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this chapter was a piece of art
no, but Kamiki DID understand Ai very well in essence. I get why Ai described him as the first person she's ever wanted to love?? He just got ONE thing off and I don't even think that's entirely his fault either. It cost him everything though.
#oshi no ko#oshi no ko spoilers#hikaai#kamiai#he can be wrong about a lot of things but I felt really sorry for this guy just accepting that he's never been loved as a fact#it could be painful but honestly#I think the fact that Ai DID love him alot could be his salvation too? Despite the fact that he learned it too late#doodle#spoilers#hikaru kamiki#ai hoshino
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one of the things that continues to strike me on reread is how much the character of Darcy, and Austen through him, finds Mr. Bennet dead. And how much Elizabeth, in growing and changing and discarding her past blindness, has to move past her way of seeing her father and thus of seeing reality, because the two are connected! Darcy’s letter exposes her father’s flaws to Elizabeth in a way she’d never been able to see before. Most especially the way his laziness and neglect of his own gifts have hurt his family and that ultimately he doesn’t. care. Not enough to change. It literally says that she comes home from Hunsford and tries to laugh at her sisters’ and mother’s folly (the way she used to; the way her father has taught her to by example for her whole life) and she can’t anymore! It sticks in her throat. She is grieved by the failures that she sees in him, all the more so because she IS his favorite and she loves him! And the thing about Mr. Bennet is he never changes. The Lydia/wickham situation exposes to him sharply his own conduct and the consequences and he feels it! Because he is neither stupid nor unfeeling. But he, like everyone, has free will. And he chooses not to change when the opportunity presents itself. He even jokes about how quickly his feeling bad will pass and how soon everything will go back to normal, to his laziness and his selfishness. He is set in his ways and he serves as a contrast to Elizabeth’s personal journey because he embodies a version of a person she could have become and was in danger of becoming if her only goal at all times was to laugh at and judge people from the sidelines.
#pride and prejudice#I’ve always loved his character because he IS funny and he is iconic!!! and his love for Lizzy is touching!#he’s not faking it.#but he is so flawed. a man of taste a man of ability a man of judgment.#a man who could and SHOULD have set a different tone for his children and chose not to!#and they SUFFER FOR IT#their house is a divided one. and every child feels the pain of living in a house where the parents neither respect each other#nor are on the same team#there is a crack running through their house for this reason and it’s how Lydia (and Kitty) came to be so neglected!#who is going to discipline them or guide them? certainly not Mr. Bennet!#he’s so important to teach too. because the boys LOVE HIM. of course!#and are always very struck by his failures and laziness once I point it out#and yeah Darcy one of the only people who can expose him. because Darcy is putting in the work a man should be doing#Darcy’s house IS in order. his love is active and protective. he is fulfilling his role!#Mr. Bennet’s gifts are so extraordinary—the wit. the insight into human nature. honestly the capacity for wisdom#but he likes his library. he likes enjoying himself more than he likes doing his duty#as either a father or a husband#he does fail Mrs. Bennet! I have compassion for her there#anyway I love to think about this: something no version I have ever seen has ever fully explored#but man is it on the page#yeah yeah sorry for all the words. teacher off duty etc.
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* how would the others react if dev got to chance to become a pixie? (If that makes any sense, very sorry if it doesn’t)
They'd be horrified and won't know how to process the information.
In this grim timeline, CosWan would have to come to terms that their youngest son is a walking death flag, while also embracing their new grandchild as much as they had embraced Timmy. It's a whole new terrifying life to navigate, but they'll do their best to navigate it together as family.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop cosmo#fop wanda#cosmo#wanda#asks#itty bitties fop au#tw implied death#dev becoming a fairy would create a shrodinger's situation#as long as dev's in fairyworld peri is both alive and dead and neither and both!! just like Cosmo and Wanda!!!#theres all sorts of emotions going on and all sorts of things could happen#but most importantly. coswan will REFUSE to break the family apart because of it#this would be a very grim but also hopeful and optimistic story#theyll never let Dev know how much pain his arrival would bring#they'd rather smother him with love and dedication to ensure that the worst case scenario never ever happens#but peri would know that his parents are agonizing and are suffering heartbreak over what he's done#purposely omitting timmy from this bcs in all honestly he might just kill a guy#haha
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Rainbows (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Papyrus#Sans#This rainbow is all out of order - and so many negative glows ah :0#I didn't mean for them to trend negative! They were just easier to imagine the expressions - maybe I'll take a second pass on the positives#Or in green's case the negative :')#Again in order of when I drew them so kinda all over the place haha#I wanted to go in order! And then I got distracted pft - thus started with red ow :(#Honestly I was thinking of it just being a surprise-pain more than anything lol - like a splinter haha that wouldn't even pierce him!#D'you think that eyeglows could also act like automatic word-responses? Like how we say ''Ow'' when we're surprised but not hurt sometimes#Silly haha#The second is a lot less silly-intended tho more actual pain#It's also sad to think that Sans' red would pretty much have to be sympathy/emotional pain :(#The kind of survivors guilt of not being able to shoulder more but he's so fragile! It's not his fault!#I am quite happy with both of their expressions there tho especially their mouth shapes - and how the colours interact with their eyes#Lineless colours are some of my favourites :) You can tell it's my pencils and not my pen there 'cause it's feathery hehe#For example Edgar's scars are usually with my pen and they have an almost hard-line quality while my pencils are soft :) S'pretty#Switched colours! I unfortunately misremembered what their meanings were oops lol#Well I got them kinda half-right - I like blue as skeptical quite a lot :D I think it suits them both!#Sans as wary and logical and wanting to keep distance to assure his safety and what he can devote energy to - I like it!#And Papyrus using his brother's colour to be grown up in the way that Sans is hehe <3 It's sweet#I misremembered orange lol I assigned blue's alt meaning of ''curiousity'' - orange is meant to be bravery! Oops lol#I think I was thinking of Papyrus' childlike excitement and wanting to know and be involved! Haha#Greeeeens <3 Happy boys happy with each other! I love when they're happy ♥ Interlocked holding hands hehe#Pinks! Along a similar line! I like pink as platonic affection :D And as embarrassment lol but hgg the sweetness! The care and love!#Is my bias showing lol - especially with the bros sleeping on each other haha ♪ They're both happy to know the other is safe!#Couple'a stresses - I like Sans' more I'm not even gonna sugarcoat lol his expression turned out so good haha#And the inverse for the purples! I do like Sans' face but his body :P Papyrus tho - he turned out sad and perfect :')
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He was a good stalker.
#gaming#s.t.a.l.k.e.r.#stalker 2#s.t.a.l.k.e.r. 2 heart of chornobyl#stalker heart of chornobyl#zalyissya#my gifs#stalkeredit#i wish i could have talked to this guy about his friend#but honestly it's enough pain as it is
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TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT EVERYTHING YOU COULD HAVE HAD, SIXER!
Close-ups
#Gravity falls#stanford pines#bill cipher#close-ups under the cut#AAAAAUGHH ITS DONE#my tablet is on its way out because let me tell you the pain of exporting and saving this file#honestly all i could think of while drawing the background were those 2017? 2016? galaxy wolf backgrounds LOL#blues art
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in light of the obvious eroticism of scars I do not think we discuss enough the eroticism of having been the one to piece someone back together. of looking at them and knowing that they will always bear the marks of your work, every time their heart beats and their lungs draw breath, bc YOU stitched them back together. you cheated fate and you crafted a miracle out of your own two hands and a pile of their viscera, and they’ll forever be the living proof of it. they are perfect, from their bones to their guts to their skin, and you made them this way; it feels like blasphemy, like getting away with something to be able to lay claim to their perfection like this. like I’m just saying.
#honestly I was thinking of those dungeon meshi lesbians when I wrote this#it’s also about you denying whoever hurt them their chance to lay a claim…#taking someone else’s mark of pain and turning it into a symbol of healing and of your love for them.#and on the flip side: to know that every moment here and free of pain is a gift they gave you without needing to be asked#to know that they took the bloody pulp of your body and turned it into something beautiful. how could that not be love.#lawlu#(that’s who this became about)
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Portrait pains
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#Poorly Drawn MDZS#MDZS#wei wuxian#lan wangji#Alt caption was 'Could the YLLZ Ball?"#Yes; that is a redraw of the 'could jesus ball' art#wwx reaction to the yllz 'charms' is so funny to me#Him going 'UM sorry??? He was a hot babe? What the hell is THIS????' Comes off like he's some fanboy#better yet lwj is *right beside him*#Lwj prob wouldn't have any yllz portraits - no matter how wonderfully painful that image would be#they just aren't accurate enough#Honestly the portraits are such a good diegetic storytelling tool to show us physically how *literally* twisted the image of wwx is#It doesn't hold up to the truth! Its just poorly drawn representations of a deeper and tragic narrative#......hey wait a minute
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What is this horror that I just woke up to
Firstly, Luka's tattoo has finally been revealed (too bad it's not where I theorized it was...) Unlike the others, one detail is stark this time, that being that he was awake during the entire process. He's not even lying down when it would probably be less (by a pinch) painful, and more efficient if he did. He's watching. Even helping by keeping his shirt up.
And it seems he is still maintaining his heart rate even through the pain.
(And, expectedly he is thin so this would've hurt a lot more. I wouldn't be surprised if keeping him awake was to benefit his ability of endurance)
And we have his mugshot too. there are a lot of scribbles on his page so I tried to decipher the two clearest ones to me
LUKA - 010401 (His ID number)
And alongside that, we finally have the full cast tattoo process. (save my Till loving heart what are they doing to him.) HyunA and the girls on the top and Luka and the boys on the bottom.
On the topic that the Aliens in ALNST are horrible and can't be bothered to even put the pet humans to sleep while going through such a painful process, it doesn't look like Ivan is spared either and was also awake. otherwise, I don't know how he maintained that grip.
There's no telling for sure yet but his grip looks loose, perhaps he has a good pain tolerance.
And Till's picture. I think that's a full-body restraint right there (Like a straight jacket) If he was awake the whole time too then that's probably to be expected. There also seem to be wires around his face? a mouth gag? I can tell his is just...gonna be horrible to look at. (I am going to cause a scene. bashes my head against the concrete ARGH)
And we have everyone's mugshots, Sua -> Mizi-> Till -> Ivan -> Luka -> HyunA
(These were especially hard to read 💀 but they all seem to have their own signatures on their own pictures )
Sua (x2) - 1132 (in the circled area) - 020201 (That's close to her ID number- 020211.) - The rest is indescribable except for the "No"(?)
Another interesting part of this, we're shown Till's part of the Season 50 data book. A lot of the text is scribbled out.
Lyrics to unknown Till the end (And something scribbled out on the top) it looks like a draft copy. I can't tell if much changed from the version we have today..just got to see when the full version is out.
I tried to decipher as much as I could, take this with a grain of salt but his profile (left) is more of a teacher's note, one of his flaws being that he's aggressive, and he has a strong suit in performance. (Heavy emphasis on practicing music because his performance is his strong suit)
The C might be his overall grade, his only passing class was music.
(So many star scribbles..Mizi liked stars)
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The album cover looks like a Brain (it reminds me of an MRI scan kinda) Is it Till's brain after all the experiments he's been through? if so, I'm not surprised it seemingly has a lot of abnormalities.
Also, the prominent signature in the middle looks a little bit Like Ivan's.
And finally the main piece, Given the similarities in data the person going through the test is still Sua.
The bandaging on her head is very confusing though, (is this the process of creating Anakt's child?) She also looks like she's yelling more than singing in this piece. (with the tight restraints it's hard to even tell but she doesn't look as relaxed as the second picture.)
Mental - Good (despite the red light?)
Cry (singing. maybe.) - Good
This could be in the literal sense that Sua was actually crying during this test, or this phase of the test. But Aliens have a warped perception of human sounds. They call crying, singing so...I don't know. If there was a lot of resistance from Sua during the earlier phases then the bandage is probably there as another restraint..so many restraints.
#jerjee....rhehehe...im going insane#if Till's tattoo scene..im going to kill something or myself#alien stage#honestly I think all of them besides Mizi were kept up that's probably just protocol#idek though.#thats so painful they could pass out with the right (or wrong) pain endurance#alien stage till#alien stage ivan#alien stage sua#alien stage mizi#alien stage luka#alien stage hyuna#alnst#please kill me now actually take all their pain and give urak period cramps fuck that hag bro#i wish i was elon musk with a private jet i would be at that shop SO FUCKING QUICK#fuck my broke baka life#TILL 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💧💧🌊🌊💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧🌊🌊🌊🌊💧💧💧#dont play pranks on me alnst official i will commit several war crimes for this#alnst ivan#alnst till#alnst mizi#alnst sua#alnst luka#alnst hyuna#this is so wacky i cant wait for alnst to go down the tili tili bom bom route#till alien stage
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Zelink Week 2024 | Day 2 | Breath of the Wild | Fading
Fading impressions of someone important to you... no I'm not crying you are.
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#zelink week 2024#legend of zelda#breath of the wild#zelink#loz#botw#lou draws#implied but this is irch plain. a “could have been” memory#that's honestly the reason for the castle shape of the frame#and I've gotta say. LOVE how it turned out. pain to draw though. all those details... *shudders*#also I need you to note. the different directions the wind was blowing. thought I was SO clever for that#really showing she's not actually there. not anymore.
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is this your card? ♦️♣️♥️♠️ it isnt but you dont wanna hurt his feelings
#this was supposed to be a warmup but i got carried away.... i havent drawn in so long that its been hard to focus orz#im testing a new brush for fun. again.. i think i can use this for clean lineart..?? im surprised i went as long as i did with the#narinder brush honestly... but i wanna try something new so here we are again#if i could get my shit together id love to draw a model of his van because i have smth really cool in mind..i was looking at pictures#of old wooden caravans like the horse drawn ones and i wonder if i could combine that with the shape of an RV#i like the ones with a door at the rear bc it kinda lookslike a train caboose.. maybe he'd get someone to weld him a custom ride!!#idk how intricate and detailed i can design it without making it a pain in the ass to draw every time BUT i have a general idea#it would probably have a door on the side but idk if itd flip down to make a stage or upwards to make a roof?? and then theres a#curtain behind it where he would come out and do his show methinks.. ive been looking at pictures of camping vans on pinterest for ideas#i dont think he LIVES in the van since i mentioned his home is an old run down theatre when he isnt on the road. i wanna draw that too#but the RV should have enough for long travels like a bed and cabinets..? maybe a net hanging on the ceiling where all his props go#id like to think of ideas for a hometown.. toronto has a huge entertainment district so it would make sense for him to live there#although id also love to base parts of it from vancouver since id love to go back and visit </3#..would there be furth names for those places?? nyancouver... clawronto... whinnypeg (like a horse whinny)...#pawson creek.... purrlington... otterwa.. i love coming up with names lol#my art#myart#my oc#oc#sleight#laikas comet oc#fan character#fur#furry art
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you know when you experienced something so traumatizing or grieved too hard your brain sort of temporarily locked that memory to protect you from the pain? i think that's what's been happening to me after deadpool 2 bc tell me why every time i rewatch that movie, i always forget how painful these scenes are?
they always leave me sobbing and totally wrecked but with each rewatch i'd just... forget they would eventually happen and i'd eventually get hurt??
#i love poolverine but wade x vanessa will always have a special place in my heart#they're it for me#but then again as much as i'd love them to get back together i also think they shouldn't#and this is my personal opinion#bc just like logan whose past shaped him into the man who saved the multiverse#i think vanessa played that role in wade's current life#and i can see why wade said he did it all for her. but if marvel makes her dump dermot to go back to wade that's just 🤕#well i wouldn't like that and i think that'd be a disrespect to her character n story n choice she made#and honestly i won't even bother going to the “well she could've still loved and wanted him back” discussion bc#i do think she was well aware of her decision to leave wade in the end and it must've hurt her terribly too#I MEAN LOOK AT THEM. you can't convince me vanessa wouldn't want to take all of wade's pain if she could#she loved wade just as much. if not more#dp 2 might be my fav dp movie#i love how it focused on wade's struggle to cope and his journey to 'get his heart in the right place'#and no matter how goofy they tried to portray his struggles you can just see the depth and pain behind his actions#but idk maybe that’s just me#deadpool#deadpool 2#wade wilson#vanessa carlysle
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"I Hold Death's Hand in Mine" was always about Nicky.
Agatha always tried to stop him from holding Death's hand — Rio's — and when she couldn't, Nicky gave his hand to his mommy, as it was always meant to be from the beginning.
Agatha only delayed the inevitable and brought more pain to herself, and Rio knew this would happen, but still, she gave him more time.
#i am not well#I'll write something because I don't accept this ending#I COULD HAVE SO MANY BETTER IDEAS#i really wanted to see agathario and nicky moments in Salem Era#pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#rio agatha all along#agathario#nicholas scratch#agatha x rio#rio x agatha#agatha harkness x rio vidal#rio vidal x agatha harkness#vidarkness#I honestly prefer the fanfics versions
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Sometimes, I forget that there are people who find protagonists like Izuku, Tanjiro and Yuji "boring" because "they exhibit typical shonen protagonist traits" and one of them woukd be "They're nice, they're kind, they're all sunshine".
Which, okay, have your tastes, that's fine.
But when it comes to characters who are kind and/or nice, there's layers to them.
Just because a character is nice, doesn't mean they're kind and vice versa.
A character can be the most evil one in that story and still show kindness to some people somehow. A nice character may be the one to do immoral things, Yuji being an example.
The reasons for why a character is nice and/or kind varies, too.
Some are just genuinely born that one. Some may be selective as to who they show those sides, too, because of their own morality. Maybe, a character is being kind or nice to also manipulate others. Some characters may choose to be kind because who will, despite the cruelty of the world?
Also, I feel like, even with people outside of a fandom, they hear or seen a character being nice and kind, they just stop at that and don't think they're capable of being ruthless.
Like, Tanjiro canonically has a pure soul, but multiple times he has shown he is not only a menace in a fight, but he has shown to be one in casual situations. Sometimes, he's not even aware he is because he is so nice.
Izuku, he's a sweetheart, too. But even he will just shut off that "sunshine" to literally tear into you. He has been told in canon to hold back his emotions, the most prominent one being his anger. When he's angry, go apologize!
Yuji, look, let's be real... he is sunshine and rainbows, but that boy is probably the least sweetest one out of these three examples. Hold back? Yuji don't know what that is. No, no, he really don't. I kid you not, this kid doesn't. You can't even use the fight against Junpei as one because he punched Junpei UP into a window. Had Junpei not have that shikigami, he would have gotten major injuries.
My point is!
Just because a character is kind or nice or both, it doesn't mean...
A) it's the only trait they have.
B) they're not capable of not being kind or nice.
I think some see nice and kind and associate it with being "soft" in a derogatory manner.
Which, first off, there's nothing wrong with being soft.
I'll be honest, it will sound silly (go ahead and laugh actually, I encourage it), but if you asked put a character like one of the mentioned protagonists in front of me along with their villain and asked me "who I'm more scared of" I'm pointing at the protagonist.
Listen to me. Don't let that cuteness fool you.
With a villain, I am well aware of that villain being evil and will hurt me no matter what I do.
With someone like Yuji or Tanjiro or Izuku, they look nice, they look kind but it's like you have to be careful to not to trigger them in a way to set them off. You're caught off guard but those sweet faces and then next thing you know, BOOM! You got knocked out.
If anything, as much as people like to clown on these characters, they're only just following the footsteps of the ones before them.
Just like those legends, they started from the bottom and grew stronger over time and even with being a chill person or don't want to do evil, that doesn't exempt them from being not "a sweetheart".
I said it before, but a sunshine character to me is a character who is warm but lethal, like sunlight.
#shoot if anything i say some of these protags are a little crazier than the last ones...#like I'm sorry but they do things that I'm like 'OKAY WHAT THE FUCK?'#tanjiro out here headbutting the shit of people and taking sickles through.#THAT WAS PAINFUL TO LOOK AT#izuku could have killed katsuki in that first fight or just injured him badly#his fights... he knows to hold back because of his body AND honestly because of others#like when you think about izuku did have the capability to off someone#murder just don't be on his mind#yuji... listen he can throw cars and will do it enough said#he knocked out bullies like they were curses at like 13-14 years old and looked at the last guy with a glare so chilling...#it's like watching season 0 yugi all over#cute but then boom oh i could gravely injure you ha ha#just kiya's thoughts#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#midoriya izuku#izuku midoriya#deku#itadori yuji#yuji itadori#tanjiro kamado#kamado tanjiro
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Meneldir slips away. He is gone.
so. I finally remade this old thing in all the heart-wrenching detail it deserves. I'm sorry, in my defense- I actually don't have a defense.
#so uh. hm. well this is the thing I said you guys were gonna be mad at me about last night :)#I WAS HAVING FEELINGS OK#I WAS HAVING A LOT OF FEELINGS SO YOU ALL GET TO SUFFER WITH ME#the first version of this drawing was bad enough but then I was like 'what if I fully colored it?'#'and actually drew Tossdir's face so you could see all the Pain?'#and well. this is what happened. I'm not sorry I'm emotionally distraught and I need to inflict that on others#tw blood#character death#lotro#before the spoilers#lotro spoilers#lotro oc#Tossdir#Meneldir#I honestly feel like I owe Tossdir an apology after this
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i think a lot about the idea of sam’s relationship to sh (both the widely recognized types and the more subtle types). in my mind it would start as a sort of self-punishment (pre-series after a hunt that doesn’t go well and he finds the pain of an injury grounding / reminding) and then continues it as a combination of punishment & cleansing until s7, where it would transfer over into pain as a connection to reality / control over his body (he’s getting scars from hunting but he’s getting more scars from himself so that means more in the end). s8 would kind of be a movement back into the cleansing state of mind (embracing & valuing the pain from the trials) but post-09x10 would very firmly be about re-finding security within his body. anyways the sam in my head has sh scars
#i love when the lighting hits sam’s arm just right and it looks like he actually does <3#there's a very specific moment that startled me on my first watch of 04x01 where i was like. wait a fucking second#but it was just some shadows that happened to look similar#i think that sam does have many canon actions that could be considered sh (“self-mutilation” sex with ruby. s7 hand scar.#s8 trials pain.) but i could also easily see him engaging in outside more explicitly sh actions as well#honestly i do count the s7 palm scar as a scar representative of sh / sh scar in the end (even though it wasn’t self-inflicted initially)#due to the way that he uses it to deliberately inflict pain which is the technical definition#ive actually been working on a fic abt sam & sh for a while but i have no idea how i want to end it#which is making it hard to work on & i am avoiding it :/#because like. stopping it isn't how most people write it and it drives me just a lil bit crazy <3 the miraculous#power of dean would not suddenly fix him nor would they address it in an effective / meaningful way <3#tw sh#tw sh destructive behaviour#ask to tag
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