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Aziraphale’s cottage
Sorry for not replying to all of you, real life has been a bit of a whirlwind recently. I will try my best to catch up and get back to the S3 crumbs as soon as possible, but there’s another precious, peaceful, fragile piece of information I have found and want to share in the meantime.
You might remember this photograph of Aziraphale’s desk as one of S1 BTS shots shared with us back in 2019. As it always happens with bonus material for this particular series, it almost instantly prompted multiple comments and ideas, mostly pertaining to the splash of contrasting blue in the top left corner. A coloured photograph — or maybe a postcard? — depicting a timber-framed, thatch-roofed house in the Tudor style, a touristy yet typical enough view in some parts of the British countryside.
A certain South Downs cottage became a fandom-wide institution ever since its first mention in 2005, and, most recently, a symbol of optimism and hope for a happy ending in a rather unhappy world.
Twenty-year-long history doesn’t seem to be enough to pinpoint any details though: what we know is that according to Terry Pratchett and other sources, Aziraphale and Crowley will live there together after the events of the unpublished Good Omens sequel, which became Good Omens 3: Finale (or however Prime and BBC agreed for the official name to be spelled out). We also know that Rob Wilkins shared a hope for filming there in spring on location. What we don’t know is where it actually is (yet).
But I do happen to know the exact location of the house from Aziraphale’s photograph.
Spoiler alert: it’s not actually on the South Downs, but a bit up north, in the village of Wilmcote in Warwickshire, about three miles from Stratford-upon-Avon, and preserved as Mary Arden’s Farm — today known under her married name, Mary Shakespeare, as the mother of William Shakespeare (also represented on Aziraphale’s S2 desk in the form of a small engraving).
Why “preserved as”? In a very Good Omens way, the farmhouse turned out to be an object of an unfortunate mid-sixteenth century house swap. In 2000 it was confirmed to had belonged not to the Ardens family, as previously believed, but their friend and neighbour Adam Palmer, making it Palmer’s Farm. The old name, however, stuck — people can be rather weird about names.
The whole complex belongs to Shakespeare Birthplace Trust and is kept as a working farm offering an authentic Tudor experience with multiple live animals. Until recently open to general public, due to financial constraints it now operates only as an education centre.

Is this how the real South Downs cottage is supposed to look like? Will the Good Omens crew actually film there some time soon?
Or does Aziraphale feel for some reason much more sentimental about William and his family than the Globe flashback might have originally suggested?
I guess that we will have to wait and see!
#good omens#good omens meta#good omens filming locations#the good omens crew is unhinged#in the best possible way#south downs cottage#good omens comfort#yuri is doing her thing#still fixating on#aziraphale’s bookshop#aziraphale’s desk#all hail the autistic angel and his special interests
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I had an EXCELLENT dream last night so of course I should turn it into an AU.
Vampires are not allowed to take their fledglings home. The law is very strict about this. Instead, vampire fledglings must stay in a Vampiric facility that is carefully controlled. This is done with the purpose of keeping the newly turned safe and unabused.
They are kept in locked rooms and only the sire and coven can enter. These rooms are NICE. There is anything a fledgling could ever want. But also, everything in there is on the coven's dime. The facility doesn't do anything except house the fledglings. All care is still left up to the sire and coven. It just provides some oversight.
Techno was supposed to be a meal, not a fledgling. Unlucky when he walked home from his job at a library, grabbed and chomped and left for dead. Except he didn't completely die. He was turned.
He hid this fact. Vampires and Humans lived very separate lives and he was comfortable where he was. He didn't want to live as a vampire he wanted to read books on the clock sometimes. As stubborn as he is, he can't exactly change his biology.
He had a pretty quiet job, so the sensitivity of his ears isn't a problem. What really starts being an issue is every other sense. His sense of smeel becomes stronger and he finds people wearing strong perfumes give him a headache. He is much more bothered by the way his clothes fit, the cheap fabric being more uncomfortable. And his vision! Its awful, sitting under florescent lights all day at his job. Luckily, his boss is chill and lets him wear sunglasses inside. He gets weird looks, but he can deal.
Phil is his favorite regular. The guy is always checking out a different hobby book. One week, its cook books. The next, its woodworking. Then, it macrame. The guy loves learning different skills.
Phil is also a vampire. Technoblade has known that for years, it's not a secret. But after the bite, Techno avoids Phil like the plague. He does not want to be found out.
Phil notices and is hurt that his friend is avoiding him. He tries to pin Techno down and ask him if there is something wrong. Techno is constantly running. Phil asks, a little disbelieving, if Techno was treating him like this because Phil is a vamp. Techno says yes and Phil opens his mouth to absolutely chew Techno out on that kind of thinking only to kind of stop and freeze. Maybe a fan blew Techno's scent toward him a la Twilight movie or something, but Phil finally smells that Techno is no longer human and should NOT be at his very human job.
Phil turns around and leaves without another word. Techno feels guilty that he had been so rude to Phil, but it's what he had to do. He finishes his shift, ignoring how uncomfortable he is.
He leaves the library while the sun is still up, but he never makes it home.
He wakes up and he can't quite remember what happened. He was walking, he thought he saw a car following him? He had brushed it off as paranoia, but then heard someone say his name from an alley and then-? It was blank.
Now he was in a room he had never seen before. Low lights, what looks like sound proofing on the walls. The large bed he was laying on was incredibly soft, some part of him feelinf RELIEVED by the comfort of it.
But most of him feeling absolutely thrown by being kidnapped.
There aren't any windows in the room and the one door that doesn't lead to a bathroom looks like something out of prison. Thick heavy metal. Knocking something against it just has this deep thud sound. No possibility of breaking.
Later, some official looking vampire comes in and talks to him. They ask Techno about his turn. What he remembers of the vamp that bit him. He doesn't remember much. He didn't see the vamp's face. They didn't speak. He couldn't even tell you how tall or what color hair they had. He tells them the when and where, but they just frown.
Official vamp leaves and ignores Techno's questions about when he can leave. Techno is left alone again.
More hours pass and Techno is torn between dozing and pacing the room. Finally, the door opens again and in walks Phil.
Phil tells Techno that the Facility would most likely not be able to find Techno's sire and that they had approved for Phil's coven to adopt him. Techno tells Phil that he doesn't have to do that, Techno is fine going back to his life. Phil tells him that that isn't possible. Fledglings HAVE to stay in the Facility. If Phil didn't adopt him, then he would just be assigned to someone else anyway. Vamp society never intentionally abandons fledglings. Honestly, if they ever did find the vamp that bit Techno, there would be some SERIOUS consequences.
Techno just wants to go back to his old life. Phil says it's not possible, which Techno KNOWS, but if he's stubborn enough, maybe he can WILL IT into being possible.
Phil is sympathetic and tries to comfort Techno on the change. Telling him some of the benefits of vampirism, once he fully develops. Tells him about his coven, Tommy and Wilbur, and how he would be seeing them soon. Techno is getting mopier and mopier.
Techno's stomach growls and he is embarrassed. Phil just laughs and says that they needed to establish a bond, which meant Techno needed to drink Phil's blood anyway.
Phil offers Techno his bleeding wrist and Technoblade just grimaces at it. Phil laughs and tells Techno he will get used to it.
Techno drinks and his mind completely jumps ship. Blood is delicious and his baby vampire mind is completely focused on that. He doesn't even notice when Phil bites Techno's wrist as well, sealing the bond.
The rest of the fic would be Techno going stir-crazy, unable to leave that single room. Wilbur and Tommy visiting, but they aren't allowed to stay as long as a sire would. Phil appearing as often as possible, offering Techno food, company, entertainment.
In the dream I had, there was some other force that wanted to steal Techno for their own fledgling, but the dream logic didn't make as much sense. However, there are a lot of vamps in this facility. If there was an enemy of Phil that wanted to try to hurt him, there is literally a little vamp behind a locked door to cause problems.
Anyway, that was my dream. Not dark SBI for once, just vamps!
Day two of clearing my inbox of these excellent Lenn AUs /j
This one is really good. I'm not going to lie, you had me going at the start thinking it'd be dark sbi anyway if Phil was a bit more uh, forceful about getting Techno into his coven. But then I very much like that it's not. Good old hurt/comfort hits excellently. And given a free choice, I bet Techno would still prefer Phil over anybody else.
And you just know that a double kidnapping is one of my favorite tropes lol.
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What everyone ALWAYS gets wrong about Maggie Kyle
For a character with very few appearances (and only 3 of them as the incredibly mischaracterised Sister Zero), the amount of bad faith takes and practical vitriol that gets thrown Maggie's way is really surprising. She's a very interesting character and foil for Selina which is why competent writers for Catwoman keep coming back to her! I feel like I want to clear up some of the major misconceptions that I've seen by doing a bit of a deep dive using mostly her debut appearance:
She's sanctimonious/holier-than-thou.
This couldn't be further from the truth! It makes me think that people don't actually read her appearances, just look at the nun habit and come up with an idea of what they think a foil to Selina should be like (pious, virtuous, dependent, frumpy).

Catwoman (1989)
She's actually very much an idealist, and doesn't give up on the people she loves. In her first lines of dialogue she's shown here cutting an elder nun down to size because Maggie won't take any criticism of/for her prayers for Selina.


Catwoman (1989)
You see her directly telling a cop that she doesn't care if she gets arrested, and the language she uses clearly emphasises that she doesn't have anything against sex workers (we even see her talking to some later when she's trying to find Selina; everyone's very respectful to each other).
Maggie crucially does not think she's above anyone, and she doesn't think she's above behaviour that others feel is beneath her ("Or you'd arrest me for soliciting... Book me, Danno").
If you can accuse Maggie of anything here it's naivety - that by virtue of being a nun she's protected from violence - but she's also literally a teenager here too.
Throughout these panels she's constantly being patronised and slightly belittled by authority figures - and absolutely refuses to give into them and pushes back every time. This is just ONE of the MANY traits Maggie and Selina share, but like so many of their similarities, it becomes a difference because of how those traits present themselves in both girls (and they're both literally just girls here, no more than 17-19).
I assume this misconception can come about from the way Selina talks about Maggie very early on -


Catwoman (1993) #5
She's abrupt and distant and wants nothing to do with her - not because of anything Maggie did but because Selina feels it's the best way to keep her safe. Selina pushing people away/leaving them for their sakes is nothing new, and she's done it to Maggie first/ the longest, its sort of a default setting for their early relationship.
Part of it may also be some sort of resentment regarding how both of their lives turned out, but that's probably buried so deep that by the time it does crop up in Catwoman (2002), both of them acknowledge that they're way beyond that.
She's timid/weak.
Again, a lot of these misconceptions stem purely from 2 things:
Thinking Maggie is the total antithesis of Selina
The stereotypical image of a nun/religious person
While obviously not as physically capable as Selina and Holly, that doesn't stop her from being a badass in her own right. There's plenty of panels that show how much of a backbone Maggie has, and you can even see it above. The girl is not timid!


Catwoman (1989)
But in a literal life or death situation, when even Selina thinks Maggie's dead (Stan has thrown her off a platform), she actually managed to grab onto a railing and is later saved by Batman. The near death experience doesn't stop her from standing up to Selina's actions too.
If this exchange reads as "sanctimonious" to readers, well fine. Selina feels that way. What it really is supposed to highlight is that neither sister is wrong, just how their different worldview's affect their dealings with the world - in fact, we watch all this from Selina's POV, so we naturally favour her perspective. That same stubbornness and desperation to survive persists in Maggie just the same as it does in her sister. Again, it just expresses itself differently.
In fact, out of all characters, it's STAN who correctly assesses just how similar Maggie and Selina are, in his own twisted way. Maggie's been holed up alone with Stan - a known abuser and rapist - for at least a couple days by this point, and the way she refuses to engage with him is a parellel of how Selina refused to engage with the police right at the start of this story.


Catwoman (1989)
She's not timid and she's CERTAINLY not weak. Just as Selina won't give up any information about Maggie, Maggie spends the latter half of the comic doing the same thing.
Over and over again we see Maggie as the one who's not afraid to stand up to the one's she loves, and the one who feels more secure in their relationship, and in general the one who is actually the LESS likely to give into her emotions the way Selina can do on occasions.



Catwoman (1989)
You can see it right here, in the aftermath of Maggie's kidnapping. Selina expects her to be a mess, and Maggie's just quipping through the whole time. She doesn't hold back at all from letting Selina know exactly what she went through, and she can be JUST as bitter (and has a right to be) about what hand life dealt her as Selina is. It's Selina who's wracked with emotion, and it's Maggie who lets her know in no uncertain way that she's not a killer.
It's fairly interesting to note - Maggie and Selina both have the same tendency towards self-destruction when they hit rock bottom. But I think Maria's suicide has taken that "conventional" option away from both of them.
And now for some general observations on Maggie and her relationship with Selina:
They both possess the same capacity for empathy and caring - whereas Selina cares SO much about a select circle of people and empathises endlessly with people in difficult situations, Maggie doesn't put a limit on who to care about. Neither of them are wrong, they're just different. This trait in Maggie might have changed as we haven't seen a whole lot of her as a functional person post-Relentless though (and I think from the snippet we see in One Bad Day, she has).
They do look very similar, and this is highlighted more in Catwoman (1989), but their colouring is different, especially later on when Maggie has more lighter brown/reddish-brown hair. Once again, the eerie similarities just make the contrasts strike that little bit harder.
Maggie canonically did get her Psychology degree - and it's something that completely works with her already established character! I can completely see her in a role that strives to make life better for others, in the same way Selina strives to make life better for the East End.
There's always varying levels of friction between her and Selina, and there probably always will be. That does NOT mean they cannot stand each other. It just means they have a very complex and layered relationship, and clashes often happen between people who are pretty similar in certain ways. They still love each other fiercely and never stop caring about each other.
When it comes to religion, I'm going to let these panels speak for themselves. What I will say is I think both must have had a healthy grounding about it in their childhood, as Selina never sounds particularly resentful against the Church.


Catwoman (1993) #5

Gotham City Sirens (2009) #22
The undercurrent between both of their attitudes is towards religion, life and each other is empathy, a lack of judgement, and a fierce determination to love and live IN SPITE of constantly hitting drawbacks. Those core traits are inherent to both of them, I really do believe it.
And that's that on Magdalene Kyle!
#maggie kyle#selina kyle#dc meta#you just know I've forgotten something and I'll add it in later#but oh well
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took my first dose of adhd meds today and played baldurs gate 3 for 16 hours straight
#feels good feels organic#no but for real i took them and a couple hours later i was just like. doing things?? like without even thinking about them#id be like oh i gotta go grab a drink. and i’d just… go? i didnt have to sit for ages trying to convince myself to get up#is this what its supposed to be like???? is this how other people live?????????#truly truly Truly crazy like what the fuck#anyway. day one was a success hooray!! i have seven days of this dose and then it goes up and then i have a review in like three weeks
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continued rook-lucanis sketches from the last week or so <3
#if it looks like i only draw lucanis its untrue. im actually cutting out a lot of rook backstory specific doodles. ..#<- guy who can only draw either her rook or lucanis rn#the other companions i will get to you. neve especially lord in heaven#lucanis dellamorte#rookanis#rook#tyche laidir#spite#my art#dragon age#dav spoilers#anyways anyone else really think that rialto bay is just so romantic with how it bridges antiva and rivain i personally cant stop thinking!#i need to have this game i need to understand what becomes of rook and him. a woman who loves the sea so dearly that lucanis suddenly#cannot bear to take her away from it. lucanis who could not imagine his life outside the crows and how could she ask he leave illario behin#two people so obsessed with their job and their lives that even their endearments relate to it#two people who love their birthrights. which one of them is supposed to be able to give that up?#desperately need something bittersweet AND BEFORE I JINX IT I DONT MEAN IN A TRAITOR WAY.#there is a reason i named their playlist pregrieving
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BNHA manga spoilers btw
I have smtn to say ab bkdk like ok
I don't understand how ppl can't see it but ok each person has their own views and I get it but let's be so fucking serious here.
if I was ochaco or whoever you shipped w izuku and I was dating him I'd be so fucking jealous of katsuki coz????? what the actual fuck are you talking ab???? and like the opposite too like Kiri and Kats?????? my boyfriend died for his 'best friend' twice like???????? what have you done for me?
he saved up for 8 YEARS to get a suit for izuku??? do you think that's normal behaviour????
#bnha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#bkdk#mha bkdk#boku no hero academia#bnha#bakugou katsuki#midoriya izuku#they're so gay your honour#like the jealousy that would come from this????#your lives have revolved around each other since you were 4#idk how i could possibly insert myself in there as a partner????#and like romantic partners are supposed to be the most imp people in your lives and youre telling me im fighting w your bestie that you have#a wejrd homoerotic relationship with????? people break up w their irl partners for less than that#the whole black whip awakening???#izukus little cant breathe moment when he sees katsuki dead???#oh i can go on for dayyssss#kacchan and the others#ok i see you#i know what you are#also i think kiri deserves better coz i feel like he does a lot for kats#like a lot a lot#but its not the same in return???? idk how to say it#again i havent watched past s3 and all yhe info i have are from spoilers but???? i dont think theres a lot going on?#im not including this in the post coz i could be wrong and ill accept that
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You know it's annoying how people accept gender being a complex thing. How the way you identify and the way you present are not the same. How complicated and fluid your gender can be.
And then turn around and deny ALL of it for sexuality. That sexuality is binary and strict.
#queer#'yes you can be masc presenting trans woman NO you cant be aro and date'#'yes you can trans by being girl most of the time and sometimes biy NO you cant be ace because of grey fluidity'#you know what fuck you all aplatonic are queer too gnc are queer too#(if they feel like it)#queer is about FUCK you socity for dictating what normal and not normal is#sometimes you are queer for how you are born and sometimes you are queer for how you live#queer is messy not the way society demands human identity to be#so once again FUCK YOU for reinforcing the same toxic suffocating ideas#FUCK YOU#yes i am angry#i am pissed off at people who supposed to know how shitty it is to be judged by who you are#to be pushed in one box only and cutting pieces off that do not fit#and then DO THE EXACT SAME THING#i KNOW queerness is complex#that it takes time to learn what being trans is what sexuality is how different kinds of attraction works#how society norms on what gender is supposed to be is bullshit#how society norms on how we are supposed to interact with each other is bullshit#but the VERY first rule should be to keep an open mind#something feels conflicting and off?#RESEARCH FIRST#learn more to figure out that its not all that simple and there are experiences beyond your comprehension#your first instinct should NOT be to hit WTFUCK
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I made a lmk oc
#they’re supposed to be some sort of experiment to see if people could recreate Sun Wukongs stone egg. the goal was to make a more controlled#and tame version using carved wood and cultivation. but eventually they got worried about it becoming too powerful and scrapped it#eventually they come to life and live in the abandoned temple they were built in#their bottom half is made of wood because when they came to life their creator/s left them unfinished when they scrapped the project#they had to carve the rest of their body out of hunger and frustration because they couldn’t eat or move much by crawling on their top half#this is also why they spite their creators and hate irresponsible creation. because of abandonment issues and feeling like they have no#purpose or direction in life#their power is also very limited to due being man made since they were originally a wood carving#meo gave me the idea but one reason would be because they’re half finished. the sculpture was still half stump so it was completely untouche#that half can channel power in its raw form but the other half cannot once it’s been carved by man#so technically they could have the same level or potential for power as the stone but that was dampened#the other thing is how they were created to be a duplicate or recreation of a stone monkey and a celestial looked at that and was like#‘we’re not doing that again’ LMAO#i think the case of them carving their own legs doesn’t take away their power though. that balance was made#before they came to life so carving the legs or not can’t affect it anymore. like making a cake and slicing it#their energy levels are also naturally low because of that so their movements are sluggish and they aren’t very active overall#constantly lying in the sun to charge their batteries and get some stuff done. just like me fr#I actually don’t know what I’m gonna do with this character besides Put Them In Situations with other ppls ocs.. so if you have#a lmk oc you have been warned /lh /j#I wanna make some backstory art for them though.. maybe even the animatic treatment if I can get through dear wormwood which is 25#SECONDS OUT OF 3 MIN BTW#doodles#Lego Monkie kid#lmk#Monkie kid#lmk oc#monkie kid oc#myart#my art#xin ya
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Blocking the main system tags cuz I keep getting discourse on my dash whenever i post about being plural 😭😭😭😭😭😭
#idc if its educational you should neverrr trust anything coming from discourse blogs anyways#I dont know how people can live like this man dont you and your alters have other things to worry about#Dont you have anything to post on those public tags thats not bait or something Jesus#i dont even follow it and everytime i see a sysblr post its littered with tags like 'Pro endo' 'anti endo' 'Anti-What have You#Girl shut up . shut uppppp. shut up shut up shut up blocking 782001 tags and blogs rn#nillas#vanili powder#do not ever call me / us a system or someone with plurality if this is the ''community'' im supposed to be a part of#embarassing!
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their dinamic is messy but caring but idfa about you all at same time it makes me want to explode i want to see more of them siu pls
#myart#tower of god#kami no tou#karaka#wangnan#wangnan ja#fanart#illustration#artists on tumblr#wheres my dad he was supposed pick me up 40 minutes ago IM STARVING !!???#living in a big city is shit cos theres traffic jam wherever you go i hate cities#anyway i came up with an idea for a one shot i hope ill be able to put my ideas properly and not mess up things#but its not a complrx story so itll be fine#last night i was daydreaming with me explaining my first bug ass story it truly was my one piece not other story was that complex#my dad just called me he will pick me up in anpther 30-40 minutes HELP GOD NOOOOO im actually starvjng and uuum theres a cafeteria next to#me but that brand is expensive as fuck it is good but really expensive and aint way i will spend that much money#stay tuned if you want to know how my journey to feed myself ends like#i love talking as if it were actual people expecting what i gotta say no single mf is fan mine#i love wangnan so much i could kms#hello its me from the future. so i eat lne of the most silly but yummy food ever#bought the 1st vinland saga volume nad watched look back ALL IN THE SAME DAY how cool is that mmm??????? i love living (just for today)#i miss having a job because id have a weekly income and spend half of it but recover next week and yarayara I MISS HAVING INFINITE MONEY
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this is a test
#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like#what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or#smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140#haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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im getting real sick of 'intelligence'
who decided reading books and writing counted as intelligence? who decided that getting high scores on a strict, unfeeling system meant you were better than everybody? who decided that people should be turned into numbers, tie their worth in society into numbers, to compare people on a scale that ultimately does not matter, so that the people who didn't dump everything to perform for it are berated and the people who did end up with nothing?
who decided not reading or writing was a lack of intelligence? who decided that living differently to them was a sign of lower 'societal worth' than those who conformed?
#r slur#and a big rant#in the following tags#this too is just a tool for oppression#but if you had been crushed in the grips of the education system and left limp in the dirt you knew that already#but it's not only a way for society to weed out the 'retards'. it's more than that#let me tell you something#estonia used to be in tribes around the 1000s-1200s or so#a lot of our old historical records were written by someone else#usually christian invaders and other occupying forces who thought we were barbaric and what have you#because we were pagan (especially with Taarapita) and *we did not have a written language*#according to christian-western ideals this means that our population must be like super dumb#and its 'our job' to enlighten them :)#and they did this with anyone who didn't conform.#intelligence has always been a tool to excuse it#so it feels good#so it feels right#You're 'helping' them. enlightening a primitive race#so that they follow Our standards#it's colonialism all the way down#and it still echoes into the modern day. we still see academia as intelligence while we ignore proficiency in other forms#let's not forget the classism of it either. i live in the CEO of classism#working class people are seen as dumber and are thus treated worse because they didn't dump all of their money/future money into#a societally-approved institution like oxford or something#despite the fact that they rely on working class people to operate#or the fact that their booksmarts don't cover years of knowing how to run a corner store#i suppose the general conclusion i want to convey is that we can all do different things well and using a linear scale is bullshit#(and an oppressive tool lol)#people are good at different things and you have to learn to be ok with that#this applies to anything - trades/ crafts/ booksmarts/ spectrums of neurodivergence/ etc
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i think i have this fear of being seen as a liar i think. like. everyone does it. and as a kid i stole stuff all the time and the way that was dealt with kinda just fucked with my head. do people see my kindness and my compassion as manipulation? am i read as someone trying to tear down the walls so i can get something while ur guard is down?. idk why someone thinking that of me makes me feel so miserable like. what if they were right? ive made mistakes before.. whos to say they arent right about this time? i dont want to stop being kind but it scares me to think about that.
#im so different to all the people ive met. i know afew kindred spirits. 2 is in my cule and im dating the other#but idk. some part of me Long ago decided that i wanted to bring comfort to people. when i see how rough the world gets..#i know thats something i can do to make people feel better. even if its just 1 person.#what else has there been in my life worth living for. aside from the company it brings and the growth i get to be part of.#i never got to be this kind. i never got to be treated this kindly before i transitioned.#idk. i guess this stuff just makes me think im doing something wrong. am i not supposed to try and make other happy if i seem like a trick?#to me this is what being a woman means for me. in so many ways... maybe thats why it being doubted hurts so much.#anyway.. my blood sugar is low. and its 2am. ily reader. i hope its not too much.
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Alright. Okay. As an aussie who is firmly against guns and even visting america ever because of the guns im about to fucking fly over there, yank a weapon out of a toddlers hands, and start making some shots myself.
And im a much better headshot than your previous attempts have proved 🙃
#HOW THE FUCK! DID WE GET HERE? WHAT THE FUCK?!?? WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK WHAT IN THE EVERLOVING FUCKING SHIT#personal#not so casual reminder that YES! ITS OKAY TO PUNCH NAZIS! AND ENCOURAGED TO DO SO!!#hit them for standing there!! dont wait till theyve done something awful in front of you just start throwing punches literally immediately!#what the fuuuuccccckkkkk i dont. i dont know how to react to this. its 20fuckingtwentyfive you guys#really thought we as a species were better than putting literally the richest nazis in the world on public TV! and in office!!#anyway guillotines and gallows are good things to research theres a pretty good vid by a chanell called jacob geller on youtube#called The False Evolution of Execution Methods. i highly reccomend it in general but especially rn#im so angry. like how am i supposed to just casually go about my day knowing the Worst Peoples to exist in the modern day#run the powerhouse of the western world and that that effects me so significantly but im oceans away from doing anything about it#not anything. i resist and i donate and i inform and i support from here when i can. but how am i supposed to just like#casually do a silly DIY when on the other side of the world theres about to be more giant riots because yall let the worlds Smallest Cock#do fucking nazi salutes on live television as he worms his way into the control station of your country#what the fucking fuck man#what the absolute fucking shit#or not live tv but in front of a very large live audience with cameras. for fucks sake people!!
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im so fucking conflicted man, like this is making me cry
#not just about that previous thing#but also.....#i need rules to function in my head#how to decode good from wrong? rule: dont hurt people if you can avoid it#how to reasonably define hurting people#when i dunno what would hurt them? rule: as a baseline treat other people the way you would like to be treated unless they specify otherwisr#and jt works! it's a system#its the fucking wjat to we owe each other again. working out these reasonable rules is a never ending task#but when talking to people....#im like a programming language#so i can do a lot! but i have to be instructed. when dealing with exceptions/problems when i don't know what exactly to do to say to react#but like. i have issues with my self esteem i guess. for.no reason#how am i supposed to talk about it to people. why would i do that? how can i ask for advice if i already know what i am going to do?#i live in my head#and im so tired of this#i wish i could be myself or lobotomized#ive been feeling this pulled-taut rope in ky stomach whenever i think about my social life#i wish itd snap and ill awkwardly cut everyone off again#which makes me a hypocrite because im breaking a rule. im choosing to hurt people for my own convenience#does anybody elses brain work this way and PLEASE is there a solution? i need to stop thinking#so far mthe only solution ive found is grey zone (i dont know how to actually get real hard) drugs and a lobotomy#or just killing myself outright. i dont think i can do it yet but i wish i could#if i had a gun in my hands now for 5 minutes; as much as i want to i wouldn't be able to shoot myself#do you understand how this fact makes me feel even more like shit? depressed enough to wallow in self pity and misery not depressed enough#to solve it#just whine whine whine#i want to think like literally ANYBODY else think#i.want to.not need to make 10 yeat old ass rules for myself#but i dont know how to behave otherwise#im sorry i feel really bad
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ID: YHH manga excerpt: Yusuke, facing away and contemplative, speaking to Botan (not visible): "I'm alive, and they're actually glad. But I can't even say when I'll revive entirely. Y'know, it might be funny to break the egg... on purpose, so I fail and my soul never returns." /END ID.
YYH manga, volume 1, chapter 2, page 73.
ID: Botan and Yusuke in the "Kids, could you lighten up a little?" Simpsons Meme (Botan says the line). /END ID.
Her canon thoughts "Yeah, real funny..."
#yusuke#yyh things#yyh manga ref#i love him but what the fuck yusuke my heart??? my boy???#how to give yusuke new issues when he already has issues abt feeling like itd be best if he were dead: kill him but offer his loved#ones and himself no time frame for when he'll be able to come back meaning he'll be reliant on others for keeping his body healthy & well#it was one thing that *he* was in limbo; putting people he loves in that space? its killing him worse than the car#v proud of him for verbalising the temptation & the fear hes feeling instead of bottling it up like he feels like its inevitable he'll mess#smthg up so why not get it over with; why not make the uncertain into something certain#also somthng v painful abt yusuke deciding he's going to try doing his best to live again him gaining that determination and then realising#it wasnt as straightforward as it was offered; in fact it may have made things even more painful supposing if smthng goes wrong#w the resurrection; esp if yusuke thinks its his fault or worse he thinks sm1 he cares abt will think its his fault or worst of all:#sm1 he cares abt thinks the thing that went wrong was his fault *and* he meant to cause that fault...#like “what if i sabotage this and i didnt even mean to but the people around me think i did mean to; are they right aftr all?”
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