#honestly i do count the s7 palm scar as a scar representative of sh / sh scar in the end (even though it wasn’t self-inflicted initially)

[homehauntsyou]

i think a lot about the idea of sam’s relationship to sh (both the widely recognized types and the more subtle types). in my mind it would start as a sort of self-punishment (pre-series after a hunt that doesn’t go well and he finds the pain of an injury grounding / reminding) and then continues it as a combination of punishment & cleansing until s7, where it would transfer over into pain as a connection to reality / control over his body (he’s getting scars from hunting but he’s getting more scars from himself so that means more in the end). s8 would kind of be a movement back into the cleansing state of mind (embracing & valuing the pain from the trials) but post-09x10 would very firmly be about re-finding security within his body. anyways the sam in my head has sh scars

[aliusfrater]

#i love when the lighting hits sam’s arm just right and it looks like he actually does <3 #there's a very specific moment that startled me on my first watch of 04x01 where i was like. wait a fucking second #but it was just some shadows that happened to look similar #i think that sam does have many canon actions that could be considered sh (“self-mutilation” sex with ruby. s7 hand scar. #s8 trials pain.) but i could also easily see him engaging in outside more explicitly sh actions as well #honestly i do count the s7 palm scar as a scar representative of sh / sh scar in the end (even though it wasn’t self-inflicted initially) #due to the way that he uses it to deliberately inflict pain which is the technical definition via op

i think a lot about the idea of sam’s relationship to sh (both the widely recognized types and the more subtle types). in my mind it would start as a sort of self-punishment (pre-series after a hunt that doesn’t go well and he finds the pain of an injury grounding / reminding) and then continues it as a combination of punishment & cleansing until s7, where it would transfer over into pain as a connection to reality / control over his body (he’s getting scars from hunting but he’s getting more scars from himself so that means more in the end). s8 would kind of be a movement back into the cleansing state of mind (embracing & valuing the pain from the trials) but post-09x10 would very firmly be about re-finding security within his body. anyways the sam in my head has sh scars