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anyway. the image of graves being Catholic burns so good. imagining him kneeling by his bed and praying every night, rosary in hand with his head bowed down, begging someone to forgive whatever sins he commited. always wearing a cross necklace and feeling genuine unease when he doesnt at least have it on his person. sitting in church after the service and staring at the statue of mary while waiting for his turn to get into the confessional booth. this may just be my downfall
#writing this fresh out of the shower#towel on and everything#god. god#can you tell i have no idea about catholics#cw religion#religion#Commander Phillip graves#Commander Phillip graves x reader#graves#Phillip graves#graves x reader#Phillip graves x reader#graves cod#cod graves#Commander graves#Commander graves x reader#cod graves x reader#graves cod x reader#cod mw#cod mw2#cod mwii#call of duty#cod#cod mw3#cod mwiii#he still fucks nasty btw#gothghostiie
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I don't always have to be sad to post caps of Zayne. Sometimes (Always), I just want to look at his hands. 💁♀️
#love and deepspace#love and deepspace zayne#zayne stop giving me bedroom eyes in a public café#but imagine him coming home from a late shift#he has a late shower and comes out clad in only a towel around his waist#his hair is still damped and the crisp smell of his body wash lingers#the city sleeps all is quiet and the world feels at peace for this brief period#it feels like the two of you are the only souls in the world#and you are just sharing this soft tender and playful moment with him#just appreciating each other's company#and he is just so grateful to have you to love you and be loved by you#this man is so touch starved he relishes in your soft caresses#no matter how tired he is or what mood he is in#you are able to calm him down#you are the remedy to his fatigue and stress#what am i yapping about#tldr: i just love zayne so fucking much let me give him the fucking universe
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There's not much Steve remembers.
There's a group of people walking through the woods, some older, some teens. He's amongst them. The sky is too dark and the trees are too dead. His hands are tight, holding something close. There's an air of panic, stress, hurry, caution. A mistake was made, and they need to escape.
Then instincts flare and the trees descend on them. Sharp rushes of wind, the shrill shrieking of something otherworldly. There's teeth and sharp whips and screaming and gunshots.
Then the swirling mass parts and the shrieks turn human, and Steve remembers the visceral fear of seeing the mass separate. One half rises, carrying a flailing, manic figure, and no no no Robin please no not Robin please no me take me instead you bastards not Robin please no Robin Robin-
Then the other half descends, whips circle his wrists, and the ground falls beneath him. There's screaming behind and before him as the earth fades away, and it's a cruel parallel, floating when all he wants to do is sink.
Robin's thrashing, Steve's thrashing. Their weapons have no use here, where teeth and whips maul them. Amid the pain, all Steve can do is plead to Robin, to forgive, to hope, to fight.
Robin finds the weak spot first. A quick succession of blind swings, a fierce thrash of flailing limbs. The bats scare, release her. But they're too high. Steve feels his throat go coarse as he watches Robin crash into the dead forest below, unable to differentiate the snapping between bark and bone.
Steve finds it in him to copy the act, do the same. And somehow, it works. Somehow, he's weightless.
There's a fierce pressure and the first snap he remembers feeling both on and within his skin-
And Steve wakes up.
It's not sudden, it's gradual. He feels the pains within him slowly throb to life, rousing him from sleep like an anchor rising from the sea. His left hand feels thick, and there's a burning poker laying across his forehead. His jaw feels wrong, and his eye stings and throbs.
His other senses slowly begin to return as well. He's laying down, his head tilted to his left, a bit cramped in the space as something presses around his shoulders. The material he's on isn't very comfortable either, some parts stabbing into his back, and there's a crinkling sound every time he breathes. He hears the faint rippling of water, and somewhere out there, it rushes fast and hard.
It's hell to even think of doing it, but as Steve returns to reality, his instincts rise to the surface, and he knows he has to get up soon. So he opens his eyes. He fights the involuntary tears, wincing as the stinging worsens, then wincing further when his face crumbles in the looping pain.
Finally, he can see a little. Where he is, it's thankfully pretty dark, with only a faint golden glow illuminating the area around him. His eyes strain to see through the darkness past the range of the light-
And then Steve notices where he is. A boathouse. The boathouse. The same one from a night that feels like a lifetime ago, rather than a few weeks. The start of their worst journey, the beginning of a friendship that would grow just to rot into a sour mess of guilt and loneliness.
He's laying within the same boat too...
His eyes focus on some motion across from him. A table covered in a lump of tarps and ratty cloths, and atop it sleeps a figure. Her face is scrunched up in pain, a patch of bloody fabric covering her cheek. One leg has been removed of all clothes, the ankle wrapped and foot elevated. Steve knows her, and instinct briefly overpowers everything else.
"Robs?-" Steve cracks out, his voice sore and rough. His body tries to rise, moving habitually, and he barely rises onto his elbows before the world pounces on him again. It's so strong and he's so weak that he can't move more than the closing of his eyes and the falling of his chin to his chest, can't make a sound louder than a whimper.
Suddenly there's a noise, there's movement beside him. The light glows just a tough brighter, and there's a base warmth suddenly pulsing through his chest.
It's a person, shushing him. Their hand is resting softly on his back, simultaneously supporting him and urging him down.
"Please, stay. It is better for you to rest."
The voice speaks softer than Steve can remember, but he still knows it. It's monotone, sounds ghostly, faint, quiet in a way that has nothing to do with volume, but it's still familiar. Still brings the memories around Steve right into the present, takes him back to that corpse, makes the presence around him feel more melancholic than scary.
Which is funnily enough, even more terrifying.
Steve can't move, can't pull his sight up to face what can't be reality.
"Apologies for the location. We cannot stray too far from the Gates."
The monotone changes to sound almost apologetic, more real, more like what Steve has been craving. It's what finally makes him cave, to turn his eyes to face the impossible.
Who he sees, what he sees, both crushes and rises his hope. Because past everything before him - the inhuman glow, the calm, plain expression - he finds exactly what he's been fighting for.
"Eddie...?" Steve pleads.
The blank face falls, just slightly. Like it's guilty.
"I'm sorry. No. Not quite."
(cleaner version below)
#MY SHOWER THOUGHTS KEEP GOING WAY TOO HARD#why did thinking of lore for vecna's generals create this completly different story wtf-#anyway eddie's body gets possesed by the original spirit of the upside down#it saves stobin from death and takes them to rest at the boathouse for safety#all bc of eddie's input bc dude's still in there#he just can't drive#I’LL EXPAND LATER BUT HERE’S THIS FOR NOW JHGVJYGCJYGV#also it’s stobin bc i couldn’t decide if the story was better with just steve or robin so fuck it let’s have the siblings suffer together#stranger things#steve harrington#robin buckley#eddie munson#stranger things au#platonic soulmates stobin#platonic stobin#stobin friendship#steddie#steve x eddie#implied bc it's me of course
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please put your reasonings in the tags!!!! esp if you pick the last one
#in my personal opinion#it's tim#i think it's less that he wants bear all to himself and more that he feels like other men can give bear stability#that he can't provide yknow?#cause crime doesn't stop in gotham and he has to respond which means he can't stay for dates and other things#and fuck- bear deserves stability and someone who stays and isn't at danger of dying all the time#and he wants to give it to bear! he wants to stay and go on dates! he wants to ve there!!!#and i do think bear gets jealous but like i think he's a little more content in what he has#bc if he's honest he never though he'd get tim back and now he does have tim back and maybe it wont be forever but at least he has now#and like yeah he's not rich like other people in tim's circle and he didnt go to a fancy college and he is poor#but at the end of the day it's not them tim comes home to. it's bear and their shitty apartment. it's bear and his shower that runs#out of hot water after like 15 minutes which means they have to boil water on the stove for extra warm water that tim comes home to#tim comes home to him!! and he finds peace in that#also in bear's case i think he knows that tim has a whole other life that's he can never really be a apart of and well when you already kno#that it's kinda hard to be jealous of your bf's superhero friends who kinda live in his soul#like dont get me wrong bear absolutely is jealous of them but at the end of the day it's him tim comes home to#it's him tim curls up with and it's him tim does bad karaoke with and it's him that tim rests with#on the other hand tim is insanely jealous of bear's friends. like he hates the fact that they got those 5 years he wasnt there and he#hates that they were there when the cult started up and he hates that they're still bear's emergency contact and it's probably not healthy#but he's got all these wants and desires when it comes to bear and for every inch bear is willing to give him he wants the mile#sorry i love thinking of timbern as a little bit toxic. as a little bit of an obsession. on both their ends really. love!! when theyre#freaks about each other lol#does this make sense???? i think about this in the shower a lot#anyway lemme know your opinions in the tags or the replies!!! i love reading your replies/tags!!!#tim drake#bernard dowd#timber#timbern
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seen one too many snide posts about this in the last week or so but did you know that if you don't enjoy scenes in smut establishing consent or checking in then you simply don't have to read them and you don't have to go online and whine about how they're Consent Posturing and Purity Culture and Sanitizing Everything and God Just Kill Me Now. like you can have a preference without making it into a three act morality play, which is ironically what you are accusing other people of doing.
the same goes for like, detailed content warnings on fics. or content warnings at all. you can just skip those. they're not a sign of Purity Culture Gone Too Far or Those Damn Puriteens or whatever. you can dislike things without being an asshole about them or implying they're Taking Away What's Good And Correct About Fic Or Creativity.
#gav gab#sex ment#there's a running thread in the L2L cinematic universe shower sex fic#about consent and checking in and like. being cautious and careful and Aware of the other party#and whether they want to be doing what they're doing#and it is there for a reason and it is extremely meaningful to the context of what's happening#and if i see one more post mocking the entire concept of addressing consent in a fic#i am gonna heap my lid#i really do think 'consent posturing' is one of the most enraging phrases i've ever seen online tbh#and there's some stiff competition#like. wrow. lot going on THERE.#i just hate that i'm so anxious about this part of this fic#i mean im anxious about the whole thing for various reasons but#seeing those posts some of which have been reblogged by people whose opinions i do respect#has made me really embarrassed and worried about honestly one of the most Meaningful parts of this fic#and i feel like i need to pre-emptively go on the defensive or else people will think it's Bad and Stupid and He Would Not Fucking Say That#etc etc etc#like i have to pre-emptively defend myself against accusations of bad writing#and i know the answer is just to care less about Posts On Line but i would like to cordially suggest perhaps the answer is also#stop being an asshole about a preference and asserting it like it is not in fact a preference#but is instead you speaking some kind of Good Take onto the stupid brain rotted puriteen masses or whatever#i am doing better about not letting the ocd win and caring less about Posts#whatever it may appear lmao i Am doing better with that#but that doesn't mean those posts arent still mean and shitty#and generalizing a lot of weird shit into things like#'establishing consent in a sex scene' which apparently is Inherently Boring And Annoying
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i’ve been smart enough to keep my bedroom window closed since my allergies have started becoming more insane than usual, but i forgot that we have to keep the bathroom window in our apartment open, and i realized really quickly into my shower that i was not only having a sneezing fit but a full blown allergy attack. now it’s been an hour and i’m still sneezing, and my entire head is itchy
#i’m losing my mind#i think my entire neighborhood heard me sneezing in the shower#and maybe cursing a little#when it went from little fits to full blown uncontrollable allergic sneezing#now i’m all stuffy and still fucking sneezing#and i want to call my girlfriend but i have to let the sneezes calm down first because she has an early day#and if i call in THIS state nobody is sleeping tonight.#good lord#allergy season is here#and funnily enough i’m seeing another allergist soon#will not be going off allergy meds for the life of me though lol#time to increase my doses again
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Danny saving Villians because he doesn’t want them as ghosts in his realm.
“I aint letting you bring that into my house nuh uh”
#thats it tumblr post it#danny phantom#idk what au this could be fore#I just put an e in for might be time to exit the shower#as ghost king it would cause so much of a headache to deal with them#like hes got to rehabilitate them probably and thats so much work#plus the paper work that comes with people who have killed a lot.#yes this is ghost king#r we not all on the ghost king train?#danny saves like idk some sort of villian and is like ‘’get yo shit together before you die’’#what the fuck else do you do when the king of all the dead saves your life and tells you to clean up your act or else it’s a time out#who knows what a ghosts timeout is#people be like ‘’welp death said I gotta do better before I die so I better’’#idk im so tired at this point but still have three hours to go#pogo lol#boingt boingy boingy#goodnight everybody hahahaha
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'You're doing great...'

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Oh. Staring at the screen while Ari ignored the show to play with her toys, Rhea felt the tears fill her eyes. Welp... Rubbing them, she sniffled as she silently cried in her seat.
#ic#;the traveller#;waffle assassin#context: theres an ep of bl.uey called baby race#where basically bluey rolls kinda early and chili then becomes OBSESSED with bluey having these milestones before the other kids in mom grp#it gets so bad to the point where she skips mom grp#and one of the other moms visits with her toddler#and basically says that its okay chili doesnt know what shes doing or if bluey isnt hitting these milestones when she wants to#and that shes doing great as a mom!#it fucking makes me cry everytime#and it made me think of rhea while i was in the shower#really good episode 10/10 and in my top 5 bluey episodes#.......faceytalk is still the best tho
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So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?
Things I need to do:
Finish reading icebound land
Make a whole lotta art that I promised people
Research study abroad programs
At least one Dutch lesson a day
Keep my room clean
Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)
My math homework
Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane
Eat at 7pm
Various things I enjoy as to not go insane
All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00
So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks
But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup
#“but you never actually do that stuff! you just sit and scroll!”#yeah cause if I'm not doing what I need to I'm not Allowed to do anything else#but I'm just. too tired. to do what I need yo#I hate high school#rambles#adhd#executive dysfunction#<- I've heard that this kinda mental math can be a symptom of those things? idk#im so tired#burnout#adhd burnout#(????? I think????)#high school#I'm just so tired of all of this#the sun is going down way too early and I barely speak at all at school and I never finish work early anymore and the teen center is loud#and I still want to be active in the fandom but I don't have time to make posts anymore#and I don't have any in person friends anymore and I don't know when the last time I got a hug was#and I'm just. so. tired. my room is clean and I have good grades and I talk to my friends everyday and I shower routinely#why the hell am I so stressed#I do everything I'm supposed to do#I just want to go somewhere else man#The Netherlands hopefully#I wanna actually DO something#go on a trip for band#not just finish the work put in front of me day after day after day after day#I wasn't built for this shit#I'm so fucking tired
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oh yeah: Tank Rescape!
#toy pic post#undescribed#90gal#got a bigger whale 👀#still not 100% happy with it but the plants feel like they make more sense and arent just randomly strewn about#and the whale is using more of the depth of the tank instesd of all being clustered in the front#but goddd that back corner my fucking worstie. my beloathed. when i tell you i never want a fucking tall tank again...............#next tall tank i have better be one i can just fucking step into i swear to god#if i inherit that 180gal from my dad its a useful tank size in theory but ill have to try to trade it for something that doesnt turn me#into the joker!#anyway. ignore the bucket i had to take the breeder box with the pregnant shrimp and new snails out for the water change and then it became#A Different Temperature. so. i was floating them. if i shower today i will release the new snails! excited about them#got another zebra nerite (hopefully to distract Doppio from the long suffering Espresso Bean??) and 2 ive never seen before that we just#got in: pink lady nerites???? theyre soooooo cute. teeny tiny. adorable. i dont know if i want coffee names for them or coaster names.#also Espresso Bean fell on its back again. so. gotta fix that..#i fear once i release the pink ladies i will never see them again theyre soooo teeny. at work i thought they were pieces of gravel#but maybe! i have black sand so maybe theyll stick out!!!#and i thought id lose robusta whos barely bigger than them and i see him sometimes still#this is rapidly just becoming a snail tank. theres just so many cute nerites tho look at em......#i also have 2 uhhh tiger nerites now? need to name those too#and i requested we order red racers at work 👀#and if we get cool ones. the snails may soon outnumber the fish#cos now im at. 8? jesus. this is a dangerous line if work for me
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Men better step up their game

#Idk why I’m saying this or why I’m posting it 😭#They better step up their game bc it’s weak. (Or at least the men ik irl)#I will become a man to prove that there is still hope for better nicer awesomer guys. Bc I’m super awesome.#Oh no no wait. Am I an egg.#Nah. No. Wait was I trans to begin with#Hold on chat hold on#Wait I guess bc I’m like nb or also cassgender or like gender fluid or whatever idk anymore secret third thing#But I am masc leaning but still act like a girl#Wait hold on hold on#Umm idk guys. I was just gonna say no drawings today bc I was in a call all day but uhh 😭#Whatever. I should delete those tags bc that’s just me thinking but this blog is like my little personal diary so every thought stays.#Anyway back to doing MORE work. Shotgun to my mouth.#“i'm probably nonbinary but i have a job so idrc about that rn” ahh mf 😭#(I do not have a job)#Just realized I haven’t showered today fuck#At least I brushed my teeth. That’s great.
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Its time to draw the annual ass beating between cyrus and cynthia
#this is still one of my favorite pokemon battles of all time#cyrus is so fucking petty#and cynthia is so impulsive#she is like#well fuck you#have a literal meteor shower asshole#he is lucky he is like a cockroach that just wont die#i love them <3
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can't tell whether i'm getting fucked by my non-existent period or i've just fallen into a Ditch face first

#could be either one#the period is late btw#which is always so fun#why don't i still have like a proper Schedule at my big age#like why does it just go over like a week or two sometimes bro please#i'd LOVE a routine#PLEAASEEEE#it's so fucking annoying#but yeah i feel very not human#which is also . very annoying lmao#i might just need a shower but oooh my god that seems like the most impossible task rn#tomorrow..#tomorrow will be the day..#aaanyway i think i'm gonna try to sleep#since i didn't get any good sleep yesterday#i think i was only like half asleep for the most part#???????????#idk don't ask#hashtag super doomed#save me roomie satoru save meeee#mayor of loserville
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Every time my boss calls me “kiddo” my insides twist in this very complicated way. Sometimes with an older man you really gotta ask do I want you or do I want you to hug me and tell me you’re proud of me
#and sometimes the answer is both#is today the day we learn that daddy issues is the name of the game for ms bea#or did we already suspect something was afoot#idk why im in a very yappy mood today would you all still love me if I never stfu#and Yk what sometimes it depends on the man#because I don’t want my boss at ALL#he is like a father to me#however if my boss was like#higuruma#then that would be a very different story#April if you see this#remember the bea lore you concocted about tired dilf lawyer higuruma#and young fresh and energetic lawyer bea…#yeah thats real as shit#if my boss was higuruma and he called me kiddo#I would have no choice but to jump his bones#and make him tell me how good of a job I do at work#and how proud he is of me#while he fucks me#anyway with that#I am going to shower and go to bed#good night dash <3#bea yaps
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listen i know to die clean and pretty is the most needlessly tragic thing ive ever foisted upon the fandom and i absolutely should not be looking for ways to make it worse
but
what if same story but erika’s pov
#i stg i will do ANYTHING BUT FINISH MY GD WIPS#but think about it#wdym the woman who’s spent her whole life cyclically loving and losing FINALLY finds peace and gets to grow old with the woman she loves#then realises that something is Very Very Fucking Wrong and a lifetimes worth of fear and trauma kicks right back in#scared of what’ll happen to Charlie if the humans find out what shes capable of#so much pain and loss that she’s tried to move on from and yet she STILL spends her final year alive terrified#and fundamentally alone as she loses charlotte piece by piece#argh#gonna go listen to phoebe bridgers and have shower thoughts about this bye#cherik#femme cherik#logan 2017#erik lehnsherr#charles xavier#x men fanfiction
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we are so back
#it's been so longgg#i still have films from like three years ago#new chemicals bc apparently adox is replacing tetenal#so far its been the exact same so 10/10#the only place dark enough to get the film out of the box is the bathroom of the guest house#which is up the hill#and i can only do it at night#it's so fucking creepy lmao#and then i gotta sit in the equaly creepy pitch black bathroom#equally*#trying to focus on what my hands r doing and not imagine things creeping up out of the shower drain#text
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