#it was so hard to have like 3 ed
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I hate how ARFID is treated by so called ED specialists. Like yeah it’s an Ed, in a sense that it’s abnormal, and can get severe if someone doesn’t have access to safe foods or has very limited things. But I think it’s absolutely ableist to be thinking this can be cured or treated in the same way that other Eating disorders are. It can be managed. But not cured bc it’s often the manifestation of neuro developmental differences like autism, adhd or sensory disorders.
you genuinely do cause more harm if you force somone with ARFID to eat things they can’t. And you often need a Occupational therapist or someone who has awareness of autism, adhd and other sensory stuff.
ARFID safe foods aren’t even things you eat all the time, just when you are feeling unsafe and need something predictable. Which is often the case if you are forced info treatment
#it was so hard to have like 3 ed#I’m told it often exists on its own but it’s really a struggle when you have ARFID Anorexia#they don’t understand ARFID safe food is not the same as Ana safe food#even pediatric dieticians with experience are like no it can’t actually be cured only managed#forcing someone with ARFID to eat things causes more harm#eating was hard enough without dealing with sensory overload#I wish my ARFID was accommodated#ARFID#some foods actually cause me pain bc they are too textured or acidic#bananas and mashed potatoes and most fruit are a sensory nightmare for me
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i am enjoying this show but i do think it's a good case study in how... not to worldbuild jlskdfklj.
i know it's not trying to be that deep, so it really is fine, but it's been kinda interesting to me picking up on things i don't think makes sense with the hidden connective tissue for what each society is supposed to be like and how they have developed from the present?
like everyone in most cultures thinks girls are fine and equal to men (ex. the moclan baby situation) and even if it's through an alien acceptance lens they're fine with gays (bortus and klyden) and even maybe chill with trans stuff ("ur kid can decide when she's old enough" in theory) etc.
but there are also so many jokes that stem from inequality that you wouldn't really think about unless you really considered it, like the Standard Straight Marriage Jokes you get with ed and kelly dependent on marital gender roles or alara having trouble with boyfriends who don't want a gf who's stronger than them (even though maybe the issue is her just being scary strong generally, it does come off like her super strength was almost created for the sake of "haha strong woman you would not expect it from" and to then make jokes that would hit with a modern non-introspective audience) etc.
if society has developed and done the work to actually get to a place of equality in these areas then those jokes and casual attitudes would be much less likely, and it makes sense to me that the guy behind family guy would not understand that or care because he is trying to appeal to a very standard modern audience the only way he knows how (uncreative jokes stuck in an outdated status quo).
#TO tag#not a ton of examples bc i honestly just roll my eyes and let the joke go in one ear out the other but i think the vibes come across#PARTICULARLY with ed and kelly#and honestly there is almost something meta funny about watching these people in the future talk like they're from 2012#but when it is the whole show it means it is not supposed to be funny on that level but within itself#i think i just wish i could get space sitcom without... the 2000s sitcom jokes yknow?#i am grateful it's not as bad as i expected in those attitudes and i am also still enjoying the ability to just get a lighter scifi vibe#bc as much as i love hard serious scifi it does get exhausting sometimes#i just think i need to go back to my w359 relisten#ignoring that i think i left off somewhere at the point they did start getting big serious haha#or mourn inside job again#HONESTLY THOUGH i think i have been lucky that a lot of my favorite scifi has had typically mindful people behind it#or it took place in a time where it made sense and still kept itself at bay (thank u amanda tapping for self advocating <3)#so im sure honestly there is older serious scifi that still does the 'women amirite' bs esp Big Military Propaganda For Men ones#but for something more recent i would still expect a lower level#of it ingrained in advanced human society
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can my parents stop falling into alt med pipelines n trying crazy supplements and diets
#difficult bc I have to argue this shit w them bc I know it’s not healthy#n like tell me why I’m the one discouraging my dad who does manual labor in 100+ degrees that no a watermelon cleanse is not a good idea#yes you should add more in your diet but you should really focus on fats and protein bc of the physical labor you do#no vegetables aren’t bad for you idk who told you that but I can assure you they have no credibility and they’re probably trying to sell#smthn#Having a peanut butter sandwich 3 times a week isn’t going to raise your estrogen like ???#N it’s so hard bc food and dieting discussions r hard for me period bc ed shit#screaming
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I love your tummy!
Aw thank you! I have to gently remind myself to love her too <3
#having an ED history it’s hard to love yourself in a bigger body#so gentle reminders like this are so sweet <3
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I may be laying on the floor staring into the void, merely vibrating as my brain rots about Veilguard, Rook, the companions, and Solas.
...this is the perfect excuse to replay my canon route.
Apologies in advance: I'm about to make my brainrot replay a problem for everyone and everything in my vicinity.
#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dav#those are the two tags i'll use for everything related to veilguard btw#in case anyone following me wants to avoid all spoilers#but literally i'm vibrating like you present me with all these companions and tell me they're all romanceable#and you expect me to be normal i'm sorry did you see harding's beautiful freckles?? davrin the charming warden???#you know i can't resist a charming grey warden y'all if there's a warden i'm probably gonna smash...... excluding blackwall he doesn't coun#if you don't drink the forbidden koolaid to become a grey warden then no thank you blackwall#and neve's voice in the gameplay reveal??? a necromancer with a skeleton assistant?? i'm sorry i can't#i don't know who will be compatible with my rook but right now i'm like how?? am i??? supposed to choose???#also i'm not a solasmancer so i don't have a foot in that race but he and my lavellan were bros#they were buddies and listen solas okay ash just wants to *talk* okay with words and possibly her foot#i'm excited but i'm trying to remain calm... cautiously optimistic if you will#but i'm replaying my canon route. i have to. i have no other choice now.#look forward to that sksksks#welcome back rose tabris. edgar hawke. ashalle lavellan.#oh boy can't wait to spend hours creating my rook and restarting the beginning several times until i create the character that FEELS right#i did that with each of the games sksksk i played the first hour of dai like 3-4 times before i settled on ash#i made a few hawkes before ed became my boy#and oh boy i played both the mage and dwarven noble origins and made it only a few hours in before I stopped... then the city elf origin#i played it and i knew i KNEW it would be the one#i'll need to find that with this game too oh boy
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the ending of episode five fucked me up because they're all healing, stede and ed are healing, realistically, in love, as both individuals and as partners. izzy is happy! fucking happy! he has friends, family, people who love him and care about him. people that stuck with ed and izzy through dark fucking times but are still willing to stick with them because that's what you do as a crew.
i don't think anyone's waiting for me
no one's waiting for me. no one. every single person i have ever cared about has left me. every. single. one. 100% probability that i will be abandoned. because when it comes down to it, i'm too much. doesn't matter what specifically did it this time, it all falls under "you're too much to deal with so i'm ditching you". i'm saying this as neutrally as possible btw. i'm forced to live for myself because there is no one else and that is both a little bit of a good thing and a giant pile of 'fucking shoot me already'.
this entire season i just stabbing me right into my most sensitive trauma memories over and over again, and i'm bleeding out on the roadside and about to be run over by a car.
#alex gets personal#ofmd2#just. venting so my heads empty before bed#'youre not too much' they say before leaving me because i've become too much#like bro i dont even know what im doing or whats wrong with me outside of the obvious#im just a horrible person no one wants to be around apparently and i mean that 100% seriously#i carry so much pain with me and whenever it spills out during a panic attack or while crying or both#it's like trying to empty an ocean through a straw#sure you'll get a few drops#maybe even half a cup#but you still have a fucking ocean left and you know that no matter how hard you try#time is against you and you will die before you empty that bitch#ed saying i dont think anyones waiting for me is stuck in my head and i cannot get it out#i was just looping it in my mind while sobbing so hard i almost passed out </3 casual thursday night experiences
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Started another playthrough of new vegas recently(^_^)so here’s my courier and an arcade
#fallout new vegas#courier 6#<his name is keres or ker :3#arcade gannon#actually using dynamite regularly in this playthrough and it is so much fun idk why I haven’t used it sooner#trying really hard not to fall back onto the perceptive stealthy charisma build I always do but what can I say#I like lockpicking and hacking and having low trade prices#I guess perception isn’t so important when I actually have ED-E with me for enemies#Uni is still kicking my ass LOLL#so I just have doodles once. again#ink drips#doodles 📝#my ocs
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tw ed in the tags !!
#im feeling sooo awful abt my body today its crazy#i dont wanna relapse but also i have prom and grad coming up so its very very tempting#silly side note but ive been friends w some moots on edtwt longer than I've known some of my irls and that's crazy to me#anyway i was looking at tweets of me being so majorly uber excited abt final hitting 45 kg T-T like man omfg#feb 23 me was the skinniest id ever been and i was thriving !!#and i highkey wanna be that again#was my hair thinning and did my face look so gaunt it scared me at times? yes#did i also feel my prettiest + have the most external validation from strangers etc ever? also yes !!#i feel fat and ugly rn but I'm also just very averagely weighted#but i have a naturally broader built but i feel like i look bigger even if I'm not ?? 9ufdkjhjs#anyway its scary looking through old tweets bc I'm talking abt skipping lunch like everyday and stuff like that's scary !! don't do that#but also it makes me wanna do it again like if i could look like that again... id genuinely kill myself for it#i was kinda also p healthy back then LOL only ate god food#cardio every evening + muscle training every morning#anyway teehee thats all i very much dislike my body rn and i hope i can lose a bit so i don't feel like dying <3#i have hope bc im only 5kg off what i used to be so !! shouldn't be too hard yaaya if i can just get back in the 40s ill be happy like a 47#i got this !! hopefully will not destroy myself in the process yay#tw ed
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Hullo i would like to let you know your Fma art makes me want to chew through drywall /pos
AJSDHFLKS thank you so much!! o7 these blokes make me crush things with my mind
#yall come up with the funniest things to say. not being sarcastic at all its so good#i have some more wastelands au stuff stewing... like winry and scar designs... but i wanna work on them a little bit more#fun fact! i graduated with a chem degree and i got back into fma around the time i was entering some hard chem classes#so i would hype myself up by saying ed can understand this. ed can fuckin break this down in front of me and make me look dumb#i HAVE to understand this#and i prevailed#i have two very funny images a friend made for me with the love is love ed saying that i've got this#it was on my wall <3
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like it’s VERY very important to not text and drive. and i understand how dangerous it is to do that and to be distracted at all in any way for any amount of time on the road. i know it’s important to learn about these stories and bear witness to them. but i just think. like idk. watching multiple of them every day for 10 days (with a two day break halfway through for the weekend) is realy… like idk. i think after seeing a couple you can get the point. i don’t want to sound dismissive or lackadaisacal and im scared im sounding like that but i just am so freaked out by all of this and witb every new horror they’re showing us it’s scaring me worse.
#purrs#delete later#car accidents tw#death tw#child death tw#ask to tag#drivers ed tag#like this sucks so bad. we go from watching a video about how to drive in the city… to a 10 minute vid of a man talking abt how he hit and#killed 3 kids and it shows a PICTURE OF THE SCENE OF THE ACCIDENT WITH BLOOD AND EVERYTHING… and then after the video we immediately start#talking about like. fucking street cleaners and how you have to watch out for them. HOW is the video about the kids being hit and killed#part of the flow of the learning. what purpose does it serve. and it’s like these are REAL PEOPLE who died. real kids who existed. and it#just feels kind of fucked up. maybe it’s more fucked up thst im not following the flow and accepting the weight of it but it’s hard to when#im scared as fuck and just want to not be shown gore videos anymore. and then once we pick up the content again like abt street cleaners and#shit i can’t focus on any content bc i have to wind down from seeing the dead bodies and hearing the letter the parents wrote. like how is t#this helping. maybe it’s landing / more necessary for the 16 year olds but im 24. i am a whole adult. i do not take being alive for granted#i am terrified of death and dying and painfully aware of how fragile human beings are and how easy it is to be in danger. this is not#helping me or sending me a message it’s just making me so scared and terrified to even leave the house and unable to stop thinking about#death or injury lol!!! and i can’t tell them to stop and i can’t quit bc i need my fucking license so i have to just put my head down and#do this but it sucks indescribably. and we also saw one of those trick videos again too that makes you feel stupid bc it tells you to count#the number of lkke. things you see and it turns out i missed a few AND they were like did you notice what was going on in the background snd#i didn’t bc i was too busy counting the fucking things they told us to. i want to SCREAM. this makes me feel so stupid and helpless lolllll#<- as i was typing that we were learning about the chance of survival if you are hit by a car at different speeds! bc that’s relevant 😍😍😍😍😍😍#anyways. my therapist was telling me stuff abt how i need to remember this isn’t targeted for me and i need to regulate my nervous system an#and how to calm down when it triggers me but i forgot everything she said literally 5 hours ago and now im here freaking the fuck out so. 🥰
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you have been ASKED!!!!!! use this chance to go off about something fun that you want to rant about. it can be one sentence or be an essay. do whatever! live life!
hello. today i ask all of you gathered here to think about mushishi. this is a mushishi propaganda post. i was going to rant abt how a lot of people discredit anime as a whole bc they mostly only know of shonen and maybe shoujo, and more people need to give seinen anime a chance. but now it is specifically about mushishi.
fun fact about mushishi btw, i read once in an interview that the mangka created ginko, the main character, when she was in a dark and low place in life, and made him to be kind of the ideal friend that she thought would bring her out of this! and thats so cool. hes literally the friend ever!
anyway mushishi is a largely episodic (imo you can watch it largely out of order and be fine. a few characters show back up, and occasionally other events are referenced, but after watching in order a few times i now usually just pick and watch my favorites. you can do whatever you want!) about a man named ginko who lives in a world with creatures called "mushi" (literally means bug if you dont know!) which are invisible to the average human eye, and are kind of like spirits but if they were critters. they are often just living their lives, but sometimes they cause detrimental effects to humans, and ginko travels to help people with these problems, often simply by giving people assistance, rather than like. Fighting The Thing. imo it can be interpreted a lot of ways, but many times it speaks strongly to me as a person with chronic illness - sometimes there isnt one single simple kill it with hammers solution. sometimes you just do your best to mitigate the symptoms. it is a very down to earth and thoughtful experience overall, with some incredibly gorgeous visuals and sound design.
its my person opinion that there is at least one mushishi episode that will speak to any given person in a deep way. even if it isnt Life Changing for you, i still think its a very meaningful show with a lot of interesting things to say. it can be darker at times, but largely retains its hopefulness toward the world, and i think it can like. still help you feel better and more alright with things. but also it WAS life changing for me, and if you like more slower paced stories that dont involve perfect solutions or fighting your problems with fists, but rather learning to live with the world and talking things out, you might like it! give it a try :)
#i did not mean to hold onto this for so long but i couldnt think of anything. lays on the floor#the fey answers#ha-youwish#also sorry if the wording is janky i just stream of consciosness ed this and i dont feel like editing it.#mushishi propaganda be upon ye.#i wont get mad at people who dont like it. but out of everyone i know that has liked it enough#to finish the whole show#they pretty much all say mushishi is one of their all time faves. its just so pleasant#its kind of hard to describe. to me it Feels Like Coming Home#also my episodes are episode 1 green seat episode 3 tender horns and episode 6 those who inhale the dew#episode 6 terrified me to death when i first watched it like pit of naseua in my stomach Upset#i know other people who have watched it and didnt feel the same way. its all about what Speaks To You#episode 1 never fails to make me cry in a very cathartic way#and episode 3 has a trick in it for calming down that i still to this day use when i have a panic attack#anyways#thank you for being The Asker :)
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i was familiar with aristotle's theory that women were physically incomplete/deformed men but i wasn't prepared for his rationale to literally be "the Soul is stored in the balls"
#excerpt from 'aristotle: generation of animals' (trans. a. l. peck) as quoted in 'woman defamed and woman defended' (ed. alcuin blamires)#i'm reading this as cultural background for my gender in medieval lit class and hooooooly shit these men hate women so bad!!!!! so crazy ba#anyway i am trying so hard to have a normal one and finish my stupid discussion post so i can have a little bedtime beverage and then i'm#faced with aristotle saying women are too cold to properly concoct semen from their blood like men so they make menstrual blood instead#happy semen soul saturday i guess <3#a post#aristotle#<- why not
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Deeply ingrained homestuck knowledge just came in clutch for this biology final
#So focused on the paper that I didnt study as hard#for the final#weeps#Its fine I could get a C or D and still be fine because weve been breezing through with flying colors#I just wasnt expecting a written test this time. I was under the assumption is was multiple choice.#Mitotic process is also like. ingrained in our brain for some reason#Professor went “pick 3 topics with these subtopics and describe the processes :)”#amazing I was made for infodumping so#shaky sigh#Its fine we just finished but. its not Perfect#whispere to self it doesnt have to be perfect it has to be done it doesnt have to be perfect it has to be done#jon: taking over now yoink :) thanks ed#😭👍 ty
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all meals are adult meals because i am an adult.
i'm making myself a real adult dinner of chicken potstickers, broccoli, and tater tots....
#myevilposts#food tw#i tend to only eat like 2 things at a time so having a 3 thing dinner is an event.#my tummy is all shrunk now so i have a hard time eating a lot.#ed tw#< i'm in recovery 🥰 but it is an after effect of the ed.
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i actually want to eat but i’m so anxious so i’m just staring at my food bc i can’t figure out anything i want to eat so i have chicken and a roll and there’s sliced watermelon in the fridge. (taking recovery bc i’m trying to recover but eating like this doesn’t mean you will gain weight or don’t have an ed i promise)
#tw ed#recovery#chatters#ughhhh#why is this so hard#my dietitian said i’d have to up it slowly but#she wanted me to do three meals a day and 1-2 snacks#rn i’m struggling with 3 meals a day#and she said eventually up to 3 snacks#bc i burn 2k like everyday so it’ll be hard to gain 😭😭
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BABY FACE BABY FACE!!!!!!!! KSDJDHG LFFKL WHY IS HE SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE
embarrassingly long ramble and wintersberg drawing below the cut:
lmao, I finished the GG playthrough of re8 the other day and uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
anyway yeah. Don't even know what to write about it cuz it sorta overtook me with no warning, and idk shit about resident evil but here we are.
I read mushrooms and magnets on ao3, i did the frowned upon thing and went straight to most kodo-ed (i KNOW it's wrong but i didn't feel like searching!! I just wanted to Read. If I stick around any longer I WILL read other things too), and I feel like that's probably a rite of passage in the ethan/heisenberg wing of this fandom. Blasted through it in like 3 days. Anyway, like, 3 quarters through it I realized I never took it upon myself to see what ethan looks like? I just assumed he had Typical White Guy Face, which yeah, he does, but after an image search.... I never realized he had such a baby face skjdgf sksjfh PRETTY BOY PRETTY BOY
So then I drew him. And I drew heisenberg too, although I need more practice with him. Plus I think I got gassed out for the night, after drawing ethan. it's really hot and it can be hard to remember how to draw for fun after doing so many commissions.
One of my go to drawing visions is one character in profile, and the other character all up in their face in a pseudo profile, 3/4, tilted angle. And idk why I keep doing that, because I fuck it up at least half the time. Ethan looks good here, heisenberg does Not. I need better references of him. Seriously, if someone has a karl heisenberg folder on their phone with a crap ton of pictures of his face from different angles, PLEASE send me some. I need a clear one of him in profile. All the ones on google have his face obscured by his hat, glasses, both, and he's always in dark lighting. Ironic that the one who's face you never see has better reference pictures.
Kinda considering doing a GG animated for the moment where ethan's like "I just want to fix my daughter!" and arin (as heisenberg) says "uh, she's in four pieces," because it cracked me up so damn hard. His voice is so dumb. I love him.
This came outta nowhere but hahaha oh well, my interests change on the wings of the wind (wings of the wind = what the grumps are uploading)
#WHY am i typing so much aaahhhh someone make me stop#feeling manic this tuesday#someone help dsjgfkhjgjfdkj#I just wanna get over my fear of posting things that look bad#so take this#re8#ethan winters#karl heisenberg#lord heisenberg#ethan x heisenberg#wintersberg#resident evil#resident evil fanart#resident evil village#sketchbook
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