL SHREDDER IS SUCH A COOL SWORD NAME TOO. ANY NAMED SWORD ALSO FUCKS. 'flaming bedsheets of DEATH' funny king. ALSO he was polite to dash and tucker when just asking for directions and telling tucker 'oh maybe, just a suggestion, maybe be nicer to me and be more respectful :)' I LOOOVE HIM.

-I noticed this in the Ember ep, but jazz has an electric guitar in her room!! talent musical queen!! its cool to see hobbies just in the bg.

-fright knight's murder castle reminds me of the booby trapped murder castle in zexal!! another supposedly 'for kids' show with murder/trap castles! we love that. if you are a dp fan reading this, give yugioh zexal a try. its also got 13-14 year old protags and involves (alien) ghosts. the cardgame is just a vessel for the plot, which is really good. (I just want more people to watch my fav yugioh, man)

-danny. with a SWORD.

-danny doesnt NEED TO WIN this contest, dash didnt STEAL HIS DESIGNS AND STEAL A SWORD. he also got excited to hear lancer got sent to a dimension with his worst fears too just so he could win the contest? DANNY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! BRO MAYBE YOURE 14 AND HAVENT FULLY DEVOLPED YOUR WHOLE BRAIN YET, BUT...THATS FUCKED. this kid casually says the most deranged things, I do worry for my spooky son. once again, therapy needed. that judo toss was great tho. I wonder if he actually did pick up some martial arts stuff from his mom?

-danny can fly 112 mph!!! thats so fast! I love the lil montage of him and his friends testing his abilities and stuff, very cute and a good way to showcase what he can do by now and how much more proficient he's gotten from ep 1!!! I'm sure he's going to get more abilities :)

-im glad...maddie's at least TRYING this ep. I do feel for her because her husband is a man baby. but the fact it took 16 episodes to get a kinda semblance of any kind of real concern or attempts at bonding. hmm. jack's 'BACK OFF SHES A MINOR' @ the ghost trying to attack jazz. also was very funny. and him wanting to make an action figure of her? are the parents redeeming themselves to me? slightly. they gotta Work Harder

-THE GHOST. IS FLYING. THE PLANE.

-fenton machete. but she doesnt carry a PHONE??? ???

-I mean I expected vlad when you namedrop him earlier in the ep, and also the title card picture, and dalv corp being fucking vlad backwards. but seeing him just pull up on a golf cart made me bust out laughing. WITH the gift baskets prepared. why wouldnt you at least be suspicious. also, if he wants danny to be his lil sonboy, why is he so fucking malicious?? dude you are going about this in such a bad way. stop it. get some help.

-maddie not even hesitating to drag danny out. fucking good. danny is so right, go on the internet to date. get a cat. how do you spend...how many years?? has it been since college?? at least 20, right, since the parents/vlad are in their 40s? hung up on ONE girl. my god, man. incel drama queen. her kung fu IS impressive, but dude. 'we both know hes a creep' SO right. it sucks but they do need a phone and shit being in the middle of NOWHERE. also, just stealing his helicopter was great. <3

-'you must be exhausted carrying the weight of that mistake you made years ago' 'well we all make mistakes. maybe I'll make one now!' WHY DID THIS EXHCHANGE SEND ME. AND VLAD WITH THE BREATH SPRAY EWWW BITCH. 'OLD BAIT BREATH' SOO RIGHT. both danny and his mom playing him HAHAH hes so dumb. or rather, I think he thinks with his emotions too too much and is...actually pretty gullible? lmao he believed danny was ready to give in SO fast. (which is sad hes that hopeful, like you have SO MUCH MONEY YOU COULD EASILY GET ANOTHER GIRL WHO HAS A KID. AND WOULD WANT TO BE WITH YOU AND BE SUPPORTED. GET OVER THIS (1) WOMAN ALREADY IM GETTING SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT AAAAH)

-GHOST BEAR GHOST BEAR GHOST BEAR. it was also in the title card, but I still got very excited. we love bears here

-SAM'S BAT SWIMSUIT COVERUP!!! her outfits are simply iconic.

-'i'd tell you to go to the mens room, but I don't think you qualify' top paulina transphobic moments. :( and him wearing a tanktop to the swim park? hmmm! (actually I think she was overshadowed by then, so, KITTY top 10 transphobic moments??)

-kitty just piloting paulina around makes me feel SO bad tho, paulina's gonna wake up and be like 'wtf do you mean I was dating this rando' like youre leading danny on to make johnny jealous, and also just POSSESSING POOR PAULINA. dude take your relationship problems ELSEWHERE. last time we saw them, they seemed like such a cute couple!! wtf johnny!! I mean, she sucks for trying to make him jealous, he sucks for looking at other girls...maybe they need a break, but Not Like This. or, you know, just. better communication...

-and the A-listers having a full packet and a stamp system. who organizes this. kwan fucking owning being the new danny though, this is hysterical. THE TUCKER/KWAN FLOWER FIELD TWIRL. UNIRONICALLY ADORABLE. and him giving it his all for the poetry slam. bless his HEARTTTT.

-Star owns. actually, all of the extra characters are shining this ep and I love it.

-INVISO-BILL??? NOOOO THEY DID HIM SOO DIRTY. DANNY SWEETIE IM SO SORRY.

-johnny and danny bein friends and staging a fake fight (which danny takes too seriously, once again this child has aggression he NEEDS TO WORK OUT) I hope these three stay friends, I said it before but danny needs more friendly ghosts to hang with.

-at this point, Danny's ghost enemies are a lot like, I dunno, batman's rouge gallery is the first thing that comes to mind. they all have their own gimmick and unique designs, but most of them are easy to beat after learning the Moral Lesson. I still get excited when any of them show up again, though. 18 is another valerie episode!!!! :D skulker really said you two will get along if I have to handcuff you together <3 and the gym teacher really said, youre married now, have a flour baby! ngl, I'm not really watching this show for the shipping stuff (which I am very scared to look at the fandom for after I finish this watch through- I feel like there's probably discourse/arguing about ships...) but. I'm gonna put my opinion out there. valerie/danny > sam/danny. maybe I just really love the enemies to lovers trope. And the secret identity stuff adds Extra Flavor.

-SKULKER JUST HAVING THE BOX GHOST AND DANGLING HIM BY A STRING. HILARIOUS. and him watching them with binoculars and making his silly little commentary. AND MAKING THE SACK BABY CRY. LMAO. THIS DUDE IS A BABY KIDNAPPER. skulker is super fun

-danny, you just...collapsed the water tower. and then attacked the nasty burger machine...mascot thingy...out of anger..I KEEP SAYING HE'S GOT ANGER ISSUES BUT. HE REALLY NEEDS A LESSON IN MANAGING COLLATERAL DAMAGE!!! So does valerie!! They're both pretty focused on each other. I mean it's good of Danny to say he's trying to make sure PEOPLE don't get hurt, but... (I mean I guess it's not something 14 year olds WOULD worry about, but as an adult im like, who's going to fix that? how much money will that take??)

-TUCKER MAKING BANK. and sam and tucker being super emotionally attached to their flour baby and being pretty good parents. that's cute...also him just straight kissing her and being like. WAIT. O_O JDSKAFHD. his mom baking them into cookies was the funniest possible result. tbh I dont feel like this is on tucker, if anything the other kid's shouldve been more responsible! He was just taking an opportunity to get that $$ which I respect

-Danny being more understanding of Valerie's situation in the end (helping her at her job, too, and trying to keep that a secret for her!!!) And seeing them work together this ep, and also her letting phantom get her out of the ghost zone...was very sweet. LOVE that. more valerie eps pls

-me when I realize vlad's big stupid house exploded because of his own carelessness with changing the ghost portal ectofiltrator or whatever: *pointing and laughing*

-me when I realize it means he's gonna go make danny's life hell for it somehow: >:(

-SCOOBY PARODY!!! I feel like there's gotta be some scooby doo/danny phantom crossover stuff, right? also, 'guys in white' men in black wishes

-'oh, that's right! dad married the love of your life! you're bitter and alone!' DANNNNNYY GET HIS ASS ONCE AGAIN WE ARE POINTING AND LAUGHING AT VLAD

-'jack, you captured the ghost boy!!' UMM. he did nothing <3 'we have a weapon's vault??' YOU HAVE A WEAPONS VAULT??? and jack didnt put a handle on the inside. of fucking course he didnt! why would you leave that to your son!! or expect him to clean YOUR LAB when its where you work with probably dangerous chemicals and weapons and hes 14!! give him normal chores, like, I dunno, vacuuming, laundry, dishes...CMON. I hate it here. But I'm glad Jack is more chill about danny while he's a ghost, and willing to work with him for this ep. AND. I DID ENJOY JACK PUNCHING VLAD IN THE FACE. AND GENERALLY JUST OWNING HIM. the ghost punchy fists are actually amazing. like yeah, just punch a ghost in the face. that rules.

-ep 20 opens with the coolest fucking ghost lady design. her tattoos can come off and fight. MA'AM. I like ur nose ring and your cape maam hello 👉👈😳

-sam's grandma is hilarious and the most valid member of her family and I love her. thats my grandma now. and tucker covering for sam by dressing as her. thats true friendship <3 also skipping school to go to a goth circus. just bestie things! sam's parents are haters but for all the wrong reasons.

-'my family has controlled ghosts with this for generations!' WAIT. WAIT FREAKSHOW /ISNT/ A GHOST? I didn't expect that...he's just a fucked up guy controlling ghosts? anyway watching danny shoot at police cars and rob banks while mind controlled. its like, the most stereotypical 'bad' things lmao. (tbh an evil ghost circus troupe is a sick concept)

this gives off big deviantart emo edit vibes

(I'm going to assume evil circus reaper danny has a lot of fan content. people love an edgy au, except this one is canon (even tho its via mind control...having the protag go evil otherwise might be hard, I guess?) but au where he stays with the troupe...that has to exist, right?)

ANYWAY. excited to start s2!! lowkey surprised by how many notes some of these posts have gotten. I've gone back and tagged them all with 'dp thoughts' so they're easier to find on my blog! ^^ and I will probably possibly do (more) fanart on my art blog after I finish the watch of the whole show, so like. @sanchoyodraws follow my art blog :)

[definitelynotindecisive]

What is something horrible that someone said to you that effected you the most growing up? I've been thinking about what you said, ages ago, about things from your childhood coming back to mess with you.

Well, at the moment, I've been feeling a little insecure in my relationship. Not cos of my partner or anything. Just feeling down about my attractiveness and how unappealing my body is.

With that being said, with this current slump, it's reminded me about something a friend's dad said about me when I was 13 years old. Now, I've always been a big Dutch girl, tall and fat. So I've always been self conscious about it. My friend's father was being recorded, looking at a picture of me and his child together and he said "Wow, what a fat, ugly pig. Who would ever want to fuck that cunt?" I was 13 when he said that. Thir-fucking-teen.

And I know, ten years later, I shouldn't give a shit what some arsehole said about me. But at the same time, that really traumatised me, as a lonely barely teenaged girl, who already felt unlovable, it really fucked me up.

It wasn't even the first time an older man had commented on my size.

When I was ten, this guy asked me how old I was. When he thought I was out of earshot, he spoke to one of his colleagues "isn't she a bit overweight for a ten year old?" and like, it wasn't like he was some skinny, young athletic dude. He was pushing 40 and quite overweight himself. I just remember feeling so hurt and betrayed by someone who should have known how I felt, who also had no right to comment on the appearance of a literal 10 yr old girl.

So, long story short, things people say in childhood can really stay with you through to adulthood. People need to be a little more thoughtful about what they say to kids. Cos kids often link their appearance to their self-worth, and as a kid, I had none. And this is partly why.

It's even worse, in this time of social media, when kids think they need to look like instagram models and sink into depression when they can't meet those standards. It's insane.

It can be hard to ignore the messages and opinions from everyone around you. The pressure to be thin and pretty is really heavy and I still struggle to love myself because of it. I have never felt beautiful or attractive, sexy or pretty, not truly, without a zillion filters, in my life. And it sucks.

But I have to hope it gets better. I feel lucky that I have a partner that loves me, my body and my soul. I just have to work on that for myself too.

[neshai-esper]

Hey neshai! Im a 19 yr old girl from new-zealand whos new in magic but I introduced myself to my patron not long ago and I enjoy it so much. I thought about offering menstrual blood for later if thats okay but Im not sure. I know its a touchy topic but pls if you have any experience with that could you just give me some answer? I dont know how should I start or get it at all??

First of all, let me remind you that offering blood is a very serious act. It’s a life source after all, more precisely your own, and as long as your soul possesses this body, it might have unexpected consequences, what you might not aware of. Because of that, you have to be cautious and make sure that the entity you offer your blood to is a trustworthy being (or why are you want to use your blood even as an ingredient for something else). Do not let yourself to be fooled by an impostor, or even by a Deity to get this life source of yours that easily! Just... no! Take your time.

The way how you would like to “get” that blood and “serve” it (however, menstrual blood offering is not 100% blood), is really depends on your personal preferences. There are women who uses menstrual cups, while others are prefer using tampon or sanitary napkin. I’d assume you are not a cup user, because in that case, you would have a very easy job.

How about a cup of tea? I mean, a cup of blood-tea? In the case if you prefer to use tampon, you just have to find a clean and worthy glass for the cause. You can put purified water in it, squeeze the blood out of the tampon, then let the rest it in for about 10-20 minutes (just like you’d do with a tea filter however I’m not a big fan of tea).

To be honest, I’m not a master of “getting blood out of sanitary napkin to offer it”, because when I used to offer menstrual blood (once in my life), I chosed a different method. How about soaking and filtering (just to get rid of undesirable substances from the sanitary napkin)? It might be a good way to you if you are in the sanitary napkin club.

Anyways, it was a pretty brave question! Not many people would have the courage to ask about the topic, but I hope my answer was helpful and you’ll be careful and also, successful.

ll Note: My last few days have been very critical, exhausting and lot of unexpected things happened, so I’m afraid I can’t reply to you as fast as I’d like to. If you feel like I’m too slow, and you need an answer asap, DM me directly, and I promise I’ll answer as soon as I can.

[sheismyteacher]

hi loves,

im pretty sure ive alr done all old monthly challenges that used to be on here in 2017/2018 including my own lol but @baeby-tc made a new one and its once again 2am and im missing her so heres summ facts u might not know yet!!!

1. describe your tc’s physical appearance.

shes about my height so 5'7, she has a blonde pixie cut and bright blue eyes, n freckles!! and shes super skinny

2. what was the first thing you’ve ever said to your tc?

probably hi?? i honestly dont remember much from our first class

3. is your tc single or taken? or are you unsure? and are you single or taken?

single!! and im taken lol ive been dating my gf for a year n 11 months

4. is your tc more of the athletic type, the nerdy type or the artsy type?

nerdy looool

5. if you and your tc were in high school together, do you think you’d be friends?

honestly idk? we very well could have been because we were both kinda alt (me leaning towards goth, her leaning towards punk) but also both insanely private introverts lmfsjshhd so we might not even have approached each other

6. name one song that reminds you of your tc and explain why that song reminds you of them.

savannah by lp hehee we're both lp stans but she got me into her music and the first song we talked abt was savannah

7. is your tc fashionable or are they more of the simple type? what is one outfit you’d love to see them wear?

oh girl... 💀💀 i love her w my whole heart but if i see one more silver glimmery cardigan i might lose my mind. id love to see her in jeans and a crop top but shed Never so honestly i'll take anything that's not... horrible

8. would you be willing to become a teacher and teach your tc’s subject if it meant you two could be together?

haha funny cause... that's literally what im doing... going into my second year of uni... going to do my internship with her this year... ummmmmm.....

9. does your tc drink or smoke?

no!!!

10. name one item that is always on your tc’s desk.

her planner loool shes super organized

11. has your tc ever done anything that has either thrown you off, annoyed you, angered you or bothered you in any way? if so, what did they do?

yea i think I've only been pissed at her once?? i was really struggling with a situation and usually when i rant to her she fucks around and makes jokes n all and im fine with it i dont take myself that seriously but this time i was genuinely rly upset and she didnt rly notice i guess although i alr lowkey told her to stop n she kept making dumbass jokes so i was like "this is genuinely not funny like im being serious for once" and she did apologize which i appreciate but i genuinely think that's the only time ive been upset with her! and shes said things before that other people would see as shocking but has always apologised even when not necessary shes super respectful

12. does your tc have any past jobs that you know of, before becoming a teacher?

no actually!! she probably had a job in hs/uni??? but weve never talked abt that wow mayb i should ask her sometime

13. does your tc have kids or siblings? if so, how many?

both! she has one younger sister and two sons!

14. are you taking your tc’s class next year?

as i said ive graduated but im acc gonna b an english teacher as well now and imma do my 2nd yr internship w her!!!

15. has your tc ever met your parents? if you were there, what was the meeting like?

yes PLSJSJDJDJD at my school musical... and it was lowkey awkward cause i told her all abt how my father is lowkey terrifying so she was cautious as hell 😭😭

16. has your tc ever given you detention? if so, what was it like?

naw i never have her a reason to

17. has your tc ever failed you? if so, how did you react? if not, how would you react?

noo english has always been my best subject so she never had to.. but if she did i probably messed it up!! shes fair

18. what are your tc’s hobbies/interests? are they similar to yours?

help shes a dancer and i hate dancing w my entire heart so umm.. no

19. have you ever spoken on the phone with your tc? what did you talk about?

never actually!! we've texted so often but never called?? except if u count the time she (or her son?) called me on accident for about 6 seconds jdjdhd ion think she even knows that happened, i hung up and forgot to mention it again)

20. if you had your tc’s class during quarantine, what were your zoom calls like? if not, have you spoken to your tc since quarantine?

we've texted, but not as much as we used to and it's making me SAD but i feel like we just dont have a lot to say to each other

21. if you had the chance to go anywhere in the world with your tc, where would you go? what would you do?

she loves switzerland so let's go

22. does your tc have any nicknames for you?

she shortens my name sometimes heheh i loooove when people do that

23. have you ever cried in front of your tc? why? how did they react?

no, i don't cry that often, and ESPECIALLY not in public

24. have you ever walked/drove to/from school with your tc?

yeah we cycled together a few times! but usually were off on different times

25. do you know which teachers your tc is friends with at school? if so, do you like those teachers?

yea theres a couple she likes but shes not rlly *friends* with anyone, but we have the same opinions on most teachers

26. what does your tc’s voice sound like?

it's very soft, and not in volume but in vibes? and she has pretty sharp t's and her r's roll a little hehe

27. do you like your tc as a teacher? are they a good teacher?

oh yes 100%

28. does your tc prefer books, shows or movies?

im gonna go ahead and assume books, but she does have netflix as well

29. is your tc stern or easy going, in class?

pretty stern? i know a couple of people are lowkey scared of her but like shes not awful she just makes sure the class gets shit done

30. how would you describe you and your tc’s relationship?

like a friendship! i asked her abt it once (ages ago) and she said that she was tryna figure out how she felt abt me when it came to labels like 'friend' cause im also her ex student etc so she didn't rly wanna call me that yet?? but i think if we keep talking we'll get there. we trust each other immensely

31. do you address your tc by their first or last name?

firsttt since march 27th 2017 😌

[myfinalform-kaz]

I know no one will read this whole thing but I really need to talk about what happened to me and it would mean alot if someone read it so what he did to me would be known

So background story: My brother abused me for 10 years of my life and completely fucked me up. My entire world view was formed by him and he convinced me everyday that I was worthless and ugly and anyone who loved me only pretended to becuase they pitied me and no one in the future could possibly love something as horrible as me. And I believed it every goddamn day and I didn't know any better and I adored my brother cus he was the only one that "really loved" me and he was my big brother and that meant to mean something good and all of my self worth came from the slivers of validation he'd throw out a few times a year. And every time I thought he went to far and I said something I would get an adult saying "Big brother's are suppose to pick on their little siblings, it's how they show their love" and I believed it so I stopped talking about it. I didn't say anything when he bruised me or pushed me off of barn roofs or the two times he tried to kill me. I didn't say anything becuase every one said that all those things just meant that he loved me. The worst he was the more he loved me and this was the kind of love I deserved. I didn't deserve soft gentle love filled with encouragement and kindness, I didn't deserve unconditional, non judge mental love. I was too weak and I needed to toughen up becaus ethe world would never be kind to a disgusting person like me so I need to get use to it. I believed every lie he said becuase I was a child and nobody told me he was lying.

He was why I stopped eating in 8th grade becouse I "obviously needed a diet" then I became addicted to the control it gave me, I craved the hunger I thought I deserved. I lost so much weight and it was the first time he told me he was proud of me. One of my first memories is of when I was six years old and got my first two piece swimsuit. It was bright grean and turquoise and had frills and I was so excited about it and the first thing he said when he saw it was "wow you are really fat" how does an 8 yr old even think to say that? And of course I was chubby I was 6. So him saying he was proud of my weightloss was like a huge weight off my shoulders, I no longer had to be bullied by him about my body. Of course there was always other things wrong about the way I looked or what hobbies I had or what friends I had. I was never enough no matter what I did, but I was enough when I was starving. I had a full blown eating disorder by 10th grade and nobody said anything so I figured I was doing the right thing.

By the end of that year he left for the military and my entire life flipped upside down. The one thing that I clung on too in life left. I was completely alone. He was the only one I could say anything too, of course he always ended up using what I told him against me but I didn't see that at the time. I thought the only person who loved me had left me behind, the only person who truly understood me had a abandoned me. I had my first and worst depressive episode then. It lasted a year and a half, I attempted suicide four times, and started self harming and lost 40lbs. I was a shell of a person. I tried talking to my only friend at the time about it be she never cared (my brother always told me she didn't actually care about me and still talks about how he was right and how stupid I was to think she could possible care about me) this of course only enforced that maybe he was right all along and I was an impossible person to actually care about.

When I was 16 I had gone to a routine doctors appointment and taken a mental health test. I thought I was giving normal answers and downplayed how I really felt, unfortunately my life was so twisted that even what I thought were normal answers were alarming to my doctor. She ended up making me take my clothes off so she could see if I self harmed, I hadnt in a few months but there were still scars of course. I begged her not to tell my mom and she said she wouldn't if I told her before my next appointment, I said I would. She scheduled a few appointments for further testing and then we left. The whole ordeal was traumatic for me and of course I never told my mother hoping that next appointment never came. And it never did. I havent been to a doctor in over 3 years. I was digging through some old medical records a year ago to find my glasses prescription and I found the file for that day. Turns out my parents knew about my self harm the whole time then after the doctor told them I might have anxiety and she wants to do further testing they cancelled all further appointments and never said a word to me. I had to struggle completely alone, I always thought that they would have helped if they had known but they did know and they did nothing. They made me go through so much pain and I have no idea why.

After all that my brother came home for a visit and he was so proud of how thin I was and how well I was doing in school and everything was going so well. Then of course that couldn't last and he turned cruel and insulting and then he left again.

The last time he visted we did so good the first week, I thought he had really changed, he had actually apologized a few times when he said something mean and I was so happy he was trying to be the big brother I had always wanted. Then we were having a pleasant conversation in the car and out of blue he said "you know you will neber find a partner who won't cheat on you becuase youre asexual" and after I was upset he said "It's not my fault you can't handle facts" and of course I believed him.Then my dog died and all he could do was make jokes and mock me for caring. I told my Mom she told me that if I looked hard enough I would see that he actually loved me and all this other stuff was just surface level and didn't matter. And I believed her. But I met an amazing person who became my best friend in the whole world and the only person to ever say "that's not how sibling normally treat each other, he is abusing and manipulating you" and I could never be more grateful for her, she has taught me how to be my own person and recognize my own worth. She has encouraged me and accepted me with all the flaws I have. We have gotten in fights but it's only becuase we love each other and it never ends in screaming or beating and it's always about trying to understand each other better. We talk about triggers and experiences and always try to be mindful of them. I have never met someone that I love more.

The current situation: He is coming back in two days and I have no idea what to do. I thought I was ok becuase for about two weeks I didn't feel bad about him coming. I felt a little off but I couldn't put my finger on why then I read a post about a girl dancing with her brother at his edding and realized that I never had and would never have that kind of relationship with my brother and I had a completely mental break down an hour ago and I realized that I don't feel fine I was just emotionally shutting down and that's why I was feeling off but now I feel everything and I am so fucking scared of him coming. Now that I know what it's like to not be under his control I can't go back even for a couple of days. I can't sit across from on the couch and pretend nothing happened. I can't let him touch me like I'm not disgusted by it. I'm not that strong, I'm not that good of an actor. I am so fucking scared and no one in my family believes me, they thing I'm a bad brother for not talking to him for a few months. I am so scared of what he's going to do or say. I don't know what I'm going to do. I use to dissociate a lot but recently I haven't been and I don't think I can just mentally not exist while he's here. I am so scared that I am making a big deal out of nothing and that maybe he is a good brother and I'm just a bitch. I don't know. I don't know how I will live the rest of my life with him popping in and out to kick me down and remind me how worthless I am. I don't know how I'm going to spand the rest of my life scared of this person I am suppose to love. My parents have made it very clear that me not talking to him dissapoints and hurts them and how much they hate to see me notbe best friends with him. They always act like they support me until it actually gets down to it, then they blame me for never telling them anything even though I have a life time of being told that what was being done to me was normal and I have no idea where the line between sibling teasing a nd abuse is. I have no idea what is normal because I never had normal and nobody told me it wasn't normal till I was 18 yrs old.

I'm so sorry for dropping all this and how long it is but I've never really talked about it before and I am so scared

[umi-tama]

October 4th 2011

When I woke up today, I found a crying little baby girl. I decided to call her Luna, give her her uncle Brad's bass drum and her dad's old teddy bear (a present from his nanny back then; he never really liked it), and started to take care of her :) After getting sick and later going to bed, she evolved into Hitodetchi, got visited by her nanny, and presented with a new toy: a globe. She absolutely loves it ^^ The rest of the day she spent playing, practicing, and happily bouncing around on the screen. Here are her stats when she went to sleep: 0 yr, 10 lb hungry ❤❤❤❤ happy ❤❤❤O stress: 05 tone: 288 rhythm: 315 original: 406 genre: Asian Music

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When I went to the park with him today, he met Noda :) The were swinging a bit, and catching up with everything that happened, since the last time they saw each other. Noda told him about his gorgeous little daughter and was happy to hear, that she and Till already met and became buddies ^^ And that was already the most interesting thing, that happened today *lol* So here are his stats at the end of the day: 4 yr, 30 lb hungry ❤❤❤❤O happy ❤❤❤❤❤ train [▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▫▫▫▫▫] friendship ❤❤❤❤❤❤ gotchi points: 954,170 

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October 5th 2011

Yesterday I left my tamas at home, when going to our weekly meeting at work. Unpaused. When I came back, Luna was crouching in a corner of her room, with a skull floating above her, three poops, a stress level near 50 and empty happy and hungry hearts. Apparantly I kinda like forgot, that she was only a toddler, when deciding not to pause her... uhm, oops? ^^' Anyways, shortly after I cared for her, she evolved into Ringotchi and a while later went to bed. Or so I thought. Because - being a typical teenager (who might've gotten a bit neglected by mommy...) - she actually sneaked out of her bedroom window, after I turned off the light! ò_ó' And you'll never guess where she went...

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During the day, not much happened for Till. He, too, got neglected a bit, but still had 2 full hungry and 3 full happy hearts and only one poop pile on his screen, after I came back from work. I cared for him, too, played his favorite game "Shoot The Bug" with him 

and then both of us went back to minding our own businesses. When I saw him going to the park later that night (after his bath, even), I decided to follow him, though, curious if he'd even meet anyone there, since it was already dark outside. And he did. 

I was shocked! Luna shouldn't be out in the park this late, not to mention how it is highly inappropriate for her, to meet up with older men there D: And today, after her first day at her new school (where she founded a band called Bara with a cute little Ichigotchi and an adorable Chamametchi), she met Till again. This time they not only built a sand castle at the park, but also went bowling, while I was sitting at home, not knowing where she is, and imagining the most awful things, that could've happened to her ~_~' Luckily - despite his punk-ish appearance - Till is a well behaved young man, so he brought Luna home after their secret little date, and we sat down and had a talk about the whole thing (after I sent Luna up to her room to take care of her homework). Apparantly he really really likes her, even though he's aware, that she's way too young for him. He told me, that when he went to the Date Place today and was offered a really beautiful Makiko there, he suddenly found himself thinking of Luna, and realized, that he would never be as happy with anyone else, as he could be with her. So he decided to wait for her to become an adult, and then tell her about his feelings, hoping she will feel the same. Yeah, well, how could I stay mad at him? It's not like anyone could control their feelings. So yes, I allowed him to once in a while take her out for bowling, but only after she's done with her homework and band practice, and only if he brings her home, before it's getting dark outside. (Of course I plan to continue keeping an eye on the both of them, nontheless. I'm not stupid, but well aware, that Luna is also crushing pretty hard on Till, and those teenagers... you never know what they're up to >_>'). I'm curious how their future will look like, with Luna aiming to become a famous musician and Till turning down all other marriage offers, until their age gap doesn't matter anymore. We'll see. So far, here are Till's stats at the end of today: 6 yr, 33 lb hungry ❤❤❤❤❤ happy ❤❤❤❤❤ train [▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▫▫▫▫▫] friendship ❤❤❤❤❤❤ gotchi points: 961,750 and here Luna's stats from tonight, after she went to sleep (and this time I checked, that she really stayed in her bed): 2 yr, 30 lb hungry ❤❤❤❤ happy ❤❤❤❤ stress: 00 tone: 418 rhythm: 505 original: 820 genre: Asian Music

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October 8th 2011

Guess who evolved two nights ago? And guess who became one of my favorite Tama characters? Yes! Luna evolved into Makiko! I'm so happy. I love Makiko 💖 (Also now I know why the girl that Till met at the Date Place reminded him of Luna. Ha!) When she went to school, the jury was already awaiting her and her friends.

Two Os, one X. No Pro-Debut. Meanwhile Till was waiting outside the school and later took her out on a nice, long date, to take her mind off from how her graduation went. Well, and this date ended exactly how I pictured it to end, if I don't keep an eye on those two... 

I wasn't all too happy with Luna becoming such a young mom, but who am I to interfer with her life? She's an adult now, after all. Besides, her having a baby has a nice side effect: her stress level doesn't go up anymore. So I could have her practice for hours, which, by today, finally resulted in her band getting the Asian Music Award ^^ Afterwards (since I used up all her remaining concerts anyways) I already switched her instrument and toy to the equipment I plan for her son to have (as you can see above). Not sure yet of how to name the kiddos. Guess I'll decide that spontaneously ;) Here Luna's stats, right before she left her son: 3 yr, 37 lb hungry ❤❤❤❤ happy ❤❤❤O stress: 00 tone: 686 rhythm: 786 original: 999 genre: Asian Music star ranking: 4th tama fans: 238,519,542 And here Till's stats, before he left his baby girl: 8 yr, 32 lb hungry ❤❤❤❤O happy ❤❤❤❤O train [▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▫▫▫▫▫] friendship ❤❤❤❤OO gotchi points: 964,530 ~ Ah, yeah, and I still haven't managed to log into (or even sign up on) Music City. I tried InternetExplorer, Mozilla Firefox, Google Chrome and Safari. I cleaned my browser history and cache, I cleaned my flash cache, I even tried it with deactivated firewall. But I still keep getting either a blank page or this:

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[sethrine-writes]

Daughter of a Devil - Ch. 6

Main Characters: Father!Dante & Daughter!Reader

Words:  1111

Warnings: Feels, Some sads

Summary: Being a parent wasn’t easy, nor was there such thing as being perfect at it. Good news for Dante, seeing as how he doesn’t have the slightest idea in hell what to do with a child. Sometimes, he was certain that fighting off a horde of demons was a far better match than keeping up with his own daughter. Well, at least he wasn’t going down without a fight.

A/N:  We’re getting into some background stuff! Oh, and if anyone was curious, the only defining feature that I use as you, the Reader, is silver hair (you are the daughter of Dante, after all, and that silvery-white hair seems to run in the family). Hopefully, that doesn’t put too many off.

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Chapter 6 - What Was Momma Like? (10 yrs)

“What was Momma like?”

Dante nearly choked on his pizza at the barely spoken words, his wide blue eyes focusing on your down-turned ones.

The night had started out like any other; he came in, you attacked him with hugs, and the both of you went to his desk and began talking about random nonsense while eating a fresh pizza he had ordered for the both of you to share. When you had gone quiet rather suddenly, he began watching you with a close eye, feeling that something was up.

And then came the question he definitely wasn’t expecting.

“What brought this up?”

He was honestly surprised. Ever since you had learned how to talk fluently, you had never once asked about your mother; he had assumed you weren’t that interested or didn’t realize that you had ever had one. Now that the question had come up, he wanted to know why you were suddenly so curious.

He watched as you fidgeted under his gaze, your half-eaten slice of pizza forgotten as you placed it back inside the box. With a heavy sigh and a slightly shaking hand, you reached into your back pocket and pulled out a picture, taking a long look at it before giving it to your dad.

Dante leaned forward in his chair and took the picture from your hand. If he had been surprised at your question, then he was completely stunned at what he saw staring back at him.

There were three people in the photo, his younger visage staring back at him from the back of the image. Standing just before him was a beautiful woman with a bright smile, and in her arms was the bundled form of a baby girl, her tiny hands reaching up to grab at her mother’s hair.

Dante could remember that day as if it had just happened hours ago.

“Where did you get this?”

You looked up only to quickly look back down, nervously shifting on your feet. “I was looking for my doll in your room because I couldn’t find it anywhere else. I found it when I looked under the bed. I think it was under a box that I moved.”

You smiled this time, an odd reaction to the suddenly serious atmosphere, and looked up at your father. “I didn’t know why, but that photo…it made me happy. It was like Momma’s smile made me want to smile, too.”

“How do you know this is your mother?”

“I didn’t, not at first. But it’s the only picture I’ve seen with you and another lady, like this. And when I saw myself in the mirror today, I noticed that we looked a lot alike. Our eyes are the same.”

Dante looked up and noticed your smile. His lips quirked up somewhat at your serene image, and he was reminded of the same smile that he fell for so many years ago.

“Yeah, you look a lot like your mom. She loved you so much….”

He looked back down at the photo, his thumb tracing over the image of your mother. He had not been married to the woman, nor had they started out in a serious relationship. It was meant to be one of those one-time things, except it continued to happen. In the end, they had both decided to try out a relationship, and it wasn’t a month later that you were conceived.

Dante could still remember how scared she had been when she found out she was pregnant; he’d admit that he was completely thrown for a loop when she told him. He never had pictured himself to be the father type, yet as he looked back up at you, he couldn’t believe how far he had come. He only wished she could have had the chance to raise the wonderful girl that you were.

“Her name was Serenity,” he started, “she was kind, and quite the firecracker, when she wanted to be. She loved being outside in the sun.”

“Kinda like me?” you questioned with a hopeful lilt to your voice.

Dante chuckled lightly at seeing your eyes fill with wonder.

“Yeah, exactly like you. She was really sporty, always loved playing games. Her favorite thing was swimming, though. I used to think she was a fish or something.”

“Maybe she was a mermaid!”

“Heh, maybe so.”

Dante continued to talk about your mother and answered as many questions as he knew the answers to, and you had quite a few to throw his way. You went through questions about her favorite color to what her personality was like and her favorite things to do. You covered every topic your mind could think up, and just when he thought you were finished, you asked the one question he was hoping to avoid.

“How…how did she die?”

Dante sighed as he kicked back in his chair, forcing you to fall forward with him; during the time you had asked so many questions, you had moved to your father’s lap in child-like wonder. You now lay against him, looking up with questioning eyes as one of his hands rubbed against your back as both a means of comfort for you as well as grounding him in the moment.

“She was sick, Squirt, very sick. It was so bad that for her last two weeks, she could barely get out of bed. I had to pick her up and bring her places because she didn’t have the strength to stand.”

What he failed to mention was that she had gotten sick shortly after you had been born. There was no need for you to think that you were the cause behind such happenings. If anything, you had helped her in more ways than you could ever imagine.

“You were five months old when she passed away.”

There was a moment of silence that followed his words, but it wasn’t as uncomfortable as he thought it should have been.

“I wish I could remember her like you do, Daddy,” you spoke quietly, fingers rubbing against the worn leather of his coat. “Do you wish she was still here with us?”

“Sometimes, because I know she would have loved to watch you grow up. She had always wanted a family of her own.”

“A family like me and you, right?”

Dante smiled as he reached up and tucked some of your silver hair behind your ear, watching as you looked up and smiled back at him. You truly were a wonder, and if your mother were still alive today, she would have enjoyed every minute spent with you, just as he did.

“Exactly like me and you.”

[robkirbycomics]

HOUSE OF DARK SHADOWS ('70) When Barnabas Collins leaves the small screen he discovers he can inflict a lot more blood & mayhem on the big screen #31horrorfilms31days

NIGHT OF DARK SHADOWS ('71) Quentin Collins inherits Collinwood in all its splendor, inhabited by the spirit of Angelique the witch, who only wants him to love her. Obviously Quentin's new wife is not into this situation, no way no how

GERALD’S GAME ('17) Couple's sex-zay weekend becomes much less so when he keels over dead while she's handcuffed to the bed. Surprisingly potent mix of super-squirmy thrills n chills w/ Triumph of the Spirit uplift

BODY BAGS ('93) trio of horror tales features a very early 90s brew of synth-y score, jokey cameos by Wes Craven, et al. & an overall sophomoric vibe. But also good performances + Debbie Harry. Body Bags = mixed bag

HEREDITARY ('18) This very dark blend of ORDINARY PEOPLE with ROSEMARY’S BABY features a wonderfully unhinged performance by Toni Collette and remains a sobering reminder that sometimes it does *not* get better

TRAIN TO BUSAN (’16) Excellent Korean Zombie Apocalypse thriller mixes edge-of-the-seat thrills with involving human drama - with characters you genuinely care about. At the end I was all (crying emojis)

THE TAKING OF DEBORAH LOGAN ('14) Harrowing found footage flick: a documentary film crew filming a woman dealing w/ early effects of Alzheimer's disease finds she is afflicted w/ something much worse - something *unholy*. A small gem, I recommend

THE REEF (’10) TFW you realize that the perfect killer shark movie was made nearly 45 years ago. But anyway here's yet another killer shark movie

THE BLACKCOAT’S DAUGHTER ('15) Weirdo teen girl & non-weirdo teen girl spend a lonely holiday weekend in an empty all-girl's school where things get super creepy in that arty-slow-burn-fractured-narrative fashion. Honestly, I was riveted

VIY ('67) Loser-y Russian seminary student must spend 3 scary nights praying over a dead witch's body. Only she's not so dead & wants to drag him down to hell with her. During the day he drinks much vodka, who could blame him? Enjoyed this charming folktale

TIGERS ARE NOT AFRAID ('16) del Toro-esque tale of orphaned street kids on the lam from a vicious drug cartel, alternately haunted & helped by ghostly victims of the cartel. Scary, funny & touching, a fairytale that will give you the feels

ANGST ('83) Psycho creep gets out of jail and wants to kill, proceeds to do so. Best part of this clammy little German film: the totes adorbs little dachshund, even the whackjob seemed to like it with its cute little wagging tail

PONTYPOOL (’07) Radio shockjock has a super bad day at work when a terrible virus breaks out that turns people into murderous zombies - esp when he learns how the virus is transmitted. Def recommend this excellent, downright existential Canadian chiller

HELL HOUSE LLC ('16) A crew of douchebags acquire an old hotel w/ unsavory past to open a Halloween haunted house, only to find themselves stuck in an overlong combination of THE BLAIR WITCH PROJECT w/ THE BEYOND - never a good place to be 

SUSPIRIA ('18) Luca Guadagnino’s radical reimagining of Dario Argento's rococo 1977 masterpiece polarized horror fans: Those Who Damned vs Those Mesmerized. Count me solidly in the latter camp 

16. DARLING ('15) Young woman takes housesitting job in huge, elegantly ritzy NYC apt, slowly unravels, eventually does damage w/ a big kitchen knife. All in beautiful B&W

HUMANOIDS FROM THE DEEP ('80) Monstrous mutants arise from the depths to terrorize a fishing village. Turns out they also want to propagate the species, Ew

BUCKET OF BLOOD ('59) Loser schnook works as a busboy in beatnik cafe, then finds success pawning off corpses covered in plaster as ART. This adorbs time capsule amusingly satirizes both beatnik culture & Art World bullshit

LITTLE SHOP OF HORRORS ('60) This cheap little quickie about a bloodthirsty plant that morphed into an 1982 off-Broadway hit & more is still engaging, w/ fun Borscht belt type humor & game cast, incl Jack Nicholson, genuinely funny as a masochistic dental pt 

EATEN ALIVE ('76) Sweaty whackjob owns (A) rundown remote hotel, (B) large scythe, & (C) man-eating crocodile, all leading to (D) bizzaro murderous mayhem. Highlight: the croc (spoiler alert) eats a pre-Freddy Kruger Robert Englund

HOUR OF THE WOLF ('68) Artist & wife settle into life on isolated, windy island, where he inevitably begins to succumb to his inner demons. Ingmar Bergman's lone horror film is filled w/ all kinds of frightening imagery + existential dread. Good times!

THE BOY WHO CRIED WEREWOLF (’73) Little Richie: I'm scared, Dad's a werewolf! Let's not go camping with him! Everyone: He is not, you're tired, you had a nightmare, those dead people were killed by a wild animal, go to bed, etc. Repeat for 80 minutes

ONE CUT OF THE DEAD ('19) Japanese item features a low-budget film crew filming a zombie flick. Charming, funny, & way-meta - recommend not reading anything about it B4 watching (after this post, obvs)

JU-ON: THE GRUDGE ('02) A brutal double murder creates a relentless curse in this genuinely creepy Japanese ghost story. It's also one of ol' Rob's faves from the aughts

JENNIFER ('78) TFW the school bullies are being super horrible but then you remember Hey wait I have *supernatural power* over *SNAKES* and I could totally use that to my advantage! (hint: she totally does)  

THE AUTOPSY OF JANE DOE ('16) Father & son coroners perform an autopsy on a mysterious corpse & must soon deal with several standard supernatural tropes including jump scares 

HAGGAZUSSA ('17) Portrait of a woman branded as a witch, living in isolation outside a remote village, slowly losing her grip. Not a fun or action-packed watch, but if ur willing to meet it halfway, this German film might both mesmerize & horrify you.

IN THE TALL GRASS (’19) People get lost in an ominous field of grass that apparently stretches out waaay further than you'd ever think possible, not unlike the runtime of this movie

THE NIGHTSHIFTER (’18) In this clever Brazilian gem, guy working in a morgue learns the hard way that when the dead impart information, what they tell you should stay *strictly* confidential

MANDY (’18) Nicolas Cage dials it up way past over-the-top avenging himself on an evil cult & demon bikers in this flamboyantly campy, blood-soaked, LSD-infused revenge tale. Me = shaking my head, utterly hypnotized throughout

CANDYMAN (’93) Candyman Candyman Candyman Candyman (...)

INHUMAN KISS ('19) Young lovers must contend w/ the fact that her head detaches from her body every night to feed upon flesh in this romantic, wildly over-the-top dark fantasy from Thailand. Lovely way to wrap up this yr's  #31horrorfilms31days extravaganza

[b00bconnoisseur]

60 questions for @not-my-brain

1. selfie.......Ugghhhh ok. Imma take one rn

Ok here u go (yes thats a bmth shirt)

2. what would you name your future kids?.....Ooo hmmm well when i was a kid i really liked the names disney, and mesiah. I didn't know at the time that mesiah was another name for god i think lol. I liked it cause of handlers mesiah. I still do. Ooo and maybe Tj too

3. do you miss anyone?......Yeah. My friends on Pinterest from a year ago. My friend lucas. Stan lee. Bob ross. My cousin who died from cancer some years ago. Snape. Sirius. Lupin. Tonks. Dobby. *continues to name every unfortunate death in hp*

4. what are you looking forward to?.......SE-YA next month!! Its the south eastern young adult festival at this college. You can have meet n greets with authors and alot of stuff its the besstttt

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?......DEFINATELY. @dirtysocke @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye @cristal-kyd1280 @sammchenry my friend lucas and @septembersbloom. ^^

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?..... What like...romantically? Or like a death? If romantically uhhh idk it took over a couple weeks but im ok now. Ive never had another relationship so idk. If death oof yeah idk maybe. Ig it depends on how much i knew them idk. Like when my nanny (great grandma) died i was sad for days (is that alot?)

7. what was your life like last year?.....Sucky af. Still is. But the highlights of my life last year was getting and making friends on tumblr, going to the tøp concert and going to warped tour, volunteering at the library, going to seya and meeting some of my favorite authors, reading, changing and improving my art, listening to all the bands i listen to now, getting into more fandoms, going to a friends house for the first time

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?.......Yes lol. Some years ago when i couldn't find smtn id be so annoyed and pissed id start crying. I dont now but still lol

9. who did you last see in person?.......Hm ig family doesn't count....? Wait do u mean a friend? If so uhh my friends rebekah, anika, and Judah at a TAB meeting at the library sometime last month.

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?......I think so? Like i mean I can hide whenever i get my....time of the month from my mom (talking abt stuff like that with her makes me uncomfortable) and i hid a breakup. And other p big stuff too. So imma say yeah

11. are you listening to music right now?........*pops on earbuds after reading this* yee im listening to bitch lasagna by pewdiepie xD (do i have the best spotify playlist or what?)

12. what is something you want right now?.......To hug @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye but SOMEONE has to live so far away

13. how do you feel right now?........Happy that my earbud still works cause they got washed in the wash yesterday....oops. Its not my fault. I told my dad to remind me to take it out of my jacket pocket before they threw it in but noooooo he forgot

14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?.......Uhhhhh fuck idk it was probably from my lil 4 yr old bro sometime last week. Other than him (hes my favorite sibling) i dont let them hug me too much

15. personality description.......Nerdy. Fangirl. "Emo". Tomboy. Hotsause obsessed. Book lover. Music lover. Black. Blue. Harry potter. Introvert. Fall. Sports. Values friendship. Loyal. Uhhhh i cant think of much lol

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t?.......*sigh* yes. Yes yes yes. Theres some things abt me, or my life really, that i havent told anyone on here or my irl friends that i sooooo want to so bad but i haven't cause i feel like they'd feel bad and pity me and i don't want that

17. opinion on insecurities........I dont really understand this one. Everyones insecure abt something. Is this askin like if i think its ok or not? I say its ok. Im insecure about literally everything about me. My face. My personality. My socialness. My art. What i do. What i say. Basically my whole body. The things i feel good abt are my books, music taste, and my friends (ily fuckers)

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?.........Hmm this time around a year ago....idk its sorta the same but all the stuff i mentioned abt my year from last year didn't happen yet so nah tho my life sucks rn its better than this time last year

19. have you ever been to New York?........Nooo but i want too soo baddd i wanna visit @septembersbloom !! Im coming for ya soon gramps *does the eye watching thing* my dads been to nyc before tho cause he does construction and he had a concrete job to do there. It was a 23 hr drive for him

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?........Uhhh idk!!! So hard! Maybe.....the whole thats the spirit album by bmth ;)

21. age and birthday?.....15 yrs of age and September 27th 2003 (whats yours brainy? I'll put it on my calendar)

22. description of crush......Its weird idk im not sure if its a genuine crush or not but uh....They like hp :).Thats all u get

23. fear(s).......Losing my best friend @dirtysocke and my other friends. Death. Failure. Momo chasing after me then killing me slowly keeping my eyes open to look her dead in the eyes while i die

24. height......5'6 call me short and I'll fuck u up with THIS *pulls out trusty potato peeler named now steve* dont test me boi

25. role model......Hhhhhhhh so many! But uh gosh one of them is @superraedizzle (youtuberrrr) and vexx and bob ross and da vinci and aaaaaaa so many

26. idol(s)......First person that immediately comes to mind is @sammchenry cause he's super cool and he's really nice and his art's reallyyy good (if u havent seen it w-w-what are u even doin with your life?) And he has a great sense of humor and *continues to ramble about why samms the best*

27. things i hate.......Dabs. Transphobes. Homophobic ppl. Basically any hate on the lgbtq+ community. Bullies. The ship starker. Umbridge. Snape haters

28. i’ll love you if….....U you'll eat pizza, draw, and rp harry potter with mee

29. favourite film(s)......Fantastic beasts. Every hp film. Twilight. The maze runner 1-2. The hunger games. Spiderman homecoming. Kingsman: secret service. Into the spideyverse tho i havent seen it yet

30. favourite tv show(s)......Inkmasterrrrr. B99. The mick. The middle. Uhhh idk mostly ink master xD

31. 3 random facts........Ive never had shrimp. I had a beta fish for over a year once. Im eating pizza crust rn

32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?.......G i r l s. I have all girl friends irl and one boy. And on tumblr it seems like i just meet girls? Likei agree with @cristal-kyd1280 its like alot more gals then dudes here. But i do have some guy friends on here too. But mostly girls

33. something you want to learn.......TO DRAW ANATOMY DAMMIT

34. most embarrassing moment........Every moment of my lifes an embarrassing moment. Idk of i can pick a "most" embarrassing one. But one time i i sent my crush (now ex bf) a hey fuckface and like some hearts or whatever for an ask game that meant like "i have a crush on u" "youre adorable" etc and said Hewo but i did it all anonymously. But he confronted me askin if i sent it cause im the only person he knows that actually says hewo lol. Then later on i finally admitted i really liked him and well y'all know the story after i think. Unless you're new

35. favourite subject.......A R TTTT OFC

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?........meet my friends on tumblr. Get into mtsu (college i wanna go to) and study art. And go skydiving

37. favourite actor/actress........favorite actor uhhhhhh probably thomas brodie sangster or tom felton and my favorite actress? Hmmm idk maybe evanna lynch (luna lovegood)

38. favourite comedian(s).......probably kevin hart lol he's p funny

39. favourite sport(s)........basketballllllll and football

40. favourite memory........uhhhhh idk?? One oh my favorite memories was when we went to see tøp in concert

41. relationship status.....single as a pringle

42. favourite book(s)......harry potter and the order of the pheonix. Harry potter and the half blood prince. Simon vs the homo sapiens agenda. Divergent. Maze runner. Twilight. Fangirl. Fallen. Red queen

43. favourite song ever.......TOO HARD DONT MAKE ME CHOOSEEEEEE

44. age you get mistaken for.........16 and 17 sometimes lol

45. how you found out about your idol........i was watching someone on yt and superraedizzle always poped up in my feed and my mom turned on one of her vids cause she always saw her vids too now ive seen most of em i love her. Id heard of vexx but never watched him and i was watching a collab from anthony miller art and shrimpy and i checked out shrimpys channel and was lookin at comments and alot of ppl said his art is like vexxs so i checked out vexx. At first i was like eh ok. Now i cant click fast enough when he posts a vid. And i actually fpund out about bob ross from my grandpa on jan 20 2017 when trump was getting sworn in or whatever. We turned on pbs and my grampa told me to look and bob ross was on and i was IN. I loved it. I even started watching full episodes on YouTube of the joy of painting after that. Wonderful man. My first painting i ever did i think was when i followed one of his tutorials xD (i didnt know it was popular at the time)

46. what my last text message says......."ok your turn"

47. turn ons.....uhh nerds ig idk um book lovers, music lovers, art lovers, potterheads, idk and nice ppl

48. turn offs......jerks. Homophobia. Idk ig whatever i said in things i hate

49. where i want to be right now......uhhhh idk wait didn't i already answer this? Ok this ones different ig so uhh with my friend lucas

50. favourite picture of your idol.....oh shit...favorite? Idk xD i have a fave of vexx but not of rae or bob. But heres pics of them any way

51. starsign......a libraaaaa boiii

52. something i’m talented at......drawing and speed reading. Thats about it lol. Oh and procrastina

53. 5 things that make me happy.......ooooo art, my friends here on tumblr, books, harry potter, and music ^^

54. something thats worrying me at the moment.....if my friend thinks im being annoying

55. tumblr friends......hhhhh so manyyyyyy. @dirtysocke @mysisterlooksforthisaccountsobye @cristal-kyd1280 @chinesewaffles2 @kingantlion @queen-baelin @sammchenry @septembersbloom and more

56. favourite food(s)......green beans, pepperoni pizza, and vanilla madelines

57. favourite animal(s).......basically any reptile. Puppies. Cats. Any animal really but my #1 are snakes

58. description of my best friend.....well she's a tiny bean (5 feet) and she has dark hair, she wears glasses, she doesnt take shit, she's in love with Josh dun, she's awesome, funny, nice (YES youre nice jackie) and shes the best friend ive ever had. Oh. And she has a weird obsession with spaghetti

59. why i joined tumblr.......well i heard abt it on Pinterest over a year ago but didnt want it. Then @mrfastbass-deactivated20181231 on DeviantArt said he got tumblr so i made one then followed him and figured id just post art and that's it cause i thought tumblr was boring as hell when i first got it. Now im p much obsessed with it

60. ask me anything you want.......go ahead brainy shoot. Give me smtn good

[evilponds]

uhhhh i was tagged AGES ago by @drgirlfriends (thank you!) to do this (because i love shit like this. i Will remind you at any given opportunity that my music taste is shit) so here we go: 

i guess yr supposed to put your music on shuffle and post the first 10 that come up so let’s do that i guess. im gonna add my fav line from each too because im depressed and have too much time on my hands

1) tea, milk & honey - oh pep! my baby runs ten miles to win it/she moves like her body’s got a fire in it

2) little pistol - mother mother i found roses set on fire/and i found jesus - what a liar

3) salinas - laura marling oh, put it down to me/i, who speak awkwardly

4) when the ship comes in - the chieftans ft the decemberists (YES yes its by bob dylan originally) and the sun will respect every face upon that deck

5) failsafe - the choir practice there’s gold in them hills ahead/have to get used to it/you and me both, kid

6) presumably dead arm - sidney gish but like an old man, say i reckon/id love you for a millisecond/but i dont wear a watch or rolex

7) devil do - holly golightly and the brokeoffs well i ain’t been saved, honey, what for?/if i ever went to heaven i’d be bored

8) never be mine - angel olsen but i will turn and walk away/i will watch you turn and walk away

9) see you - lady lamb if i see you when i look in my own eyes/how can i ever despise myself again?

10) gold guns girls - metric i remember when you were gambling to win/everybody else said “better luck next time”

okokok i tag UHHHHH @bastardwordsmith @delmonteslicedpeaches @pigeonflock @shoujoknights and also @passiveskills okokok im bored of tagging

[gotstory]

My 20 Year Old Idol Husband - Day 17 - Don’t Leave Me

20 yr old Jungkook, at the top of his idol boyband career, has a secret only he & his bandmates know – An underground relationship, with you, a girl he met at a fanmeeting. Things get a little out of hand and you find out you’re pregnant.

Read: Day 1 / Day 2 / Day 3 / Day 4 / Day 5 / Day 6 / Day 7 / Day 8 / Day 9 / Day 10 / Day 11 / Day 12 / Day 13 / Day 14 / Day 15 / Day 16 / Day 17 

[Back in the dorm]

"YAH! Jung Hoseok!" Jin's shrill scream traveled through the kitchen and into the living room where the younger floppy haired boy was playing with Taehyung's puppy.

Startled, he jumped up from his seat, dog in hand. "WAE WAE WAE?" he asked, briskly walking over in large exaggerated strides.

Jin looked at the table of dishes and noticed a piece of meat missing from the top. With his long chopsticks, he waved at the meat valley created by it. "You picked a piece didn't you?"

With a horrified expression, he raised an arm in fluster pointing at the living room, "Hyung! I was there the whole time! It's not me!"

Jin rested his arms on his hips, frowning in annoyance. "There's no one else at home except the both of us."

"But why hyung... it's gonna get eaten at the end of the day anyway so what's the big problem right?" The loud younger boy smiled cheekily as he reached for his phone to snap a photo of the sumptuous spread before them. "Gonna send this pic and you'll see them rush back in no time."

At once, when the photo was sent, a door opened from down the hallway. Both Jin and Hoseok looked up at each other immediately, realising it was the 2 scaredy cowards who were left in the house. "Hyung! I thought you said no one else was back?" he whispered.

With eyes glued to the hallway, a sleepy boy dragging his feet emerged from the room.

"Yah, Taehyung-ah, you scared us! Were you always in the room for the whole time?" Jin asked, still wondering if he was the culprit of the missing meat.

He rubbed his beady eyes, "No, I got back awhile ago but none of you responded to me when I walked by so I just went to take a nap."

Hoseok returned the puppy into his hands and asked quickly, "the meat tastes good yea?"

"What meat? I came out because I saw dinner's finally ready." Asked Tae.

There stood 3 frozen boys, wondering if there were more of them in the dorm that had grown larger than they could keep their eyes on.

Tae didn't quite get it but it didn't matter to him. "O...K... Let's just... eat? Where's Chae-rin?"

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[At the studio]

Jungkook was a smiley mess having you surprise him at work. He knew work was going to get busy soon and he desperately wanted to spend more time with you, help you settle in and figure out a solution to keep you close to him. He knew it wasn't going to be possible to take you with him everywhere but leaving you alone in the dorm while he worked overseas wasn't exactly what he wanted.

"Jungkook?" You called out to him while he was deep in thought. "What's the matter?"

He shook his head, looking between his schedule and you. "I'm just wondering how to keep you in my bag while we travel."

"What?!"

With a laugh and slight sigh, he sunk down into his expensive swivel chair.

"I want you to come with me everywhere, be it here, overseas, or just... I don't know, I just don't want you out of my sight." With a forlorn expression, he reached out to caress your back, sliding his hand to catch your palm in his.

"But..." he continued, "I know it's not possible."

You smile a little at him, "I was joking about following you abroad, don't worry. I'm a grown up and I can take care of myself - and cope with you being away for a week or two? We've been through that and more haven't we?"

At times like these, you felt like he was such a baby and it wasn't that you wanted to mother him, but you couldn't help but try to talk sense into him when he was into that mode. You knew he was just being honest with his feelings and that was something you liked about him - he always spoke his mind, and it was hard to get angry with his pure honesty.

"Anyway, I came with Yoongi-oppa, we should get going. There's dinner waiting."

At the thought of his food, Jungkook's bright eyes widened and he sprang up from his chair in glee - "Oh yes! Jin-hyung! Let's get Namjoonie-hyung and go."

As the boys gather themselves and take you with them, you notice fans at the entrance of the building. Even though they were heading to the basement car park, openly, in glass elevators, you couldn't help but feel self-conscious as if you were going to get caught for doing something illegal.

"Do fans find you at the dorms?" you ask out of curiosity, keeping your eyes on the girls camped out along the road with cameras.

"Hmm, now that we've moved into a higher security area, it's only those who probably live within the compound but they don't really pose a threat. They don't know exactly which unit we're at." The leader spoke calmly, assessing your question. "Are you concerned? You don't have to be, at least not when we are together in a group like this."

Jungkook in a hurry came out of the studio without a mask or hood and as he turned around to look out of the elevator, eagle-eyed fans spotted his face as they began standing up and waving. Some began to rush to the entrance only to be stopped by security.

Quickly the doors opened at the basement and some screams were heard from a distance. Having 4 taller boys obstruct your view made you wonder just how near or far these fans were and if they were even able to catch a glimpse of their favourite stars after camping out there for goodness-knows-how-long.

They strolled to the car like an everyday affair, while Namjoon put on his sunglasses out of habit. It was almost like the screams were his cue to wear them.

"Jungkook-ah, you should pull down the shades later at the rear before we drive out, got it?" reminded Yoongi, as he started the engine of his car with heavily darkened windows. "Those floodlights fans have nowadays are almost X-ray vision - I'm sure they'll catch snaps of Chae-rin even though my glass is almost blacked out."

True enough, as he drove out, some fans were already waiting at the exit with their long lenses, and they knew his car by the number, waving and shooting flashes at them.

"I want to wave but, they don't even know I'm inside." said Namjoon as he pressed his face close to the glass, observing the behavior of his fans.

You scooted closer to Jungkook at the backseat and lowered yourself, just in case.

"Those lights and screams are quite scary huh?"He smirked. "They're really quite something."

You sensed the pride in his voice and the love for the fans.

"You should just wind down the window and tell them to make their way home." You said, unsure if it was out of worry for the fans or jealousy on your part.

"Shall I?" Jungkook asked, his hand on the button.

"NO!!" came a resounding scream from his older brothers, followed by a stare from Yoongi through the mirror.

"Chae-rin ah, I didn't take you here to put our lives in danger, you should know better than that?" He half-chided in a nasal tone that was gentle yet annoyed.

You could only laugh with Jungkook silently as he quickly pacified his older brothers and talked about other things all the way home.

When the boys had all gathered, it was a spread of comfort food and apparently Jin hadn't cooked in many months so it was quite a grand affair that got everyone together at the table.

"Jimin-ah," you called out to him as he wondered where he should sit, being last to join as usual. You waved him to sit beside you and he gladly obliged. He had just come home straight from a shoot, with full makeup, suit and all. You saw him this way countless of times ever since your first encounter with him and the boys but you knew for as long as you had female hormones, there was no way you would ever get used to seeing him looking like a million bucks and not stare.

Although he was smiling, he seemed a little troubled. The rest of the boys however, were more interested in the food than their smiley brother.

"Had a long day?" You asked as he started tugging off his blazer and rolling up his sleeves.

He greeted you warmly, "Nah... I'm doing good. So what did you do today?" He casually poured himself a drink while you told him about what you did and the bits of stuff that happened.

"Aaah, Kookie's studio? You went to the company?" He gave a knowing nod, "that child's got alot of work up his sleeves lately... he's gonna get busy."

Jungkook finally snapped out of his gluttony and turned the other way to see Jimin and you conversing in low tones.

"What you guys talking about?" he asked with a mouth full of rice.

Jokingly, Jimin hushed you down, "don't let him hear us talking about him!"

"Aaah HYUNG!!" he frowned at Jimin, almost whining, making the older boy break into an eye-smile, obviously unable to resist the cuteness of an annoyed Jungkook.

"Arraseo... I was just joking around with her. Anyway, did you hear about the schedule next week?" Almost at once, his face turned serious as he brought up the plans for work.

Jungkook pondered for a moment as he swallowed his food, "I know the dates and that we're going to record some stuff, why? Did the schedule change?"

Jimin looked around, wondering if he should get the attention of the older brothers and caught sight of Jin who was also chewing his food in a daze.

"Jin-hyung," he called out across the long table, "about the schedule next week, have you heard any updates?"

His voice got the attention of his brothers as they all turned to him to listen.

"No, why? The last I saw, it was a schedule for about a week to Japan and that's all."

Jimin put down his chopsticks and cleared his throat, "actually... I just heard it today from our stylist noona... it seems we will be travelling out from there to a few other shoots this time and might not return for 3 weeks."

Silently, he turned to look at you and Jungkook, while the rest of the boys kept still.

"Oh." You replied, "that sucks for me huh."

At once, your blatantly honest response got them all laughing - all except for Jungkook, who's mind was travelling at lightspeed to think of a solution.

Jimin sighed, "I'm not sure yet because these things usually get told to us quite last minute and I overheard this, so we need to confirm it first."

The night went by and you got tired quickly, heading off to bed while the boys showered and chilled out on their own. It was, afterall, a long and eventful second day for you in their dorm.

Just when you were almost falling asleep on Jungkook's bed, he crept in and knelt beside you, careful not to wake you up but his scent that whiffed past was too alluring that made the corners of your mouth twitch into a smile.

"Why are you smiling?" he whispered, making you open your eyes to see his face inches away from you.

"Because of you?" you whispered back and he came closer to nuzzle his nose against yours cutely. "I'm sleepy, Jungkook... It's the hormones..." you mumbled as your heavy lids shut again.

"I know... I'll be here until you fall asleep..."

That was the last thing you heard before you felt a blanket gently cover you, and your senses were completely taken over by your dreams.

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"Jimin-ah, are you sure about it?" Namjoon asked as he strolled into the living area where the younger boy was sprawled out on the sofa with Taehyung. Propping himself up with one hand, he met the serious eyes of the leader.

"I think it's 90% going to happen this way. What should we do?"

As they all sat around, they were joined by Jin and Yoongi who were also trying to think of a way out for Jungkook and yourself.

In a low and eloquent manner of speech, he began. "Firstly, Jungkook's got to be mentally prepared - I don't think he was expecting this. Then Chae-rin needs to be able to move in and out freely without us, especially to the clinic. Alot could happen in 3 weeks."

Yoongi frowned, "couldn't she just come with us?"

"What?" Jin frowned back at him, "how?"

He crossed his arms and went into his deep thinking mode, furrowing his brows as they waited for his genius to spark.

Hoseok, who had been thinking about it in his room, emerged as he heard the content of the chatter.

"He's right - she could come with us. She just needs to be part of the staff, isn't that what you meant hyung?"

Jimin clapped his hands together in realisation. "Aaahhh.. That's right, why didn't I think of that!!"

Namjoon stood up, a smile on his face.

"That settles it then. I'll speak to the company tomorrow and guys, let's keep this from Jungkook."

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Nightmare Flashback! Part 3

Part 1 Part 2

Alright now THIS ONE is worth reading, because it was actually very interesting. I woke up and immediately wrote everything down, it was movie worthy. Both dreams were like horror movie Hunger Games. My first dream was actually a dream I've had before, years ago, and my second dream was similar to the first, but much more horrifying. 

March 5th 2018

WARNING- DARK THEMES, DEATH, VIOLENCE, AND GORE. (Be happy that you weren't the one dreaming it!) DREAM 1: Me and 11 other people were subjected to a fight over a property for the Fountain of Youth. The worst part is, I was switching POVs to whoever was going to die next. I was pushed off a building, shot, devoured, stabbed, suffocated, poisoned, had my bones broken as torture and wound up bleeding to death, bludgeoned, and choked. The last three people survived, but they accidentally broke the fountain of youth, and it turned into a gross sludge. (I was the one that died by being shot). UPON WAKING: I woke up like, "Man, that was freaky! I haven't had that dream in years!" And I immediately fell back asleep. DREAM 2: Was basically a more detailed, horror movie version of the first one, with a different plot. 12 people are in an alternate world after death (purgatory), and each had a living partner they had to either protect, or use them to help the player win, but if they wanted, the player could kill their partner, which either doomed their partner to remain with them forever or sent them back to the world of the living. The players and their partners? We had:

1. The twins from the Shining. One a player and one a partner. 2. A guy that liked to dress up as a rip-off of Freddy Fazbear. He killed his partner. 3. A guy that died from choking, so he gutted himself and wears his intestines. He was protecting his daughter. 4. A snobby rich 13 year old w/ her rich grandmother "helping" her. (Turns out she hated the brat and actually let the girl be buried alive in concrete instead of helping her win.) 5. Me, and I was protecting my little sister. 6. A troll/polar bear like creature, which ate its partner. 7. A vampire who lost his memories, but his wife (pregnant) also lost hers, and they were partners but didn't know why. (Not everyone had family or friends as partners. Also, the vampire's story is Oscar worthy, tbh.) 8. Fucking Michael Myers, who killed his partner. 9. A guy that would kill you if you spoke too much, so I would use sign when I was around him. He killed his too talkative partner. 10. A disabled woman, and her violently psychotic and overly protective brother was her partner. (She was a mastermind, she'd plan how to have her brother kill for her.) 11. A freaky alien creature, which ate its partner. 12. A HORRIFYING demon, a witch as its partner. And now, for the story line. So, there was basically a checklist to win this game. You could carry on as normally as possible, so if possible, the game could last for years. The checklist was that you had to survive 5 encounters with each living player. Most were easier than others. The brat, the silent guy, the gutted father (if you ate his food at one of his chairs, you'd choke and die, so I would get food from him and eat with silent guy), vampire dude (he usually had you copying his extravagant dance moves and Italian opera, so you better be good at memorizing, it was like playing Just Dance, but you can only see the moves once), me, and the twins were the easiest. I actually trusted quite a few of them just a bit, mainly vampire dude and his wife, plus the snob's grandmother (the little girl was evil I tell you, if I were her grandmother, I'd let her die, too), the gutted father (just don't eat at his table), and silent guy (just don't talk too much). I usually would hole up in a locked room with my sister, unless I went out to get us food (like a mother leaving a den). We had a code so we'd know it was safe to open the door. Fazbear nearly dragged her away once, and the demon nearly came in. I punched the witch in the face at one point (she wasn’t physically strong), and I never got near the troll creature. It would hide in an open door closet in the hall, but sometimes I'd walk by and it'd be gone (you can tell because half the mass of the closet is gone.) Alright, last but not least- The vampire's story was the most detailed part of the dream. So, the vampire and wife were confused of course, but they just went along with it and tried their best to live (Partners were living, and if they died, they'd stay with you, which is why you'd have to win the game, to save them by either protecting them or killing them. Killing them is very risky, especially if you're supposed to be protecting them. You have to have good intentions and unwavering confidence for it to work.) So during my turn at his encounter, I was the first one to do it, the woman squealed and went "Oh my Gosh! This reminds me of the shows my husband and I would put on at home!" And he stops clapping at my performance, looking terrified. Suddenly he has flashbacks to her and his 8 yr-old daughter and the son she's pregnant with. He decides right then and there that she has to die to go back home, that even though he'd miss her, she can't stay here. So he borrows my pistol and shoots her in the head, and cradles her while crying. All of the other humans are disgusted by him for killing his own pregnant wife, but he doesn't care. Just the fact that she didn't come back was proof that she got home safe. (All of this was in first person, btw, I was just super aware of everything going on.) I couldn't do the same thing with my sister, because "doubt" is my middle name, so I didn't dare try it. I just continued protecting her. I honestly don't know how the dream truly ended cause the last thing I remember is shutting the door in the face of Michael Myers. I was only halfway through the checklist.