#is your friendly reminder that I am gonna die

[strechanadi]

Mathieu Ganio

Mayerling

photo Helena Maria Buckley

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

ROMANTIC WHUMPEE X WHUMPER DIALOGUE PROMPTS

trigger warnings: NSFW, violence, abuse, rape, power imbalance (everything in here is entirely fictional meant to serve as ideas for writers. I do not condone any of these in real life in any way, also I'm titling the post 'romantic prompts' due to the characters' romantic relationship, not because the prompts are supposed to be 'romantic or cute')

❝it's cute you think they can hurt you like I do.❞

❝you're not leaving me, and if I can't make you stay by words, I'm gonna do it by force.❞

❝are you gonna kill me like you killed those people?❞

❝you're gonna bleed to death if you don't let me help you. I am not asking. stop fucking squirming.❞

❝do I have to chain you up?❞

❝you like that, huh? being fucked on the floor by a sworn enemy and not being able to do anything about it.❞

❝friendly reminder, I own you.❞

❝you're only alive because I let you. don't forget that I could change my mind any second.❞

❝don't think I won't fuck you like an animal right here in front of everybody.❞

❝scream all you want. no one's coming, and I do like hearing you cry.❞

❝is this the only reason you're keeping me alive? because you want to break me more? come on, we both know you can't live without me.❞

❝make any noise and I'll slit your throat.❞

❝no, I had a chance to escape you. I didn't. you've made me love you, and for that, fuck you.❞

❝I hate that I could never hate you.❞

❝this is not a home. it's a prison.❞

❝if I'm ever going to die, and want it to be by your hands.❞

❝I need you to fucking look me in the eyes and say you won't run away again.❞

❝you're not safe with me. I'm scared of what I might do to you if I let the demons win, and I'm scared one of these days they're gonna win.❞

❝I am the only person who can hurt you.❞

❝I won't chase after you, because I know you'll come crawling back to me, you always do.❞

❝I fantasize about my hands around your throat, looking you in the eyes as I twist the knife.❞

❝I know you wish you could kill me and I know you wish you could hate me. but I'm the only person who understands you and I know you need me.❞

❝my only mistake was falling in love with you.❞

❝has anyone ever told you how pretty you are when you cry?❞

❝you can't kill me. I'm already dead.❞

❝you've had that chain around my throat since the day we first met.❞

❝it'll hurt less if you stay still.❞

[bopbobpbobpbobpbobpbobpb]

Sleepover gone wrong on noesss

Writing underneath

It had all started so well. Simple plan. Simple. Plan.

Step one: become unpossesed

Step two: sleepover

Step three: pie

Step four: wait for mom to go to sleep then get out the ouja board and play fun sleepover games!!!!! Thats how it works!!!! Kris would know!! They've had plenty of sleepovers with Azzy, Noelle and

Step five: have fun and go sleep. (Kris would NOT be sharing everyone else has to sleep somewhere else)

That was the plan!!

It had started of so well. Kris had entered the room and Susie and Berdly, well did what They always did. Argue. It was friendly though!! They always do that it was normal. Noelle suggested truth or dare (a classic) and it was going well!! Bonding!! With friends!!! Kris had missed this. They had missed having so many people in their life, shouting amd screaming, having fun until they were too loud and Toriel had come into their room and remind them to be a little quieter. They had missed laughing and being "sneaky", talking about the most random things and playing little games. They had missed the noise and the warmth of the ones close to you just simply being there. Kris had finally resolved everything with Noelle Berdly and Susie. Until they just made that shit go crashing down.

One thing had led to another. Berdly truthed susie to tell something. Susie got defensive. Things got heated. They both lashed out. Noelle tried to diffuse the situation. Berdly said something. Noelle got pissed. Berdly said something. It struck a nerve. Kris saw red.

The whole room had stared at Kris in shock. Kris's eyes widened. No. No. They didn't mean that they didn't mean tha- Berdly rushed out. Eyes suspiciously shiny. There were only three of them left. Kris, Noelle and Susie. All of them could only stare dumbly at eachother. Shit SHIT. Kris CAN'T go back to before they CAN'T they CAN'T. Panic rose. Kris had just made up with Berdly and they immediately ruined it. Kris went after Berdly, determined to make things right again.

Except ...

Kris stood at the doorway, frozen. How do they do this? Their breathing got funny. WWAD What would Asriel do? He was good at this sort of thing wasn't he? But.. Asriel wasn't there. Only an idiot human and a crying bird on the footsteps. Kris thought about what to say. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it .you're my friend. I love you. Kris flushed no they could NOT say that don't be an idiot. No they had to say what they were sorry about right? Like uh: Im sorry i-

"are you just gonna stand there"

Kris flinched. Berdly sighed and continued looking away form Kris.

"I'm sorry" Kris could only say.

Berdly ignored them. Kris sat down on the steps next to Berdly.

"I didn't mean it" Kris looked down, avoiding eye contact.

"It's not true"

There was a silence.

"But what if it is" Berdly's voice cracked. Kris looked up in shock.

"What if I am" Berdly burried his face in his wings

" I AM a forgettable little bluebird and when I die no one will care because I have done nothing in life and I'm not exceptional at all and I was so mean and I -"

"No."

"What do you mean no?"

"Berdly I was being a dumb shit who got mad and took things too far you ARE NOT foegettable you ARE exceptional and if you died I would be really sad and track down your murderer and kill them and you're my friend and i love yo-" shit shit shit shit.

Berdly faced Kris.

"What"

"What"

"What did you just say"

"If you died I would be sad and kill your murderer"

"No after that"

"You're my friend??"

"No the one after that"

"That was it"

"KRIS STOP GASLIGHTING ME"

"I'm not??"

Berdly laughed. Kris could not help but grin a little at the sight. Suddenly they stiffened the birb hugged them tightly.

"I love you too kris"

Suddenly there were two idiots crying that night.

[captain-pheonix]

Am I allowed to ask for Heavy Medic and Scout (separate or together, doesn't matter!) with a werebear reader? It's basically just like a werewolf but instead of turning into a wolf they turn into a bear.

A/n: seems like it could be fun, so why not! I’m otherhearted plus a huge animal nerd, so I want to try making it close to reality while not losing its theme. Doing more of the half headcannons/drabble thing because I think it works well with this. Hope you enjoy, thank you for requesting!!

Heavy, Scout, and Medic with a gn!werebear!reader

Heavy:

- he is both shocked and totally ready to fight you like the huge grizzlies back home when he witnesses you transform

- stuck between the morality of killing you/fighting you and not hurting you in any way

- in your bear form, even if you’re mean when you’re a bear, you’re probably scared of this huge, intimidating guy

- if you can still be mostly yourself when you’re a bear, you’re very scared he’s gonna hurt you, because you’ve probably seen the things he can wrestle

- if he doesn’t see you transform, good luck that guy is messing you up until you turn back

- when he finds out it’s you, he immediately tends to your wounds and profusely apologizes.

- you clear up all his confusion

- if you’re mean when you’re a bear, Heavy stops you from causing any damage to anything or anyone

- even if your apologizing like there’s no tomorrow after you transform, Heavy says it’s all ok and it isn’t in your control

Medic:

- not stuck between the morality at all

- when you eventually turn human again he’s like “ok you’re going to the lab, I’m studying you so you don’t break anything”

- could totally develop a serum that you could be injected with to temporarily stop transforming

- absolutely fascinated by you

- thinks you’re a marvel of science

- knowing your secret and being studied brings you closer with him

- he figures out what triggers you to turn into a bear, and what state your mind is in while you’re transformed

- tries to invent some medical devices with Engineer to control your bear form

Scout:

- whatever species of bear you turn into, he’s definitely going to secretly think it’s so cool

- screams like a little girl when you first transform

- if you don’t transform in front of him he’s probably like “OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD THEY JUST GOT EATEN BY SOME RANDOM ASS BEAR IM GONNA DIE”

- dude runs away from you wether or not you’re friendly or in control when in bear form

- everyone thinks he’s crazy when he tells them he saw this huge bear in your room, so he kind of starts believing them

- of course he sees you as a bear again and starts to realize no one’s ever going to believe him

- when he notices you get really scared of his screaming he starts resting his limits, thinking he’s a tough guy

- notices things in the bear’s personality that remind him of you

- starts connecting the dots, you tell him your big secret

- thinks it’s totally cool and will defend you and protect your secret

- starts roughhousing with you as a bear and immediately regrets it after getting accidentally slashed a few times

- learns to like and live with your bear form

[igotanidea]

First choice : Jason Todd x fem!reader

Summary: you don;t know what you have until it's (almost) gone.

A/N: this is lightly based on one particular scene from "little women". If you watched it, you'll know.

Warnings: usual Jason ones - swearing and a bit of angst. Apart from that fluff.

***

„Don’t leave with him.”

„I’m sorry?”

“Don’t. Leave. With. him.”

“And why exactly shouldn’t I?” Y/n crossed her arms over her chest, putting down the t-shirt she was folding before packing it into the suitcase. She was supposed to leave Gotham. Most probably – for good.

And she was not doing this alone.

She was about to go with Tom, the guy she met a couple months ago at work. At first, there was nothing but friendly feeling between them, but he clearly wanted more. So once he got a promotion and was posted to the branch of the company, he went as far as asking the CEO to second Y/N with him. And that got the girl slowly falling for Tom as well and convinced her to give him a chance. Since then, they have been on a couple dates and shared some innocent kisses but this acquaintance was promising. Finally Y/N found someone who would treat her right, who would give her peace, unlike the bats. Of course she loved all the Waynes , but it was a nervous lifestyle and it was slowly taking toll on her health.  

And that’s how Y/N ended up picking up her clothes, getting ready to take off and leave everyone and everything behind.

Leaving Jason.

��Why Jace?” she repeated scanning his face “Tom likes me and I like him. Maybe we can work things out between us. Shit, I hope we work things out, cause he might be my only chance for getting in a good relationship.”

“That is bullshit!” Jason exclaimed “You know that! That fucker is doing nothing more than encircling you like a prey! You mean nothing to him.”

“How dare you?!” she took a few steps towards him raising hand, almost slapping him across the face but stopping in the last second. “Nah.” Her eyes flashed “that’s what you want, isn’t it? You play your games, you want to mess with my head. Well, it’s not gonna work.”

“You’re gonna die out of boredom with him.  He doesn’t know a single thing about you. For your last birthday he bought you a ticket to the rap show! You hate rap! And one time he took to the restaurant with sea food, which you are allergic to! He’s ordinary! And you know you need thrill! You need night actions! You need working with Babs, with bats, with Red. That’s who you are. ” Before she could move away he grabbed her wrist in an iron clad  grip. “

“Let go of me.” She hissed warningly

“No.”

“I said…. Let. Go. Of. Me.”

“And I said no.” their eyes met and this war of nerves and tensed gazes made them both shiver. It was like a lightning between them. The question was, who was going to give in first. “I can’t do that……” he whispered

“Why?!” she cried out “Why are you trying to destroy my only chance for happiness?!”

“Your …. Only chance? Fuck! Y/N are you serious!?”

“YES! For God’s sake, you do nothing but cause havoc! It’s been like that for our whole life!” she yanked free of his hold and moved a few steps back.

“You deserve someone better!”

“Huh. Really? Someone like you, Jason? Someone who will give my heart attacks every night? Someone who will make me worried and creating scenarios of getting hurt, injured, captured or killed? Someone who will ignore me, cut me out, won’t talk to me, keep me in the dark?”

“Princess.”

“Stop calling me that….” She sobbed and started punching his chest. “Why can’t you just let go?”

“You know why….”

“You are being mean. This is not fair!”

“How am I  being unfair here?!” he shouted “ME? How can you even say that? I’ve spend half of my life loving you and yet, I’ve always been a second choice for you! How do you think that feels?!”

“What…..? But….?” She stuttered but now he was on the roll.

“Let me remind you. You were 20 when the first guy broke your heart and …..”

“You broke my heart first!”

“What…..?” now it was his turn to stutter

“I cried at your funeral, Jason! I mourned you after you got buried! I was in deep depression for months. Don’t you think that leaves a scar?!”

“But I came back. I came back to you!”

“It doesn’t mean anything!  It’s in the past. It’s too late. And don’t say you care, cause you are just acting selfish, as always.”

‘No. No princess. This is not how this Is gonna go. If you need a memory refresher, here we go. When your first boyfriend broke your heart, who was it that hold you, hugged you and did not let go for the whole night you were crying on the couch? Who was there for you? Say it!”

“You were.”

“Yes. And then the next day you were just acting like nothing happened. You run back to him the second he called to apologize. Don’t you think that hurt me?”

“Jace….”

“And every other time when you were broken, scared, worried, shaking in fear or pain who was there for you? Who picked up the pieces? And even then you were always looking up to Dick! My freaking brother! Tell me something, Y/N” he came closer, and she had no way to run, cornered, “why am I always second best for you? Why?”

“Fuck!” she yelled and without any hesitation pushed herself into him locking his lips, letting all the anger, passion and craving for him out. At first he was taken aback, a bit, and the first thought that came to his mind was that he was going to end up alone and played by her again, but the way her body aligned with his, so damn close, so damn perfect got him crumbling. Out of instinct, he took a step forward, trapping her between the wall and his body, grasping her neck and tangling hand in her soft hair, the other gripping her hip pulling her closer. “you were never….” She gasped pulling for air “you were never second….. fuck, Jason.” Y/N fisted his jacket with a mix of anger and frustration.

“Don’t leave with him” he begged caressing her back, desperate to keep her with him, desperate enough to swallow his pride and get on his knees “I don’t want  you to leave. Please Y/N. Stay. Stay with me.” He nudged her nose with his, mouth hanging open, brushing over hers, so damn close,  wanting nothing but to kiss her again, but at the same time unable to.

‘I’m tired of playing games, Jace…..” she whispered closing her eyes.

“This is not a game, you know it….”

“Then say it. Say it to prove it to me.”

“I love you. I’ve always loved you. But I was so scared of this feeling. For so fucking long.”

“And now….?”

“Now I want you. If you’ll take me…’ he couldn’t hide that pleading tone in his voice. He was begging her to want him, to need him.  So desperate to not be tossed away like a used cloth, to not be forgotten and abandoned, not again. He begged her to love him back.

“I will.” Tears started falling down her cheeks. “I…. I will….I love you too, Jace…..” She sobbed and her whole body shook because of that. “But….” She swallowed hard and took a sharp inhale “Promise me you won’t hurt me. Promise me you won’t break my heart. Promise me you’ll love me right and won’t hide things from me….. please….I don’t want to be hurt again…..”

“Oh, baby….” He wrapped his strong arms around her, engulfing her in his warmth, hiding his own tear-stained face in her hair, kissing her head repeatedly. Only now he realized that they were both equally broken, life in Gotham and their past making them so similar. They were both scared of being alone, unloved. Having that belief that all life would offer them was scraps. “I swear. I swear to you……” he struggled to say those words because of the lump in his throat. ”you are my first choice too….” Jason added and her arms tightened around his waist. “will you stay now?”

“Yes….” She pulled back and looked into his eyes, filled with hope, relief, love and care, just like hers. “I’ll deal with tom later, but now… can you just hold me like this more? I need this. I need you.”

“You have me, baby. I’m yours. And don’t worry about a thing. I’ll take care of the man who wanted to take you away from me…..”

“I seriously hope that’s not a death threat, Red.” She laughed lightly and it was the prettiest sound Jason ever heard.

“Can’t make any promises on that…..”

[yellowhollyhock]

Nightwatcher and Ghost of the Jungle would've been such a cool team-up though. Nightwatcher, in the city that never sleeps--describes his shift, literally like "I'll be in this place at this time come get me if you've got the guts." The whole point is to be so intimidating people afraid to try crime so that there's less for just one turtle to do (that's what he and Don were arguing about, I have normal feelings about this). Then, the Ghost of the Jungle-- vague, whimsical even, says I am Part of Nature and I will always Find those who need me. Giving 'no one sees my face and lives' vibes. Intimidation through mystery instead of sheer straightforward power.

They would have worked so well together. I kinda wish Raph hadn't hung the helmet up at the end of the movie. I mean, I get it. It was an identity that was always going to be connected to Leo's absence, and he thought his brother was gonna die because of him so that would be pretty traumatic. But just. Think of the shenanigans. And how well they would understand each other.

And also how different Nightwatcher and Ghost are to Cowabunga Carl and Just Donnie, Your Friendly IT Tech Support (not your enemy) (long suffering sigh).

Mikey parallels Raph in how he's using visibility as stealth. He's disguised as a giant turtle so no one will suspect he is actually a giant turtle. Pretty mich the exact same strategy but opposite; instead of trying to be intimidating, he's made himself friend-shaped. And that! Doesn't work at all! :D (do you think it was Donnie's idea. do you think Mikey was waiting to be asked about what he'd do if he was human. do you think the two of them talked late into the morning about what direction their lives could possibly take now that they aren't a team of ninjas, with Leo being gone and Splinter pausing patrol. do you think they hoped getting jobs focused on helping others would earn them some degree of acceptance, even if it'd be fragile and conditional. do you think Raph spat at their feet for trying to make themselves feel human, accused them of being ashamed of what they are, and maybe he wasn't totally wrong)

Leo and Donnie have interesting parallels too. I'm here to help, but you come to me and you can't see my face. These are the conditions, now I'm a tool in your hands, use me till I'm blunt. or something. Themes of selflessness but for Leo it's detachment from all he knows and loves, while Donnie is planted at home so that everyone else can branch out.

Mikey and Donnie both hate what they're doing. Or at least they're exhausted from doing too much of it. But. They help each other. Donnie set up Mikey's van so it would be as easy as possible for him to have some independence while still being button clicks away from help if he ever needs it. You know with the hours Don's pulling that Mikey is the one reminding him to eat, sleep, etc. Even though they're exhausted they fall asleep on the couch watching movies together instead of going to their beds.

Meanwhile Raph and Leo are the same and they're finding their callings. They're growing into their own identities as individual Ninjas. They were the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles; now they're their own brand of Cryptids. Really growing into themselves. It's beautiful and probably exactly what Splinter intended Leo's training period to be for. But. They're both alone. And that self-isolation is now linked with that growing up journey, for both of them. I'm sure this will not have any repercussions (yes it will). They can easily slip back into working as a team, the horror of almost losing Leo surely fixed all underlying issues (no it didn't).

Anyways what if Leo talked Raph into taking the mantle back up. What if the two of them start a habit of sneaking out since they can't seem to get back in on the bond Mikey and Donnie formed while they were both absent. What if this also causes more problems even as it smooths over some. And plus also too what if it's super cool because Nightwatcher and Ghost y'all

[hemolock]

No more friendly reminders, unfriendly reminder that;

IF YOU ARE FEELING TIRED OF DESTINY 2, TAKE A FUCKING BREAK.

This game isn’t a job, you won’t be fired for not showing up. This game isn’t gonna go anywhere the moment you leave, it’ll be here.

JUST BECAUSE YOU AREN’T ENJOYING THE GAME DOESN’T MEAN BUNGIE POISONED YOUR WATER SUPPLY AND BURNED YOUR HOUSE DOWN, YOU ARE JUST BURNT OUT AND NEED A BREAK.

I swear to god it PISSES me off so much when I see comments like “I used to enjoy this game. But erm bungie decided to fuck it up”

YOU ARE ALLOWED TO GET TIRED OF A GAME, IT IS NORMAL. YOU CAN PLAY OTHER GAMES. THIS ISN’T A MARRIAGE, DESTINY 2 WON’T DIVORCE YOU FOR CHEATING.

If some RAT comes to me and says “but destiny has been apart of my life for so long, I can’t leave it.” FUCKING DIE. taking a break isn’t like you leave it forever, it’s temporary.

Y’know I was tired of the game last season, wanna guess what I did? I TOOK A BREAK AND DIDN’T CRY ON THE FORUMS LIKE THE LITTLE BITCH YOU ARE.

Am I being a bit harsh? NO. Because for some reason half of the community doesn’t understand the simple thing every other games fanbase does. YOU CAN TAKE BREAKS.

One more time for the beasts skimming this, YOU. CAN. TAKE. BREAKS.

TAKE. A. FUCKING. BREAK.

[t0ast-ghost]

S3 episode 4 (And The Children Shall Lead) I'll explain what happened to episode 3 under the cut of this post.

Start here:

- The three of them beaming down together is a good start

- Guys they're not dead!… they’re just sleepy

- Kirk is not amused

- As much as I want to believe Kirk would be good with children, it’s proven (canonically) he is not

- “I am getting a feeling of anxiety in this place.” This reminds me of a good omens line. If ya know, ya know.

- I love nurse chapel. The medical department being good with kids is heartwarming

- Is this a Peter Pan situation? (edit: nope)

- So why are the kids chanting and summoning an entity? Let's not have to call the exorcist.

- “Have Dr. McCoy report to my quarters.” Yeah…?

- We get to watch Sulu press buttons and turn dials :)

- Uhura’s double take

- “You’re losing control of yourself, sir.” “Not yet.” Scotty then proceeds to fight two guys and get knocked out

- “The enemy from within!” Previous episode mention

- That’s horrific. The children controlling their parents caused them to die on Triacus. Star Trek can write some pretty fucked up shit actually. But it doesn't deal with the consequences.

- McCoy’s opinion is outnumbered two to one again so he just storms out

- They just beamed those two redshirts out into space…

- “Friendly angel come to me.”

- Kirk and Spock share a look like, ‘what the fuck is going on’

- Spell that makes you see knives in space

- Poor Uhura. No one wants to see their own death, but amazing acting

- “Captain, why are we bothering starfleet?” Spock too? Kirk you gotta go find McCoy, maybe he’ll be talking some sense

- So why haven’t I seen anyone talk about this?

- “My Vulcan friend.” Yep Kirk. Reassert your friendship.

- Spock grabs Kirk’s arm to reassure him

- WOAH! He jumped to killing kids way too fast (worst case scenario stun or hypo them! Jesus)

- Kirk has had to remind himself that it’s not okay to punch a child a few too many times in this episode (I can see it in his eyes)

- He’s playing the video of all the kids playing with their parents on Triacus and they’re smiling but I’m expecting Kirk to just say ‘and now.. your parents are dead.’ - omg they really did just switch suddenly to their DEAD PARENTS. No remorse.

- This episode is fucking devastating

- Bones is going to come back from wherever the fuck he is and just, 'Jim, I specifically told you not to traumatize these kids.'

- The ‘angel’ dying is fucking horrifying

Now everything’s fine and dandy. Not like the entire bridge just went through major mind fuck of an ordeal or anything

Masterpost

Episode written by Edward J. Lakso

So I didn't actually watch episode 3, I watched around 15 minutes and then said, 'I really just don’t want to watch this episode. So I won’t.'

Only thoughts from this episode that I'm gonna mention are:

- The reason that they didn't let Spock point out the pine trees is because he would have said their scientific name

- “Typical human reaction to an idyllic natural setting.” McCoy says this with so little bite towards Spock, like he’s actually having a conversation with him and explaining what it is. AHH

- They could have easily left McCoy on the planet to search for Jim while Spock goes to divert the asteroid. If being alone was the issue they could've beamed down a security officer/team

Other than that... there's nothing. Sorry Margaret Armen.

[gorogues]

Fictober 2024

Prompt number #2 Fanfiction Fandom: Flash Rogues Rating: M – Mature Warnings: Profanity, violent talk, flirty talk (nothing explicit) Notes: If you've forgotten their frisky but Comics Code-compliant Bronze Age antics, here's your reminder.

Day Two: “It’s been a long time”

Lisa had been puttering around her apartment all afternoon, doing the sorts of mindless chores which keep one’s thoughts from straying too much.  The downstairs buzzer had rung a few minutes earlier, but she’d ignored it; Len was in prison at the moment and there was nobody else she’d want to see.  It was probably the cops, and they’d find their way upstairs anyway.

Soon there was a familiar knock at the door, one she hadn’t heard in several years.  The man who’d created it was dead, and who could have learned that little signal he’d always used to let her know it was him?

In a fury, she rushed to the door and peered out the peephole at the motherfucker who was definitely a dead man that simply didn’t know it yet.  But the man standing there wasn’t Barry Allen or some other cop, it was an inoffensive-looking old guy who was still gonna die.

She threw open the door with an enraged expression, ready to end this creep, and he held out a bouquet of her favourite flowers: orchids and roses together, tied with a golden ribbon.

“Lisa…it’s me.  It’s been far too long.”

She stopped and stared.

“'Let the great world spin for ever down the ringing grooves of change',” he quoted with a friendly smile, reminding her of the poem they’d once shared because of his fondness for the line.

Tears welled up in her eyes, and she pulled him into a powerful embrace which made him gasp.

“You’ll have to be patient with me, as this body broke a few ribs in the accident.  I’ve been healing it with my powers, but he was old and it takes longer,” he admitted, hugging her gingerly in return.

“How?” she asked, letting the tears flow openly, and tugged him through the doorway to give them some privacy from snooping neighbours.  She closed the door behind them and led him to the couch to catch his laboured breath.

At this, he grinned ever wider.  “I’ve possessed the body of Barry Allen’s father after he died in a car accident.  I am now living with Barry, but he doesn’t know it’s me.”

Lisa’s jaw dropped momentarily, but soon she was chuckling too.  “Okay, that’s totally sick and I love it!  What’s next?”

“I, er, haven’t quite decided on my full plan of action yet,” he confessed with a sheepish look.  “Still getting accustomed to these particular accommodations.”  He pointed at his new body, which was nothing like the one he’d previously had, but she snuggled against his chest anyway, mindful of his tender ribs.

“Just glad to have you back because I never thought I’d see you again, and I love you no matter how you look,” she told him contentedly, and he smiled.  He stroked her hair fondly and kissed the crown of her head, grateful for her complete acceptance of decidedly unusual circumstances. 

“I missed you too, sweetheart.  I’ve been so proud to hear that you’ve given my dear son Barry hell since I’ve been gone -- it’s not the life I wanted you to have, but you’ve certainly made the most of it.  Thank you.”

She smirked slyly at him, playing with his striped necktie.  “And I bet you’re going to join me in that mission, so we can ruin the Flash together.” 

He nodded.  “If you’ll have me.”

“Oh, you know I will.  Speaking of which, you must be awfully uncomfortable in that stuffy old guy’s suit, so I’d better get you out of it.”

He leaned back to get a good look at her and arched an eyebrow.  “Why, young lady, if I didn’t know any better, I’d think you were coming on to me.”

Lisa swung her long hair over her shoulders and used his tie to pull him closer, looking him up and down.  She took the vintage fedora off his head and placed it on her own, the brim pulled low.

“I guess you’re still addled from this whole possession business, you poor thing.  But don’t worry, I’ll be gentle.”

“Well now, I didn’t say that would be necessary,” he said as he unbuttoned his jacket.

[thegeminisage]

got a little internet who knows if/when it will go away so i am doing a star trek update because i am BEHIND! sunday we watched voy's "revulsion" and "the raven" and last night we watched voy's "scientific method" and ds9's "you are cordially invited."

revulsion (voy):

wasn't too sure about this one at first but in the end i decided the little freak in this episode is the fun kind of freak. hands down my favorite part was when he went on this long horrible rant about how disgusting biologics are and the emh goes with like this forced brightness "and this is the sensor array!" absolutely captures the horrors of listening to your m*ga relatives go on and on and just having to like...deal with it. also, it was incredibly fucking funny

harry and seven were SO cute but i wish he hadn't tried to woo her and i wish she hadn't done that "take off your clothes" thing. that said chakotay being like "suck it up you're gonna keep working with her"was also extremely funny

i do feel like this episode did a lot to humanize seven though, for lack of a better word...i know that chakotay's episodes at the start of voyager were way more racist than the episodes he gets now (not to say the eps he gets now AREN'T racist, but they also aren't playing the racist panflute while he helps janeway find her spirit guide). so it's my hope that eventually the incidents of sexism re: seven will sort of...die down. if they can ever get over her (sigh) catsuit. at least in picard they let her wear real clothes! and don't pad her bra

the raven (voy):

TEN OUTTA TENNNN

first of all, my new best friend seven (i knew this would happen, remember?) is EXTREMELY funny. i didn't realize it but the actress has a great sense of like, comedic timing. the whole bit with her slowly learning to chew and swallow food (neelix's cooking, no less) was fucking hilarious, the longer it went on the funnier it was

secondly my other best friend tuvok.............he and seven make such a great pair. i like that at no point did tuvok tell her she was being illogical. he stayed totally calm and helped calm her down and offered to support her through the whole thing without being a bitch because he knows she was sick, even if it was a mental issue and not a physical one. like, bitchy tuvok is fantastic, obviously, but i love that sometimes the logical thing to do is simply show compassion

AND i really loved the entire plot about this being the ship she was taken from...no fucking idea how they got out that far in her 6yo human lifetime but it was awesome to watch her put it together and then the final shot of her looking back as the ship crumbled...mwah

also shoutout to the gay people in this episode...i love when janeway reminds me of kirk and she reminded me of kirk a little bit in this one because of how like. she was so invested in helping seven learn art and finding her when she went missing and like. the bright way she said "there you are!" when she found her on the holodeck at the end. it's that same kind of over-investment kirk shows in spock in tos that goes beyond "friendly" or "coworkers." it was gay as hell

scientific method (voy):

ANOTHER WIN FOR VOYAGER? dare i say it...3 watchable voyager episodes in a row.

i didn't low tom and b'elanna's plot in this episode but they made up for it in the end by being kinda cute when they were teasing about their entire relationship having been built on alien lies or whatever and then they were getting ready to kiss the whole time. i thought b'elanna was being kind of silly insisting on secrecy when they were making out everywhere and i guess janeway did too because DAMN she gave them one of those big bad scary awful lectures...it was also redeemed by it being REALLY funny when tuvok caught them and he was just like :| because that's just what his face does

sleep deprived pissed off janeway!!!! she was amazing in this ep. another one where she reminded me of kirk, especially with the bit of her threatening to blow them all up at the end. he did canonically do that!!

seven and the doctor were so fun. seven did a great job, she was SO close, but you literally can't get one over on tuvok

the only thing i really hated about this ep was old chakotay. like, sure, fine, make somebody old, but why did they also make him white?? come on

you are cordially invited (ds9):

I LOVED THIS ONE!

headliner: i have finally forgiven odo. when kira avoided him all episode i was all but hissing at the very sight of him. when she was like "we need to talk" i was like NOOOO because i knew no matter what he did or said i would not be able to let go of my anger. i was so worked up about it that i was BESIDES myself that they skipped to the next morning without showing us what they talked about, and then...

in the closet. all night. all night they talked in the closet

and you know what? it's perfect. if i can't forgive him no matter what he said then simply don't show me what he said. show me kira and odo looking deeply relaxed and having the deepest conversation at like 10 in the morning after HAVING. SPENT. ALL NIGHT. IN THE CLOSET

idk one of my fav things they did was have kira find out about odo's feelings and then nothing changes...like, he can be in love with her and it's not a painful secret but it's also not a demand and they're still friends. that's so complex and good

the rest of this episode: mwah. my best friend quark and his unrequited love. sisko being glad to be home. julian and obrien fantasizing about killing worf and then beating the shit out of him at his own wedding. martok loving getting negged by his wife. jadzia crying into sisko's arms about her husband troubles. mwah. even alexander was funny despite me being lukewarm on him earlier. klutzy disaster isn't who he was in tng, like they just made up a new guy, which is annoying, but it is also charming, so i'll take it

the one thing that got me this ep was like...i was expecting jadzia to succeed in winning this lady's favor by defying her or capitulating to her or by doing some secret third thing, but they...never showed it? she just got married and the lady was like ok we're all good now!!

i also read that they tried to get the tng cast back for worf's wedding, just without lines...i get why they weren't there since it was on;y a week's notice (which may have been part of the reason they decided to do it like that) but can you imagine the fucking jumpscare if i'd seen picard on ds9 season 6. i would have died on the spot

TONIGHT, assuming my internet stays on: voy's "year of hell" parts i & ii. EXCITED!!!

[itzcherrybonbon]

Obey Me OC: Makoto Gushiken ~ ✰

[The design is innacurate in Gacha but- just take it-]

-"Age?"

-"I'm 20!"

-"Birthday?"

-"July 3rd"

-"Nationality?"

-"Japanese!"

-"Sexuality?"

-"I'm straight, but I do support LGBTQ fellows!"

-"What about your pronouns?"

-"She/Her..?"

-"Things you're fond of?"

-"Wellll, I really like chocolate, photography, diving into mysteries and solving them, haunted places, nice and kind of airheads type of people..like Mammon, otome games..And I'm a huge fan of roses, dresses and cute aesthetics. Let's see, what else..Oh, I also really love mythology, especially Greek mythology. I hope I didn't forget to mention anything else..-"

-"How about things you dislike?"

-"I dislike messes, a lot. I always make sure to keep my room clean and everything to stay organized. I also really want to stay away from rude, disrespectful assholes. The nerve some people have..Lucky for them, I'm patient with others. And very much a pacifist. I don't want to get myself in too much trouble. Another thing I hate are..well, guns. The sound of them also..Loud noises in general trigger me. Oh, and I can't really handle alcohol or spice well-"

-"Favorite song?"

-"Hmm, Jenny by Studio Killers!"

-"Thoughts on everybody?"

-"This will be long..Well, I'm gonna start with:"

Diavolo

"Well, I'm really fond of him! I love spending time with him whenever I can. He's such a gentleman, I respect him and look up to him a lot. His friendly attitude reminds me of how protective my dad is..Ahh, I miss home.."

Lucifer

"I don't know how to feel about him. I don't even know if I should trust him..First he protected me from Levi and..just when it seemed we were somewhat on the right foot, he nearly killed me. I probably shouldn't have stepped in, but I had to protect Beelzebub and Luke! Had it not been for Diavolo that day, I wouldn't be here right now. Ever since then, I've been even more uncomfortable and wary of Lucifer."

Mammon

"Assigned to keep an eye on me? More like the complete opposite, I've become this airhead's babysitter ever since I've stepped foot here. For some reason he spends more time in my room than in his, he's even beginning to sleep here now. If I didn't know any better, I'd say he likes me. A lot. That's cute..

To be honest, it's true that he may be kind of stupid, but that still doesn't give the others the right to treat him this badly. I hate it when the others call him names, jokingly or not. So I've been giving Mammon validation ever since. He gave me a nickname too, the guy has been calling me "Maki" a lot recently. Well, isn't that sweet..♡ "

Leviathan

"I'm still trying to get closer to Levi, I think the pact we made is a good start to a nice friendship? He's kind of hard to get along with, but I'm sure he'll open up eventually! I'll keep trying to get into more anime and be extra nice to him! Looking forward to playing videogames together one day. The day of the competition though..When he turned into his demon form and tried to kill me..That was really scary, but I was kinda asking for it, right..? I'm grateful Lucifer saved me. At this point, I've had near death experiences twice in a row. I'm scared for the future, I might not be so lucky next time. But, I'm determined to go back when this all ends and see my parents, so no way I'm going to die here!"

Satan

"We're not that close yet, I'm trying to decide whether or not it's a good idea to trust him. The guy is as mysterious as a snake, I can't tell what he's plotting in his mind. But I know I need to be close to him somehow, how else am I going to make a pact with him? Anywho..he seems like the second most mature and smartest beside Lucifer. In that case, this will be harder than I thought."

Asmodeus

"For the Avatar of Lust..Asmo is really sweet, actually. I really like his company! And he's really good at doing his make-up, maybe he can give me some tips? I'm positive we can get along really well, as far as I've seen he's really such a sweetheart!"

Beelzebub

"Honestly, I think he's another one of my favorite people here. He just..reminds me so much of Kuro..

...

Beel is really sweet..For some reason it breaks my heart when he says "I'm hungry" everytime. I don't want him to starve, even though he's just like that because he's the Avatar of Gluttony. I make sure to share every snack I get with him, I know he'll appreciate that a lot. Being in his presence makes me feel like Kuro is still here with me..heh.."

Belphegor

"Hmph..I'm genuinely not surprised to hear about how he got locked up there, knowing how Lucifer is. I am determined to help him, he deserves better than this. And Beel deserves to see his twin again, it's unfair for them to be separated like this. Sometimes I wonder if Lucifer ever thinks about the happiness of his younger siblings. Because this isn't what older brothers are supposed to do. I hope he learns his mistake once Belphegor talks to him..I'd really love to see all the brothers get along like true siblings, and actually show respect to eachother. I trust Belphegor, I think he knows what he's doing.."

Barbatos

"I don't really have much of an opinion on him, unfortunately..- We haven't interacted much. I hope it's okay to trust him."

Simeon

"He's really friendly, and our interactions have gone pretty well! He seems to be fond of me, a lot. But despite that, he's also got this mysterious aura..I'm not sure if I'm just being paranoid or my instincts are right. Guess I'll stick around and find out."

Luke

"He's really adorable, and very much talkative..A little too talkative..But hey, that's okay. I know he's a reliable kid, and trustworthy for all the matter! I'm just a human, but I'm going to protect him and try to be there as much as I can. To me, he's already like a little brother! I adore him a lot"

Solomon

"Something about Solomon feels rather off, if you ask me..I'm glad I'm not the only human here but..I wonder if it's okay for me to trust him? Though, our friendship so far is going pretty well. Then..maybe I'm just being paranoid. Come on, Makoto, keep up the positivity! Me and Solomon make a good duo, I'm glad about that! When we go back to earth, will we still be friends I wonder..?"

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Fun facts:

-Makoto's mother is a paranormal investigator, and her father is a private detective. She learned a few things from the both of them, and this is the reason she shows interest in mysteries and haunted places.

TW TW TW TW TW!! TW FOR MENTION OF SCHOOL SHOOTING AND DEATH

You have been warned!

-Makoto had a little brother, 4 years younger than her. His name was Kuro. Sadly, the school Makoto and Kuro attended was suddenly shot one day. While they were trying to escape, a masked man found them and pointed his gun at the children. Kuro stepped in to protect his older sister and got shot in the head, and another time in the stomach. Makoto got shot in the stomach. Before the man could shoot Makoto a second time, three policeman had surrounded the man and arrested him.

The injured kids were taken to the hospital immediately. Makoto survived, but Kuro didn't make it. The Gushiken family was devastated, but Makoto struggled the most. Her parents took her to therapy, also taking the opportunity to get some therapy themselves. The homelife wasn't going well ever since Kuro's death. Makoto's mother started to drink, and her father tried to make his wife snap out of it by reminding her the tension in the house wasn't good for Makoto.

Makoto's mom soon found healthier ways to cope with the grief.

-Yes. Yes, Makoto does *like* like Mammon.

-Makoto is a fan of manga and small figurines, as well as telenovelas.

-She cares a lot about her looks, taking her time to style her hair and do her make-up. She likes staying pretty ♡

-Kuro used to ask his sister for food when their parents were too busy, so Makoto would make him snacks. She gets reminded of that bittersweet memory when she makes snacks or buys candy and shares them with Beel.

-Makoto always wanted to learn to play the piano. The piano is her favorite instrument.

-She's really, really touch starved. She wants to be hugged constantly and cuddle with someone, but is a little too shy to ask.

-Mako has stomach rolls, the baby is really insecure about them :(

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@amberheavendremurr Ding Dinggg! My MC's info is hereee! :33

Enjoy!

[spontaneousstingray]

Hey y'all, thought I'd create a Masterpost

My name's SpontStingray! Pronouns are he/him/and his. As the name suggests, I love stingrays! I am also an aspiring author whose brain has been rotting on South Park for the past eleven months (at the time of writing this). I also love learning about film history, specifically early animation, silent films, and the pre-code era. I also occasionally reblog posts about old film on here too.

If you're interested in fanfic, then consider checking out my Ao3! So far I have three fics up:

And the Stars Come Crashing Down (When I'm With You): a Creek one-shot where Craig is an alien.

And I Think It's Gonna Be A Long Long Time: a completed multi-chapter fic where Jimbo and Ned foster the McCormick siblings.

and

Until Your Breathing Stops Forever (The Bitch Must Die!): a Garrison-focused one-shot where Mr. Hat is a parasitic assassin.

The Pride Month Special: Stan is afraid to come out to his parents. The Marsh's try to show their support in their own dysfunctional and unorthodox ways.

Cartman's Clones: Cartman and Clyde Frog make some clones. Violence and chaos ensues. Loosely based off some Calvin & Hobbes storylines.

I welcome any and all remixes, translations, and fanworks of my works as long as people give me credit!

I'm also available as a beta reader! If you're interested in a beta for your (non-explicit) South Park fics feel free to send me an ask or dm me!

Also just a quick heads-up that my reading list on Ao3 is currently ~120 works long. Because I prioritize writing and beta reading, it may take me a second to read newly published chapters of all the WIP's I've subscribed to! So if I was commenting pretty regularly and then disappear it's probably because of that. I'm not dead/nor did I lose interest in y'all's fics!

Anywhoo, I hope you all have an awesome day! This is a friendly reminder to drink some water and get up to stretch!

[fakesaintess]

Servant Tending to Evil Flowers

Summary: An AU based off the Daughter of Evil, starring the Tweels. Floyd plays the role of Riliane and Jade plays Allen. It is mostly based upon the songs and prsk cards. All characters besides the Tweels and all Ships are very minor.

Sequel to This and crossposted to ao3. Finale of the series is here.

Jade was sure of two things in life. The first thing was that adults are selfish. For their own reasons, Jade had been separated and raised away from his twin.

The second thing was that he would do all he could to protect the twin he treasured so much. His brother, who has long since forgotten that he ever had a twin, was the ruler of the country. People described Floyd as evil and, for that reason, Jade would become evil too.

As he stood outside Floyd's door, preparing to knock he heard him say, "It's gonna be tea time soon." Floyd always said that before Jade arrived which delighted Jade each time. A familiar schedule displayed their peaceful lives. He knocked at the door.

"Come in," Floyd spoke through the door and Jade entered, laying out today's items.

"Today's snack is brioche. I do hope you like it." Jade said, placing the brioche in front of Floyd.

As he watched Floyd taste it and react poorly, he responded in the proper way, reassuring his twin that things would be better the next day. Jade then attempted to bring up a topic he knew could be upsetting. "However, there is an issue. The people are struggling to obtain food. Should you not let the people into the larder?"

Floyd reacted poorly to that as well. Bitter at the topic and bitter at Dire Crowley for stealing. He slipped Jade a note, no, an order, to send Crowley to his demise. Crowley had been the man to raise Jade, he treasured Crowly like a father, but if it would make Floyd happy he would follow these commands

"If Floyd is considered evil, I am evil as well." He thought to himself as he watched Crowley's life come to an end. Jade had poisoned the closest thing he had to a parent, but, if he had made Floyd happy his actions were worthwhile.

Upon a visitation to a neighboring country, Jade had met a boy called Trey Clover. Within a few minutes of conversation, Jade fell for him. His heart leapt with joy with each word they shared. It seemed Trey felt the same way as he was uninterested in the affections of a prince from overseas. Trey kept the interactions friendly, but it seems the prince confused those actions for admiration.

That prince was also the person Floyd loved. It seems Floyd could not tell Trey's lack of attraction to Riddle as he dealt the order of, "I need you to do something. Make sure that Trey Clover person doesn't survive the war."

Jade's heart dropped yet, nonetheless, he agreed. If Trey should die to soothe the way Floyd was hurting Jade will kill him. But, for some reason, as Jade watched the life drain from Trey's eyes he began to weep. It was unlike the fake tears he normally shed, it was far more painful. Was this loss worth someone else's joy?

"It's gonna be tea time soon." He heard Floyd say like always when he came to serve tea. ""I hope today the brioche is to your liking." He said upon entering the room and setting up tea time.

"It's great today! See, just needed to remind the chefs of what's on the line." Floyd said with a smile and the innocence of Floyd's delight soothed the ache in Jade's heart. What he had done was the correct choice if Floyd could smile that way.

The kingdom will fall soon. Although Jade had Floyd end the war it seemed fate would not let it go unpunished. The treacheries that had been committed had finally caught up, but Jade refused to acknowledge that future. His father and his lover are nothing more than corpses now, but Floyd did not have to share that fate. Jade did not have to let fate continue to tear apart his life.

The people would breach the castle soon. Jade's time was limited. He rushed to Floyd's room and entered. Floyd sat despondent on his bed, clearly aware what awaited him.

Jade approached Floyd who looked at him with a hollow expression. "Jade. I can't stop shaking. Can you hold my hand?"

"Of course. Your wish is my command." Jade said, taking Floyd's hand in his.

He felt Floyd calm. "Never got why but it's always been nice to have you by my side." Floyd gave Jade's hand a squeeze. "Thanks. You stayed with me all this time and that means a lot."

"What has made you thank me?" Jade asked.

"It's gonna end soon, right? Once they're here there's no way I'm getting out. So I'm thanking you while I still can." Floyd said.

Jade slipped his hand out of Floyd's. "If this is the end, grant me one more request. Change clothes with me."

"Huh?" Floyd said.

"This is the last thing I'll ask of you." Jade spoke firmly to show how serious he was about this.

"Guess we can." Floyd replied.

With their clothes swapped, Floyd looked at Jade. "Like this it's near impossible to tell us apart. Never really thought of how alike we really look." Floyd seemed amused, or, as close as he could currently get to that

"I will lend you those clothes. Wear them and escape from here." Jade said.

"Huh? If I run they'll just go after me. No point in runnin.'" Floyd responded.

"They won't. They'll capture the prince like they desire. As you can see, the prince is here." Jade gestured to himself. "You may not remember this, but it's never left my mind, we are twins. They will be unable to tell us apart."

"Are you dumb? Don't you know what will happen if you get caught? You didn't do anything so why be caught for this." Floyd questioned, unable to understand why Jade was willing sacrifice himself.

"Anything you've done, I share the blame for. If someone will be punished I want it to be me instead of you." Jade said before shoving Floyd out of the room.

"Hey! Don't do this! You can't just tell me we're twins and then go! I can't even remember anything about that!" Floyd shouted but Jade paid him no mind.

Jade stood still as the room was rushed and Riddle pointed a blade at his throat. He felt nothing but disgust for what this man had done and that he was going to come out the victor. "Never knew Goldfishie had it in him to go off like this." He said, mocking Riddle while he could.

Jade knew he'd soon face execution. The bells would ring and punishment would be dealt. But Jade feels no regret for his actions. If Floyd was evil than Jade was as well. It's unfortunate the hand the two had been dealt, never getting to enjoy their lives as brothers. But Jade would not let fate get its hands on Floyd and cause him to suffer.

When the church bells rang, Jade was dragged up onto the guillotine's platform and looked out into the crowd cheering and demanding their former prince's demise. This wicked kingdom, home of the evil prince, was ruled by none other than Jade's precious brother. The world may be against Floyd, but Jade will stand by his side, protecting him to the end. Floyds misdeeds are Jade's too.

Jade would not let the people get the satisfaction of seeing any fear in the eyes of who they believed to be the prince. He looked beyond the crowd and smiled, "It's gonna be tea time soon."

He said Floyd's trademark phrase just before the blade was lowered. In his final moments Jade had one last thought, "I hope that we can be reborn so we can truly live as twins. Until then, please keep smiling."

~

With his face hidden under a cloak, Floyd stared up at the platform where Jade would be executed in his place. He watched Jade ignore the crowd like they were insignificant to him and then he spoke what Floyd had repeated so often when he knew Jade would be there. "It's gonna be tea time soon."

And then the person he only recently learned was his twin was dead. He'd dedicated his life to making Floyd happy and Floyd had no way to ever repay him for all he had done.

[tertiaryunit]

If they don't like your hcs that's a them issue. Please continue infodumping & sharing your fan work, it's great.

Megan getting the token cishet is incredibly accurate. Hard agree. OH ALSO does the DNA theft lore bother you as much as it bothers me??? Like after they have the initial seq, they can just synthesize it forever, you don't need consistent access to Jensen for samples unless (I wrote a needless explanation post a while ago... ofc...) you want his CELLS. Which would need harvested from blood or csf,,,

I'm curious what you think of Vaclav Koller, Jim Miller and Duncan Macready (queer hcs and/or also just general thoughts). Mac is fun to me bc he canonically has 3 ex wives. Personally I've taken that as he's aromantic and it took him a while to figure out what he wanted/didn't want. Societal pressure/toxic masculinity meaning he thought it was totally normal to hate being in romantic relationships. and also he's just rly bad at being nice to people. -Helix

Oh dw I don't intend to stop :D I have fun writing and drawing my work and hope that for whoever unfollows more people know that this is a LGBT+ friendly space (couldn't be otherwise 'cause I'm in the community too lmao)

I have to think that they had much more nefarious purposes for Adam *OR* they wanted the original around just in case something happened to the original sequence which made them lost it or something? I am leaning in them being interested in actual human testing considering the Adam clones in the Versalife vault 😬 (Also I'm sorry to Megan fans, I hate her so much lmao) (adding here no explanation is ever needless :D I think I actually saw it)

Vaclav nonbinary pan nation rise up I headcanon him having some sort of addiction to light stimulants (aka: coffee). I think he'd be good friends with Shadowchild Miller is one of the characters I will never let die in any run. I am sorry for Allison (since this game decided you can't save both like in the Missing Link DLC for HR) but Jimmy lives xd I am biased on this because for once we have a canonically gay character with a family (even if he's divorced) and I don't want him to die. (He fixes the problems he had in his marriage in my hc and gets back with his husband) I'm gonna be honest Mac gives me the toxic cishet vibes hhh but as you said, that can be for the societal pressure or bad masculinity ideals. (I see Adam commenting "I start to understand why you divorced 3 times"😭 ) Extra character info cause I love them: Alex Vega and Elias Chikane remind me how much this game was cut in half for a sequel that never came out 💀 Ivan Berk too, you probably remember the collective gaslighting the trailers did on the fandom adafsfdsdg

[a2quotes]

Supernatural (season 1) - Quotes compilation

[ 1 ]  

"Sam, you know, we made a hell of a team back there." - Dean

[ 2 ] 

"I think he wants us to pick up where he left off. You know, saving people, hunting things. The family business." - Dean

[ 2 ] 

"People don't just disappear, Dean. Other people just stop looking for them." - Sam

[ 3 ] 

"Look, we are not going to save everyone." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I know." - Dean 

[ 5 ] 

"Did you find anything?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Oh, besides a whole new level of frustration? No." - Dean

[ 5 ]

"Sam, this has gotta stop, man... Now listen to me. It wasn't your fault. If you wanna blame something, then blame the thing that killed her. Hell, why don't you take a swing at me. I mean, I'm the one who dragged you away from her in the first place." - Dean

"I don't blame you." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You shouldn't blame yourself. Cause there's nothing you could've done." - Dean 

[ 5 ]

"Sometimes bad things just happen." - Sam 

[ 5 ]

"Look, you are my brother and I'd die for you. But there are some things I need to keep to myself." - Sam 

[ 6 ]

"He sure got issues with you. You got to go to college. He had to stay home. I mean, I had to stay home with dad. You don't think I had dreams of my own? But Dad needed me. Where the hell were you?" - Shapeshifter as Dean to Sam 

[ 6 ]

"See, deep down, I'm just jealous. You got friends. You could have a life. Me? I know I'm a freak. And sooner or later, everybody's gonna leave me. You left. Hell, I did everything Dad asked me to, and he ditched me too." - Shapeshifter as Dean to Sam

[ 6 ]

"Evolution is about mutation, right? So maybe this thing was born human, but was different. Hideous and hated. Until he learned to become someone else." - Shapeshifter 

[ 7 ]

"I told you, you don't have to be a college graduate to be a genius." - Dean

[ 8 ]

"Remind you of somebody...? Dad? " - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Dad never treated us like that." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Well. Dad never treated you like that. You were perfect. He was all over my case. You don't remember..." - Sam

[ 8 ]

"You know, the truth is, when we finally do find Dad, I don't even know if he's even gonna wanna see me." - Sam

[ 8 ]

"Sam, Dad was never disappointed in you. Never. He was scared. He was afraid of what could've happened to you if he wasn't around. But even when you two weren't talking, he used to swing by Stanford whenever he could. Keep an eye on you. Make sure you were safe." - Dean

"What? Why didn't he tell me any of that?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Well, it's a two-way street, dude. You could have picked up the phone." - Dean

[ 9 ]

"Just slow down, would you? I mean, first you tell me you've got the Shinning and then you tell me that I've gotta go back home? Especially when..." - Dean ⠀

"When what?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"When I swore to myself that I would never go back there." - Dean

[ 9 ]

"I don't know what to do. So whatever you're doing, if you could get here... Please. I need your help, Dad." - Dean

[ 9 ]

"Forgive this boy. He means well. He's just not the sharpest tool in the shed." - Missouri about Dean

[ 9 ]

"You see, all those years ago, real evil came to you. It walked this house. That kind of evil leaves wounds. And sometimes wounds get infected." - Missouri

[ 10 ]

"We deserve some answers, Dean. This is our family we are talking about." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I understand that, Sam. But he's given us an order." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"So what? We gotta always follow Dad's orders? " - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Of course we do." - Dean

[ 10 ]

"Sam, put the gun down." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Is that an order?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"No, it's more like a friendly request." - Dean

[ 10 ]

"I am normal. I'm just telling the truth for the first time. I mean, why are we even here? Cause you're following Dad's orders like a good little soldier? Cause you always do as he says without question?  Are you that desperate for his approval? That's the difference between you and me. I have a mind of my own. I'm not pathetic like you." - Sam

[ 10 ]

"I'm not really in the sharing-and-caring kinda mood. I just wanna get some sleep." - Dean  

[ 11 ]

"I don't understand the blind faith you have in the man. You don't even question him." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, it's called being a good son. You're a selfish bastard you know that? You just do whatever you want, don't care about what anybody thinks." - Dean

[ 11 ]

"You know, if you're hunting you need my help, just ask." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I'm not hinting anything. Actually... Uh... I want you to know... I mean, don't think...." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, I'm sorry too." - Sam

"Sam, you were right. You gotta do your own thing. You gotta live your own life." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You serious?" - Sam

"You've always known what you want, and you go after it. You stand up to Dad and you always have. Hell, I wish I... Anyway, I admire that about you. I'm proud of you, Sammy." - Dean

[ 11 ]

"You are running back to your brother? The guy you ran away from? Why? Because he won't pick up his phone? Sam. Come. With me to California." - Meg 

"I can't. I'm sorry" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Why not?" - Meg ⠀⠀  ⠀

"He's my family." - Sam

[ 11 ]

"I still want to find Dad. And you're still a pain in the ass. But Jess and Mom, they are both gone. Dad is God knows where. You and me, we're all that's left. So, if we're gonna see this through, we're gonna do it together." - Sam

"Hold me Sam. That was beautiful. Come on." - Dean

[ 12 ]

"I don't think that's funny." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Ah, come on, it's a little funny." - Sam

[ 12 ]

"I'm gonna die. And you can't stop it." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Watch me." - Sam

[ 12 ]

"You're not gonna let me die in peace, are you?" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I'm not gonna let you die. Period." - Sam

[ 12 ]

"When people see something they can't explain, there's controversy." - Sam

[ 12 ]

"You know what I got faith in? Reality. Knowing what it's really going on." - Dean

"How can you be skeptic with the things we see every day?" - Sam ⠀

"Exactly. We see them. We know they're real." - Dean

[ 12 ]

"No disrespect, but I'm not exactly a believer." - Dean

[ 12 ]

"Sam, the guy is playing God. He's deciding who lives and dies. That's a monster in my book. " - Dean 

[ 12 ]

"May God save us from the people who think they're doing God's work." - Dean

[ 12 ]

"It must be rough to belive in something so much and have it disappoint you like that." - Dean

[ 13 ]

"Look, man, everybody's gotta open up to someone sometime." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, I don't. It was stupid to get that close. I mean, look how it ended... Would you stop? Blink or something." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You loved her." - Sam

[ 13 ]

"I forgot you do that." - Cassie ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Do what?" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Whenever we get, what's the word, "close"? Anywhere in the neighborhood of emotional vulnerability, you back off. Or make some joke. Or find any way to shut the door on me." - Cassie

[ 13 ]

"I thought it was what you wanted." - Cassie ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Well, it wasn't." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I didn't mean to hurt you." - Cassie ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Well, you did." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I'm sorry." - Cassie ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, me too." - Dean 

 *proceden a coger*

[ 13 ]

"Oh, my life was so simple. Just schools, exams, papers on polycentric cultural norms." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"So I guess I saved you from a boring existence." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah. Occasionally, I miss boring." - Sam

[ 13 ]

"You meet someone like her... ever makes you wonder if it's worth it? Putting everything on hold... Doing what we do?" - Sam

[ 14 ]

"All things considered, we turned out okay. Thanks to him (Dad)." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"All things considered." - Dean

[ 15 ]

"Samuel Winchester. So you know that his brother, Dean Winchester, died in St. Louis and that he was suspected of murder?" - Officer Kathleen Hudak ⠀

"Yeah, Dean. Kinda the black sheep of the family. Handsome, though." - Dean

[ 15 ]

"Sam's my responsability. And he's coming back. I'm bringing him back." - Dean

[ 15 ]

"Here's the thing. When we were young, I pretty much pulled him from a fire. And ever since then, I've felt responsible for him. You know, like it's my job to keep him safe. I'm just afraid if we don't find him fast... Please. He's my family." - Dean.

[ 15 ]

"What's your name again?" - Alvin Jenkins ⠀⠀  ⠀

"It's Sam." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Why don't you give it up, Sammy. There's no way out." - Alvin Jenkins ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Don't call me Sammy." - Sam

[ 15 ]

"With our usual playmates, there's rules. There's patterns. But with people, they're just crazy." - Dean

[ 15 ]

"I'll say it again. Demons, I get. People are crazy." - Dean

[ 15 ]

"Don't ever do that again." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Do what?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Go missing like that." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You were worried about me." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"All I'm saying is, you vanish like that again, I'm not looking for you." - Dean

[ 15 ]

"If you hurt my brother, I'll kill you. I swear. I'll kill you all!" - Dean

[ 16 ]

"Spoke to Ami, a charming, perky officer of the law." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah? What did you find out?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Well, she's a sagittarius. She loves tequila. I mean... Oh, and she's got this little tatto, just right..." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Dean!" - Sam

[ 16 ]

"You mind doing a little bit of thinking with your upstairs brain, Dean?" - Sam

[ 16 ]

"Okay. Awkward... I'm gonna get a drink now." - Dean

[ 16 ]

"I could be wrong, but there's something about this girl that I can't quite put a finger on." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I bet you'd like to." - Dean

[ 16 ]

"Yeah, I don't want you to leave the second this thing's over, Sam." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Dude, what's your problem?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Why do you think I drag you everywhere? Huh? Why do you think I came and got you at Standford in the first place?" - Dean

"'Cause Dad was in trouble. 'Cause you wanted to find the thing that killed Mom." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yes, that, but it's more than that, man. You and me and Dad. I want us to be together again. I want us to be a family again." - Dean

"Dean, we are a family. I'd do anything for you. But things will never be the way they were before." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Could be." - Dean

"I don't want them to be. I'm not gonna live this life forever. Dean, when this is all over, you're gonna have to let me go my own way. " - Sam

[ 16 ]

"Go to hell." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Baby, I'm already there." - Meg

[ 16 ]

"Dad, you don't have to worry about us." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Of course I do. I'm your father." - John

[ 17 ]

"Kinda makes you wonder... of all the things we hunted, how many existed just because people believed in them?" - Sam

[ 18 ]

"Yeah? What makes you so sure?" - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Well, because I'm the oldest, which means I'm always right." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"No, it doesn't." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"It totally does." - Dean

[ 18 ]

"The hospital. When we were there, I saw a patient, an old woman." - Dean ⠀⠀  

"An old person, uh?." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"In the hospital? Uh. Better call the coast guard." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Listen smart-ass. She had an inverted cross." - Dean

[ 18 ]

"Listen to me. I can promise you that this is not your fault. Okay?" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"It's my job to look after him." - Michael

[ 18 ]

"You know, Dad never spoke about it again. I didn't ask. But he.. he looked at me different, you know? Which was worse. Not that I blame him. He gave me an order and I didn't listen. I almost got you killed." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You were just a kid." - Sam

[ 18 ]

"I'd give anything not to tell you this... but sometimes nightmares are real." - Dean

[ 18 ]

"Dean, I'm sorry." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"For what?" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You know, I've really given you a lot of crap for always following Dad's orders. But I know why you do it." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Oh, God. Kill me now." - Dean

[ 18 ]

"Sometimes I wish that..." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"What? " - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I wish I could have that kind of innocence." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"If it means anything, sometimes I wish you could too." - Dean

[ 19 ]

"I don't understand, Dean. We burned the damn thing." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, thank you, Captain Obvious." - Dean

[ 19 ]

"I don't mean any disrespect, but I'm sure that this is about Jessica, right? Now, I don't know what it's like to lose something like that... but I know that she would want you to be happy. God forbid, have fun once in a while. Wouldn't she?" - Dean

[ 19 ]

"Look. I know losing someone you love... it's terrible. You shut yourself off. Believe me, I know. But when you shut out pain, you shut out everything else too." - Sarah

[ 20 ]

"Ah, crap. Here we go. Sam!" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"We need to talk." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"About what?" - John ⠀⠀  ⠀

"About everything." - Sam

"Get back in the car." - John ⠀⠀  ⠀

"No." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"I said get back in the damn car." - John ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, and I said no." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Alright, you made your point, tough guy. Look, we're all tired, we can talk about this later. I mean it. Come on." - Dean

"This is why I left in the first place." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"What did you say?" - John ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You heard me." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah. You left. Your brother and me, we needed you. You walked away, Sam. You walked away!" - John ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Stop it. Both of you." - Dean

"You were the one who said [Don't come back.], dad. You were the one who closed that door, not me. You were just pissed off that you couldn't control me anymore." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Listen. Stop it. Stop it. That's enough. That means you too... terrific." - Dean

[ 20 ]

"My point is, Sam, that this was never the life that I wanted for you. You gotta understand something. After your mother passed, all I saw was evil. Everywhere. And all I cared about was keeping you boys alive. I wanted you... prepared. Ready." - John

[ 20 ]

"Somewhere along, I stopped being your father. I became your drill sergeant. So when you said you wanted to go away to school, all I could think about was that you were gonna be alone. Vulnerable. Sammy, it just- It never occurred to me what you wanted." - John

[ 21 ] 

"For the last time... what happened to them it's not your fault." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, you are right. It's not my fault, but it's my problem." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"No. It's not your problem, it's our problem." - Dean

[ 21 ]

"I want to stop losing people we love. I want you to go to school. I want Dean to have a home. I want Mary alive. I just- I just want this to be over." - John

[ 21 ]

"So what? You're just willing to sacrifice yourself, is that it?" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah. Yeah, you're damn right I am." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, well, that's not gonna happen. Not as long as I'm around." - Dean

[ 21 ] 

"If hunting this demon means you getting yourself killed... then I hope we never find the damn thing." - Dean

[ 21 ]

"Sam, look... the three of us... that's all we have. And that's all I have. Sometimes I feel like I'm barely holding it together, man." - Dean

[ 22 ]

"Well, you and Dad are more alike than I thought, you know that? You both can't wait to sacrifice yourself for this thing. But you know what? I'm gonna be the one to bury you. You're selfish, you know that? You don't care about anything but revenge." - Dean

[ 22 ]

"You know that guy I shot? There was a person in there." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"You didn't have a choice, Dean." - Sam ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Yeah, I know. That's not what bothers me." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Then what does?" - Sam

"Killing that guy, killing Meg... I didn't hesitate. I didn't even flinch. I mean, for you and Dad, the things I'm willing to do or kill, it's just... it scares me sometimes." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"It shouldn't. You did good." - John

"You're not mad?" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"For what?" - John ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Using a bullet." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Mad? I'm proud of you. You know, Sam and I, we can get pretty obsessed. But you- You watch out for this family. You always have." - John

[ 22 ]

"Listen, you mind just getting this over with, huh? 'Cause I really can't stand the monologuing." - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"Funny But that's all part of your m.o., isn't it? Masks all that nasty pain. Masks the truth." - Azazel

"Oh, yeah? What's that?" - Dean

"You know, you fight and you fight for this family, but the truth is... they don't need you. Not like you need them. Sam, he's clearly John's favorite. Even when they fight, it's more concern than he's ever shown you." - Azazel

[ 22 ]

"Yeah, I bet you're real proud of your kids too, huh? Oh, wait, I forgot. I wasted them." - Dean 

[ 22 ]

"Let him go, or I swear to God-" - Dean ⠀⠀  ⠀

"What? What are you and God gonna do?" - Azazel

[queerpontmercy]

Hey I am your friendly neighborhood counseling student here to remind you that not only are diagnostic criteria not set in stone (DSM criteria are a shared language for professionals to communicate what they’re noticing), but also -- our understanding of trauma and what is traumatic has been evolving a lot even over the last few years as we talk about things like spiritual trauma, racialized trauma, etc. and it’s going to continue to evolve over time.

PTSD is useful language for a lot of people right now, but it’s a very narrow category of what we are growing to recognize as different types of trauma. For example, PTSD Criterion A is only just now recognizing that it can be vicariously traumatic for people to witness or hear of violent death/serious injury happening to someone else. And this is to say nothing of times our bodies say we’re going to die, even if intellectually and physically we’re fine. That happens a lot more often.

The DSM is fairly good at saying “hey, look at this cluster of symptoms/experiences that happen all together, let’s give them a name and communicate about them.” It’s also good at “legitimizing” those clusters to people, including the broader population. What it’s pretty bad, despite folks’ efforts (definitely not gonna say best efforts lmao) at is recognizing the breadth of human experience. It’s a psychiatric document and parts of it are incredibly  arbitrary- for example, why do you need 5 symptoms for Major Depressive disorder? Why not 3 or 4?

Which is to say, maybe your experiences don’t overlap completely onto the frankly very complicated criteria that designate what we’re calling PTSD. Maybe they do. But our understanding of trauma is not limited to what’s held in a book, so if something feels traumatic, by all means let’s explore that.

I talk to many people who say things like "oh I have trauma but I don't have PTSD", but then when I talk to them a little more I realize that they most likely do, they just can't recognize it as such due to how lacking PTSD awareness is, even beyond the whole "it's not just a veteran's disorder" thing.

The main reason they think they don't have PTSD usually has to do with flashbacks and nightmares, either they have one but not the other or have neither. But here's the thing, those are only two symptoms out of the 23-odd recognized symptoms. Flashbacks and nightmares are two of the five symptoms under Criterion B (Intrusion), which you only need one of for a diagnosis. The other three symptoms are unwanted upsetting memories, emotional distress after being reminded of trauma and physical reactivity after being reminded of trauma (i.e. shaking, sweating, heart racing, feeling sick, nauseous or faint, etc). Therefore you can have both flashbacks and nightmares, one but not the other, or neither and still have PTSD.

In fact, a lot of the reasons people give me for why they don't think they have PTSD are literally a part of the diagnostic criteria.

"Oh, I can barely remember most parts of my trauma anyway." Criterion D (Negative Alterations in Cognition and Mood) includes inability to recall key features of the trauma.

"Oh but I don't get upset about my trauma that often because I avoid thinking of it or being around things that remind me of it most of the time." Criterion C (Avoidance) includes avoiding trauma-related thoughts or feelings and avoiding trauma-related external reminders, and you literally cannot get diagnosed if you don't have at least one of those two symptoms.

"Oh I just have trouble getting to sleep or staying asleep, but I don't have nightmares." Criterion E (Alterations in Arousal and Reactivity) includes difficulting sleeping outside of nightmares.

"But I didn't have many/any trauma symptoms until a long time after the trauma happened." There's literally an entire specification for that.

Really it just shows how despite being one of the most well-known mental illnesses, people really don't know much about PTSD. If you have trauma, I ask you to at least look at the criteria before you decide you don't have PTSD. Hell, even if you don't have trauma, look at the criteria anyway because there are so many symptoms in there that just are not talked about.

PTSD awareness is not just about flashbacks and nightmares.