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chat why am I so gay

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Well fucks? Get to it!

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a funny moment from my older speeding bullet fic, To Befriend a Dove, that i’ve always wanted to draw

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erm hi guys heres my new ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/Captain_Pheonix_Spark

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When you write like 7 paragraphs and then open a notification and tumblr didn’t save the draft

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Chat why has life been lifing harder than it’s ever lofe before recently 😭

- explanation of absence -

(Includes a few heavy topics)

Sorry I’ve been dead on both my accounts, I’ve been struggling with mental health 25/8, as I always do, and had a two day relapse after about 5 months of being sh-clean. My mild anorexia has also decided it wants to get worse again now that I’ve locked my sharp objects away. Basically, I’ve been trying desperately not to attempt in the past few months, and oh man is it difficult stuff.

As I have for several years now, I’m mostly suffering in silence since my parents are the main cause of a whole lot of my struggles, and I don’t ever want to talk to them about it. They’re decently transphobic, and I was just reminded recently that I’ve only been out as trans for a year now, and they have still never called me by my name or pronouns in that time. My friends have been my only source of hope recently, and even when I think things are rocky with them without any evidence, I always feel like I’m doing something wrong and will have periods of isolation.

I just wrote a final today for chemistry, and I have several more things to do still before semester 2 finally starts, so school has been warfare to a degree. I’m also terrified of how my classes will be next semester if I have to share them with people I really don’t have god relationships with, so that’s adding to the overall anxiety right now, which has been keeping me up a lot more than usual.

So yeah, thanks for coming to my ted talk. I’ve had no energy to write or anything, which is aided by executive dysfunction. So I apologize that I’ve just sort of up and left my blogs, especially this one, but tumblr isn’t a job, so it’s been the one to be sacrificed. I have no idea when I’ll be inspired enough to write again, but I figured an update was in order.

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Those stupid. Buckteeth.

Original by @ the_angler_mann on twt

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anyone wanna hear about my disaster bi tf2 oc? no? alright

still need to finish her ref !!! she got lost in the woods for 5 years and was declared dead by the authorities. also shes italian

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Two more sketches of my adult!Tanya / fem spy design ye

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Hello TF2 fandom, first time drawing for this game, please enjoy ^-^

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his hair is a disaster buuuut we still love this man and his sweet children<3

(sorry im late)

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Sniperscout good ending

All good things come to an end

(I think Miss Pauling got married to me the fried chicken girl. Even though gay marriage wasn't legal yet. Shhh...)

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Time 2 write (evil laughter with a side of horror fries)

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HOW DARE YOU BEAT ME TO WRITING THIS VERY SPECIFIC THING (this is fantastic, I am currently thinking about printing it out and eating it)

🎶it would be so awesome…it would be so cool…🎶 if you could write headcannons with sniper and scout and a reader that likes to collect rocks, feathers and animal bones? I’m big into that (creature energy strikes again), whenever I go on walks I always find something new, and then treat bones with hydrogen peroxide to clean them and turn them white again when I get home. Totally cool if you’re not cool with it, but thank you a bunch if you do consider it! (Also if possible, a male reader would be awesome, but I’m totally ok with gn)

Scout and Sniper with a Boyfriend Who Collects Rocks, Feathers, and Bones

Scout

- He doesn’t really get it at first. I mean, why would you want a bunch of rocks? You can find those anywhere. The feathers he kinda understands, but he gets a little squeamish about the bones. That’s a dead thing, he ain’t touching that.

- But regardless, he supports his boyfriend and his weird hobbies.

- Then when you start showing him more of your collection, he does start to respect it a lot more. He takes a closer look at all the crystals and stones, large shed feathers, and cleaned bones, and he starts to see just how beautiful each of your pieces. As he listens to you tell him the stories behind some of your finds, he starts to admire it rather than question it.

- Starts keeping an eye out for any neat rocks and feathers he could give you. Still won’t touch any bones though.

Sniper

- Just like you, he has his own collections of rocks, feathers, and bones. The moment he found out about your collecting hobby, he became incredibly eager to show you some of his own finds.

- He especially loves making necklaces from animal teeth, and will likely gift you a necklace made from the teeth he collects from his hunts.

- Plus, he loves seeing his boyfriend wearing something he made for him. He likes making you happy, but he also likes that you have something on you that very clearly shows that you’re “his”.

- Also sometimes gives you things he finds out in the wild, especially if it’s something he knows you’re going to be particularly fond of. He absolutely adores seeing the look on your handsome face when he gives you a feather from your favorite bird or a pristine skull.