#is this even an arfid thing
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anyone else with arfid have foods they like to eat but make you nauseous immediately after so you don't eat it until you're craving for it
#arfid#is this even an arfid thing#guess what food it is for me#it's for a lot of foods actually#but i was talking ab tamales
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In the same vein as "I've been taking my medication for long enough that I haven't experienced any symptoms in a while, I must not need to take it anymore! (Spoiler alert: the meds are why you haven't had symptoms)" I present to you a similarly clownish thought process- "I haven't experienced that trigger in a long time, maybe I was just exaggerating how bad it was and it'll be fine to engage with this! (Spoiler alert: take a fucking guess babes)"
#on a definitely unrelated note the contamination obsessive thoughts are in fact still there and still upsetting#turns out when you take care to avoid things that trigger and upset you...#those things still trigger and upset you even if youve avoided them for a while#😱🤯#ptsd#cptsd#trauma#recovery#disabled#autistic adult#actually autistic#<- idk if thats a good tag or not it just came up suggested when i typed autism so#ocd#<- not dxed and not even sure if i feel comfy self dxing w ocd but i definitely have upsetting obsessive + compulsive tendencies + thoughts#that i struggle with a lot so#medication#trauma recovery#triggers#arfid#disability#neurodivergent#neurodiversity#audhd
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loving reminder as someone who struggles with food: you are allowed to add joy to your food. you are allowed to add a little joy even if it’s a tiny thing, something silly or something weird. you are allowed to do it whenever you want, as many times as you want. anything that makes food easier and more enjoyable for you is worth it!! it’s your food, you can decide what to do with it!! you can add rainbow sprinkles to your ice cream. you can cut your food into little heart shapes. you can pack your snacks into cute little bento boxes. it is not pointless or childish, it is an effective and active coping tool that you are allowed to use.
give yourself a little joy. the little things add up.
#even if it’s just a teeny tiny thing it’s sooo helpful to get just a little bit of excitement out of ur meal!!#you are allowed to do it!! if it’s ’pointless’ then what’s the point in denying yourself from it??#I’m being so serious like. put stickers on your air fryer. put your meals into cute containers even if you don’t need them.#cut your food up into little cute pieces if you have the spoons for it. buy yourself Dino nuggies.#try to have at least one thing to look forward to in every meal even if it’s just a little piece of candy#just!! change things up!! be self indulgent!!! you are worth it and anything that helps you be healthy is worth it!!!#there are no rules!!!! you are allowed to be kind to yourself!!#anyways. don’t mind my rambling. I’m just trying to romanticize my own struggles rn#and it’s genuinely been very interesting to learn what helps and how my brain works!!!#idk I just think about it a lot. it means a lot to me rn.#also before anyone tells me I piss on the poor. obviously my experiences are not universal and will not apply to everyone#things that work for me might not work for you and that’s ok!! I wish you luck I love u!!!#tw ed#just a teensy implication#gem don’t look#arfid
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The most ??? experience is when you struggle your whole life with something you don't know the name of and nobody else does it and you feel all weird and outcast and Othered by it, and then you find out what it's called and start finding out about other people's experiences with it... only to find out that, compared to them, what you have is actually mild in comparison. So then it's like. You're too weird for "normal" people but too normal to feel like you really fit in&belong with the more "weird" ones.
#personal#arfid#avoidant restrictive food intake disorder#autism#bfrbs#body focused repetitive behaviours#dermatophagia#<- specifically abt that#cus like whole life i've felt disgusting and gross and like i don't fit cus i bite my fingers&nails so much#even other kids who had habits of biting were grossed out by how much/deep/the locations of how/where i did it#and then i found out Wow this thing has a word!#oh everybody else has it way worse#and then it completely threw off my own understanding of the Norm and now i barely feel like i have a problem w it#cus i only have to wear 1-2 bandages like every 2 months so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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it was so stupidly difficult to find any nutritionist who has experience with arfid & takes insurance so after having to go through all these referrals my therapist sent me & jumping through hoops I lowkey hate the lady lmao feels like such a waste of time & energy
#its only our third time meeting but its so beyond fucking frustrating to feel like we spent the whole hour going in circles & lowkey arguing#& like she never actually listened to any of the things ive told her. like the ENTIRW REASON i told her i was seeking extra help after#dealing w arfid type noncense all my life was 'achieving goal x is always kind of tough but im trying to do it while also achieving goal y &#im struggling with finding a way to balance the two things' like thats IT & then as shes suggesting things to try im like idk of those are#worth the effort bcus they conflict w goal y & shes like. have you considered not worrying about that so you can focus on x?#like NO bcus thats what i was previoislt doing & it doesnt fucking work for me! & she was just not understanding what i meant by adding#variety or having 'better options' shes all like. ok but even if this new thing conflicts with goal y it can just be another option for you#like thats not the POINT i already have enough options i can switch between that conflict with that like the whole point is i need to fill#the gaps w things that are nutritionally different. like if im ok with something thatll use up a significant portion of ny daily values of#shit then i already have multiple options that i actively like well enough i dont wanna waste my time adding more that are things i think#are just ok but take more work. literally whats the point of that#& im like i think rather than me just thinking of random shit i think i could try itd be helpful if I could like get some guidance on like#what are some things that fall into somewhere into this category or this adjacent category while also not being this other thing & then i#cab like determine from there what i already like & can try & add more of & things from that list that sound like sth i can try#& shes like well idk theres a lot of foods out there. YEAH ABD ISNT IT YOUR FUCKING JOB TO KNOW ABOUT FOOD? like i gave fairly specific#parameters this isnt like a 'list every food on earth' type of question what am i even paying you for if you cant come up with a list#like that. & she jept getting hung up on like well lots of things that are the most calorically dense are gonna be like that like ok it#doesnt have to be the MOST dense maybe think about it like 'the densest things in this other category' which sounded straightforward to me#but she was just like continuing to argue & also like getting hung up on reminding me that everything is dependent on portions like#I FUCKING KNOW?? like if a serving of something is like 10% of my dv id rather find something where a serving is 5% etc. idk how thats like#a hard concept like whats the point of adding something to be like oh sure ill have a third of a serving & get 50 extra calories out of it#be so fr rn im so beyond frustrated still even tho its been hours since i talked to her this is more stressful & annoying than the stress of#just trying to figure shit out on my own i fucking hate having to try & re explain nyaelf ivee & over & have someone just talk over me &#fail to understand what im getting at. im one more shitty session away from quitting & just resigining myself to 70% liquid diet#anyways#texticles
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really really hate how “eating food together” is such a common social activity. i do not like doing that with other people, y’all Have to leave me alone
#N posts stuff#between my like. probable-arfid pickiness#and my devastating and unpredictable crazy GI issues#i do not like eating food with other people. because the things i feel safe eating are so simple and plain#that it gets me made fun of#but then even sometimes when i play it as safe as possible the ‘4 hour bathroom lock-in’ curse can just decide to strike anyway#‘oh we’re all going to eat breakfast together it’ll be fun’ i am going to kill myslef in the parking lot#i don’t even like eating in public with my Family let alone a bunch of people i don’t know well#especially because people are SO comfortable being pushy about food. ‘oh well if you just try it’#stoppppp we have to come up with something else. let’s all go sit in an empty field together or something pleasssse
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your art really fits your appearance... are you the real life sydney sargent? i'd be freaking out if you were sydney sargent ahh
Well, yes.
I could explain my multi-year spanning selfhood/ ID situation in depth… buuuut we would be here for hours. Short answer for all intents and purposes is: yes.
#fictionkin is… a word. not sure it fully describes my experience.#it’s worse/ more extreme than that (save me let me out)#even outside of that though#I am a GNC trans man. long dark hair with light blue eyes. Autistic. BPD. ARFID (safe food is… buttered bread.) chronically ill AND#psychosis and hallucinations (I am on meds for it 💪 look at me go)#deathly pale and inescapably sick#and has motherly issues. I spend most of my time in the forest. I was a warrior cats kid. I’m goth by music taste and wear dark everything.#I prefer skirts and dresses for sensory reasons. dark and earthy tones.#I talk too much and overshare (exhibit a: this)#my SPECIAL INTEREST has been decomposition and dead things for YEARS#so I adore worms and mushrooms and everything which will one day help me return to the earth#I had a few pet worms & isopods before CHNT even released. I love. worms.#however I don’t do first aid now. I’ve devolved to mortuary science/ post-mortem preservation.#as you can imagine… discovering CHNT was horrifying for these reasons.#as once again- everything I listed here has been the case long before I ever found CHNT.#also I seem to only have chemistry with morally dubious men send tweet#oh and also vivid memories yk that too that’s kinda important yk#guys I’m afraid to post this.
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What's a food that you do like? /curious
uhh popcorn shrimp except that it makes me sick
hotdogs except when i don't
chicken noodle soup except when it's bad
plain bread/tortillas except when i don't like them
plain chicken and chicken strips except when they make me feel nauseous
mac and cheese except when i cant stomach it
tacos :) except when not :(
i could do this all day.
the point is generally very bland or processed things, but even they arent safe cuz i can spontaneously become disgusted by them. once made myself two hotdogs and could barely get the first one down and i felt bad wasted the second one. it happens a lot.
#nnstuff#ask#rambling#i eat like 2 'meals' a day these days#if im lucky#not even full meals anymore tho#like a banana and a meat stick and a cinnamon roll from one of my colleges store things#and then i come home and scavange whatever i can manage#tho i just dont eat sometimes cuz fuck it#arfid
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My ARFID experience growing up was crying in my bedroom, starving having not eaten all day, pretending to consume my meal.
(It was a pizza from a restaurant that was undercooked or straight up the wrong order. If I tell my parents or grandparents they will yell at me instead, not replace the order at all, and maybe even whoop me. No this is not the same as being picky. There is no willing myself to eat the undercooked food. I will simply end up making myself ill on top of hungry. No this is not the same as a parent standing their ground for a child. I was fourteen and this continued happening.)
#child abuse#verbal abuse#physical abuse#arfid#eating disorders#eating disorder#typing this up because the same exact thing just happened#exact Im a grown adult now#and Im still getting yelled at#even tho I literally told them they didn't have to get me anything#because I knew this would happen
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God I fuckin hate when people write fics about Obanai's eating issues and then they give him anorexia like ARGHH NOOOO THAT'S THE WRONG THING !!! He's literally the most perfect character ever to give ARFID to it's practically canon please please write him with ARFID write about ARFID nobody ever writes about ARFID
#tw eating disorder mention#not me writing multiple fics about obanai having ARFID to fix this problem#btw it's totally fine if you happen to write him or hc him with eating issues that are not ARFID it's fine i'm not mad at you!#i've written plenty of fics giving characters eds that don't even make sense just bc it's cathartic#and even if it's not a projection thing it's not your fault if you just don't know what ARFID is lol not a lot of people do#(this post has been brought to you by clementine's worst ARFID relapse to date ✌✌✌)#(i'm fine though i'm actually fine i've dealt with much worse eds ARFID doesn't feel like a big problem it's just an annoyance)#obanai iguro#iguro obanai
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my shirt that says "i don't have an eating disorder" has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt
#text#(this is a reference to another tweet i dont have a shirt that says that)#ed tw#weight loss tw#talk about weight in general tw#like yes i eat the same thing almost every single day & have to force myself through every bite#no i dont have an eating disorder#i just have autism and anxiety and its making my life a little bit unliveable at the moment ❤️#i know i also have arfid which yes is an eating disorder but not like. in the way people probably think of if they look at me during#a meal and judge the way im eating and decide they think i have an ed (which i know is anxiety and nobody does that but still)#but i probably wouldnt get diagnosed bc im at a ''healthy weight''#even tho i know that for My Body it's not healthy . i was eating relatively well for a brief period of my senior year of high school#& very briefly my freshman year of college#and i got to around [number] both times#and they were both short periods of time so i still dont know what like. a healthy weight would be For Me and for My body#but i know a doctor would tell me my weight rn is Normal and Good and that if i gain weight thats Bad and Wrong#even though i am definitely not eating enough and not getting enough Fuel For My Body To Work Right#its such bullshit. also i hope whoever invented the bmi kills themself#Well anyway. swagever ive been eating one singular slice of pizza for half an hour so i gotta get back to that
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I hate how ARFID is treated by so called ED specialists. Like yeah it’s an Ed, in a sense that it’s abnormal, and can get severe if someone doesn’t have access to safe foods or has very limited things. But I think it’s absolutely ableist to be thinking this can be cured or treated in the same way that other Eating disorders are. It can be managed. But not cured bc it’s often the manifestation of neuro developmental differences like autism, adhd or sensory disorders.
you genuinely do cause more harm if you force somone with ARFID to eat things they can’t. And you often need a Occupational therapist or someone who has awareness of autism, adhd and other sensory stuff.
ARFID safe foods aren’t even things you eat all the time, just when you are feeling unsafe and need something predictable. Which is often the case if you are forced info treatment
#it was so hard to have like 3 ed#I’m told it often exists on its own but it’s really a struggle when you have ARFID Anorexia#they don’t understand ARFID safe food is not the same as Ana safe food#even pediatric dieticians with experience are like no it can’t actually be cured only managed#forcing someone with ARFID to eat things causes more harm#eating was hard enough without dealing with sensory overload#I wish my ARFID was accommodated#ARFID#some foods actually cause me pain bc they are too textured or acidic#bananas and mashed potatoes and most fruit are a sensory nightmare for me
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been oc-ing the fuck out of vessel….. i have written some Thoughts about him while i’ve been away :3 if anyone wants to see them, i can post em!!
#he is sooooo special to me <3#i’ve made him vaguely nonhuman and it RULES#some of the things don’t even make sense but they’re real to me without further explanation lol#OUGH he’s my lil creechur#also funny that i’ve given him Autistic Traits but he’s definitely not autistic to me#bpd yes but autism nope#like i’ve made him suuuuuch a picky eater and he’s very specific about how he likes things and he also has sensory issues#and his need for sameness/lack of desire for change#his eating is so specific to me that i’m considering him having arfid#i need to look into arfid more to confirm but yk i thought the hc was worth mentioning anyways#when the autistic guy ocifies the guy ever 😭😭#<- please helppppp#AND i’ve also started a base idea of an oc and a universe where vessel gets a healthy relationship ^_^#it’s bare bones but the base concept i have feels special to me#so if anyone wants to hear about that i can definitely ramble a lil#ender.txt#oc-ifying the creechur#sleep token#sleep token vessel#vessel sleep token
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having arfid and questioning potential autism in myself is actually so fucking funny because every other day is like. me discovering the most simple fucking thing about managing meals. and being like “YOU CAN DO THAT?????”
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN I CAN PUT MEALS IN WHATEVER DISH I WANT”
“YOU CAN HAVE MORE THAN ONE EXAMPLE OF A FOOD GROUP IN A SINGLE MEAL???”
“IF I’M STILL HUNGRY AFTER A MEAL I CAN JUST GET UP AND EAT MORE?? WHY DIDN’T ANYONE TELL ME THIS????”
#WH. WHY IS MY BRAIN SO WEIRD. HOW HAVE I BEEN LIVING LIKE THIS#AND NOT EVEN REGISTERING IT 😭#LIKE GIRL. WHAT THE FUCK. WHY ARE YOU BASING ALL UR PORTION SIZES OFF OF WHAT UR PARENTS SERVED YOU WHEN YOU WERE 6 YEARS SMALLER.#nobody: my brain: we have learned to do this thing ONE way and so that is the way we will always do it forever until we die 😌#gem don’t look#tw ed mention#arfid
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Worldbuilding food&cuisine is very interesting when you have ARFID. I've never eaten a tomato for example, i don't understand anything about cooking or how food is made, i'm even unsure what "sour" or "savory" mean.
But my mom did have a very new perspective on it; since i have no baseline for anything to do with food, i've also no pre-set expectations, so i can go completely crazy and unique with my ideas, which is a much nicer way to view it
#personal#arfid#avoidant restrictive food intake disorder#worldbuilding#and the thing is i can't even really research bc just seeing food pictured makes me incredibly grossed out#so i'm operating this very much on the basis of just being myself and having fun
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okay I'm too annoyed to even be online probably but sometimes I wonder. why do my parents and the rest of my family just refuse to acknowledge the fact that I have arfid. why are you trying to force me to eat food that I cannot eat without feeling extremely fucking sick and terrible. I've been through so much pain and fear because of food I'm tired of pretending I haven't. I'm so tired of things being like this
#mole talks#i didn't even know arfid was a thing until about a year ago#i spent a good fifteen years believing i was just a stupid childish picky eater#because thats what they told me i was. how was i meant to know it wasn't my fault#why do they always think everything is my fault!!! they have no idea how hard i try#something goes wrong and its immediately my fault#i make a mistake and boom! i'm gonna be made fun of for it#but i would never get listened to if i point out one of them did something that hurt me#i just never get taken seriously no matter where i am in real life#i'm so tired. i need to get offline
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